Saturday, March 1, 2025
Whoa! I got Golf plus for free. Plus some other smokin apps for free on my meta plus subscription. Golf plus. I'm getting St Andrews Links. I somehow knew it. Felt it. Hold on. Don't get Golf plus because it could be available on quest plus. It is. That's a $40 savings without my 30% discount. $35 but with discount, $24.50 before tax. Savings.
This is like a gold mine dropped into my lap. Life is good again.
Golf plus. Test run. Really good. 15 stroke handicap? I wasn't wrong. I love it. I'm on a golf course called Sawgrass.
I tried St Andrews Links. Awesome. I was there in VR. I recognized the buildings from Sony PSP.
To no one's surprise, my final score for the round was well over par which is not good.
VR is a great life. Go to the gun range. Go fishing. Go bowling. Play golf.
Golf VR apps could have an afterlife setting where every shot is an effortless hole in one. Under the physics of the afterlife, a person can play hacky sack effortlessly. I've done it in a dream. In this dimension, I'm not good at hacky sack at all.
The physics of this dimension are weaponized against us. We can't teleport and thus can be stuck somewhere. We can't teleport so between going from point a to point b, a person can run into all kinds of unwanted things.
We can't read minds so there is misunderstanding to the point where we think that everyone and their dog is a narcissist.
We are wired to the R complex and can feel pain.
Wind, gravity, friction all compromise a golf game.
I wrote the above more or less and more in a review for Golf VR because they give a free level, Wolf Creek for leaving a five star review.
I'm not writing the following in the review because things are crazy enough as it is.
So this is an exclusive.
In the afterlife, Golf can have any setting. The effortless hole in one PMH Atwater master vibration default setting of the afterlife or Earth physics settings.
Golf in the afterlife would be on another level.
Star Trek had chess not just on one level but on three levels. Golf in the afterlife would be like that.
Think of a room with walls and a ceiling. In the afterlife, one can play golf on the walls and on the ceiling of that golf course.
Forget about just green grass golf course. The golf course would be in colors never seen before on Earth.
The Earth has three primary colors, three secondary colors, a few tertiary colors and shades, tints and hues. The afterlife has at least 100 primary colors never seen on Earth by human eyes because apparently the mantis shrimp can see about 12 primary colors!
I wonder if in the future technology can convert those colors to be accessible to human eyes. I don't see how.
Life is overwhelming.
Angry Birds VR. Difficult. More difficult than appears. I know of the concept of structural engineering yet am unable to complete the third level is when it starts getting challenging. Only 3 birds. 3 chances to knock down the entire set up. It depends on jotting the right structure on the right spot. Good luck guessing that. Very fun. Mindless.
Today I cleared weeds off of a street. And then some weeds off of a place that I thought I could have swelorn was a Tilden car rental place there but when I looked again, it was an absolutely empty parking lot of an ordinary multi business building none of the businesses being Tilden car rental. I must have hallucinated it. Because for years, I thought that was there.
Then I earned some weeds off of another street and then the planter areas of London Drugs.
At London Drugs was one 3.5 cm to 3.5 cm wire for my headphones to mp3 player for $17. Another one for $25 was a lot better. Braided steel wiring sheath. Top of the line.
Cleaning the weeds makes the neighborhood look less seedy. It is an experiment to see what kind of good karma I get for that.
I still feel fear about an upcoming interview ahead. And counseling. God speaks. Tonight I had this fear and I saw clicked on a video in recommendations. Pastor Michael Prince. "So what if your worries are about going to counseling?" Synchronicity or what? His reply is that God and Jesus is with you.
A person who had an NDE said that he doesn't believe in religion because all religions point to the same God anyways. He said he saw God during his NDE and to him God is as real as the item you are holding in your hand. It isn't just faith. It's absolute knowing from direct experience. Churches are the most real thing. God, angels, spirits, that's all real.
Go shopping long enough and you'll find something. So don't go shopping or else not for too long. I passed up Labyrinth. I won't get it.
Honest review. Labyrinth stars a famously and notoriously bisexual singer who died a few years ago, then a teenager whose under 18, Jennifer Connolly, and a baby. Nowbody in any of those demographics is someone I'd want to look at for a long time.
I also passed ip Tenet. The story is too convoluted. Too confusing. Comments said Inception is the 100x better movie.
Tenet. A person writes a letter to a person in the future. The person in the future replies in a future present moment to a letter written in the past. At some point that at one time future reply will be part of the letter writers past. That's called inversion.
A scientist called Sator invents a 9 piece algorithm that cracks time travel but has hidden it in different points in time even to a time before he invented it. Bootstrap paradox or what?
There is a blue team and a red team. One of the teams red team goes along the traditional linear arrow of time. The red team uses the inversion theory where what they are witnessing hasn't happened yet.
That's most likely not even right which tells you what a train wreck of confusion the movie is.
I wrote about my views of time travel innumerable times. I won't repeat it here again.
I am strongly thinking of getting a movie called The Favorite.
If anything this is just as good if not better than Poor Things in terms of visual lavishness. The Favorite is like Barry Lyndon on acid. The movie Barry Lyndon itself is like an ordinary history movie on acid.
I see a trailer and often the words pop up, not my kind of movie, not spectacular, not feeling it.
The words I was thinking seeing the trailer was holy smokes, over the top spectacular, completely feeling it.
The Favorite, $20 plus tax.
Kinds of Kindness is another Jorgos Lanthimos and that movie is $25. Really? It's not nearly as Spectacular as The Favorite.
There's another Jorgos Lanthimos movie I nearly scooped up for $7. NIMIC starring Matt Dillon. One person meets another on the subway and the meeting is life changing.
The thing is, NIMIC is only 11 and a half minutes long. For $7?! That would cut into the money for The Favorite.
Sunday, March 2, 2025
On the morning I wrote about Mario Puzo Fools Die, I was looking out of one of the windows of my apartment building that looked on to the front window of a bookstore which of course has a somewhat reflective quality. I saw the legs of a man wearing shorts. He was running fast, the reflection streaked past the window and was gone in less than a second.
"For the dead travel fast." Bram Stoker
"Do you travel fast?" asked Scrooge.
"Upon the wings of the wind." replied the spirit. Charles Dickens
"Run Luke, run!" George Lucas
A ghost in the afterlife would now be wearing shorts and running fast, including one that was otherwise tethered to weight problems and alcoholism and sluggishness while they were on Earth.
A ghost would want a person to run fast. To live their life well with honor, courage and the complete certainty that the spirits are with them.
Not getting Tenet. Too confusing. Some scenes look spectacular though. What the heck. Watch the movie on a free movie website.
The Favorite. I can't stop thinking of that movie. I was shopping for over an hour saying nah to this movie and that movie.
Kinds of Kindness is an awful movie. The synopsis shows the movie to be a toxic train wreck that is highly disturbing.
It is a triptych of stories. Usually it's a triptych of paintings or nice drawings.
1. A man named Robert, has some weird LGBT boss and lover. The boss commands Robert to kill a man named RMF which he does. Robert is otherwise married.
2. A Police Officer is married to a lady named Liz. She gets into an accident and comes back but is different. The Police Officer is so upset about this that he makes errors on the job and is kicked off the force. He then asks his wife to cut up parts of her body to serve to him to eat which she does eventually ending with her liver and her death.
3. A cult. A couple join the cult which includes bizarre rituals. The couple are looking for a set of twins revealed in a dream that have the power to bring someone back from the dead. Only thing is one of the twins has to be already dead. The couple meet a lady in a cafe who is one half of a set of twins one of who has the power to resurrect people from the dead. Weird movie. One of the twins deliberately drowns herself in a swimming pool and the other twin is able to bring RMF back from the dead. Some time afterwards, the resurrected RMF eats a sandwich at a restaurant.
Film set is prosaic and forgettable and advances an absurd intensely bizarre disturbing art house story made to showcase the cons rather than the pros of the human species.
KOK is about toxic codependency and the lengths that people will go to in maintaining a friendship from killing a person to carving out one's own liver like Prometheus or drowning oneself in a swimming pool. This movie can be seen as a metaphor for hardcore chronic caregiver burnout.
The Favorite is about a maid who works for a Queen, actual Royalty. A new servant applies for the job and the servant who is already there becomes her mentor.
The film set is lavish. Feverish almost psychedelic fantasy scenes. Richly and opulent Ly historical.
I'm getting this movie! $19.
This isn't a spur of the moment purchase. I've mulled it over for quite awhile.
I fear the future and what's to come.
A psychic said, "You're depressed now but wait until you see what's coming around the corner."
Fears aren't a crystal ball. Fears almost never accurately tell the future. It's an extraneous vain attempt to always keep oneself safe and defended. The fear.
Mel Robbins said," 6 magic words. What if it all works out?"
God provides signs. Two days ago, feeling the fear as much as ever, I saw a Pastor Joel Osteen video where he said something like, "Problems are like pulling up weeds but don't worry because God is your gardener." Holy smokes! I pull weeds all the time to clean the neighborhood as a random act of kindness. Why not? Weeds. The pernicious rhubarb.
9:15 am. I purchased The Favorite. A couple of days ago, I didn't know tis movie existed. Now I have it which shows the future can have a lot of really good surprises better than expected. You ain't seen nothing yet.
Zelensky went to England and was welcomed with open arms. Let's face it, either the Americans, the Russians, or the EU would get access to Ukraine's precious minerals. It looks like Zelensky decided to go with the EU.
PM Trudeau said today in London that Canada will be there. That means Canada gets access to a share of the precious minerals that the Americans do not thanks to the Trump Zelensky spat. This will offset the shortfall that the 25% tariffs would create.
Often, life is actually more good than expected.
I've had times when I doubted a person so much that I thought I'd be better off moving to another town and then one day for whatever reason I got together with that person again and the meeting was so nice that I felt shame for thinking I wanted to move to another town. I'm thinking, good thing I didn't move to another town.
Before I went on probation, not knowing what to expect, I thought I would literally be better off dead than go on probation. The probation officers are a swell bunch of people. Very professional and their professionalism inspires me to be a better person to do things with quality. I also felt ashamed thinking I was better off dead than to be on probation.
It can happen with women. Oh no, here's another rabbit hole of bossy bitchiness. Things have to be done on her terms. She calls the shots. And she has nothing in common with me. She can't skateboard or do gymnastics. To be ordered around from something like that?! But then the relationship might turn out to be better than expected, better than anything I could have imagined. Life always has that possibility.
I feel the same way about the weeks to come. The questioning session from a probation officer. That reminds me of the Spanish Inquisition.
And then counseling as part of completion of my CSO conditional sentence order.
And then counseling.
Arguably, I'm better off dead than to go through any of that.
In the Squid Game season 2, the Police Chief said to the Officer, "Counseling is not that bad. The counselor is a nice guy. Come on, there's no island where they hold games where people get killed during the games."
In the most recent episode of Elsbeth, the Police Chief said to Officer Rivers that he had to go to counseling. But he didn't say it like it was a scary thing. And Officer Rivers didn't react as if it was a totally scary thing.
Slippery slope. I was thinking of getting the Austin Texas locsted pitch and putt for $5.79 before taxes. It's an all ages pitch and putt that is famous in the US but I've never heard of it before yesterday. Old people go there. I'm almost 55. Is that old? It's the cheapest one, it's famous and one doesn't have to be good at golf.
I tried pitch and putt on other VR golf apps. The physics are not as good as they are on Golf plus VR.
Then if I were to get one other one, I'd get the Hawaii one. Remember the opening scene in Apocalypse Now? Lots of palm trees. The Hawaii golf course is like that. That's a $12 or a $16 splurge. I don't remember.
I am already fishing at three places in Hawaii in Real VR Fishing. Hawaii is not a place I ever thought that I would go to for any reason. Any set of islands in the middle of the Pacific seems like an irrelevant geographic footnote. A large Continental mainland is more rock star.
I had a dream where Bruce Lee rode a blue colored new style Kawasaki Ninja motorcycle on a main street near the beach in Hawaii.
Hawaii seems like a really nice place. Tropical. Very beautiful.
If I'm going to do all that, I'm going to get the $14 monthly pass which is on sale. That gives unlimited access to a whopping 37 golf courses. I like golf. I'm better at it than I expected. One a 9 hole course at St Andrews, I got par at least twice. Golf is like driving a car, it doesn't take much to be kind of good at it which is good enough to pass. I imagine the vast majority of people would be good at golf especially with practice, you get better. It's strangely therapeutic.
A month ago, I could have never envisioned that I would be playing golf at St Andrews Links. More than I ever did on the Sony PSP with Tiger Woods PGA Golf Tour 2007.
Playing at St Andrews Links is otherwise a millionaire experience. Millionaire. West End.
Shaughnessy Heights. I felt like I was a rich man when I was playing golf at St Andrews Links in VR.
Yale golf course is in New Haven, Connecticut. When I first saw that I thought it has the same name as a major University. But that University is in Boston just like Harvard. Wrong. Yale University is in New Haven Connecticut and that is the Yale University golf course. That golf course is more major than the UBC golf course.
Wrong again. Harvard is in Cambridge Massachusetts, not Boston Massachusetts.
Life can bring some mind blowing surprises. Good karma is subtle. For me to be able to play VR golf, a thousand things in my life had to have gone right.
Reflecting on it and seeing that it meets a lot of criteria, I'll get the 36 course deal.
I wouldn't mind playing at different golf courses here and there. Not the local golf courses which are more than fine and elegant enough. I'm talking internationally renowned golf courses.
Golf plus subscription plan.
Monthly pass. $14 plus tax.
Annual pass $109 plus tax but currently there is a deal, $68 plus tax. I'm going for at least one monthly pass. I will cancel one day when the game gets outdated and there are newer and better ones. So these technology based subscriptions wouldn't be for life anyways.
11:30 am, approximately. I got a monthly pass.
I discovered Laksa. Months ago, I saw a video that a great restaurant in Chinatown in Vancouver has Laksa. The dish is from Singapore and its basically a medley of ingredients and a wheat baked white noodles with soup that is count curry based. The varieties of whatever ingredients you want to add and whatever noodles are optional. Each region or even each restaurant has their own variation so any recipe in the world has a thousand variations. The basic common denominators, the minimal essential ingedware the coconut curry based soup and noodles, any kind of noodles even spaghetti. It will work.
Yesterday I bought a small packet of Laksa noodles for $6 at London Drugs. Tried it. Holy smokes. Rockstar.
Today, now, I have a can of red curry soup, Thailand style and I have some spaghetti and some ground beef and onions. Fry the beef and onions, add the soup mixed with water to thin it down to make it go farther. Then add some already cooked spaghetti or whatever noodles. Wonton soup style noodles would also work.
Best ingredients would include bok Choy, prawns and fish ball. And chopped scallions.
Having a criminal record changes how I see myself. When I was playing Bowling VR I involuntarily envisioned myself as the Robert de Niro character from Cape Fear.
In the story, criminal Max Cady goes after the lawyer Sam Bowden who Cady thought gave him an inadequate defense and got him sent away. Happens all the time.
There are levels of criminals. I'm not on the Max Cady level. I don't think so.
I made a mistake, got busted, went to Court. I don't want to make that mistake ever again and want my life to always be on the right side of the Law. Whatever I did, that is my intention going forward. To respect and to obey the Law.
Bowling VR has one DLC. $4.50. I'm watching my money. But at that price. It is an outdoor bowling alley in a desert in the Southwestern United States. All other lanes are indoor. I'd support this developer with the DLC. I'm indifferent to the theme. I don't spend a lot of time thinking about deserts in the SW United States. It looks nice enough. Why not? You couldn't even get a sandwich at the museum deli for $4.50.
I got the bowling DLC. Fun times. For life.
3:30 pm I got Dr Strange Multiverse of Madness. Wong. Parallel universes. Why not? $10 plus tax.
The special effects would look spectacular on the YouTube VR app big screen which uses a $100,000 video code player.
Other movie, ten dollar movie which I can't afford to get is Black Widow. Dr Strange 2022. Black Widow 2020.
Dr Strange director Sam Raimi. Same as the Andrew Garfield Spiderman movies.
Black Widow director Cate Shortland.
Ergo Black Widow is a chick flick. And the word widow in the title only rubs salt in the wound of my predicament as I lost my sweetness last year. It still hurts.
Dr Strange delves into the quasi pseudo pop science of parallel dimensions and there are parallel dimensions although not as the Dr Strange movies portray because another dimension is actually far more mind-blowing and beyond the depth of even the collective imagination of the technicians that work at the MCU. Marvel Cinematic Universe. I'm expecting over the top special effects.
Leaning on my remote control earlier as it was on the bed, I accidentally turned the channel to E! channel.
Oscar preview. Then A Star is Born is on. Bradley Cooper and then Lady Gaga. Coincidental since I spoke out loud during the Oscar Preview there was a lady whom I thought was Lady Gaga and said so. She wasn't.
Then there she is! She sing LaVie en Roseand lying down on the bar after prowling the room, she looks right at Bradley Cooper. Most guys would think that is a good thing. A lady is interested.
I think it's a bad thing. A stalker who found her mark.
A woman's beauty is a trap. If she was just the usual rabbit hole of bossy bitchiness without the beauty she wouldn't be a trap. It's the beauty that makes her a trap.
At my age, nearly 55 there is less reasons to have a girlfriend. Any woman my age would be past it. If I were to have a child born on this day, I'd be about 73 when the child is 18 and graduates from high school. Wrong. The optics of that would be just terrible. Terrible. To quote The Beatles Norwegian Wood, 'This bird has flown.' That ship has sailed.
My parents don't look like me as much as they do look like me. I wonder if they're actually my parents. Just joking. They are. Probably.
I see things which I interpret as something that remind me of people and often these people are narcissistic @ssholes. But looking more closely, there are as much things that don't remind me of that person as things that do. So do I focus on the things that do or the things that don't. If you focus on the things that don't, then that person disappears entirely.
Someone looks like a person, same name even same hairstyle. Sure. But different height. Different occupations. Lives in different towns.
Someone drives a car. You see a car, same make, same model, same color, and you ask why the 400 million years of dinosaurs prone forces of life would send that ghastly wretched icon of insufferability my way. But then look more closely. The person driving the car looks completely different. The car has a slightly different shade of color.
Other different things.
Glass half full or half empty?
I'm still scared of the week ahead. I hope I survive it.
Chinese characters are semasiographic which means that in and of themselves, they are silent giving no clue as to how it sounds unlike the letters in an alphabet.
I learned that word from the movie Arrival.
Chinese characters are semasiographic. So what? So are dollar signs.
A watching the movie Aporia. Aporia books, Tanao Road and Khao San Road in Thailand. No.
Aporia just happens to be the best time travel movie I've even seen and I've only seen a third of it.
A lady is married to a guy who is a genius physicist. He dies in a car accident.
That guy was one of two co-inventors who invented a time machine that goes back in time and fires deadly electromagnetic pulses in people's brains thus killing them.
The other inventor was at one time living with his family somewhere in the middle East. A man turns his family in as spies. They are sent away and disappeared. He narrowly escapes. He wants to use the machine to go back in time to somewhere in the Middle East.
Meanwhile the lady reunited with her previously dead boyfriend. She meets him again at a park.
That's the part where I stopped the movie. A cup of tea. A cigarette. An intermission. One of many.
I experienced time dilation watching this movie. I thought I was an hour into it. Turns out I was only half an hour into it.
Riveting or what? And available for free on Tubi.
Is anybof this legal? Something is only illegal if there is Legislation and Laws around it. Use a time machine to go and passively explore, probably legal. Go back in time to do people in. That part would be illegal.
Spoiler alert. There's no such thing as a time machine in real life.
Monday, March 3, 2025
More sweeping of the Courthouse grounds. Swept some areas around that neighborhood.
I went to an area that I was going to clear the moss off the ground of and that area had already been taken care of! What a relief.
Got Mission Impossible Dead Reckoning. Haven't seen it and 2023 movie. Sharp modern production values. $10. On sale. So it's like Tuesday movie night. Almost.
A 2023 Mission Impossible movie would be worth seeing in big screen.
All movies are free on other movie sites anyways.
I have to get my movie addiction to a manageable level. How about just two movies a month. On cheque day. Otherwise do not look at YouTube Hot Deals of the Week. Too tempting...
Anthony Hopkins said don't feel bad about spending money. So you spent $10 on a movie to be viewed on the platinum YouTube VR app screen. So what? Movies are curated most carefully aiming for bang per buck. Movies are the greatest form of art.
This autumn there will be lots of leaves etc around the Courthouse grounds. I'll be there. To sweep the grounds of the Courthouse during the autumn season. I might need to get a small shovel. There's that much leaves and these small cedar tree things that have yellow pollen powder within. Those things are voluminous. And pine needles fall all year round. They turn brown and then fall down off the tree. I sweep those.
Tuesday, March 4, 2025
Tariffs.
While the US loses access to 35 million consumers, Canada loses access to 350 million consumers. Canada is doomed.
Or not. Like Pastor Joel Osteen said, "God isn't sitting up there thinking, 'Whoa, I didn't see this coming!' God is still on the Throne."
God will work things out to where everyone wins.
"The Shell Game, We fix it, you win." Pagliaccis restaurant menu, Victoria BC
The scientific term for a win-win situation is net zero sum gain. This is from the movie Arrival.
I don't know if it's exactly like that as Canada supplies oil from Alberta to the Northern US.
Something like this is beyond my ability to guess how it would work out. It would take a University professor or some kind of expert.
God has the power to turn a lose lose situation into a win win situation.
Why the tariffs? Airhead money grab. Trump wants the money. He wants to keep up with the Joneses. He's not the richest Head of State in the World. No US President ever was. Other Heads of State including Royalty play under a different set of rules.
The US is a parvenu. 250 years old. New money.
Europe is old money. Around 1,000 years old give or take a couple of hundred years under its current banking network. Let's look at that. The word bank comes from the Italian word for bench, banca in Florence, Italy which the OG banks did their business on and in outdoor markets too. The earliest banking families were the Rothschilds and the Medici. Those outdoor market benches were around the 1200s when banks were needed to finance the Crusades.
Mark Carney of Canada was, still is, who knows, the chief financier of the Bank of Canada. MArk cArNEY = MAANEY = money.
Strange. Similar to Neil Armstrong. The first 7 letters of his name spelled backwards is Mr Alien.
The movie Enter the Dragon. In that movie you see how 52 years ago, Hong Kong was a backwater compared with Vancouver.
Now the shoe is on the other foot. Vancouver looks downright backwater compared with Hong Kong which I visited in VR. Hong Kong has rock star infrastructure while Vancouver has comparatively dilapidated derelict flyblown infrastructure.
Going there and being an English teacher would be a great life although learning the local alphabet enough to see the siu sum warning signs and stop signs and enter and exit signs would be somewhat of a learning curve.
The much feared interview turned out to be something that wasn't a worry at all so I worried tons for nothing. Basically.
The psychic from Haunted Tales said to not care so much about what other people think and just go for your dreams and experiences without needing to worry about what other people think.
Caught in that trap, I got Super 8 and West Side Story.
Super 8 - $10
West Side Story - $7
Eventually it all adds up.
There is no sign of me quitting my online shopping addiction.
I used to collect movies in the form of dvds and blu rays and throughout any month I did go to pawn stores again and again all through the month.
Until there is any evidence, I am unable to stop my online shopping addiction.
I hope that God helps me with this.
The people who made those movies would say, "Don't think that at all. You are an aficiando of the theatrical arts. You are definitely not a Philistines because you appreciate movies. Enjoy them. Steven Spielberg is a top echelon elite director. You can't go wrong with any Spielberg movies."
Comments section on Super 8
"Steven Spielberg directed Jurassic Park and Schindlers List at the same time. The man is a genius."
"Wrong. He directed Schindlers List 3 months after Jurassic Park."
"He spent months in pre pro shooting stills, scouting locations, one doesn't just start directing a film on day one."
As you can see my movie addiction is out of control.
Often God has the solution before we have the problem. Months ago, I got the idea to write about my adventures in online movie shopping land.
Writing about movies is a great thing to write about.
Now you are witnessing the exquisite dissolution of a man deep in the rabbit hole of online movie shopping addiction. I need help. I need credit counselling. A person doesn't have to be maxxed out and overcharged on their credit card to seek credit counselling. Actually it's better to seek the counselling before it gets to that point.
YouTube would have some of the best credit counselors in the World. Their videos would offer golden words of advice.
There is a science to shopping addiction.
Try going three days at a time without shopping and then keep renewing that period.
Shopping compulsion is about SAFE Self esteem, Accomplishment, Fear, Escapism.
There is no such thing as shopping addiction only compulsion as the two things are different. There is no such thing as sex addiction or gambling addiction, onky compulsion. Addiction is chemical. If one doesn't have it, they have phsycial symptoms of withdrawal. That's just splitting hairs.
I wiill overcome my shipping addiction. That's my aim.
I always write about the movies I get. If you don't see me writing about getting movies for awhile or in de fink, that means I am able to quit.
It's still not at the lost control point but it is at the very concerned phase. Please say a prayer for me that I can stop my shopping addiction.
I get depressed about $20 gone on YouTube platinum movies and then one day in the future I find myself staying at 5 star hotels for $1,000 a night. Yeah, dream on.
Penny wise, pound foolish.
I wrote to Pastor Joel and Pastor Joyce Meyer in the comments section asking for a prayer to help me with my online movie shopping addiction. Anything helps.
I am trying to stop my online shopping addiction.
West Side Story is possibly the gayest movie that Steven Spielberg has ever made.
Show tunes. Then a shot where looking up, you see a guy sliding down a fire escape towards the camera. Then shot of sweaty beefy guys in tanks tops with a kicked hair. Sure. Whatever. If that's what does it for you.
Whenever I see something offsetting like a male, gay or not if he looks like shirt off and crap like that and children. I generally avert my eyes to the corner of the screen until the scene is over. There is eye tracking. But why be staring at things like that?
That's why I didn't get the movie Labyrinth. The only people in the movie is a gay guy and two children. All the rest are muppets and puppets.
West Side Story has the Spielberg production values and movies often have a nostalgic lighting the dim orange lighting of historical period movies and the memory of that lighting used to follow me home from the movie theatre so when I got back to my apartment I still had memories of that dim nostalgic lighting from the movies. That lighting always made me feel at home, in fact it made me feel even more at home. Lots of movies have that lighting. There is a science to it. Movies are a product that people pay for and that lighting is an aspect of such quality in movies.
West Side Story has that lighting. The British Victorian nostalgic movies have that kind of intensely nostalgic lighting.
Why did Steven Spielberg make this movie? The LGBT demographic has a larger market than it did 40 years ago. And will do so for generations. Steven Spielberg would make money with this movie. Let's face it. This movie is for anyone. Gay, straight. There's nothing actually gay in the movie. It's just the show tunes and the 50s style dance choreography.
I f'ed up again and got Pet Sematary 2019 for $5. At that price.
$5 is an unmissable price.
I turned down Pet Sematary 1989 for $10. Not that spectacular although a great movie. The movie has dated 80s production values and doesn't have to be seen in IMAX platinum YouTube VR app screen. The screen is that good. Better than most movie theatres.
With the YouTube VR app it's like seeing movies that I've even already seen in theatres the way these movies were meant o be seen.
The 2019 iteration is slicker. And smarter.
A comment said the 1989 version is scarier.
In the 2019 version, there is a scene where the zombie girl drops a mask on the ground and walks towards her parents. Most people would miss the significance of that. When a person has an out of body experience, briefly actually dying and leaving their body, they try to recall their earthly situational problems but these problems once so clear suddenly seem so receded. Looking back at the bed they were, are, lying down in, it actually feels like their probl ms are left there on that bed like a pole of clothes left on the bed.
So I got it. Very slick very impressive visuals.
One thing. Every time I got the novel Pet Sematary to read and reread, someone significant in my life died. Is that causation or correlation? Would it otherwise have been if I never got the book then no one in my life would die? Wrong. People go whether a person gets a certain novel or not. Is Pet Sematary a bad luck thing? Don't be superstitious.
Despite the Trump tariffs having gone into effect today, I was still able to get Pet Sematary 2023 for $5.
Freud. The Palace of oral pleasures. Eating. Smoking. Talking. Drinking. The oral phase.
Movies on the YouTube VR app is about visual.
I have to stop getting movies and save my money for eating better rather than eating on a budget. If I spend my money on movies, then my bank account will be gone. Then I'll have no money for food and then starve to death. So I have to save up so I can at least eat better than I have been as of late. That's the deal. Stop the movie shopping addiction or die of starvation.
