November 2024

 November 2024

I got Frontline Guardian for free on VR. It was part of the meta quest plus subscription. Pretty good. Smoking. Just as good as if not better than Gun Club. Free range shooter. Not a rail shooter. Very similar to Crashlands which I'll get only if it's on sale. Crashlands has all kinds of creatures. I mean the variety. Giant tape worms, prehistoric ostriches, what's not to like? However low budget free range shooters aren't an option.

I like stationary shooters or else rail shooters.

Mayor Ken Sim got his house spray painted with all kinds of egregious graffiti. That's out of order. Ken Sim is a very great mayor. One of the best in Vancouver's history. 

This is the worst case of house spray paint graffiti I've heard of since LeBron James got his house spray painted with the N word after he helped his team win the championship. 

Which leaves me what they would have spray painted had he not won the championship. 

A person thinks if they leave Canada and go back to their home country, they won't get racism or be labelled a visible minority. But there would be other things like intensified classis, the typical ignorant reverse bigotry based on regional disparities, regionalism, factionalism which would make up for the otherwise racism to fill in a vacuum of negativity that all who live life on Earth must experience and turn to greater good. 

China did experience a major scale civil war within the last 100 years. Communists VS Nationalists. 

That's what the mayor is experiencing. Some kind of factionalism, regionalism. 

Whoever did that graffiti is a delinquent. 

The Chinese diaspora is a vast cross section of many communities such as politicians, Police, doctors, lawyers, and includes the disenfranchised community, the delinquent community and egotistical troublemakers. Mentally challenged. 

I wish the mayor well. Perhaps moving to a place with a fenced compound with security guards, CCTV and no walls exposed that could be spray painted with graffit might do it. 

I myself am not sure of my mental health although my aim is to be 100% sane and 100% normal. 

One of the phrases written in Chinese is probably lum gah chawn. I recognize the middle word gah which means family which is one of the words taught in Chinese school which I went to for a few months when I was a child. 

That phrase is completely lost in translation as it is an idiomatic phrase that exists exclusively in that language. 

Lum gah chawn means roughly, the one who causes the downfall of the family name. If someone did a few people in, a school shooter, and they were on the News and the parents interviewed on the News too, "We really tried to raise him the best we could but we didn't know he was into all that Guns & Ammo Soldier of Fortune crap." That guy would be a lum gah chawn. 

Ironically, when Chinese parents scold their children, the phrase lum gah chawn is used with some alarming frequency. 

They think that Ken Sim is a lum gah chawn? He's the Mayor of Vancouver, probably 33rd degree Freemason. Which leaves me wondering what words they would have graffitied if he wasn't the Mayor of Vancouver. 

Sweeping the streets does one thing very tangible. It saves me money. For hours a day sweeping, I don't smoke nor stuff my face with snacks which costs money in the long run. 

"ING Direct. Save your money." 

A penny saved is a panny earned. But save money for what? I was thinking of travelling to England but the idea of crossing all of Canada and then an entire ocean, Atlantic, and then doing it all again on the way back is too intense for me. When Emily Carr went to England, she got attacked. I don't want that to happen to me in England. That's why I won't go. In England, there is a thought that it could have been prevented entirely whereas if attacked in this town, there is no addjtionally labouring under such a thought. 

People living on the East Coast, New York, Nova Scotia etc don't have to worry about crossing a Continent. The East Coast is closest to Europe. 

Lamentably I hope to live at the most major city in Canada that is also the farthest away from England and Europe, even farther away than Vancouver although not by much, about a 20 minute flight time. However it is a point that is closest to Asia so the West Coast would be popular with Asians whereas Asians living in New York and Florida would have to cross an entire continent and then an even bigger ocean than the Atlantic.* What a long haul. 

*Planes flying to Asia usually go North and then fly South as that is the shorter path. 

I'm not sure if a privatized $67 a month health plan means that a woman would have to perform her own abortions. Such a nominal rate. 

"That's how you learn. So you are able to do it better next time." would be the prevailing logic. 

For obstetrics, all the $67 a month would provide is a bed, a doula but not one at all trained nor licensed let alone willing to perform abortions and 3 meals a day. 

What's the difference between a midwife and a doula? About $20,000 a year. 

So under those circumstances, what's a pregnant woman who is so hell bent on getting an abortion to do? That's if in her weakened condition, she's able to successfully physically fight the doula and two orderlies for possession and control of the cost hanger. 

The BC election is interesting but the American election is the majorly one. 

The American election could wind up being a mirror, a strange fractal to the BC election as it looks like it's heading towards a 50 - 50 split just like the BC election wound up being.

In BC, the NDP got 47 seat, the BC Conservatives 44. On Monday, November 4, on CNN, Kampala Harris 47% and Donald Trump 44% of advance vote! 

What's with all these 50 - 50 splits? Ratings? 

A woman could win the US election. 

It's a sign of the times that must be accepted. Men have pressed women for centuries in politics resulting in a waste of centuries of political talent. Although sometimes women became Queens and Empresses and that's more major than a Parliamentarian. 

The fallout of the BC election has resulted in a Legislature where women outnumber men 2 to 1 kind of like any local shopping mall on 50% off women's shoe sale. 

If I had a daughter, I would tell her, "You can be anything you put your mind to including politics." 

Hopefully the woman in question is kind and not mean. 

A mean woman can be scary. The scariest woman I've ever seen anywhere on record is Madeleine from The Fall of the House of Usher. For a child to watch that movie, Madeleine would be just terrifying. 

When Eve ate the apple, there were no consequences. It was when Adam ate the apple that there was sin. 

However, if a woman is mean, God knows and she gets karma just like anyone else. 

Bad karma, good karma, it depends on the actions. 

I try to generate good karma for myself with varying degrees of success. 

Women are still exciting to me. I thought that at 50, all the batteries would have drained and I wouldn't feel excited anymore. Just numb. Often women are exciting. 

The movie The Substance had a lot of beautiful women. 

However, I think I'll be single for life. There's not a lot of women my age in this small town that I have much in common with. In a small town, selection suffers. 

Winter is coming. I wonder if I should get an electric snow shovel for the Courthouse grounds if it snows. These snow shovels cost $300 or $150 for the smaller sized model. It would have to be recharged. There would be less than five days a year in this town where something like that would be needed. A regular shovel costs $15 or $30 at Walmart. 

I got AVICII Invector for $1. Regular price, $30. What a deal. Fun fun fun. Nintendo Wii style app. 

Saturday, November 2, 2024

I am watching the movie The Apprentice. It's about Trump when he was young, he spent time with Roy Cohn who was his mentor. Roy Cohn was connected to Joseph McCarthy, Tailgunner Joe, so the chain of infamy continues to this day. 

Lawyers can be strange like M Emmet Walsh as the lawyer in the movie Big Stan. 

Roy Cohn was a strange character. 

I wonder if Leftists financed this movie or those who would vote for Kampala Harris. The movie seems to portray young Trump as a mixed up guy who hung around with strange characters. I doubt Trump was like that at all. 

Nothing in politics is as good or as bad as it first appears so Trump might not be that bad and Kamala Harris might not be that good. 

Monday, November 4, 2024

Too windy. No street sweeping. When it's too wet and rainy and or too windy I won't sweep. It's three t ok mes the work. If given the choice between wet and wind, wet is better. Wind redisperses the debris. 

The wind is at near tornado levels. 

The US Election. 

Democrats created the KKK. Republicans freed the slaves. 

So now the Democrats have a half black half whatever female Presidential candidate. Virginia Slims, you've come a long way, baby. 

Andrew Jackson was a Democrat. He was also profoundly racist. How racist? On a scale of 1 to 10, he was about 100. 

It was at a time when unlike now, if you're deemed to be too racist, you wouldn't get the job, back then if you were deemed not racist enough, you wouldn't get the job. 

I hope that Kampala Harris wins. With the upsurge of female presence in the corridors of political power, I hope that Kampala Harris doesn't sic all women on men in revenge for centuries of political oppression and suppression. The men's reply to that is, "But are we talking about the same men? The men who suppressed women for centuries are all dead. The ones you're after have died. Would it be fair to the men who didn't suppress you, certainly not on the level that those of the past suppressed you."

The name Amazon as the biggest retailer on the planet is predictive programming as it seems that in a lot of places, women are running the show. Female mayors MLAs, MPs, Premiers etc. 

What an embarrassment of riches. 

In the States, there is a separate vote for the President and another for the Congress person. Therefore there is more of a delineation between the Executive and Legislative branches of government. In the States, it is more clearly defined. 

Even if a Democrat President has a 73% Republican lead Congress with Democrats representing only 27% of the seats in Congress, that person is still the president. 

Im Canada, not so much. In Canada it's like a VR DLC bundle where when one votes for the Mla or MP, they simultaneously vote for the Leader of that candidates Party. Which doesn't address what if you like the MP or MLA but don't quite like the Leader or vice versa? In Canada, the line between the executive and legislative Branches of government aren't as distinct as it is in the US. 

In Canada, the Executive branch is merely a glorified form of the Legislative Branch, whereas in the States they have their cards more on the table. 

In the States even the Judicial Branch is subject to electoral vote as sheriffs and judges are voted for in some counties. 

BC is looking for an MLA to appoint as Speaker of the House. 

Could a Provincial Premier opt to be the Speaker of the House? Absolutely not. 

The Speaker of the House is Legislative Branch. 

The Premier is Executive Branch. Two completely different branches. 

An member of the Executive Branch of government can no more be a Speaker of the House than a member of the Judicial branch of government. 

Life is good to me. Today I found Crisis Brigade 1 from Sumalab games and I got it for $7. 

Dead Second, Spunge Games from Australia. No other apps. 

Crisis Brigade, Sumalab, part 1 called Crisis VRigade is a much simplified but similar version. I can't wait! 

Drop Dead is from Gear VR which also makes Warhammer and Battle Sister at $25 plus tax each and are not stationary but free range shooters. Crap! Not interested and too high of a price too. 

I'll check out Warhammer and Battle Sisters gameplay on YouTube. If it's stationary, I might get it. If it's a tree range, then I'll forget it. 

Holy smokes! Remember the movie Point Break where bank robbers were wearing masks of US Presidents? In Crisis VRigade, bank robbers are wearing a mask of one US President. Trump! When a headshot is achieved, the Trump mask flies up off the face! As if it wasn't obvious enough. It's a hard game. I get struck down every time and on easy setting. 

Trump is everywhere. In movies and in video games and apps like Trump Granny which is a horror escape room app. 

Tuesday, November 5, 2024

The Courthouse grounds. More sweeping the grounds. 

Trump went from being kicked off of Twitter to the owner of Twitter paying people $1 million to vote for Trump. 

The Elon Musk advantage. 

Trump got convicted so that means he'd be the first President to be on probation or something close to it. House arrest means that one can go to work but the minute work is completed then its back home immediately. Shopping for necessities is permitted. As President of the US, the definition of work cuts a pretty wide swath. 

If the Dems lose, it would probably be because of Ukraine which Russia invaded on February 24, 2022 and Israel, October 7, 2023. This happened under the Dems watch. 

Trump said if he got in power, the war in Ukraine and Israel would end very quickly. 

Also the capitulation of Afghanistan to the Taliban happened in August 2021. 

Trump said he would have handled that differently. 

We'll see what happens. 

Wednesday, November 6, 2024

President Donald Trump has been elected the 47th President of the United States. 

It was a choice of either four more years of woke and SOGI or four years of Great White hope. 

Trump has walked the gauntlet. He's the comeback kid. 

He was not invited to attend the inauguration of President Joe Biden. He was kicked off Twitter. He got convicted of 34 counts of white collar crime but instead of thinking like most people would, "I got a criminal record. They'll never vote for me now." He was back in there like a dirty shirt. Then he got shot and then he raised his fist defiantly yelling, "Fight! Fight! Fight!" refusing to go gently into that good night. 

As impressive as Kamala Harris being a VP is, Trump pulled off an act that was hard to follow. 

Trump overcame adversity as well as odds stacked against him and the cream rises to the top. 

Kamala had the odds in her favor, technically, squeaky clean record, already in high office whereas Trump was politically unemployed or else politically in between jobs at the time and yet Kamala didn't win. 

She would have made a fine President. 

"Trump Will Fix It." Trump won't be able to do anything about Ukraine etc until he is officially installed in Office in January 2025. 

For President Trump:

"Welome back to where your dreams were your ticket out

Welcome back to that same old place that you laughed about

Well the scene has all changed since you've been around

But the dreams have remained and you've come around

Who would thought they'd meet you

Right there where we greet ya

We tease him a lot cause we got him on the spot 

Welcome back

Welcome back, welcome back, welcome back."

I'm like SCP - 049. The plague doctor. I am doomed to wander the halls of purgatory for thousands of years. I think that I'm going to be single forever. This time. 

With Trump on board, Elon Musk will send people to Mars for sure! Government contracts or what? 

What about Elon Musk neurolink? 

Thursday, November 7, 2024

I wish I died when Heather died. Then me and her could be together in the afterlife. It's not so much being with her although that is nice too, it's being in the better and more perfect set of physics of the afterlife. Who wouldn't want that? Who wouldn't st least think of skipping the line to get to that? 

I generate a certain kind of energy and only get different and worse energy in return. 

I am a talented animated cartoonist. I can draw faces well. I can speak a few languages to whatever degree. Fake polyglot. I do parkour and ride an electric skateboard at my age which is mid 50s. 

What kind of people does life then throw at me. Untalented, gormless people. Squares with whom I have nothing in common with and with whom I self censor myself when I speak to them even years later because I don't quite trust them. And people who can barely speak their one language. And people who don't do parkour or ride skateboards. That's what the forces of life throws me in return for the energy I generate. Damned pernicious forces of life. 

Being a giver, the forces of life don't likewise throw me givers so we could all live in a mutual cooperative, no, the forces of life seems to only like to throw takers my way. Damned forces life life. I'd quit life if I only had the option. Why don't I get the option? There is a option. It's called a heroin overdose. 

I generate a kind of Zen energy and in return I get the most unzen people and often delinquents too. 

In the afterlife, the only people I'd ever hang around with are people who are as thoughtful, as considerate, as Zen, as talented as me. In this life the energy is always mismatched. In heaven, it never is. 

I have some dealings with the Court. A lot of people do themself in before a Court case. 

Anyways I sweep for the Court but I don't think that they care. Let's face it, whether I live or die, they don't care. "Oh well, just another number."

Sweeping for the Court. There are no dumpsters for me to throw out the full garbage bags of debris, leaves, etc The garbage collector company, GFL has now locked all the dumpsters around the Courthouse. I asked a sheriff which dumpsters are for the Courthouse and he pointed to the locked GFL dumpsters. The guy who drives the truck for GFL ahs seen me sweeping and throwing leaves from the Courthouse int the dumpster. I guess he doesn't want amateurs throwing leaves in the dumpsters. Only paid professionals. I can understand that. But are there any paid professionals otherwise doing that job? No. 

Ha ha, and GFL stands for grass flowers leaves. 

I did throw the garbage bags at the dumpsters at the Royal theatre until yesterday when a crotched old guy said I couldn't throw my garbage bags on their dumpsters because they have to pay to get garbage hauled and he shook his head at me like some crazy ignorant White bigot. Just the way he shook his head. That's the kind of energy the forces of life throw at me in return for the energy I generate. I don't get paid for sweeping and I don't care. But that old guy made a point of obliquely referencing money, they have to pay to get that hauled. No wonder I want to quit life. 

Then I went to the probation office just across the street to ask about if the Court had any dumpsters. The probation officer said that she would try to contact the manager of operations at the Court. Other probation officers gave me a look of stoic judicial disdain, scrutiny, reptilian fangs barely retracted. That goes with their raisin d'etre. The probation office just like a prison is supposed to be a disincentive to reoffend whatever the offense was. That look is as if to say, "You don't want to reoffend and come back here. This is not a place you would be if everything was going right in your life." 

