November 2025

Saturday, November 1, 2025

Ashwagandha starts working in one day. Feeling less anxiety although I did have a sharp anxiety attack that lasted about five seconds. The burning anxiety otherwise makes me not want to live. Existence with anxiety is no kind of existence st all. Is this all there is?

Wrong thinking - Anything that is worth doing is worth doing right. 

Right thinking - Anything that is too difficult isn't worth doing at all including the living of life.

The worth of life is finite because the nature of life is finite. This is a backwater dimension with a backwater set of physics anyways. You can only expect so much and one has to make allowances for the limitations of the physics of this dimension.

There is once in a whole, a tranqued out, fake yawn, pilled out feeling. But not often and once in awhile, the burning anxiety returns for five seconds but goes away but when it's there, is it ever there. 

Yesterday at 5pm, feeling the burning anxiety yet again, I had to get ashwagandha. Anxiety saps a person of the will to live.

Reviewers have said, 

"I used to be on fight or flight all the time. Now I'm calm all the time."

"I used to be like a squireel. Now I'm just cbillin'."

Ashwagandha has withanol which works on the GABA receptors in the brain. So there's that. Supposedly it helps. GABA receptors regulate the speed which the nervous system sends signals. Faster if necessary when in danger but usually optimally slowed down to take it easy. 

It's quite powerful for an OTC. Yeah, well, so is Sudafed. 

Tomorrow is daylight savings time. Which is terrible. 

Supposedly it is based on agrarian reasons, farming. 

But really, let's face it, daylight savings time is based on industrial reasons. So people can get to work, the commute. 

Farmers have done well without daylight savings time for centuries. 

Stanford Fleming came up with daylight savings time. 

It is man's ignorance and arrogance behind the imperative that time, baroque and organic in and of itself, must confirm to the regimented Gothic will of industry rather than vice versa. With disastrous results. 

Scientists say daylight savings time does a real number in the body. 

That's because the objective nature of time is time travel is time experienced on an objective level with changing iterations within the province sent moment. Subjective time is linear with changing iterations bejng consistent and concurrent with a non ending series of plural moments rather than the objective single moment. 

So daylight savings time, like jet lag, causing a discrepancy between the objective and subjective perception of time which the body registers with sometimes terrible results.

Whenever you think of various instances of government incompetence and mismanagement, like the airhead flippancy and ignorance of having the $35* a year Christmas bonus rate frozen since the 80s, What's up with that? I wonder what Michael Moore of Sicko would think of that if he knew about it, you have to realize that it's the same species that is so confused and caught up in its own press that it can't be ide whether to hold on to or to get rid of daylight savings time. It is the same species who can't get their ducks in a row about something as basic as the reckoning of time, horology, so much so to the point that  in Canada for example, while some places have daylight savings time, other places don't. Vancouver and Victoria have daylight savings time while Dawson Creek is permanently on Pacific Standard Time and never uses daylight savings time and more ironically, Dawson Creek is the farming agrarian society which has no need for DST. What a mess. While the industrialized non-agrarian cities use daylight savings time. Ironic since DST was supposed to be for farmers. 

The ideal is that daylight ssvings time is Universal. The reality is, that in all likelihood, every country in the World is a crazy, gangsta, temporal calico cat patchwork or regions that observe DST and regions which don't. 

The difference between regions that use and regions that don't use DST can be likened to  high schools that use the term system which represents regions that don't use the DST because the term system is 8 classes cycled over and over again all through the entire school year and high schools that use the semester system can be compared to regions that use the DST because the semester system splits the year in half, 5 classes every day for half a year and a different set of a same 5 classes every day just as the DST system splits the year in half. 

*$35. F4 movies, a free movie site doesn't seem to be working tonight. Kvetched. Of course f in f4 is the first letter of the word five. The 4 in f4 movies could represent the number 4 in the amount of $40. Since f is before and not after 4, that means subtraction, so five minus $40 is $35. The bewildering amount of $35 of a Christmas bonus which has bizarrely remained frozen since the what, the 80s. Yeesh. And you wonder why I think that this is a backwater and that I'd be better off somewhere else. 

Giving the poor who do a lot of volunteer work, volunteer from the German word wählen meaning choice a fair shake - is not OK so rates have been frozen since what, the 80s. But paying off someone £12 million pounds or $22 million Canadian stolen from workers who pay taxes for something that, apparently, a serial diddler didn't do on a day he went out for pizza with his daughters, - that's OK. 

Ha! Pennywise, und foolish. Pennywise, the clown from IT by Stephen King. 

The politicians don't have to suffer the insufferable indignity of having their Christmas bonus frozen since the 80s so to them its just some big joke. 

Consumer price index. 

Over the last few decades, there have been quite a few diversity hire wogs in politics who come from such disparate flyblown cultures where Christmas isn't exactly any kind of priority. They believe in non-Christian religions. 

Ashwagandha is a red flag that if you have to take it, all the signs are there that you are living in the wrong town, perhaps wrong Province, perhaps wrong country. If you were in a place where you are happy, you wouldn't need to take an anti-anxiety adaptogen.

It feels so strange yet so good to be without the burning feeling of anxiety. Previously I thought I'd have to get to the afterlife to feel this free of the burning anxiety. 

I feel good feelings that I haven't felt since I was a child before the evolution of the HPA axis which takes on new levels in adulthood. 

Hypothalamus - corticotrophin releasing hormone

Pituitary - adrenocorticotropic hormone

Adrenal - cortisol

Ashwagandha directly addresses each of these chemicals. 

Forget beer and street drugs. Psychological pharmaceuticals on the guidance of a doctor more specifically addresses the areas of the brain and brain function that directly involve anxiety, fear, etc and can bring about the science of euphoria, nostalgia, 

The feel good chemicals are endorphins aka endogenic morphines, dopamine, seratonin, oxytocin etc. 

Ashwagandha causes an increase in testosterone which is good for men. 

Does ashwagandha cause an increase in progesterone in women because that's a major feel good chemical for them on the level of dopamine, seratonin, etc. It might be even more powerful. That's released after pregnancy to nudge a mother to care for their child. This chemical occurs in many species of female organisms. 

Anyways, I am feeling better in general already. There are moments of uncertainty, and slight anxiety that goes away fast. 

As Alexandra Kallos more or less said, the afterlife is like 50G to our dimension which is 5G. 

A person using 50G broadband can easily play an app that only requires 5G. A person using 5G broadband can not access apps built for 50G broadband. 

So for a spirit to visit us from the afterlife, to them it would be like them installing and then using a GBA emulator on an android tablet with a Snapdragon 4 speed processor. 

Cross-platform connectivity. 

Blue Jays lose the World Series. 

"How do you f*ck that up?!" A History of Violence

Even the Dodgers having home field and the odd numbers innings advantage, Toronto had a golden window of opportunity handed to them on a silver platter with the tenth inning and they screwed that up royally. 

One might say that other countries merely have to deal with American influence on a vicarious level, Canada has to physically deal with the actual United States living right next to them and it has affected Canadians sports culture. It's one sided with the odds stacked heavily on the other side. Watch the movie Moneyball with Brad Pitt. One team has a $40 million annual budget, another team has a $110 million annual budget. 

As if to underscore Moneyball, Brad Pitt, Mr Moneyball himself was in attendance at the World series. 

What can you say? Whoop, one country has 420 million people while the other country has 42 million people. That's quite the disparity. 

What a bizarre set up but not if you don't know any other. 

This is the new normal going forward. The States winning all the Stanley Cups and World series, 100% of them. 

If Canada had a population approximating that of the States, it'd be one thing. But the thing is, England is located on a small island which in its nature can only have a certain amount of people, and Canada is a colony of it so while England has 56 million people, Canada has 42 million people and Australia has 27 million people even though Canada and Australia are way way larger than England. We want you to be more successful but not more successful or populous than us. It's a bizarre set up that in a country as large as Canada with comparatively so few people that people are paying a lot to live in overpriced shoeboxes. It's the old British Boer War concentration camp set up. Old habits die hard. Especially with the British. 

The States doesn't suffer under such population privations that Canada and Australia does. 

The States has a better population because the States has better weather. The weather in Canada is the sh*ts. It's way too cold for most of the year, anxiety attack producing hypothalamus stimulating and not in a good way cold cold weather. It's awful The ass end of North America. It would be more bizarre if in some weird parallel Universe, Canada not being a colony of England had 175 million people because of the weather, about the same population as Russia, again, because of the weather and the geopolitical land mass known as the States was a British colony with 28 million people, about the same as Australia and again, with about the same weather. But that's precisely how things would be because the British are very regimented and circumscribed. 

And bizarre to because England has sh*t weather. London is at an unenviable 52 degrees North, same as Prince George BC, and Edinburgh is at an even more unenviable 55 degrees North, same as Dawson Creek BC and you know how sh*tty the weather is in those places, especially when compared to the United States. 

Weird crackpot set up. 

It's a rarefied island with a language that's only somewhat better than German otherwise it's Island living on an island with some kind of Napoleonic complex. Empire building, London funnel. It's some kind of weird Kafkaesque bizarre set up that's purely a product of the slow physics of this dimension and of a history of such over centuries. 

England is island living. Penguin island. A small town on the mainland is a backwater. A small town on an island is a backwater on another level. 

Living on the mainland is a rock show. Living on an island is in comparison, a sh*t-show. 

Slim pickin's. 

I'll be glad when I'm cross the finish line in the afterlife. Much of the strictures, the set ups of life are just tawdry and insufferable. 

Canada is f*cked from England for the colonialism population suppression thing and Canada is f*cked from the States for losing 100% of World series and Stanley Cups to the States. 

See, again, China and Russia doesn't have that problem. Countries in the West do. I feel sorry for Ukraine if it decides to side with the West rather than with Russia. 

I would strongly advise any Chinese person from futuristic China to not move to backwater Canada. Don't do it. You're way better off where you are. 

That's the set up with sports between Canada and the US with the States winning all the championships. 

But it's nice that next Canada there is a place that is great and actually rocks. The States is a pinnacle to look up to. A Disney magic castle in the distance something that is greater and more rocks how than anything in Canada. Otherwise all of North America would be like the situation I am living in while living in this Province. 

Vancouver and Victoria are the only good towns in BC. Every other town in BC is a blinding blithering backwater with hardly any tourists visiting there ever, that's like one step forward, three steps back. Ugh. Yeesh. 

Towns not worth living in. Boring, lack of infrastructure and typically overpriced. 

The rest of Canada doesn't have any towns that are interesting except for a few, 

Toronto, Ottawa, Quebec City and Montreal. Those towns are better than Vancouver. Vancouver believes in its own hype like most other towns which are more backwaters that think that they are the center of the Universe. Every other city is a backwater that's a waste of time. 

Now imagine if all of North America was like that? There's only two good towns in all of North America, Vancouver and Victoria, every other place is a backwater. 

But the States is a huge perpetual Memphis Graceland of rock and roll, it's a lucid fever dream of Wizard of Oz Emerald City proportions which are futures to aspire to, full of hope and futuristic promise. So many iconic towns that are rock rock rock, such as Miami, Las Vegas, Los Angeles, New York. Towns that are visceral and pulsating with neon splendour. 

The NHL, the baseball league, the headquarters of those pan American sports entities are in the States. That means that Toronto Blue Jays paycheques are written in the States. No wonder the American team wins the Championship Cups, the Americans are financing the lion's share of it. 

Vancouver is great if you've never lived there. Vancouver, I never want to go back to. For two reasons 

- my weird family. They expect me to not only act as if I have seen my birth certificate but that I've seen it and that it connects to them. See, deconstructed, that's two different things. What a weird fake deceptive set up. I never asked for nor deserved any of it. 

I haven't seen any of them for decades now, and it feels great. To quite Donald Trump, 

"Toxic and won't be missed."

- the downtown eastside has let itself go in a way that is profound and not in a good way. It's a cruel and unusual punishment that I doubt fully passes the Geneva Convention. It gets worse and worse there every year. That neighborhood has sure run itself into the ground. Psychotic. Delinquent. Dysfunctional. Bonkers. Yeesh. That is supposed to be what passes as modern societal living in Vancouver. China is way way way better than Vancouver. China is spackling new, cutting edge, state of the art futuristic rock show while the crackpot downtown eastside of Vancouver is urban vomit in comparison. 

Qatar is ultra futuristic, state of the art. The downtown eastside looks like an open air latrine in comparison. It looks like Qatar's latrine. An open air urban colonoscopy of the human rectum. 

India has the Dharavi slum while Canada has the Vancouvaravi slum known as the downtown eastside. 

The downtown eastside was holding its won when White politicians administrated the place. Then you get some weird airhead chjnk bitch politician, a complete airhead, just look at her. Sadistic half-wit. She can't even speak English with a proper accent, DP displaced person. neither speaks English nor Chinese well, one of those types, don't believe me, just listen to her talk, and the place has gotten progressively worse every years since she took over the helm airhead opportunist. Running the place to the ground.

You know the old saying, People who can't do, teach. People who can't teach, administrate. 

The downtown eastside slum is partially a product of several levels of gevernment flippancy, ignorance and mismanagement. Partially the choices the individuals of that strange twisted demographic makes for themselves. 

The downtown eastside is so badly run under that airhead thing's watch that as every year goes on, the price of housing goes up commensurate with the neighbourhood also just getting more and more squalid as time goes on. But that's a defining feature of the country of Canada, isn't it? Paying more and more for less and less. Shrinkflation. What's up with that? Play Canadian games, win Canadian prizes. 

See, paying more and more every year for housing in neighbourhoods that have more and more street disorder every year is Canadian macroeconomics, and paying more and more for lesser and lesser volume in food packaging known as shrinkflation is Canadian microeconomics. Paying more and more for less and less. It's the Canadian way. 

Best to vote with your feet. Move to another and better country. 

Vancouver would just be a regression to some former erstwhile bullsh*t. Uh, no thanks. Anyone you meet while traveling is part of an expat travel adventure. Anyone you meet back in your old town is just another variable in an equation of regression. 

The old town has way better infrastructure and heavenly vibes so it's difficult either way. Go back or never go back. Life in this dimension. Is it worth living? I'm not completely sure. 

It's way more fun to live in either the United States or China than it is to live in either Canada or England. YouTube comment: China seeks to develop and enhance you with comfort and a high standard of living. The West puts you in a dehydration chamber and sucka out every drop."

England only has one semi interesting town that somewhat worth visiting and that's London. Every other town in England is a backwater sh*hole that would be a waste of time to visit. 

Europe or China would not work. 

China with the tonal monosyllanic language and the pictographic semasiogrwphic writing system is a non starter. 

Europe, the people on the Continent where its quite sophisticated, the English language isn't as much of a priority with them. England, where its, sigh, island living, speaks English, but with a different accent. So much so that the North American accent registers as an issue. They have the Lords of the Manor accent while we have the hick colonialist accent. As if. The colonies have mainland living while England is island living. "Are you sure that's not projection?"

The quirky wonky US-Canadian sports dynamic where the States win all the Cups because they actually pay their athletes way more than Canadian athletes works really good for Canadian athletes. The NHL, the soccer league, the baseball league, the basketball league are an-American US-Canadian entities. Only the f*king CFL is a Canadian only entity. The CFL has four downs rather than three downs and the CFL used to have a lerger 110 yard field which has been recently rewritten to 100 yards, same as American football. What the heck, Australian rules football, Canadian rules football, American rules football. A CFL contract player for life only gets a certain salary on average. Whatever it is. I'm not going to make up some figure. 

Anyways, any athlete aligned to any pan American sports league set up's have the option to play for an American team with a quite considerable raise in salary. It's a pipe dream that CFL players simply don't have. I guess some CFL teams make it to the NFL but that takes more steps. They gotta resign, be a free agent or be in between contracts, but an American talent scout has to specifically recommend the athlete as well, so it's more convoluted, however it's possible, technically. 

Being in a pan American team, winning a championship cup and partying in Miami or Los Angeles or New York is way better than being in the CFL, winning a championship cup and partying in what, Winnipeg? Saskatchewan? I'm sure Winnipeg is interesting but it's certainly not on the level of Las Vegas or LA or NY or Miami. 

Defense against logic. Ad hominem attack. They know that I know that they know that they can't win the argument so they attack the person. Again it's the same species that can't decide whether to have stupid daylight savings time or not. 

Well. A few days ago, last Wednesday and Thursday, I took quite a few T3s. 6 on Wednesday, 1 on Thursday. On Friday night, I felt a flu coming on but luckily, I knew what was happening as quite a few years ago, I mainlined heroin for a few days in a row and the same thing happened. You get a fake flu that's actually a result of opiate withdrawal. 

More about this later. 

In the street World, a person mainlines coke, but the part that's worth any money is gone 

in about thirty seconds leaving a person to fight with themself, do I do another shot, no, I shouldn't. Etc

The dopamine surge that the cocaine initially causes reaches a half life and creates epinephrine which activates the HPA axis, big time. This is aka the sympathetic nervous system. The fear, the anxiety, the paranoia. I've known of people who mainlined coke and then went to the food line and were able to maintain, to look at them, you wouldn't know they were high. They must be superhuman. I could never do that. Cocaine is a very edgy drug. 

To deal with the BS comedown of coke, a person needs to do heroin which is like a pharmaceutical magic eraser that erases all the paranoid edginess of the cocaine come down. But then a person can get an opiate induced flu if they do heroin. 

To erase that, simply do a line of coke or better yet, use what I use. I drank coca leaf tea which took my usual expected duration of opiate induced flu from 8 hours down to 3 hours. On the television show Ghosts, Hetty Woodstone said that cocaine was the best cure for a cold. It wiped it away like magic. It was legal and used in her time in the 19th Century until the 1905 Harrison Act made it illegal. 

I knew what was going on that day. Drinking coca leaf tea sure helped with the opiate induced flu. 

To reiterate, on the street, do coke, then heroin and then a little bit of coke again. Hair of the dog that bit you. 