If I was rich like a multi Millionaire, I could afford to get movies online. But even then. How many movies are we talking about?
Getting movies on a platinum screen is perhaps one of the best st ways to dissolve a bank account. Better than gambling or always paying fines and penalties, or money on booze and crack cocaine. I could get a car because I'm not destroying my bank account enough through getting movies online. I need to destroy it even more. Yeah, right.
Movies are an intellectual purchase. Not a mindless purchase. Movies teach. I learn.
When one purchases an illicit drug, only the drug dealers and some gangsters approve of your purchase.
When one purchases a movie off YouTube, a team of actors and actresses, director, a team of movie specialists, artists and technicians are impressed and are honored with your purchase. They'd be more honored if you actually watched the movie and often.
When I drink coffee at night, I think of drinking coffee at a gas station restaurant at night. Not a gas station on the highway in the sticks. I'm talking about a gas station in the city. Suburbs would also be acceptable.
Or I envision being at a state of the art futuristic airport with lots of money to travel. 2 am waiting for my flight. At the airport restaurant drinking one cup of coffee after another. Maximum three cups.
Wednesday, March 5, 2025
I was still thinking of getting one more Mission Impossible. It's one I've seen quite a few times and is one of my favorites. Mission Impossible Fallout. I already have Rogue Nation which somehow I got for free because I don't remember purchasing it. And I have the newest, Dead Reckoning 1. Mission Impossible Dead Reckoning 2 is released this summer. It's on sale for $10 and that's doable.
Why don't I get it next time? Whenever. I don't really need to watch that in the next few days. There are so many movies. This movie, that movie, what's the difference?
A lot of free videos are just as good if not better than movies such as nature documentaries. Science documentary.
Sometimes a person messes up so much that they go to hell.
Even in hell, although it's not heaven, there is no longer the fear of physical death.
So even if the punishments in hell get steadily and perpetually increased, it would be like going from a place with 12 hour days and 12 hour nights to a place with 40 hour days and 40 hour nights and then 200 hour days and 200 hour nights. Etec. Forever. But even with that, one still doesn't have to worry about death.
In hell, one would be a spirit and under the same laws of physics so if a dog bites, there is that sharp pinch which is more psychological than physical and then a couple of seconds later, no pain at all whereas under the physics of this dimension, the initial bite hurts more the pain stays for days and days. But in hell those bites would keep on coming and never stop with ever increasing sharper teeth and bigger mouths with stronger jaws.
But still, there isn't that accompanying fear of death. This is edgy for sure but at least I don't have to worry about dying. Ever. Eventually one becomes acclimatized to that. Whatever happens I won't die.
One can have the same kind of acclimatization in this life. Whatever happens, the worst that can happen is that I die which is worse than what happens after in that even in the fiery pits of hell, I won't have to worry about dying anymore from that point there on in.
I got Squingle Mini for $1. It has a few easy levels. Good enough. I don't need the more difficult levels.
Last movie purchase of my addiction. I got Mission Impossible Fallout.
One of the best movies ever. Great movie. $10.
Otherwise earlier today, I swept a small part of Fort Street and removed weeds that otherwise make the neighborhood look seedy. The neighbourhood would only look worse if the weeds weren't removed because there would be more of the and they would have grown a lot larger.
I'm doing more work tomorrow.
I have a date later on this week. I don't know if I'll go. I don't have much in common with this lady. We're really two very different people. I'm into skateboarding and gymnastics and she is not. Why bother with her?
Followed to a furthest extreme, what. Move in together? Her stuff is mine, my stuff is hers? Uh no thanks. A lot of marriages are based on communal use of items. I don't know if I could stand that.
An ideal couple is two people moving towards a common goal. Is this happening?
How can there be a common goal if my goal is to be single. For life.
The best life is the single life.
6:07 pm. I got a hole in one on the Valhalla golf course 15th hole. Gol Plus VR.
Golf in Victoria BC in real life after playing in VR? Pricey.
Green fees. $77
Single rider Golf cart $35
Club rental $45
One can opt for a standard cart $25. A pull thing for golf clubs $12.
$77 for 18 holes.
$45 for 9 hole.
18 holes, around $200.
9 holes, around $130.
Pricey.
A lot of golf clubs ask for membership fees and proof of valid handicap which means you have to be somewhat good to play there. I'm not that good at gold. At all.
As you can see, pricey. And lots of walking or else going around in the golf cart.
Missing the ball is called a whiff. Golf Plus VR does not count whiffs. Whew.
On the Florida golf course, I saw an alligator in the water. An alligator counts as free relief which means one can replace the ball anywhere that is the nearest safe distance from the obstacle.
PS3 graphics at best. More like PS2. It would be great if this was like Brink VR and Real VR Fishing. Photo realistic golf course. Lots of memory. In Brink VR and RVF, the user stands in one stationary place. Not much memory required. When one is moving to any random given place over a vast golf course, this app would need a terabyte of memory to faithfully generate all of that. So at this point, photorealism is impossible.
VR is still in its infancy. The golf course looks rudimentary, not much people around. It looks so fake and plastic. But is still better than any other golf app including Mini Walkaround Golf or whatever it's called.
I can't afford to play golf for real life in Victoria. I found a golf club once and felt I didn't need it and threw it out. Sometimes people throw away golf clubs. I'd like to have a golf club for free, find an old used one on the streets. Wood would be best. Iron is nice as well. Putter, good. Putter is the best for playing in the apartment. A cup on its side would be the golf hole. I think I have a golf ball somewhere. I found one on the streets a few months ago.
A fishing license for Victoria BC is around $40. Average.
Tidal waters. Salt water.
Non tidal waters. Fresh water.
One can only catch 3 fish a year with the license. That includes Chinook salmon off Ogden Point. Just one salmon in one day can get you prime sashimi. First you have to scale the fish, take th scales off. Then clean it scooping out all the visceral. Wretched.
It's better to just go to a grocery store and get a salmon.
Pay for a good rod and reel. Floats. Lures. Hooks. Tackle box. Hassle.
Don't bother.
Fresh water is trout. Fried in butter and dill weed, trout is absolutely delicious.
I am happy now. My life although poor in reality, feels rich. I have a good collection of movies. I don't need any more. I won't go window shopping and be tempted.
I'm thinking of going to a thrift store to get two paisley ties and a putter. I'd like to get 6 things. One wood, one iron, one chipper, one putter, a golf bag and a golf ball. Perhaps more than one golf ball because sometimes they go into a body of water. Minimal I need a putter and a golf ball. And a plastic cup.
St Andrews Links in Scotland is over 600 years old when King James 2 started the golf course. Golf balls looked very different then. More like miniature baseballs.
There was a 50 year ban back in the 1500s when golf interfered with archery practice.
The golf course originally had 22 holes, with 11 holes on the outgoing and another 11 holes that steadily return to the original set of iconic buildings that I first saw on the Sony PSP PGA Golf Tours. The 4 shortest fairways, 2 on either side were eliminated resulting in the regulation 18 holes, front 9 and back 9.
VR golf is a thousand times better.
There is a road called Granny Clark's Wynd. From the 1860s, named after a person who lived there and was a caretaker.
There is the Swilken or Swilcan Bridge that spans the Swilcan Burn which is a small river that the bridge spans.
It feels strange being the only person at all at St Andrews Links. Not even during covid would you have seen only one person there. Golf is an outdoor non-superspreader sport.
This is the primitive incipient larval pioneer stage of VR. That's why I'm the only person on the golf course. Scary. That somewhat cancels out an otherwise Millionaire experience. More like Millionaire sardines. VR will look a lot more together in ten years. I need to see incidental traffic. Real VR Fishing does a real good job of that. In a lot of stages you see people in the distance moving. Somewhat robotic and repetitive but at least it's there.
St Andrews has these sand traps that are pure golfer's nightmare fuel. Not only sand traps. Sand traps which have these almost Kafkaesque brick walls surrounding them. I had an interesting time trying to get the golf ball out of these sand traps.
These sand traps have been added and removed over the centuries.
The buildings at St Andrews Links golf course reminds me of wealth. Rich neighborhoods with large nice houses.
Previously, I never thought I'd get to play golf at St Andrews Links on this level.
What are those boxes standing on four legs on the golf course? Golf ball washer? No pail or hose. It looks like a 19th century camera for taking black and white daguerrotypes aka photographs. I see slots on top of that box. Is it for keeping score cards?
Hitting the golf ball with the wood. I always shoot the ball too far to the right of my aim. A lot of people swing their arms. I keep my hands there with relatively little swing of the arms. Then my aim with the wood is great. A line drive right down the middle.
The wood is the very first club used for every hole although sometimes an iron is used for the first shot of a hole if the fairway is short.
Everyone who knows golf knows that the putting grip and stance is different from that used on the fairway. On the green a putter is used. The awful thing is a green located on a hill with steep inclines. Those are my favorite. No, they're not.
Golf is oddly hypnotic. It is very addictive and therapeutic. Playing golf is a skill set although not a rare one as its one that 98% of the population can pick up.
On Sunday, I tried the Jumeirah golf course in the Middle East. Exotic. I picture dried dates, caramel and donairs. The golf course is really beautiful although to be even more honest, it doesn't really look Middle Easterny. It looks more like a golf course you'd see in the West. The trick is to actually be there and then you see how similar it is to a Western golf course as you experience near 40 degrees Celsius temperatures in the summer. It's like being near an oven. Sweating is good for the body.
All golf courses on this app are beautiful.
An aside. I feel anxiety about installing a free golf app. At least it's free.
Someone on YouTube comments said, "I get a bigger dopamine hit saving money and having money in the bank than I do giving in to shopping addiction." paraphrased.
Just install it. Whatever.
I just tried a golf app called Golf 5. It would give Golf plus a run for its money. Arguably as good as if not better. Price $17 but with a 30% off coupon $5.10 It would be $11.90 plus tax. St Andrews is available for $17 but there is a $3.50 monthly pass which gives access to all courses. 6 of one is half a dozen of the other. This app is really good. Better graphics and the physics is better. Choice of clubs and where to set the ball with each stroke which is not according to regulation but whatever. There is an option to play through. But one has to be on the ball. Once the button is clicked one too many times, then the player has to set the ball.
I'm getting it. First of all, it's only just over $10. The St Andrews Links is the one I really want. It costs $17 to get right away. But playing the game, once you get about 1700 'coins' with each game paying about 50 coins. It will take awhile, but it's more fun grinding and earning things for free. The old pay now get now or earn the product over sometimes months.
11:10 pm. Got it. $13.43 with tax. That's not serious.
I'm usually quite stingy. But I played this for half an hour for free and thoroughly enjoyed it. The half hour seemed like it was five minutes. I had three minutes left on a free 30 minute try. Get it! Got it.
I'm trying to get 1700 'coins' grinding it out, no cheats, and get the St Andrews golf course.
Thursday, March 6, 2025
I wasn't going to tell you because you will think that I've relapsed. I got St Andrews on Golf 5 and it is great. Arguably better than Golf Plus. I left a 5 star review. They wrote that one would get coins for that but I didn't. Who cares.
St Andrews Links looks a lot better on Golf 5. Unlike with Golf Plus, you see the entire surrounding valley with the houses of the farming villages, mountains in the distance.It looks a tad distorted but photorealistic. VR is still in its early days. I really feel like I'm there even more than with Golf Plus which is not bad. Variety is nice.
To save money, I might cancel my $13.99 monthly subscription with Golf Plus. I get 5 free golf courses. Good enough.
I think I didn't get the coins because the developers saw my review on Golf Plus and think I'm weird. Who cares? Was there anything in particular I was going to use the coins for? Uh, no. Get the coins, don't get the coins. Who f**king cares?
Looking for a free book on At Andrews Golf course as was available on Amazon Prime books, I found it on Google Play books. I also found a book which I must recommend. I got it for $2.
St Andrews 17th Century Ghost Stories
I know a thing about ghosts. They operate in a different dimension under a different set of rules.
This book is so accurate.
- "Ghosts are not bound by time and space. They can go halfway around the world in a second but like people they prefer their favorite places."
- "I have to go soon. I am needed elsewhere."
- For a second I heard the singing of a choir. "It is a song. Dead monks from long ago are singing that song."
The quotation marks. Ghosts in the book are saying that!
Today I got 3 golf clubs at a thrift store for $6 each. One was $7. The rest were $5.50. I got a Louise Suggs wood, one 5 iron, I always wanted a five iron and a putter. The iron can double as a chipper. So can the wood. Wood is better than sand wedge for sand traps. Not a bad price. Even I could afford it.
When I didn't know as much about golf as I do now, I thought that even with a 15 stroke handicap, most golfers could win against me. My handicap is registered at 48. Not good. One needs a registered handicap of 25 strokes or less to be allowed to play at a golf course. That's more stringent requirements than for getting a fishing license.
There is a great movie called Tommy's Honour. It is about Tommy Morris and his son who were golf legends at St Andrews in Scotland back in the 1920s. A hundred years ago.
I recognized the place as St Andrews Links right away. Question. How did they get the architecture and the golf course looking like it did back then?
The actual St Andrews Links is obviously a business that operates year round.
The Royal Liverpool Golf course has baseball stands. Or is that stands for the golf spectators. Otherwise where is the baseball diamond?
Shia LaBoeuf did a movie called Padre Pio. Really? I presume the movie is about a famous super spiritual Catholic Priest. The actor portraying the venerable Catholic Father is also the same guy who never stopped yelling and cussing when he was in a Police car and at the Police station too. Video available on YouTube.
I'd give it a watch. At one time I remembered it as a prospective project. Now it's years later and it actually got made. Time goes fast.
The Banshees of Inisherin is a movie that I went to the theatre to see.
I was drawn to the mystic beauty of Europe and even though Ireland is island livnling and kind of backwater, there is a mysterious European deep nostalgia. This energy redeems a movie of a wretched story and topic.
A man named Colm doesn't want to talk to another man named Padraig anymore because Padraig is kind of retarded. Colm even threatens to cut off his fingers. Which he does.
A banshee is a major death omen. Along with owls, moths, any mentions of Cambodiar, Anchor Wat, Pet Sematary. All these are hard core death omens. But if these places and animals didn't exist, wouldn't death still be something that IIS part of this World and other animals and places would be death omens instead.
The actress in this movie Kerry Condon is intensely beautiful. Women are beautiful otherwise the species would grind to a halt.
I fear the future a degree less than I once did. I am still reeling from caregiver burnout even though the client died last year. I am on probation but things like this have a winding down period. A period where one is in trouble but not in trouble and with the trouble decreasing. A person who spent seven years in prison but onky has one week to go until release is in less trouble than the person about to appear before the courts expected to be sent away for three years.
The probation officers are great people. They are people of integrity and justice of course.
I am going to try to be single for life. I don't want a girlfriend. I'd only make mistakes in the relationship. Everyone else in my hotel is single. Well, just about everyone. Who cares?
"She's just thorns without the rose." Rod Stewart, Downtown Train
Women can be a trap.
Friday, March 7, 2025
Today, I saw Karen briefly. She is a nice lady. A great lady.
I toured around on my skateboard today aka my electric palanquin.
I pulled out some weeds here and there. This town is going to seed. But with little increments here and there, removing weeds, in time, this town will look cleaner. But people won't know why.
A politician said that the best jobs are when people don't even notice that a job was done.
Here and there, weeds pulled. I always forget to bring my two tools. One is a flat metallic claw and the other is a paint trowel. They are useful for removing weeds. I'll just bring the trowel on my off days. The metallic claw is a more industrial grade tool. Whereas the trowel is a domestic grade tool.
I won't go window shopping either on the meta store or on YouTube Hot Deals of the Week because that can slowly and exquisitely destroy a bank account.
I plan to go golfing in VR today. I obtained for free an African golf course that I won in game from 'coins' earned. The African golf course is quite portentous. I saw elephants and zebras. Well, where there are those things there are also known to be lions and Jaguars and cheetahs and hyenas. All of those things would happily hunt humans as well. But when those animals see humans with long sticks be they spears or rifles, somehow they know what that is and run the other way. I wouldn't play at that African golf course in real life because of the lethal animals that might show up.
In Florida there are alligators in the water hazards and some of them as seen on YouTube are massive. I'd freak out if I saw that. Those alligators eat only once every two months and if otherwise fed enough fish, and capons they won't go for a human and they look fat and well fed.
I have to get golf clothes because I'm a golfer. Sure, like I'm a pool shark. I suck at pool and golf too which shouldn't be too surprising.
Anyways my golf clothes would be a polo shirt which I have, a cardigan which I don't have and loud checkered pants preferably a really fashionable shade of tan. The polo shirt can be any color but the cardigan must be dark blue, somewhere between neutral blue and dark blue. I already have a Scottish cap which I found in Vancouver near the Georgia Hotel two years ago.
Golf shoes? You can wear any shoes for golf. I would recommend the affordably priced Nike Air Monsrch. In Asia, people wear flip flops to play golf. Mini golf for sure.
Whereas the St Andrews Links old course looks grand opulent elegant, the Butler Park pitch and putt in Austin Texas looks austere and desultory. A very plain suburban somewhat downbeat aesthetic. Prosaic, suburban. But St Andrews is also suburban but rich suburbs rather than middle middle-class suburbs. Pitch and putt. You wouldn't use a wood used for delivering hard and powerful 230 yard line drives right down the middle.
Just any old golf club is used. I have only one golf club. The 5 iron. That doubles as a chipper. The higher the number the iron, the more yards it should attain. A 7 iron yields a shorter distance on average than the 5 iron, statistically.
Screw it. A good golfer can use a 5 iron like a 3 iron or a 7 iron. It takes skill.
The larger the wood the more distance. I have a medium sized wood golf club. And I have a putter which is slightly chipped and rusted on top. I'm talking in real life which is what I got at the thrift store. $5 each. One medium sized wood club, one 5 iron and a slightly chipped putter. It's a proper putter. The other day I used a short walking can with a rubberized end as a kind of putter. It did the job. Kind of.
The real putter is much better.
For a golf hole I use my rectangular professional janitorial dust pan which is attached to a handle which I place a small bow within to create a smaller target area and a tunnel as well for the golf ball.
The putter I have is cheap and looks cheap. The ones the professionals use look really nice. Some putters have a club face that extend on either side of the shaft. Old school putters have the club fsce on only one side which is what I have. It's a pretty nice one though. I like it.
Golf comes from the Dutch word for club which is golf. Early golf clubs were all wooden.
The early Dutch form of golf had players aiming at targets rather than holes and with few strokes as possible.
Golf balls were stuffed with wet feathers with leather sown over the top of it. The use of the sap of the gutta percha tree is what makes the modern golf ball.
Newer golf clubs were made of stainless steel which improved sustainability and accuracy as well. Carved horizontal rows on the club face made it grip the ball more and got rid of excess water on the ball as well as the club face all around.
The $5 wonders at the thrift store are all made of old school chrome or stainless steel.. Newer golf clubs are made of graphite which is lighter, stronger as well as pricier.
Golf is like skiing. It's a pricey sport especially if you want to play on location.
Bowling is a lot easier on the pocketbook.
A person should be strong in life. That's the ideal. Movies are good. The best movie has the greatest optics. If a man has a girlfriend he should get her a jar of Ovaltine as a present. Artitificial crab or pollock is a good snack. And sometimes you can get a great deal yet the best idea is to try to save money in order to eat well. I forgot to get soft shell taco shells today. I still have to look for a few recipes.
I say prayers to Mother Mary because she is the most powerful female in the Christian pantheon that I know of. She is my female bodyguard.
God is male and female forces. Anyone who doesn't know that is an idiot. The ancients had religions that recognized this.
In Catholicism, there is vnerwtion of the Mother Mary but no female Priests.
In Protestantism, there isn't quite the same generation for Mother Mary but there are female Priests in the clergy.
Moral of the story: Six of one is half a dozen of the other.
I still fear myself. A lot of things about me scare me. That's the final and last great fear for there is no escaping yourself. Lots of times in my life I thought it was the end however life still went on. Things will be better for me in a few months.
Some people don't fear themselves at all. There are movies of people who act in the most reckless ways, all still legal but reckless like shopping for expensive items, using them once and then throwing it away or drinking or getting extravagant gifts. There is a YouTube channel called Steve Did It or something like that. The star of that channel gives strangers money and gifts. One time, he gave Donald Trump a very expensive watch.
That guy doesn't fear himself at all.
Either of the two extremes is not healthy. I spend money and regret it. I imagine that I'll run out of money and starve to death. Millionaires have this fear also but for them it's irrational because they always have enough money.
I give regularly to the Church. This will give me blessings.
This is a journal. I also have an irrational fear of my neighbours. They always close the door of their room loudly. I often think they are planning to kill me. They are black university students. They are most comfortable speaking their African language, whatever it is. Movies like Cannibal Holocaust and YouTube video of a riot in an African village where people were hacking other people with machete right there on the street makes me fear my neighbours. That's just stereotyping.
The other day, I saw one of them hold an electric guitar. Black people are talented at music. Not just immensely talented. Profoundly talented. They are just simply on another level when it comes to music.
The new neighbours have been in this hotel for a year. It often takes me a few years to get comfortable with people to the point where I don't notice the slamming doors anymore.
Every place I've ever lived in during my adult life has always been rooming houses with the most picaresque neighbours. The physics of this dimension are a raw deal. Even the richest has to deal with forces of life in this dimension and its inherent disadvantages.
I won't write about my online purchases anymore. It's not anything that anyone really needs to know about. I'm trying to save my money. I like movies.
Tom Cruise was able to finally find happiness and to be happy when he moved to Japan in the movie The Last Samurai. The place is incidental. I hope I can be happy one day where ever I am.
I fear myself more than I fear my neighbours. Actually I fear the finite nature of money.
Spending money always beings a feeling of regret even for things I need like food.
I try to save money through volunteer work. I'm planning to sell one of my skateboards to a store. The point of spending money is to do your utmost to enjoy and to forget about regret. Sadhguru said the way to eliminate unwanted thoughts is to focus on what you want, not on what you don't want or on what you fear.
My utmost idea of living is to live in a rich house. Nice and rich. Quiet house. If I have any neighbours, I never hear them. Large room enough to play golf with a Tyco VR golf stick.
No wife. Just single for life. Me, my VR and my electric skateboard. Also tablet and television and mp3 player. That's the best life. Also to occasionally stay in five star hotels. Such a life is impossible and would be a miracle. That's the life that everyone says a prayer for to attain.
What about depersonalization that occurs when something really really good happens? It's a kind of shock. Star struck. It's kind of very comfortable but kind of uncomfortable as well. The Police see celebrities all the time. They don't seem to get star struck. I admire that.
I wish I could have been on the historical St Roch voyage. That's like wishing I was one of the original Apollo 11 - Apollo 17 astronauts with the exception of Apollo 13.
My friend who once worked for the Coast Guard said the St Roch was a very rough voyage. The icebreakers of today are next level and way more comfortable. I wish there was anything VR related to the St Roch. However a St Roch escape room is where I draw the line. I don't know if I'd get that. Escape room games are pretty much impossible. I've failed every single VR escape room I ever tried.
If I see a counselor, I will tell the counselor that my main aim in life is to be 100% sane.
Saturday, March 8, 2025
Cleaned the sidewalks of weeds. The area should look less seedy.
The Lucy Liu movie Presence is a hella motion sickness. I'll have to watch this on a small screen. It shows the point of view of the wandering spirit.
Last night I had a dream where I said that the set of rooms I was in reminded me of a set of rooms in a VR app. I looked over to the next room which was a bedroom. I looked over to a pot on the floor there and then less than a second later I was there. Different set of physics. Ghosts teleport. In a dream you're a ghost. The room in the dream lacked a doorway that the room in the avR app had.
The movie Presence is supposed to have a twist. I love twist endings. Lucy Liu undoubtedly is a very smart lady. She wouldn't do a movie unless it has a good script.
The twist is ending is that the ghost isn't who you think it is. I hope I can get though it without motion sickness. There is no cure for motion sickness. Gravol pills don't work and only make the situation worse. The only pill is to turn off the television and to look away.
I was drunk last night. That's why I wrote the weird paragraph. It was going to be even weirder.
I had three sips of strong beer. Faxe beer is the local answer to Tennant's Super which is straight out tramp juice with a whopping 8% alcohol. Then during one sip, I gargle and inhaled because fumes get you even drunker. I'm a zoner.
I haven't drank for quite awhile and I was drunk for two hours.
I was going to write that some actors have strange faces. Not conventional. I've heard other people say that before about other actors. Jesse Plemmons and Will Poulter have strange faces. Almost kind of Oriental or else kind of German. Yeah, like the two looks are synonymous.
So strange that even thinking about strange faces especially when drunk is an unsettling and anxiety ridden experience.
The movie Kinds of Kindness mentions lamb. This made me think of lamb from an East Indian restaurant which would cost money. Which would affect my bank account.
I got a small but powerful burst of anxiety thinking about that. Lambxiety.
I'm guessing that at age 55 I got less than 20 years left. Even with problems, it will go fast. Remember that. The years is almost a quarter over.
This morning, I saw a man pretending to throw a football on the corner where a bank is located. This reminded me of myself. I play golf in VR and would be doing about the same thing. Maiming a specific athletic motion.
VR golf is kind of ridiculous. I am making golf swings what. Three or four times a minute? In golf it can be up to ten minutes or more before the next swing is made. It's a very leisurely sport. Not the hyper bonker Olympics that VR golf is.
With VR golf one teleports to the next place, just like a ghost in a dream.
See, in a hundred years, golf went from when the roughs of today's golf courses are smoother than the putting greens of early days golf which was just awful to teleporting in VR golf.
The teleporting really changes the pacing of the golf experience and every sport is about pacing. Hockey has the fastest pacing then basketball then soccer then baseball then golf.
VR golf gives basketball pacing to a golf pacing sport which in this case is golf.
I doubt the guy on the street knows I am into VR golf and was mocking me. Only someone with schizophrenic paranoid delusions would think that. I did wonder that for a second though.
Today while clearing a driveway at the YMCA-YWCA of weeds, I saw a Police car drive past me. On some cosmic level, it was about that I left a movie on and stopped it at a certain point. Kinds of Kindness. The second story. RMF is flying.
I've watched a lot of Police movies over decades and this is the strangest Police movie I've ever seen.
The protagonist, a Police Officer is stroking a suspects hair.
The Police Chief and the Police Officers partner are looking over at this and the Chief says, "It looks like they've just f*cked for the first time."
Afterwards the Police Officer says to his partner, "Doesn't he remind you of my wife?"
The other Police Officer said, "That suspect looks does not look like your wife at all."
Or words to that effect. Why completely spoil the movie?
That's the most irreverent depiction of the Police since Banksy picture of two Police Officers kissing.
Thie story of this movie is stranger than anything I could have conjured up from my own imagination. Very strange indeed.
The story gets even stranger. A lot stranger. Lambxiety.
Sunday, March 9, 2025
I'm not going to Church. Perhaps ever again. Every time I go, it weirds me out.
After going, I think that I regressed yet again and then there's that panic, what, am I going again next Sunday, what about the Sunday after that etc.
The less you go, the less you have to go. The usual square flakey energy, as you're leaving they fire a final parting shot, "Will we see you again next Sunday?" Proselytizers. Vamliric energy. Coopt Coopt Coopt. Convert convert convert.
God often provides solutions to problems right there. If I have VR and electric skateboard, going to Church would be a comparatively tepid experience.
Pastor Joel Osteen is the best preacher. His words are like living waters. All other Churches, their sermons are like dry dead waters. When you have the absolute very best to resort to even a distant second best at best would be bizarre.
Let's face it. Most people at Church, about 98% are rich and White. I'm on welfare and Oriental. Even if that isn't one less reason for me to go there, it also wouldn't be one more reason to go there.
I might move to China one day. Those towns look really rock show and cutting edge and futuristic. When I go there, they'll know that I know that they'll know that I know that I'm from there, that is the land where my people have lived for thousands of years.
I'd be one of the majority there rather than a visible minority.
I was brought to another country as an infant without informed adult consent. Now that I'm old enough I might move to China one day. Those cities like Chongqing look absolutely gorgeous.
I don't have any one in my life right now whom I would think of as a close friend.
In China, I'd meet a lot of people whom I'd just click with.