When serial killer Robert Pickton's lawyer brought up the subject of parole at the review board, he recalled that the probation and parole officers gave him a look in their eyes that shot daggers from across the room. That's what made him quit the case. While not daggers, the look one gets at the probation office is often stern, strict and stoic as a disincentive to reoffend. 

Society is that sometimes someone can smile at you but it's a fake smile. Whereas a amber of the Judicial Branch could give you a stern stoic impassive look but in their mind, they might more or less already commend your efforts to reform yourself.

Even if a person was later found to be innocent, not criminally responsible, case discharged etc they still have to go through the same pretrial bail supervision probation process. 

"I'm sure that an answer will eventually be arrived at." I'm sure at least one dumpster, which is all I need will be available.

I did throw the garbage bags at the park next to the Courthouse until someone too, who worked at the park said that he ran a private company that sees to the garbage cans there and throwing garbage from the Courthouse there would mean a lot of extra work. So that's not an option. 

I don't know how much longer I'm going to sweep at the Courthouse. The energy I get in return. Actually quite a few people thanked me for sweeping the Courthouse. Lots. No one else steps up to do it and yesterday I filled at least seven garbage bags full of leaves and this is even with pressing down the garbage bags as I go along to make more room for more leaves. 

I don't know what difference sweeping the grounds of the Courthouse makes. 

The physics of this dimension are profoundly egregious and imperfect. As a result, no good deed goes unpunished. Sweep the grounds of the Courthouse, do something thoughtful and in return get greeted with the thoughtless energy results of people who litter on the Courthouse grounds, delinquents sulking about the probation office, people who lock up dumpsters so I can't throw garbage bags away. If that's the case, why bother? Anything that is too difficult let alone impossible isn't worth doing at all. 

I wish I was a junkie. Then on any given day when I don't think that it's in my best spiritual interest to go on living all it takes is not much, just a tenth of a gram more, what with the potent stuff that's on the streets and that's it. 

Further living in this dimension with its egregious pernicious defective dysfunctional physics can further erode the soul. It's best to go to the ever blissful, perfected and purified physics of the afterlife as soon as possible. 

Don't forget that I've come up with certain answers. Answers that I've never heard anyone come up with. But somehow that's not good enough for God to grant me an early reprieve. Although He granted an early reprieve to others who wanted an early reprieve and they didn't come up with the answers that I did. They get to wallow and bask in the ever luxuriating physics of the afterlife while I'm stuck here in this dimension. Me and Heather should have died at around the same time. Then we'd be a matched set. It is unjust of God to take Heather away and not me as well. 

As it is, I'm almost 55 so I figure that I have less than 15 years to go. 

In my life, I've only heard of 5 people on welfare who lived past 70 and only 2 who lived past 80. 99% of all welfare people die before 70. I'm on welfare. So I only got about 15 years to go anyways. 

The ideal is that a pet will reach the Guinness book of world records age. Let's face it. Most die well before that as it is the average age. The News said some people are celebrating their 100th birthday. Let's face it, 99% of people die before 80. The heart is like a battery, pacemaker, electrolytes, this implies electricity. The body is like a battery. There's only so much electricity then the battery drains. 

Donald Trump: "The body is like a battery. Eventually electricity runs out."

Doctor: "That's not quite how it works."

The Apprentice, movie 

Donald Trump has to some extent destigmatized and demystified the custodial process. A rising tide lifts all ships. A person can be charged and heck, even convicted of crimes, larceny etc and still be able to have a life. A person can make a mistake and in Donald Trumps case, 34, mistakes and notwithstanding, move on from that even to the level of attaining the highest Office in the land, President. 

Donald Trump was charged with 34 counts of White collar crime. 1 resulted in a conviction. 33 charges were dismissed. 

As long as you are remorseful and am making a genuine effort to reform and correct yourself, you shouldn't let a mistake hold you back or make you think of just giving up on life altogether as I have. As I've stated many times. 

I generate a certain kind of energy and generate another and worse kind of energy in return. 

Donald Trump at age 78 believes he can live out the next four and a half years to complete his Presidential Administrative term. See, even at age 68, I would have serious doubts about being able to live another four years let alone doing a job with such multiple stressors such as that of a POTUS. 

My theory is that the welfare recipient battery gives out at around 70 years of age at most until I'm taught how otherwise. 

One thing about my energy is that I look at weird porn, granny porn. I'm in my mid 50s, it's at the point of, "Hey! You're in your mid 50s now. If you're not looking at granny porn, then why the hell aren't you?!" 

All porn is weird. There's no such thing as normal porn. 

That's another reason I wish to shed the trappings of this life and into the afterlife. In that dimension there's no carryover weird porn energy. That stays in this dimension. I don't want to be that guy who looks at granny porn or any porn at all. That's another incentive for me to quit life whenever. 

Normal porn is women in their 20s and 30s and no older because that would be menopausal. Half of the women have tattoos. Tattoos, oh, whatever, I can work with that.

Yesterday, I bought Dune Part 2 on YouTube movies. The YouTube VR app has a much bigger screen that the meta quest browser. The movies look spectacular and YouTube movies are 4K Uhd and it shows. I already have Dune 1 which I got more or less for free when I bought the Dune 1 Blu Ray and got a digital code along with it. Dune 2 is simply spectacular on the YouTube VR app. 

I was wondering if it would be on sale for Black Friday, but I couldn't wait. What would have been the savings? $5? Who cares, in this case. 

I was thinking of going to Fisherman's Wharf to get two fish cakes for $10 to reward myself for sweeping out seven garbage bags full of leaves at the Courthouse yesterday. 

But that might blow my budget. 

I'm still going to go since I didn't go yesterday which brings down my daily budgetary average. I did get the Dune movie but that was in credit card upon which deferred payment is a option. I'll pay it after so my budgetary aversge is still maintained. 

I'll probably, that is probably, go today. 

If no one rewards you for work. Reward yourself. 

I have mayonnaise and green relish which together makes tartar sauce, for fish. 

Anyways I fear the future and I wish that I went when Beebs went. I can't make it through life without her. I'm not sure that I even want to try. 

At least this town introduced me to the one person I want to be with in the afterlife. Anyone else is a distant second at best. 

I want to leave this town. Except that every other town on the planet is for one reason or another, just as bad as this one if not worse. There's no better town than this one but this town isn't that great. I generate a Zen energy, a thoughtful energy, an artistically talented energy and the only energy I get in return in unzen, thoughtless, talentless energy in return. That's why I want to quit life and go on to the afterlife because there's none of this mismatch of energies in heaven. Everyone in the different zones of the afterlife accords with the same energy as you generate and I guess for some that could be a problem. 

"Wrong! You go to a designated zone in the afterlife that corresponds with your personal karma!" Dana Carvey, SNL 

The News: "Moving to Canada searches increase after Trumps win." Really? Or is that more tow the line local propaganda? 

The United States has ten t in mes the population of Canada and a thousand times the money. 

People in the States would want to seriously move from a rock show country with better weather to a backwater country with a tenth of the population and less than a tenth of the infrastructure? We're supposed to believe that? 

Sure, that's if you believe that hardcore mainlanders, Muslims would all of a sudden want to move to a backwater town on an island. An MLA said that Muslims are inbred. That's projection. 

Chimpanzees have a 2.5% genetic variation in their species. That's how scientists were able to pinpoint Lucy as the mitochondrial DNA progenitor of all humans. 

Humans have a 0.5% genetic variation in the entire species. 

But people in England have a 0.2% genetic variation because they live in an island. 

There were boats that crossed the channel and have been for st least two thousand years when Romans went to England on boats. 

While England is a calico cat patchwork of different regional scents, Europe is a calico cat patchwork of different languages. Every hundred or two hundred miles or so they were speaking an entirely different language which would have discouraged travelling and encouraged inbreeding. 

Whereas Muslims were very well travelled. Genghis Khan, Muslim Khanates had a much more diverse gene pool than Europe let alone England so what that MLA said was projection. 

And why would Americans want to move from a country where there is the 2nd Amendment to a country where there's almost the total opposite of that? Even if you're not into guns, in the States you can legally own nunchucks and sharp samurai swords. 

The States is better in that way. 

Kamala Harris said, "In the United States we owe loyalty not to a President or to a Party but to the US Constitution." Which includes the 2nd Amendment. 

The 19th Amendment gives women the right to vote. 

In just about every place, the only thing people can offer you is trouble. That's because maybe they're so full of trouble themselves. You're talented? Again, they can't offer you talent. They can offer you trouble because that's their way of demostrating authority. 

Backwater Alfred E Neuman face cracker trouble. 

I don't give people trouble. So naturally, in return, the damned forces of life sends me people who give me trouble. I hate life. I love Heather more than life itself and I'd give up on life in a second to be with her in the afterlife. I hope she knows this. 

In the West, you can be a Black person who did something to a Native person and be charged and processed with Police and Courts comprised of White people. In other countries all involved are people of your Nationality. 

In the West, Police can see an interchange between two Japanese people and then ask, "Do you know the person? What happened? Was that an assault?" Whereas the story is, initially the Japanese person said, "How are you? Are you working these days?" but the Police would totally have missed that, not speaking the language. 

The movie Three Kings said Michael Jackson changed his skin to look White because the West made him ashamed of being Black. 

YouTube videos of the city of Guangzhou show a modern city that makes cities of the West look like a backwater. The West likes to rest on their laurels and to laconically refer to other countries as Second World, Third World countries but the dynamic has changed and the show is on the other foot. Look st some of these so called Third World countries and look at how modern their infrastructure and architecture is compared to the West. 

If you're living in a country that's not in the West, there's a lot to be said for staying there. Why would you choose to leave a country where you are one of the majority to move to another country and be labelled a racialized visible minority. 

I was brought to this country without my consultation when I was an infant. I wonder how much better my life would have been had I stayed there and not come to the West. I would probably have gotten married. I would have felt better about myself overall being  one of the majority rather than a visible minority. 

Especially since there's this especially pernicious streak in the West where Natives who lived here for between 10,000 - 27,000 years as visible minorities. 

You have low self confidence. The West did that to ya." A British expat. 

The News talks endlessly about people who immigrate to Canada. But very rarely does it talk about the people who chose to leave Canada permanently and why. Propaganda? All countries have that. All countries are just as backwater and unworkable as those in the West. From strange writing systems that involve pictographic writing systems, sentences where words are not separated with spaces between them, superfluous grammatical marks that depict assonance, vowel sounds and sometikmes even consonance, consonant sounds and lacking any similarly significant authors such as Shakespeare, Stephen King, Charles Dickens, Sir Arthur Conan Doyle, George Orwell, William Burroughs, Agatha Christie, and JK Rowling,. 

The West is the Best. 

The West typically has lighter sentences than those imposed in other countries. 

Life still isn't something that's quite worth living in my opinion and if all I can look forward to is welfare and being alone like SCP - 049, then I want to see if I can cut out the middleman and ask God to give me an early reprieve. 

Better a good death than a bad life. 

Better a wanted death than an unwanted life. That's my rationale. 

I don't believe in good karma. I only believe in bad karma. 

No good deed goes unpunished. 

What goes around comes around but only for bad things. 

If I do something bad, it always comes back to bite me on the ass not soon after. 

If I do something good, I get no reward, no money, nothing happens for me. I do animated cartoons on YouTube. I don't get any money from that. 

In the afterlife, every single good thing you do, you get rewarded, you feel fully rewarded right down to the spirit because that's the only thing one is made of in the afterlife. 

A parent is toxic and very abusive to their child. That child goes on to live in tent city whereas that parent goes on living that middle class lifestyle of bourgeois affluence as ever even until their death. 

There is no such thing as good karma. If you do something good, nothing will happen for you. No money, no reward. 

If you do something bad, something or someone bad will happen to you 100%. 

Because when it comes to being an @sshole, life always always finds a way. 

I wish that God would give me the classic seven minute fatal heart attack. At that point I wouldn't be panicking and wondering and having health anxiety because that doesn't kick in until at least two hours after the initial self diagnosing of whatever medical issue. 

With the criminal record, can Trump travel outside of the US or will this more of an Elvis Presley Colonel Tom Parker kind of Presidency. I'm sure Trumps lawyers can arrange travel waivers. 

Can Trump issue himself a pardon for past legal transgressions? An American lawyer said, "No. Because US law is based on two principles. One, a person can not be their own judge or even juror. Second, no one is above the law. We are all under the law." 

Trump can look for a judge who would be very likely to issue him some kind of pardon. Governor's pardon? Would the New York Governor issue Trump a pardon? 

Trump being President is party times. Trump would either be more strict or more mellower than during the last administration and I'm thinking that due to the hubris of going to Court and then getting shot at, he would be a more empathetic than usual head of State to the plight of the common man. Let's face it, with his strange recent embroglios with the law, Trump is like The Great Gatsby. Party times. Roaring Twenties, Roraring Twenty Twenties or what? 

"The road of excess leads to the palace of wisdom." William Blake 

What do Trump, Bill Gates, President George W Bush and Premier Gordon Campbell have in common? Thsy all at one time or another had their mugshot taken at a Police station. 

I did go to Fisherman's Wharf to get two fish cakes. 

I actually more or less have some kind of Court case coming up. The case has been before the Courts for most of a year now. That's all I can say because of a publication ban. 

That's not saying much because there are all kinds of Court cases, criminal, civil, military, Court of the Exchequer. My trial won't be anything like the Scopes trial. That would be for the upper floors. My case is in the basement where small cases are handled. 

I'm also on bail supervision aka probation now as well just like Chum Lee on Pawn Stars once was.  Whereas probation comes after a conviction, bail supervision is a pretrial measure for when one misses a court date even unintentionally. Whether or not one is found guilty and gets convicted the bail supervision pretrial in lieu of being remanded in custody is the same in either case. 

Bail supervisor, probation officer, parole officer are the same person depending on the circumstance of the individual. Parole would occur after release from prison. 

I wondered this morning if I would be better off dead and if I should OD on heroin so as to avoid the Court case. Sid Vicous did himself in because he feared going to Rikers Island which would be another level to anything like that we got around here. His manager Malcom Maclaren said that he would have most likely made legal arrangements for Sid Vicous to be freed so he didn't have to kill himself. 

I told this, not the Sid Vicious part, to a Native friend of mine. He said, "Don't let me hear you say that ever again. Don't even think that. Your court case will go good. Trust me. I know it." The way he said it was reassuring. My mind otherwise paints a picture of a Byzantine reptilian court. 

My mind paints a picture where the Court would think," We don't care if he's sweeping the Courthouse grounds. We'll still fry him." I am thinking of a Boss Nass-like judge saying, "Weesa gunna sends you away!" Star Wars, The Phantom Menace. 

Judges and lawyers have street smarts and often think off the record cutting through any BS. They know who the good people are and who aren't. They are rich. Aristocratic. It would go without saying that the members at Court think on a level above and beyond someone at my level, the welfare level. 

However I did figure out the algorithm of time and what Einstein meant when he said that the passage of time is an illusion. Everything is happening at the same time. I finally deconstructed that on an empirical and mathematical level. 

Bob MacDonald of Cbc Quirks and Quarks gave a lecture at UVIC about space travel. After the talk, there was an opportunity for anyone to ask a question etc. I passed up the opportunity to say, 

"Time travel is time experienced on an objective level. Linear time is time experienced on a subjective level. Einstein said that linear time is an illusion and all things happen simultaneously. Time is an algorithm." That's the minimalist bare bones. 

There would be none of," The subjective and objective algorithms of time are an interdependent framework because one could not exist without the other. But they also cancel each other out as a time travel trip to the future returned from yesterday is a past event and a time travel trip to the past to be done tomorrow is a future event. Therefore one doesn't go forward or backwards in time but simply to another point. 