Disclaimer: I strongly advise anyone from doing illegal white powder drugs. These drugs can do a real number on the body. And not a good one. And besides if you possess too much of it, that's illegal as well. Just say no. 

The best way to live is clean and sober. 

C and H are old school. Drugs connoisseurs have different drugs of choice. Namely the much more stronger and headier crystal meth and fentanyl. I never tried any of that. Those drugs are outside the ken of my knowledge, although they are today's standard. 

I don't know and I don't want to know. 

The best way to live is clean and sober. 

Knowing England, they're probably going to send someone to kill me for writing about England. As if University professors haven't made that observation, heck, even before I was born. 

How could someone who died before I was born visit me in a dream? They were quite famous people, the dream was quite vivid, and they looked right at me. 

It is what it is. Sometimea people perceive something as a bad thing when it's actually a good thing. 

"Poor but comfortable is rich, and rich enough." Shakespeare 

Even with the populations of the different countries being what it happens to be, England and Canada has provided me with welfare and one can either act upon this gift with gratitude or entitlement. Some collect welfare, do nothing or worse, panhandle. I choose to sweep the streets when I'm not animating cartoons which is also a way of showing gratitude for the largesse that the government has provided me. 

My observations about the different populations are worries rather than criticisms. I don't know what's going on. 

There is in all likelihood, nothing to worry about. As Mark Twain said, As an old man, I have had many worries, few of them of which ever amounted to anything. 

Keep calm and carry on? 

I got a VR game for free on my meta plus subscription. It's called Townsmen VR. It's a world builder in the style of Smurfs Village and Smurfs Magical Meadow but without any of the gorgeous ornate artwork. It's more of a gothic project VS the baroque quality of the Smurfs based world builders. 

Its kind of a down-beat low-grade parody of Smurfs Magical Meadow shoehorned into VR. 

I like world building but it needs to have variety and beauty. 

The VR app Toy Trains had World building, a large canvas so to speak to work with, but the designs were annoyingly elementary, somewhat prosaic, well next to Smurfs Magical Meadows, and there wasn't nearly the variety of buildings, plants, animals etc etc etc that the Smurfs based world builders had. 

This game is the same. 

Complete the standard issue tasks on an island, quite repetitive once you get the hang of it. Space is limited and previously built building had to be torn down and rebuilt in another place to make sure all the buildings fit together like a jigsaw puzzle. 

Completing the tasks of each island opens it up for free play. Build whatever on that island. There are six islands. Each time during the completion phase, a shop shows up to take you to the next island once the standard tasks are completed. 

I wouldn't have paid money for this. For free, why not? I'm on the second island with the ship waiting to take me to the third island. Limited space, limited amount of buildings, graphics meh, mediocre. 

Whatever. 

A good movie is on. Colin Farrell goes to Macau to be a gambler. Since the odds are against a player, how could anyone be a gambler past a certain amount of time? They'd lose all their money. 

Some games rely as much on skill than chance and some gamblers have a system. Casinos have long figured that out. "Oh, so they think they have a system." 

The movie looks like The Wonderful Story of Henry Sugsr meets the world of dim sum. 

Macau and Hong Kong are like Victoria BC and Sidney BC in that they take an hour to get to either way. Can a person walk to Macau from Hong Kong? I never heard of anyone doing that except for during whatever war years, I guess. People usually take some form of transportation. Even with the transportation, the two cities are about an hour's distance apart each way. 

I wouldn't mind visiting China. I think that if it is His will, God will provide me with a chance to visit futuristic China. It wouldn't be like looking at YouTube videos where you can teleport from one city to another. Pick one city and stay there for awhile before moving on. Chongqing with the Ching caves which is the huge huge lighted old style Chinese building. It looks gorgeous during the day and even more spectacular at night. But I've already seen it on YouTube. 

With VR goggles, I can punch up the image to scale so I could see it at the same size proportion that a tourist who is there would. So in a way I already went there. 

Macau used to be rocking compared to old mainland China. But now, China is way more futuristic and rock show than Macau. 

Macau seems to be like the Reno, Nevada or the Atlantic City of China. Major gambling towns but not exactly on the scale of Vegas which is on another level. 

Is Vegas or Monaco the capital of gambling cities in the World? I'm not sure. Either are more upscale than Macau. But Macau isn't bad. Macau is still more futuristic and rock show than most of the West which is somewhat backwater and not as well maintained. Lots of delinquency and dissolution. 

Toruist magazine said that Asians in Singapore, even when they are drunk, they are calm and orderly. You couldn't say that about the West. You probably could, for the most part. For the most part, people in the West attain a level of calmness that would rival even that of the most abstemious ascetics in Asia. 

I tried to see the movie Ballad of a Small Player  with Colin Farrell as the gambler in Macau. I just couldn't and wouldn't get past the first few minutes. 

That old Chinese woman was crass, vulgar and ignorant in her speaking. That's about the gut level, stomach level, venal, completely wrapped up in the physics of this dimension, money obsessed mentality that you can expect from a  Chinese, a hard core Chinese. 

That young Chinese lady was lying to Colin Farrell the whole time, 

"What's she saying?" 

"She's saying that she welcomes you." 

BS, she should have said, 

"That ignorant lady is insulting you the whole time."  You'd be better off somewhere else because this would be a waste of time for you." 

The young lady said that the old lady could see spirits. For someone who can see spirits, that old lady is completely wrapped up in the physics of this dimension. 

And the lying doesn't surprise me. My parents were mendacious crack pots. That's something that's well known among the Chinese and other races too. 

She was insulting Colin Farrell? Colin Farrell is from Ireland, a place that for centuries had some of the best Universities in Europe. Universities in China don't quite have that same reputation. The Irish have James Joyce, George Bernard Shaw. What do the Chinese have? Confucius? Lao Tze? Tautological and teleological philosophy, certainly not on the literary level of George Bernard Shaw. 

What culture does she come from? A culture that uses a tonal, monosyllabic language with a pictographic semasiographic writing system. At the end of the day when you parse a lot of these Chinese conversations, they are gut level, stomach level conversations that don't go beyond a grade five vocabulary usually venal oriented and not something the you could intellectually look up to and respect. Boring and toxic. 

Imagine some corpulent venal obstreperous wog from some strange venal culture with its flyblown nonsensical language talking down to an Irishman from a land of high education, literary tradition and cultural refinement. 

That godless wog. China is a culture where Christianity and the profound things that Jesus taught about money isn't exactly a priority as Communism places some kind of premium on atheism. Usually people from backward cultures that are quasi into archaic agrarian folk traditions involving belief in animism are resistant to Christianity. That would explain her venality. And she is just a specific example which illustrates the general case. The Chinese are an intensely venal people. 

See, when a culture can't achieve on a literary and verbal basis like the Irish with their profound reputation and tradition of erudition, they try to compensate for that in trying to achieve on a non-literary non-verbal level that usually involves a lot of mindless venality. Lots and lots of it. 

That movie is not my cup of tea. 

It used to be that Hong Kong and Macau were rockshows and mainland China was the backwater. But now the shoe is on the other foot. Hong Kong and Macau are somewhat aged faded remnants of what they were at the closing end of the 20th Century and China is the spackling state of the art futuristic rock show. China is what the West will look like in 2100, if the West gets its act together, which is not guaranteed. The American Dream is China's Reality. 

Mainland China speaks Mandarin which is the Royal Imperial language of China. 

That corpulent obstreperous wog bitch in that movie spoke Cantonese which is a vulgar guttural sounding tribal language, not a dialect. Certainly not on the level of Mandarin. 

Cantonese which sounds vulgar and guttural isvery different than Mandarin which sounds refined and elegant yet they are referred to as dialects of each other while German and Swiss sound very similar yet they are called different languages to one another rather than the other way around. 

Mandarin is the high German of China. 

Cantonese is the low German of China. 

What can you say about the damned human species? They couldn't even make up their mind about daylight savings time and many regions are still using it even though there is no reason to and it has adverse affects on the body similar to a one hour jet lag. Thanks to the f*ckedupedness of the quibbling equivocating policy wonk government that can't seem to make up their mind, we still have to f*ck around with daylight savings time when there is no reason. Turning the clocks back and forth is a hassle and is a pain. 

Woke, that word strangely sounds a lot like the word wog, lol. 

Movies are fake set ups. That Lady in real life, Deanie Ip, or Grandma in the movie, is probably very kind and was joking with Colin Farrell. If she was like that in real life, no way would Colin Farrell do a movie with her. In real life, she is probably a very gracious classy lady. She is a trained actress at her craft, portraying presumably, the antagonist to the Colin Farrell protagonist character. If you felt angry at her, that means she performed her role well as an actrss because that was the intended audience reaction. 

The character that the lady portrayed is an archetype. Not all Chinese people are like that. Actually, most Chinese people are more together than I am. They don't have the same miasma of worry and anxiety that I am always living under. The Chinese are a very life affirming people whereas I love Heather more than I love life itself and if God appeared and gave me an option, I would opt to quit life immediately. There is no one whom I am living for right now. No one I'd want to spend more time with if God were to suddenly give me an option. 

My life will really begin the moment I am reunited with Heather in the afterlife. The rest is just waiting. 

"Life is lived on the wire. The rest is just waiting." Papa Wallenda

I'd be glad to leave this dimension of cortisol, food insecurity, and money based anxiies. I would leave all of this in a second. 

My landlord accompanied some tenants who were cancerous and were at the hospital. Three stories. 

- one was really happy, happiest he had been in a long time. 

- one was just very happy. 

- one was due to be injected at 2 pm but he was impatient and demanded the nurse to do him at 1:30, half an hour early. The nurse said,  "But you are scheduled to go at 2 pm and we are not doing it an earlier than that."

They all must have either seen their departed friends nds and relatives appearing like some opaque icon in mixed reality virtual reality who gave them supreme comfort or else some see an actual vision of the lush Elysium Fields with its over 100 primary colors with plants in such a state of health and irridescence such as never been seen on Earth before because the ratsh*t flyblown physics of this dimension, well, they leave much to be desired. 

The movie Ballad of a Small Player gives me anxiety. Googling this, AI wrote that the fast paced cinematography, claustrophobic scenes, and the psychological elements of addiction made many audience members feel anxiety. Ha ha! 

It was the mean old lady who gave me anxiety. I understood all the words she said and it was very toxic and gave me fear and anxiety. It was vulgar, terse language. 

Sigh, movies are fake. She was simply reciting off of a script that she was paid to memorize and then there's the delivery which is where the craft is truly evident. She had to deliver the lines convincing to evoke the intended audience effect. It's not rocket science. Deanie Ip did it really well too. The Chinese would say, Don't worry, "Koy hoe chut meng-ah!"  which means, She's really famous! 

Well. The plotline is that the Colin Farrell character was a scoundrel and a well known figure in the local Chinese gambling community of Macau. He had already been blacklisted at several hotels for inability to pay off his markers. At the pai gow table that evening, Grandma was deliberately chuffed because she knew of the characters infamous scoundrel reputation otherwise she wouldn't have spoken those words. 

Watching the movie again, the old lady was hilarious. The Colin Farrell character asked for credit. She said,  "Cre, cre, cre, mut lunn dit-ah?" Some what translated,  "Cre, cre, cre, what c*ck dit huh?" 

The movie has a twist ending. The Chinese casino manager said to Colin Farrell, Doyle, that he had a ghost attached to him standing behind him at the casino table. It has a Sixth Sense thread in the plotline. At the end of the movie, he was told that the Chinese lady that he met died some time ago. He says, I spent time with her recently, and the movie does show the two of them together which turned out to be his ghostly encounter. 

Ashwagandha doesn't completely take the anxiety away. There will always be a little. Don't sweat the small stuff. Right. That's all I ever fricking do! 

A few minutes ago, I thought of going to a restaurant and a $5 coffee is all I could afford. 

Even thinking about the $5 offset to my already meager miniscule bank account gave me a slight but sharp anxiety attack. 

Should I go or should I not go? Indecision always always sets off an anxiety attack. I think I'm damaged goods, mentally. 

"Half the man I used to be."  Stone Temple Pilots 

It was a unsettling anxiety attack. Is there any other kind? 

Say what you will about the Chinese, but most Chinese would never get a sudden and pronounced anxiety attack about a $5 increment off of a bank account. I must be brain damaged. The Chinese aren't that f*cked up, whereas, I am. Even though I'm Chinese myself. I'm one of the Chinese who got sent to the Island of Misfit Toys. The Island of Misfit Chinese Toys. What were the chances of that. Aren't just about all toys made in China these days? This is the result of outsourcing of otherwise local unionized light industry. Like toy crafting. Unionized tinkering. 

Douglas Bloch said, "No, you are not brain damaged."

Emily Carr wrote of a friend who said, "Brain damage nothing. You have a tongue sharp enough to mow the lawn." 

Monday, October 3, 2025

Blue Jay's couldn't win. Even with LA having first inning advantage meaning 9th inning advantage, achieved from a coin toss, home field advantage, Toronto had a golden window of opportunity, a 10th inning, and all they had to do was score 1 point. It wasn't as if they had a 3 point deficit and had to achieve a grand slam to win. And this is with Toronto leading decisively with quite a few points and they couldn't pull it off. 

Sports games are rigged. They are tied to a sports betting conglomerate that favors certain point spreads and wins and losses for a maximum profit margin and these sports betting companies are really fronts for other companies with an IPO. 

Deeper dive. Canadian teams being from a country with a fraction of the population  of the US and Canadian teams being teams with the $40 million CAD a year budget VS teams with a $100 million US annual budget makes Canadian teams typically the long shot. Sometimes to hype the game and to add to some cultural mystique, the odds can be raised to what, a million to one? The higher the odds, the more people pay. But the long shot team winning would mean a massive payout. The short odds favored team to win means the sports betting companies have to pay out less. If the long shot team won, they'd hav to pay out more. It's not rocket science. It's basic mathematics. So you are such a idiot or sycophant that you can't see that these damned f*cking American Canadian so-called championship matches are completely rigged. Some weird Feed Flintstone grungy bourgeois gangsta set up which is what is supposed to pass as modern contemporary culture. 

That would explain it! 

Oh, you think I'm pulling this out of thin air. Last week, a few professional baseball players were convicted by the FBI for an insider trading style sports betting racket. 

At the professional level, it's not about talent. That's been proven. It's about spectacle making the plays look natural or else accidental to ensure a certain result. They are paid professional performers with a skill set with some elements similar to method acting. 

At the professional level, it's about achieving a certain bottom line. 

The government is blatantly in on it. A few years ago, there was a government bookies run game of chance called Sports Action or else the other idiot tax besdlides the mainstream lottery. I don't know if Sports Action is still going on. The aim is to generate a source of tax revenue for infrastructure projects. 

A spectator pays to witness a result, a certain level of performance and skill as athletes have more thrust, more PSI pounds per square inch power than the amateur leagues. 

The ideal is they pay for a score result based on entirely random factors. 

The reality is, that the likelihood is high that the game is rigged in some way, but who cares? Rigged game, not rigged game, it's still a good game. 

Rigged election, not rigged election, it's still a good election. In the US whether or not the President wins, the election is rigged. In Russia, whether or not the election is rigged, the President wins. Again, either way, it's a good election. 

That's why the Vancouver Canucks will never win the Stanley Cup, the public sector and private sector sports betting structures, why the profit margin simply wouldn't allow it! 

The more higher the odds against, the more underdog the team, the more people will bet to potentially win big. Two more or less evenly paid, evenly matched American teams wouldn't be as exciting as one major American team VS a Canadian underdog team. That's more exciting to gamblers hoping for a big win. The higher the odds against winning, the more they'll win if they bet on the underdog. Sports betting isn't as unforgiving as the mainstream lottery is. You bet on the outcome of a few games and even if you get 5 out of 7 games right, you still win something. $100? Why not? Getting all 7 games predicted correctly will win you $50,000. On a $20 bet. 

Ashwagandha makes me drop my burning anxiety. I thought I would have to be in the afterlife before I felt this level of relief. 

When I die, I picture myself riding in a cart on an escalator going uphill but it will be as fast as and feel like it's going downhill. That's going to heaven. 

If a person goes to hell, it will look like they are on a cart going downhill but it will feel like it's going uphill. 

That's the physics of the afterlife for ya'. 

Ashwagandha makes me drop my anxiety. I haven't felt this since I had an NDE and walked away from my bed and looked back and it was as if in the scene from the new Pet Sematary movie where the zombie girl drops the mask she was wearing and it falls down with a thud. When a person dies, they are still very much awake and aware, but feel that all their problems of their old identity were gone, even with thinking, I know I had some issues before in life but for the life of me, I can't recall them and try as I can those pronlems aren't hitting my gut at all let alone in th. SME way they used to. 

That's why the mask in the movie Pet Sematary looked dark and wretched. It represents the bad things associated with this life that they drop. They don't drop the good things, that stays with you forever. Upon death, one is dead to the problems and issues of their previous Earthly life. 

In the movie Ballad of a Small Player, the Chinese expression, "Dead to shame." is mentioned. When a person dies or even when they use ashwagandha, they become dead to shame. 

Courage to come back. 

The good sense not to. 

As for Prince Andrew or else Mr Andrew Windsor, the Mandrew formerly known as Prince, as he goes about these days, in his defense, what he did was pretty much the standard if YouTube comments saying that Bill Gates wife left him because of this, Bill Clinton, Trump, others were all implicated with Epprey Jeffstein. 

Presentism is when you hold people of times past to the standards of today. 

There is prohibitum malum which is a wrong that was always Universally wrong . And there is prohibitum in se, a wrong of the times. Zeit verboten. 

What Prince Andrew did affected nobody else but himself, as the John, the pimp, the madame and a cross selection of a stable of underage wh*res. 

Led Zeppelin's Jimmy Page when he was 27, he had a 15 year old teenage girlfriend. Even more strange, she was already the sloppy seconds of other rock stars starting when she was 13. She had been around. There and back, you might say. That was the strange standard of the times. That's enough to make a person feel wretched. That's awful. That's illegal. 