The Europeans living in Europe are proud because they are on the land where their ancestors lived there for thousands of years. That's something that White people in North America never experience. No one in North America would feel this except the Native Americans yet they are classified as a visible minority in the land where they lived longest of all for thousands upon thousands of years. North America is sick.
Other continents like Europe and Asia have their dirty laundry but its the usual garden variety skirmishes between common people of different regions.
North America and the Natives. That's a bonkers unusual and unwanted f*ck up on another level. Not anything that people in Europe or Asia have to think about.
My people, the Chinese in 1300 already had the Forbidden City and the Temple of Heaven which used profound techniques of architecture such as joinery and a form of concrete mixture that is much better than the Abrams Law that is used in today's concrete. People of my region, Southeast Asia in 1300 built monuments where you could not even fit a piece of paper between two bricks.
In Europe in 1300 they had great castles.
What did the Natives have in 1300 technology wise? They didn't even have a standardized writing system or alphabet. Of any kind. They had culture. They had language. They had society. But they didn't have civilization. I don't know if I could intellectually respect something like that as much.
Other cultures can say things like we built Anchor Wat in 1435. The Natives in North America couldn't say anything like that because they don't got anything like that. Instead they are a whining mewling people talking about how they were so hard done by and demanding money from White people. Reconciliation is just a ruse for more money, money, money, money. They get these big big cheques from the government and when you have a collective of people sitting on a pile of shared money, that's as dangerous as a tontien, an agreement where a group of people sit on a pot of money with each share increasing as one of the members die until the last surving person gets all the money so they're ha ha, most likely killing each other off for the money. It's not rocket science.
From direct genocide through means of austerity to indirect genocide through largesse. As the old story goes, one way to ruin a person absolutely is to give them a lot of money all at once.
"Their lives were nasty short and brutish." Shakespeare
Tontiens are now actually illegal.
Whatever people built in 1300, it's not like any of us had anything to do with it. People like to ride the shoulders of the achievements of their ancestors which they themselves otherwise had nothing to do with, today, there is something called standardized education. In cases like that, you can have the occasional Natives who are even more White than White people. They read more Shakespeare than the average White person, they play classical music on a violin or cello and most White people couldn't do that. Some Natives are talented architects more talented than the average person of any other Nationality.
I don't know if I'll actually move to China. The semasiographic writing system would certainly get to me after awhile. This writing system is born from the crap physics of this dimension. We can't do telepathy as a species so we must resort to methods that the physics of this dimension provides such as writing and talking with voice.
Never mind you call this freedom? You call this existence? Can't releport, can't do telepathy, wired to the R complies which includes lots of cortisol and then all the while with physical death hanging over your head. The physics involved are a raw deal.
The whole premise is fucked. Hell is eternal. When a person gets there, they don't come back to Earth. So that means ans all spirits are issued from pristine heaven to be born into Earth. If they live a good life and go back to heaven, that's redundant. If they lived a bad life and go to hell, that's counterproductive because had they not been exposed to the BS prone physics of this dimension they would still be in heaven and not in hell so in other words, one step forward, three steps back. Taking a step backwards. Sort of like moving from a rock show town like Bangkok Thailand to some weird backwater sh*hole town in Canada. I've met people who did that. Why the hell did they do that? Were they brain dead?
Whenever that is because I'm in no hurry. I would not even lift a finger to bring it about but I would certainly not resent it when my life is over and I'm bathed in the much much much much much much much better physics of the afterlife. At least at that point I will no longer have the prospect of physical death at some time in the future hanging over my head.
Religion is bullsh*t. Ask Buddhism. Why do we suffer? Buddhism says, we suffer because we desire, also because we are mired in illusion but wouldn't get more specific and suffering is an immutable part of life which the East Indians called dukkha.
What a tautological and teleological answer.
My answers. The answers I've come up with. We suffer because we're wired to the non teleportational, non telepathic, wired to the R complex and cortisol and one day death bullsh*t physics of this dimension. There is another dimension nation with a much better set of physics, a different time dynamic where time travel is objective time and linear time is subjective time rather than the other way around as experienced in this dimension. Teleportation is space on a subjective level.
Well, you wouldn't get answers like that from a Buddhist nor a Christian at any of the Churches in town. Going there would be taking a step backwards.
"Where could I learn that?"
"Not from a Jedi."
Revenge of the Sith
Any Pastor Joel sermon is like living waters. The Churches in town, their sermons are dry clinical stoical obsessions with morality or lack thereof.
Yesterday, someone kicked the glass front door of my hotel leaving a visible broken glass. That's the sh*bird 400 million years of God d*amned dinosaurs prone forces of life for ya. I go to another apartment and clean that apartment very nicely so naturally the forces of life gives my hotel where I live a blast of delinquency in return. Damned delinquent.
Smaller towns on this island send their discards and rejects and undesirables to downtown Victoria. So they come to Victoria and part of their train of thought is "Our small town is a farming community that supplies food to this town. Yet nobody in this town has ever bothered to visit our town." No one visits your town because people aren't into visiting backwater sh*tholes. So they resent this town for this resulting in some vicarious spree of vandalism.
The forces of life. Generate a certain kind of energy and get another and worse energy in return. I give diligence. I get delinquent delinquency in return. And you wonder why I want an early reprieve.
For the answers I've come up with I feel that I deserve an early reprieve. I feel that it is beneath me to still wallow and writhe in the insufferable contemptible egregregious pernicious delinquent physics of this dimension. I clean for someone who else's apartment very well. I get someone vandalizing my apartment in return. It's just more of the cheap rip-off forces of god damned life.
Update. My brain presumed and painted a picture. Yet again. What were th. Chances of that? It was a resident who caused that as the result of a slight accident.
Today is the Liberal Leaders op. Mark Carney will most likely win. Raiders of the Lost Mark.
The movie The Favorite is about Queen Anne. She had a dark haired Duchess, ancestor of Winston Churchill and Princess Diana whom Queen Anne gifted Blenheim Palace who was her main servant and also part time LGBT lover. She was mean but cruel to be kind to be protective. A new blonde haired maid showed up and eventually turns the Queen against the previous maid. The blonde maid poisons the tea of the previous maid making her have an accident that disfigured her face. This further turns the Queen against her. She chooses the new blonde maid who has since become her main LGBT squeeze and the old maid is dejected. The movie then shows the new maid slowly over years being a cruel and torturing personality. The dark haired Duchess and her busband were eventually exiled from England.
In history, there is no evidence of Queen Anne ever having been LGBT. The director added this on as a spurious detail.
This movie reminds me of Justin Trudeau and Chrystia Freeland as the OG dark haired maid. The new blonde maid Melanie Joly appears. A few months later, Trudeau stepped down as Prime Minister.
Sometimes movies show what's going on.
Mark Carney emerged the victor from the fray to become Canada's Prime Minister.
"Mark Carney brings vision, he brings leadership, he brings vast experience to the Liberal Party." a Liberal Party member said.
Let's face it, ha ha, Mark Carney brings money to the financially foundering Liberal Party after the trough is typically partially depleted after a Prime Ministerial run.
Mark Carney has deeper pockets than Pierre Poilievre which could be decisive in the next election.
Yesterday I felt intense off the scale fear for a minute. This is seeing the scene in Kinds of Kindness when the liver was lying right on the floor. I didn't expect the liver. I thought she stopped when she sliced herself and then died but she actually cut out her own liver and it was there on the floor. It was a cold night and I had the window open and the fan on. All that together gave me a wave of fear that I still feel as I write this.
Having worked in a restaurant, I was told that in poster advertisements for the restaurant, they use techniques to make the food look more bigger and shinier than it actually is. That's what they did with the liver. It had a most off the scale ghastly shiny red look to it. I was genuinely terrified. I don't know if I'm over it. This is the worst thing I seen since the red wedding of Rob Stark in Game of Thrones. Walder Frey takes off his mask and it is revealed to be Arya Stark. She then said, "The North remembers."
Recasting. Donald Trump as Walder Frey. The mask is ripped off revealing PM Mark Carney who then says, "The North remembers."
I am watching a movie called Anora. It is about a very rich Russian young man who falls in love with a stripper. Moulin Rouge. His parents find out and try to cancel the marriage. I'm at the part where they just got married.
There is a lot of gratuitous sex scenes in the movie. Perhaps not so gratuitous as each and every one of the sex scenes advance the plot. These scen s would alienate people who haven't been sexually active at all for years upon years upon years and even more so if they were obese and overweight. Not only would the sex scenes alienate them, that the scenes are with actors who aren't obese would also alienate them.
The pacing is good and the plot kicks in right away.
I think Anora won 4 Academy Awards. Best picture, best actress, best director, best screenplay. Not bad. The rest of the movie should be even more flof a treat and what I saw was quite enticing.
The movie was a waste of time. That's a couple of hours I won't get back. No twist ending.
The movie didn't turn me on at all. The lady in the movie just isn't my type. There's no accounting for taste. She often called a guy in the movie "a little f@ggot @ss p*ssy". I would have replied, "You say that like it's a bad thing. A person who is gay is better than the straight man who killed his wife and or his children. There are gay people I really intellectually admire like George Michael and William Burroughs. There are people in town at gay themed restaurants who would pay money to go on a gay cruise on a cruise ship. And that's rich coming from you. Let's face it. You and any of the girls who work at your strip club would and have done girl on girl action if paid enough money. You're not a lesbian but $100 is $100 kind of thing. You are such a toxic verbally abusive individual that I'm glad I never had any children rather than to have any that turned out like you. If you were my daughter I would disown you or else abandon you and if I never saw you ever again even after decades and I died or else you died, I wouldn't care at all."
There are quite a few people I met who died. These were terrible toxic people and I'm sure glad I don't have to see them ever again. The devil to them! I sure don't miss them. That's how the movie Anora affected me.
Monday, March 10, 2025
All religions are cults that have gone mainstream.
The strangest religion is Christianity. Jesus was a great guy but he got crucified.
Salman Rushdie got attacked because he wrote something bad about the avatar himself. Larry Flynt did some strange photo essay about Jesus and he got shot. John Lennon said the Beatles were bigger than Jesus and he got shot.
Under any judicial branch system even that of 2000 years ago when Jesus was around, anything that has to do with slandering the avatar or worse, saying that you yourself is The Avatar in capital letters is highly illegal which was what Jesus experienced. In no other religion did the avatar go through the challenges of that of the Christian avatar.
So Christianity is the basis of the West. If you think that it's hypocrisy, a person who is the best, most moral, most best person and what does he get? Crucified. The forces of life, you generate a certain kind of energy only to get a worse one in return.
If you think that's the point of Christianity, you are missing the point. The point is that nothing a person can do will make them live forever. Try to be the utmost best person who ever existed. Even that will not prevent mortality.
No, the main point is the resurrection. Light conquers the dark. Goodness prevails. You will never die but will be reborn in another dimension where you are much more alive than ever before.
Last night I saw Heather in a dream. She was sitting at a table. She was wearing her brown leather jacket and military camouflage leggings. I leaned down towards her right hip as she was sitting down. I said, "Beebs!" She said, "Hey!" softly in a friendly way.
Dreams speak in the language of symbols. A table represents a person's life. One person's table is set while another still has settings to be placed on it. People dont die before its their time. Even though I wish for an early reprieve, my table is not yet Seth, I mean set.
When I first saw her, I thought the usual whenever I see the ghosts of the dead in my dreams, "They told me she was dead. That's wrong because obviously she's right here in front of me."
Today I went to Tim Hortons. First day as PM Moneybags at the helm of the Nation. Coffee and donuts. Breakfast of the Police aka Breakfast of Champions.
Pierre Poilievre is the Leader of the Opposition in Canada.
Nicolas Hoult as the Leader of the Opposition in The Favorite. That would be Pierre Poilievre's job in Canada.
Tuesday, March 11, 2025
Part of my conditional sentence is that I am to not leave the Province of British Columbia for the next two years.
I don't know if that's a good thing or a perjorative thing.
BC is the only Province that's governed from an island. Just like Canada is a Nation governed from an island.
Islands have a kind of Napoleonic complex. Islands are like small dogs which make a lot of energy and as anyone can tell you, small dogs make a lot of sh*t.
The London funnel. The Victoria funnel.
It's no big wonder a record number of people from BC are moving to Alberta.
Alberta has bigger welfare cheques, no PST, and people are more down to Earth and friendlier in Alberta. BC has a nouveau California prima donna energy. BC is kind of stuck up.
An island is a geographical footnote a quasi irrelevant offshoot compared to living on the mainland where one feels connected to the main pulse of the Nation.
The town where St Andrews golf course is a backwater. A small town on an island is another level of backwater compared to a small town on the mainland.
China is a total rock show. Towns like Chongqing and Shenzhen and Hong Kong are absolutely gorgeous and state of the art Tron future world, their architecture, their infrastructure, on an empirical level is completely rock show. Whereas my town, the architecture, comparatively is ugh, kind of dead.
Between 1975 and now which was 50 years ago. 50 years ago, China was a backwater and Vancouver was kinda rockin'. In the intervening years while China steadily got more rock show, Vancouver and Canada steadily got more backwater. If 25 years ago, you said, "In 25 years, China will be twice as rocking and Canada and the States will be twice as backwater." You wouldn't have been wrong. Shanghai has Pirates of the Caribbean. Sao Feng. Vancouver sure the f*ck doesn't have that. Anyways, ha ha ha ha-ha, look forward to in another 25 years China will still yet be twice as rockin' as it is now while Canada will be twice as backwater as it is now at the rate things are going.
This town is a capital city and thus is intensely class obsessed. As a result if you move from Victoria to another town, you will be seen as high class because you are from Victoria. The opposite dynamic also applies. If you move from another town in BC to Victoria, you will be seen as low class especially if you've moved from what. The downtown Eastside?
If I move from Canada to China, that would be seen a bit as high class.
My friend in Thailand said, "If you can speak English in Thailand, you are important. If you can speak English in Canada, you are not important." A lot of people on welfare in Canada could advance themselves and go overseas as an English teacher. The ability to speak English overseas makes you distinguished. The ability to speak English in Canada is common.
My advice for the next generation in China. Whatever you do, don't come to Canada. You'd regret it. China is much more rocks how awesome Tron future world.
I haven't watched the local News for awhile and I feel a lot better. Tremendously better.
Probability and statistics. The really interesting stories, the stories that you actually tune in to the News for only happens every so often and not more often than that. The rest is local fluff and twaddle. What the local cliques are up to. Get to know this local clique and that local clique. Insufferable. I don't know and I don't want to know.
The recurrent ads on the News as well. Thoughtless, ignorant and toxic and won't be missed.
Stick it out for a year, you'll feel better.
Don't watch the local News for at least ast a year and you'll feel a lot better psychologically.
One good thing about traveling overseas is one is no longer connected to the local News of this town as it wouldn't be available on the local television over there. So not watching the local News kind of feels like I'm travelling overseas.
God speaks through a certain language. Examples are suddenly realized connections between points that are decades apart. And any problems God provides the answer because within every problem contains its own solution.
I don't want to go to Church, it's too stultifying, I don't want to watch the local News as it's downright toxic. I have internet and VR goggles. I pay whatever every month to have internet and thus premium champagne entertainment, the excellent collection of movies on a spackling platinum screen in YouTube VR and I'd be opting to watch the local News? Bizarre. Why watch the local News at all when I have all this other spectacular sh*t.
Local culture is insular and insipid. Backwater. A waste of time.
Let's face it, there's a lot post menopausal female News anchors which is counterinstinctive. It didn't use to be that way. At one time all female News anchors were pre menopausal. Let's face it. Men look more distinguished as they get older. Women just look older. Except for the few weirdos who have a fetish for old women the mainstream pulse of most red blooded males is that they prefer younger women. Anyone who disagrees is in denial. Older post menopausal women on the News = woke. The News is a wokefest disguised as topical oracular dissemination.
In more traditional times throughout history, fertility was a thing. It was worshipped. The flower is the paean of fertility. Fertility cults. A man who is old is still fertile. A menopausal woman is not. A lot of countries in the World are still tuned in to the fertility frequency. There are no menopausal women on their News. The West is tuned in to the sterilized Western sh*thole wokefest frequency.
Sure, if that's what floats your boat. You get all the cougars and grannies on the News. I get the younger hotties on the internet and YouTube. Even older guys like younger female strippers.
Anything that isn't White heterosexual male is woke.
In Asia, anything that isn't Asian heterosexual male is woke.
A person can't be 100% percent racist as that would be toxic and ignorant. I've has too much scientific training and read too much of Carl Jung and archetypes to be a racist. But I also can't 100% act as if race doesn't mean exist. Everything has a set of advantages and disadvantages. One must use the advantages that their race provides. Since I am not White I don't feel racially obligated to go to any groups or cliques that would otherwise try to coopt me to go there regularly. Places like Churches in particular. The Churches in this town have on average a 98% White attendance while I am Oriental. That wouldn't be one last as reason to go there but that also sure as hell wouldn't be one more reason to go there.
Racially, it's better to not go against the grain even if you can't or won't go with the. Grain. That means developing the tendency to avoid places that have 98% White attendance if you don't absolutely need to go there. Don't go. You'll feel a lot better. I feel better when I don't go.
No one is legally required the News. Or you would think that the News themselves would broadcast stories repeatedly about judges ordering suspects as part of their conditions, You have to watch the News every day for at least 5 days a week if not 7 days a week because, ha ha, wouldn't that register as a punishment which would be counterproductive to the main raisin d'etre of the News which is to be a voluntarily preferred venue of entertainment.
I don't like watching the local News at all and I don't want to go to any local Churches.
God says, "I have provided you with an answer. It's right in front of you. Why watch the local News and go to Church when you got something that is much much better. Namely the internet and VR."
Pastor Joel Osteen and Lakewood Church sermons blow all the other local Church sermons out of the water anyways. Lakewood Church sermons are better by a country mile. I myself am not at the level of spirituality that Pastor Joel Osteen is.
When I listen to Pastor Joel Osteen's sermons, I feel genuinely uplifted. When I hear the sermons from local Pastors, I feel genuinely bored, baffled, and weirded out.
I never leave Church feeling better. Always the same or worse but never better. Churches offer no advancement at all. Whereas I offer myself advancement through the electric skateboard. I'd rather be the person who can ride an electric skateboard and do a backflip with my legs straight up in the air and has no car than a person who has a car but can't ride a skateboard nor be able to do any gymnastics at all. I'd rather be a Jedi knight than to be an effete aristocrat like the ones at Church. Again, a demographic whom I have nothing in common with. White and middle if not upper class. Me, Oriental and welfare class. It's a non starter.
But go to a place for a few years and they expect you to go, what. For life? No one owes anybody a lifelong friendship.
The Thais have a saying, "To find a friend to drink with is easy. To find a friend to die with is hard." Don't be expecting any lifelong friendships.
"The local wine and the cheese is common and mediocre. However the vodka and the caviar is exquisite and plentiful." The Curious Case of Benjamin Button
The local culture on the News is common and medicore. However the Internet culture and YouTube culture is exquisite and plentiful.
And this is in a place, Vancouver Island where the local caviar and vodka is common and mediocre but the wine and cheese is exquisite and plentiful.
Why go to Church or watch the News when it's literally a hundred times easier not to go? It's as easy as falling off a log.
Just sit and put on the VR goggles and just don't go and just enjoy the visual presentation on the VR goggles which is a thousand times as spectacular and entertaining as going to local Church.
Go to some place for a few years and the cliquey personalotit there will want to coopt you and expect you to be going there for life. Things don't work that way. God is a third party intercessory to all dealings on Earth. Things change. Impermanence is an aspect of this dimension. People move on to other towns, people die. Churches typically have a high turnover.
At age 55, I have 15 years to go until I'm 70.
After age 60, my life expectancy will be measure in the single digits. After 60, its less than 10 years until I'm 70. After 70, it will be single digits until I'm dead. I don't expect to make it to 80. I have absolutely no godd*mned reason or even desire to make it to 80. My life is largely a movie I wish I hadn't watched. Wrong people, wrong towns, wrong housing. All of it wrong. When I'm dead I'll be glad it's over. As per the grim wretched vicissitudes of the physics of this dimension aka The vicissitudes of life.
Even after 55, it's single digits until retirement age which is 65. There is an option to retire at 67. Let's face it, if one applies for a job at age 63 or 64, don't expect to be hired.
So called backwater towns contain a jewel and that is a slower pace of life. Train to Willoughby, Twilight Zone. A backwater town on an island is a backwater on another level in which there is an almost mystical even slower pace of life as if encapsulated in its own geographical realm of stratified and rarefied enclosure. Here on the island, we call it Island Time.
England which is duh, on an island has that going too.
Madonna is strange. One minute it's, "Open your heart to me." another minute she's a Material Girl. Make up your mind. Typical Mediterranean narcissist. People from the Mediterranean like to eat bread and lemons in the same meal. People who eat bread and lemons in the same meal are often narcissistic.
Madonna song lyrics.
Like an Angel, touched for the very first time.
Ooh ooh you're a VIrgin, in disguise, I can see it in your eyes.
In Law, there is a distinction between prohibitum malum and prohibitum in se.
Prohibitum malum is something that is wrong throughout history and in all countries. Things like murder, theft.
Prohibitum in se is wrong depending on time in history and place you are in.
At one time it was bafflongly legal to own people as slaves. Governments even financed slave holders. The issue isn't why is it illegal today. The issue is why was it legal then being an indirect example of prohibitum in se.
In some places and times in history, a person can have multiple spouses. Mostly its men with several wives but in some place or other, look it up, a woman can have several husbands. "I'm pregnant." "What makes you think it's mine?" Wellin North America, a person can have only one spouse - at a time. Polygamy is quite illegal.
A direct example is marijuana possession which was illegal since the Marijuana Act of 1937. Before that it was legal. In some places now it is still illegal but in pretty much most places, it is legal.
A prohibitum malum is something that someone can't live with.
A prohibitum in se is something that someone could live with like being busted for possession of a moderate amount of whatever narcotics.
Prohibitum in se, prohibition in time, se as in the words second and sequence.
Illegality of narcotics isn't about morality, its about artificial scarcity and price fixing and providing work and money for a certain community. It was often based on race. They couldn't be busted for anything real so bust them for something stupid like drug possession. It's a bad idea to be a minority. Don't come to North America if you're a majority in another country for example a Chinese in China, etc
Meanwhile legal drugs like alcohol and tobacco kill a lot every year.
People get busted for prohibitum in see offenses all the time because what can I say? I happen to live in a backwater country that can expand outwards so must turn inwards.
Backwater countries can't advance at the rate of other countries often because of mismanagement and so then they turn on their own citizens in the form of things like tariffs. These backwater governments can't incentive their citizens because of the backwater nature of their country, China has the population and manpower to build rock show cities while sparsely populated countries do not so in frustration they turn on their citizens in some attempt at proxy National advancement as an extension of generalized governmental mismanagement that's already been going on for years through either lack of protectionism or too much protectionism, its difficult to find that happy medium.
China, rent in a really nice apartment is about $360 - $1,000 US a month, but in an orderly spectacular rock show city.
Canada, whoop, some airhead Wild West of Capitalism as reported in the New York Times. Rents in Canada $2,500 month to live in some ugly underwhelming backwater streets saturated with delinquents. China doesn't have the housing crisis that the West does. Government sells out to foreign speculators, just running it to the ground, and then blames their own citizens as the country becomes steadily more and more an unenviable backwater compared to the shocking technologically spectacular cities of China.
While Russia landed a probe on Venus in 1966 and the US sent several manned mission to the moon, Canada, whoop, built a space arm.
See, a citizen will compare another country with their own and seeing that while another country is an infrastructural rock show, the country they are in is a mismanaged backwater and they will begin to doubt their own government and then vote with their feet while the government seeing that another country is so rock star while their own country is so backwater, they will begin to doubt their own citizens and then turn on their own citizens.
Cities in China like Beijing, Shanghai, Chongqing, Shenzhen and Hong Kong are intensely and profoundly rock star, the cities of China are on another level to that of the West, while the West is so backwater. See videos of these cities on YouTube. These cities are smokin' rock shows. The buildings are lit up in many colours and a few buildings in a row, changing colour, laser light shows splayed dazzlingly across a row of buildings. An awning would beit up with thousands of round bugs about 3" in diameter and the awning would do a multicolored light show. Better than the West.
See for yourself on YouTube.
What the hell am I doing in this town? Now I'm legally obligated to stay in this backwater Province for the next two years or more. That's just f*cking great. What a desultory existence. Don't put yourself out on my account. Don't do me any favours!
A criminal can't relocate to another country for a few years until the criminal record clears. A politician can't relocate to another country for a few years. Quite simply, a power vacuum would be created.
And the human species is a grim ghastly wretched pernicious perfidious species. I'm glad I never had any children. I'm glad I never did my part to keep this crazy pot stirring.
The West London included is comparatively Gothic to China which is baroque. I prefer baroque to Gothic. Poor Things and The Favorite were intensely baroque movies. Batman with Robert Pattinson was an intensely Gothic movie. If you separate and isolate all the blackness and black areas chromatically and then splice it together, the first two hours of that three hour movie would be black screen. It doesn't get more Gothic than that.
I prefer the architecture and infrastructure of China to that of the West. China is a state of the art Tron future world rock show. While the West is meh.
100 years ago in 1925 China was ghastly horrible wretched while the West was a rock show. Now 100 years later, the shoe is on the other foot as the cities in China are anachronistic in that they are ahead of their time while the cities in the West are also anachronistic but not in a good way as they are behind in their times. That's all possible because everything is happening at the same time anyways as Einstein said so there's room for anachronism as linear time is subjective time and time travel is objective time anyways which makes all of this somehow possible.
The streets in China are so clean and so orderly. The streets in the West are fairly saturated with delinquents. If meth heads were airplanes, downtown Victoria would be an airport with several meth heads circling around in a holding pattern just like airplanes around an airport. Namely downtown the Eastside of Vancouver, Kensington Philadelphia, downtown Los Angeles. Gawd the West is such a sh*thole.
You don't see that in the cities in China.
There are other planets with more advanced life and you can reincarnated there. That knowledge is suppressed for the sake of certain collective control mechanisms.
Star Wars. People can move objects with the force and telekinesis. In this dimension you sure the hell can't. Uri Geller bending the spoon was stagecraft.
However in the afterlife, that ability is super common. Movies do show omens of things you'll see and do in the afterlife so that when you first see that, you don't freak out. Not only can you move objects linear floating across a room, you can even teleport objects from one place to another instantly with your mind in the afterlife. At the time it would seem like a subtle move and no big deal. We are already somewhat doing that in this dimension with RCVs remote control vehicles and fax machines, telephones and live video calls.
This is better than pulling down a star destroyer using your bare hands and the force. Lots of it.
The afterlife is more mind-blowing than can be imagined. Change into 4 sets of clothing and be 4 different ages, child, young man, mature adult and old man, snap snap snap snap. I saw that in a dream I had of William Burroughs he appeared and mutimorphed in front of me in a room of a downtown rooming house. Sunny day but the room was shaded with the natural shadow of within the room. There was a window directly behind him, he sat in a chair. At the time I read a lot of his novels. In another dream he appeared sitting across from me at a picnic bench in a park with a cemented area, sunny day. He said, "You have to write for a lot of people before you get published."
I saw Prince Albert In a dream standing behind me in a small room. Vicky was there too. He changed clothes like that. Zoom zoom zoom one after the other. Question, he died 111 years before I was born. How was it that I had a vivid dream of him where he had as looking at me. Bald but not bald at the same time kind of hairstyle.
He once wrote in his books, "The Zen archer finds his mark because he knows that his master is there. When you read an authors writings, that author will be there with you as you read the words of the writings." or words to that effect. Indeed that was true.
I another dream, a girlfriend I had was lying down on top of me. Her white t-shirt instantly and I mean instantly turned red, like a cuttlefish changing color so that afterlife effect bleeds into this dimension via some creatures like cephlapods aka octopus etc.
Those in the afterlife are alive to something beyond imagination.
These are the answers I've come up with. You won't get such answers with Christianity.
The government allows Churches for those at a certain level and also allows metaphysical bookstores for those on quite another and advanced level. The government is two steps ahead as always. Better than me. I'm usually zero steps ahead.