That was Bob MacDonald's science show. Scientists are gangstas. They wouldn't want anyone to upstage them or show them up at their show. 

I once talked to Bob MacDonald himself about this and he said but when you travel to another time, Earth won't be there because the Earth moves at a fast speed through space. 

I meant it as a principle that applies to all the Universe in general and not just to one planet but I guess I didn't think to say it at the time. 

Bob MacDonald also pointed out that time also moves backwards as well. I guess he was referring to how some things on Earth go through reverse entropy. 

The why wouldn't time flow sideways too and up and down. To ascribe 3 dimensional coordinates to something that is 4D is absurd. One doesn't go forward or backward but to a different point, a shift along the same point. 

Who cares? I got a top model Mercedes so to speak and am thinking about that I didn't get a chance to drive a less expensive car. As expansive as the UVIC stage hall is, I only did an animated cartoon on the subject on YouTube and wrote a out this at length on this blog and I did mention this to a few of my friends on YouTube in the comments section of their videos. Although I've reached a different set of people, I've reached a lot more people than I would have in a parallel Universe where there is no internet and I actually did get to disclose that nugget during question period of the University science lecture. 

Such knowledge or insights would inevitably be shared. You can't out the toothpaste back into the tube once it has been squeezed out. I'm counting on some very talented physicists and mathematicians adding their own spin on that idea. I would welcome that although not attending any Universities, I would never hear about that. 

I am proud of myself for having come up with that. A lot of people will never hear of it because fame only goes so far. A lot of people on Earth never heard of Shakespeare. The Legislative halls have people who are quite big wheels in their community. But most people couldn't name all the people in any Legislature. So how famous can one get, really? 

During times that I don't think I have the strength to go on, as you know, I wonder about asking God to grant me an early reprieve because of the answers I have come up with. However Trust in the Lord and lean not on your own understanding. 

I live not under my will but under the Will of God. God's authority over my life is more important than my will. I've gotten dreams telling me not to do myself in. That's God. Dreams that feature celebrities, even Royalty and grey aliens. I am meant to live on. That is my job because I am under the Will of God. My notions are not more important than that. 

Western Religion is very repetitive like a Western rock song. The same points more or less never straying past a certain point and then the main narrative is hammered home over and over again. Trust God and Jesus and be a good person. If you make a mistake, try not to do it ever again. 

Religion never talks about the different time dynamic and algorithm in heaven where Jesus is. Religion doesn't talk about the very different set of physics of the afterlife. 

Religion is very circumlocuitous, very circumscribed. 

Sigh. That's how religion is. Religion doesn't talk about Maxwell's Theory or the Theory of Relativity either. 

I might not be single for life. I have a strange feeling that given enough time, I would meet a lady again. I wish I was more muscular. I think I am very thin. It's a reverse anorexia. Anorexics always think they're fat. 

Some weight lifters after years of weight lifting still look into a mirror and see a thin guy. 

I wish that my shoulders were more muscular. They aren't that muscular at all and I'm crestfallen about that. 

My very real fears. 

1. Court case

2. My hotel is closing in a year. I hope I don't die of hypothermia in a tent on the streets with meth heads as heighbours. 

3. Growing old. 

4. The future. 

5. Dying and death. 

Other than that I am doing all right. I got VR goggles and an electric skateboard. Homer Simpson called his television, "Sister, mother, secret lover." That's what I think of my VR goggles. 

William Burroughs wrote of the nurse in the junkie ward who pushed around the cart loaded with morphine, etc and the patients in the ward called her "mother." If you were going through chronic muscle pain, you would call her mother too. 

A bit of Freudian transference but anyone who has gone through chronic muscle pain like I did last week could envision referring to a ward nurse as mother. 

I wonder about my mother. That's too intense to wonder about. 

The News said that now that Trump is President, again, the RCMP in Canada is watching for illegals that might want to flee to Canada. Minutemen. Migrants from a tropical country like Mexico, cholos, would opt for the wintry climate of Canada? Unlikely. 

Look at Mexico City. I think Mexico City was shown in the movie Bad Boys 2, a drone panorama sweeping the city. Holy smokes that city looks like a futuristic rock show. Smokin' architecture. Not the third world country of fifty years ago. The dynamics have changed, internet, and residents would be more likely to opt to stay. 

I thought that the RCMP would be watching for the ramping up of AntiFa activity since like clockwork, every time a Right Wing President is in power, George W Bush Battle in Seattle 2007, Greta Thunberg worldwide protests and Hong Kong protests which had some antifa like energy when Trump was in power. 

One time Greta Thunberg was in the same room when Trump walked past. Greta Thunberg just glared at Trump. Trump would have caught that look but being a master diplomat, didn't let on, he just walked past like a mighty dignified unflappable elephant. Trump wouldn't let the opinion of someone who at the time was not much older than a child bother him. 

Then in the intervening years, Greta Thunberg got busted. Twice. Released on probation. 

I'm worried that there will Antifa protests in this town. I think the Police are now well aware of Antifa. To be forewarned is to be forearmed. 

In Paris, a person must visit the Eiffel Tower. To not do so would be weird. See it from the ground or pay money to go in the elevator? It's basically visiting the scaffolding of the Statue of Liberty. Same architect. Visit the Eiffel Tower and then visit it again in completed form at the Statue of Liberty. 

Friday, November 8, 2024

Sweeping at the Courthouse this morning. A Russian lady who was kinda cute years ago but who has since turned into somewhat of a babushka. She has since become crippled. She accosted me in a kind gentle neighborly way for $5 which I didn't have. 

Of course my critical brain spiralled into a train of thought, I sweep for no money so naturally the forces of life sends me someone who asks me for money for no work. 

Perhaps I gave a look but anyways she didn't press it and we said our farewells until next time. 

Sometimes people just want to talk and asking for money passes as an opening for a conversation. 

Often people do not plan what they say even ten minutes before they say it and then ten minutes later forgot they even said it at all. 

Donald Trump's first wife was outright Russian. His second wife was not. His third wife is Slovenian which is kind of more or less Russian. He has a thing for Russian women. Trump has red hair and is the only one in his own immediate family who does. The rest of his family has or had dark brown hair. They could be part Russian just like Jesus was part Jewish, at least on his mother's side of the family. 

I am going to watch Horizon, An American Saga. Kevin Costner is in this and somehow found time away from doing Yellowstone to do this show. 

Western movies are very edgy. 

Perhaps the same stage sets and props can be used in different Western movie productions and Yellowstone, Horizon, they didn't have to go far with Kevin Costner at the helm. 

Western movies have a certain pacing. The 1800s. 

A porn ad: "Your stepmother will make you beg for it." 

What. From the grave?! My stepmother died. 

As for sex, there's more of grave than gravy about her. 

That would be a hard pass. 

Saturday, November 9, 2024

There is a the days go slow but the years go fast aspect to long term working. Today is a day off. I'm starting to feel kinda burned out. 

I went to a supermarket. Cilantro was sold out. I cursed being in a small town where selection always suffers. Flustered. However asking a clerk, there was more in storage and they brought that out. This is a good town. 

Buddha said that one is often not so much punished for their anger as they are punished by their anger. 

I love this town. I'm never leaving. 

I'm going to attempt to make tabouleh. I got a tomato, a cucumber, an onion and cilantro. I got the lemon and spinach flavor cous cous rather than the plain original or the pearl or the roast garlic and olive oil. I already have olive oil. Can cous cous be cooked in a rice cooker? I certainly don't see why not. It's not rocker science. 

Cook the cous cous, let it cool completely and then add some diced long English cucumber, diced tomatoes, diced onions and shredded cilantro. Add a bit of olive oil and stir around. Great recipe. 

The Critical Drinker on YouTube said that Horizon is boring. It's the fire part of a four part series and the first chapter is just establishing setting and introducing characters and there are a lot of long and drawn out scenes. Kevin Costner doesn't show up until an hour into the show and just when it gets interesting, it cuts to an entirely different storyline. I'll give it a shot. Often critics say a movie is not good and it turns out to be pretty good and vice versa as well. 

Furiosa was leaked for free on YouTube as movies as very frequently leaked. Free full length new movies shows up in recommendations probably because I purchase movies from time to time and that is a bonus gift. 

Furiosa. Critics say the movie is bland. Seriously? The movie smokes and smokes and smokes and smokes. 

Anya Joy Taylor is in Dune 2 and she says, "Paul, I am your sister. I am with you and I will always love you." That scene was stunning because it reminds me of what Heather would say to me in the afterlife except for the sister part. 

Sister? Heather could be my sister. A little bit of Freudian transference enrichens any relationship. Why not? 

On YouTube, bizarrely, only the Black and Chrome edition is on sale meaning black and white movie. Why not the color edition? 

The Lighthouse is a movie I watch often. It reminds me of how I do a lot of work although not around a lighthouse. The same set of menial tasks like a janitor or custodian. There is otherwise no color movie option for The Lighthouse. 

Not so with Furiosa. You want black and white? Go into color settings which any computer has which can instantly turn into color movie into a black and white movie. So in that way the black and chrome edition of any movie already comes free with any computer. To sell only the black and white edition on YouTube's Mercedes quality, certified platinum grade, top echelon, extra large VR screen is absurd. At least sell the two versions of the movies. 

Don't they want money? YouTube is a company that presumably wants to make money so they only sell the black and white edition of a movie released in color in the theatres? Bizarre. 

Some movies aren't available for sale. Tron Legacy isn't available for sale and now Furiosa in color isn't available on the shelf. What. Is YouTube a small town with their usual to be expected paucity of inventory on the shelves. On any given day the thing you want could be sold out, again another gift from the often damned forces of life. Murphy's Law or what? 

Sunday, November 10, 2024

Got a few VR apps. 

Galactica - Just like Galaxian. $1.19

Impact - Just like the 90s asteroids but more fleshed out $1.19

Neuschwanstein Castle Tour - $2.29

Travelers Explore World Heritage Sites - $11.99 well worth it. Mind blowing, actually. All the reviews so far on this app and there are only about three say it's mediocre. This one is a great one. I visit some of the sites featured in Puzzlng Places! I'm glad I got this one! Goes well with Brink VR and Blue Planet VR. This one is in the club. As reviews say, this app takes up lots of memory. All these travel apps do. This app mostly does 3D VR laser printed representations of the buildings in the usual slightly haphazard stylized type of renderings to be expected. Some are better than others. Kind of a meh but VR is still a pioneer technology. The room for improvement is vast. Vast. 

Blue Planet has photographed and not 3D VR sculptures of destinations. 

What Travelers Explore World Heritage Sites has is the ability to move between chairs, up stairs, to the actual pulpit of Churches, that elevated round part of a church where the preacher walks up stairs first to get to. The pulpit raised lectern is really nice and it has nostalgic vibes that remind me of the 30s and 40s even though I was born in the 70s.

You can explore multirooms within an exhibit rather than the usual explore only one room set up. Brink VR and Blue Planet doesn't achieve this range and depth of movement and exploration to the level of Travelers Explore. 

I got two more VR apps. 

Genesis VR - at $4.50 inducing taxes is a mind blowing 12 minute story of the beginnings of this Earth. If the history of the World so far can be prorated to 24 hours, humans arrived at a magic golden time just one minute before midnight. That's prodlfoundly depressing and scary. 

I saw the preview of this more or less on YouTube. I hope it looks better in VR. 

I also saw Apollo 11 previewed on YouTube but the difference between the VR app and YouTube is profound. The app experience is light years better than the YouTube video for Apollo 11. 

Carrier Aircraft - at $1.33 including taxes. I wouldn't have gotten it but a British guy recommended it. He said it cost him about 1 quid. He said that for the money, I mean come on, it's well worth it. 

I haven't shopped for VR apps for awhile. It seems I went on a bit of a spree which my credit card will pay for. Payment deffered for about a week. I'll pay it next week. Famous last words from a deadbeat*. 

*In the credit card world, deadbeat means someone who always pays on time. 

To be rich at being an artist one has to be talented in economics and business as well as art. That's the dilemma. If someone was that talented at economics etc the last thing they'd go into is creating art. They'd do something more prosaic and much more lucrative such as start or else try to own a shipping line. 

I got a free VR app called Toilet Paper World. Mind blowing. Good vibes. I won't spoil the surprise. A clue. Champagne. It's only available on applabgameslist search travel explore. 

Not available on meta quest store. 

What the hell. I mentioned Dom Perignon champagne in a review for a VR app. In the TP World app, I enter into a bottle of Dom Perignon champagne! Talk about things turning out better than I expected. 

I also got Zosu Ocean and Zosu Ocean Pass through for $1.33 each with tax. Zosu Ocean is amazing. Tried the demo. Funny thing, to get them together would be $4.50 but separately are $1.33 each with tax. Odd pricing tier. Needless to say, I opted to get them individually at that price. Zosu Ocean Pass through is fun and what the heck, for a dollar. 

Dollar store or what? 

Zosu Ocean Pass through shows animals in motion that look like the plastic animals they sell, a few in a bag at the Dollar Store or Dollarama and the like. 

Let's face it. Recombination VR is hefty. It's a VR 180 display. A 20 minute video of odd geometric configurations that most closely resemble a DMT trip. If only the price tag weren't so hefty. I'll try to get it on sale. See it on YouTube anyways. I doubt it would be better than Genesis VR which has tangible shapes, not odd geometric configurations. 

I just saw Genesis VR. It's better in VR. It won VR awards in Europe. I can see why. The app really gives that realistic scary vibe as if one was in a time machine and time traveling. I really felt like I was there, millions of years ago. That moment in time, a signature in energy code and frequency is just like this moment now, just another moment. But jot only was that version of Earth a complete backwater, it was a scary version of Earth. I sure wouldn't have wanted to be there. 

At least Earth isn't a planet where the wind goes at twice the speed of sound. 

The female narrator said that dinosaurs were the types of creatures that haven't been seen on Earth before or since. That's true. The blue whale is larger than any dinosaur so in that way we lucked out in being able to see the largest animal. 

Running time, 12 minutes. Worth the $3. 

I saw Recombination VR in a full VR 180 trailer on the YouTube VR app. I was stunned and amazed, mind blown and that's an understatement. I'm tempted to get it. All the things I heard about DMT, how mechanical elves would show up and show someone a highly geometric yet very organized and intricate and then say, "You thought that was mind blowing? Take a look at this." And then show a display that is on an exponential level more advanced than the last display. And again, "You thought that was something? Take a look at this." And again, show them something one level up in terms of complexity etc. The Recombination VR trailer on YouTube was like that. It's a two minute trailer of what is a 28 minute production. I'm highly tempted to get it. 

At $32.47 including taxes, it's kinda pricey. I'll wait until I can get the once a month 30% off deal from meta quest. 30% off of $32.47 is about $10. That's quite the savings. 

Ayahuasca A Kosmic Journey and Visionarium are two VR apps similar to Recombination. 

Ayahuasca $6.99 not including tax. 

Visionarium $9.99 not including tax. 

One idea is go into YouTube VR and search for words like fractals, geometric, trippy, etc  on the VR 190 setting and see what comes up. There are a lot of free videos like that. 

Monday, November 11, 2024

Recombination can be seen in lossless VR 180 video on the meta quest TV app and on YouTube too. The video is about 7 minutes long which is already about a quarter of it. 

Very good but no story. It is intense, life changing, etc VR 180

Visionarium is a VR 360 and trailers can be seen. Not bad but not as good as Recombination. 

Fast Lawyer recommends Visionarium! 

Ayahuasca A Kosmic Journey VR. The entire thing is shown for free on YouTube flat screen video. The actual app is VR 360. Comments say that about a third of the experience is blackness and darkness. True. The images are flashy and innovative but very organic. Scenes of a mass of slithering bugs and snakes. A laparoscopic surgical tour of a snake's inner body. A few fractals but again, Recombination is a tough act to follow. 