It was a crazy time. It was also a time when putting mousse and gel through your hair and listening to 8 track tapes seemed like a good idea. It was a time when University students ate raw live goldfish and jammed themselves into telephone booths and Volkswagen beetles. 

I'm not saying that things back then were right. It's just that things back then were simply different. They marched to the beat of a different drummer. Moral relativism. 

A comment got deleted off of a YouTube video about Macron's wife. I have somewhat of an eidetic memory. The comment said, "What used to be seen as a natural thing has in the West now been relegated to issues of justice and turned into court games." 

A hundred years ago and beyond, women were considered as chattel until women's suffrage was enacted into place. 

Two hundred years ago, women and children were considered as chattel until child labour laws were enacted. 

Three hundred years ago, women, children and men were considered as chattel. First anti slavery laws were enacted. People were no longer serfs under the feudal Lord and fief system but became free landowners. 

Chattel means livestock with no legal rights whatsoever. 

During the feudal times, a feudal Lord has something called jus primae noctis. That means a feudal Lord if he wanted, could have first dibs at any man's wife before a couple's honeymoon nuptials. Something like this definitely wouldn't wash today but again, things were very different during different times in history. 

Jus primae noctis still occurs in small backwoods out of the way towns where the local town lord would come between a man and his newlywed wife except in these case, all three of them are cousins to one another. 

Throughout history, the Legal Age of Consent has spiked like a Dow Jones Index bar graph. It used to be lower but has since spiked higher. And regional Laws that differ from State to State when you cross State lines. In F-Stein's, Frankenstein's, F*ck-Stein's day, the legal age of consent was 16. It has since been raised to 18. So F-Stein must have thought, in his mind, that what he was doing was perfectly kosher. 

That's what happened with Diddy who is the ebonic answer to Eprrey Jeffstein. In his case, he was busted for human trafficking, Convoy the song, I mean conveyance of underage prostitutes again, depending on State Law. A person is bound to Laws from where they came from, like an airline stewardess in terms of wages, overtime etc. A person who is from a State where the Legal Age of Consent is younger than 18 who goes to work in another State is still bound to and protected by the Laws of the State where they are from in terms of wages, overtime, working age, etc. And its never listed as prostitution, rather licensed discreet Escort service, discretion assured, or else licensed Swedish full body massage services. Licensed in one State under one set of Laws, but again, like an airline stewardess, contracted services, its kind of a rabbithole of  shady quasi-legality.  So using a legal loophole, P Diddy was operating in a quasi-grey area, legally. It was when it was disclosed that some of P Diddy's clients are the very rich and famous in the African American Community that elevated the status of the case. The FBI raided P Diddy's estate because whereas there are State Laws, well, Federal Laws trump State Laws as seen in the movie Killers of the Flower Moon. The FBI must have seen it as a form of fraudulent conveyance of humans and additionally, for untoward purposes and of course, living off the avails of prostitution. 

P Diddy wasn't demanding a supply. He was simply supplying a sordid demand that was already there. 

I'm taking Ash-Wakanda, would that make me Black? 

Anyways, this is a perfect excuse to sideline Prince Andrew from the Throne. 

The Game of Thrones is a game of chess specifically in terms of seeing a few moves ahead. Wallis Simpson was sent to deliberately tempt Edward the XIIIth off the throne as he had no children but King George already had Princess Elizabeth as the Crown Princess whom the Establishment needed to be Monarch. 

Prince Andrew has children who would be deemed as a viable threat and incentive since Laws regarding exclusively male primogeniture or right to rule has been struck down and so now females are eligible for Monarchical Appointment but Prince William has Prince George, who is male, for one thing, and whom the Establishment needs to be Monarch. 

Meghan Markle was sent to tempt Prince Harry off the Throne as Prince Harry has Blackamoor mulatto children but Prince William already has Prince George who is 100% Lily White, French Fleur de Lis White, who the Establishment needs to be Monarch. 

Race. Its the same reason I wouldn't mind being in China. Then I'd be one of the racial majority. I would live in a society with people of my race. The agrarian race. Actually, it's not just about race. It's about resonance. 

This does not bode well for Trump. It's a bad omen for Trump. YouTube comments aid the US government shut down was to prevent the Jeffstein files on Trump from being released. 

The movie Eyes Wide Shut hinted that not only were there these, uh, extravagant parties amongst the rich, these parties often involved underaged girls. Kubrick depicted the main Fidelio party. Then there was a segment where the owner of the costume shop was pimping out his underaged daughter to Japanese clients. He even tried to pimp her out to Tom Cruises character in the movie. Juxtapose those two elements in the movie together which was Kubrick's intention. Eyes Wide Shut. That's where those rich people got the idea or else more likely, the movie learned from what the rich were already doing. 

It's a very large and very strange world. Who knows what the hell is going on here and there? 

"Wet bus top, he sees her, so bad he starts to cough

Just like the old man in that book by Nabokov."

The Police 

Some people are into the Lolita thing. If anything, it's gotten worse since the days when Randy Andy was active in certain swinging circles. With the dark net. It's something that only the Police are capable of dealing with. 

The Police might say,  "There are many other and worse offenders. It's just that Jeffstein was the most famous." 

James Woods, Michael J Fox, The Hard Way. In the movie, Michael J Fox portrayed a character who was always quoting Police Officers and passing them off as his own, James Woods in particular. 

That quote was lifted from a Thai Police Officer who said that about a notorious Canadian diddler named uh, Neil Warren, I think. He was notorious and was extradited from Thailand to either Canada or the US. His extradition was specifically requested. Yeah, and again, the Thai Police Officer said,  "There are many other and worse offenders. It's just that he's the most famous one." 

Randy Andy's Randy days are done. It's not as if he was going to give a speech at a high school that the high school would send the girls home early. No, not that at all. 

"So you think his defiling days are done, do you?" The Goblin King, The Hobbit. 

There is a strange parallel between Virginia Guiffre and Amanda Todd. Both were underaged women forced into coerced sex of one form or another and then killed themself because of it. But Amanda Todd wasn't given a £12 million pound settlement before she killed herself! These two cases are opposite sides of the spectrum. 

They think they're progressive, but they'll wind up selling you down the river. My friend said that about his social workers. 

Prince Andrew sure sold Virgina Guiffre down the river. Guiffre, that name eeirly sounds like Jeffrey. He denied knowing her at all. 

But he also sold himself down the river. He could have said, the case is before the Courts and decline to answer. A lawyer said, "Thou shalt not snith in thyself."  He a itched on himself. 

That was a test. If he couldn't defend himself, how could he defend the country as a Prince? 

On a YouTube video I watched today, someone said, "I expected the interview to be a train wreck. It ruined out to be a plane crashing into a train crashing into an oil tanker carrying a nuclear bomb." 

The Royal Family would expect any Canadian who is Loyal to say that despite whatever worries, full of gaffes, things will be fine. The Firm will stand strong. 

The Firm had quite a few stories. One, Prince George of Kent was a junkie and a transvestite and not just as a joke on Halloween. He met a junkie girlfriend who turned him on to the World of Drugs. He winds up dying mysteriously in a plane crash and she dies mysteriously too, a year later. They teach this on YouTube. 

I hope that Prince Andrew never does himself in because of this. I'm worried about that he might like that Thomas guy. I refer to him as Prince Andrew because he will always be my Prince. I saw him in person years ago. At a distance. 

He appeared stout, like a keg of dynamite, like a Chinese Emperor. Royal. 

Whatever his personal indiscretions, he stands with a fine establishment of years of interwoven history of heraldry and all kinds of twists and turns and court intrigues. In spite of it all, the Crown weather's the storm and the Crown stands strong. 

Stories about this and that are nothing new with Royalty. We must stand with Royalty. 

God Bless them all. 

If my parents were actually people who were on the ball, and had I gotten a fair shake, I'd have my birth certificate. Then I could move to Hong Kong at any time and stay there without worrying about travel visas etc. 

My parents were flakes, crackpots. 

Fiction: From coincidence, I saw a video on the internet. The city was clearing a graveyard to make space to build a rendering plant and I saw my parents graves being dynamited! 

And then one day, I saw a porn ad which read, 'Your stepmother will make you beg for it.'

And I thought,  "What, from the grave? In any case, it's too late for even that, since I saw my parents grave being dynamited on a video on the internet."

Then I told my probation officer that story. My probation officer said,  "Your stepmother? Really? If you think that's hot, you've been in prison too long."

Wednesday, October 5, 2025 

Today, I finally reached the end of the Doomsday level on Arizona Sunshine. I kill enough zombies and then get let in to an area where I become a zombie and have to be shot. 

I think I might actually be shot. If England sees what I wrote about Prince Andrew, I might get a headshot from a snipers bullet, high impact rifle. One shot. Sometimes it takes two shots as the head is cut in half. 

That would be major. Then I would be in the afterlife. 

I thought I lost my reading glasses. I found them an hour and a half larger. They were next to my computer. I looked everywhere else. 

Now I lost a demi-joint. Usually, I find a full joint but half a joint could mean a better strain. A few times I lost things and then a few days later, they just turned up. Sometimes a ghost will swipe something only to return it a few days later. It was rolled and twisred in a distinct way. 

I'm not going to spend the next two hours looking for it. 

"You were always in the back of my mind." Spandau Ballet 

That half joint will be in the back of my y mind all evening. What a roast. What a roach. 

Disconcetingly or not, depending on who you ask, the News said that the flamingo at the Butterfly Gardens in Victoria BC is queer. The bird had a husband that died a couple of years ago. 

I've heard of birds that could be queer like penguins being the most famous one of all. 

I didn't know the flamingo at the Butterfly Gardens was queer. I thought it was straight and this despite it being all pink in color. And with pink feathers too. That's the only thing on the net that can still look heterosexual even thought it's covered with pink feathers. 

Last year, I visited the Butterfly Gardens. That was on a day which was one of the last times I've ever seen Heather whom I love more than life itself. 

The flamingo was there when I saw it. Of course it reminded me of Miami Vice. 

That bird is a golden opportunity for comedy. 

The birds husband died. Of what? Avian AIDS? 

That bird is 50 years old with a birthday next month. 

That bird lived a lot longer than even some millionaires even though they were rich with money. A lot of millionaires didn't make it to 50. 

The flamingo doesn't look a day over 30. 35  tops. What's its secret? Oil of flamingO-Lay. 

Mango the gay flamingo's birthday is coming up very soon, in a few days. On November 22, 2025. Go! Why not? A gay birthday party. It's not like going to a gay wedding which would have even more pageantry, but you can't have it all. 

There will be flamingo cupcakes, probably penguin cupcakes, flamingo themed events and a lecture about flamingos in general. Alas, despite being a gay birthday party, there is no word on whether there will be cocaine and poppers. I'm thinking probably not. 

Thursday, October 6, 2025 

"Don't mind us. After all, Belial Day only comes but once a year." Aldous Huxley, Ape and Essence 

Supreme Court of Canada orders cull of 300 ostriches. #Satanic 

What can you say? 

Play stupid games, win stupid prizes. 

Play Canadian games, win Canadian prizes. 

Play Vancouver games, win Vancouver prizes. 

Play Stabcouver games, win Stabcouver prizes. 

The ostrich cull is in Edgewood BC. 

Play Edgewood games, win Edgewood prizes. 

Play BC games, win BC prizes. 

Play Court games, win Court prizes. 

Play bizarre games, win bizarre prizes. 

The CFIA went ahead with its decision despite the fact that none of the birds exhibited any symptoms for a year. Good thing that the CFIA isn't in charge of the hospitals otherwise there would be none of us here.

"If droids could think, there would be none of us here." Ben Kenobi, Attack of the Clones 

Its about muscle flexing, demonstrating clout, and pulling rank. Political posturing. Just like a doctor will side swipe and second guess you. Of you say right, they'll say left. If you say left, they'll say right. 

So in that case, the ostrich farm should have requested the CFIA cull the birds.  Cause then, the ostriches would definitely be alive. 

"You know what, mate?  If you're so obsessed with Bridget Jones, why don't you just marry her? Cause then, she'd definitely shag me." Hugh Grant, Bridget Jones Diary. 

It's just like the movie Killers of the Flower Moon. Once the Feds get involved, there's nothing that can be done. 

There's a bunch of people who won't be voting for Mark Carney in the next election. Like they voted for him in the last election. Rural communities are known to vote Conservative. If the Conservatives were in power, things might be different. 

Yeah, sure. If if and buts were horses and nuts. 

Tennyson said,  "Mother Nature can be very red in tooth and claw.". Let's face it, every day, quite a few million animals die as other animals eat them and then half the time, these animals are also themselves eaten. The ostriches were in a farm, a place that was supposed to protect them fron all predators. Now they're being struck down. 

The CFIA wouldn't even let the farm export the ostriches to the States where there were people willing to take them in. Again, that's muscle flexing, rank pulling and political posturing. 

My advice to the farmers is to vote with your feet, and move to the States. I'm not sure if Canada needs them but they sure don't need Canada. If you live in a country, ask yourself, are you getting a 'good deal'? If not, you owe nothing to any country. Obviously any country that did them as dirty as Canada did. They owe no loyalty to anything like that. 

Its their temperament of they want to stay or not but if it were me and I had the money, I'd leave. They could ask that US billionaire friend of theirs who paid for their legals costs to help them with expediting citizenship applications to the United States. That would be a happy ending for those farmers that I would like to see. I wish them the very best. 

Because often, when a person has difficulties, it isn't because of who they are but because of where they are. Things about them that are such an issue in one place is irrelevant in another. Certain involuntary structural BS like lack of adequate infrastructure is problems. Better to move to a place with better and fully developed decent infrastructure. 

Vancouver has a new women's soccer team called The Vancouver Golden Eyes. 

Fiction:

A News reporter asks the coach. 

Reporter: "What do you expect from your athletes? What's a Golden Eye in your mind?" 

Coach:  "It's one step up from a brown eye, just past the taint."

Reporter: "I'm not sure that you have the right vision to coach a women's soccer team."

A golden eye is a type of duck. 

I thought that the women's soccer team was named after The James Bond 007 movie. 

The ideal is that sports games are rigged to appease government sports lotto maximum profits. 

The reality is that players can screw up plays like the hockey player who had the soccer equivalent of a free kick completely lost the puck, it slipped away from him when he was going to make a score. Then it was the Canucks players turn and he made the score! 

If a player screws up the play then the result of the game would not be the outcome that the government wanted. 

If that's the case, that hockey players are arriving achieve a score formation based on a last minute calculation of all bets tallied, done on a computer of course to derive a score formation that achieves maximum profits, does that mean that hockey players are government agents? 

That's hockey for you, either you're a free agent or you're a government agent. 

The sports betting indictments are that the private sector can set up different odds and payout structures. But when they try to rig a game to suit an independently derived algorithm of a favorable score formation to achieve maximum profit, this directly conflicts with the score formation that the government wanted to attain a maximum profit margin to pay for infrastructure, why this becomes an issue of National Security. Or does it? What. Just one game or a set of games in one sport? I doubt it. But it's still illegal. 

I fell off the fence of financial restraint again and got two really good movies for $5 which is better than getting one mediocre movie for $10. 

I got Noah. Spectacular cinematography. And it's a Biblical movie. I also have another Biblical movie, Exodus Gods and Kings. If I were to watch them in chronological order, I'd have to watch Noah first. 

There is the scenes of the animatronic puppets, the stone golems and Jennifer Connolly who was probably thinking that she was on familiar territory after being in the movie Labyrinth. 

The stone golems weren't in the Biblical story at all. 

Noah was released in 2014 and has good production values. 

The other movie I got for $5 was Hero. There are two famous visionary directors involved. 

Quentin Tarantino. He directed The Hateful Eight which is spectacular on the level of crystals, rainbows, glaciers and waterfalls. That movie is unbelievably stunning and spectacular. 

Zhang Yimou. I mean it's Zhang fricking Yimou. Heron is a 2004 movie with 2004 production values. Yimou directed legendary movies during the 90s, uh, Red Sorghum, Raise the Red Lantern, We Live. 

The movie starts off looking like the typical martial arts movie. 

The premise is Jet Li, the Hero killed three famous assassins. He tells this story to an emperor with the telling of each story, the hero is allowed to advance closer to the emperor. Let me guess. Jet Li decides to have a British go at the emperor. But like a probation officer who physically knocks down an assault suspect who tries to rush him, the emperor defeats the Hero. 

The emperor sometimes appears to be an effete publican autocrat, but they all have high level martial arts training quite a few levels above that of the ordinary person. 

Any Royalty anywhere, Monarch, Prince, Princess, their martial arts skills are absolutely lethal and not to be underestimated. This is actual true fact in real life. 

Even most heads of State unless they are old and feeble, can give any citizen a run for their money. 

2004 production values. I'm expecting the movie to have some spectacular scenes. 

Zhang Yimou directed The House of Flying Daggers. The all green bamboo forest scene was a lush opulent spectacle of intense visual vibrancy. 

I have a pair of headphones that I bought for $4.50 quite a few years ago. Today, one side of the headphones died, just died. So today, it's was 70s mono headphone style. 

I thought of getting another pair at Walmart because sometimes they have the most amazing low priced headphones. A few times I got headphones there for a low price and thought that I never had headphones this nice before. Ever. And for such a low price. I got a pair of ONN headphones that were just amazing. I still have them. 

That's why I didn't go. No use going through $20 "for new headphones if I don't have to. I have at least a couple more headphones that I bought for low prices and just held on to them for times such as this. 

Because of the housing crisis, I will always fear the future. 

Catholic Priests take on vows of poverty yet live in houses nicer than most of us. 

The Catholic Church has always been financially immune to recessions, Dpepressions, and housing crises. The housing crisis sure doesn't make them fear the future. I wish I were more like a Catholic in that way. 

Hopefully I can get the one answer I need that will stop my fear of the future. 