Certain words like "bug" only have meaning in cracker culture. When I hear such words I revert to another culture in terms of thinking. I think, "That's just cracker sh*t. That word may have such a relevance in the cracker culture but in my culture that is completely irrelevant." Sapir-Whorf hypothesis. People who use different languages think differently with each language. I can speak a few languages. In this backwater country that's useless. Overseas as an expat I could be a teacher. But a teacher is a square life. What would you rather be doing on welfare day? Drinking a beer and smoking some weed on the beach or teaching basic rudimentary words that don't go beyond a grade three vocabulary to a largely indifferent classroom with their noises of disapproval because let's face it, they are hard wired to their language which about just 1% of the World speaks and think that you're actually getting ahead?
YouTube has the weirdest movies that show up recurrently on Hot Deals of the Week. Movies like Sleepers.
Ask what else it did to you. Ask what else it did to others. Ask what it did to itself.
YouTube is the same company that would see me upload my cartoons and then not pay me even one cent for them and YouTube has done this same thing to millions of others and think nothing of it. Google sure doesn't pay me for my writings on my blogs which are certainly worth money.
Why? It's not rocket science. It's the grim nature of the human species. It's a damned wretched species. And the physics of this dimension. YouTube couldn't possibly keep track of all uploader and pay them. But the things most uploaders upload have no market value. What do I do? Cartoons that only one person made, each only a few minutes long. Wrong. YouTube sold Horizon an American saga for $4. That's a three hour movie with hundreds of not a couple of thousand people involved in the production. People expect a gargantuan amount for their entertainment dollar.
And I don't get paid for my YouTube stuff because the United States and Canada are backwater countries. Not paying people, not being able to pay people, chronically understaffed are all hallmarks of a backwater country. I imagine that China is better organized and would pay its uploaders except they operate under a Communist system and so does YouTube and Google.
Otherwise I'd just as soon be dead. God took my mother. God took my girlfriend. Why didn't he take me too? We'd be a matched Seth, I mean set. "What is Seth?" the ghost of my friend asked me that in a dream. A ghost would ask that. Topically relevant. I think that God is sometimes deliberately pernicious. I've come up with certain answers and I don't get an early reprieve. Although I won't kill myself I sure wouldn't mind a quick and painless early reprieve. Meanwhile others like my friend whoever, wanted an early reprieve and got one. He sure didn't come up with the answers that I did. Yet God granted him an early reprieve. He even had a library of books, The Greeks said you are the captain of your own ship and if you want to give yourself an early reprieve, go ahead. And that's what he did. I admire him for that. He chose not to deign to condescend to endure some flyblown existence on welfare in rooming houses as well as the delinquent sh*tbird sh*tshow physics of this dimension. "He did the thing, the right thing." Monty Python
See how I wish that God could grant me an early reprieve.
I often wish that I was already in the afterlife after having gotten my physical death over with. Unlike YouTube and Google, Heaven isn't sluggish or recalcitrant when it comes to paying people properly everyone who is an artist thrives in heaven. In this dimension and in this backwater country, not so much.
YouTube is the same company that would sell a season of for eg House of the Dragon for $23 the entire season. Purchase a few episodes and the price for the remaining episodes is still $23. Get 7 out of 8 episodes and if you want to use that vector, the price is still $23. What a bonkers pricing tier. Absolutely bonkers. That's how they run a business.
So you wonder why YouTube splays all these despicable movies on its Hot Deals of the Week marquee. Consider the source.
And this is after I've purchased quite a few movies from YouTube which leaves me wondering what movies they would have had up on the Marquee had I not purchased any movies. Not empty words for as soon as you purchase a movie, YouTube immediately replaces it with another and different movie. It's kind of like weeds.
Swear up and down that you'll show up for the date and then when the day of the date arrives, don't show up. "I had to hand it o to her, she stood me up good and proper."
I've stood up two dates and possibly counting this year. I told a lady I'd show up somewhere at some time and I simply didn't show up. It wasn't a priority for me of any kind to show up. The conversations are usually really boring. A waste of time, really. I hope I never see her ever again. Be careful what you wish for. "She's gone and she won't be back you must be a happy man." However I am disappointed to say that I think it's likely that I'd see her again especially since I think the b*tch is stalking me. I hate it when women stalk me or more realistically I hate it when I think that a woman is stalking me. My brain goes there. My landlord who is really smart told me that they're not stalking me. Heather told me that too.
I don't think I'll live much longer than 70. At most. People have an average age.
But then just after that is what I'm really looking forward to. Stepping past the threshold of death I'll be 20 again at UBC in 1982. I'll have all my teeth again. A person can design their own heaven in the afterlife and that would be my heaven. I wonder what the hell I'm doing on this island when I love UBC so much. I love UBC more than life itself. The vibes are absolutely heavenly. If I were to die right now right here on the spot and then be there, I could accept that.
It's not who you are but where you are which is why you fail. Different countries go with different temperaments. Whatever country gives you the best deal, stay there.
"Patriotism is the last refuge of a scoundrel." Samuel Johnson
That means to have no loyalties to any country or even any town whatsoever. If you discover another town that heck, even looks a lot better, a lot more rock show whatever town gives you a better deal stay in this that and f*ck whatever town and country you were in before.
In China, I'd be one of the majority. Here I'm a racialized minority. That makes such a difference in terms of sense of personal and cultural relevance. I'd feel that way in China in a way that I never ever have quite felt in Canada. That's because I was brought here as an infant without informed adult consent. And it's impossible for me to move back there. I call your bluff. If I'm so racialized, why not deport me back there? You would think that KKKanada Carney-da would be only too happy to get rid of yet another wog.
I'm counting on that.
To further deconstruct, the Natives are classified as a racialized visible minority but they know that we know that they know that their ancestors have been here for thousands of years. I don't even get to have that. In China, I would be one of the majority and in a land where my ancestors were for thousands of years and that's something that everyone around me would know. White people in Europe feel that but White people in North America although they are a majority they aren't on a land where their ancestors were for thousands of years. For that reason, if I were White, I'd move to Europe. Europe is somehow more elegant, more nostalgic.
Well, unlike the Natives and like the Europeans, I come from a technologically advanced race. So at least I checked off one of the boxes. The Natives were endogenically advanced. Shamanistic. The Natives did DMT and ayahuasca centuries before the Europeans. And the Natives respect for mother nature is on another level.
The technologically advanced race in time, given their path of development will achieve creation of machines that can travel faster than light. Spaceships are showy and for linear tourism. A really advanced race can enter a booth and then exit the same booth on another planet in another galaxy. How advanced are we talking about?
The endeogenically advanced race in time, given their other path of development will achieve a state through the refined use of entheogens over generations to come will evolve to a point where they themselves will achieve faster than light travel like the purgylls of Star Wars Rebels or like the UFO in the movie Nope. That UFO want a machine, it was a very large organism capable of faster than light travel through space.
Dune had an idea along those lines. Eric the axolotl spice guild navigator was once a person but due to using massive spice, basically the equivalent of an acid God on 300 hits of acid had metamorphized himself into some faster than light traveling space thing.
No one reads my blog. I can write whatever I want as long as it's legal and still strides the line even somewhat of respectability.
If you think I'm wrong do and do otherwise and then tell me what you think.
Stop watching the News for awhile and see if your psyche doesn't feel noticeably better. Go to another country and experience life as an expat and see if it isn't a rock show compared to here which is a backwater. Like Bill Maher said, "But I'm not wrong." Although this is a narrative you would never hear on the News. They have their own weird agenda. The News and members of the public with their mutually inconvenient narratives. Narratives are subjective anyways, that's why they're called narratives.
Sigh, Chinese propaganda VS Canadian propaganda.
The News with their ad hominem attacks, defense against logic, its not rocket science. The human species is a sh*t species.
I never make any personal references to anyone in particular but typical of the damned benighted human race they will come back with an ad hominem attack. This shows me that they agree with me but it would be politically inconvenient for them to admit it. Spock of Star Trek said, "You're angry. That tells me that you agree with me on some level but can't admit it." That doesn't work because while I might have failed on a personal level, they failed on a collective level so a personal attack doesn't cancel out a collective criticism.
Give someone some advice and they will do the opposite just to be perverse.
"The leech's kiss, the squid's embrace
The prurient ape's defiling touch
Do I like humans? No, not much." Aldous Huxley
"Culture is not your friend." Terence McKenna
Wednesday, March 12, 2025
The 25% tariffs Trump dump is on the News. What a silly old man.
In another 15 years I'll be 70. After that it's loose change.
It's falling in love. It's never rising in love like rising in fortune. That's because falling in love is a f*ck up and its culturally acknowledged on a tacit level in the language.
To date a woman who is in the same class as me or lower is sure to bring about a certain amount of dissolution. To date a woman who is in the same class or me or higher is sure to bring about a certain amount of disenfranchisement.
"You're mad. Bonkers. I'll tell you a secret. All the best people are." Alice in Wonderland
If anyone doesn't watch a certain News channel anymore, would they know? Have you ever heard of the News ever approach such people on the street, say it was me and in my case, say," We notice that you haven't been watching our News program anymore. Why not?" and then add it with, "We make secret cryptic references about you all the time and we need you to watch them. With you living in your welfare rooming house because making secret cryptic references about people on welfare living in rooming houses is something we are well known for doing."
The movie Exodus Gods and Kings has a scene where a child who is God's messenger speaks to Moses while he is almost face deep in a mud pit.
This didn't surprise me.
An old woman walked to a stream near her house and met a young boy there. He was a young child. They had a conversation and the boy returned home. His mother asked, "What did you do today?" The boy replied, "I think I met God. I didn't realize that she was so old."
The old woman returned home. Her grandchild asked her, "How was your day?" The grandmother said, "I think I met God. I didn't realize that he was so young."
Shanghai Pirates of the Caribbean ride. A segment of the ride is one where the entire car goes up through the roof except there is no roof and suddenly the cart is on the surface of the sea as if the ordinarily solid ceiling were made of water. That's next dimension stuff. Ghost protocol. A ghost can go up through the floor as if the floor were made of water or even air.
I did that in a dream once and I saw my friend. She had a medical condition, partial paralysis. In the dream, no paralysis. She was sitting on her bed in her bedroom wearing the cleanest white sweatshirt I've ever seen, she had a soft silver solid halo around her head. She said, "What is Seth?"
Thursday, March 13, 2025
On a YouTube video, Night Walk in Beijing Area at around the 37:00 mark, there is a white and brown dog in a glass windowed cubicle at the front of a shopping mall. There was even a dog bed there.
That is China after all. In Chinese restaurants, there is the lobster tank. Would that be the dog tank? Don't let the dog bed throw you off. In some Chinese restaurants there are fish tanks at restaurants and the fish tanks are complete with ornaments. These fish are for eating.
Just joking. China is a total rock show. Every minute of the video, sight after sight, it wasn't a one hit wonder, the hits just keep on coming. China cities are spectacular especially at night. Minute after minute. Mind blown.
In China even the trees are fully lit up at night and changing colors too.
Intellectual people get bored easily. That's why small towns have a brain drain and intellectuals move to big cities because the city at night in their town is downright boring.
Pierre Poilievre is right. Canada is broken.
When I see videos of walking around Beijing, I see things like a Dairy Queen sign and a British telephone box. In a cosmic way, that is China saying to me, "We know you are dazzled with China. Don't forget about your connection to the West. You have many friends in the West including Royalty. It is your connection and the way that you write English so well. That is something we value. You teach and inspire us to write English better. You have taken the English language to another level."
200% Trump wine tariff to EU. What?! That guy is off his rocker!
Speaking of China, I just found out that tonight happens to be a red blood moon lunar eclipse.
What do women's uh, genitalia and claims have in common? They're not safe to eat at red tide.
I do have a good reason to live to 80, if that happens, I'm not holding my breath is to see the evolution of VR. This is the first generation of VR and a lot of the paradigms are retarded. The golf courses. At St Andrews, I'm the only one there and even I'm not really there are the only thing visible is the hands and the golf club. Retarded.
Real VR Fishing is better. There are some people in the distance moving around. Other animations including boats and animals.
In the last week I got 3 movies.
Jack Reacher $5
Batman Pattinson $10
AI $7.
Jack Reacher. Tom Cruise. Top class.
Batman Pattinson. The comments section of this video are saturated with high praise. Best Batman movie ever etc. This movie is rather next level.
AI. Spielberg. There was another Spielberg movie, Twilight Zone. Didn't get it. Only one good story, Kick the Can. A story about old people who want to be young. One day they are all suddenly young but then lament about otherwise missing out on the beauty of a long life well lived. They then all are suddenly old again except one who is like a young Peter Pan with a sword. He is at the window. That signifies that he died and is already in the afterlife and they are all seeing a ghost of him.
The first story. Racism story. Atrocious. Only the ignorant are racist. Someone who is learned like Indiana Jones who knows that all kinds of cultures have all kinds of secrets. He's certainly not racist.
Last story. B movie story of someone who wishes for things and they come true. Even wishing for people to turn into objects. Nah, a hard pass.
AI. I watched that movie literally a few dozen times. It brings back memories of an era. I used to smoke crack cocaine and time it to when the heavy metal concert in the movie started. Good movie. The last scene of the movie going into the distant future is breathtakingly haunting to the point of tears.
So I indulged in my habit. These are not ephemeral purchases. These are movies that I'll have for life. Movies worth money to watch on the YouTube platinum grade Rolls Royce Mercedes Benz S class VR app screen.
Friday, March 14, 2025
I thought of going to Europe. I'd rather move to China. In China I'm with my people. They will know that I know that they know that I was born there. And then I'll go a visit a large statue of a Chinese deity.
China, I'd be with my people racially, I'd be one of the racial majority and that country is a spectacular rockshow.
The West, I'm definitely not with my people racially. I'm labelled as a racialized visible minority and in an underwhelming backwater country of ice rinks.
I was brought here involuntarily as an infant without informed adult consent. Knowing what I know now as an adult would I choose to be in the West rather than China?
50 years ago, when the West was a rockshow, and China was still kinda backward, my parents gambled on that due to whatever involuntary forces, that things would somehow always be that way. They gambled wrong. China is a spectacular rockshow and the West is some backwater sh*tshow.
Does it help that there is a population of people who do not have a history and legacy of advanced technological achievement. And because of some misplaced aggression they resent the races that did technologically achieve. China and Europe sure doesn't have extraneous cultural and sociological aberrations like that weighing down their ongoing technological advancement.
What is the history in terms of technological advancement of Black people? Egypt was very profoundly technologically advanced. But what aboitlut Central and South Africa. Are the Kalahari Bushmen known for being technologically advanced. Probably not.
How could they be when they had all these lethal creatures walking around? Humans as a species would be like Kalahari Bushmen with little more than hand crafted low tech spears and shield and grass huts if the dinosaurs were still around.
China and Europe were able to technologically advance because they didn't have some whinging resentful less technologically advanced race nipping at their heels like Canada and the US does.
Woke is when a race that is not technologically advanced wants to be regarded as if it were a technologically advanced race.
It's like me and that girl. She's like the West. Since I met her ten years ago, she's really let herself go. I'm like China. I've improved and gotten better in the last ten years.
I can learn and I can read Chinese characters. I already know quite a few. I can learn more quickly. One only has to learn about a few hundred characters which seems like a lot but really isn't. Those characters would ubiquitously recur about 85% of the time.
I don't need a girlfriend. I don't want a girlfriend. Besides after seeing her body a coiple dozen times I get bored of it. And whatever girlfriend I have, I always think, she's all right but there's other women and better women and I'll meet one in the future. Think that of each and every girlfriend I have and I wonder why I'm single at age 55.
Don't be fooled. Conversations with women are excruciatingly boring. The conversations with them are as boring as their beauty is enticing. We're talking about two different radios on completely different wavelengths. Just like that lady I met a few weeks ago. I couldn't intellectually respect something like that.
And she's Native. Just what I need. To have some chug stalking me all the time, glomming on to me for friendship. I wouldn't be experiencing this if I were living in China. Hopefully not.
If I was dating a few women and then was avoiding this one particular woman, it could be argued that I'm a jerk. I'm not dating any women and I don't want to start. Being single is a lifestyle choice that millions of people actually prefer.
Chronic erectile dysfunction and never wanting to be a father not even in the slightest as not only do I not want to bring another member of the human race into the world as I don't believe in the human race, I also don't want to send an entity into the hell that is the physics of this defective and delinquent dimension, the 400 million years of dinosaurs and mass Permian extinction as part of its f*cked up history dimension.
Don't put yourself out on my account. Don't do me any favors.
When I was typing the word Chronic in the previous paragraph, the autonspell that this computer seems to use at its own liberty regurgitated the words Christian dating. I thought, interesting cosmic slip as that girl is a Christian. No thanks. Christian Churches are flakey scenes for people who haven't reached a certain level of spiritual advancement. They are so unadvanced that they wouldn't recognize my spiritual advancement instead seeing it as an aberration to the point on the curve that they are on spiritually. Of course they are! Square flakey cracker cult.
Most of the flakes at that Church are old. In ten years, or even five years, most of them won't be around. There aren't too many if any young people at Church. Ha ha, for some reason young people don't go to Church. Perhaps because they have better and more advanced knowledge. Churches are fundamentalist, regimented, regulated and circumscribed. Uh, no thanks.
At least with Buddhism, the Buddha said, "If it doesn't seem right or reasonable or logical with you, don't believe it even if I say it." or words to that effect. Christianity sure the hell doesn't have that. All religions are flakey.
China - technologically advanced and I'm with my own people racially. I'm a majority. Especially in Guangzhou.
The West - backwater and I'm not with my own people racially. I am a racialized visible minority.
Due to my criminal record instead of being able to be in a technologically advanced land with my own people I'm stuck in the backwater land of chugs and crackers. How insufferable. I should commit hari kari or seppuku. In Bushido, the only acceptable way to address profound humiliation is to quit this life and go on to a better dimension with a better set of physics where you actually get a fair shake.
Life is a circle. 360 degrees.
In Guangzhou, they have a store called 361. One Degree Beyond. And its not in some incidental knock off store. That store happens to be in a shopping mall that's more futuristic and state of the art than any shopping mall in Canada.
I move to China but do I speak and write in that language to the level to which I speak English? No, see my life is a puzzle where all the God damned pieces don't fit. That's why I want to quit life and go to the afterlife. From what I hear of the afterlife, it's that absolutely perfect country that all expats want to go to.
The afterlife would be to even China what China is to Canada which is a totally spectacular over the top rock show.
Arguably I'm just as well off dead. From what I hear of the afterlife, I'd rather be there than here. Heather is already there. Why couldn't I be there too? What was it that she did right that she got an early reprieve, I want to do that too. What did I do wrong that I didn't get an early reprieve.
"Only the good die young." Greek saying
"The undiscovered country from whose borne no traveler has returned." Shakespeare
"To love that which this must leave here long." Shakespeare
"There are more things under heaven and earth than you have dreamed of." Shakespeare
If you're a Chinese in China or a British in Britain you are living a fully legitimate identity. Not some flyblown dogshit identity. Otherwise you're a DP, a displaced person. Whether you displaced yourself or other forces beyond your control and not from any of your choices displaced you, typically miscreant forces, more grim wretched dispatches from the egregious dysfunctional forces of life. What were the chances of that? I'm a DP. Perhaps not better off, but I am arguably just as well off dead in my opinion. I've come up with answers others didn't. Yet they wanted an early reprieve and got one. I wouldn't mind an early reprieve. Who wouldn't ewnt to go to a much much better place than where they are now?
The Russians sent a probe to Venus. The US landed men on the moon. Canada came up with a space arm. Why? "We want you to be successful but not more successful than us." Canada is a colony. Canada sends people to the moon while England hasn't? The hick colonialiats have sent men to the moon but the Lord's of the Manor haven't? They simply couldn't have that. What an insufferable contemptible hilarious and deprecating situation.
China doesn't have that. China is fully autonomous. They call their own shots. I have to admire them. I envy them. I wish I was a member of a racial majority in their own country like them instead of being brought here as a child against my will gambling on some crackpot pretense that the Christianized West was supposedly going to be better. As it turns out, they were idiots.
The West has been good to me. Over the decades the West has given $300,000 at least in welfare cheques. But that's over 30 years. CEOs earn that in less than a week or at least in a month. The government paid for my electric skateboard and VR goggles. How many people can say that? My number one duty is always to remember to be thankful to those who were good to you.
City after city in China. Endless. I think at first that I am looking at AI generated images of future cities. No. Its the real thing. China is the future. China is on another level, up. While the West is whatever it is.
The distance between Edinburgh and At Andrews golf course is about the same as that between Victoria BC and Sidney BC.
Take a look. Mark Carney signature is on the Canadian $20 bill as Governor of the Bank of Canada. That's a tough act for Pierre Poilievre to beat.
Pm Mark Carney knows more about money than Trump. Carney knows the intricacies and inner workings. Arthur Hailey who wrote Roots also wrote books called Airport and Hotel detailing the inner workings of those places. Mark Carney could write a similar book called Bank.
Canada is in really good hands.
China has spectacular infrastructure of buildings but that's not the only thing in life. There's music, movies, literature and that's where the West excels.
Music. I don't know what Chinese music is like. It's probably pretty good. But would it compare to the music of the West between the 60s Motown and the 70s and 80s music of the West which like China's cities is on another level.
Movies. The West makes better movies.
Literature. Could I even access Chinese literature? It would probably be very Conservative. Don't do drugs. Don't hang with the wrong crowd. Go to school. Get a job. Get married.
The story isn't over.
The movie Staying Alive is about a stage production of a play called Satan's Alley. After one goes through that alley, they reach heaven.
The West may be going through some kind of Satan's Alley now. But as Pastor Joel Osteen said, "That is not where your story ends. On the other side of that is a new chapter."
China is spectacular. The West is nostalgic.
Don't pay attention to what I write.
Sadhguru said that many people have disturbing thoughts and they want it to stop. Thoughts are a function of the mind. People don't say they want their heart or lungs or liver to stop functioning but why do they want their mind to stop functioning? You are not your thoughts. You are the thinker and thus can dismiss a lot of your own thoughts.
My thoughts are a product of all my limited experiences and based on the information that I have now. I will have new information in the future. What kind of security clearance do I have? None. So my thoughts are based on really on a really limited body of knowledge.
To stop having intrusive thoughts stop obsessing on what you don't want or what or else who you want to avoid and think of what you do want. The man who aims for the mountain never notices the valley. The man who always wants to avoid the valley never makes it up the mountain.
Saturday, March 15, 2025
I wonder if my parents bringing me to the West all those years ago was part of God's plan when China is so rock star now and the West is so backwater now. Why couldn't my parents been one of the families that stayed in China?
I wonder if me doing cartoons and my writings and not getting even one cent for it was also part of God's plan? Only in this dimension can I do so much at that level and not get paid. My cartoons and writings are worth at least a million dollars. Life has ripped me off. It's a consortium of rip off involving the wretched human species, the backwater forces of infrastructure or rather lack thereof of where I am located, this is the West, and the worthless defective physics of this dimension.
It's the same crazy shitbird forces of life that brought about dinosaurs then a Permian extinction and then more dinosaurs totalling 400 million years of dinosaurs then to bring an asteroid that killed them all. Bizarre. Wtf was that?
Even women and dating is much better in the afterlife. In this life you see a lady and then you got to run after her. That seems clumsy and kinda creepy. Then never ever do you really know what she thinks of you leading to all kinds of arguments and misunderstanding tempered with the lack of ability to telepathy. In the afterlife, first of all, one doesn't run, they teleport and then one understands each other's minds to a level that is never experienced on Earth so no misunderstandings, ever.
Then on Earth there is the frustration of seeing a lady you like and then not being able to score or worse getting to know her and findoling out that you don't like her nearly as much as you once thought you did. More bullsh*t physics. I would rather be in the afterlife than in this life. Me being in this life after I've come up with certsin answers is a waste of my time. How come Heather gets to go to the afterlife and I have to be stuck in this life? Was that also part of God's plan?
Since life hasn't fully supported me in terms of my work, why should I fully support life? I'd really rather be in the afterlife especially since I've come up with the answers that I have. I'm baffled that hasn't earned me an early reprieve when so many others in history who wanted an early reprieve got an early reprieve.
The afterlife is so much better. The afterlife is to even China what China is to the West. Shockingly spectacular VS blithering backwater.
When I decide to give myself an early reprieve, I am no longer under God's authority or the authority of the government, I am then flying under the aegis of my own funky authority. The best way to get an early reprieve is with a heroin overdose.
I come from a technologically advanced race. It would be one thing if I said that and didn't do the cartoons. But I did the cartoons that I did so that would hit harder. I do those cartoons and I'm stuck in a backwater shithole such as this?! My cartoons would be taken to a new level in China. In China because of my race I would thrive. In this country I am resented because of my race. In China, I would be amongst my race, the agrarian race. Instead of getting a million dollars for my cartoons I get welfare. Disgusting set up. Can you blame me for wanting an early reprieve?
The forces of life are pretty good at not paying people what they are worth. I stepped up to the plate for others. Life doesn't always step up to the plate for me. Which is why I wonder why when God took Heather, he didn't take me as well. It would have been the decent thing for Him to do. The afterlife is way way better than this life.
I often wonder about God's plan. It seems like a twisted plan. Devious. And really a waste of time and existentially counterproductive. I wish I died when Heather died. The afterlife is better than virtual reality.
Because 50 years ago, China was a Communist country and the West was capitalist. Now China is a capitalist country and the West is Communist. F*cking West! F*king God damned sh*tbird forces of life.
I might be dead soon. Who knows, really.
The idea is to stay in the West and simply watch videos of China on my LG Nano screen which really makes the colors pop and sizzle. That way, one doesn't have to deal with hassles, language curve, expenses etc
Traveling can be like a cult. Go to some place, come back and it's like, "Oh, you were there a few years ago but so much has changed. You should go and see it now." That never ends.
If one moves to China, they can only stay in one city at a time. See only the sights of that city. On television, a person can teleport from city to city. See a few cities in one night.
That's basically about over 80% anyways is seeing the sights.
Anyways if a person has the tendency to stay in their room for over 20 hours a day and be on VR, what difference does it make what town a person lives in, even whether they live in the West or in China?
"One town looks like any other
When your head's bent down over your pieces brother" Murray Head
The United States is implementing a trade war against Canada. What were the chances of that? The following is from Miso Miwa on Quora: Why do China cities look a lot more impressive.
Because of your criminal record and your bad reputation from the past, this cuts you off from meeting women.
You say that like it's a bad thing. Some of the happiest people in the World are single people who are single for whatever the hell reason.
I wouldn't go to China. The language. Languages are interminable rabbit holes especially the Chinese language. Speak a different language all day and at the same Nd of the day it's just more dilettante pidgin conversations that don't go anywhere.
Rather than watch the local News. More ugly scenes of an ugly underwhelming town compared to Shenzhen China. Local culture on the News I would rate as absolute garbage.
In any culture, you like certain things and not others. Cafeteria Catholic. Pick and choose what you like and disregard what you don't like.
Chinese culture. Things I like: The food. The martial arts. The spectacular architecture.
The West. Things I like: The food. The movies. Literature. The music. The English language.
Those are the things I like about those cultures. I didn't list anything I don't like about those cultures as that should be implied. The things I like about China are the things I don't like about the West and vice versa, if not don't like then it's a case of that I like one better than the other.
I don't feel that close to either World. The Chinese or the West.
That's what you get for reincarnating as a human on this Earth rather than on another less defective and more evolved planet. They exist but the Catholic Church witholds this knowledge just like I'm sure the West on the News never shows the spectacular cities of China as that is the China the West doesn't want you to see. It would cause you to doubt your own government and world systems. The human species is a grim wretched sh*t species.
If I go to China, I am with my own people. I would be one of the majority in a technologically superior country than a racialized visible minority in a backwater technologically underwhelming country. If I could, I would move there next week for that reason.
Backwater cracker justice. I don't owe any of these Alfred E Neuman faced crackers a lifelong friendship.
There is a racial pecking order. In Canada, that pecking order is a crooked table slanted against me. You got the White supremacists, the East Indians whose presence is prominent in politics and on the News, you got the Black's because Black people have prominence in the West, you got the Natives who are the First Nations and get all kinds of of government money and free fissing licenses and then you got the Asians like me. After that you got the Muslims, Al Quaeda, the war in Gaza between two tribes who are neither a technologically advanced race to the level of China in some low grade skirmish.
In China, the racial pecking order there is a crooked table slanted in my favor. I'm Han Chinese which is at the apex of the racial pecking order in China.