Ayahuasca, like any other psychedelic hallucinogenic drug isn't only about visuals. It's an immense interdimensional wave of energy that catalyzes with your thoughts changing your perception about even perception itself. A video can't convey that. The video also can't convey the inevitable stomach fibrillation a that go with any hallucinogenic drug experience as it is the gastro intestinal system doing its best to expunge the poison. 

This psychedelic energy that pervades consciousness during a hallucinogenic drug trip and the insights that go with it can although be communicated through people who are even more articulate than you or me like Terence McKenna who used the drug and then recorded any thoughts. So one doesn't need to do the drug. One just has to see a video made from artistically talented people in the computer graphics compositing field of work who are able to very accurately recall what rhey saw on their mechanically intricate clockwork elves DMT Ayahuasca trip reproduced on video, along with hearing or reading any writings from people who used the drug. That goes for any drug. 

The best way to live is clean and sober. 

It's best not to do drugs but watch videos and read writings about drugs because one can learn a lot about life and shamanism and shamanic insights without frying their brain in the process. Drug use does things to the body on a medical level. Too much drugs can destroy the liver which is what the body uses to process toxins. Heart rate, the immune response, sympathetic nervous system, perception from the brain are all medically affected from drug use. 

But at $6.99 plus tax, I will most likely get this app one day. I am on a budget. 

Sure if I was rich I'd get Recombination, Visionarium and Ayahuasca A Kosmic Journey all at once. Oh well, one of these days I'll get it. 

The thing is, you can watch all kinds of VR computer generated videos for free on YouTube. And the technology behind these apps gets old, but brand new videos with the newest technology are uploaded to YouTube etc all the time. 

Although Recombination VR is all the work of one artist named Julius Horsthius who is an impossible act to follow. It's not a composite from different artists. 

These VR apps are like the movie Enter the Void. That's if you like that kind of thing and I do like VR fractal animations. 

So anyone who gets fractal display VR apps has more money than brains. Within a year, more intricate videos will be uploaded to YouTube in the spirit of the mechanical clockwork elves again saying, "You thought that was mind blowing? Check this out." And show you something more geometrically intricate and advanced on an exponential level up.

YouTube VR reviewer Fast Lawyer recommends this. He said this was a rare VR experience that left him in tears. I might get this soon since the fast lawyer recommended it. 

If I get this app, would it be an omen that I might one day actually try ayahuasca? I really don't want to do that drug or any other over the top crazy drug ever. 

A proviso. 

Ayahuasca is a cult. It's a plaything for the rich. An Ayahuasca junket costs about $300 a session for a cup of some illicit noxious brew that cost the locals all of 75 cents per cup, prorated per cup made ip of some weeds, some leaves and tree bark that the local DMT using tribe found for free in the jungle. The rest of the money presumably goes to some nebulous CEO in a predictable corporate structure. And the shamans always say, one session isn't enough. You need to go deeper. Yeah, sounds like a cult. 

Well if that's the case that it could be an omen, then I would skip this app altogether and get an app called Who Wants To Be A Millionaire because that would be an omen that I'd be a millionaire. Yeah, right. Things don't work like that. 

"We've learned from Isla Nubar, we won't be making the same mistakes."

"No. You'll be making some new and entirely different mistakes." Jurassic Park

If I'm a millionaire I won't have any problems anymore. No. I'd be having some new and entirely different problems. That's why I don't really want to be a millionaire. I just don't care. 

What the heck. On the advice of a lawyer, I got the app today at 4:50 pm. $7.83 including taxes. Less than $8. What the fuck. 

I tried the app. It was about what I expected. I don't regret the money spent. One day, months later, the money won't even be thought of. Then it will be as if it was a free app that I pay no money for. I'll see it again then without the regret and mulling over of $7.83 gone. 

All this falls under the category of VR theatre. There are lots of VR videos that are VR theatre for free on YouTube. Don't pay for any VR theatre apps. I won't get Recombination and Visionarium and Journey To Alien Worlds. Or maybe I'll get it on cheque day. 

With Journey, you can stay on the planets as long as you want and teleport around and explore. Worlds included are 

The moon

Venus

Mars 

Titan 

Some large asteroid or other. Very large. The size of a continent. 

Fly over Saturn. 

This would be worth getting actually. I want to get this. 

Actually, again, there are tons of visit other planets VR videos for free on YouTube. 

Journey to Alien Worlds VR. Visit multiple planets and moons on this solar system. A better version of Astra. $18.39 plus tax. Tempting. See it on YouTube for free. Why not. 

I saw a 360 VR video of this for free on YouTube. In the actual app you can take as much time as you want on the planets and teleport around and explore. The YouTube video doesn't have any of this but I did get an overview. I don't know if it's a priority I've seen what I more or less wanted to see. These kinds of apps are only good for once in a long while. It's not a play for hours every day app like Pistol Whip. I'm not paying money for this. So pricey. 

Those apps aren't so much VR video games as VR short films. There are so many short films. VR, not VR, what's the difference?

A movie I have to see is Heretic. It's about two Mormon young ladies who show up at an old Hugh Grant's house. There are serious deep seated discussions about religion, comparing religion to board games and songs. 

Come to think of it, religions are like songs. It branches off slightly but always goes back to the main refrain, the main chorus again and again. There is even a book in the Bible or else Apocrypha called The Song of Songs as if it wasnt obvious enough. 

Just as people are always uploading movies to YouTube and getting away with it half the time, people upload VR apps that are static standalone movies with no variation on presentation based on playabilities Becuase its just like uploading a movie. 

These VR apps age and what with Moore's Law where computers get twice as smart every 18 months, not everyone can or will purchase these VR apps. 

The artists who produced them presumably want people to see these apps. 

A movie seen for free is worth five points. 

A movie payed for and seen at a theatre is worth ten points. 

A movie seen for free or paid for but the movie changes the life and thinking and has a profound effect on someone would be worth a hundred points to the creators of the movie. 

This is the logic for VR apps that are basically short films are all eventually uploaded to YouTube VR. 

Library websites like hoopla and canopy might be able to loan out VR apps. 1 app a month, only. Log in to canopy or hoopla directly on the VR headset browser. Then the link is accessed and it will ask if you have an oculus or meta or steam version of VR goggle. Then it can be downloaded as an RPK or ISO to the downloads folder built in to the VR goggles and can be accessed. I wonder if that would work. 

Or else see the video for free on YouTube. 

Let's face it, Visionarium 1 and Visionarium 2 is available for free and in its original VR 360 layout on YouTube. 

Sigh, other videos of the like available on YouTube include

Visionarium 2 The Descent

The Ride

The Marvelous Machine 

Jadana A Sacred Meditstion

Sacred Siren

Kid Amnesia 

One day, there will be all kinds of VR 180 and VR 360 fractal videos on YouTube that go beyond number. Literally thousands of them. 

I made tabouleh today. Cous Cous with olive oil. Then add diced cucumbers, onions, tomatoes, cilantro. This is an alchemy like Waldorf salad with grapes, apples, celery, walnuts. The tabouleh tasted awesome. There is a fresh taste with Mediterranean restaurants with ingredients like lemon, onion, cumuber, tomato, cilantro. It tastes like a tropical vacation. 

I got a pain on my right side just above the hip. For awhile my mind wondered if it was my kidney going. Renal failure. But I've had this before. It's a repetitive motion posture based injury. I always lean on my right side sort of bending it. I stayed home for two days not going out st all. Too much sitting and not enough walking around or sweeping can cause sitting down based posture related issues of muscles, tendons etc. I'm not a doctor. 

And not drinking enough water especially when aging leading to muscle cramps or what? 

I just have to rest a couple of days. 

I ate too much yesterday. A huge lunch of rice and fish and then hot dogs. The mustard of the hot dogs and the mystery meat of the hot dogs themselves is what I also atrribut to the pain in my right side because after I ate all that, I felt a slightly sharp pain in that area that has since gone away. 

When sitting for long periods always move around every couple of hours. 

Today is Remembrance Day. 

Tuesday, November 12, 2024

Premier John Horgan died at 65 years old which is young in this day and age. He probably wouldn't have died so young if he didn't have advanced prostate cancer. 

He was a great Premier. 

"If you knew what woke means, you would know that pro Rep is lit." 

Over the course of history a lot of great politicians come and go. Premier John Horgan was one of them. May he be lifted to heaven on the wings of eagles. 

Visionarium 1 and 2 in its entirety is available on YouTube VR. Unlike the actual app, the video is motion captured which means you don't get to move your head and look around freely as in the app. 

Visionarium 2 isn't my bag. It's more frsctal VR theatre and there are literally tons of free VR videos on YouTube. Also Journey to Alien Worlds, there are tons of free visit other planets in VR on YouTube. The Journey to Alien Worlds app has a VR cartoon rendering of the planet's surface. Whereas YouTube has photo realistic VR videos of images that actual NASA rovers took on the actual planet! Better than the app. NASA hasn't officially released any VR apps so the NASA pictures in VR would be copyrighted and no one could do a VR app with the same quality as NASA as they are the apex scientific organization of Earth. CERN too. 

Let's face it, Visionarium 1 and 2, Ayahuasca A Kosmic Journey, and Journey to Alien Worlds isn't as good as Recombination. Even Genesis VR which is smokin' isn't as good as Recombination. I'll get it for 30% off. Otherwise forget it. Again Recombination is a few years old and uoloader using newer engines have produced VR fractal videos that would give Recombination a run for its money. 

Julius Horsthius is a trade mark artist like HR Giger, very similar in style. 

Wednesday, November 13, 2024

I generate a certain kind of energy. I am a talented animated cartoonist. I can draw faces well. I like to learn a few languages and can even read different languages in different alphabets or scripts. And I always get a different and worse kind of energy in return. 

So naturally the forces of life throws all these delinquent personalities my way. For years in was doing csrttons while living next to someone who used to throw loud hissy fits and startling me all the time. That's what the damned forces of life gives me in return. 

I either encounter downright delinquents or else otherwise we'll mannered squares with whom I have absolutely nothing st all in common with let alone doing animated cartoons in common. 

And people who can barely operate on the one language and the one script or alphabet that they know. 

And I wondered why. 

The forces of life are the same forces of life that fucked around with large reptilian beasts and creatures aka dinosaurs for what. 350 million years?! Creatures that had as much technological capability and know how as mice. They did so little with so much time. 

Meanwhile humans have been in the Earth for barely two million years and have become a profoundly technological species. They did so much with so little time. 

And dinosaurs would have been indefinitely if the Chicxulub asteroid didn't hit the Earth. Dinosaurs were around then already for 350 million years, what's another 65 million years? 

Who says there aren't still around in some way? There are a lot of reptile species and other things like sharks and cockroaches and dinosaur ants which are living fossils. 

However the second most technologically advanced species is a way distant second at best. You got chimpanzee that dip sticks into termite holes to scrounge and scavenge for termites. The damned much hated forces of life seem to like to largely side with mindless elements. 

Again, that's symptomology of the forces of life that seems to largely operate on mainly a sub moronic primordial based kind of intelligence. And so I wonder why that for the Zen energy that I generate that life throws me all these bullshit unzen undisciplined delinquent personalities. . 

Could it be that the forces of life itself are so random, delinquent, defective and dysfunctional. That the genius of the human species emerged not because of but rather in spite of the forces of life. 

That's why I'd like to quit life altogether. Never has there been a time that I decided to quit something, quit it and felt worse. I always felt better. I feel that it would be this way about life itself as well. For the answers that I've come ip with I still have to deal with the indignity and humiliation of grappling with the stupid forces of life. 

If I could move anywhere, I'd move to Guangzhou China. There everyone is my race so I'd be one of the majority rather than a visible minority. I'd be with my people, genetically. 

Guangzhou is rock show tron future world cutting edge modern while the West is kinda of an architectural backwater. The show is on the other foot. First World, Third World. You should see the architecture and infrastructure in some of these so called Third World countries. 

The World would be better if it don't have visas and overstays. But if one wanted to be a citizen of another country, there are different legal channels to follow that really aren't all that difficult as thousands immigrate to any given country every year. 

Of course I'd then have to speak another language for hours on end, an opportunity cost of speaking English for hours on end. English is the superior language. I really don't intellectually believe in or respect that other language as much. 

That's why I want to quit life. In the other dimension, there is a different set of physics. 

There is telepathy. The Earth life is important for learning and grasping language because without language telepathy would have no meaning and without telepathy language would have no understanding. But each language and all languages together have their limit. 

Who comes up with answers like that? For such answers I feel that I don't have to endure the insufferable indignity of the duress of this set of physics and the delinquents or else the squares I have nothing in common with that go with that. 

I only have fifteen years to go at most anyways so thoughts of quitting life would at this point be somewhat redundant. I'd be 70 then. I'm on welfare. I basically never heard of anyone on welfare who lived past 70 and not even as long as 70 in the vast majority of cases. The body is like a battery it only has so much electricity. A doctor would say that it doesn't work like that. There are factors such as genetics, cellular division efficiencies, BMI body mass index, brain derived neurotrophic factor aka neuroplasticity, telemeres and lifestyle choices. 

I watched a movie called The World's Fastest Indian. I thought Dev Patel is the world's fastest Indian. 

Thursday, November 14, 2024

I quit going to Church. It's a vampiric cult. Go there a few times and they expect you to go there for life. Really? Those places have a typically high turnover. 

I encounter a lot of delinquent elements. 

The last time I went to Church, truth is stranger than fiction. 

I was in an area of the Church. There were three columns made up of rows of pews. Columns are vertical, rows are horizontal. There was no one except me in the column of pews I was sitting in. Unsettling. 

The a lady and her daughter, she looked like she was seven or younger how would I know? She and her daughter crossed a row of pews directly behind me. Creepy. The proximity. The propinquity. Now I am someone who if the show was on the other foot and I saw a person alone in a column of pews I'd pass through a row at least two columns away. How ignorant. From her vibe, I sussed her as an ill educated East European woman, one of those White people who can't speak English or speaks English with a heavy continental accent. 

I left halfway through. Why sit through all of it for no reason? 

As I was leaving, one of the sacristans, large man wanted to give me a hug. He's a friendly guy who's been there for years. I told him a few months ago I was grieving. He probably wanted to give me some hope so as not to grieve. Hope in God's provisions. I think the guy might be gay but I'm not sure. I'm willing to give him the benefit of the doubt and assume that he is, I mean that he isn't. It wasn't a gay hug. I didn't get any gay vibes. 

Then as I was walking out the door, there was the East European lady and her daughter. As we were all laleacing, I offered to open the door for her. "Allow me." I even said. She didn't say thank you or anything. Well, there was a guy who seemed to be the lady's husband. He followed closely behind them and he said "Thank you." as I held the door for them. 

The island does have good magic like that. One time I thought something, cilantro, was sold out at a store. I cursed the forces of life until I asked a clerk who said that more was available in storage and it would take just a couple of minutes to get it. 

That whole thing just made my skin crawl. 

Dinquency doesn't just exist in the lower classes. What I had there was a taste of middle class delinquency. There are often exfraneous delinquent elements at Church. 

For eg, someone in off the street. The Priest gives a lecture. The delinquent frequently interrupts the Priest and loudly spouting one conspiracy theory after another. 

I haven't gone to Church for months and I feel a lot better. In Church there are a lot of delinquent elements of whatever class that will want to glom onto you for friendship. Like we're supposed to be buddy buddy. For life. 

Yeah, right. 

Churches have a high turnover. Go there next year and you don't see them there ever again. 

That's why I want God to give me an early reprieve. I'm not the only one. 

Job 3: 8 - 9  God please crush me and with your hand, strike me down. 

Job 3: 20 - 22  God why do you give life to those who don't want it, who seek death as a treasure and look forward to the grave? 

That was Job. 

Numbers 11:15 God, if you are going to treat me this way, just kill me then. 

That was Moses. 

Jonah 4:3 God please take my life because it is better to die than to be alive. 