Oh, Ghost of Christmas future, I fear you more than any other ghoats. 

This goes without saying that the Catholic Church and Protestant Church is more spiritual than I am. 

However, to underscore this, two weeks ago, Catholic and Protestant Churches alike told the story of the humble tax collector who said, Lord have pity on me and the rich arrogant Priest who thought he was the cats pajamas. 

Priests themselves have said,  "Don't think that we are more spiritual than you. We have seen people who had access to less spiritual resources and supports than we have yet in spite of this, they still have faith and a gratitude for life. These people inspire even us."

I always thought that Priests have way more faith than I do. 

For one thing, Priests hear stories all the time from people who had religious dreams. Priests even had some religious dreams themselves that were a doozy. Priests also see dying people reaching out and saying things like them seeing heaven, Jesus, God, angels etc. Priests seen this first hand so many times that they have empirical evidence to bolster their faith. But just knowing about this can bolster anybody's faith. 

This is happening all over the planet. People pay more and more rent every year, but buildings made of brick erode over time. The first to wear down is the mortar which shrinks and expands over time due to water and temperature changes. 

That's why with every passing winter, my room seems cold and colder. The physics of this dimension are awful. Just awful. 

I saw some nice headphones online at Walmart. I can't tell you which one they are or you'd all go and get them so when I get there, the headphones would be sold out. I doubt it. Walmart endlessly orders headphones from their suppliers. That's the ideal, anyways. The reality? Why not? 

I found a pair of old headphones. Not bad. These headphones just smoke and smoke smoke and smoke and smoke. The bass is phenomenal. I'm still stunned at how indrediblly technocandy cyberpunk hot the headphones sound. These are $17 headphones. Not bad. ONN brand. From Sweden. 

The headquarters are in Sweden. The actual production has been outsourced to China. 

Despite it all, I don't see myself ever leaving Victoria. 

A few years ago, I pictured myself traveling to Europe. I pictured colorful festive European markets. I can see that anytime on YouTube. 

Got to HuebiVR. All in one word. And look up Dresden Christmas market. Even if you don't have VR goggles, the video still works. You can see for yourself how fantasmagoria wonderland fantasy diorama world that Europe is. 

Victoria BC is the best town for me. 

I need to feel bliss. I'll tell you about some of the most blissful days I have ever had. 

- I was in Vancouey in 2011. Cloudy day. I went to the Maritime Museum to see the RCMP St Roch and I visited the Vancouver Museum with all its dioramas. The heavenly vibes of the place. To say that they were through the roof would be an understatement. I went back to the hotel room I was staying in and sighed loudly quite a few times involuntarily. That's how intense the heavenly vibes were. 

- One time, I saw a Jean Claude Van Couver video about the Jericho Hostel. I thought the Jericho Hostel was located on 4th Avenue near the old army barracks. I felt a wave of bliss that was through the roof. Actually the host is located on Locarno Drive which is somewhat out of the way. 

- Seeing a picture of Connections thrift store in Sidney BC, Canada. I looked up at the windows on the second floor. I imagined living up there in one of those two rooms. The room set up would be, there would be, looking directly at the front of the building, a bed on the wall to the right aboit two feet away from the window, I would sleep with my head pointing West, the entrance to the room would also be on the right hand side of the room. Near the door, there would be a bar or a shelf about one and a half feet wide about four feet away from the door and there would be an opening, a walkway where the shelf would end on the right side of the room. On the left side of the room near the bed, there would be a living room carpet, tan, and with a television on the left or North side of the room. To the left of the television next to the window would be a writing desk. The room wouldn't be totally clean but not messy either. There would be enough things about to make the place look lived in. I imagine that while looking at pictures of the thrift store on Google maps street view along with listening to Steely Dan Gaucho, the songs that didn't make it on to the original album. Gaucho Out takes. 

That building and that music might not do it for a lot of people. Anyone will have a different particular combination of building or else town matched with some music that just thinking about it, brings waves of heavenly bliss. It has to be a town that is known to you. Towns that you visited quite a few times. It doesn't work with towns that you don't know about at all, only heard of. 

The upstairs of Connections Thrift store is very different from what I imagine. From what I could see from the street down below, the second and top floor looks to be either a storeroom for clothing or else a classroom. 

- lots and lots of times going to Church and then afterwards in the afternoons listening to 70s music. That always does it. 

- all of Vancouver has heavenly vibes. You would think onky the West side because of the money and affluence. The East Side of Vancouver has heavenly vibes detected that are simply right through the roof. 

Saturday, October 8, 2025 

Tonight at 7pm on CHEK channel 6, there is a boxing match at the Bay Street Armoury

in Victoria BC. 

On the way from Vancouver to Victoria, someone stole their truck which had a boxing ring. They set up another boxing ring and even the owner said it's just a hiccup. 

I hope that the Police catch whoever swiped the boxing ring. 

On the News, I have to describe it, photo of the day, a small black pug dog with emergent crooked lower teeth which featured very conspicuously. The anchor said, "That dog is from Kamloops. The sports anchor is also from Kamloops."

Is that dog is the sports anchor's love child? If it is, whoa, the sports anchor has been around. 

You can sure see the resemblance in the teeth. 

In any event, fully aware that this is what psychology calls transference, I feel that Herbessa is my daughter. Herbessa, the black Abyssinian Guinea pig is literally, rather than figuratively, my actual real daughter. However, on a genetic level, that notion that would be difficult to reconcile, if not impossible. 

If I think that Herbessa is my daughter, that means that I am brain damaged. 

There is a solid gold toilet. Solid Gold. The sh*ts just keep on coming. 

Today, despite some slight feelings of guilt, I am taking the day off. I worked for the last two days. 

There is an area with lots of leaves. I'll do it next week. This area is an area where cars enter. The cars usually enter mostly before 9 am on weekdays which is when Court is in session. After 9 am, the cars enter with less frequency. The sheriff van carrying the prisoners makes an appearance sometime around 10:30 am. 

I noticed leaves, a lot more than usual since its Autumn. I cleaned a few areas last week, but that was before 9 am and there were lots of cars entering quite often. I decided to wait until after 9 am which I was going to do anyways. The few areas I cleaned were cosmetic. They were areas of small surface area but cleaning those areas are pivotal to making the place look a lot nicer. To clean that 1% area of space made the place look 20% nicer. 

I'm going to do that area, possibly next week on Remembrance Day. The area where the sheriff van drives through, in Sherlock Holmes time, it would have been a large wooden police van that horses pulled. I imagine this is a hundred years ago, and I am sweeping the area where the sheriff's van with horses pulling it would regularly drive through. It has a real 1800s gasoline alley cobblestone streets Sherlock Holmes kind of vibe. 

Frankenstein 2025. Visually spectacular masterpiece. Exceeds all expectations. Mesmerizing. Mind blowing. Amazing. Top class. 

I still hope to live a life where I am feeling bliss and heavenly vibes all the time. I don't know if watching horror movies like Frankenstein helps. 

Heavenly vibes is often about music. 

I played Arizona Sunshine the original. Horde mode, the Canyon. Awful. Just awful. Deplorable. Horrenderous. The newest rebooted Arizona Sunshine, the difference is like night and day. 

Although, when it was first released, it seemed cutting edge. Now it looks crude and primitive. 

I wonder what the next generation of VR goggles will look like? One day the Arizona Sunshine Remake will seem crude and primitive. But right now it seems visceral and cutting edge. You have to get Arizona Sunshine Remake. Then you will experience what all other zombie VR titles try to be. 

Zombie Army VR. $40. The zombies that are shot disappear. What, is this the 2000s, disappearing slain. The horde mode in Zombie Army VR looks no better than the horde mode in Arizona Sunshine the original released ten years ago. $40?! $45 with tax?!! BS! 

Arizona Sunshine. The slain zombies don't disappear. 

And Arizona Sunshine is $30. Much better. 

6 pm. The anxiety has returned. A low hanging miasma of anxiety. It's a Brüning feeling in the guts. I think it's over for me. Even with Ashwagandha, the anxiety returned. I'm better off dead. 

7:30 pm. After having gone to the washroom, a few times, I feel better. Waking up, having to go to the bathroom, can cause cortisol which causes anxiety. Go to the washroom! 

Now I'm at the point where I'm not sure if the anxiety is still there or not. I suppose that's what you call feeling better. 

I watched the boxing match. A few matches. First match lightweight. Second match middleweight. You can clearly see the difference in weight class. 

A fight between two female boxers. I said out loud that one of them could be a probation officer or works for the judicial branch. Probation officer during the week, boxer in the weekends. It turns out that one of them is a female Police Officer! 

I wasn't exactly expecting John Sullivan style one hundred rounds of bare knuckle boxing. John Sullivan VS Jack Johnson. That would be the 1905 version of Rocky VS Mr T. 

It would have been dubbed the fight of the century even though the century was then just five years old. 

There were no decisive knockout. They were all technical wins. 

The classic move for a knock out is the uppercut to the jawbone with maximum PSI, just give 'er! This causes the neck to snap back suddenly causing a slight disruption to the nerve signals. A whiplash effect. Result, a knock out on a surgical level. Ask any doctor. 

I didn't see the uppercut at all. Of course that's the number one thing all boxers are trained for and moving the head back quickly is just all it takes to defend against a potential uppercut to the jaw. 

The Main Event is a heavyweight match. One boxer has a bleeding cut above his right eye. Visibility affected in one eye can make a difference in a fight. Mow the other boxer has a cut near his left eye. A bad one. 

Worst ending. The boxer with the cut above his right eye, the cut got worse. It opened to the point where the bone could be seen! The orbital bone. On doctors advice, the fight was stopped to be continued another day. Sometime in March. There's a rematch? Of course there's a rematch. 

Despite what's happening with Andrew, the Royal Family of England is fine and strong and always will be. 

This is merely the Lion in Winter. 

Even in tough wintry times, the British Crown is still the Lion. 

I am poor but loyal. 

Despite any doubts, it is my duty to stay alive for the sake of the Realm. It is a glorious realm of enchantment and true striving for the higher things in life. 

A YouTube comment said that King William and Queen Kate will make a difference. 

The century ahead promises technological development and evolution. 

A book written in 1963 is the Spirits from the author Allan Kardec easily found online as a free pdf. I found out about this from a video from Shaman Oaks on YouTube. 

After skipping the intro which also talks about how although he was French, he looked more German, the book gets into some real profound industrial grade heavy duty reading regarding the spirit world and the afterlife. 

He writes about how humans will go through many things like a housing crisis but these things will all eventually go away due to human evolution and advancement and development. 

Despite the foibles which will eventually go away, what will remain is the strong British Royal Family which we must all stand for because they stand behind us. 

I will never leave Victoria BC. I might go on a vacation but I will return. If I had the courage, I would travel to Quebec City for the incredible Christmas settings and also a trip to Europe would be hard core. England, Germany and Poland. 

If I were in Poland, I would visit North Poland such as Warsaw and Gdansk. I would avoid Southern Poland such as Krakow because I am scared of World War 2. 

Germany, Berlin would be a priority. See the Brandenburg Gate which would remind me of the Tannhauser Gate in the movie Blade Runner. I would need to visit the Wuppertal valley to ride the Wuppertal Schwebebahn. 

England. I would need to cross Tower Bridge and see the Parliament Buildings. I would need to see the Sherlock Holmes Museum but before that, go to Piccadilly Circus to score some c & h so I could mainline before going to the Sherlock Holmes Museum so as to get the real authentic Sherlock Holmes seven percent solution experience. However, since I'm not actually expecting that I'd actually find any drugs at Piccadilly Circus, I'd be just as happy to skip that and just go to the museum clean and sober. 

Visit a few Royal places, palaces etc. 

Visit Hyde Park. I won't be making a speech at Hyde Park. Social media has made speech making at Hyde Park an obsolete pastime. 

Long Live the King. 

The Ashwagandha I got is 200 ml gummies. 

The proviso is that the optimal dosage is 600 ml a day. 

I do fine on two 200 ml a day, once every 12 hours give or take a few hours. 

Tonight, I had two 200 ml gummies about three hours apart. I had one this morning so today, I did 600 ml. 

Jamieson Ashwagandha gummies, 60 gummies, 200 ml, $30

Walmart gummies - $20 

At 3 a day, 60 won't last long. I'd usually do a minimum of two a day. If I'm not on it for awhile, the anxiety comes back again. 

Someone in the comments section said they've been doing it for 20 years. The idea is that it takes two weeks to feel the full effect. But after 60 days, a person should take a two month break. 

I'll see how I feel. It might permanently adjust my whatever in the body so that one day I won't feel anxiety despite not being on Ashwagandha. That would be a dream. 

I feel a calmness I haven't felt since I was a teenager when the world was new and the future beckoned before me. Yeah, right. How the hell did that work out? 

Watching Frankenstein 2025, the movie is so lush and opulent that I watch about half an hour of it and then I fall asleep. It's called a sleeper hit. 

The movie is so overwhelming that it takes extra energy to watch it. In a good way. Luckily with VR and the Arc Max environment on Big Screen VR, I get to watch the movie in an IMAX theatre. Incredible experience. 

Even with around $300, a person can get a Quest 3S. That's still really good. 

Guillermo del Toro is a genius. Nightmare Alley, The Shape of Water are historically cinematic masterpieces. Over the top. The movie is absolutely gorgeous which is quite an accomplishment since the plot centers around a hideous beast. A person brought back from the dead who can not be killed. It gets better. Grace Randolph said the first half of the movie is told from the professors perspective. The second half of the movie is told from the monsters perspective. 

The classic Frankenstein story is always the shipwreck, then the laboratory and then the windmill. 

This might be the best movie this year so far and that's saying something because this year had so many good movies. 

Sunday, October 9, 2025 

I think that I'll probably be killed. This dimension is awful. 

Truth is stranger than fiction. But delusion is stranger than truth. 

Two different people requested to follow me on my meta VR Facebook. Their names are Ciara. 

Ciara sounds like Sierra which is RCMP code for suicide. 

On YouTube comments about Prince Andrew, it said,  "Virginia Guiffre tweeted many times that she was not suicidal and if she died, that means she was done in."

PA paid £12 million in an out of Court settlement but that only works in Civil Court cases. You can't pay out of Court settlemtns in criminal court as the victim cannot reverse the charges. Yeah, but now as it seems, the criminal Courts are after Prince Andrew. What a roast! Still, I'm hoping that as a Royal Prince, that he does well. It's not like he killed anyone. Even if he's a former, I mean once MI-5, always MI-6. 

In criminal court, a person can make a plea deal, plead guilty for a lesser sentence whereas in Civil Court, a person can not. 

In Civil Court, a person can make an out of Court settlement can be made whereas in Criminal Court, a person can not. 

I have a few times thought of quitting life altogether. I wouldn't do it. 

If I was found dead then I too would have been suicided. 

Debbie Hellion said in 2017, the government is expanding the Maid program. 

I think I'll be killed because I am always advising people to move to another country if their country doesn't work for them and one of these countries includes Canada. 

Play Canadian games win Canadian prizes. 

I am baffled that people from the Philippines would move to Dawson Creek. The Catholic Church is responsible for sponsoring them to move there. For higher wages. So for money, some people have sold themselves out for riches of the kind that money can't buy. 

The weather in the Philippines is way way better. The shopping mall in Manila is state of the art futuristic and very large. The Philipinos are a racial majority in their own country. 

So they would move to some backwater town with backwater infrastructure with way way worse weather and be a racial minority for money. Talk about taking a step backwards. That simply doesn't make sense. 

For sentiments like that which go against the local line, I will probably be killed. 

It would be a weird day, but it would soon enough be gotten over with. Hopefully I can hook up with some of my friends that I knew from this life. 

Although, in the past, the Police have tried to talk me out of committing suicide. They would do that for anyone else. 

I also donate to the Police charity every year without fail. 

I thought I had powers to tell the future but years ago, I didn't see the pandemic coming. How could I have missed something like that if I self claim to be able to tell the future? 

If I were to be killed for my opinions, there would be none of us left. I doubt that my opinions are the smartest or most controversial or the most intellectual. Far from it. There are people I don't know about, if I knew about them, every thing they say or write, I would think that they are a mentor or a Jedi Master or something like that. 

I don't think that I'll make it to 60. 

Three years ago, my HPA axis was spiking through the roof. I really thought that I'd die of a nervous breakdown in less than two weeks. I ordered a book from the bookstore. And when I ordered it, I told the cashier that it wouldn't be guaranteed that I'd return to pick up the book because I might be dead in one week from a nervous breakdown. I actually told her that. 

As it turned out, I was able to pick up the book. 

The book was about Emily Carr whom I often think about. When she was in England, she suffered a nervous breakdown and thought that she was brain damaged. Her friend told her that since she was still quite sharp, that it was doubtful that she had brain damage. 

Whenever I wonder if I have brain damage, I think of Emily Carr when she was in England. 

Ciara is the name of a popular singer. 

It is pronounce Kiara and sounds like Keira which was the name of one of my Guinea pigs. She was a pure white Guinea pig and stood in a certain spot in the center of the eall every morning. I called her my morning star. Of I died now and was reunited with her in heaven. That's a fate I could accept. 

I am worried about new followers on facebook. 

Ciara also means Sara which means princess, in Hebrew. 

I had a dream of a Princess wearing a vertically thin striped blue and white one piece bikini. 

In Google based Android tablet and on the Amazon fire OS, you never get any follower requests ever. I accept them. I don't know what to think of them, but whatever it is. It isn't good. 

Someone called MonsterB8.kill was following me but when I looked closer st the name, I deleted or blocked the follower. That's the forces of life. Get a certain kind of energy and get a worse energy in return. Or deleting it could have been an error. Once in awhile, someone who is a celebrity have followed me on Twitter. Verified celebrities. 

Monster could have been a celebrity. Who cares. I thought the entire handle was scary. 

It could be better in the States. The States knows how to hustle. 