'Long dek chuen yun' - pure Chinese is what I've been called which translated literally means dragon of complete man. Chinese can be a very idiomatic language at times. Translated colloquially it means complete man of the dragon. Dracul the House of the Dragon. The most famous Vlad the Impaler was one of a family line of lots of people who were fierce, brave and great fighters.
Aldous Huxley, Antic Hay, the Complete Man.
You probably won't read Antic Hay. The hero of the novel, Theodore Gumbril invents a get up composing of inflatable pants which was useful in an age where wooden benches were the norm also to look more muscular in general, platform shoes to appear taller and a clip on beard because he reasoned that no woman could resist the Complete Man.
I'd be with my people which somehow is such a threat to crackers. I just want the basic experience of being a racial majority in the country of my people. That's what I don't get in Canada. I never asked to be here. My parents brought me here. If I had my choice knowing what the situation is now, I'd move to Guangzhou. That would be my city of choice.
The people of Guangzhou, I wish I was there in that great city with you. I am one of your Native country men. I wish I was there in solidarity with you. Your city is intensely spectacular.
Now I'm living in a hotel where I'm the only Chinese person in the hotel. If I were in China there would pretty much be nothing but Chinese people. In the West I worked at a Chinese restaurant that had no Chinese waitresses working there. What an anathema. Typical of the hopelessly dumbed down Westernized backwater situation you could expect to find.
The backwater West wants to coopt you and bring you down to its level of you're Chinese.
There is location and there is vocation. Whatever location, there will be vocation. Rather than resent being stuck in some backwater I could learn a skill. I could learn to read more Chinese characters.
Google: what Chinese characters would I most likely to see on the streets, in a restaurant, at a shopping mall, at a supermarket. I better bone up on my Chinese literacy. Just the basics.
If I were to move there next week, I would be ill prepared. I have to use the opportunity of the next few years to learn a few characters and save enough money. If I move to China, I wouldn't have to come back to Canada.
"The Chinese will not extradite one of their own." Lau, Batman The Dark Knight
Sunday, March 16, 2025
I got some coons living down the hall. Whooping it up. More grim wretched dispatches from the forces of life.
See, I understand that as psychodrama. Noises of disapproval.
I got two decent neighbours flanking me. They each live in a room on either side of me. My Black neighbours have two White neighbours each of them are batsh*t crazy. So it looks like they drew the short end of the stick when it comes to next door neighbours.
I think of Dr Henry Lingstone. Catholic missionaries made it through Africa and survived. I'm not talking about halfway Westernized Africans like my neighbours. I'm talking hard core oonga boonga spearchuckers with whom beef, pork or chicken were never on the menu. It was whatever the Natives could find in the bush. A tapir, a lion, a dead hippopotamus, a zebra.
"We ran out of our rations. It looks like we gotta eat what the locals are eating." Ugh.
Still, they survived.
Empires follow the sun moving from East to West and in chronological order, Babylon, Greece, Rome, Spain and Portugal, England, United States, now China.
Rise and fall of the Roman Empire.
Empires compare themselves with empires they have visited and can't compete, and due to logistical reasons, can't offer their own people equal incentives. Instead they turn on their own people. That is when an Empire is in decline.
"You have a way with words. People wonder what words you will come up with next. Words that uplift and inspire. Words that wound and hurt."
Winston Churchill movie, paraphrased
Let's make a deal. When I see something that someone has, I don't envy them but if I hear that this same person dies, I won't feel sad for their death as well.
"May you live long enough to see the bodies of your enemies floating down the river." Sun Tzu, The Art of War
I have lived long enough to hear of some people who I once envied deaths. Oh well. They died. Who cares.
I am a traitor. I would never sell anyone out for money because I wouldn't want to get into any money deals to start with. I am a traitor in terms of location. If I learn of a location that is much better I'd leave this location. Any memories with people I had would be viewed as inferior compared to what I know awaits for me in the new spectacular land of my own people.
There was a parable of a zoo animals. I can't find it. I think it went like this. A zoo animal was always with his own kind and there were no problems. They were all of the same kind. One day that animal got moved to a cage with animals of a different species. Things seemed fine at first. Then there were problems. Moral. You don't know the problems with living with another kind until there are problems. Then you will realize that living with your own kind is best.
In Canada, a Chinese person will never see a Chinese head of State.
In China, there are nothing but Chinese heads of Stare. A Chinese person feels more personal esteem that one of their own kind is the head of State. It's a diametrically opposite dynamic to what they got going on in Canada.
A normal Chinese person would never move to the West. "A Chinese belongs in China. What business does a Chinese have going to the West." That's the normal Chinese. My parents were freaks. F*king stupid idiots. Why did they bring me to Canada? Why couldn't they have been one of the Chinese families to have stayed in China? My life is a product of their idiot choices. Right now I live in some weird Westernized concentration camp situation. I am the only Chinese person in this apartment. If I were in China, everybody in my apartment would be my people, Chinese. What a sterilized Western sh*thole.
China's cities are intensely and profoundly spectacular. In Cantonese, there is a phrase, lupp tie gumm meaning splendid, spectacular, glossy. I know the Chinese language well.
For some reason me connecting with my people would be such a threat to the crackers whereas if other Chinese people connect with their people it isn't seen as such a threat. That's what happens when a demonstrably technologically inferior backwater culture tries to coopt you.
China is what the West should and heck could still look like if it didn't f*ck up.
Asia. Thailand and China has policies when it comes to real estate acquisition. In Thailand one can only purchase real estate in their wife's name or else they can get a comprador, a best friend who you can get real estate under the name of. And in Thailand, a Thai has to be able to get a equivalent parcel of land in the West in some cases. China and the Philippines have similar laws. That's why they don't have some crazy out of control housing crisis that the wild West has.
In the West we have been sold out. Anyone from any country can purchase real estate in Canada. Just pay the artificalially inflated overpriced prices. Speculation tax which is what is supposed to pass as a protectionist measure just drives the average housing prices up as locals don't have to pay the speculation tax making the situation worse. Just another venal airhead money grab from the usual semi educated opportunist, incompetent, sleazy underqualified publicans which is what passes as politicians in this country.
As a result, builders and even doctors can't afford to live here. No we don't get the rockstar buildings as they have in China. What we get what is a common phrase in the West, 'no fun city'. That's the new normal for the West, no, that's the old normal and has been for decades. Vancouver has been referred to as no fun city since the 90s. Pathetic.
Idiot parents brought me to Canada. Why couldn't they have stayed in China?
Cost of living in China is way down while standard of living is way up compared to the West. China is cleaner. China has less crime. China has less homelessness.
China has clean streets, well behaved people, low cost of living.
The West has dirty streets, crazy delinquent homeless people and overpriced housing and overpriced food.
"You can't wake someone up who is pretending to be asleep."
The West has taught me so much. I couldn't turn my back on the West like a lot of expats have. But most crackers don't write English to my level. Certainly none of them would have come up with the answers that I have. Such as time travel is time experienced on an objective level. I should have gotten a million dollars just for writing that sentence alone. That sentence changes everything. But being in the same dimension that had 400 million years of dinosaurs, I am in the wrong dimension and wasting my time here. This dimension is good at not paying people what they are worth.
I have about 15 years to go and then I'll be dead. I might not even make it to 60. I could never in that time learn enough Chinese to express myself as freely as I do in the English language. Most Chinese don't write English to my level. Their writing is more square and fundamentalist and basic and down to Earth. That's why it would be such a threat to crackers if I return to China and move to Guangzhou or Shenzhen. I want to be there and find a good place to live more than anything else in the World.
I don't think they care. I was barely here all these years anyways. I eschew all social groups denouncing them without cavil as boring, mostly crackers, backwater, square, nothing in common, and a waste of time. Every year, so many thousands of people move here and there. One more person, one less person, what's the difference?
Today I went to McDonald's in my golf clothes. I have a British chappie hat that I found in Vancouver across the street from the Georgia Hotel. Then I have a fuschia colored Superdry hoody and black and red checker patterned flannel pants. The pants need to be loud and checker patterned to be golf pants.
I got a shamrock shake, large and a Big Mac. I usually more often get the Quarter Pounder but I felt on this occasion that a Big Mac would more gourmet complement the shamrock shake than a Quarter Pounder would. It's kind of like a wine pairing.
The News puts on those atrocious cleft lip ads every five minutes. Bulk advertising. A sign of low ratings. No one is tuning in. Nielsen ratings. You got this woman whose on all afternoon and she's got these strange things on her neck. What is she, about 70? And you wonder why people don't watch the News.
There is a lady who seems to be stalking me although she won't admit it. I've known her for years. She gloms onto me for friendship.
I have a few skill sets. I don't see any evidence of her having any kind of skill set at all so in other words she's a gormless wonder. Needless to say, I sure wouldn't trade my skill set for her skill set. And she is from a race that I haven't seen any evidence of technological advancement while I come from a technologically advanced race.
I don't think that I could ever intellectually respect someone like that.
It's the sh*t's, it's the cans, cat's @ss.
I stick with what I'm good at. One of the things I'm not good at is meeting women. But some guys are really good at meeting women.
There is specialization and there is diversification which is two business models. A business can either specialize or diversify.
I choose to specialize. I stay good at doing things within my skill sets. Again I wouldn't trade my skill set for their skill set which is being good at uh, meeting women which is a skill set that an animal would have.
My skill sets involve learning languages, doing gymnastics, riding the skateboard, dancing to keep the body healthy, and drawing faces and drawing in general well. I'm sure not just anybody could do all that. I'm sure the gormless wonder couldn't. It's really an insufferable situation. Contemptible. Only in Canada.
"Red Rose tea. Only in Canada. Pity."
I don't want to meet any women in the West nor in China. What you see is one thing. What you don't see is the long term energy lines of agenda. Relationships are configurations designed to lead to marriage, starting a family. I'm absolutely not interested in any of that sh*t.
Go to a museum in China and see artifacts corresponding to a certain time period and those artifacts had a high level of technological achievement and craftsmanship. Go to a museum in Canada and see artifacts corresponding to the same time period and its uh, got whatever the hell it has. Could I intellectually respect the artifacts in the museums of Canada as much as I could China? I don't think so. China is on a different level. China is in a different league. And I'm Chinese. Stuck in Canada. My parents were idiots to bring me here. Co-opted into some backwater country and then brought down to their level.
Thinking that some other place is better while here is not would register as a multiple stressor. Wishing you were somewhere else has never been a recipe for happiness.
There is only one China. Most cities in the rest of the World isn't as spectacular as China.
The spectacular lar cities is a small part. I'm sure they have a few interesting areas that are more down beat such as small towns. In any country, at least half the country is small farming towns which sure aren't as spectacular as the big cities.
"The mind is its own place and in itself
Can make a heaven of hell, a hell of heaven"
John Milton, Paradise Lost
Don't ever lose that imagination.
Game Never Over.
Those with the eyes of enchantment can see the beauty in every world. The Chinese world, the Western world. The West is a scene. All scenes have an intrinsic archetypal value. The old nostalgic dimly lit cozy sofa next to a fireplace with a cop of tea with milk and sugar in old Victorian London Diagon Alley. Playing golf at St Andrews Links Old Course. UBC in Vancouver. The Empress Hotel in Victoria. The Tron future world state of the art technological cities of China. Riding astride an elephant in Thailand. They are all precious and beautiful.
Today I experienced mild food poisoning. I ate fried chicken left in room temperature for three days. After an afternoon nap, the headache started which got worse over two hours. Going to the washroom during a food poisoning event, one can actually feel the moment when the exact particles in the waste that had been causing the food poisoning the whole time exits the body. Then it was three hours for the headache to wind down. Some vomiting occurred as well. I feel 99.9% recovered. A very microscopic headache. Eating rice and drinking soup will help. Eat something fresh. During my food poisoning event, at one point I thought I was dying. I also at another point felt a quick massive wave of panic attack. But it went away quickly.
Monday, March 17, 2025
A lot of third world countries have slums. They sure the hell aren't as architecturally spectacular as China yet they have the manpower but lack the resources, incentives and are evidently under some kind of governmental mismanagement.
Those who can't create, tear down. The West can't bring themselves up to the level of China so they pull down whatever Chinese people are living there down to their level or worse.
Donald Trump is interested in tearing down the Continent. In Asia, that continent has each other's backs and certainly don't impose crazy tariffs on one another. Donald Trump always says China a certain way because he's been there and is frustrated that US cities aren't quite at that level so he takes it out on those around him.
Canadians and Americans alike don't suffer fools gladly. We want results. Where are the results?
The US isn't even going to start to look like China for another four years. Not with Captain America at the helm.
The movie Wall Street is about ultra venal types like Trump. The movie had these words.
"Stop going for the easy buck and start producing something with your life. Create, instead of living off the buying and selling of others."
Some people can't create because they have no artistic ability or talent.
So as a result you have what is going on now.
Cannabis is illegal in China. That's one less reason to go. Coca leaf tea is also illegal in China. That's two less reasons to go.
The News has a cycles. Female news anchors don't seem to have a cycle which is why it is so difficult for young women to break into News anchoring. They seem to hold on to the News anchors forever. Females News anchors these days neither have cycles nor periods.
I don't want to see this comparatively down beat drab prosaic hole-in-corner flyblown officious backwater town more than I already do. When the five o clock local News comes on, I watch videos of the ultra high tech modern cities of China because I actually value my psyche. The local News I would rate as absolute garbage and is a source of multiple stressors. Backwater towns can't offer innovation to the level of China. The only thing that backwater towns with a less technologically advanced race are capable of offering is trouble.
Its baffling that a lot of Chinese still stay in Canada particularly those who have owned whatever business for years. You'd think that with their nest egg, they'd fly away to spectacular China.
About 75% of the buildings weren't there ten years ago. The remaining 25% weren't there 20 years ago. There is a central business district that is very flashy that is surrounded with the usual drab hutongs.
A lot of things weren't there a year ago. China is sprinting to the future. My high tech VR goggles were made in China. Deepseek is from the Shenzhen region which is on the other side of Hong Kong's Northern border.
A lot of people would say, that there's things about my past. They want to block me going to China because there is something about me that is a threat to them. Triple threat. I can instantly go from using a tonal language like Cantonese and Thai to speaking English with lossless accent. See, not nearly everyone can do that. In such a backwater locale, I am resented for that.
God has the final say. I had a dream about the Chinese President. I met him at an airport. Surprisingly in the dream, he spoke English with a perfect accent. He said I am the future of China. What God Himself has ordained for someone, man is powerless to stop. Those dreams are God whispering to you in the night. Pastor Joel Osteen said, "Don't forget what God has whispered to you in the night. God's favor on you is irrevocable. God has already taken into account all the mistakes you will make in the future. And He still favors you." Dreams of Royalty is God having whispered to me in the night and I've had so many dreams of Royalty.
I published those dreams. Those dreams alone should have earned me a million dollars. Then I would move to China. No drugs? Then I would get high off of the stunning architecture to a level I could not here.
The deal is, I publish the dreams and someone else makes a million dollars. It's a sick world and one reason I think of quitting life. In many cases me uploading my cartoons is casting pearls before swine. I guess this must also be God's plan that I do all that work and then get no money for it.
I would have thought that you would have said, "I don't blame you. If I did cartoons like you did and I didn't get any money for it, I'd think of quitting life too. Imagine an artist at your talent level being stuck in some backwater country instead of being in spectacular China. Awful."
I would only do cartoons again if I was in a really good place. China complements and enhances my artistic talent. The West compromises it with its backwaterness. Compared with China, cities of the West are backward.
I can speak a few languages well. I speak them out loud in my room. Of course such a skill is absolutely useless in a dumbed down to Western tastes cracker backwater. I wonder if this was also God's plan for my life.
A one way ticket to Guangzhou is $940. I'd go next week but as it is I'm stuck in this backwater sh*thole for the next few years. How insufferable. Stuck in some backward country. A few years goes fast like the blink of an eye. I'll be in China soon.
Sooner than I think if Operation Foxhunt decides to spirit me away to China. Spirited away. For others you say that like it's a bad thing. They'd be in some immigration detention center in China which would probably be even more state of the art and high tech than even such places in Sweden let alone Canada. Most are rich and could afford lawyers. They'd be sprung out, walk around and see the spectacular cities and ask themselves what the hell they were doing in Canada all those years.
Well I'm probably not the only Chinese person who is going to be in Canada and not in China for the next few years.
I saw Buckingham Palace on the News this morning. The context is thus. Anything I do going in life must be held against the light of my Royal dreams. Especially the Bachman Turner Overdrive level Royal dream.
Racial pecking order doesn't apply to me because of this. I'm on another level. Others for eg Eddie Murphy is like this. People don't think of him as Black I mean not oonga oonga Black. He is a legend. People don't think of him in terms of his race but of his legendary status.
The British probably know about my writings about being Chinese and are concerned in a bemused way. For one thing they see that I don't have all the facts. And they don't want me to doubt the strength of the West and the strength of myself in regards to my connection to the West.
China. New and futuristic shopping malls being built.
Canada: Hudson's Bay Company files a chapter 11. Bankruptcy. Shutting down.
Cbina: Bedford Falls
The West: Pottersville
Movie: It's A Wonderful Life
Today I removed some weeds at a parking lot near the Legislative Buildings. I thought that some people might be trying to ruin my reputation sabotaging my return to China. The Chinese don't care. A lot of Chinese have done worse than me. Blood is thicker than water.
What if I somehow wind up not going? Then they would have wasted their energy for nothing. Steep language curve, much faster pace of life, working as a dishwasher at a restaurant would be just awful although they might have more dishwashers per shift than in the West because of their large population. Laziness, PTSD, general apathy, and the fact that one can access anywhere in the World from anywhere in the World with YouTube videos prevents thoughts of traveling.
I still respect the West otherwise I wouldn't have cleaned that parking lot area to the level which I did. Actions speak louder than words. A person can express doubts about a place and then do something good for that place anyways. Another person can express high praise and then later do something awful like weird vandalism such as urinating on a wall and then laughing in derision at the town.
I once knew a Chinese landlord. He didn't like White people and every time he mentioned White people his mouth would curl downward in a visible rictus of a mixture of anger and disappointment. I wonder if he is still in Canada or if he saw the videos of the futuristic cities in China and decided to move there. He wasn't a big fan of Native people either. I would have thought that living in Canada with all these other races that he despised would have pissed him off to no end.
No. What would have pissed him off to no end is that he once had a coworker when he was managing a hotel. This person was White and said to him, "I'm more Chinese than you are, Jim." Actually this incident neither upset or surprised him as at the time of the conversation, on television was a movie where a White guy said to someone, "I'm more Black than you are!" Baffling. I never claimed to be more anything than anyone else. It would have been unimaginable.
Chinese people have explained that what a person earns in a day in China, a person in Canada earns in an hour. The Chinese landlord owns a few properties so far be it for even him to just move to China all of a sudden.
Style without substance. Very beautiful postcard cities but what kind of conversations would one be having except the most basic due to a lack of knowledge of the language. No discussions of literature or quoting because of the different body of knowledge. China is a very Conservative regimented and circumscribed society. It is like North America up until the 80s where anyone who wasn't conformist, religious, wear a suit and tie all the time and the ladies wear a business dress with a skirt, then that person was looked upon with some suspicion. There are people in China who know English surprisingly well and would like to meet someone to practice English with. You'd find these industrious knowledge seeking locals in any country you travel to.
The music in China is fine and excellent but music of the West between 1960 - 1990 for me is on another level. That music has to power to lift a person up.
It's kind of what Mick Jagger said of Michael Jackson after he first met him. "He's like a beer that's all froth and hardly any beer underneath."
Cultures that can't achieve on a verbal level like an internationally renowned body of literature or internationally recognized catalogue of music, "He played the guitar so well that even the Portuguese sat up and listened." Cervantes, try to compensate for that through non verbal energy like turning their country into some massive World building video game.
If in the next few years I'm gravitating to just speaking English and nothing else, then why go? On a metaphysical level, I simply wouldn't be dialed in.
A person living in China who knows Cantonese and not Mandarin is like a person living in Canada only knowing French. It would help to know the predominant National language and not just only the secondary one. So in that respect, I'm scuppered. For I have bue knowledge of the Mandarin language. Bue means no in Mandarin.
May yow gwan see means leave me along in Mandarin.
In Thailand I learned that 'yah ma yoong gup pom' means don't approach me with problems and 'yah woon wie gup pom' means don't tell me your worries.
I have a good memory for languages. Useful in this town? I doubt it. I'm living in some vapid intellectual wasteland.
Life is a funny thing. My life has gone from renting an IBM typewriter, which was heavy that I lugged home on the bus to typing all the time for free on the internet. Albeit typing with my thumbs instead of my fingers, six of one is half a dozen of the other.
When my parents left China, the dynamic was quite different. Not only was China a backwater, then, Chairman Mao was still alive. Be it so say, he was an interesting guy.
Think along the lines of Pinochet.
I once had a dream where I was on the streets of a harbour town in China in the old days. Sunny day. I looked at a shop. It didn't have a right angle corner but a corner made of three walls one of them at a 45 degree angle. On that wall was a framed picture of Chairman Mao, two floor high and one and a half foot wide. The picture was hung above a large open doorway that was dimly lit within and with no door. He seemed to be looking at me with that subtle benign smile of guardianship but of course all paintings have forced perspective with one eue slightly looking more outward than it should normally be, an artistically derived lazy eye. But since this was a dream, it wasn't forced perspective. He was looking at me. Prominent figures of the past can appear as photos, paintings and even the bust of a statue of Julius Caesar. They are the actual ghosts of those figures. They don't always appear as a fleshed out, if you can call it that, human.
Tuesday, March 18, 2025
I went to the Catholic Centre today to get my taxes done. I think there is an exorcism tax, I mean an excise tax involved somewhere in there somewhere.
I went to China town and pulled some weeds along a building making the building look nice. There was one species, the alfalfa sprout chia pet species. That species is an a stitch in time saves nine species. I know what that would look like a few weeks later had I not pulled that species out. I make sure to pull out the root or else it means nothing. I use a back and forth moving to and fro method that is necessary to pull out clump grass. Dandelions are most difficult, the roots one needs a tool to separate the main plant from the root. There may seem to be a few dandelions growing along a line but that's all one plant. They grow in runners like carrots and pumpkins.
Interspersed between the dandelions are other species of weeds. They feed off each other taking as much nitrients from each other as they can be cause of their weed-like nature. Weeds are completely opportunistic.
The long stretch of tufts of clump grass that grew along the parking lot that I worked at yesterday if pulled individually would have taken forever. They grew along a thick carpet of dirt and just pulling on the dirt the clump grass is ripped away roots and all relatively quickly were it not for the two dozen or thereabouts dandelions with thick roots that had to be separated using a gardening tool.
Roots not only leech nutrients from other roots even its own species. If a line of dandelion root tapped into another line of dandelion root, you think they wouldn't try to feed off each other? Trees with lots of weeds growing around them have leaves that look just awful.
Not only siphoning nutrients the roots of weeds as well as all other plant species are a network of communication. A signal of an en masse meagdeath of weeds along a certain area sends a signal that the area is unsafe and the weeds taken somewhat longer than usual to grow back. But not that long. These areas must be maintained a minimum of four times a year. I removed weeds from a certain area in December. Going back to the area, I was somewhat shocked at how much the weeds grew back.
The spectacular cities are something else and certainly worth a visit at least on a television screen however of all the area in China spectacular cities occupy 2% of the land area. The flashy CBDs central business districts are surrounded with the typical non description ordinary looking suburbs like every other city. Other than that it's miles and miles of endless highways.
China has a lot of large cities that are nearly empty. No one lives there. Seems like a waste. Poor planning. Wrong. In the Michael Crichton novel Rising Sun, it says that the West thinks five years ahead. Asia thinks thirty years ahead. In 30 years those cities anticipate and are a safety net to inevitably increasing population and a housing crisis that might otherwise occur.
These cities are not maintained. There is a fountain where around it are loose tiles that drop some distance. Indiana Jones style.
That can be repaired relatively quickly when needed.
While the West has a housing shortage, China seems to have a housing surplus.
It's the flashy cities. If any other country had an equivalent looking set of spectacular cities and also not expensive cities, YouTube videos can show what one can get and for what price in terms of hotels and housing. Anyways, I would want to go there too. If in a parallel Universe equivalent looking spectacular cities were in Africa and nowhere else, I'd want to go there just as much.
To further deconstruct. There is also a separate element of racial majority, racial pecking order etc. There's that song: "This towns full of losers Trying to get a piece of you, You really think that's true?" How Long, Blue Rodeo
Do I really believe all that? Not in China do ever they have conversations like, "Remember, we're the apex race particularly in this country." People just don't talk like that in China or in Canada or anywhere else.
All humans originated from Lucy the ape in terms of common mitochondrial DNA.
There are places in Canada and the US that are quite spectacular.
If a person thinks that someone is from from a less technologically advanced race. Chances are, there is someone of that race somewhere who is a helicopter mechanic thinking, "What the h*ll does that person know about being technologically advanced?"
One must take care to not pinyin, pidgin, I mean pigeon hole people wherever you think they might be from.
Sure, everyone would like a reason to feel superior to their people.
If a person doesn't take the time to learn a language, why move to a foreign country. Then work as what. English teacher? People can learn any language off YouTube videos. Human English teachers are obsolete.
I got a VR swordfighting app for $3.50. I liked what I saw in the trailers.
Still on the train. I got Babylon for $7. I even exclaimed out loud, "Six ninety-nine?!" in happiness. At one time it was being sold for $25 or more. Simply spectacular movie and $7 is doable without breaking the bank. $6.99 actual price. $7 estimated price, rounded off.
Thank you God and thank you, forces of life for providing me with such an excellent movie for $7. I could not believe it when I saw that. It's on that level.
Saturday Night Live is on sale for $8. Not spectacular as most of the movie takes place on a television sound stage. I didn't see the entire movie. The movie is about the very early days of SNL. I don't need to see this movie on the YouTube big screen. The free movie site is good.
Babylon is simply on another level. It needs be viewed on the YouTube screen. 4K UHD is standard on YouTube movies.
Tobey McGuire actually scared me. On Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas and on the Spider Man movies, he was a mild mannered good guy. In the movie Babylon, he was scary evil.
He's a good actor. I would think that they all are since that is their profession. They went to film school, acted in some Broadway plays, did a stint of Shakespeare, appeared on a television commercial then a soap opera then as an extra in a movie, then in a speaking role, then as a secondary star, then as the starring role. Some never get to starring role.
Tom Cruise and Tom Hanks became mega stars. So many really good movies that most people have at the very least a few of their movies.
There was a movie being filmed near the hotel where I live. It looked like a Christmas movie because I saw quite a few Christmas decorations. I didnt stick around. I wonder if a major movie star was here like Ryan Reynolds. That guy is also a mega star.
Chinese is a beautiful language. It is a pictographic semasiographic language composed of morphemes. For eg the word unworried has 3 morphemes, un, worry and ed.
So the morpheme meaning wood added with another morpheme meaning wood comprises the word forest.
Cang Jie was a person real or not who literally had four eyes. He could see this world and another world. He invented Chinese writing which looked very different oracular bone script which is a few iterations behind what I previously thought was the standard old style Chinese script.
Every language is a rabbit hole.
Going from speaking English 24 hours a day to speaking Cantonese? I think I could do it. I've done it before with Thai. As for the speaking Cantonese, that's what life growing up was like. My home then was a mini Cantonese theme park in the middle of Canada. One of thousands.
My grasp of the language I would rate at a grade five level, if that. My knowledge of Thai is even less. I'd know enough to get around. Go to the store and go shopping.
The cities in China offer a faster pace of life than where I am now. I don't kkow if I'll ever go actually.
The Last Shaman. 2023
Would like to watch one day. Costs $10 on YouTube. What. $3 more than Babylon?! Uh, no thanks. It should be available for free.
A Nation shouldn't try to copy another Nation. It should just be itself. Canada shouldn't try to be like China. It's fine just the way it is.
Just as one person shouldn't try to copy another.
I got an email from my old friend, the Chinese landlord. The situation then was nebulous to be kind, but years have passed and the Chinese often don't like the remember the bad things from the past. He invited me to a restaurant like he did in the old days.
I'd give it a shot. I'd tell him that into VR and the electric skateboard.
I'm worried he might try to convince me to move to Vancouver.
That he would write me an email after all these years means he is stalking me. I've had a few stalkers over the years. Not see someone for years and then they write to you all of a sudden.