That was Jonah. 

Great minds think alike and foolish ones seldom differ. That's why I want God to give me an early reprieve. 

I will always have a Heather shaped hole in my heart. I'd like to also say that I have a Heather sized hole in my heart but let's fsce it, if I did, wouldn't I be dead already or what? In fact, on the day that I die, that is the day when the Heather shaped hole in my heart will have grown to be Heather sized. 

When God took Heather away, why couldn't he have been considerate enough to take me as well. Then me and Heather would have been a matched set. 

Cilantro is way better than parsley. Parsley tastes like paper. Cilantro has an out of this world taste that hints at seventh heaven. The taste isn't sweet, or sour or bitter or spicy or umami. It's in the je ne sais quoi category of tastes. 

I haven't gone to Church for months and I feel a lot better. After all these years of going to Church, my life hasn't improved at all in any way connected to the Church. Just people whom I have nothing in common with. 

I think that if I died, they wouldn't care. I wouldn't blame them, as I probably wouldn't care if I died either. 

TS is in TO. Taylor Swift is in Toronto. 

The highest price for a Taylor Swift concert ticket is $33K. Whoever pays that has more money than brains. 

The local Newscaster Stscy Ross actually opened a chocolate bar wrapper and got a Golden Ticket like Willy Wonka for a Taylor Swift concert on the air. Was that real or BS? If she won, she would probably give the ticket to someone who is a teenager. 

Let's review the Taylor Swift demographic:

Teenagers in high school

MDMA users 

LGBT community 

Those over 85 years old

Bonus points if you fit all those categories simultaneously. 

Taylor Swift now has the baton in a baton relay that started with Elvis and then The early Beatles, then Fabian Forte, then Andy Gibb who YouTube comments said he did $1,000 worth of cocaine every day, poor guy, and then ABBA and then WHAM! We Have AIDS Man! and then Madonna and then the Spice Girls and then Beyonce and then Rihanna and now somewhere along the line is Taylor Swift. 

"Love is, higher than a mountain..." Andy Gibb. Love is higher than a mountain. Mountain of cocaine. 

In the VR app, Arthur's Word Block Puzzle, the names of Taylor Swift songs was the only one I didn't completely solve. I got half of them, all guesses. Then I tried to stitch together some answers that didn't solve the puzzle at all. It's amazing that I got as many right as I did. 

Now why is it that I don't know Taylor Swift songs. I'm always listening to the prerecorded music on my mp3 player or else I am always listening to Flashback 70s on Stingray music on cable television. There is a Stingray app too if you don't have cable but only internet. So there is no vector. The local radio stations, in all probability, only occasionally play Taylor Swift songs but since the disc jockeys seldom name the song or artist like they used to after every song, I don't know which song is a Taylor Swift song. 

Music of the 70s is music of the first decade of my life. Since I think that my 60s will be my last decade of life, that's why I'm listening to 70s music. I'll be 60 in.about 5 years. Profoundly depressing or what? 

When a person is old, whether dead or alive, either way they lose. Existence reverts to that mindless primordial state that was also responsible for the dinosaurs being around for 350 million years. How did I come up with 350 million years? It's a semi educated guess. 

Semi educated because I never went to University. Sure, me and millions of others. So what? 

Taylor Swift is in a genre of music that isn't saturated with profanity, frequent mentions of homicidal criminal activity known as gangbanging and copious disturbing racial epithets particularly referencing the African American Community. Which in this day and age is a relief. 

I think I'll be single for life. The Peter Principle. A person rises to their level of incompetence. 

Let's face it. I'm incompetent at being single. I get anxiety attacks about the future, growing old, food budget, and other expenses. VR apps. Therefore I've risen to my level of incompetence. 

Having a girlfriend, taking her for granted, always thinking there's yet another and better lady I might otherwise be with, griping and complaining all throughout the relationship. Forget it. I'll be single for life. 

Zen Buddhism. When hot be hot. When cold be cold. 

If you're a winner, be a winner. If you're a loser then be a loser. 

In my case I'm a loser and I plan to use that to my advantage. 

"The loser feels the loss more than the winner feels the win." Ian Fleming 

There is a television series called Becoming Ian. It's about Ian Fleming before he wrote the James Bond novels. He wouldn't have worked for the OSS because that's American and Ian Fleming is British. He worked for the British version of that. 

What do you call a magician after his magic has been taken away? Ian. 

If I'm going to be single for life, now would be a good time to ask God to give me an early reprieve. I don't really have an incentive to go on living. 

Single or wrong girlfriend because thanks to Murphy's Law, it's only ever the wrong girlfriend and never the right one, I hope that you would understand if I were to think of getting an early reprieve from God in the form of a well timed heart attack. 

"Do it!!!!" Emperor Palpatine 

I used to always say to Heather, "The good one goes to the lady." whenever we had two of anything and it came time to divvy. The good portion, the larger portion, the more refined portion always went to the Lady Heather. 

Now it seems that the good dimension goes to the lady. She is in a dimension with the much better set of physics and I'm stuck in this dimension. And with some Court case. Pending Court cases are always a good time to at least think about checking out. 

I wish I was in the afterlife with Heather. 

Friday, November 15, 2024

After sweeping an area of the Courthouse and then doing some work at the Church, I decided to treat myself so I got Visionarium at $11.19 including tax. I'm going to check it out. Fast Lawyer recommended it. He's quite the trippy lawyer. He recommended Titans of Space, Ayahuasca A Kosmic Journey and Visionarium. I saw the 360 video on YouTube VR which basically plays the whole thing. I'm hoping that the actual VR experience will be better but it won't surprise me if it isn't. Life is like that. 

Visionarium is better in VR. You get the full 3D effects. Unlike Ayahuasca A Kosmic Journey which is over in twelve minutes, 40 minutes on Visionarium was still going when I decided to pause it and have some tea. Kubrick 2001 or what? 

Overview 360 VR. $6.48 including tax. 

It was a judgement call. 

One review. No write up. Just a five star review. 

30 plus minutes photo realistic data from NASA, ESA etc. 

Why not? 

I found out about it searching the word Documentary on the meta quest store. 

Window shopping much or what? 

Tried it. Very good. For the price. Photo realistic images. 

Saturn can not be seen from the top on Earth. NASA sent a Cassi I probe to observe Saturn from a birds eye view. The rings of Saturn are made up of very tiny reflective ice particles making up these phenomenal rings which are less than one mile wide. So anyways when viewed from the top as the planet casts its shadow on the rings, the rings are not seen at all in the shadow of Saturn, its as if the rings weren't there at all and one can see right through the rings and not only from the top view, this also happens when viewed from the bottom of the rings as well. I didn't know that before getting this app and it isn't some gaudy laser generated 3D VR image which has the usual lopsided distortions, it is real photographs from NASA. For $6. I mean come on. I could go to a restaurant twice and easily pay that in just tips. 

I like space. The planetarium in Vancouver is heaven on Earth and I have a virtual planetarium in VR where thanks to mixed reality, augmented reality, the ceiling of my room opens up as a planetarium. 

I left a quote from Blade Runner in the reviews after giving it a 5 star review. 

"I've seen attack ships on fire off the shoulder of Orion. I watched C-Beams glitter in the dark near the Tannhauser Gate." 

Heather died this year. The way it works is if through some weird twist of fate, I live another 30 years, then I'll be going farther and farther away from Heather until the 15 year mark. Then after that I'll start getting closer and closer to Heather if you know what I mean. 

I searched Police movies of 2024. 

Two that look interesting are 

The Cleanup Crew. A crew of criminals go on a heist. In the photographs, Antonio Banderas looks like a caricature of himself. He's a great legendary actor. He acted in a movie with Charlie Sheen called The Three Amigos in the 80s before Charlie Sheen went towards his winning ways. In the 80s Charlie Sheen was more like his character Taylor in Platoon. Today, he is more a cross between Taylor and Elias, Wilem Dafoe. At one time he was more like Elias that is a party animals. 

The Red Right Hand. An undercover Police Officer with a skill set is hired by a female gangster boss for a mission. 

That's what I remember just offhand. I doubt that the actual plot is exactly that. It's more or less something like that. 

There are so many movies I want to watch like University homework that quickly piles up. I just gotta power through it. 

There are lots of other good Police movies in 2024. I'm going to check out a few years, 2023, 2022, etc. Police is one of the most exciting movie genres. That and science fiction. 

The best Police movies leave one walking away from the theatre thinking that if they hadn't seen the movie, they would have never imagined that. Silence of the Lambs was such a movie. Bone Tomahawk was also a Police movie. Incidentally Bone Tomahawk would be in my lifetime top ten list of most disturbing movies that I've seen seen. 

Would that movie be stereotyping Natives? 

Interior Chinatown is a Police television series. It stereotypes Chinese people living in Chinatown as gangbangers into Chinese cooking and kung Fu. That's ridiculous. Anyone who doesn't want to get arrested shouldn't be a gangster. Most  if not all Chinese people don't want to get arrested. 

As for Kung Fu, I've seen protests and riots in China on television and very few if any of them use kung Fu which is baffling for China. 

Gun Club VR turned out to be a lot better than I thought. A plethora of levels. 15 zombie levels per setting, 5 settings, that's 75 zombie levels alone plus Wave, Survival, Rescue, Pistol, Sandbox. Just so awesome. The zombies are drawn just like the zombies of the 70s horror comic books, back when you could see large print pixels right on the page. Three colour print, red, blue and green. 

The levels with the flashlight are mind-blowing. 

In the Western levels, one can leave the building and freely Roman the town. In the Church level, one can go up to all levels of the Church including the second floor landing and the third floor attic and belfry. 

The other day, not being able to locate any canned red beans, the only beans I could find were canned Mexican black beans. They should work. 

What I am aiming to do is to boil the canned beans with some sugar. And then in a separate bowl pour a good amount of evaporated milk with lots of sugar then add the beans to it. It's a good recipe. It's almost like alchemy. 

Would it work? I'm going to find out. 

Stephen Colbert said that Kamala Harris won the Kids Pick Poll.. 

At that rate, why not set up a poll at Chuck E Cheeses where there are two whack a mole tables and two teams of children and whatever team gets the highest score altogether on whatever table represents whatever politician, that would be the politician that wins the poll in that bellwether strategy of determination. 

Saturday, November 16, 2024

Hotel room prices for the Taylor Swift concert in Vancouver in December will be through the roof. An idea is to sleep outdoor in a sleeping bag. However the parks around Vancouver have deer and cougars and raccoons. One would most likely encounter racoons. Stanley Park has coyotes. 

3 out of 4 of all raccoons and coyotes have rabies or else they have the dormant rabies antibody. Raccoons like to be near water because raccoons actually wash their food before they eat it. They like to wash their food in a pond or a lake. Who taught them how to do that? I wouldn't say that it's technological but it's light years ahead of most other animals that don't even bother to do that. 

Raccoons are quite mischievous and in Native lore, raccoons and ravens are known as trickster spirits. So a raccoon will take a run at you if it has nothing better to do. The best thing is to carry some kind of weapon to prepare for a raccoon attack however unlikely. 

I was once walking in a trail in Stanley Park and a raccoon was running after me. For awhile. There were a few other people there as well. The raccoon's mind was probably all addled with rabies. Poor thing. It was like a television series zombie running after me. 

There are a lot of legal weapons in the sporting goods department of a hardware store. Axe, hammer, crossbow, scuba diving spear gun, air rifle that projectiles at 400 fps as 500 fps would be an illegal firearm. Gotta stay legal. The Desert Eagle goes at 1100 fps. High velocity. 

An air rifle can take down a raccoon or else give it an experience that it will remember for life. An air rifle fired at point blank range can actually kill somebody. 

I got London Tour for $3 and the London Bus and Boat tour for $3. London. I just had to. 

And a California beach VR environment which I think is the Planet of the Apes Statue of Liberty beach for $1. The movie filmed a scene set in New York on the East Coast in California on the West Coast. Why not? It makes perfect sense.... 

$7 isn't too much. 

There are literally tons of good free VR travel and exploration apps which I downloaded. One is a scuba diving journey and I saw different things under the sea near the coral reefs. 

The London tour app is pretty good. 

I got a Notre Dame Cathedral app for free. Developer. Ubisoft. Better than a lot of paid apps. I really felt like I was in Notre Dame Cathedral. The Church up the street is similar in style with the clerestories and the flying but tresses but Notre Dame Cathedral is on another level. 

The Church up the street was built sometime in the 1800s. Impressive. However ND was built in the what, 1500s? Well the construction of Notre Dame Cathedral started in all likelihood in the 1500s and took nearly three hundred years to built with the technology they had back then.

I get the Sunday vibes from this app seeing the afternoon sunlight stream in through the stained glass window and reflecting off a wall. Seeing a photograph of afternoon sunlight streaming in through stained glass windows the light hitting a wall and listening to a soft rock song from the 70s. Magic. 

The app took 5,000 hours to make. That sounds like a lot but it's probably 50 people walking around the Church with 3D laser mapping scanners for about two and a half weeks. 8 hours a day x 5 days a week equals 40 hours, Two and a half weeks, 100 hours. 50 people times 100 hours equals 5,000 hours and they didn't get the light streaming in from the stained glass windows and hitting the wall right. Whatever. What do you expect for free? 

This app is linked to Assassins Creed and it is mind-blowing. I was thinking, Half Life Alyx or what? It will be years before Half Life Alyx is ported to meta quest. However similar to the Lucy Liu Chinese Pirate adventure, the person plays as a female. One looks down at their hands and only ever sees the hand of the female protagonist. Women have had to endure the insuffersbility of always playing as male protagonists in this, that or whatever video game through the decades. Me. I just gloss that over. Who cares. Just ignore that. Whatever. Just crack on. 

I really do hope that Half Life Alyx and Sturmovich IL-2 is ported to the Meta Quest System. Half Life Alyx will probably be like 50 Gb or something like that. I hope not. 

This Notre Dame Cathedral app would get 15 stars out of ten rather than the 10 stars out of ten that I already rate it if the light coming in from the stained glass windows cast on the wall wasn't a plain square of yellow sunlight. Looking at even pictures of afternoons in a Church where the stained glass is cast on the wall while listening to gentle 70s music is a magical Sunday experience. 

Sunday, November 17, 2024

You'll probably think I'm compulsive, but I want to get the paid app Notre Dame Cathedral from the developer called Orange. Orange Hall? Anyways it costs $17 with tax. It has a full comprehensive detailed and historical tour. All written reviews are 5 star. One 4 and one 3 star review, both unwritten. 

I'll see if I can see the preview on YouTube. I might just get this. And on Sunday too. 

Joel Osteen is the only Pastor I'll listen to. His words are the living waters of God and Jesus. All other preachers seem stoic and their sermons are rather dry in comparison. Really. 

After trying the other app, it's well worth the price. It is a tour of Notre Dame Cathedral. Well done and the light streaming in from stained glass windows on the walls are better and more accurately depicted than in the Ubisoft app. 

VR is in its pioneering days and the room for improvement is vast. The faces on the characters look plastic with faces that seem to be perpetually stricken with shock. The faces look somewhat hideous and these are faces of Priests who are usually known for a more beatific and bucoliic and pastoral look. I can't wait to see how much VR progresses in ten years. I'm 54 years old. How would I know that I'd even make it to 60? I mean let's face it. The human body is like a battery that eventually loses its electricity. 

Notre Dame Cathedral is a Catholic Church although they welcome visitors from all faiths. It will be reopened on December 8, 2024 after a fire in 2019 wiped out the roof. Imagine a house with the square part on the bottom and a triangle part on top that forms the roof. Then visualize that triangle part on top completely gone. That's what happened in the fire on April 15, 2019. The spire with the cross on top which the hero of Assassijns Creed climbed on top of and then did a swan dive, that part was gone in the fire too. What a roast! 