There isn't the level of food insecurity in the States as there is in Canada. Even with Trump shutting off the SNAP program which the US Supreme Court demanded that he reinstate, the States has a small town every few miles on the highway and food storage. In Canada you could go a hundred miles down the highway and it not have anything like that. 

Canada is some British Colonial BS. 

If, in some parallel Universe, the States was a colony and Canada was independent like the States, the States would wind up being some outback like Australia with less population than England and Canada would have about 150 million people, just like Russia. Of course Canada wouldn't have the 400 million population that the States does because Canada has such awful, simply awful weather. 

Debbie Hellion said that in Canada, a lady at the hospital who had some sever illness was recommended MAID. She went to the States and got her illness taken care of. Play Canadian games, win Canadian prizes. 

Best to vote with our feet. Move to another and better country. 

The States has better technology than Canada does at any given time. Cedars Sinai, John Hopkins University hospital, Bethesda Hospital. These are hard core top rated hospitals. 

If you have the money, in Canada, there's a good possibility you could get MAID. If you have money in the States, you truly do have access to the very best in medical technology, better than anything in Canada or England, no BS. 

This is the world I live in. I wish I could give up on life altogether but do I have that option? 

Tracy Morgan, when he get into that accident with the Walmart truck said that he went to heaven and say God and God said,  "Your house is not ready yet. It is not your time. You have more to do."*

Therefore, none of us truly has that option, although, 

"I want to get off the bus

Everybody wants to get off the bus."

SCTV, Ingmar Bergman 

If I had the option, I'd want to be in heaven with Heather and my babies. Ai has generated videos of heaven that are amazing. Think wide large floors of white marble with round pools of water with plants and a small waterfall, and these pools are next to slightly hourglass shaped white tiled pillars with gold accents all throughout the place. Then picture flying above a gold city. These cities all look somewhat like the Schwedagon in Burma. The sky is a gold color too and there are rivers of flowing gold waters flowing throughout of high architectural precision. 

"Where the castles are made of gingerbread and the moats are filled with mulberry wine."  Game of Thrones 

*source: Andrea O Connor, Celebrity NDEs, YouTube

I went to the Catholic Church today. 

During mass, the Priest said that the Reformation created a schism with the formation of two Churches. Over the next century, the Church seeks to unify the two branches to firm one massive mega Church. 

Kind of like the merging of Home Sense and Winners. 

That's why King Charles visited the Vatican. He wasn't there for no reason. There was a major Catholic-Protestant synod. Major. 

In a billion years, the Milly Way and the Andromeda Galaxy will merge to Form the Grand Megallanic Galaxy. 

This sounds like something worthwhile to strive for, certainly on an ecumenical level. 

I'm converting to Catholicism. Protestants are flaky. 

"Coke is dead. It's as dead as dead. But heroin is coming back in a big way."  Pulp Fiction

Protestantism is dead. It's as dead as dead. But Catholicism is coming back in a big way. 

Protestant Churches, Christ Church Cathedral, St Andrew's Presbyterian. The attendance is skimpy at best. At Andrews Catholic. The place is bursting to the rafters with attendance. Why do you think that is? 

After 20 years of texting and social media, the collective energy wave has come to a consensus that Catholicism is more cooler, party party party, it's more networky, and it has a unified cohesive institution that unifies them all into one very big copiously attended family which is the Vatican. 

Protestantism is a bunch of disparate flyblown schisms, with sparse attendance in comparison. 

Protestantism is dead and dying. 

Catholicism is verdant, prolific, fecund, profound. 

A person feels more loved at a Catholic Church than they do at a Protestant Church. I guess people go where the love is. 

I have friends at the Protestant Churches. Friendships are not easily walked away from.

"To Kasshyk I will go. Good relations with the Wookies I have." Yoda, Revenge of the Sith 

I have the power to predict the future. 

The way things are going, with the information that I have and that information is: 

The world is going to hell in a handbasket. 

I predict that I won't make it to 60. 

I am 55 and a half years old now. I doubt that I'll make it to 60 because that's what my mind tells me. 

I asked my dead mother why she didn't abort me. In my mind, I imagined a voice. Day dreaming. She was angry,  "How would you expect a mother to abort her own child for no reason!" 

I wouldn't call it the physics of this dimension. 

I would call it the settings of the physics of this dimension. 

The afterlife has the same set of physics only set faster. Set to a thousand x whereas this dimension is the OG one x. 

Well, the settings of the physics of this dimension are f*cked. It has sure done a number on me. Now I'm not sure that I'll make it to 60. 

I didn't know that Rasputin was Ukrainian. The Ukrainian village that the Ruskies attacked the other day, Pokorovsk. That's the village Rasputin came from. 

Rasputin is called Russian because Ukraine was once a Province of Russia. I didn't know that village was in Ukraine. It used to be called Pokrovskoye. 

It looks like Borats village where he came from. 

After so many all right movies, I asked God for a really major interesting movie, a real good and fascinating movie. Did He ever deliver. Frankenstein. There is not one single second of the move that isn't visually spectacular over the top. The story has the viewer glued to the screen like crazy glue, never mind Velcro. The movie is opulent and rich like rich food. Think extra caffeine medium roast coffee with a stew with real white truffle oil. I've had that. At a fine local French restaurant. I walked out of there with my heartbeat elevated for a few hours. 

It's the real deal Frankenstein. The whole nine yards. The lightning was there, the laboratory was there, the Tesla coil was there. 

Can people be brought back to life? 

Sure! It happens all the time at the hospital with the OR nurse saying, "You flatlined for 17 seconds there but we have the heart paddles and the doctor refused to give up. He's seen worse cases." 

It takes two weeks to feel the full effects of Ashwagandha. What this means is that although a person feels a reduction and then a disappearance of the burning anxiety within a couple of days, the rewiring of thought processes, how a person handles perception and decisions, they develop a I simply don't care kind of attitude involuntarily over time. They perceive the energy of others around them, no longer is it, Oh, everyone is thinking about me, it becomes, hardly anyone ever thinks of me, why would thay, everyone is thinking about themselves respectively, and you get this not just on an intellectual level but on an understanding level. 

The News, God bless them forever, one summer had a story about a summer time family swimming pool event. The father said to his children,  "I told you that nervousness and excitement are actually the same thing."

Glass half empty, nervousness. Glass half full, excitement. With ashwagandha, the chips always fall on the side of glass half full excitement whereas before it was always glass half empty. I feel the churning and realize that I am excited and looking forward to the next small thing be it a cigarette, a cup of tea or coffee, a good movie on the television. 

King David said,  "God is my refuge."

The God of Israel is my refuge. 

This means that whatever tawdry BS things of this dimension get to me, such as some damned awful ads on television, I am connected to a greater 1T broadband processing speed reality that exists out there on another frequency. 

Some ads are all right. Other ads just make me feel that I'd be better off living in Germany. 

Today, I told my neighbour about my worries about Ciara and being suicided and my friend didn't think that I would be killed. "I don't think that you'll be killed." 

That's kind of why I'd worry about the future. 

I think I'll be single for life. I'll be like SCP-049 who looks like a medieval plague doctor and wanders the realm of one hundred thousand years. 

SCP-049 is cursed. 

I'm cursed. But not cursed enough. Not cursed to the point where my mother had aborted me. 

I try to feel 'the spirit of the morning' or 'the spirit of the Canadian morning'.  I've felt that since I was a child. The spirit of the Canadian morning with the CBC television station on is very beautiful. 

CBC, be it television or radio has always always had the most beautiful sound that verges on heavenly. Even when the most snarkiest leftist guests are on saying the most snide things which would make me immediately remember that my refuge is in the God of Israel and the setting of the physics of this dimension are doing a number on me as much as ever. And that hopefully this grim interlude would be over soon. 

CBC television. Keep it on for a full day. Guaranteed you will feel better. On an overall scheme, the CBC has a heavenly sound of the spirit of the Canadian morning. 

Jesus said,  "Don't worry." 

King Kong vs Godzilla. Who would win? Godzilla because of the fire breathing from his mouth. 

Jesus VS SCP-049. Who would win? Jesus, of course. Jesus is the Son of God. SCP-049 is just an anomaly. 

Well then, SCP-049 VS Frankenstein. Who would win? It would be a draw. Frankenstein has superhuman strength and can not be killed but SCP-049 has mystical powers. What they are, I'm not sure. But the power is there. 

The power scaling is there. 

I have a Heather shaped hole in my heart that will be there for life. I can't make it without her. I'll never experience sweetness on that level ever again. 

There's a famous Chinese movie star who's old now. He looks like my Chinese landlord but he isn't as venal as my Chinese landlord. My landlord was so obsessed with money that he makes Mr Scrooge look like Mother Teresa. 

My Chinese landlord wasn't that venal. One time, he found $5 and suggested that the $5 goes towards a Chinese meal at a restaurant. He could have just pocketed it. 

As a Christian, I will always wish him well. I would avoid him otherwise because I am not sure abotlut the energy. 

I hope that he turns even more to Christianity, or Islam, or Buddhism or Hindoo or whatever else. 

A Priest at a Church always says "Hopefully all will come to know the love of Jesus Christ."

As a Christian, that is an ideal that a Christian would like to embrace. 

As an empiricist, the reality is that a lot of people are hardcore into whatever they are, be it Islam or Hindooism, or Judaism, etc etc Buddhism, etc etc 

So the love of Jesus might not be as much of a priority for them. We'll, whatever. It doesn't matter as long as it is a form of spirituality. 

There is a lot of truth in religion. A lot of it is that each Church has its own style just as Pastor Joel Osteen and Pastor Joyce Meyer have their own style. 

I was at Catholic Mass this morning. Why not? I addressed the Priest as,  "Hello, Priest." which may sound distant but I had brain fog. I wasn't planning on saying that even one second in advance. 

The News said that berries, salmon berries have antioxidants and flavonoids which reduce brain fog. 

I'd give berries a try. 

Lundi, Octobre 10, 2025 

Today, PM Mark Carney made a speech in French ending one sentence with the words,  "Dimanche, Samedi..." 

Sunday, Saturday, what's the difference? 

Church and a six pack of beer. And not necessarily in that order! 

Six pack of beer on Saturday and Church on Sunday. Unless a person is Jewish. Then it's the Church on Saturday and the six pack of beer on Sunday. 

The US billionaire could not only sponsor the ostrich farmers in Edgewood BC to move to the States, he could also hire them to start and raise a new ostrich farm? Then the farmers could thumb their nose at Canada. Why not? 

I'm not sure, though, that the billionaire would actually start an ostrich farm. Sure, everytime I think of the States, I'm thinking of people raising ostriches anyways. 

CFIA buildings vandalized. Eggs and feces smeared all over the building. That's uncalled for. That's out of order. That is unacceptable. 

The CFIA determined that there was the avian flu virus of spread to even one person can cause a very deadly flu pandemic. The CFIA in all likelihood stopped another SARS outbreak. 

Avian flu virus is killed once the meat is cooked. There is no way to find out if the bird actually has the virus unless it is dead, an expert said however I doubt that. That's not the way antibodies and helper T-cells and killer T-cells work. They are present when the organism is alive. 

Vandalism is immature delinquency. The best thing to do is to either accept the outcome of events or else move to another town. Don't vandalize. 

Tuesday, October 11, 2025 

Domestic paramilitary = dOmEstIC ParamiLitary = OEICPL = Police 

Lots of people at the BC Legislature today. It was like the BCGEU strike. With guns. 

I'm wondering if Valhalla was mentioned during the Remembrance Day Ceremony. I'm thinking probably not. 

I went to the Courthouse today to remove some vandalism. Someone had scrawled ACAB which I removed about 80% of with a Mr Clean magic eraser which I bought for $3. 

I think it's nail polish. Nail polish remover will get rid of the rest of it. That and perhaps some coarse grade sandpaper. I might have sandpaper. I found some on the street some time ago. 

The Police are not b*stards. 

The Police are the domestic paramilitary. 

Genius. The Smashing Machine. 

Benny Safdie directs the movie. In the first act, a very large guy appears in the wrestling ring and beats down each opponent with a devastating flurry of punches to the face. Each opponent. 

I thought it was literally Benny Safdie on steroids because he is as crazy as Bennie Safdie was in Good Times, basically the same character of craziness. 

It turns out that was Dwayne Johnson. In a disguise that is genius. 

Dwayne Johnson turned himself into something unrecognizable from what he usually is and only the most apex of genius actors can do that. Mercurial. 

Mercurial means one or more drastic changes of appearance. Johnny Depp, the man of 1,000 Faces. Freddie Mercury of Queen was certainly mercurial. When he was young, he had no mustache and long hair. Then he cut his hair short and grew a mustache. Mercurial. 

Benny Safdie. He portrayed the retard in the movie Good Times. I thought he really was a retard. It turns out that he's a major genius. That role, to portray a retard so convincingly is the sign of a genius artist. 

Jean Claude Van Couver did a video about Dwayne Johnson. He got his start in Canada playing for Canadian CFL teams. At one time he ate Kraft Dinner while staying at a motel which was his address at the time. Now he's a big time rich and genius actor. 

Dwayne Johnson reached another level above with this role. 

Dwayne Johnson portrayed Mark Kerr, a very famous MMA fighter. 

Cleaners From Venus - Corrdior of Dreams

Great song. 

"Don't let anyone around here hear you say this."

The spot which I recognized, where I saw Heather in the dream. Sitting on a small pile of large rocks near a pond around the corner of Pender Street, the road that would lead through Stanley Park to the Lion's Gate Bridge, and Denman Street, the North east corner of Denman and Pender. In the city of Vancouver. 

Quite a few years ago, in the early 2000s,  a very pretty young blonde lady said hello to me very near the spot where I saw Heather in the dream. She was very pleasant, she said hi to me for no reason. I said hello back, of course and that was the start and the end of it. I never in my life stood at the exact spot where I saw Heather in the dream. That day, I was walking very near the spot. What can you say? The spirits work with what they an work with. 

The News said that there could be another war in Europe in a few years. 

That means that I wouldn't be able to travel to Germany or Scotland. 

Where did they get that? So many times in the media and especially on YouTube, Wolrd War 3 is coming next year. That doesn't happen. 

"Mr Wayne, I've already buried 17 Batmans. I refuse to bury another one."

I've already entertained about 17 World War Three predictions. I refuse to entertain yet another one. 

Given the pruriewnt pernicious nature of the human species with the settings of the physics of this dimension, eventual World War Three is inevitable. 

There are World Wars and there are World Wars. 

What passed for a World War in 1914 - 1918 was mainly just Northern Europe, the Western Front, a few areas in Eurasia, Gallipoli, the Eastern Front, the Northern Front was the naval battle of Jütland in the North Sea and the Southern Front was a few areas in Algeria. At least half of Europe didn't see any military action let alone the entire World. 

World War 2, a bigger swath, the usual suspects Northern Europe, a few areas in Africa, Ernst Rommel, Desert Fox, mainly aerial skirmishes with some melee fighting in the Pacific Theatre, Battle of Midway, but other than that, all right, Southeast Asia and China was fighting the Japanese Imperialist Forces, but no fighting in half or Europe, most of Africa, the Americas all didn't see military action. 

The movie 1941. Did the Japanese attack California? Sending an airplane against a Japanese submarine works in the movie somehow but in real life, it would be useless. One would need a torpedo or a depth charger to sink a submarine. And the Coast Guard too. 

There could be a World War Three, but guaranteed a lot of areas in the world won't see any fighting at all. 

The RCMP St Roch had the right idea. They went to the Arctic Ocean of Northern Canada which didn't see any war time action at all. But the RCMP was on a military mission which remains classified. The official declassified story is the schooner was supposed to carry enough of a certain mineral vital for airplane and shipbuilding from Greenland back to Canada. A ship that size couldn't have carried enough metal to make much of a difference in the War. It was a classified mission, but that was par for the course during World War 2. 

If a person went to Antarctica, they wouldn't see much military action at all. It's like three times the difficulty in logistics etc to conduct war in such an extreme theatre of war, think minus 75 Celsius weather. 

If there's a war, I'll have to enlist. 

My credentials

- Gun Club VR

- Arizona Sunshine Remake VR 

- World of Warplanes WW1 VR

- World of Warplanes WW2 VR

- Dawn of Jets VR 

I would need two CZ-75s if I were to be placed in infantry. I would also need two samurai swords if I were to go into a field of battle. Also a pair of nunchuks and some throwing stars. 

I would be prepared and willing to go to Valhalla for Canada if necessary. 

Since I'm single and have no girlfriend, let alone a wife and family, I'd be willing to enlist if there was ever a draft. If there was a draft, I would have to enlist. 

I wonder if the head really explodes like with an Arizona Sunshine headshot. In that case, if I'm at the receiving end of a headshot, my head would explode like a watermelon dropped off a hundred storeys and then it's off to Valhalla at that point. Sometimes the head only half explodes and it takes two shots to complete the task. Does that happen in real life too? Probably. Ugh. 

Lean into the strike zone and take one for Canada. 

US President Donald Trump said about the newly installed American puppet Syrian President, "He's had a rough past. But haven't we all?" 

Donald Trump is a great man. 

In the movie The Conclave, Ralph Fiennes said, "We'll never find a candidate who doesn't have any kind of black mark against them. We're mortal men. We serve an ideal. We cannot always be ideal." 

I wouldn't have thought that. I thought all the Cardinals were pure of faith. However, the movie mentioned that even some Cardinals have had doubts and crisis of faith at some time in the past. 

I spoke with a few people about the people at Church. I wished that I could be as perfect as them. They seem as normal as normal can be. 

A few of the senior members of the Church said,  "Oh, they have issues. A lot of people are just good at putting on a show." 

I wouldn't have thought that. I still believe that they are pretty much perfect people for the most part, I guess aside from weekend binges of drinking entire bottles of whiskey. I've heard stories like that but even if not, such a phenomenon could be inferred with the ubiquitous nature of so many liquor stores. 