What happened was he convinced me to go to Thailand but the thing was he wanted my bank card and pin number. Whenever welfare day occurred, he would withdraw the money, keep the rent portion and send me the support portion. That happened once when I was there for a month and a half. He then coerced me to go a second time but that time I gave him a phony Pin number. Now this person is contacting me again.
In a person's life, they can meet a lot of characters like stalkers. How common is it for people to contact another person after years?
I don't know if Jim wants to send me to Thailand again or to China. Funny that email arrived on March 17 the day I first wrote about the spectacular rock star cities of China.
My damned loopy brain also thinks that Jim might be planning to kill me. He might be some Chinese gangster. First of all, why would he write an email? Sun Tzu, The Art of War, the element of surprise. If the Chinese were upset at me to the point where he was going to kill me, wouldn't other Chinese people have been involved?
It would be interesting to visit Vancouver again to actually talk with someone again rather than walking around alone. I'd ask him why he himself would stay in Canada and not have moved to futuristic rock star China since in Canada there is a housing crisis and the streets have a lot of homeless people.
I don't know if I should go or not. I'll give it a week. I might just ignore the email. My imagination also has the sad tendency to go to a place where if I don't answer the email, he'll send a hitman. If he does, then that would be one really weird and edgy day but it would soon enough be gotten over with and I'd be with Heather again and not only that, the exquisite physics of the other dimension.
If it wasnt for Jim the Chinese landlord, I would have never gone to Thailand.
One time when I returned from Thailand, I saw that he had stolen a photo of me and my female cousin. It was tucked in a book that he had on his desk.
Only my life can bring such weirdness. Whenever someone from another town sends an email, it is always some kind of trouble or else a request, why don't you visit the town again? That could be a trap. Jim might say that I owe him money, I mean who knows what weird sh*t people will come up with. When I haven't seen someone for awhile to recontact them is really awkward. Too much water under the bridge.
I once had a dream where I was on the second floor of a store in a shipping mall. Shelves nearly empty. White sunlight streaming in through windows. Then I saw Jim. He walked towards me. He was wearing a perfectly white shirt, no stains, perfectly ironed. He apologized, saying, "Sorry." Perhaps he is sorry about the past but I wouldn't hold my breath.
I'll probably just ignore the emails. Usually I just check the email once every two weeks and even then I don't look in the junk mail folder. Today I signed up for some VR app and they would send a confirmation code via email in the junk mail folder. I wish that entire damned chain of events didn't happen. Then I would have never seen that email.
Jim is 12 years older than me. He's 67. Sometimes if you put off contacting someone, in a year, a couple of years, they'll be dead from old age or whatever. You never kkow.
He never mentioned Thailand or anything else in the email. It was a simple message along the lines of. How are you doing? If you are in Vancouver ever again, I would like to treat you to a Japanese buffet. I look forward to hearing from you.
He did use to treat me to Japanese buffets. He had a girlfriend then whom he since married. I had a girlfriend then who since died.
Perhaps life will send me a sign of what to do.
"Oh, that's my stalker." Hugh Grant, Bridget Jones Diary
The last time I talked with Jim was in 2001. The last time I saw him was in 2004. I had been going to a Thai Buddhist Church in Vancouver. Then one day he was there! I asked the Buddhist Priest who was there," Yeah, he's looking for you." was what the Priest said.
There have been lots of tim s when I worried about someone. Really worried. But then I never saw them again. The worry consciously and subconsciously created a wall around me regarding that person.
Time signatures as omens. Example. One day a person gets arrested and three months later there is a court trial in which the case is then resolved somehow. One day in the future, that person goes on a major trip to England. Originally planning to stay for a week, the person winds up staying for three months.
About 21 years was the last time I saw the Chinese landlord. 21 - 24 years. Perhaps 21 - 24 years after Heather's death, I myself would die and see her again in the afterlife resulting in a time signature omen.
I donate to the Police charity several times a year and I work at the Courthouse. They know me, kind of. If I had a real worry about anyone past a certain level I guess I could contact the Police.
Jim might or might not visit Victoria to look for me. The Chinese especially the old ones are superstitious. Crossing a body of water from one shore to another on a boat at night is very bad Feng shui. It's a death omen and Chinese avoid death omens as they are a very life affirming people.
Pastor Joel Osteen had many sermons with tiles such as Protect Your Imagination, Its Not What You Think, Quite The Opposite, in which he said that many times we worry about what simply won't happen. We should get an Oscar for the things we imagine in the future. Things will wind up just not happening. I won't ever doubt God.
God is protecting me in this and in all other situations.
If I haven't seen someone for two years or more, it's really awkward for me to talk to them. I most often don't.
Get used to it. Upon entering the afterlife, it would be like, look there's some people you haven't seen for ten years. There's another group you haven't seen for thirty years. Oh my, there's some people whom you haven't seen for 50 years. Mind blowing, there's another group of people who died before you were born but know you well! In my case, King George VI, Vicky and Albert, Vicky in blue, Albert in a red military uniform. Red and blue. Police colors.
At that time there won't be fear because then you wouldn't be wired to the R complex, the amygdala etc and you can't be held hostage to the physics of this dimension in ways such as, can't teleport so one is locked in a room, R complies and cortisol so one is beaten. Fear of death and death always hanging as a threat. All that is irrelevant in the afterlife. It would be a good reunion.
I wouldn't report Jim to the Police. For what? All he wrote was if you are ever in Vancouver again, on the proviso of if which means barring unforeseen circumstances king of all being death. Then I'll treat you to a restaurant. Coincidental I said that to Maria on the phone one time. Jim has met Maria. So that could be a hello from her. These things often work along those lines.
Nothing threatening. Nothing like let's do that Thailand thing again but this time with China. "I'll rent you a room and you go to China. If welfare knew you were in China you'd be cut off. This way you can collect welfare while in China and there would be a room waiting should you decide to return." Jim was a real scofflaw when it came to came to White collar crime and human smuggling aka fraudulent conveyance of persons namely welfare recipients from Canada to Asia. Jim would go to Chinese immigration centres and look for economically vulnerable Chinese to rent rooms to and then to do the go to Asia live like a king, rent portion and support portion split indefinite time period welfare scam.
Since the Jim Cavaziel, another Jim, movie from Angel Films, Sound of Freedom, about human smuggling, authorities treat that more seriously now.
He has a brother on welfare who he sent to King Kong, I mean Hong Kong and I wouldn't be surprised if he was still collecting his brothers rent portion of the welfare cheque 35 years later. Not been in British Columbia for 35 years and still collecting BC welfare. What do you call that?! I'd call it 'a good run'. This might be a half @ss common scam. Nothing like that.
In the movie The Departed, the Police Chief said, "At the Police Department we deal with deception all the time. What we don't deal with is self deception."
If you are paranoid thinking that you are in danger with someone, you are in self deception and don't bother contacting the Police. The Police themselves would tell you if you are in danger with someone. It's called an Osman warning. Someone named Osman got threats, it was reported and ignored and he got killed. The Police would visit someone and say that there is intelligence that their life is in danger and they would have to be relocated. Usually applies in the case of witness protection program.
No one reads my blog so I am not certain if the Police has gotten a wind of this.
Neither answer would surprise me. Security agencies like CSIS and the NSA are intensely good at gathering intelligence. They're on another level. They're not Police. They are security guards and in their own way just as major.
I had a dream that I was in a room with a family of my cousins. One of them was a security guard. He walked into the room looked right at me for a second, scanned the room judiciously decided there was no trouble and calmly left. He was wearing his blue Brink security uniform.
Security guards. In another dream a security guard told me that a person gets more time robbing a jewelry store than he would robbing a bank. Jewels are more artful than money. Jewels have to be carved.
In another dream, an undercover cop in a long black trench coat made of felt stepped in front of me as I was leaving a 50s style diner and this was after hiding in the pipes of the overhead vent looking out at the restaurant through the slats of a rectangular opening in the overhead vent pipe. He stepped in front of me as if to say, I knew you were in the vent the while time. There was that. Instead he said to me, "You are very artful in your creations."
One time a real cop told me that I'm articulate. There it was again, the morpheme or else syllable 'art', a coincidence, a connection to that dream.
I need to be in a really good place to do cartoons again. To be artful again. Ideally the apex situation is to be in a five star hotel living with a woman whom although I swore I'd be single for life just like the rest of the cool buddies who are also living at my hotel, a lady whom I intellectually respect in spite of myself. I wanted to not like her but wound up really liking her. Unless I were in a situation like that, with such wind under my sails then I don't know if I could do another cartoon anymore.
Jim, James is the namesake of James the Second under whose reign At Andrews Links golf course started.
Facing oneself in all aspects even the intrusive racist screed thoughts and writing it down is therapeutic and is the basis of Gestalt therapy.
Wednesday, March 19, 2025
The Chinese really prize and treasure Native Arctic Eskimo sweaters. Those black and white zip up sweaters. Those sweaters used to cost less than $100. These days the Native Eskimo sweater loom weavers are being paid to scale so those sweaters cost upwards of $700 now.
Those sweaters are nice but like any expensive sweater, they're itchy.
I don't think I'll have to worry about Jim. The worst scenario I envision is that he'll show up, tranquilize me and put me in a van and then when I wake up in Vancouver, he will try to coerce me to repeat the Thailand scam but this time with China.
He might possibly say something completely off the wall such as, "Why stay in Vanqueerver, British Queerlumbia, Queernada, and such Western weird local culturally destabilizing influences when you can stay in a real red blooded country like China. China will straighten you out!"
I'll have to make sure to tell him. It might disappoint you to know that I haven't brought with me any new photos of me and any of my female cousins for you to steal because I haven't seen my cousins for over 20 years.
He would tranquilize me and as as he's placing me in the back of the van, two Police Officers standing across the street gathering evidence for another case would see it and say,
"See that? A Chinese guy is placing another what looks like an unconscious Chinese guy in the back of a van."
"Ho hum. That guy only wants for the other guy to go to Thailand or China or something collecting the rent while sending the support so that guy can live overseas. With that kind of money overseas a person can live like a king. We see that all the time."
"Thailand and China. The farthest I traveled to is Las Vegas in the States."
"I myself never traveled outside of Canada."
I don't think so.
Pastor Joel Osteen said a person can win an Oscar with where they take some of their worries.
At this point, I'm hard wired to the English language and as tempting as the off the scale spectacular cities are in China, I'm going to stay here. Due to my PTSD, I don't know if I can leave the downtown area ever again. The Police refer to that as a person's zone of comfort.
Canada could be a spectacular rockstar now that China has set an example. It will take time however. As Bill Gates once said, "A lot less changes in one year than you would think. A lot more changes in ten years than you would think."
James Cavaziel said that during the filming of The Passion of the Christ, he had a vivid dream where Jesus sat on the edge of his bed. On the floor were cards in Royal suits but the figures on each of these cards one after another turned into black figures with skull heads. Jesus explained to him that, "A person is born of pure almost Royal nature, they are like a tree full of healthy leaves, but whenever a person rips someone off or does something greedy, one of those leaves turn black."
Just about everyone has a few black leaves, don't worry, they are the ones God saw their future and every mistake they would ever make and still approved them.
Jesus then went on to say that a few people have too many if not all black leaves. There is a hell.
Medium Nicole, Matt Fraser and other psychics said that in all their years as a psychic they never contacted anyone from hell and don't believe it exists.
A clue, people in hell can't send a message to a psychic medium. Only those in heaven can do that.
I always imagined there would be songs in the afterlife. Classic songs such as London Bridge and Ring around the Rose that survives as classics for centuries. I also imagine that in the afterlife there is a dire, a pirate's shanty about the process souls go through whose entry into heaven is delayed. Everyone eventually makes it to heaven but for some there is a delay.
Prison works. A person does a bad thing and kills themself and goes to hell immediately. Another person does a bad thing, goes to prison, dies and in the afterlife discovers that he would have gone to hell had he not gone to prison. But because of what he went through in prison and this is something that governments know about, his entry into heaven has been fast tracked and expedited.
Whatever it is, enhanced spiritual teaching, opportunities to make amends and to help people even from prison. On weekend pass, discourage or scare if necessary an assigned candidate from continuing a criminal lifestyle, these will expedite a person's entry into heaven. To what degree depends on the individual.
China: Bald and Bankrupt. A few days ago. Room in high building. Windows good view. Five star hotel mini condo style complete with new modern bathtub. Price $65 night.
Canada: Hostel, share a room with a dozen other people $100.
Moving there the dynamic would work the other way around for you as you would be paid less than you would in Canada. But their economy is so well structured that even then citizens have more purchasing power than in the West.
"Why don't you move to Asia? What do you pay for your apartment. Quite a few hundred dollars a month? Here in Asia, you'd be paying $40 a month. Cheap, somewhat low grade but very comfortable and so tremendously affordable."
"Well, since the government pays my rent, I pay $0 a month or else $0 annually which is an even better deal than even the Fuggerei village in Germany where the rent is $1 a year that's $1 Canadian, in terms of denominational value in Euros its even less, .88 Euros a year, let alone here in Asia. And while the integer value of my rent in Canada is about $450, the integer value of 40 dollars Canadian in your money is 1,000. 1,000 baht. 1,000 is more than 450 in terms of integer value so you rents are still more expensive on one level, that is psychologically.
China executes two Canadians. Hardly a first as all kinds of expats got executed overseas here and there usually for drug smuggling. Expats often hear of such stories.
China plays hardball.
In Canada, there isn't an official death penalty. In Canada, things are handled.
From August 7, 2020 New York Post:
"Canada Executes Two Canadians For Drug Smuggling.'
Again, hardly a first.
It's gotten so you'd think it was weird if they hadn't executed any Canadians for awhile.
Where there is supply there is demand. Drug smugglers wouldn't be there if there wasn't a market for such substances. These stories are an an indirect ad, visit our country, drugs are somewhat available!
I'm not moving to China or any other country. I donate to the Police charity on an annual basis and will be personally pledged to do so for life.
Even though I have a criminal record I still donate. A person can be behind bars and donate via electronic money transfer and the Police would still accept that. The Police are worldly in that way and in so many other ways.
It can be thought of as a litmus test that even though I got busted I still sent the Police department money for the Police charity and a sizeable donation. Legal privilege allows me to not disclose the amount. Not everyone donates and certainly not many on welfare and to that amount.
In fact, sadly many after they get busted try to get money from the Police department instead in the form of wrongful arrest lawsuits which is just terrible.
The Police are great people. I admire the Police on a scientific level. Pure science.
I still have a very respectful fear of the Police of course. Who wouldn't?
I'm still worried about the Chinese landlord. He speaks Cantonese and Mandarin. He is also somewhat of a racist so therefore speaking Mandarin might be comforting to him since in Mandarin one is saying jigger and n*gger all the time in that language.
I splurged twice, may God forgive me. I went for the $15 a month ad free experience on YouTube. Like the cast of Anchor man smoking crack on the News set, I felt it right away. Not crack cocaine. What I experienced was the videos loading with no delay, no error. As smooth as silk. Purring almost silently on all 12 cylinders. Time is precious. Some ads are profoundly opportunistic and not in a good way, lasting as long as an hour.
YouTube is genius. The monthly plan is a guaranteed income for them. They already sell ad slots which show up on enough videos. Only a certain percentage of people use the ad free experience. And there are new users who don't use ad free.
So it is a business paradigm of revenue only from ad slots
or revenue from ad slots plus revenue from ad free subscribers.
For ad free users who are creators the ad free acts as kind of union dues or ski lodge dues. My cartoon views, likes, ratings etc will raise to a slight degree but on the internet a slight degree can make all the difference. I'm now a creator on YouTube paying his dues.
I also spent $8 plus tax for Harley Quinn and the Birds of Prey. It looks kinda like a chick flick. I want to be someone who knows the works of female directors as the male directors are more famous just like in the hockey world.
Sasie Sealy directed Lucky Grandma which I think is one of the greatest peliculas or films ever made.
Cathy Yan directed HQ and the Birds of Prey.
She directed another movie called Dead Pigs. Set in her hometown of Shanghai, the movie depicts dead pigs dumped en masse into a river. The movie is a statement on developing at too fast of a pace at the expense of other values.
I find women to be excruciatingly beautiful. So beautiful that it hurts in a really really really good way. A crisp searing sensation.
See, that energy can be used against you. Especially if you work for the government as a spy in the field of espionage. It's called a honey trap. In the movie Munich, a honey trap killed one of the agents. But then she herself was done in afterwards. Movies are what they are. They can be shocking and graphic.
Anyways, I don't know if I'll ever find a girlfriend again. One whom I can intellectually respect. Or what if she turns out to be the great lady that I initially thought.
Going to nightclubs in the afterlife is so much better. I don't go to nightclubs because too lazy, somewhat costly, just used to not going. I think I missed my entire life not going to nightclubs. Lots of beautiful ladies there.
There's other things at the nightclub. Mean drunk angry guys wanting to fight, some illicit drug use.
The afterlife would have better nightclubs under better conditions. Teleport there instead of walking. No R complex or liver in the afterlife so one never gets drunk or has a vomitty hangover. Meet a lady. Not sure about her at all. In the afterlife, there is complete telepathic link so no misunderstanding and you know if you're on the same page or not with her. Even if not, the differences wouldn't be conflictive as they might be in this world because of the physics of this dimension.
The sudden email from the Chinese landlord after decades is like something from a bad bildungsroman which is a book that has a story that takes place over decades like Les Miserables or the Chinese movie They Live. Monty Hall, This Is Your Life. The email made me ask Heather to ask God if I could get an early reprieve and hang out with Beebs in the afterlife. Heather Beebs.
Oh Beebs. If life is going to send me such grim overwhelming forces, it makes me want to quit life. Why not?
Thursday, March 20, 2025
Sunday, March 23 is when the next Canadian Federal Election will be called. Talk about hitting the ground running. That's sudden. Take advantage of the honeymoon period before the welcome is worn out which in this particular case wouldn't have been quite a while. PM Mark Carney will certainly give Trump a run for his money.
My newly emergent criminal record especially with me technically being under some kind of to be served in the community form of custody that would make me ineligible to vote. You say that like it's a bad thing. It takes less effort not to go and vote. Less ergs, joules, and caloric output. Stay home, drink some tea with milk and sugar, watch television. See the election on television.
I don't know if I'm legally able to vote. As in all cases I would give this the benefit of the doubt and to just presume that I won't be able to vote.
I hope Mark Carney wins. With his banking pedigree, that guy is majorly.
Today I cleaned for the Library, clearing weeds from the planter areas, sweeping the East area stairs and removing moss from a wall.
Then I swept the Courthouse grounds. I am happy to do it. I'd rather do it than to not do it.
I got Toy Trains VR for $13.50. It occurred to me that I just loved the trains and rails building segments in Smurf Village. This app, if played far enough to a certain level, results in a Christmas level. Full VR immersion or pass through options available. I really love this app. That's not too pricey. I didn't go overboard or anything. I don't purchase apps lightly. I had 30 minutes to try it free. I decided that I definitely wanted to get this in less than five minutes.
The first time I tried it, I didn't understand it. Once I did, it was great. There are puzzles on each level that require making railroad tracks that successfully connect past two or more stations. There is a free world but it is limited st first. Completing higher levels allows one to unlock more things.
If this app added paid DLCs I would get them.
- Christmas Polar Express
- Oriental Express
- Western cowboy
- Circus train
There's a graffiti spray paint VR app which looked nice. A few reviewers said there is no erase or undo function. Fail. Didn't get. Won't get.
Friday, March 21, 2025
Today, I cleaned the electrical fuse box area Northeast of the Courthouse. There were the weeds removed from the walls and from the cement bases of the fuse boxes. Then remove all weeds growing in between the cracks of the cobblestones going for a 100% kill rare. I swept leaves from the area. Then I used a trowel to remove the dirt from all, that is, all cracks of the cobblestones which took an hour. Of course I had to sweep up the dirt generated from that.
I also removed weeds from the bases of trees removing the chia pet species, catching them early before they grow out of control.
Trump and his 51st State comments.
Unlike the United States which is a monotonous* autonomist country, Canada is one country with a peculiar nature. It is one ditonomous autonomous country composed of two colonies or else protecorates.
Canada is a protectorate of England and Quebec is a protectorate of France.
The Turks and Caicos islands are part of Canada.
The islands of St Pierre and Michelon are part of France.
The other day, the Leader of the Bloc Quebecois said, "We will unify against Trump. However what I reject is the idea that we unify as a country, as Canada against Trump when we don't have to do that."
Trump might think divide et impera divide and conquer as Canada seems to be divided but Canada will unify just as the Communists and the Nationalists unified during World War Two to repel Japanese invasionary forces. Dealing with two protectorates with two different approaches, two different rues de guerre would be more challenging. A twig alone and part is only so strong. Together they are stronger.
Israel is also a one country two protecorates set up. Israel is a US - British protectorate while Gaza is a Russia - Iraq protectorate.
Trump has more to worry about from forces within the United States than he does from Greenland and Canada. The chickens will come home to roost. There will be blowback from the political fractional forces within the United States. Tide goes out is the first two years and tide comes in is the second two years of a Presidential term of Office.
Anyways Trump said that if he got elected what's going on in Israel and Ukraine will end very quickly. Within 48 hours. So if that is the barometer of veracity then we really don't have to worry about Trump's words.
Trump would have to get past Europe and Europe is on another level.
That phrase on another level is used too much. Use a phrase too much and it loses its effectiveness like someone who cusses too much.
I'm sure that all of us are on one level or another.
Trump is almost 80 years old. He thinks that he will for sure live another four years. He probably will. If I were 70 let alone 80, I wouldn't think that I'd for sure live another four years. Trump has super human confidence. It's the same kind of brazen confidence behind his attacks on Canada, Greenland, Panama Canal, etc.
*monotonous means boring, The United States is definitely not a boring country. Some of the best people ever in the history of humankind is from the United States. I love the United States. Great movies. Great apps. Great people. # Complete intellectual respect.
Politics aside.
So many Canadians don't like The United States and Americans. That's why so many people went to the Taylor Swift concert.
Gretzky statue has some extrusions smeared. That's a conspicuous minority. Gretzky expressed support for Trump and the 51st State. Expressing support or not won't change things. Canada will always be Canada. Canada survived the War of 1812 and also 54-40 or Fight.
I'd be more worried if Trump was only focused on Canada. It would seem that he has additional interests in Greenland, pissing off yet anoehter European country, Denmark, in addition to the UK and France as per Canada. Trump is a multitasker which leads to a diffusion of priority.
There is a saying, Be careful how you treat people on your way up as that is the same people you will meet on the way down.
Shakespeare said something along the lines of, "When he reaches the top, he kicks down the ladder thus scoring the base degrees from which he did ascend."
Next week, next month, Trump will mention annexing some other place he hasn't mentioned before. It's like he has ADHD and is online shopping.
What place next week, next month? Elon Musk is from South Africa. That place too with its diamond mines. Nothing would surprise me at this point. ADHD like symptoms + Trump + Office of the US President = very interesting times.
Elon Musk is at the Pentagon to discuss a secret upcoming war with China.
Trump couldn't mop up what's happening in Israel and Ukraine which has a noticeably smaller land areas than Canada and China. And Trump waants to take on Canada and China too. The States couldn't win against China indirectly in the Korean and the Vietnam Wars and it believes it could take on China directly.
Too many fingers in too many pies. Empires that stretch themselves out too thin.
Presumptuous. Elon Musk at the Pentagon would have been interesting optics. Would the Pentagon side with Musk who has $331 bn or China which has quite a few trillion. A thousand trillion wouldn't surprise me. For a population of over a billion, a thousand trillion is about a million dollars per person with some money to spare. A trillion is $1,000 per person in a population of a billion.
I hope for Elon Musks sake that all this isn't a chain of events that ends with the government or the strengthening ever emergent faction that will succeed Trump in the next election does a partial or complete freeze of his assets. The government would have possession of the interest rates that Musk's $331 bn would accumulate. That would be a lot. Even at 8% a year which is the standard rate of a savings account. Checking account is less. The bank loans out the money at 12% interest. That's one way they make money. They also make money playing the stock market, but in a very strategic way. The bank is kind of like a casino where instead of you are directly paying money for yourself to make bets where you stand to make money, you are indirectly paying money for the bank to make bets, have a flutter, where they stand to make money. Except for them, it's a shell game. They make money for sure whereas for a regular stock market investor, not so much.
So in an imaginary scenario, the government lewves Elon Musk $1 bn of which Musk describes as a measly billion. Musk would feel that he had been relegated to the welfare rolls.
A billion. Even if a million was spent every 3 months, it would take 250 years to go through it all. Get a house, a nice Mercedes, VR goggles with basically unlimited access to purchase apps etc. Visit other towns anywhere. Stay in five star hotels and still have lots left over.
Last night I got Blade Runner the Final Cut on sale for $8.
This version has digitally remastered sound and image, continuity errors fixed, the full unicorn dream sequence. And this is Ridley Scott's curated favorite version.
I won't move to China because it would be too difficult. Anything that is too difficult isn't worth doing at all. China does have its slum districts and YouTube videos show that. Those areas don't look too flashy and futuristic.
I hope that Toy Trains VR has new DLCs. Give it time. There will be newer and better model train diorama apps. I built a diorama in free play and it looks like what it would look like if I got an actual train set with stock decorative pieces. That would take up space and cost a lot of money. With this app, you can save a few tables created in free play.
Scary: Toy Trains VR is from Poland. I hope they don't decide to do a World War Two Poland train diorama, you know what that means, otherwise, ugggghhh. Fashion faux pas.
There was something I was going to mention. Then I forgot. If I remember, I'll tell you. It wasn't anything important. I think it has something to do with a food recipe.
A YouTube short about how prayer works. An electron was split in half and the two halves were placed 14 miles apart in a particle accelerator. The two halves were linked somehow. What happened to one particle also happened to the other in less than a second. Light takes more than a second to travel between those two points!
Those haploid particles are operating on the time travel is time experienced on an objective level everything is happening simultaneously time dynamic while we are operating on linear time in the same universe as that particle. That particle is experiencing spiritual properties. Only the spirit can travel faster than light.
What are the similarities and what are the differences between the time dynamics that we and that split particle are experiencing?
I'll think about it but probably someone at the University already has the answer.
I would have to use the theoretical approach rather than the actual calculus approach which would be nice if I knew, but I don't.
Saturday, March 22, 2025
Two days ago, something strange happened, but a really good thing, kind of.
The full story including telepathic history on my part.
"I want a full transcript including telepathy." Dune
I went to a Vietnamese restaurant but before that, I cleaned out some of the cracks of the sidewalk and swept the front stairs before going in to place my order.
I told the waitress what I wanted. She said all right. She invited me to sit down or she didn't, I don't quite remember. An important detail? I doubt it.
I sat down and saw that she was talking to the manager. He leaned against the checkout counter. When I looked over, the manager was giving me a strange look that I couldn't interpret as approval or disapproval. I was sitting there for ten minutes. I looked over, they were still talking. I imagined, painting a picture in my mind that they were saying something negative about me, whatever.
I left suddenly. I whispered impatiently, ASMR, "Weird energy!" I thought the waitress didn't even place my order. I imagined that it was prejudice.
So I went home and I even cooked some fried rice. Then I thought that I should pay my monthly cell phone at a local cell phone store at the Shopping Mall near me. I went and then I thought, "Should I go to Chipotles? What if I just go back to that Vietnamese restaurant and order something else. I want to see if they have something against me or not. Otherwise I would just avoid the place for awhile, indefinitely."
I went back and the order I placed was there waiting! The waitress said, " What happened, you were gone for awhile."
I told her the truth," I don't really know what's going on." which was a blanket statement that covers just about all of my life. It was an existential truth.
I walked home. I saw a few young street meth heads leaning against a building. They saw me as well. They seemed to know what had happened. They said nothing. I don't think they knew at all, actually but sometimes I imagine spiritual street people like Joe the Tramp in the movie Polar Express.
Yesterday when I was working at the Courthouse, I saw a Police car drive past me. It was as if the Police knew about it as well.
See. The mind pairs inaccurate pictures all the time.
And what I experienced was a miracle. If that's not a sign that God was looking out for me that time, I don't know what it was.
That was the Hand of God.
In the movie Always, the main character in the movie dies and goes to heaven, the afterlife. He sees a wise woman who is a spiritual authority figure. She says to him, "You will have the ability to send your loved ones thoughts to guide them although when they get these thoughts, they will think that it is their own thoughts."