These Notre Dame apps make me want to see the movie The Hunchback of Notre Dame. I think there is only one that is The Best Version. All the rest of them wouldn't be as good as that version or would they? 

These apps are the closest I'll ever get to visiting Europe. I lack the confidence, the incentive and the money to travel to Europe. That would be too intense and difficult so I doubt that I'd ever do it. 

Next week, I'm looking forward to getting Recombination. 

Fair warning. 

In Victoria BC and what the heck, Vancouver since Vancouver is a stones throw away from Victoria as the crow flies, there will be a 90 mph wind storm that will last for 14 hours from Tuesday afternoon to Wednesday morning. There will be a lot of sweeping up at the Courthouse which I have pledged myself to do. 

That is bad but it won't be as bad as Galveston Texas. That storm was worse than Hurricane Katrina and it took out an entire town. Think of a town with a population between that of Victoria BC and Vancouver BC with a Coney Island amusement park set up that people from the entire country went to visit. All gone. Galveston did rebuild but not to its former glory. Galveston Texas was the Halifax Explosion of storms. 

In a windstorm, stay home. Drink lots of hot chocolate. Batten down the hatches. Close all windows and put towels on the closed windowsill as insulation. 

Think of the sounds of the loud howling wind as white noise. It's going to sound interesting. 

90 mph winds? At least Earth isn't one of those planets where the wind goes at Mach 2, that is twice the speed of sound! And the rain on that planet freezes into ice that is like shards of glass. That planet would be a total disaster to visit that's for sure. 

I won't get Journey to Alien Worlds VR. Let's face it, those places look like places that if any place on Earth looked like that, even if I was paid, I wouldn't want to visit. Those alien planets like Mars, Venus, Titan are total and complete backwaters. There isn't even a rendering plant or a 24 hour convenience store or gas station or anything like that. Not even a telephone booth. Alien Worlds is a VR illustrated graphic display. 

Watch YouTube VR immersive videos which feature actual photographic displays of the place from licensed imaged from NASA and the ESA. The other app I got, Overview 360 has licensed imagery from NASA. Licensed premises or what? 

Journey to the East is supposedly a tour of Asia. What you actually get is rather vapid. One country only, China, and even then, out of the seven sites supposedly available, onky one is actually available. I saw a video of a walkthrough of the entire thing. It's really quite a vapid version of the Nat Geo app that it is supposedly a successor to. At least the Nat Geo app offers two destinations, Antarctica and Mexico where Journey to the East offers only one. 

Speaking of Journey to the East which is a title lifted off of a Hermann Hesse novel which I read, "Those who wish to rule do not live long. Those to wish to live long must serve." 

There is an app called Metamorphosis. Whereas the other app merely lifted the title, this app allows one to relive the novel The Metamorphosis or Die Vervaundlung from. Franz Kafka. To say that the app is Kafkaesque would be the unterstatement of the year. 

It looks pretty good. The animation and graphics presentation is on the level of excellence. 

Price, about $20 including tax. 

I read The Metamorphosis years ago at the UBC library. 

The app features a lot of twists and turns that aren't in the novel. 

What it does borrow from the novel accurately is that Gregor Samsa finds himself inexplicably turned into a cockroach. 

His mother is afraid, his father is angry, his sister is sympathetic, offers him some food and a violin which he destroys in frustration at his current state and his manager at work comes to visit asking why he isn't at work. The manager does get to see Gregor Samsa as a giant cockroach. 

The novel is a metaphor about depersonalization and derealization during intense trauma and PTSD. The novel was written between the period of World War One and World War Two in Germany and a lot of people were going through trauma based on reeling from World War One and being worried about World War Two just as how we're reeling from Trump Term One and now worried about Trump Term Two. 

I'll probably wind up getting this. No, I probably won't. 

After getting Notre Dame Cathedral experience for $17 and getting this, I could have gotten Recombination for $30. 

Recombination is a 60 minute experience. The YouTube videos show an 8 minute presentation at most and there are some XR features. I'm getting this! Perhaps this will take the edge off of a during some crazy windstorm. Dorothy Wizard of Oz storm cellar or what? Do we need a storm cellar or what? The City has no storm shelters, just warming centers. 

I'll hock one of my skateboards and my Blu rays and DVDs. 

Prognosis. I won't be getting The Metamorphosis. It's only loosely based on the novel. If it was 100% the novel and nothing more, I might get it then. But even then, it's basically a glorified animated cartoon, one in where you got to tediously work and experience motion sickness all based on an extraneous permutation off of a famous novel. 

Whereas The Metamorphosis is fiction so any rendition is merely incidental, Notre Dame Cathedral experience is based on something nonfictional, empirical and historically real. That's why I got it. 

If I wanted to see an animated cartoon, I'd watch Coraline or Fantastic Mr Fox and The Island of Dogs, the last two are from Wes Anderson. 

The Peaky Blinders app. I played that last month. There was a scene where one had to go into an alley and find Polly's Tavern. I couldn't find it so I quit. The thing about these apps is play them again. For some uncanny reason each time I play an app again, I find secrets, Easter eggs etc that I haven't found before. 

There was a segment in this app where one goes into a room and finds a man tied up and unarmed with a bag over his head. You are given an option to either kill the man outright or to shoot a few warning shots. The man is a traitor to the cause who was responsible for the deaths of a lot of men in your crew. Anyways I opted not to shoot him. I just couldn't. 

The other day while sweeping at the Courthouse, I saw a golden moth with one wing submerged in a puddle. It's other free wing was flapping. Anyone else might have swept that moth away crushing it under the bristles of the broom. I gently picked it up by its free flapping wing and lifted it and released it and to my amazement it flew away as if it was never in the water to start with. I was proud of myself for that. Even if no one knows about it, God knows about it. No one would know because no one reads this blog. 

I also release earthworms living in the cracks of the sidewalk to the large lush grounds of the Courthouse garden area with lots of free earth to roam around in. 

The animals when they die, they too will have a life review and remember and totally understand that I helped them somewhere along the way. This will help me during my life review which I hope I pass! I remember hoping that I'd pass high school so I could go on to college which I did. 

College was upsetting. I had one class that started at 8:30 in the morning, one at 11:30, one at 2:30 and one at 5:30. What a weird fractous schedule! So I dropped out of college. One morning, arriving early, I sat in on an architecture class. They don't do roll call so anyone could attend. It was a treat because the lecture was about the French architect Le Corbusier who built these metropolis cityscapes with wide and long sweeping streets. 

I'm going to try the Peaky Blinders app again. One day. I onky watched up to Season 3 episode 5. There are five seasons. What a slog. 

There are so many other things to watch or rewatch such as The Continental, Dune Prophecy, Shogun, The Red Right Hand, Clean starring Adrien Brody who as far as I'm concerned is a living genius. The show that he did called Houdini. From the first few seconds I was hooked. Each one hour episode seemed like it lasted for five minutes. It was that good. 

Houdini crossed some people. That's the one thing never to do in media. Never ruin another person's or businesses reputation because they aren't trying to ruin yours. The spiritual industry wasn't trying to ruin Houdini's reputation. But the spiritualists were actually very smart people and are spot on. 

There is a local psychic in this town. So many psychics. So many reviews. Someone posted a negative comment in a review. The psychic replied. "In thirty years, I never got a negative review. You never visited me. You write negative reviews on a lot of businesses because you stay home all the time and have some psychological issues that need to get checked out." She didn't write it like that, she wrote it better and got into some detail about the specifics of his problem. That's the kind of people that Houdini crossed and the show kinda says that even, in not so many words. 

I've always left a five star review on apps and businesses. If I don't think it's worth five stars I would opt to not leave a review at all. 

I don't know why I don't get Recombination right here and now. In this day and age what's another $33? I got two bags of chips today at $5.67 each plus tax. I got Doritos Sweet Chili Heat and Cool Ranch. WHAM! Music From The Edge of Heaven, McDLT, Hot Side Cool Side. Actually it's $32.47 including tax. I'm paying for it in about two days anyways. Decisions decisions. Should I get it? Give me a sign, Universe. 

Panic attacks about budget bring about hesitation. If I keep on getting VR apps then I'll be broke. If I'm broke then I'll starve and die. 

I can always hock a couple of things. Not always but I might be able to get away with one or two things. My Blu rays and a skateboard I don't really plan on using. The Arbor Flagship 37. But it's a nice one. It reminds me of California. It even has Venice Beach written on it to banish all doubts of California. The wood finish reminds me of an expensive and not a cheap Yamaha guitar. What the heck, I'm keeping it. 

Hock a coiple of things due to worry about a $30 shortfall while I've had quite a few $75 dollar days visiting other towns, watching movies, eating at a restaurant, food and souvenir shopping. Nickel and dime or what? 

I'll get a sign. If I do, I'll tell you about it. 

McDLT. Switch the L around and it becomes a J. McDJT, DJT, Donald J Trump, predictive programming. 

The Continental. 

A guy does something at the hotel Continental and then the entire hotel is hunting him. 

10 years later John Wick does something at the Hotel Continental and the entire hotel is hunting him. 

That's like Cloud Atlas where the same fuck up's happen over and over again. Like the poverty pimps and the safe injection site, the forces of life itself is an industry of enablers as in this case it enables people to repeat their fuck ups except for the few who demomstrably make a genuine attempt to reform and correct themselves. 

It's called chiastic structure, inverse parallelism, ring theory*. George Lucas said, "It's like poetry. It rhymes."

*source: Redlettermedia Revenge of the Sith Review

I wonder how many people in my hotel could hunt someone down. 

Some people in my hotel at one time or another are in all manner of palliative devices. Wheelchairs, strollers, canes, electric motorized scooters. They could be like National Lampoon's Detective in an iron lung who shows up at crime scenes and is even wheeled in to testify in Court. 

Turning his head to one side, he says, "Your honour. Over there on that table is exhibit A which the uniformed Police had missed but that I had my assistant discreetly scoop up off the floor." Adding, "In the thirty years that I worked here, I only missed a few days off work due to the iron lung having to be serviced." 

When I was a teenager, I had a pretty good fish tank. I had gravel, an under gravel filter, a pH test kit, a thermometer, an aerator, water conditioner, plastic plants and ornaments and goldfish and algae eaters aka loaches. 

Goldfish ironically can not stand algae but will eat algae eaters or any other fish smaller than it is. 

In the movie The Cleanup Crew, Machiavelli was quoted. "A lion can not avoid traps. A fox fears wolves eating them. Therefore one must be a lion to kill the wolves but also be like a fox to avoid traps."

A goldfish can not stand algae but will eat smaller fish in order to survive. An algae eater can eat algae but a bigger goldfish will eat them. Therefore one must be as magnanimous as a goldfish but also be a big algae eater as well to be able to handle the algae and the goldfish. Or else one must be a goldfish in order to accomplish the big tasks and also be an algae ester to be able to micromanage and to handle the small tasks. 

Monday, November 18, 2024

It might not surprise you to know that I got Las Vegas and Los Angeles helicopter flight for $2.29 each. From the same developer as London Tours. 

I don't plan on visiting Las Vegas. There's a tower next to a building which is where the tour starts. I need to find out where the Gold & Silver Pawn Shop is in relation to that. 

Chum Lee once got probation. Anyone on probation can pretend that they are Chum Lee on probation. 

I still haven't got Recombination. 

 

On Pistol Whip, the remixes section is one called Espresso. It features Sabrina Carpenter's song Espresso which I first found out about months ago on Global morning News as there was a camera shot on the Rio Theatre on Broadway, the News played the song Espresso and they listen the artist and the name of the song. 

Dabin has a song called Embers also on Pistol Whip. 

There is a dance move that always shows up on Pistol Whip. I parsed the moves. 

It has a Justin Timberlake tuxedo dancer vibe, a bit of tap dancing vibe and some country two step dancing vibe. 

As one tilts their head to the left looking downward, one raises their hands at the same time raising the right leg and crossing it to the left then as both arms lower down to just behind the waist at the same time the left leg kicks back and diagonally outward and then that leg rests on the toes doing a swaying move along with the head looking upwards. Then repeat. The head now turns to the rightooking downwards and arms are raised and left leg kicks ip and crosses over the left leg. Then as the arms lower downwards to just behind the waist, the head looks upwards and the left leg kicks back and diagonally outwards resting on the toes. It has a beach party dance vibe. 

Pistol Whip is well worth the money. I played it for free a few months ago and thought it was stupid. The graphics don't look realistic at all. So many bullets. Stuck down often. Then for some reason I thought I'd try it again after paying for it. With the mods, it registers as a 100 stars out of 10. It's that good. I'm regretting that I didn't get this earlier. The level of regret regarding not getting Pistol Whip two months earlier is profound and it registers as a palpable heartache. 

Tuesday, November 19, 2024

I saw a lot of stunningly beautiful ladies this morning. Near the Courthouse and downtown as well. More beautiful than usual. More beautiful than expected. 

I got Recombination. Paid $32.47 including tax. I hocked a few of my Blu rays. I haven't used the blu ray machine at for over half a year. It's all streaming now. 

Recombination looks better in VR and that's just the title segment. All scenes need to be downloaded and that takes time. Total size 25 Gb. 

I saw the first segment of Recombination. It's a 3 minute segment. When one is on £sd, the kaleidoscopes shift and fold at the pace and speed that they do in this segment. Very acidic. I don't know what else to say. It looks way better in VR than it does in the preview trailer videos. And those trailer videos are in VR. On the app, you feel like you could reach out and touch them. If there is binaural beats or dosing for the ears, this is idosing for the eyes, binaural imagery, on some subliminal level, the two images together generate a mysterious third image. It's that hypnotic. I'm glad I got this. The app isn't an ephemeral one time watch. I'm keeping this baby for life. 

Interior Chinatown dropped today, all episodes of Season 1. Binge watch or what? At least it's not the 5 season slogalothalon that Peaky Blinders is. Being Chinese to whatever degree, I'll give it a British go. I'll give it a watch. 

More stereotyping. Pigeonholing. That's what I'm expecting. Something slinky and ethnic. I'll tell you what I think. 

I'm expecting shallow natures, into hip hop music, some weed and perhaps other drugs, whatever drug you name it because every drug that's ever been invented, someone of every Nationality somewhere has tried it, chop socky kung Fu moves, it's best to find a weapon of opportunity, don't use kung Fu, go for a direct hit just like Blade and Sorcery, love of Chinese food, love of White women and Chinese women and women of all Nationalities, the inevitable gangster stereotypes most people don't have what it takes personality wise to be a competent gangster, let's face it so it's a stereotype. With gangsters in the movies is also Police surveillance which is an essential ingredient to entertaining movies. In this case, the FBI is surveilling them. Like X Files with MSG. 

I'll give it a shot. Why not? 

Wednesday, November 20, 2024

Tbis morning, sweeping at the Courthouse, I saw a Police car. Going back to how the Police are often good omens, not two minutes later, I saw Dr Bonnie Henry. I met her a few times before. She said hello to me. I said hello back. 

I sweep at the Courthouse and on the streets because Shakespeare once said, "If all the year was a playing holidays, to sport would be as tedious as to toil." 

One can get all VR'd out. The VR is a nice break, a way to unwind from work. With the absence of work, there's nothing to unwind from. 

Afterwards I thought of how BC has a new Health Minister, Josie Osborne and will she be better than Adrian Dix who under his watch a lot of people in this Province including me don't have a doctor and how lots of Hospital Emergency Rooms in small towns are closed for the weekends. I thought that it wouldn't be prudent to ask that because she would never discuss something like that with someone at my station and pay grade. She would probably think that Adrian Dix did a good enough job as she worked with him as the Health Minkster for a few years. 

Dune part 2.

Lady Jessica, "To be the Quisatz Haderach, only one thing remains. 

You have to fry your brains."

Paul: "That brings me back to the times when I was hanging out with my hippie friends. What's the difference?" 

Heather is gone. There's no more sweetness of Beebs. There's only the bleakness of mes. 