Wednesday, November 12, 2025 

The News says that Epstein referred to Trump as the dog that didn't bark. 

What does that mean? It probably meant that Trump adheres to a code of silence. 

This reminds me of Sherlock Holmes, Silver Blaze. 

"About the curious incident about the dog during the night."

"The dog did nothing during the night."

"That is the curious incident."

Again, a dog that didn't bark and raise the alarm leading Sherlock Holmes to conclude that it was an inside job. 

I still fear the future. So much so that I wish that God could give me an early reprieve so I could skip it. 

Bringing Out The Dead. Martin Scorsese movie. 

$5. 

About a paramedic who can see ghosts. 

Thursday, October 13, 2025 

There were quite a few leaves, piles, at the side of the Courthouse. They're gone now because I swept them up. I brought extra garbage bags. Today was a three garbage bag day. Of course the garbage bags full of autumn leaves are cimprseed with a band of the knee. So these are quite heavy bags. It was cold and rainy today. That makes it three times the effort. I don't care. It was worth it. 

The awful graffiti is gone. I used nail polish and then a mixture of bleach and detergent. The bleach doesn't work right away. Try that with thick crusty coffee stains within a coffee cup. In time, the bleach does do what you want it to. 

I still fear the future. 

The future can either be

- worse than expected 

- about what was expected

- better than expected. 

I envision the first two quite easily. However, the third option could happen. For all of us. 

I don't see how. I have to give credit where credit is due. To a large part of not entirely, the street disorder has gone away. It isn't as bad as what it once was. 

That makes me feel somewhat better at all times about the present and about the future which is better than feeling somewhat worse about the present and future. 

The past is over. False memories. A pastiche of selective memories. 

Life won't really start for me until I get to the afterlife and hopefully I make it to heaven. 

Dr Andrea O' Connor said that most people see good things when they die, Jesus, angels, heaven, friends and relatives passed on. She said a few people see dark shadow figures and demons waiting to pull them to hell. These people were probably toxic people who did awful things. Abusing someone for years or with a stroke of the pen stealing a lot of money from people who really needed it in a white collar crime they were never arrested for. Someone who secretly killed someone. That's the kind of people I imagine would see demons. 

Again, the vast majority make it to heaven. I hope I make it to heaven. 

I don't see much of a future for myself in this dimension otherwise. It's a dimension where the settings of the physics are set to Murphy's Law. 

- Anything that can go wrong will go wrong. 

- There's always one more son of a b*tch than you accounted for. 

This is why I worry about the future. You can see why I worry about the future. 

Jesus said, "Martha Martha, you are worried about a great many things. You see your sister Mary, however has her mind in the greater things." 

Martha worried while Mary turned her mind to faith and spirituality and the knowledge that God is always a very present help in times of trouble. 

The future freaks me out to no end. 

The future will be 

- mostly about what was expected. 

- some parts of it, although very few and far in between will be worse than you thought. 

- there will be many more moments and events, etc that will be better than you imagined. Years ago, I got a tablet. It was better than what I expected. I was used to the Nintendo DS and the Sony PSP as the best video gaming experiences. The tablet. Much bigger screen, much newer and much better looking games, and games downloaded for free that were way better than paid for games on the DS, and the PSP, paralytic shellfish poisoning. 

The VR goggles rocked my world. In its own wonderful strange way, it was an experienced that cancelled out the feeling of boulders in my brain. 

I think that I will be single for life. So much so that I would bet money against myself finding a girlfriend ever again. 

A person who works at the hospital uh, downstairs, would go on the bus and look at people very differently than the normal person would. 

A divorce lawyer would look at couples very differently than most people would. Most people see a happy couple and have the tendency to think that they will be that way happily ever after. One hopes so. Often I saw a prayer of blessing and protection for different people I see on my travels through town, single people, couples, etc. 

A divorce lawyer would have the tendency to see the happy couple as merely being in a phase that may or may not last. Dynamic can change, the divorce lawyer would think. 

I am an animated cartoonist, can speak a little bit of a few languages, I do gymnastics and parkour and into therapy rythm dancing and skateboarding. 

In the movie The Lobster, Colin Farrell said to someone, something like, and I paraphrase,  "If you decided to become a parrot, you can only make it and be compatible with another parrot. Perhaps a budgie or a canary. You certainly couldn't be friends with a hippopotamus or a dog or a lobster." 

Someone like me could only be happy with someone I have much in common with. I live in a small town and in any small town, selection suffers. I think I will be single for life because I won't be able to find a woman whom I have much in common with. 

Me and millions of others. Most people at my hotel are single. 

Its funny. At the Catholic Church, all Priests have taken in a lifestyle of perpetual singleness yet most Catholic parishioners are married couples. 

At the Protestant Church, the Priest is married, but most people in the congregation, at least 50% are single. 

Ha ha. 

That's just like Thailand. The Priests are always single but the parishioners are polygamists. In Mormonism, the Priests were polygamists and most of the parishioners were single. 

Relationships under the trappings of the settings of the physics of this dimension leave much to be desired. 

Most people don't know of or can not imagine any other set of physics. 

Love and relationships in the afterlife will be much better under the physics of that dimension. So many spirit books. So many spirit videos on YouTube such as 

- Swedenborg foundation

- Seek Reality Online, Craig T Hogan 

I learned it from them! 

The new Deadpool VR app. I saw the video of how it plays. If I played that app, I would be dead in a pool of motion sickness. 

I won't purchase it. Not any kind of priority at all. 

Last night, I had a dream that I visited Dawson Creek. I was at the Chinese restaurant that I used to work at there. In the dream, the restaurant appeared like a British pub, made all of brown wooden slats. 

A waiter approached my table and said that I was not to be there. 

I said I know the boss Allan and want to talk to him. I saw a Allen at the kitchen. The kitchen was a large square building within that floor which also had a staircase going up. 

I agreed that I would talk to Allen outside the restaurant, round back. 

Then the dream ended. 

The waiter saying I was not to be there and Allen slightly delaying the talk means that they knew I was dreaming and that my dream would end soon. Somehow the spirits always know. 

I used to work at the Orion a maximum of 4 days a week. No more. I had to take the day off today because I felt a slow painful burn of exhaustion and burnout. 

I worked quite a bit yesterday. 

Its a balance of work and rest. 

All work, too exhausting. All rest, too boring. 

The anxiety hasn't completely gone away but I would say about 98% gone. 

I have anxiety when I think about my future. 

My future: These two words are an oxymoron. 

I doubt that I have any kind of future, so to speak. 

The News is secretly referring to me. Sure, me and millions of others. They are also referring to a few other unknown people living here and there. These are otherwise unimportant people but important enough that the News is secretly referring to them 365 days a year. Despite no invitation after all these, what, decades of the News secretly referring to them everyday. What News company wouldn't want to meet the unknown nobody living in some obscure housing unit whom they've been secretly referring to everyday for decades, even to when before they were even born because the delusion could go even deeper. Show the delusional person a News broadcast a few years before they were born. That person would see the broadcast and cherry pick whatever semi-pertinent bits of information and in a fit of random cluster data phenomenon, delusion of reference, think,  "Oh yeah. They knew about me even then." 

This level of delusion is incurable. 

The other day, I saw a candy wrapper on the street that said Orion. Days before last night's dream. The point is that to prevent burnout, I should work no more than 4 days a week at most. On quite a few weeks, due to off-seasonal slow down, my work shifts was scheduled down to three shifts a week. 

I wonder if I'm getting old or if it's that I push myself and worked over a year without taking even a one week break, let a line a two week vacation. I do like the work. I feel connected to something valuable. The only thing that makes me feel more connected to the heart of the center of the Universe is when I make a distance headshot at zombies on  distant roof tops in Arizona Sunshine VR. 

On level 5 and above, although it is very tempting to peg a zombie off of a distant rooftop or cliff top, a player has to watch out for Russians, I mean rush-ins. Fools rush in where angels fear to tread. These rush-ins come from all direction and a player has to envision a set of concentric circles which they are at the center of. Get the zombies in the circles that are closest first, then if you have time, go for the distance shots, but these rush-ins are insidious. They seem to appear when a player is distracted with a distant target. 

However, if you don't play Arizona Sunshine VR, you won't know what I am referring to. 

Some people just don't do well in this dimension. 

The skill set which is required to be successful in this dimension is very different from another skillset which is required to be successful in a dimension where its physics are calibrated to a very different setting. 

One aspect of physics is gravity. On the VR app, Gravity's Grip, a person can visit 4 different planets in the solar system and see how that plants gravity works compared with Earth. 

Another aspect of the physics of this dimension is money and wealth which can speed up a lot of things. However, extreme wealth just as extreme poverty, can lead to errors in judgement. 

To move to a planet with lighter gravity and to be very rich is living with the physics setting within a physics setting set very differently. Like of Elon Musk were to be living on Mars. 

Elon Musk should not go to Mars. He has too much to lose. A multimillionaire can not access their money and resources on Mars the same way they can on Earth. 

What is successful in this dimension isn't successful in the other dimension and vice versa. 

Getting a million dollars is successful in this dimension. It isn't seen as that successful in the other dimension.

Working for free, sweeping the streets of the city as a volunteer isn't seen as that successful in this dimension. However, in the spirit world, it is seen as something that is very successful. 

I got season 1 episode 1 of Miami Vice. Each episode, $3 in HD or $2 in SD. I opted for the HD. Episode 1 of season 1 is almost a two hour movie! Every other episode is about 40 minutes. First episode, one hour and 36 minutes. 

Bringing Out The Dead was the last purchase. Miami Vice season 1 episode 1 was the next purchase after. Each movie has in its opening scenes, a vehicle turning left and then heading towards the camera. Interesting. 

I am haunted. A Royal ghost is following me for life. I see certain signs each and every day. 

Saturday, November 15, 2025 

As a Court custodian, a Courthouse unterstütztung, it concerns me about the News story about lawyers in BC now being extorted for huge sums of money with typical notes that contain a delicate mixture of incest, bestiality and death threats. 'You MF, you dog f--ker, I'm going to do this and that etc if you don't pay' and with a profusion of spelling and grammatical errors. 

Not the sharpest knives in the drawer. Not a threat on an intellectual level. 

I'm guessing that since this presumably involves East Indian crime groups, a beeline would have been made to lawyers that represent prominent Sikh businessmen. These lawyers may or may not likewise be East Indian themselves. 

Most likely not just any lawyer would be extorted. There is more of an emotional investment between Hindoo based extortionists and in particular lawyers that represent their beleaguered and benighted prominent Sikh businessmen clients. It's is indeed a rabbit hole as these Sikh businessmen are most likely financial supporters of Khalistan. And its this kind of thing that the Hindoo based majority East Indian government no likey. It's that kind of scene. 

Whether or not the threat is more aspirational than operational is immaterial. The only thing required is that even a suggestion of a threat has been made to a member of the barrister and solicitor demographic. Black flag operation. Problem reaction solution. 

Once it has been established that threats have been induced, that gives the law enforcement and domestic paramilitary to take operations up one or more levels. This gives them a reason to ask for more funding. To combat extortion. And this goads legislatures to designate extortion as a terrorist activity which means that extortionists can be sent to Guantanamo Bay. 

Some lawyers, their hobby on the weekends is to go to the gun range and they are good at it too. Lawyers can be very dangerous. 

"A lawyer with a briefcase can steal more than ten men with guns." Mario Puzo

An extortionists sends a lawyer a note, 'You're going to give me a lot of money or not else.' The lawyer thinks, 'That's projection. When I get through with you, you're the one who's going to be paying." 

Followed to a further extreme, would they extort a judge? If the Canadian legal system was the inquisitorial system, the judge themself would definitely take an active part in investigating. Even so, it being the adversarial system where an impartial impalacable judge hears arguments the the prosecutor and defense advances, threatening a judge under such a system would certainly be dangerous enough. 

I really don't think that lawyers are in danger. The Police will protect them. 

The terrorist is a political entity. "Terrorism and politics are like two ends of a snake." 

With most other groups, whatever problems they had in their old country, when they are in Canada, those problems go away. Except with East Indians, whatever problems they had in India seem to intensify in Canada. 

Why? India has two main groups, factions, Hindoo and Sikh. They had a third group, but the Muslims got Pakistan. One of the two main groups, Hindoo are in government in India, however the second rival group, the Sikh has such a prominent place in politics in Canada, 

The second group isn't so much of a rival. They are separatists. There are more Sikhs in the Canadian Parliament both numerical and percentage wise than there are Sikhs in the actual East Indian Parliament in India aka the Lok Sabha. 

This describes no other ethnic group in Canada. Only East Indians. 

This explains the extortion of Sikh businessmen and their lawyers. 

The extortionists are, as the News said, connected to the government of India. Who else would be so thorough as to go after lawyers too? The East Indian government sees the funding of Khalistan separatist groups from benefactors as foreign political interference. 

The story gets into an even deeper dive when you look at a case that is before the Courts. In an ususual case, an East Indian client entrusted his money to an East Indian lawyer to hold on to. This happens often apparently. In this unusual case, the lawyer spent the money, $750,000, and when the client asked for the money back, the lawyer killed him which should give you an idea of how dangerous lawyers actually are. The extortionists extorts a wealthy Sikh businessman. The businessman replies, "As much as I'd like to give you the money, which is not much at all, as it happens I entrusted my money with my lawyer in such an instance as this and my lawyer is holding my money in escrow."  The East Indian government would view this as fraudulent conveyance, entrusting funds with a lawyer who would then forward the money as a neutral third party entity to whatever Khalistan separatist dummy front. 

"In times like these, you don't need a criminal lawyer, you need a criminal lawyer." Jesse Pinkman, Breaking Bad

The News doesn't always tell the full story. 

I've always known East Indians as good people, smart people and very strong people. I trust that they have the ability and resources to overcome whatever troubles. May God be with them. 

When I was working at the Courthouse today, I saw an East Indian security guard. This was a reassuring sign that East Indians working for security services and for the judicial branch have got this handled. 

It isn't rocket science. The Province of Punjab aka a pro-Western, specifically British rather than US, separatist State of Khalistan seeks de jure and not just de facto status in a country that is a Pro-Russian protectorate. Would the UN Security Council accept that? Therefore, Khalistan would be to India what Taiwan is in China. This further explains the dynamic that is going on. This would explain why many local political forces etc seem to enable Khalistani separatist sentiments. 

Wtf. 

This is the extended version of the story that the News simultaneously hasn't given you and ha ha, has given you, if you splice together certain bits of information and put 2 +2 together. 

Well, that only helps so much because according to the new Orwell movie, 2 + 2 = 5.  Orwell was born in India. 

For a normal person, 2 + 2 = 4.

For a crazy conspiracy theorist, 2 + 2 = 5. 

As for Hindoos. The term karma is very popular among street people. Everyone on the streets say, if you do good things, you will get good karma. Strange, as the word karma isn't innately a part of Western lexicon and terminology. 

The word karma has been popular since the 50s. That was when Eastern religions became popular in the West, starting with Zen Buddhism in the 50s and in the 60s, the Beatles were into Hindooism and they went to India to visit that famous Hindoo guy, Maharishi Mahesh Yogi. And then George Harrison got involved with something else, the Hari-Krishnas. 

For some reason, Sikhism never became that popular with the counterculture of the 50s and 60s. 

At one time years ago, during one evening, I thought of the Hindu Trinity Pantheon when I was out on a walk coming back from Burnaby. I was on Lsd at the time. 

- Vishnu, the creative force from birth to middle age 

- Shiva the destructive force, from middle age to death 

- Brahma the Lord God of them all. 

Basically, that was my thoughts and it took just a few seconds to think it. 

I don't know much of Sikhism. All I know of, is that there were ten masters, Gurus. 

The Guru Nanak is the most majorly one. So many Sikh temples are named after him. At least one of the ten was done in with swords which would have been an awful way to go. They all taught basically the same thing that all religions teach. Be kind, be patient, be good to others. Etc etc. 

They offer free food and I myself have seen some white hippies with long hair, sandals etc visit the Sikh temple langar for a free vegetarian curry meal. Curried potatoes and cauliflower with rice. Alu goby and alu muttar. That's a good treat. 

Most East Indians get along with one another whatever their religion. A pax Indus. Or pax Indica. It's always the conspicuous minority who are very politically excited who seem to get the most press. 

I'm really thinking of getting Smurfs Flower Defense VR. $27 plus tax which means $30. 

Lots of levels each different. Smurfs. 

I already have Sort A Smurf which teaches about recycling. That one was free and I truly got a Smurfs vibe for sure. Enchantment through the roof. When I woke up yesterday, I didn't know that before the day was over, I'd be in a Smurfs mushroom house in VR. Different Smurfs. Baker Smurf. Seeing the pies on the table done in the Smurfs stylized way. Smurf overload or what? 

I've been a fan of the Smurfs since 1980. 

Tower defense looks tedious and not my favorite kind of video game. It's not too bad. All a person has to do is set up the towers at strategic places and the Smurf placed there fires the gun turret. It fires slow. Leveling up presumably gets faster guns etc. 

Gargamel is there. The video looks not that great but I've learned that these games look much better in VR than they do on 2D video. 

I'm seriously mulling this over. Should I get it or not? 

$30 is quite a bit however if I use a credit card, I can pay it. Later. 

I'll go to the window and look for a sign. $30 is quite a lot for me. I'm not rich like upper class or anything like that. The upper class would go for a Smurfs VR app in a second even if it costs $30. 

I looked out the window. Someone was wearing a white baseball cap which reminds me of the Smurfs phrygian hat. I saw a blue taxi with a white roof and someone wearing a blue coat and as well, a blue car. Not just any blue, Smurf blue. 

I'll get it. Wtf. 

I'm still mulling it over because of the expense. I'll have to watch the News and see if there are any signs that I should get it. 

When the mind is that twisted and when the confirmation bias is that strong, even words on the News ticker provides a sign to get the Smurfs app. Don't believe me? 