I think that Heather might have been looking out for me at the Vietnamese restaurant.
The movie Always got one part wrong. The main character that died returns to Earth as a ghost, having the power to teleport between dimensions. He stands in a room of a house where his previous girlfriend is with another man. Romantic scenes etc. The ghost yells out loud as if to his wise woman spirit guide, "Why are you making me go through this?!"
Wrong! The ghost could see the future at that point.
"The Dalai Lama told me that upon my death, I will receive total consciousness. At least I got that going for me." Caddyshack
When a person dies, or sometime soon after, they will receive a download that takes just a second like a computer that can download a few terabytes in one less than one second VS a computer that can only download one gigabyte a minute.
That includes a life review of their own life including telepathic history of themselves and everyone they ever interacted with as well as knowing the future on a detailed intimate level.
The ghost wouldn't be angry or upset as the ghost can read the thoughts of those in the room and as well the ghost can already see the future, years ahead, that things with her will turn out all right, the death process that she fears and that he once fears, he knows it is nothing to worry about at all having gone through it himself and that he will be there for her when she goes to the afterlife.
Since seeing the entire future including that visit with her, is that visit also part of the terabytes of information download that only takes a second, is that visit part of our outside the one second download of terabytes of information? If a person sits with one leg on the bed and the other leg firmly planted on the floor, is that person on the bed or not on the bed? Wording, a subjective phenomenon is something that only you care about. The event itself doesn't care about that. The answer to the riddle, in such a case, is the person on the bed off the bed? The answer is Yes.
George Foreman dies at age 76.
Boxing Champion, Heavyweight Legend. And the innovator of the George Foreman grill.
He was a double threat.
The afterlife really is mind blowing. Beyond imagining.
Animals have human intelligence and can talk to a person using whatever language involved.
I had a dream of a large walrus in an empty swimming pool. "Help me! Help me!" It said that loudly and slowly.
So in the afterlife, I could talk with a dinosaur and it would say,,
"Oh yeah, it was a total rock show. Meet females, sleep, eat, repeat. We had language being able to speak very similar to you thanks to our syrinxes which parrots have that gives them an ability to speak. You might have referred to it as a specialized voice box. We called it the normal voice box. So we had language, we had society, we had culture, but we didn't have technology.
And the sights. The animals and plants of our time looked more psychedelic and mind blowing than the animals of your time. Sounds too. There were some unimaginably mind blowing sounds. And oh, we had music! Imagine a chorus of a few thousand dinosaurs singing in unison. We were the first choirs on Earth. Where do you think bird songs come from? Bird and dinosaurs are reptilian."
In Real VR Fishing, I catch a fish, it takes the bait, then a great hammer head shark commandeers the catch and that's what I reel in.
In real life, this is a metaphor for the Chinese landlord sends me an email which I read. Somehow the Police got wind of this entire thing. Funny, I saw my lawyer on the day after I wrote about the Chinese landlord welfare traveling overseas scam on this blog. I don't know if anyone reads this blog. Me and the lawyer discussed something or other.
Anyways the judicial branch might be interested in this and I don't know if there is a Police investigation launched or not. either answer would surprise me.
Did the Chinese landlord do this same scam with others?
If the the CL eventually sees a judge thenthe CL would have caught a hammer head shark. Judge's hammer, gavel, hammer head shark.
I'm worried that he would visit this town and look for me. First of all, who goes to another town when they don't know where someone lives. If he knew where I live, he would have sent me a letter or sent an email with the words, "I know where you live. You're lucky I don't visit you and give you some serious sh*t."
Even so, where would I be at any given time? Visiting a friend at another town for a few days? "
I need legal weapons. Chinese Imperial forces in dreams taught me that projectile weapons are most effective. The weapons involved in these dreams were tan colored arrows that appear clean, of course they're clean, it's the afterlife set of ohysics the master vibration, and a throwing knife.
I don't want to use throwing knives against Jim. I really don't dislike him that much. This would only be an emergency measure. I think the Police would see to it that these kinds of things don't happen.
If James, namesake of James the Second under whose reign St Andrews Links golf course was started, decided to visit Victoria to look for me, the Police would know. Facial recognition software.
One time returning to Canada from Thailand, going up a ramp which leads to arrivals, a Customs Police lady stopped a middle aged short Oriental Lady. The Police woman said, "You are being detained for human smuggling."
Jim was kind of a thrifty guy who watches his money. Visit Victoria, on seaplane $300 each way. Plus money for food etc. Go in a car. Gas money and $70 car passage fee plus possibility of two sailing waits. Quite a few hours.
Or ride the bus and go on as a foot passenger. $45. At least. Plus 5 hours each way.
He also has a family.
Chinese are death omen superstitious. Crossing a boat from one shore to another is a death omen. He would have the tendency to not do that especially since he's old, almost 70.
Today, I cleaned the sidewalks around an art store. I then cleaned some weeds in a planter area rock garden in front of a business. There were two sides on either side of a doorway. I cleaned one side, mostly, yesterday. Today I went back and cleaned off that other side as well. The work took about three hours.
Today I searched on Google: Do I have to go to Church if I don't feel like it?
It seems kind of extraneous. I never met any ladies there whom I had really fun times with. Just more vapid useless times that don't leave me feeling any worse or better.
The West is sleepy.
China is more proactive. If I or someone in China was running a store and I saw someone doing a really good job cleaning around the store, I'd think of something to give them and run out and give that. A few dollars, something gourmet to eat. Thailand would have done that for me unfailingly. That's their dynamic energy.
The West has sleepy energy.
I'm in a town of takers on an island of takers. Sh*t physics of a sh*t dimension.
I still do the work because whether I'm working in a town of generous on the ball people, or a dead town of vapid takers, the work istself is no more or less difficult one way or the other.
The jury is still out as to when I could be compensated indirectly. The secret is to do it so many times that I forgot st least half the times I did it so when or if I don't care, get compensated, it won't be so greed driven as for it to be linked to any particular task or other.
Today I found a Callaway golf ball at the rock garden planter area where I was removing weeds. It's a nice one. Very nice. That was my reward.
I donated at least $5 a week at the Church for years. 4 years is $1,000 worth of donations.
"We got people on welfare who say that they are going to give a thousand dollars and doing it!" Religulous
And after all those donations, nothing happens for me.
In the ancient days, Churches were where men met hookers. Future spouses met one another at Church. It was a place that encouraged fertility. If a Priest or Priestess sensed that a guy was looking for a lady to have good times with, they would see to it that was arranged especially after after donations that total over $1,000 in the last few years.
Well, the Churches that I went to are dead and absolutely useless. Churches in the Third World today are more proactive and more on the ball when it comes to that just like Churches of the old days. Churches that I went to are starchy. I just don't like the energy and regard it as extraneous. I don't need to go. I don't want to go.
"It would be neither useful nor necessary." Sherlock Holmes
Any town in the West can life hack itself to look like the spectacular cities of China.
A lot of it is covering the building with a fine veneer which accentuates and displays the laser lights that would then be shone on it. These surfaces would be be polarized glass so as to not be so reflective in bright sunlight. The lasers would be set to an intensity that more ergonomically friendly than the traditional laser pen light so that people living in the buildings don't get their retinas fried every time they look out at the spectacular light show splayed all over the city skyline.
I'm sure that any town can piss out something like that over the course of a few weekends.
Or are the buildings in China lined with energy efficient HDR television screens?
HDR High Definition Resolution
I got a VR app called Arto for $6. Someone in comments said they purchased it for a lot more. I think it's my good karma for cleaning the art place because this app is simply incredible. I got bang per buck on this one.
Beyond belief.
- A falling scene where one is falling through a complex high tech intricately detailed city.
- Freud therapy room. His famous room on the Bergstrasse. He knew this room well when he wrote The Cocaine Papers. Which I read.
He started off with drinking cocaine dissolved in water. Lots of it. Then he was mainlining. 2 grains, then 5 grains on another day until he wrote to his wife, "Martha, I am a wild man on cocaine." This room in the VR app.
The Cocaine Papers is available at the Library for anyone who wants to read that.
- The Lake. A boat floating on a lake. This boat looks thus that if Emily Carr's the Elephant was a boat that floated, it would have looked a lot like this.
Well worth the $5.
That experiment where the two haploids or halves of the one electron 14 miles apart does its thing simultaneously in less than a second whereas it would take light about three seconds to travel that distance. The thing is even if the electron was a hundred, or a thousand miles apart, when one of the halves is shocked and acts a certain way, the other half of the electron also acts the same way in less than a second regardless of the distance. Einstein said even on the other side of the known Universe which he called spooky action at a distance. . Quantum superposition. Quantum entanglement.
One of a few possible answers is that before birth, we are given a download of terabytes of information in less than a second.
'We can't see the forest for the trees.' as the old saying goes.
We are experiencing the parsing through the data mode.
Instead of thinking how many years in linear time, think of how many parsing units within a contrived distillate framework of what is actually an instantaneous moment or else a singularity.
When one dies, they might discover that their life was just a DMT trip and thus the moment of their death is the same moment of their birth. I had a dream about a couple of months ago. I was in the hallway of a Spanish style colonial house. There was a blue carpet along the floor of the hallway and there was old early 1900s Spanish colonial furniture all around. Me and my spirit guide, he had long curly brown hair, some stubble, wearing a tan long sleeved shirt and a dark brown vest. We were standing at the large open entrance. There was a metal walkway as what I could des ribe as very similar to that used at the PNE in Vancouver. It was a metallic caged area where a partition formed two short walkways, one where people entered and one where people exited, all in that one small area. The spirit guide said that this area where people enter is also where they exit.
I imagine that when I die and I'm the afterlife, I'll walk through a certain passageway and like how I'll recall a memory or a song that I haven't remembered for literally decades, all of a sudden it will occur to me that I remember this hallway from decades ago. Decades ago, I was one of the people who I see going the other way which entry into Earthly life. Since the afterlife is a lot about symbols, that symbolizes that the moment of birth and death and those in between were all what science refers to as experiencing a time dilation within a singularity, as those things are the exact opposite of the other, positive and negative, yin and yang. A time dilation within a singularity.
This of course would tie in with simulation theory.
Existence is a movie with each pixel being a Planck unit and a frame being a unit of Planck time. This unit of time is also how long the terabytes of data takes to download. And is about the time lapse between one half electron reacting and the other half reacting simultaneously even miles apart. When the Planck units blink on and off, it blinks on for one Planck unit and blinks off for one Planck unit, repeat, it seems like a linear string of Planck units, but they are all the same moment of the singularity, because they are all connected to you. This singularity download of yours starts with conception and ends at death. Even if you were to time travel this would still apply. Under this dynamic, time travel is time experienced objectively and linear time is time experienced subjectively are indistinguishable from one another. They are one and the same. Sometimes things change incrementally or gradually between one frame and other. Other times the change is sudden and thorough.
The hands of a clock point in all kinds of directions but the center is one and the same.
Each parsing of data seems to take linear time and goes in all directions but it is all part of the terabytes of information in a less than one second download. Just like another one we are all going to get called The Life Review.
Life is the primary or foundational download. At the end of life, we upload information that will be the basis of the Life Review which is the secondary or main structural download where you get to know the telepathic and empathetic reactions of everyone you've ever encountered even if it's someone standing next to you at a bus stop or an elevator and noticed you even if only for a second.
People from University might read this. It could be the foundation for different Universities to take this to the next level each in their own different way. Or not. I don't care.
This is just a theory. It doesn't come from me only through me. To God I give the credit.
It takes place in what we perceive as decades of subjective mind created linear time to process this information but it is all actually taking place in less than a second otherwise the two halves of that particle would never have been able to do what it did. Couldn't happen.
Think of a movie that takes places over decades, a bildungsroman,. Zhang Yimou's To Live is such a movie. The story spans the 1940s through to the end of the 1960s. The Last Emperor is another such movie. To the characters in the movie their experience spans decades. To us, the entire thing is over in one hour and 45 minutes. Simularly, what we experience as decades is part of a less than one second download of terabytes of data that another us in another dimension acquired. Why? Why not?
But what if that one second of terabytes download in heaven resulting in what we perceive of as earthly life, what if that one second was part of a larger field of time in which that too was a less than one second download of not just a few terabytes but a few thousand or even millions of terabytes which is part of a less than one second of download consisting of hundreds of trillions of terabytes of information and so on and so on. A fractal. A rabbit hole of wormholes. A singularity within a time dilation.
Essentially a download within a download. When we read a book or watch a movie, that then is a download within a download within a download.
A wormhole is a teleportation thing ie the Einstein Rosen bridge.
It needs to do this gradually as each download stage can only handle so much. It is said that God only sends representatives because his real light is so bright and the energy is so intense that a person would die when seeing it. Die sweetly but die just the same.
Don't quote me. It's not like I'm a theoretical quantum physicist that specializes in calculus at the University.
There is the macro and the micro. The entire Universe itself is a few trillion terabytes download in less than one second in another paradigm. Let's say a quarter of a second. Our individual life is also a download of but of a hundred terabytes but also takes place in, same amount of time, a quarter of a second in some other paradigm. So life is an app synchronized within a larger app.
There are a few Future movies.
1. Hello From My Future Self
2. Dave the time traveler
3. Ryan Reynolds time travel future self meets present self movie.
These movies are an answer to my thoughts about the algorithm of time I arrived at which I said before and won't say here again. The answer is, even if you know all that,
"Don't worry. Your future self is here to tell you that you will be OK. You will be more than OK. You'll see." Ryan Reynolds actually said that in the movie.
You are worrying for nothing. Take it easy.
The why do some people live longer than others within that framework?
A person who only lives to 50 is only given 50 terabytes of information to process whereas a person who lives to 90 is given 90 terabytes of information to work out, to experience. Terabytes so to speak. Terabytes is a metaphor.
Why are people born in different times in history?
Their personal downloads have some similar but mostly very different sequences or block chains of code in their terabytes of non energy overlapping download.
Why do people live in same and others in different times and also partially the same and partially different times in history? Sets, subsets, unions, intersections.
Sunday, March 23, 2025
Mark Carney signed the Canadian $20.
Did Trump sign any American money? Probably not.
Given the interesting exchange rate Trump would only have to sign an American $10 to be on par with Carney's pecuniary accomplishment.
"That will be $60 or three Mark Carneys."
Shake It
Ian Matthews
Good song.
First train diorama I did. Less features were available as I then hadn't completed the prerequisite levels for that.
Toy Trains VR. The above is the first really good train village that I made. World building. This is like the train building in Smurfs Village in steroids.
My 3rd Toy Trains VR diorama.
I found out that in spite of my criminal record, I am legally able to vote in the upcoming Canadian Federal election. I thought that I wasn't legally able to vote even going as far as to phrase it as 'giving it the benefit of the doubt.'
That evening on the CBC News, a picture of Trump was shown giving a sidelong stoical slightly disapproving glance looking right at the camera. As if looking right at me!
It's as if he was saying, "Come on. I taught you better than that."
I'm voting for Mark Carney or his local representative. A strategic error? This neighbourhood has been an an NDP stronghold for the last 40 years. Vote thrown away?
Anyways, in Canada it is impossible for a for a riding to simultaneously be an NDP stronghold and a bellweather riding due to technical issues namely the NDP has never been the governing Party ever in Canadian history. Liberals and Conservatives were the OG Parties when John A MacDonald was around. The NDP sure the heck weren't around when John A MacDonald was around. The NDP started in the 50s under Tommy Douglas as the CCP.
If it's a throwaway vote, why bother going to the polling station to cast a ballot? Again, Trump would glare disapprovingly and think, "I taught you better than that."
Vote anyways. It helps the Party Leader you're voting for get the popular vote. How does that work when you're not voting for the Leader but for the Leader's representative?
Popular vote means nothing for technical reasons I won't get into again.
Is voting in the election a waste of time?
Monday, March 24, 2025
My most recent train diorama. I was going for the magic mountain effect. Plus a sky train.
Multiple trains. Multiple tracks. Toy Trains VR. The houses dont light up in night display.
App is innovative but rudimentary.
The Chinese writing system is right brain. Artistic. The characters themselves don't have contain any clues as to how it sounds so you have to be told beforehand.
The English alphabet is left brain. Logical. Phonetic clues in the lettering.
Watching a war movie, the right brain thinks either side could be the good guys while the left brain has determined who is the good guys using historical facts.
The reptilian brain that the dinosaurs had was excellent at memorizing symbols. They used this to find their way home after a hunt. Landmarks and features along the trails represented a set of to be remembered symbols.
The Chinese are very reverent of the drsgon. In European medieval mythology, the dragon was an enemy. In Chinese mythology, the dragon is a friend. So much so that the dragon sits at the apex of the Chinese zodiac.
Causation or correlation. In any event the Chinese alphabet with its intense basis of symbolic acquisition is an R complex reptile brain language.
The English alphabet is a mammalian brain language.
The mammal and the reptile appear on costs of arms as a deer on one side and a dragon on the other.
Wontons contain shrimp and pork, again, the dragon or reptile and the mammal.
Humans have a mammalian brain, the intellectual verbal brain but also underneath it, the more powerful non verbal reptile brain that remembers. The reptile brain of humans is called the R complex or reptile complex. It's responsible for sexual urges, rage, and fear. And not necessarily in that order for everyone.
Red blooded is mammalian blood. Warm blooded. Blinking eyelids.
Blue blooded is reptilian oviparian blood. Cold blooded. Nictitating eyelids.
Read and blue light. The Police.
I don't see myself going to China although I'd love to. I probably wouldn't come back. Imagine me a Cantonese cartoonist who could be in the rock show cities of Hong Kong, Guangzhou, Shenzhen.
In my heart of hearts I intellectually respect the English language more than the Chinese language so it wouldn't work out.
As for the race thing, I'll be dead in about 15 years or less anyways. So who cares. It would be great to be buffeted with the support of of your own people who are the racial majority in the land and I would be as well. But then the forces of classism would be intensified there to make up for any vacuum needed to achieve a minimum index of negativity that every single God damned country in the world has, barring none. Ask any seasoned traveler. All countries are just as bad once you get to know them. Familiarity breeds contempt. Every town will eventually just get to you, and not in a good way.
I think that God is being unreasonable for not granting me an early reprieve since I've come up with the answers that I have. He granted Heather an early reprieve and she didn't come up with the answers that I did. Heather is in a place that is literally a million times better, a geeks paradise with museums and theme parks. And I'm stuck in this awful dimension and the awful physics and the awful politics derived from that.
I could marry Heather tonight. I could marry her in an hour like a Vegas wedding. All I have to do is to overdose on some good heroin. After me and Heather's wedding in the afterlife, me and her could go to a duck pond. That's worth thinking about.
Otherwise it's life in this rip off dimension where I don't get paid for any of my artistic work. Is that also God's plan? Some God. It's then that I'll have to fly under the aegis of my own funky authority forsaking all others and overdose on heroin and go to a much better dimension with a much better set of physics. There are quite a few people on Earth of whom I wouldn't mind leaving going to the afterlife for, that way I don't have to see their wretched faces ever again.
Work in progress. Waterworld?
Tuesday, March 25, 2025
Chong quing, Central City.
Buck quing. Beijing. North City. Buck quingham Palace.
Doong quing. Tokyo East City.
I simply couldn't function in China. Walking down the street and being able to read just one out of twenty Chinese characters, if that, is the worst way to live but I'm not sure if it's the best way to live either.
I could never fully express myself in that language as much as the English language.
I didn't like the movie James the future time traveler. The movie was a woke fest.
The movie's premise was that James was better off with that rabbit hole of bossy bitchiness. That lady was abominable and he wanted that? The movie also presuppose that he was better off with his sister in his life. His sister was also dropping these subtle toxic remarks.
The other movie Relax I'm from the Future is also woke. The movie features Black women. I want to deconstruct these two elements in terms of historical technological achievement or rather lack thereof.
Woke is when people who are not from technologically accomplished racial backgrounds want to be regarded as if they were. Really?
While Europeans had fine castles in let's say, 1300 AD and the Chinese had technological complex profound formidable achievements in 1300 including several Palaces made with advanced and refined technology, what exactly did Africa achieve technologically in 1300? Oonga boonga Bush men.
And women. Its men who invented the airplane Wright brothers, the rocket with liquid hydrogen fuel Robert Goddard, the car Daimler Benz. Robert Fulton. Maxwell Planck. Neils Bohr. Albert Einstein. What did women ever invent, oh, I know, liquid paper and post it notes.
It's called technological genetic memory or lack thereof.
Woke isn't something that I could honestly intellectually respect.
Left Wing me is to acquiesce in this hybrid mongrel less technologically advanced scene of cracker agenda and woke agenda. Something I don't quite intellectually respect, to be honest.
Right Wing me is to be in China. I would be one of the racial majority with my own people racially, there in a place who I intensely intellectually respect in terms of their technological achievements.
The backwater ill managed neighbourhoods of the West underscores the downbeat delinquent mentality of the locals.
The clean technologically advanced rock show districts of China reflects the superior diligent mentality of the locals.
Srar Wokes, I mean Star Wars has gone totally woke. Ha ha. No wonder the Star Wars movies weren't all that popular in China.
White hearts, I mean Breitbarts. I'm keeping score.
The ideal scene for me is to be in a room with all Chinese people. My own people. A technologically advanced race. No interlopers from other races. For me to be with my own people is such a threat to those crackers for some reason. Most crackers know nothing of and will never understand the complexity of the Chinese culture.
"You're a barbarian! You know nothing! You will never!" Sherlock Holmes The Priory School, Sir Arthur Conan Doyle
Relax I'm from the future is much better. That movie said, "It's all going to be fine. You don't need to worry. Pressure's off. I'm from the future. There's a plan."
James the future time traveler was like he would regret his future if he doesn't hook up with that rabbit hole of bossy bitchiness woke b*tch. Yeah, as if. Don't put yourself out on my account. Don't do me any favours.
The movie Hidden Figures is about some very smart Black women who worked at NASA. If they can do the job, they should be able to work there. No prejudice. Having weird prejudice thoughts in the mind is one thing. How you actually treat people is another. Everyone has intrusive thoughts.
The human species has an average innate intelligence where ever they are from and whether their people were technologically advanced or not.
A family of octopi which are smart problem solving animals are raised in captivity for a few generations the whole time solving certain puzzles once in a while. Put an octopus in a jar. Close the lid. The octopus will figure out how to escape!
Take another group of octopi plucked from the seas. Those octopuses will all be able to solve the problems. A few will even do it in record time, even somewhat faster than the others.
Trading Places. Nature VS nurture.
I wonder if the forces of this town prevented me from getting laid.
Actually, I prevented myself!
First of all, I don't go to nightclubs. They can be like Church. Go there regularly for awhile and then don't go for awhile and it's like, "We haven't seen you around. Why not visit again?" Extraneous. Uh, no thanks.
Go to some weird sh*t place for a few months or a few years, stop going and then they're expecting you to go, what. For life. All places have a weird empire builder mentality and will try to coopt as many people as they can into their weird scene. Misery loves company.
Get laid. What if she's not good at it? More likely what if I'm not good at it.
Getting laid is the only activity that makes me worry about possibly being on the hook for child support and that would be the most unwanted thing.
There's other forms of sex, but whatever, now she's going to be stalking me, glomming onto me for friendship like we're supposed to be buddy buddies with the most boring and inane conversations and rabbit hole of bossy bitchiness.
Some things are not just somewhat but a thousand if not a million times worse than being single.
- lady dies of childbirth
- completely retarded child.
- child grows up and does something awful and is on the News and then sent away.
I'd rather be single. It's a gamble. Chances are against it, but if you lose, you lose big. Single is better.
Too bad that in Toy Trains VR, you couldn't visit the Train Worlds of other users like in Smurfs Village and Smurfs Magic Meadow.
Smurfs Magic Meadow was sh*t after months and months and months and around $100 in app purchases, the game shuts down and I had to start at reset. Timing. It was around the time that Maria died. I'm keeping score.
Anyways, that's that.
To incorporate the ability for users to visit the Train Worlds of other users requires a knowledge of coding that the developers of this app in Poland may or may not have. It's usually the feature of signing on with a Google account that facilitates this. It would be absolutely mind-blowing to see the Train Worlds of other users. Not really.
Toy Trains VR only has about four dozen things that are repeated over and over and over again. Smurf Village and Smurf Magic Meadow had literally hundreds if not thousands of varieties of things that could be placed in the world building diorama. Smurf Village etc is way more mind-blowing. Way more.
Shenzhen has a whopping 17 million population.
Shanghai has a mind blowing 46 million population. That's almost terrifying. That's more people than in all of Canada. I don't kkow that I'll ever go to China.
Wrong thinking - anything worth doing is worth doing well.
Right thinking - anything that is too difficult isn't worth doing at all including going to China.
In China, the wages are a fraction of what they are in the West yet the Chinese have built the most impressive cities.
In China, they did so much with little.
In the West they did little with so much.
In the West, it's whoop, a few hours on a Greyhound Bus.
In China it's a few hours on a new modern state of the art light rail train more futuristic than anything in the West.
The West Coast is what it is. Once you get to know it like I have through the years, there is a deep nostalgia. The spiritual energy of Native culture as seen at the Museum of Anthropology in UBC.
I don't know about going to Vancouver again. The Chinese landlord if he sees me anywhere in Vancouver, he will tranquilize me. Right. Having brought along a tranquilizer gun on the one in a million off chance that would happen. And then force me to go on the welfare scam and send me to Thailand or China.
What are the chances I'd see him there?
Two examples of Murphy's Law as applies to this instance,
- Pretend I actually wanted to go on that scam. Go overseas. Expat life. Why not? So I go and contact that landlord only to find out that the scam is no longer in operation. Perhaps the Police shut it down.
- Pretend that I wanted a chance to talk again. He visits Victoria. On that day I'm visiting Malahat Skywalk, or Sidney BC or staying overnight at a girlfriends place. Then I get an email. "I tried to look for you but you weren't there." That has happened to me before.
Or I go to Vancouver to look for him. Going back to that same address that he lived at in 1995. Would he still be there? At least 50% no. Or on that day he's on another one of his famous vacations to Asia or where ever.
I felt massive fear today. Massive.
In spite of sweeping the Courthouse grounds, when I returned to my apartment, I saw on the street a travelers suitcase on wheels. It was blue with a red trim. It had the words written in white letters, BIG BOSS. I thought he hired someone to leave it there.
Big Boss is a popular Chinese meme. Tai Pan, Bruce Lee, The Big Boss. And me and him used to often go to a restaurant in Chinatown called The Boss.
But what if I saw that and didn't get the message? Or what if I just hadn't seen it at all?
Why wouldn't he have hired someone to wait for me and then talk to me. I would just have to say that I'm not interested. He might then make physical overtures to try to abduct me but I'd have to fight him then. I'd have a 25% chance at winning and that's great odds for Vegas. Even the most unskilled fighter can lash out and land in a lucky strike resulting in a life changing injury.
That's when I felt massive fear. I had a panic attack. I talked to some people. Actually, I talked to a couple of ex cons living in my building. They gave me advice that worked. And then I saw a video of Sadhguru who said that is all just memory and imagination and nothing that is a happening reality now.
Wednesday, March 26, 2025
Today I removed weeds on Douglas Street near the museum. I went to the museum. It's a really great place.
I felt my daily fear and panic attack. Arsalan Monawar says that anxiety is trying to tell you something. Is it that I work every time I step out, removing weeds here and there compulsively being unable to stop? I do stop when it gets to be too much.
There should be time and place for removing weeds. Outside of a time and place, I won't do it.
I clear out weeds all over. In the television series World Without People, it says that in time, nature will reclaim a city. Removing weeds all over makes the city look less seedy. I've loved this town ever since I first heard about it when I was 11. At one time I wonder if I'd ever visit. I visited this town for the first time when I was 16 years old.
This town is a jewel on the planet. This town has the Empress Hotel, the Legislative Buildings, Craigdarroch Castle. I feel proud and honored to remove weeds for this fine town.
If I unceasingly paint a picture in my mind where the town I live in is a backwater and everyone in town has nothing in common with me and therefore not worth knowing, I wonder why I feel depressed with panic attacks all the time.
The town I live in is a heavenly extension of heavenly Vancouver. Aberthau Park in Vancouver is an intensely heavenly place.
The people in this town are friendly and very smart and has been very tolerant of my foibles. The people in this town are amongst the best anywhere.
Not good town VS bad town, but the idea is the entire world is a good place with good people with integrity. Every town is good. There are no backwater towns.