I'm convinced as my mind tells me that like SCP-049, I am doomed to wander the strange halls of purgatory for thousands of years which means that I'll be single for life. I'm convinced in my mind that I've somehow ruined my reputation and that no women would want to know me. 

Some people have said things that were triggers convincing me that my reputation is irredeemably ruined. I'm not going to get specific although they are specific words, specific names that remind me of certain @-holes thst I met in my life. Shakespeare said what's in a name. 

A lot of people have the same name but in a twisted deluded mind, anytime a name is mentioned it gravitates to the worst and never the best person you met with that name and sometimes the story behind that name is just ghastly and wretched or at least humiliating. Yesterday at some place someone brought up a name and I was convinced that they were on to me. But they didn't get so specific as to say the story behind that name because why pass up a golden opportunity like that? It was a distal convoluted story about something entirely different. I spent the last 24 hours thinking about it but the advantage is that the usual other twisted crap I often think about all the time was put on the back burner for awhile. 

Women are crazy though and if a woman wants to know a man even a crazy story from the past wouldn't stop her. There was that guy on the Bill Maher Show, Politically Incorrect who said that he wasn't gay but that he had sex with over 400 men. Even, ha ha, in an extreme case like that, there are most likely a few women who would be willing to get involved with that guy. Even if he had AIDS, there is a community of women who have AIDS. They just have to take precautions and to not do certain things and to make sure to do other things. 

Just about every kdy who loves in my hotel seems to be single for life and they didn't have some crazy story in the past, that I know of. So a person doesn't have to have some crazy reputation to be single for life but it helps. 

The power of love is more powerful than a bad reputation from the past. The power of love is even more powerful than the curse that hangs over SCP-049. 

I wouldn't underestimate the craziness of women and a woman would have to be crazy to take me on. So I wouldn't doubt it that even in this crazy town that I might not be single for life or especially in this crazy town. 

I might be single for life but in my case, let's face it. I'm 54 and a half. I don't know if I'll make it to 60. So what does that mean? It would be depressing to be 60. Old or what? 70. Even more older. Even more depressing. 

I'm watching a movie called Wolfs which I fell asleep in the middle of. 

An older woman meets a man in his 20s. He was charming and funny so she invites him to her room. 

That sent a wave of some involuntary jealousy that registers as a burning white fire. Even at this age, women still weave their magic over me. I wish that an older woman invites me to her place for sex. Be careful what you wish for. 

Anyways, not too much envy for as the story goes, according to the lady, the man jumped up and down on the bed like one hundred monkeys jumping on the bed and he slips, and falls onto a glass table, the glass fatally lacerating him. 

Brad Pitt and George Clooney show up as fixers from two competing companies. A fixer is someone who gets things done. In politics, fixers are known as SPADs SPecial ADvisers. They can even arrange to have political opponents usually from the private sector  eliminated but that would be completely off the record. Hollywood movies teach as much. 

I haven't watched to the end but I think the lady is BSing. She doesn't want to get busted. Who does? So she makes up a story about jumping on the bed. 

Gun Club VR is the best. Warehouse level 6 zombies with flashlight. That level totally and completely reminds me of evenings spent visiting the relatives where the adults were upstairs and the kids were playing in the basement. Play videos games like early Atari, watch television on videocassette players or read comic books. 

The images of the zombies are 70s even 60s comic book images. Hardcore. Original images or retconned images, who can tell but they got the style bang on just right. 

I tried the Lucy Liu pirate app. Loved it. After spending half an hour doing the walking across planks trying to doge the swinging bags and not getting through it at all. I quit. Possibly for life because that was the easy level which leaves me wondering what the difficult level would be like. Impossible. 

The story mentions a very old 19th Century Chinese variation of dice called fish prawn crab. Images of those animals are drawn on the dice along with others and presumably one bets on what image will appear facing upwards. Of course loaded dice were a thing back then too. 

Fish prawn crab happens to be available as an Android tablet app. 

CNN and Global News said that Ukraine is firing British supplied Storm missiles into Russian territory and could escalate and change the dynamic of the conflict. 

More war profiteering. 

In the movie Dr Strangelove, "Clemenceau said that war is too important to be left to the generals. Well I say that war is too important to be left to the politicians."

Right on either count as war these days is left to stockholders. 

Again, war is about 

1. Artitificial scarcity. Price fixing. 

2. Plundering of resources. Land grab. Hybrid model. Government subsidized and publicly traded IPO. Corporate model. 

3. Installation of puppet government. 

4. Money laundering scam for billionaires. 

5. Population control. Control of movement and migration or else lack thereof. 

"You can always tell a young soldier from an old soldier from what he carries in his bag. A young soldier carries bullets. An old soldier carries grub." George Bernard Shaw 

The war between Ukraine and Russia is fought on land that has snow on it for eight months a year if its not totally radiated with Chernobyl related radiation. Not exactly prime arable land. 

The war between Israel and Gaza is being fought on land that's a desert, semi arid land. Not exactly prime farm land. 

WHAM! Music From The Edge of Heaven. Hot side. Cool side. 

McDLT. Hot side. Cool side. 

Wars. Israel Gaza - hot side. Russia Ukraine - cool side. 

WW2. Erwin Rommel Desert Fox - hot side. Battle of the Bulge - cool side. 

The Israeli was was never a religious war although that's always been in the background. 

It isn't a factional war because the Leaders of Hamas and their military attached have all been taken out. And they're still fighting. 

Free the hsotages and ensure their safety. Sure that's done when you bomb places where they might be holed up and kill as many people as you can involved in the infrastructure that would otherwise keep the hostages alive. 

With Russia as the movie The Courier mentioned, if NATO had control of Ukraine and placed their missiles there, the West would have first strike capability. That's what the Russians are worried about. 

I'm still worried about he future. In fact worry is what passes as my entire state of consciousness these days. I'd be brain dead if it weren't for my worries. 

I worry about where I'm going to live next after my hotel closes. I worry about my court case. I worry about growing old. 

CNN said that Trump has been spending a lot of time with Elon Musk. The only politician in US history that has been more attached to the name Musk was Ed Muskie who Hunter Thompson said that according to looking at photographs, Thimpson was convinced that Ed Muskie was on Ibogaine which is some kind of psychoactive drug. 

I thought the Mars trip was 2024. Try again. More like 2034. That's if anyone is actually crazy enough to go to Mars. I wouldn't go. 

Luckily I wouldn't even be a candidate. Someone would have to have a military background and be military fit and be tall and went to University with a science major in astrophysics. 

Thursday, November 21, 2024

The stairs at the back of the Courthouse was full of leaves. I noticed it earlier but thought that the city would do it. Ha ha. I did it today. The leaves were wet and that area hadn't been done for so long that beneath the bottom layer of leaves was an ecosystem all in and of itself with all kinds of insects and a disturbing modly smell, rancid mold. Wretched. 

I swept all the leaves and they were wet stuck to the pavement but I have a method to remove all of that quickly. 

The electrical box area had lots of weeds and lots of leaves. I removed the weeds and swept up the leaves. The area looks a lot better now. For the time being. 

A few people thanked me. I imagine that the Court would rather see the grounds clean than unclean. 

These are difficult times as I feel like a fool doing this. I don't get money for this nor do I last. I don't know if it would make a difference in my Court case or not. So I do this with no reward except for helpers high imagining that people walked into the Courthouse seeing the stairs just full of leaves and expecting that they'll see that again. And to their slight relief, the leaves are all gone. And sweeping means not smoking and that means saving money. 

I don't know what the people at Court would think of me sweeping as it is beyond imagining. However I imagine that they might think, "In all the years, there were people who wanted someone sent away and we sent them away for them or people who wished for their Court cases to be thrown out and it was and these people never stepped up to the plate and swept the grounds of the Courthouse as a show of thanks. Meanwhile this guy who was a case pending sweeps the grounds of the Courthouse with no idea of what will happen." 

Case before the Courts nor not, I am sweeping at a time when it is needed. I never show up there and see someone else doing it. Unfathomably I am the only one who does it. I imagine it is the 80s, LA Law, and I am working at the Courthouse. I really like doing the work. The Courthouse grounds is a place that ought to be cleaned whenever possible. 

I love the Court. I often, just about every day say a prayer thanking God for blessing and protecting the people who work at the Court. All that is still on. Included are prayers for the Police, firemen, paramedics, hospitals, people of all professions, Priests of all Churches, my friends, my family, Heather and me. I'd say a prayer for my friends before I say a prayer for myself. 

Today I got Christmas Advent Calendar VR for $1.11 including tax. I tried it and it was totally and completely worth it. A dollar? One flies POV in Santa's Sleigh. With the reindeer flying. That's the ultimate Christmas experience. Or what? 

I'm sure I'll see future and better iterations of this in VR in the future like ho they keep doing remakes of A Christmas Carol. VR is still in its pioneer days. 

I only watched one episode of Interior Chinatown. As if a beautiful female Police detective would get involved with a lowly char person working in a Chinese restaurant although has excellent food without a doubt, let's face it, that restaurant isn't like eating at the Pan Pacific Hotel. 

Police Officers are very Machiavellian. Very stern. The Police win all fights because they represent the might of the government. Etc etc 

A person working at a restaurant can be surly but would be putty in the hands of the Police. 

However another lady is a friend of his. So far they are just friends. 

Wolfs. Turns out that the guy jumping on the bed and crashed into a glass table didn't die after all. He is still alive. But he had a knapsack full of illicit narcotics. The hotel manager said to return the drugs to the criminal organization otherwise they will think the someone at the hotel stole the drugs and show up looking for it. That wouldn't be good. The fixers pointed out that as soon as the gangsters see anyone with the drugs they'll think that's who stole their drugs and shoot them. What a tangled web of plotline. Hopefully there's a twist ending. 

Matlock is on tonight. Elsbeth is on tonight as well. I like Elsbeth better although Matlock is pretty good too. That's a double feature of Courtroom drama. Going to Court is scary. Court is the vector where people get sent away. 

Friday, November 22, 2024

Vendetta Forver VR. $27 including tax. Top tier FPS. I liked it the minute I first played it. 

Not regretting it. Loving it. Great app. Incredibly good. Once the sticker shick wears off which should take about a week, ever afterwards it will be as if I am playing a free app. 

Vendetta Forever is free for those who are either cheap or too technology challenged to pay for things online. I was on the internet for years before I started paying for things. 

Gladiator 2 is pretty good. It's available online and even in $hit definition, it looks pretty high def. This is the new standard when even low def is higher def than high def of the old days. 

I feel great sadness and worry as I am convinced that I'll be single for life. I'll have to get through it somehow. This thought also gives me some slight fear but to live in a Star Wars universe is to live with slight fear. 

I feel sadness because the beauty of women affect me. Sure, me and millions of others. 

Like Moses said, "God if you're going to treat me this way, why not jist kill me?" 

If I'm going to be single for life, why doesn't God just kill me and cut out the middleman which is a few years of wasted time being single. Why not just skip that altogether? I'd be up for that. 

Another thing, I always find a girlfriend somehow. Like how some people just always somehow have money. I always think I won't find one but wind up finding a girlfriend again. Somehow. 

I have egg nog. I also have about two ounces of vodka left in a bottle. The problem is, egg nog is better with rum. 

Don't get Bailey's or Kahlua or Carolan's. Get normal coffee and just add rum. Six of one is half a dozen of the other. Then add whipped cream, of heat whipping cream or icing which is butter and icing sugar. 

I have some new neighbours. They are good people. They are Black guys who are University age. Two of them are living near esch other just down the hall. They close the doors of their room loudly. Loud enough for me to hear, but they aren't slamming the doors. Noises make me nervous. I dream of living on a very small island alone in a house. There is a lady in New Zealand who lives alone in a house on an island with a dog and a few sheep. Neighbours are insufferable. 

However it is a very cool experience to live with some Black people from University. That's the essence of the early 80s. 

I once lived in a hotel where some people, every time they went to the washroom, they slammed the door with every ounce of their motherf**king strength. My neighbours aren't like that. 

However they live next door to a lady who used to talk very loud. Very loud. She would start at 7 in the evening and go on talking loud until 5 in the morning. She would talk about dirty old men and CIA agents. That's just a tiny sliver which is what I heard. When someone goes on for hour s and hours, who knows what they talk about. She weighs about 400 pounds too. 

And another guy lives very near them once in awhile, he would just flip out screaming and shrieking for about half a minute. 

Poor guys, no wonder the Black neighbours close the door loud. Just as a way to cope with the lady who talks loud and long and the shrieking guy. 

I myself close the door whisper silent. Most of the time. Sometimes when leaving in a hurry, I would close the door with an audible sound. The architectural structural acoustics of this hotel are $hit. Absolute $hit. 

My neighbours seem to be speaking another language all the time. I'm guessing an African language. Points on the curve. Talented break dancers of the early 80s. Some have been here for generations and some were recent arrivals. All talented at break dancing and all fans of hip hop and funk. Nucleus, Jam On It. 

This is probably going to get me banned from the States for life even though I had a few dreams of American Presidents. I got some has called 3 Saints Afghan hash. I previously usually got Vortex brand. The difference with 3 Saints is that while the other hashish is made from the hash pollen of different plants like a chicken nugget, 3 Saints hash is single sourced. The hash is from a single plant! I got a 2 gram nerd of hash. Wouldn't that be about the entire yield of a single plant anyways or would there be more? How big is the plant? The maker is also someone who won awards for his technique. I smoked some and it is noticeably stronger than the other stuff. 3 Saints only costs $2 more than Vortex. 

Afghanistan is currently known for all kinds of prohibitions against women. Now it has extended to prohibiting women from even speaking to one another. That's hard core. 

Hashish farmers not being part of the government also fall under these prohibitions. 

When purchasing anything from Afghanistan one has to turn a blind eye. Either its some revenue goes to a government with very austere social regulations or else don't support the farmers cutting off their only meager source of income. Meager because the difference in the prices at what the farmers are paid and the mark up when the product gets to the West is considerable. 

I have a really crazy imagination. My mind goes to the most weirdest places. 

There is a place called the Elizabeth Fry society. It helps people on welfare find work. Trainspotting mentioned that if they see you're not trying, they'll cut you off but try to hard and you just might get the job. 

So one junkie in an attempt to avoid work but still look like he was trying wrote a fictitious resume. 

Experience - June 2014 - August 2017. Worked as a janitor at a proctology clinic. 

January 2018 - April 2020 Worked as a towel attendant at a bath house in a seedy part of town where men and women often visited with other men and women. 

The junkie would wear a shirt sleeve shirt revealing an arm full of track marks which of course the interviewer would see. 

"What's that on your arms?!" 

"I need to shoot heroin a minimum of three times a day. Do I still get the job?" 

"Don't call us. We'll call you." 

Well, for the price I paid for Vendetta Forever, that's the same price for a restaurant meal in Sidney BC with a beverage. The restaurant meal is often even more. 

On the News today, Sonia Sunger said, "The cost of taking any baggage on airplanes is expensive."

Mark Madryga said, "Ahh!!" 

Meaning that one, News ancbors make a lot of money on the News so, and for anyone else, no one should lose sleep over a few extra dollars here and there. 

I'm taking the weekend off. Sometimes I go to Sidney on the weekend. However since a memory haunts me, I don't know when I could go there again due to my grief related PTSD. 

Saturday, November 23, 2024

Took the day off work. 

I went to Chinese stores to get Vita milk and I got a can of pike conger eel. 

On the way back to my apartment, there was a junkie, street person waiting outside the apartment. As son as I entered the building he grabbed the door and wanted to enter too. I said "No!" He said, "OK." and left. 

That's life. The forces of life throwing yet another delinquent in my direction is the essence of the defective mess of the forces of life. 

I go to places to contribute and often sweep up the grounds. So naturally in return for that life throws another delinquent in my direction. 