'law Society says bc lawyers are being extoRted with threats oF harm unless they provide sUbstantial sums of Money' = SSRFUM = Smurfs 

Smurfs. It's a thing. 

In the meth world, those who go on runs for Sudafed are referred to as Smurfs. 

The Christmas lighted areas in cities, neighborhoods where scammers operate out of are called Smurf villages. 

And in India, the bearded leader would be Papa Smurf. 

Who sent those threat notes to lawyers? Smurfs. 

Alphonse Mucha: Lorenzaccio. In this play, actress Sarah Bernhardt portrays a man. 

Addendum, Monday, November 17, 2025 

"I'm not surprised that he said that. Why? Because he's said it before." MLA Elenore Sturko

I said it before, that I'm worried that India will nuke Surrey. 

"If we nuked Surrey BC in Canada, we'd get rid of 50% of the Khalistan problem."

"But what about all the innocents?" 

"You can't make a curry omelet without breaking a few eggs."

I really hope that India doesn't nuke Surrey. I mean if worse comes to worst. 

Speaking of the law society, former lawyer now Premier David Eby is undergoing a leadership review. He needs 75% approval rate to stay on. I genuinely wish him to be successful. 

Two issues. The BCGEU strike. 

The Cowichan land deal. The Province signed over a significant swath of land in Richmond with property owners worried about their property. 

Think of the movie Zulu when the guy leaned out of the stagecoach window and yelled,  "We are all going to die!"  We'll, it was 1,000 British soldiers VS 15,000 Zulu warriors. Or something like that. Don't quote me. 75% of all statistics are BS. 

Remember the Jennifer Lawrence movie, Mother? It would be like that for the property owners as a bunch of Natives just show up at their house like the Dwarves visiting Bilbo Baggins in the Hobbit. 

The property owners will all get scalped and be left lying on the front laawns of their homes, scalpless in Seattle. "What if we are wearing a toupee?"  "That has to go too." 

The female Native Chief said it was all just fear mongering. 

However, a lawyer said,  "This region is the only one in the entire Western civilized World where a person's indefensible property now becomes defensible."  Therefore, Alberta, and Saskatchewan and Manitoba etc etc doesn't have this problem. 

Oh yeah, and the LNG projects will be mentioned. 

Premier David Eby is quite the Premier and he will do things his way. 

9:30 pm. As of yet, I have opted not to get Smurfs Flower Defense VR because of the sheer expense involved. $30. 

Another thing. It is best to get any Smurfs item at 11 am on a cloudy day. 

Years ago, I went to the Toy Store on Granville Island. I got a few Smurfs there because I had $2,000 at the time. I got the Smurfs at 11 am on a cloudy day. When I returned to my apartment, I felt really heavenly. 

Any time during the day from 10 am to 5 pm on a cloudy day is the best time to get a Smurfs item. 

Since it is night time now, I will have to wait for another day. And $30. That's quite the Leviathan price tag. 

I saw videos of the app. I kind of felt it but not really. Smurfs, always the Smurfs vibe which is more bourgeois rather than bohemian. Tower defense. Fun, but not that much of a priority. I want to see something like Smurfs Village or Smurfs Magical Meadows on VR. Oh well. And to see the dioramas of others which was the number one most absolutely mind blowing thing about those Smurfs apps. 

The best thing about the apps is to get the night time glowing items and set it to night time. There were items for all seasons, Valentine's, Easter, Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas. Since it's a US based app, Thanksgiving items appesr during American Thanksgiving week. 

If there was only one level, I wouldn't get it at all. There happens to be about 20 levels. The thing is, it might be that to get more levels, the player must defeat biases and like any good Mario Bros World, you get to a certain level and can't get any more levels beyond that so one winds up with only ever attaining 10 out of 20 levels which would be a raw deal. It remains to be seen if this Smurfs app is like that. 

Sunday, October 16, 2025 

The News said that cloned meat is entering the food supply. 

Clones, such as in Star Wars, Attack of the Clones. 

Orwell wrote about this. Animal Farm, Napoleon had his private retinue of dogs. These dogs are cloned security forces. 

Trans humanism. Why leave it to chance when technology is available such as CRISPR to make genetic designer babies. 

Trans humanism is an idea from Julian Huxley who lived from 1887 - 1975. Julian Huxley was Aldous Huxley's brother. Therefore Orwell would have definitely known about his ideas. 

It used to be military forces or war that controlled the population. Today's that's done with economic forces such as a housing crisis etc. That's a disincentive to breed and start families with whatever genetic alleles that the government deems undesirable along with it. 

In 50 years, it will mostly be designer babies, clones. Only a very priveleged few will have the ability to reproduce. 

Reproduction can seem like a big deal if you don't know of any better physics or setting of physics. To be a tube stuck in a hole with no ability or option to teleport is a very this dimension of physics kind of thing. 

Reproduction comes with its own set of worries. Be on the hook for child support. Have a child who winds up just hating you. 

"How much sharper than a serpent's tooth is an ungrateful child?" King Lear, Shakespeare 

Being able to score with a beautiful lady seems like a really big deal if you're ignoring the other side of the coin in that this dimension has a few beautiful women but there are mostly women who aren't really all that beautiful for whatever reason which makes scoring with a beautiful lady that much of a bigger deal because this is a backwater dimension with the settings of its physics set to backwater. There is a dimensional based scarcity in life. In the afterlife each and very person without looks like they did on the best days of their lives when they were on Earth. 

This applies to all people, for women, there are only a few guys that women find attractive. In all likelihood, for women, they mostly see guys who look ordinary or worse. 

And if you're whoever into whatever thing, there are only a few whoevers who would look good to you. Most of them, the vast majority in fact, would appear to you as rather drab. 

Technically, identical twins are clones. 

Being able to score with a beautiful woman or not seems like a really big deal when you are right in the middle of the stage of an energy jangle* that involves the settings of a dimension set to where a person can't teleport, where only a very few people are beautiful and where having money or not is really such an issue. But when one is in the afterlife none of that means anything at all, in a realm where the physics of the dimension is set to accelerated from whatever the hell it was back in the Earth dimension, Earth plane, a person can teleport, every single person is young and beautiful always and where a person doesn't need money at all. 

Whatever diet your mother eats when you are in the middle of the stage of being in the womb is at the time such a humongous issue. Some peoples mothers eat health foods, Asian foods. Other people's mothers, all they do is drink and eat cheap mediocre quality junk food. But when a person is born and into the world, moving around, that no longer means anything at all, well certainly not nearly in the same way. 

Well, it is better for a person to eat healthy food throughout their adult life even though their mother ate junk food when they were in the womb, than, ha ha, a person to eat junk food, processed foods full of chemicals, bad fats, polyunsaturated, cholesterol, etc throughout their adult life even though their mother was on a Zen macro-biotic diet or else its opposite, the Atkins high protein diet when they were in the womb, gestating. 

*Linear time is a subjective illusion so life isn't about waiting for linear time to run out like a burning wick, it's about waiting for an energy jangle to dissipate. 

Today is the perfect could day to get something Smurfy. The Smurfs line of toys etc is a way for the poor to get just a taste of bourgeois luxury and sensibility. The richest people and even the most poverty stricken people have one thing in common. They all love the Smurfs. 

If I don't like it, I can always get a refund. A person gets a 30 minute window, If played less than 30 minutes, a refund may be issued. 

I'm still mulling it over, because of the expense. $27 plus 12% tax equals somewhere around $30. 

I don't know if I can Smurf $30 at this point. But it is the perfect cloudy day. So perfect that it's bourgeois. Hmm, still mulling it over. 

Well, I bit the Smurfy bullet and got the app. It's a cloudy day. I am really chuffed! Stoked. I am loving it. I am smurfing it very much. 

It looks really good. The mixed reality is like a Millionaire medieval European dream diorama of fable and fantasy in my own room. In the old days, a person would have to be a Millionaire to have this level of toy diorama at their own place. 

The game speaks of interdimensional Moons and seeking a cosmic balance between dimensions. Marvel comics talks about interdimensional and multi dimensions all the time. Now the Smurfs franchise is using the interdimensional and multidimensional meme. Whereas they didn't use to. That's progress, I guess. 

The gameplay is fun and relaxing. I am getting a real Smurfs vibe from this. 

The other Smurf VR app, Sort a Smurf, is the perfect companion app. With SaS, a player can visit inside a Smurf mushroom house. Who wouldn't want to experience that? 

No, I'm not asking for a refund on this one! It's my bourgeois luxury treat which I will cherish while living in my bohemian apartment. 

A person has to have the reflexes of a mongoose fighting a King cobra to play this app. It's very labour intensive. 

It doesn't have the sheer intense replay ability of other apps, but it's all right. It's the Smurfs, for sure. I found Sort a Smurf to be quite enjoyable. 

Sort a Smurf is over in about ten minutes. There are about five Smurf mushroom houses that a player visits belonging to notable Smurfs such as Smurfette, Baker, Handy, Hefty, Joker, etc  A Player uses a virtual extendable grip to grab items that go into the recycling bin. Unless one knows the game very well, they will deposit things in the recycling bin that shouldn't go there. Such as an old battery or an old paint can. On the first level, there is one recycling bin. On the last level, there are three, a plastic one, an environmental one and an electronics one. 

Plastics contain a chemical called bisphenol A which breaks up into micro plastic pellets and enough of these, like what, tons, could do a real number on ocean life. 

Newer generation plastics contain lysine which is a biodegradable plastic made from corn. 

Sort a Smurf VR is pretty good. And for what, free? It's definitely worth the price! 

One thing. At the initial screen, there is a floating log stump which holds a book that is vital to accessing levels in the game. Secondly, there is the main diorama. And thirdly there is a floating coin bank. Each of these have handles that allow a player to grab, examine, and move these items. The game fixes these items at a certain point in space where due to the specifications of my play space, there is a wall that prevents me from accessing the coin bank. It is just behind the wall, visible but otherwise not accessible because uh, there is a wall there, which for some reason, reminds me of The Cask of Amontillado, Edgar Allen Poe. 

"This desert inaccessible, Under the shade of melancholy boughs." Shakespeare, As You Like It

That coin bank VR inaccessible, Due to the physical boundary of the melancholy wall. 

Otherwise, it doesn't seem to affect game play. That coin bank seems to be a neutral trophy display. I've gone through quite a few levels without needing to use it. I've gone through five levels. I see four gold coins and one silver coin which means I got a gold coin on level 1 - 4 and a silver coin on level 5., 

Whatever. 

Update, Tuesday, November 18, I am finally able to access the coin bank. 

Earlier this day, I found a bathroom items mount made of a thin aluminum frame which reminded me of the coin bank which was an omen that I would be able to access it. Life is magical sometimes. 

Life always speaks of you listen. 

I have fear of the future. 

A few days ago, someone on the News said,  "Th holidays shouldn't make you stressed. It should make you excited."

The future shouldn't make people stressed. It should make them excited. 

I tune in to the 7pm catechism at the local Catholic Church which is televised on YouTube. The other day, in Thursday Nov 13, the Priest said that a baby does not fear the future. The baby sleeps without fear of the future. A person should not have fear of the future just as a sleeping baby has. A person should have faith whether they realize it or not that God will be with them every day, every step of the way in the future. God often reveals his presence in subtle signs, messages heard here and there and in impossible coincidences. 

Strange secret: coffee will for sure accelerate and accentuate Sunday vibes. I'm drinking some fine coffee today that I got at Shoppers Drug Mart. Fine ground coffee. 

Stanley Kubrick was a champion chess player. He used to play chess against multiple people and he won which is how he made money to purchase cameras used in the filming of Fear and Desire. 

My Stanley Kubrick checkmate theory which I will release into public domain so that it becomes The Stanley Kubrick checkmate theory. 

In every movie, directing movies like a chess player with all the pieces coordinating to swoop down on the final checkmate. 

Killer's Kiss - the antagonist gets defeated in the fight and the hero and the girl reunite at the train station. 

The Killing - "What's the difference?"  checkmated when the agents approached him. 

Paths of Glory - the trio at the firing range, checkmated and when Colonel Dax suggests an inquiry into the conduct of Lieutenant Moreau that would presumably lead to his court martial and death. Checkmated. 

Lolita - Clare Quilty checkmated behind the picture frame and shot. 

Dr Strangelove - When Tex is riding on the bomb, checkmated. 

Clockwork Orange - the Ludivico therapy checkmate Alex de Large into social conformity. 

The Shining - Jack Torrance checkmated in the hedge maze. 

Full Metal Jacket - sniper assassin checkmated 

Eyes Wide Shut - checkmated at the Christmas shopping aisle. 

My VR is acting up. 

The issue: on the apps screen, I click on to the search icon. It doesn't work. At all. Just stays on apps screen. 

Every time I move the controller to type, it makes an incessant clicking sound. It had an update this morning. I turned it off, unplugged it, and removed batteries from both hand controllers. 

Even then, it still kinda works.... I still unplugged it, and turned it off anyways. 

Deus ex machina. The God from the machine. 

Update: Island magic. 

I did a reboot and soft reboot of my VR controllers. 

Reboot, simply remove batteries for 30 seconds. 

Soft reboot. Hold down two specific buttons on each controller. 

Works. 

Island magic is every electronics problem I ever had went away. 

And things I've gotten which I thought were regular grade turned out to be, upon research, high grade. 

This happened to me a lot on this part of Vancouver Island. 

On the News, there is a photo of the day, of a heron the locals named Skye. 

See, that's the Skye of Isle, of Vancouver Isle while Scotland has the Isle of Skye. 

I wanted to play Sort a Smurf and I clicked on to the search icon on the menu app and it didn't work. It works now. Re visit the Smurfs mushroom house in VR. Why not? 

Heather. I can't make it without my sweetness. I can't make it without the beautiful. I don't know if I'll ever experience sweetness on that level ever again. Pure sweetness. 

It never ends. The never ending story. 

I didn't get The Never Ending Story. I got The Wizard of Oz from 1939 on sale for $5. For months I looked at this movie on the shelf so to speak at YouTube movies. 

Always at $15 which was unaffordable. At $5, I'll take the pain. 

The last time I've seen this movie in its entirety was in 1978. So it's been awhile. And when I saw the movie, it was on a 24" old style television. It will be interesting to see it on big screen. 

Due to my movie addiction, I doubt that I'll ever be able to travel ever again. Unless a miracle happens. Unless I'm able to quit getting movies. 

Would that be considered a major f*ck up? To have gotten The Wizard of Oz for $5? In HD. 

Coincidence, earlier today, I was watching a Live compilation of best Wizard of Oz clips from the 1939 movie. 

Bueation, there was the yellow and the red brick roads. Where would the red brick road have led to? China? Red yellow in Chinese is Hoong Wong which means either red yellow or red emperor. They sound the same. 

See, the yellow brick road led to the green or emerald city. Green minus blue equals yellow. 

The red brick road would have led to the purple city, purple minus blue equals red. Purple was at one time a color exclusively reserved for Royalty. 

Also, I thought that YouTube was taking my movies off the platform. Is that a way to run a business? I thought it might have been something I did, but what? It turns out that the movies purchased on YouTube are exclusively ex-Libris. For someone who doesn't own the movie, it's available on common search. For someone who owns the movie, it can only be accessed through digging around Your Movie Purchases until you find the movie you're looking for. 100% of all movie purchases haven't disappeared. They could be found on YouTube. 

YouTube has become even more organizized. 

"You know, organizized." Travis Bickle, Taxi Driver 

Monday, November 17, 2025 

Last night's dream. 

I was at the Fraser River near New Westminster. Cloudy afternoon. I was flying East. Then I remembered that I wanted to see Heather again so I swooped down into the water and swam West. 

I walked up a trail going North at the Northern shore of the Fraser River. 

Temeport to a store that looked like Walmart. I was at the cashiers booth. There were two cashiers, standing closest in front of me with her left side towards me in profile, was a slightly fat girl around 20 years old. She was slightly dark complexioned, perhaps East Indian. She was wearing a wire knit grey turtleneck sweater. Standing behind her and facing me was Boba Fett. He was silver with a black glass face vizier. 

Coincidence. I walked out of my hotel on to the street and saw a white truck that had the words FETT and HASK written on the side. I held my hand to my nouth quickly and gasped. Boba FETT appeared in my dream which was then still fresh in my mind. 

At the Walmart counter, there was an opening through which I could exit. I looked behind me, there were children who, in the dream, I thought, 'They remind me of the children in Halloween costumes in the movie ET.'  That I even thought of ET in my dream is interesting. 

The walking down a street in Chinatown in Europe in the light of early morning, sunny and cloudy simultaneously. There were the one storey over handing Chinese stylized grooves that lined the business conducting buildings of entire street on both sides of the street. There were houses up and in the distance as there was a hill. On top of the hill was a very large, humungous red dragon! It spread its wings and flew down towards us and then behind us and away. It looked very detailed like a very fine illustration and like something from a video game. It also looked like Smaug the dragon from the Hobbit movies. I said out loud in the dream,  "All hail the grand dragon!" 

Weirder still, at the time, in the dream, I knew how to say that in Welsh or Old English. I was going to say that out loud, but thought, forget it. I heard some words in my mind at the time that did sound like Welsh or old English. This kind of thing can happen in dreams. 

Coincidence, this morning I saw a commercial from Audible Books that had red dragons flying in cloudy skies. I gasped aloud again! 

That's it for the dream. What does it mean? 

Who knows? It was nice to be in the expanded broadband of the dream world with its accelerated physics. Nice to fly above the Fraser River and nice to swim in the Fraser River at the speed of the fastest speedboat, seeing the green elective ripples of water against the very dark blue water and feeling neither wet nor cold. 

I'm not a technical exact numbers kind of guy. I'm the guy who thinks that a rocket ship travels at 1,500 miles an hour. Is that the exact velocity or not even close? 

Anyways, as an analogy, 

This dimension is set to 5G broadband 

The dreamworld is set to 500G broadband

Heaven and the afterlife is set to 1T broadband. 