Futuristic large city, very exciting and intellectually stimulating.
Small town, slower pace of life, beautiful unique natural scenery and strong Sunday vibes, so strong one could cut it with a knife. I've felt Sunday vibes in every town I ever lived in. Sunday vibes are intensely blissful.
Recipe for Sunday vibes. Don't smoke tobacco. Go to Church on Sunday and just let the place weave its spell over you. Look at the stained glass, listen to the music. Go home. Put on some mellow 70s rock music and drink some coffee.
I smoke tobacco. I can still kind of feel it. When you don't smoke tobacco, Sunday vibes are stronger.
Never stop. Always remind yourself, good town, good people. This town is an intensely nostalgic town provided I am on the ball and tuned into it.
Not backwater town and flakes who have nothing in common with me and are not worth knowing which is a recipe for personal mental disaster.
Taylor. From the German thaler, one who lives in a valley.
Dean. Anglo Saxon, one who lives in a valley.
I never made that connection!
I found a golf ball in my room that I didn't know that I had. Taylor Made. Pretty good.
tAYLOR = AYLOR = ROYAL. Embedded anagram. I'm keeping score.
I saw some of the movie Baraka which is the sequel to Chronos and the prequel to Samsara. Warning. There is one segment, the concentration camp segments. Terrifying. The faces of the captives showed complete and utter fear and terror. They probably saw and heard their friends etc killed in front of them, and they knew they were next. And the demonic micro transactions, the sadistic faces and the Satanic words of the guards the entire time.
The movie showed just a handful of the otherwise literally hundreds of similar pictures one would see if they went to those places.
As it went, in a few minutes, the suffering of the captives would be over and they would be in heaven. The guards would one day go to hell.
The captive's troubles were over. The guards troubles were just starting.
I've read that those who are about to die see the spirits of their loved ones. The photos didn't show any facial expression of captives who would have seen their loved ones.
Doctors see those expressions all the time just about every time they tell someone that they have some massive wretched disease and have only a few months at most to live. Or the disease is at a point where the hospital must euthanize.
Heck, you can see the same facial expressions on someone who has only 5% battery charge left on their cell phone or someone who is told that there would be an internet disruption for a couple of days.
Someone in comments said that they saw the video on acid. Someone else replied that is the best way to see it.
Whether it's some weird concentration camp bullsh*t or God decides to unleash a volcano like Vesuvius or Krakatoa. Wtf. Six of one is half a dozen of the other.
I have a very disturbing conspiracy theory that registers as an intrusive thought. Not to name names, the concentration camp country in Asia in as many ways as possible were complicit and instrumental in the deaths of thousands of American as well as then South Vietnamese soldiers during the Vietnam War. Legally, that country wasn't at war with the States. Neither was the neighbouring country, The Plain of Jars. After the American defeat in the Vietnam War, the "useless eaters" Henry Kissinger Super K CIA propped up the leader of the concentration camp country to more or less extra judicially mete out justice as the entire country was suspect of war crimes. The pretext of a crazy genocide cut off any legal representation the captives would have otherwise had.
The political party in government then had a French name. The Leader on some level was acting on the part of France. The whole region was once referred to as French Indochine.
The novel The Quiet American is about an American who goes to Vietnam to advance an ideal that America becomes a third buffer force between the local Communists and the French. That gives you an idea of the influence of the French in that region. Therefore they used the Napoleonic Code in which one was presumed guilty and a trial to try to disprove already established guilt especially in a field of military operation would have been viewed as redundant and unnecessary. British Hanseatic Law presumes innocence and a trial must prove guilt beyond a reasonable doubt.
Do something good to people and you get paid back with something good. Do something bad to people and you get paid back with something bad. The Plain of Jars country was also complicit in the deaths of American soldiers and it was paid back when it was saturation carpet bombed with landmines.
After World War Two the Americans paid back Germany with the Berlin Wall which is part of America's Marshall Plan and Monroe Doctrine each of which is to safeguard and preserve the interests of America.
The leader of the concentration camp country was eventually killed. What can you say? American puppet gets caught up with some local sh*t.
In the concentration camp country, the Leader was ostensibly Communist as anyone in that region had to play the Venn diagram of cross military allegiances or they wouldn't last. Those that were complicit in American GI deaths during the Vietnam war were more or less Maoist elements.
This was what was going on in East Timor Indonesia. They aimed to root out Maoist elements who if they got to power would mean game over for the Islam in that country with the Maoist atheist agenda. Indonesian weren't hunting down Chinese as they are all part Chinese to some extent. They were looking for registered Maoist officials.
Thailand sure didn't want their neighbouring country to be a Maoist country as they had their dealings with the Pathet Lao. The neighbouring country was a Theravadan Buddhist Monarchy with the then King Norodom Sihanouk in exile in Paris.
I'm thinking of getting the movie Curse of the Golden Flower.
Zhang Yimou is a genius director.
He did a lot of major movies all visually spectacular. Yet among even that formidable pantheon of great movie Golden Flower stands out as at the apex of the pile.
The Great Wall is an excellent movie which has the lines, "You are braver than you think. You are stronger than you think."
Anyways, the plot is a strange play of the father who is an emperor poisoning one of his wives. Meanwhile the son attempts at some strange affair with the mother while she being drugged the whole time more or less relents. What a Chinese finger trap of a plot line. The movie is supposed to be over the top visually spectacular. I saw the trailer. Hos other movies can be watched on the meta Quest VR browser screen which is the equivalent of a 200" television while the YouTube VR app screen looks like an IMAX screen with the modern laser projectors, not the old style IMAX projectors. The new laser projectors have HDR with which colors pop and sizzle.
Cost. A whopping $16.79 with tax. I'm going to have to mull this over for a few days.
Meanwhile, To Live, The Great Wall and House of Flying Daggers is available for free on YouTube. It's a great time to be alive.
A lady told me that she'd be at a certain place at a certain time every morning. I go look for her there. She isn't there.
"If she's crying she's lying."
If she opens her mouth she's lying.
I'd say, "Don't ever lose that imagination. Just keep on imagining that you're there every morning."
Exodus 14:14 I will fight for you. All you have to do is to be still.
Thursday, March 27,2025
The word Chinese in French is Chinois. Chin Roi! Chin King, Chin Emperor. Interesting...
Le ROI!!!
An obelisk stands behind the White House. In other words a royal pin is standing behind the White House. Interesting.
Trump wrote something like, "If Europe and Canada place reciprocal tariffs, we will raise tariffs to protect the best friend those two countries ever had."
Europe isn't a country. Europe is a collective of countries. Europe is a Continent.
Country, continent, potatoes, tomatoes.
My latest train diorama made today. As you'll notice, its a F*CK of a design.
Friday, March 28, 2025
My newest train diorama. March 28, 2025
I thought I'd tell you this.
In the diorama above, I placed a small rowboat near the bridge. I thought it was an appropriate ornamental addition. When I snapped the picture, notice a small cloud appears near the bridge obscuring the boat.
A boat on river is a death sigil. Archetypal. Universal. All cultures know of the boatman and the Stygian situation.
That a cloud covered that and it was completely unintentional as there is a five second delay between clicking the shutter button and the actual picture being taken is something that I interpret is a sign of protection.
Today when I swept the sidewalk, there were a lot of flower blossom petals which reminded me of the bathtub scene with flower petals in the movie Curse of the Golden Flower. I thought it might have been a sign that I should get the movie. $17.
Should I get the movie? It is over the top opulent spectacular.
This train diorama represents the distaff side. I wondered whether or not I should do it. Georgia O'Keefe.
I still have some thoughts of getting married one day. That wedding would be the miracle of the century. I still have a broken heart so it don't know if I'll ever get married.
These dioramas cause me some anxiety. What next. Tits? Uh, no. That's enough. At some point this has to stop. Comedians in Hollywood did a lot of crazy stunts and they never second guess themselves or get embarrassed.
That's the last crazy diorama I'll refer do.
My next diorama which I already started has in mind a skytrain track that runs around the perimeter. An airport town with lots of houses on an island. Connected to another slightly smaller island via rail. There will be an archipelago of smaller islands. Tunnels, roller coaster hills, bridges, skytrain, lots of variety.
Today I swept the grounds of the Courthouse. Lots of sakura blossoms. I think sakura is specifically cherry blossoms. Of course there are also apple blossoms, etc.
At least one lady thanked for my work sweeping the grounds. I said that it was my pleasure to do that.
Followed to some whatever extreme, no one is otherwise specifically hired to sweep the outside of the Courthouse. The City does its thing once in awhile but not every day and perhaps not even every month. Certainly no one else from the public steps up to volunteer to sweep the grounds of the Courthouse.
If left unswept, what. For weeks? Months? I've seen what it it could look like.
The sweeping of the ground shows the members of the Courthouse that they do good work and that their work is appreciated.
I feel that sweeping the grounds and also landscaping and weed and moss removal is work that makes a difference. To me, Victoria BC is a brand name city like Mercedes and and Rolex are brand names. To me Victoria as a city in terms of quality is on par with Mercedes and Rolex in terms of the apex of quality.
Reasons: Miniature World, The Empress Hotel, the Legislative Buildings, The Royal BC Museum and IMAX, and Craigdareoch Castle.
I played some golf in VR always at St Andrews.
Sawgrass golf course is in Florida and that one has the large alligators in the pools. I was shocked when I saw that. In regulation golf you get a free stroke because it's a hazard. Those alligators eat only once a month and as long as they are well fed. I wonder if on those golf courses there are staff members with tranquilizer guns. I'd actually be scared to golf there. Who wouldn't?
I cancelled the $16 monthly plan on Golf plus which I signed on to for just one month then cancelled. To pay for that for life is too pricey.
So far I am just on YouTube ad-free, Puzzling Places, and meta quest plus.
I would get Sawgrass golf course for $19.
Yale University golf course is interesting too. Lots of colorful leaves in the autumn semester.
The Texas pitch and putt is common compared to St Andrews in Scotland which is downright aristocratic. But the Texas pitch and putt is very street and has a large billboard of Happy Gilmore on the golf course. What the heck. I might renew my subscription. Anyways, my subscription is active until April 8.
Curse of the Golden Flower is a Chinese musical chairs, who is left standing when the music stops playing type of plotline.
There are many types of plotlines.
Go from point A to point B to get something and then return to point A. The Hobbit.
Go from point A to point B to destroy something deemed as evil and then return to point A. Lord of the Rings. The Gods Must Be Crazy.
Instead of thinking of social anthropomorphic topics, I should think of getting the front ward somersault and the backflip.
The Golden Flower movie ended in media res. No direct conclusion. Only an implied one.
There are several and newer other movies for free.
Saturday, March 29, 2025
I think that the television is indirectly talking about me all the time whenever the year 1991 is mentioned. That is the year of my great shame of my life which has destroyed my reputation and why no women wanted to marry me which is completely wrong which I'll get to in a second.
The great shame was that in 1991 I had a few queer experiences that I'm ashamed of. I wish that never happened in my life because I am 100% hetero. I'm not even bi.
I would have been unstoppable if that didn't happen. That's embarrassing.
1991 is also a reference to the year my grandfather died. He was the first corpse I'd ever seen when I went to the funeral.
1991 also reminds me of the majorly Royal dream. 1 represents a horse. 9 represents a Monarch. My dream: horse - Monarch Monarch - horse.
About a couple of years after he died, I had a very vivid morning dream of my grandfather. He appeared young. He looked like how he would have looked like about a few years younger than the year I was born. He was sitting on a chair. His plaid shirt was unmistakable. He wasn't looking at me but as I know even though he wasn't looking at me directly, he saw me.
I had a couple of major girlfriends. Maria and then Heather. They are dead now. I could have asked either of them to marry me. I didn't. Who do I have to blame for that?
Maria had massive hardcore anorexia. As well about a few months after she died, I got a sign when I saw the movie A Haunting In Venice in Sidney, the town I was in the day that Maria died. The movie quote, "Her parents were so strict that not even the Pope would have been good enough for her."
Heather. I would have married her and I would have been a widow. I wasn't living with her when she died and I was weeping hard for a full week after she died. I never experienced grief to that level which was actually clinical grief. Not even close.
I've been told that I'm quite good looking. People are envious of my looks and when I'm with a beautiful girlfriend people around get quite jealous. I see it. They can't handle it. So they try to screw up my reputation.
People are envious of me on a lot of levels also of my talent.
It is largely not mutual. I don't think anything one way or another of their looks and I think that they don't have talent.
It's always Murphy's Law. Either its I'm too damn good looking so the News is always mentioning 1991 to sabotage my mind. Also to remind me that my reputation is too shameful.
Or else whether it's one wife or several wives one after the other of course, they would have been all wrong in some way or another. Some issue would have stood out or the lse it's whatever lady I'm with, there's another much better one and I can hook up with her one day so I'm only with this lady temporarily. Keep thinking like that my whole life and I wonder why I never got married.
Nightclubs. I've always been squeamish. So I don't go. Expensive. Loud music. Largely centered around alcohol purchases.
Whether it's nightclubs or Churches, the less you go, the less you have to go.
Welfare. Bad shameful reputation from the past or not. Weird experiences or not.
People on welfare are too poor to marry. Marriage is something that costs money to get into and even more money to get out of. Welfare isn't exactly synonymous with marriage.
There are reciprocal economic models.
In China and Asia, wages are low but a bag of rice costs $5. But prices for cars and air travel travel is expensive which prevents the poor from traveling.
In the West, wages are high so prices for cars and airfare don't cost as much in terms of hours worked to earn the money, but food prices are high, the same bag of rice would cost $20 which prevents the poor from traveling.
A social pyramid illustrates that the poor make the largest percentage of the population. A lot of poor would move to a different town or a different country altogether if they had the money. A lot of these poor people are quite intellectual. This would result in a brain drain.
Making it difficult to move to other countries reinforces patriotism and Nationalism.
It is the richer classes that have a dog in the fight. They are not so free to move to another country because that would create quite a power vacuum as they would get no better deal in any other town. Even though they know that you know that they know that the town is a total backwater. If an aristocrat in one town moves to another town, they are automatically an established aristocrat like they were in the old town just a newly arrived aristocrat, a carpet bagger.
The rich have something to lose if they move to another country.
But the poor when they move to another town could have a better life. Be an English teacher, get married. A person on welfare who can speak two languages is resented as a crazy person. Just some colorful inconsequential that amuses them when they're in the mood. Overseas, they'd be prized as an English teacher.
The poor have nothing to lose.
Hence the reciprocal economic models.
Finally, in about less than twenty years, I'll be dead. That time will, on one level, go very fast. Then at some point in the future, my life, the wretched physics of this dimension, whatever I was successful at, whatever I failed at, will all be a distant memory.
The very few ladies in this town that I've gone out for coffee with are complete flakes. Gormless. Nothing in common. I am talented. They are talentless.
Better to be single than to have a girlfriend like that.
I still believe that the answers I've come up with has earned me an early reprieve. God gave Heather and Maria an early reprieve and they didn't exactly come up with the answers that I did. They are in a realm where the physics is literally a million times better and I'm still stuck here in this dimension. I ask God. Why?
I love Heather and Maria more than I love life itself. If it were up to me, I'd quit life in a second to be in the afterlife with them.
Please God, hear my prayer.
I'm willing to lean into the strike zone and take one for the team.
It's not as if I am begging for my life at every turn.
The intense physical decline, health loss, feeling the organs quickly shut down would be terrifying beyond belief. It would be a really edgy day for sure, the first half of it anyways. Once all that's over with, it's clear sailing from there.
VR goggles are an ameliorating thing in life. They make life somewhat worth living.
Plagiarism. I've used a few phrases that some of my mentors spoke over the years. This is a badge of my apprenticeship as their student.
A blog as this one is like my journal. My diary. This is not a University thesis or can you not tell the difference?
The human species can be so so sh*t that they'll read a article, learn from it, while at the same time not liking where the article is going because they know that the article is right but it doesn't agree with their bullsh*t narrative so they do an defense against logic like make claims of plagiarism.
It's like tasting a soup and instead of just enjoying the soup, they nitpick. What are the ingredients? Where are the ingredients from?
The blog had information that you learned from and will probably steal like some jealous thief out to see what secrets they could steal. Spoiler alert. This blog was never intended for the likes of you as that is casting pearls before swine.
Enough members of the human species will read an article that they learn from but either politically disagree with or are resentful and envious of the writer so they make claims of plagiarism.
One serial killer before he was executed said the the human species is like a thin neck that he would like to put his hands around and choke.
On the front lawn of the Courthouse yesterday, I saw my first election sign.
Will Greaves. Liberal Party, Canada. Vote for him if I want to vote along sentimental lines, I hope Mark Carney wins, this vote helps his Party and therefore Mark Carney get the popular vote.
However if I want to vote along more realistic local cliquey power base lines, I'd have to vote for Laurel Collins, NDP as this riding has been an NDP stronghold since the days of Dave Barrett and BRIC shares. And ICBC.
And Thomas Mulcair, former Leader of the NDP urged members of his own Party to vote Liberal. Current NDP leader Jagmeet Singh is probably thinking, "With friends like that..."
Decisions decisions.
I should ask a University political science, which is not actually a science, prof, "Should I vote along more poetic sentimental lines or should I vote along the more realistic tow the local line lines?
Vote with the heart or vote with the brain?
If you're young and you vote Conservative you've got no heart. If you're old and you vote Liberal you got no brain.
Using that in this particular neighbourhood, downtown, if I vote for Laurel Collins, I got no heart and if I vote for Mark Carney, I got no brain.
That pretty much sums up the clumsy lose lose quandary that politics often winds up being.
Tommy Douglas founder of the NDP said that either you vote for a white wolf or a black wolf, either way you are voting for a wolf.
YouTube comment, along the lines of,
"Instead of spending their money on building like China, the US spends its money on 8,000 military bases around the World trying to maintain a hegemony that isn't working."
During World War 1 and WW2, race was secondary to nationalism to encourage patriotism and the militarism that went along with that. Nowadays nationalism is secondary to race to encourage hegemony and again, the militarism that goes along with that. In either case, did it work?
What can you say? Empires overextend themselves. In the early days only pure blooded Romans were allowed administrative positions in colonial outposts however far flung and distant. Cohabitation with locals resulted in such standards eventually changing.
Eventually as it can cost as much or more to collect taxes than taxes brought in leading to the collapse of an Empire.
I got The Hobbit An Unexpected Journey for $8. On sale. $9 with tax.
It has the dwarf kingdom, the scenes with Gollum and the Mountain Hall of the Goblin King.
I'm still mulling over Golden Flower. It's a $17 purchase complete with tax. It's an opulent movie on another level.
Golden Flower is to Yang Zhimou what Grand Budaprlest Hotel is to Wes Anderson. The most opulent spectacular apex movie.
The Favorite beats Poor Things as Yorgos Lanthimos most opulent spectacular movie.
I have to think it over for a few days so I'll know it wasn't a quick spur of the moment purchase. In the movie Golden Flower, ornate multicolored carved glass pillars that lit up from the inside were depicted. Did they have that in the old days of China?
What they did have was if you see a video of the Temple of Heaven tour, inside the temple itself, very dimly lit, were furnishings that gave off a vibe of being very old.
I imagine visiting the house of my not grandparents but great grandparents and not visiting as an adult but visiting as a five year old. You would get the vibes that the house and everything about the place was old old old. The Temple of Heaven gave off vibes like that but even older. Scary old. Haunting old. But also the vibes were somewhat very beautiful. Mysterious. Enchanting.
The Golden Flower movie looks nothing like that.
The thought of casting $17 gives me anxiety. I'm a miser, not a spendthrift!
As always, penny wise pound foolish.
A fool and his money...
Well. I was thinking of going to the store to get something to eat. And then another store.
1st item. A small pie. $8. Then some sushi $13.
Instead of that I could get Golden Flower. Still mulling it over.
Otherwise, lunch today is linguine alfredo with salmon with a jar of gourmet alfredo sauce and gourmet linguine and canned salmon.
I'll walk to the front window of my hotel at an unspecified time this afternoon. I'll look for a sign if I should get the movie or not. Confirmation bias will kick in and make the mind latch on to any old thing and to misattribute that as a direct sign to get the movie when it really actually meant nothing at all. Least of all me getting the movie.
It shouldn't surprise you at all to learn that I got Curse of the Golden Flower. I'll pay it next month. Deferred.
They should shoot a movie at about a golfer with bad skills at first but then improves, wins a lot of money, and call it The Purse of the Golfin' Dour.
The Curse of the Golden Flower is a movie where I'll have to sweep and mop the floor before watching the movie.
I was pleasantly shocked at the amount of good free HD Chinese movies on YouTube. I gasped when I saw some of the titles.
Earthquake in Myanmar. Burmese Days. I wish them the very best. Burmese people are very good people. The ones I met are good people. I wish them a full recovery. That area is a seismic subduction zone, an earthquake zone. Was the Shwedagon Temple affected?
I got the rest of the Hobbit trilogy for $16 which is about the price of a bowl of wonton noodles. It is more spectacular than Lord of the Rings which had older CGI.
LOTR is also on sale for 45% off. $8 from the usual $15. So it'd be a $24 plunge for the LOTR trilogy.
Most movies from the 2000s have dated production values except for Golden Flower. And a few others.
Sunday, March 30, 2025
Someone on the News said, "His success was weaponized against him."
If my success is weaponized against me, if that's my life, I would rather not have life. Why doesn't God just kill me. I'm not begging for my life at every turn. Better a good death than a bad life. Better a wanted death than an unwanted life. I asked God lots of times to give me an early reprieve so if I didn't get one, it's not ever from lack of asking.
My mother didn't abort me. Now, 54 years later, I wouldn't mind it if God would give me a quick and painless fatal heart attack which would be another kind of abortion. That's a long time to wait between abortions.
If God places His Blessing on me, that is something that no man can take away. A sign of God may be vivid dreams of dead Royalty looking right at me. That is something that no person can place in my brain. Only God can do that. It also means that God has seen every mistake I would ever make in the future and He still supports me. So there is no need for an early reprieve.
God sends representatives because no one can look directly at God's light. It is too bright. To do that one would be dead and in the afterlife. Look ever and see a light and at that point one is already in the afterlife. It's that smooth.
Canada can't be the 51st State because of the Police.
The RCMP and the Ontario Provincial Police OPP would be gone. It would all be Staties and any municipal Police Forces. CSIS would be gone, dissolved, amalgamated into either the CIA or the NSA.
The RCMP and CSIS wouldn't be too happy about that. The RCMP and CSIS are also tied in with Scotland Yard so I don't see how any of it could possibly happen.
On a microcosm I level, in Surrey BC, former Mayor Doug McCallum wanted to have only a Surrey Police force, but current Surrey Mayor Brenda Locke had Locke blocked him regarding that. Doug McCallum didn't get his way but if Canada was a 51st State, the States would have done Mayor McCallum job for him and the RCMP would be gone with only the SPS Surrey Police Service remaining. At the end of the day, however, Surrey became like all big cities in Canada having a municipal Police force and the RCMP.
On a macrocosmic level, in terms of getting rid of the RCMP, President Donald Trump is like Mayor Doug McCallum on steroids as Trump is not just city wide but Nation wide.
However, again, at the end of the day, as in Surrey, the RCMP will always be patrolling streets, collecting evidence and conducting investigations in Canada. Thank God for that.
Before 1949 Newfoundland had regional districts. After 1949, these became Provincial districts.
Canada as a 51st State would mean all Provinces and all Provincial Premiers gone. Canadian Provinces would merely be State electoral districts. All Premiers would be gone, the PM would be a State Governor.
Insane.
All of this would be under the watchful eye of Europe who would certainly have something to say about that.
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Monday, March 31, 2025
The Tibetans say that a person reincarnates in 49 days after the end of their previous life.
Not the person exactly, but a branch of their master spirit as they themselves were a branch from the master spirit.
There is a story of a man in his mid 90s who knocked up a woman in her mid 20s. Nice job if you can get it! "On the hook for child support? Who cares. I'll be dead in a couple of years." That's a 70 year age gap.
Me and Heather's reincarnation would 'only' be 55 years apart but I'd have to wait a minimum of 20 years so I'd be in my 70s. Tibetans say reincarnated people can be recognized through mannerisms, birthmarks, etc. Come on, there are only so many personality types. That's why the Barnum Effect works.
And people are often reborn within a few miles of where they died in their last life.
That's if you believe that.
Buddhist say that those who reached parinirvana or supreme enlightenment don't ever reincarnated. Those that went to hell or those who are earthbound spirits probably don't reincarnate.
What if I die in a few years? Then that's off.
I'm not so hung up on anyone that I'd try to meet their reincarnation which the odds of finding would be like the odds of winning a lottery.
Tomorrow is when the new Meta Quest apps are released.
My landlord still thinks that Trump might attack Canada.
Canada would have on its side:
Canada - Canadian Armed Forces
England - British Special Expeditionary Forces
France - French Foreign Legion
Australia, New Zealand - ANZACs
Punjab Province of India - deadly Gurkhas
I figure that I'll probably be shot in the fray. I think that I'd most likely be killed. That would mean an early reprieve and I'd see my friends in the afterlife.
It was a hundred dollar day. Don't get a lot of them.
Yesterday I got the Lord of the Rings cartoon, Ralph Bakshi. $5
Today I went to the Thrift store and got
Hugo Boss dress shirt.
Looking for a carafe, I got a small metallic water boiling pot. I used a magnet to see that it was good for induction cook tops.
Plastic Darth Maul dual lightsaber.
4 golf clubs, a 3, a 6, an 8 and a 9 iron. The 3 and the 6 iron are graphite. The 6 iron is a left handed golf club and I only use right handed.
Price: $61. Pricey.
Regrets. The rest of the purchases I am completely happy with. My regrets are the 8 iron which has tiny rust spots on the the shaft. And the 6 iron which is left handed. I shoot right handed in golf but left handed in hockey. The iron costed $5.50 and the 8 iron costed $4.50. A $10 overspill. Not the end of the world.
The ability to play right handed and left handed can come in handy. What if a golf gall lands on an area where there is a tree right next to it. You might have to hit the ball from a different handed stance because the tree is right in the way of where you would have been hitting. Playing ambidextrous can improve your game.
I also got the 3 LOTR movies for $27. Extended editions. Each movie is 3 hours. These are essential movies of history. Must be seen on big screen.
All in all, it was a $100 day.
On many days of the month, I spend $0 which brings down my average daily expenditure.
I was looking for and lost, gave away my other lightsaber. It was a telescoping plastic one. Blue. I gave away or sold all my other lightsaber. The green one, the two blue ones, the two LED cheap red ones and cheap LED blue ones too. Plus the blue plastic one. I have color changing lightsabers. So why have all the other ones that aren't color changing.
The Darth Maul double blade lightsaber is a complete unit in and of itself. With the one singular lightsabers, you pretty much want two. The Force Unleashed 2.
While looking for the blue plastic lightsaber, I found two ties that I didn't know that I still had. A tie from Italy and a really nice blue paisley one.
Quite a few times I got got something better than I expected in this town.
Examples.
Last week, at a supermarket, the regular soy sauce wasn't there. Another one was there, slightly more expensive, I didn't notice because it wasn't that much more expensive. It turned out that is the gourmet brand, better than usual.
I got a Hugo Boss shirt when I was expecting just a regular one.
I got the 6 iron, right handed club. I thought it was an average even under par item. It's a Callaway graphite.
Tonight I played golf in VR for the first time with the right handed grip. It's good. I did relatively well. It was an enjoyable experience. Getting that golf club set up a very fortunate chain of events.
A few days ago, something good happened. Last Thursday, I was clearing off some red moss at a wall in the neighborhood. Why was the moss red. Chemicals or what?
As I was clearing the moss off of the sidewalk and the wall, there were lots of earthworms. They had less than half an inch to move around in.
I moved the earthworms to an area of dirt near some trees with lots of room for them to move around in. It was like being moved to a five star hotel compared to where they were before. At one point I had a few worms on my fingers like at a sporting goods fishing department. All freed. Freeing one earthworm is one thing. Freeing a group of them creates what is called a wave. That could explain my good luck recently.
I brought a magnet to the thrift store looking for a carafe that works with induction cook tops. The kettle I got was lined with plastic within. Placing it on an induction cooktop set at 1000 degrees, it made a really disturbing sound in which I took the kettle off the stove top the second I heard it.
Its one that should be placed at lowest temperature which is 300 degrees.