My landlord has seen that person quite a few times. "A street person." he said. 

My left ear is aching right in the inner ear where the ear drum is. It was worse this morning. I'm convalescing. I think I swallowed too hard when my head was turned in a certain direction or ate something that was too hot and it touched that area of my mouth near the left ear. 

I took antibiotics, a multivitamin and swirled some anti germ mouthwash and I poured a bit of that mouthwash in my left ear since on the label it says it kills 99.9% of germs. Germs means the RNA carrying viruses and the DNA carrying bacteria too. 

Its getting better. 

One time I was drinking hot coffee and as I turned my head at an extreme angle to look at what was happening on the street, I felt something like a razor blade slide down an area of my neck. That area took about three days to fully heal. I think I got that again. 

Right now I still feel the pain. Maybe someone who reads this can heal from a distance. God is expert at that. By His stripes I am healed. God is Jehovah Rautha, the healer. 

Jehovah Gyra the provider. Pastor Joel Osteen teaches this. 

Having a VR straps strapped tightly over the ear for hours and hours and hours and hours can leave some residual neuropathy. A doctor would try to isolate any action that caused the issue. 

"Vengeance is mine said the Lord." 

That means that it's not the ghost of a person who was done in that wreaks vengeance but God. 

Friends who have departed to the afterlife have powers that defy imagination. They don't worry about you because they can see years ahead. They understand your tomorrow more than you understand your yesterday. So they see you overcoming and getting through the things you are worried about never being able to get through. 

That goes even double for God. 

God can see a person doing something wrong one day, but feeling so much guilt that the person does even more to help and contribute to society than if that event hadn't happened. If someone did someone in, like in a war where a person mistakenly shoots a civilian or in a case of friendly fire, God doesn't wreak vengeance on that person because one day that person winds up making a self sacrificial move that saves dozens of lives and wouldn't have done that if he didn't feel guilty about doing someone in. 

I believe that such vengeance is beyond the authority of the people who died and are in the afterlife. Such authority rests solely in the hands of God. 

That's the essence of socializing. Churchill talked about the rough and tumble of politics. Getting out into society is called mixing it up. Socializing is supposed to be messy and clumsy and full of people whom you have nothing in common with. 

That's if you want to socialize. If you believe in the raison d'etre of the social event that you're attending. 

Otherwise you could subscribe to the school that no friends are better than toxic friends. 

Friends were there for all the best times. No they were the worst times. 

Women were there for all the best times. No they were the worst times. 

No marriage is better than an awful marriage. 

Tuesday, November 26, 2024

I'm thinking of getting the VR game Wolf and Pigs. I tried the free demo. Liked it. However Gun Club VR is the one I'm mainly using. I feel anxiety about getting it as it would be symptomatic of caving in to an addiction. 

There are less leaves in general this month as most of the leaves have already fallen from the now nearly barren trees. Work at the Courthouse grounds is still ongoing. There are many areas that once every few days will need to be swept again. 

Otherwise the usual steamroller of existential fears and worries about the future in all its forms. What else is new? 

On impulse, I got Oktoberfest Tour VR for $2.56 including tax. I've known about Oktoberfest since I was a teenager. It's legendary from Germany. 

If I watch the Oktoberfest app rather than play the app because it is a theatrical experience, should I drink beer too? Oktoberfest would be awful sober. One has to have a minimum and for me a maximum of 2 beers. And not on an empty stomach. One needs to eat something like a braised prok knuckle or a smoked sausage. But alcohol and meat leads to gout so there must be vegetables. Coleslaw is a common vegetable dish for Oktoberfest or else just an ordinary haus salad must also be eaten. 

I might get Paris boat tour for the same price too. I got Paris boat trip on sale for $1.52. Not expensive. The Paris boat trip opens with a view of Notre Dame Cathedral as the boat is parked next to the famous Church at launch. 

I was too chicken to get Wolf and Pigs. I finally got it. 

There is another app called Woves in the Walls available for free to watch on YouTube and in 360 VR but not 360 3D VR. It would look better in the app but the app costs and from experience, non playability apps that are basically a theatrical performance is good for just a one or two time watch. So many movies. 

If I was in Vancouver, the few problems that I have, the intellectuals in Vancouver, their minds are like steel traps of irrefutable brilliant and complete resolution. The advice of Vancouver people is beyond comparison. Any problem and the words of advice from Vancouver people would put your mind to rest. I got some advice from people in this town but my mind doesn't feel that rested. There is a delayed affect to advice and sometimes a person doesn't realize the effectiveness of advice so chances are I got some diamond level advice in this town and haven't yet realized it. I got lots of good advice in this town over the years. I got good advice in every town I ever lived in. 

I still worry a lot. People have told me not to worry. 

I don't think about the size of my problems. I think about the size of God. Pastor Joel Osteen teaches this. God is something that every one will face at the end of their life. I will face God as well. Question is, am I ready? I hope I pass my life review. If a person doesn't pass, there is some kind of demotion. If they pass then there is a promotion. 

All I ever do is worry about the future.  I think that things would be simpler for all involved if I could be in the afterlife and hanging out with Heather again. I have to stay. 

Two nights ago I had a dream that I was in Vancouver. I realized in the dream that I had just enough time and money to order two bbq pork dish and meat dish from my favorite Chinese restaurants that I visited before. One I think was located right in the center along the street on the West side of Gore Street between Pender and Keefer. And the other is on the Northwest corner of Kingsway and Victoria Street in Vancouver. I was able to get one dish. It was meat on a dish with some thick sauce. 

I get recurring dreams of Vancouver. Could it be because I know the area well, spent a lot of time there. I never get dreams of California and I'll bet that someone living in California has dreams of California all the time and never has dreams of Vancouver. 

I finally mined the recipe for Chinese mushrooms. Excellent style. 

Fry some ground beef in oil with ginger and garlic. Add Chinese mushrooms that have been soaked in warm water for at least half an hour and has been squeezed dry so as to make it absorb flavor better. Fry for a minute and then add some leftover water that the mushrooms have been soaking in. Just eyeball it. Add whatever amount of whatever ingredient according to intuition and mood. Then add a mixture of oyster sauce, soy sauce and sugar that has been stirred together well in a bowl. And then add an emulsion of water stirred with corn starch as an emulsifier, mise en rous, sauce thickener. Let it reduce and serve with rice. Delicious or what? The classic recipe calls for cooking wine used somewhere in the process according to a procedure but I never found that it made that much of a difference. But that's me. From experience, beer works just as well. Or any kind of cheap ordinary wine. 

Instead of ground beef you can also use prawns and clams. Why not? 

Thursday, November 28, 2024

I tried Wolf and Pigs. I thought it was awful. The second level is unpassable. I have thought that of video games before. Gave it another trial and liked it a hundred times more with further playing. 

I scooped up six full garbage bags full of leaves that were covering the front garden area in front of the courthouse. There are two planters. They are stone planters, Greco Roman style. I planted two ornamental plants, one in each planter. 

In one of the planters it seems there were things in there that were burned. Some delinquent was using that as their personal brazier. 

There is more work to be done. 

I close the door of my room whisper silent but my new neighbours, young Black guys from University seem to close their door loud all the time and often too. 

Black people are a very life affirming people. The loudness is from an energy that embraces life and lives life with swashbuckling courage. The slamming doors is how people who used to live in Hogan's Alley used to close doors. I would like to have a chance to live in Hogan's Alley if I had a time machine. 

Jimi Hendrix was born in Seattle in 1942, but he spent a lot of time in Vancouver growing up. His parents ran Vie's Fried Chicken which opened til 4 am. A lot of musicians visited there. That restaurant welcomed people of all Nationalities although even though Hogan's Alley was at the border of Chinatown, I don't know how many Chinese people actually visited. Fifty, sixty years ago was a time when if you visited China everyone in China would be dressed very differently from people in the West. Chinese people then would have been wearing those Communist style tunics, blue, grey, black, whatever color. 

Knowing Chinese people, if they have a choice of Chinese food or fried chicken, most of the time, they would opt for Chinese food. 

So in this way, I am kinda living in Hogan's Alley now. My neighbours don't happen to be talented jazz musicians. Most people living in Hogan's Alley weren't talented. A lot of them worked as train porters. 

Any job that involves long distance travel regularly is very stressful or else exciting. Always escaping to places far away from any problems at home. 

The slamming doors make me nervous. They do it really often sometimes like once every two seconds. 

I think they might be planning to rob me. 

There are a few Black people in town who I trust completely. At the Church, at the dentist office. My neighbours seem to be young University students. 

I got a VR theatre production called Wolves in the Walls. $11.19. It looked good in the free VR 360 video on YouTube. For cheapos it's the entire production. It looks so good. I bet it looks even better in actual VR. 

Today is American Thanksgiving. I am thankful to the Americans for all the great VR apps and Android tablet apps and certainly not least of all, for all the great Hollywood movies. The hits just keep on coming. 

I'm watching or was watching a movie called Here. It all takes place on a plot of land that spans through the dinosaurs then an Ice Age, then a primitive indigenous tribe, then Benjamin Franklin's son, then the inventor of the Lazy Boy sofa, then a World War two vet who along with his wife has a son who is the character that Tom Hanks portrays. Six degrees of separation, a sewuitor of non sewuitor from dinosaurs to Tom Hanks. 

The movie is very beautiful. No plot whatsoever. Just some very intensely nostalgic interior decorating scenes of the same room through the decades. It includes 50s Christmas which of course is Christmas on steroids. I turned it off 25 minutes into it. If I wanted to see interior decorating I'd look tbrough an IKEA catalogue. 

Beautiful cinematography and it all takes place in one room. Think Terence Malik's Tree of Life meets Jodie Foster's Panic Room. 

The movie features whiskey and tank tops as everybody knows those two things go great together like chocolate and peanut butter. 

Whiskey. American and Irish whiskey is spelt with an ey. The Scots got rid of the e so Scottish whisky is spelt whisky.*

*source: Rick Harrison, Pawn Stars, video titled: Items From The 1800s, YouTube

Friday, November 29, 2024

I swept a roof area of the Courthouse that was just covered with long pine needles. 8 garbage bags later, it's all gone. 

"You've done a man's job, sir." Blade Runner 

I wonder if anyone noticed. Looking back, as I do after any social situation, did something wish I didn't, didn't do something wish I did, I wonder how politicians handle so many social situations and occasions. At the Courthouse grounds after the sweeping was complete, in celebration, I clicked my jaws up and down as if I was chewing bubble gum. I was imitating a monkey in a laboratory that I saw on a YouTube video. I do that sometimes when I am excited and feeling confident. In poker, that's known as a tell. One other thing, that monkey was part of a cocaine feeder bar experiment. Massive amounts of cocaine can make a person or monkey click their jaws up and down in an exxagerated confident gesture. The Court is a military place. Decorum must be maintained. It was a subtle gesture and it wasn't as if I was doing that for hours. That my mind would go there and remember the monkey on that occasion as its not like I'm always thinking about that money, makes me wonder how I'm going to handle the rest of my life with the brain that I have going. 

I also removed moss from an area near the windows because that area should look nice because it's a Courthouse. A mass growth of moss near any window area looks seedy. Well that moss isn't there any more. A rolling stone gathers no moss. 

That means either if you move from town to town and don't stay in any one town for long then you don't gather friendships and relationships. Or it means if you move around, you don't get too personal with anyone and vice versa and you don't develop too much history with any given person because you simply didn't have the time to. A few months later and it's away you go to yet another town that you've never lived in before. Some people live like that. 

A few Police cars drove past when I was sweeping that area of the Courthouse grounds. I think the Police think I'm delusional. That statement itself is delusional so its like a vicious cycle. It's unknowable what the Police would think of any given person. 

Saturday, November 30, 2024

In this Earthly dimension of life, we get to see things like mountains which have a height, an up and down, a higher or lower. This gives us a metaphor as to what is going on in the other dimension such as higher levels of consciousness. Time moves forward or backwards, figuratively but not literally. 

BC is a Province which is governed Provincially by an island on the West Coast of a Continental landmass with the ruling capital city located on the Southeastern part of the island and which is also governed Nationally by an island on the West Coast of a Continental landmass with the ruling capital city located on the Southeastern part of the island. Geopolitical fractal. 

The annual Victoria City Christmas parade was on tonight. I went to the balcony to look out at different times. I saw the opening. The Police pipe band was there. I love the Police and in my own way every year support the Police charity, Tour de Rock. 

I also reflected that one of them will be testifying against me in my Court trial which is standard for any court trial, even a $50 shoplifting charge. And that's always a comforting thought. 

I saw some lights on vehicles and I tell you after months of being weaned on 4K spacktacular high definition television, the lights truly look better in real life. I was amazed at how sharp and bright and better than 4K HD and with an HDR chip. 

I saw some floats in the parade and something made me stay for just one more foat and am I glad I did. I saw an open train locomotive, life sized like one of those Baldwin 380 locomotives from the Polar Express which belted out a large amount of liquid nitrogen smoke or else it was a Taylor Swift concert style propylene glycol emitting smoke stack. There were people in the train and they appeared to be from an enchanted World far away from any problems I've ever known. 

That was my Christmas miracle. Staying and seeing the best float. Not only in the parade but that I've ever seen in my life. The vibes of the people in that train. It looked like Oktoberfest on wheels. The lighting. Dim, ethereal, timeless and nostalgic with a slight Germanic vibe. 

I've been seeing or feeling that a bit lately. A timeless vibe in a land farthest away from any problems I've ever known. 

"It came from somewhere far away."

"You mean like Europe?" 

"No, not Europe, Robby."

War of the Worlds, Tom Cruise

Europe. That would be a land farthest away from all my old problems but Europe has its own problems as well. The land I would be most accurately referring to is the afterlife and heaven where I imagine that a part of that is always feeling like I am a young child again visiting the most wondrous Christmas theme parks. Christmas on steroids with whipped cream and a marachino cherry on top theme parks. 

Sometimes these feelings are omens. Last year I dreaded this year. But this year brought things I couldn't possibly have imagined last year at this time, being electric skateboards and VR goggles. I only found the longboard on January 2nd earlier this year. So I couldn't at this time last year have imagined that I'd be riding a skateboard because at one time I just presumed that it would never happen. Ever. I already wrote a mini treatise in my mind about skateboards didn't have a means of steering or braking unlike a kick scooter so I just dismissed them. 

During my 20s I had a Chinese friend who was a skateboarder. 

Then when I was 34, I found a skateboard in Vancouver, tried it but didn't take to it at the time so I quickly gave up. Then a few years ago, I found a really nice cruiser board but decided skateboards weren't for me so I gave it to someone in the building. I wish I still had it. It was nice. 

I have a nice cruiser board now. Two of them. One is the Santa Cruz street amoeba and the other one is the Santa Cruz toxic screaming hand. I was going to opt for the roses screaming hand because it has an old West tattoo style about it but when I saw the actual skateboard in real life, the roses design is actually has a very girly vibe to it which I didn't want for myself. The toxic screaming hand looks like a a mushroom pizza because the graphic design features a Anita muscsria and psilocybin cubensis mushrooms. If a skateboard could be a face with major acne, it would look like the toxic screaming hand. 

People with acne are sometimes referred to as pizza faces. 

I swapped out the original 58mm hard plastic wheels which are standard for just about all cruisers and got the 60mm wheels which makes all the difference. The 60mms are longboard wheels which move much faster and smoother. The somewhat noticeably slower 58mm wheels are for stability and extra time enough to do Ollies, kickflips, the impossible, etc. 

I don't know if I'm worried about next year. I don't know that I'm not worried about next year. I'm not excited about next year. I just don't know what to think of next year. Actually worry is all I ever feel. 

I really do love this town. This year, I've seen and remember so many acts of out of the ordinary kindness. I lost my Christmas cracker but no one stole it or opened it. I found it at the park under a tree. The cracker had a paper crown and a miniature wooden emery board.