So the physics of the dreamworld closer approximate that of heaven. 

This is just a theory. 

Harry Haller in the novel Steppenwolf from Hermann Hesse. 

'In his mind he was a man. In his heart, he was a wolf of the steppes.'

Harry Haller was a bohemian individual yet he felt very drawn to the bourgeois life. 

To him, it was a slice of heave. 

I'm felling kind of heavenly after I saw on Google maps, an old corner store in my old neighborhood that I knew from the early 80s. Location, the Northeast corner of Rupert and Broadway in Vancouver. Now, the corner store is completely gone, worn down from 40 years of age. The middle aged Chinese or Korean or whatever couple that used to work there are probably gone now. Anyways, there is a Korean fried chicken store there and next to that is a sushi restaurant. It is a two storey corner store kind of building with second storey windows. That's like heaven. Heavenly. The suburbs can be heavenly. 

Suburban living can be pricey next to two star hotel rooming house living. 

One star - dirty, worst ratings and reviews 

Two star - rooming house, clean skid row tenement, clean comfortable hostel

Three star - roadside motel

Four star - nice hotel, very comfortable middle class 

Five star - luxurious opulence, champagne, lobster claws, King crab legs, not a hotel to bring your VR goggles to. Swimming pool, spa, normal massage not crazy sensual massage are optional. 

Living in the suburbs is usually one or two tenants VS a landlord and perhaps their family as well, if any. That's not good odds. High potential for toxicity and abuse. 

A rooming house has on average about 70 tenants VS one landlord and family, if any. Therefore in a  rooming house, the landlord is usually found to be somewhat more accountable than in a suburban house room rental set up. 

That being said, I'd love to live in the suburbs. 

I'm thinking of seeing the movie The Running Man some time tomorrow at one of the theatres. I can't say what time and what theatre. That's because I'm not sure and there's only a 5% chance of me actually going. 

It costs $8.33 plus tax to see the movie on discount Tuesdays. 

In the 80s, there was two fifty Tuesdays. For the movies. Regular price was $5. 

I thought of going to a local hot pot restaurant on Wednesday, but it's pricey. Average price is $25 each item but it's worth it. A person can get an item with rice but I'll try to go for an item without rice, take out and then prepare the rice myself. Why not? 

I wish I was rich enough to live in Sidney BC. That town has a heavenly vibe. 

One time, I went to the local Art Gallery after having not gone for years. It was a free admission day. After going there, I felt heavenly vibes. 

At that art gallery, I once saw meta 3 VR goggles and it had an app that looked like a nice apartment room with plants furniture, IKEA style modern office desk. Suspect along the walls were stacks of pages. Grab one page and it pulls up an encyclopedia entry of whatever. I wish I knew the name of that app. Meta quest 3 at the time, two years ago was quite bourgeois. The people on welfare that I knew who had VR goggles had meta quest 2 which has since been discontinued. It had black and white pass-through in terrible definition. 

The new cheaper option, meta quest 3S which retails new for $350 which  you could get for $250 or less at a pawn store when available. Small towns always always suffer from selection. It would be more likely available at a second hand store in Vancouver and for sure downtown New York would have quite a few. 

I can't do art until I have wind behind my sails against. Some artist work best in difficult edgy environments. I work best in luxurious environments. 

Until I find a girlfriend again which I think I hit the wrong town and therefore will be single for life like dozens of people I know. 

A idea for an intro to a cartoon would be:

A man goes to a hippy store and gets a very small candy with a magical centre. He accidentally swallows the candy whole. The idea was to bite down into the centre of the candy to release the magical ingredient. 

He goes to a hospital and explains the situation. He paid a lot of money for it. Hundreds of dollars. He asks for the item to be surgically extracted from his stomach so that he can bite down on the centre to release the magical ingredient. 

The doctor asks why he doesn't just extrude it a few hours later. The man replied that the item would at that point have become denatured. 

The doctor says,  "Who wouldn't want to experience the magical centre? And this is coming from 8 years of med school plus post graduate studies." 

The item is indeed successfully withdrawn from some point or other in the person's alimentary canal. He then puts the item in his mouth and bites down on the magical centre. 

As you might have guessed, it is the release of a massive mega dose of some crazy hippy dippy hallucinogenic drug. What drug? You name it. 

Then as there is a display of something artistic, that starts the story of the hallucinogenic dream he has of being a time traveller. 

I doubt that this screenplay has reached Hollywood levels of screenwriting. Hollywood movies are rich with plot propelling dialogue. This screenplay hardly has any dialogue. 

Whatever carton I could conjure up would be not as good as one that AI could generate. I wish I knew how to access Kling AI animation program from China with enhanced intuitive AI and almost no error rate, plug in a story with lots of details, the more the better and see what it does. 

Some people weren't that erudite and simply typed in:

Elvis + Star Wars 

And an AI photorealistic imagery animation was generated. 

See, I couldn't do color photorealism. Some artists could. Pinhole rotoscoping. 

When I couldn't find the movie that I purchased, Big Trouble In Little China, I was frantic. That movie has old school Chinese movie sounds which intensifies Sunday vibes. 

I thought it was bdcause I wrote that I thought that NDP MP Jenny Kwan is an airhead. 

Sonny Crockett said that word in the first episode of Miami Vice,  "It took you long enough, you airheads."  to a group of back up Police with guns drawn. Except that the suspects had already ran away. 

I thought that Jenny Kwan would have arranged with YouTube to remove Big Trouble In Little China from YouTube movies for me and everyone else because I wrote that of her. 

Perhaps that's projection. Airhead? I'm the one on welfare living in a rooming house while she's a prominent politician living in a rich house. 

Jenny Kwan is legendary. She and Joy McPhail were the only two NDP MLAs during an administrative term when everyone else was a BC Liberals. That would have been a tough row to hoe. Joy McPhail said in interviews that she felt actual fear. I know what that feels like. In the old days, when my amygdala was on fire and there was always a massively chuning burning feeling of anxiety in the guts near the kidneys hence the Latin name, ad renal, near the kidneys. I wish I knew about Ashwagandha two, three years ago. That would have turned night into day. 

Jenny Kwan never mentioned feeling fear during that era. Perhaps she's fearless. 

The downtown Eastside used to have the White Lunch, Woodward's, and Army & Navy. And the Floata Restaurant was open and operating. 

Now, there's no lunch, it's hood wards, and it's because scuzzy and sleazy and the Floata Restaurant sunk. The Floata restaurant was Vancouver's answer to the floating Jumbo Restaurant in Hong Kong which is also now defunct. 

Its not all bad. The downtown eastside has a very spiffy version of Woodward's like from a parallel Universe. London Drugs is there. 

The downtown Eastside has always been a skid row even in the days when the City was called Granville and the capitol of BC was in New Westminster. Literally once a path for skids for logs originally brought from Burnaby to build businesses in downtown Vancouver. Then it was a longshoremen, winos, temporary logging workers and logging camp cooks got area for lodging. In the early days, most of the people who lived in rooming houses were young and temporary workers. Back then it was super easy to find a job, the rooming houses were really cheap to stay at. Housing was cheap and you didn't have so many old people living in rooming houses back then because old people could afford their own detached homes or else have owned tememhese homes for decades. 

Then it became an area that was more druggie than boozy. 

That area for some reason has always drawn junkies, ex cons, runaways turned druggies, boozers to it like a magnet. 

Jenny Kwan is not responsible to for the individual decisions in that neighbourhood that added up comprise a strange picaresque collective energy. She has never, not once told someone that they should adopt a dissolute lifestyle. That's all on whoever individual resident that lives there. A good portion of the areas population live clean and sober. They work there as merchants or own a business, restaurant. 

Yet despite the Hieronymous Bosch initial appearance of the neighbourhood, that area has an intense and profound heavenly vibe that goes right deep into the pith of the narrow of the bones and beyond. 

As it turned out, Big Trouble In Little China is available in my purchases library. Jenny Kwan didn't arrange to have it removed after all. Whew! 

I wish politician Jenny Kwan all the luck and success in the world. 

She's not an airhead. She might speak English or else Chinese with a bit of a charming accent. So do thousands of other politicians. It's her set of decision making skills, political instincts that makes her a great politician. It's what makes her a Legend. 

When I thought that Big Trouble in Little China had been taken off YouTube, I looked on google for advice. Why does YouTube remove movies purchased? 

Answer from AI:  "This happens sometimes temporarily due to licensing issues. 

Remember, the boat is always sailing away from the harbour, and it always accepts new sailors."

This is code for movie piracy, look on a free movie streaming site. The movie that you want to see is probably there. 

Last week, the News said someone, I can't say who, got gift cards which they used for midnight snacks at McDonald's. 

If I were to go and get a midnight snack at McDonald's I hope that I'm not attacked or killed. 

The best meal for take out at McDonald's is quarter pounder, no cheese as I'm on a budget, and a Big Mac. Vanilla shake small size would be good too. 

I work at the Courthouse. Night time especially on welfare cheque night when the money is deposited at midnight for some, at 2 am for others, and some got their cheques already on Tuesday. 

So the streets would have lots of security guards all of them East Indian down to the last man or woman, I'm guessing Sikhs probably in the gurkha class, Police marked squad car patrols and all kinds of undercover cops because welfare night is drug dealing night. 

I don't score drugs on welfare day as that is not a priority for me at all. 

The movie, 'We Own The Night'. Remember, the Police own the night. Not the criminals. 

I'm thinking more along the lines of a quarter pounder no cheese, a Big Mac and a vanilla shake. Vanilla shake = sundae with caramel in terms of desirability. 

McDonald's at midnight is like the lizard lounge in Las Vegas in the movie Fear and Loathing when Johnny Depp steps into a casino full of huge lizards and small dinosaurs. 

There are women there, people on electric handicapped scooters, and they're not afraid to take on the thick of the maw. 

"Once more unto the breach." Shakespeare, as they say. Once more into McDonald's for a midnight snack. 

I love McDonald's a lot. 

McDonald's has these new fancy sandwiches that I don't remember the description of. But they're pretty good. 

Wednesday, November 19, 2025 

After mulling it over for two days, I'm pretty certain that I will get Plastic Battleground VR for $15 with tax. It looks really good. 

50G broadband would be quite mind blowing for VR apps and for the medical industry. 

50G PON. Positron optical network. 

PET scan. Positron emission tomography. 

The same positron. 

Position - positive charge electron

Negatron - negative charge electron

Negatrons are the basis of antimatter. 

"It's a nice day for a White Wedding." Billy Idol

James Ryan Wedding. Wanted Man. Leader of a drug cartel. The Medellin Cartel, no less. Pablo Escobar's old stomping grounds. 

His East Indian lawyer, Deepak Peradkar KC, counseled his client James Wedding to kill a witness so he wouldn't be able to testify against him. 

The witness was indeed killed. The lawyer in now in custody. 

"You don't need a criminal lawyer. You need a criminal lawyer." Jesse Pinkman, Breaking Bad

This is that lawyer giving legal advice. Which leaves me wondering what his non-legal off the record advice would sound like. 

The FBI is offering a reward of $15 Million dollars for James Wedding which is much more than most people have ever paid for their own wedding or weddings. 

I guess bets are on as to whether James Wedding will be killed in a Police takedown just like Pablo Escobar. 

The News said that Canadian PM Mark Carney is going to visit Abu Dhabi. 

Abu Dhabi Doo! Fred Flintstone. He's going to Bedrock City. 

Yeah, think Bedrock City with felafels and camels. 

Why would the PM go to Abu Dhabi? To make a deal. On what? Oil? EVs? 

What, so the PM is going to a oil producing country to make a deal on electric vehicles? 

That makes sense. 

Why not visit Abu Dhabi in VR? 

2:45 pm. I am still hesitating on Plastic Battleground VR. 

I remember the 70s. A person could go to Chinatown or any corner store and get a bag of green plastic soldiers. The soldiers lying down on the ground with the machine guns. The machine guns were thin and broke easily. 

The soldiers in the app appear in four factions. Green, grey, brown and blue. These are the original colors although the other colors were more difficult to find. 

The thoughts and feelings of childhood nostalgia and resonance hit hard. 

I am hesitating because of the expense. 

Thinking of the corner store of 40 years ago in East Vancouver which has since then morphed into a Korean fried chicken establishment, I got Korean fried chicken, 6 PCs, Fries and a can of Coca Cola. Price, $25 which about the going rate. Prorated, that's less than two hours of minimum wage. 

I thought nothing of fried chicken for $25. 

Oh yeah, another crazy sign:  The bounty for that drug Lord is $15 million. 

Fifteen. That number reminds me of the price of PB VR. It's like the gods saying,  "Get it!" And since the story originates from the United States, as does the app, it's like the USA is saying,  "Go ahead. Get Plastic Battleground VR. Why not?" 

Plastic Battleground VR. Pretty good. I opt to go into the field of battle with two handguns. Bullets appear as a little white ball and the other soldiers merely deresolute like in Tron Legacy. Deresolution. It's worth the money. Lots of future potential. Tons of features. 

Not as good as Arizona Sunshine Remake but who cares? 

One of the best rated restaurants in Vancouver, Sumbiyaki restaurant, makes Japanese style yakitori skewers using a special type of coal which the restaurant has to import. 

The restaurant should open a franchise branch in Newcastle, England. Then they would, at that point, be bringing coals to Newcastle. 

That saying had more weight at one time when coal mines were actually operating in Newcastle. Now, only a fraction of the coal mines are operating there. 

Coal used to be used in conjunction with central heating to heat homes. And to heat the hot water tanks. 

Now it's electric based heating for homes. 

Coal used to be used for steamships which became heavy fuel marine grade fuel ships and then hybrid ships and then fully electric ships. 

Coal is still used as coke, at steel plants that make steel girders for buildings and also things for military uses. 

There is nothing about me that is military grade. 

"So that any scrap or inkling or scantling or even suggestion of Ephraim Winslow's soul is no more, but is now itself the sea."  The Lighthouse 

I have a Heather shaped hole in my heart, so much. So that my heart is now itself the shape of Heather. 

I will love her for all of eternity. 

Thursday, November 20, 2025 

I got a gift from God. 

AR Planes VR. Model airplanes. Alex and the Jets on meth. 

Quite a few good modern airplane, sure. 

I initially opted for and installed the 15 minute free trial. 

When I saw the F-86 Sabre, the Sidney BC airplane, I immediately without hesitation purchased this. Even though I'm on a budget, this costs $7 plus tax. 

Scale can be toggled and I wind up with either a small hand held airplane model in which the details are absolutely great, or a large full size airplane. I got to see a full scale F-86 in my room!

I was able to see a full size elephant in my room with Zosu zoological VR app. 

Years before I imagined getting a pet elephant and then one day the landlord does a quick room inspection when I'm out and he sees an elephant in my room shaking its head again and again while holding a clump of hay in its trunk. Now with VR, I don't have to imagine that. 

I looked at Walmart, Meta 3S. It had the icon 'Over 50 Units Sold In The Last Month'. Not even the meta Quest 3 has that. The 3S has a slightly newer processing chip. The fresnel lenses are different, better than the one on the meta Quest 2. 

$7.83 with tax is not extravagant. I wouldn't say that I went overboard with this one. Remember the US B-21 Raider or F-117 Nighthawk stealth bomber that hit a Iraqi nuclear power plant a few months ago? Either plane is also available as a handheld model or if you need to see it as a life size model in your room. It has the Vought F-4U Corsair, and the Curtis P-51 Mustang. The flying fortress bomber from WW2 is also available. 

I lament the loss of the original VR environments on meta Quest. Blue City, Cyberworld, etc. Really miss it. 

Friday, November 21, 2025 

Four hospitalized after bear attack in Bella Coola BC. 

Are you sure it's not Beara Coola? 

Conservation officers are looking for the bear. 

I heard the scariest bear story ever, two days ago. 

Someone on YouTube, I don't remember who told a story about a woman who was phoning her mother saying a bear was biting down on her head. She could hear crunching. 

The next morning, her body was found on a beach. 

Kill those bears. 

So many places called Bear Mountain. 

Near Dawson Creek is a Bear Mountain. Near Victoria BC is a Bear Mountain. 

That should give you an idea. You'd be safer on an African safari. 

Africa has the Big Five:

- lion

- cheetah

- jaguar 

- leopard

- elephant

Canada has The Big Five:

- bear 

- cougar 

- wolf 

- coyote 

- moose

Conservation Officers have not as yet located the bear. That's because look at the time of year, the bear probably went into a cave to hibernate.

The United States has the 2nd Amendment. The Right to bear arms and to defend yourself including against bears. Canada has a no poaching law for bears which is absolutely retarded. Canada is backwards. Backwater. Backwoods to the rock show that is the United States. 

The law against poaching bears was because at one time, bears were poached to near extinction to to feed the lucrative Chinese bear guts market. I'm not sure, bear kidney, bear spleen, bear liver, bear bile, whatever it was. Now people are in danger of being hunted to near extinction by the bears. Hegelian dialectic. Thesis, antithesis, synthesis. Why not allow poaching of all bears proven to be dangerous. What about allowing poaching of 50% - 75% of the bear population? 

If they only lived a few hundred miles North. Yukon Province, just North of BC is the only Province in Canada where grizzly hunting is legal. 

BC is a weird Province. It's one of the two Provinces which is governed from a city on an island. The other being Newfoundland and Labrador. 

BC is one of the only Provinces where the capital city is the second largest city, the other being Quebec. 

BC is neither the largest Province area wise, it isn't the most populated Province and it isn't the richest Province. It's an overpriced second rate Province in a second rate country next to the United States that thinks its the center of the Universe. 

That includes no hunting of animals that are clearly a threat to humans. 

Wtf. 

I got a VR app called Lost Recipes. $13.

I learned how to make pita bread, loukimades, and souvlaki and then Chinese style fish, a different variation. The recipe calls for cooking wine but that ingredient always leaves a certain boozy taste which I am indifferent to. It has quite a few recipes. 

A lot of these recipes require a mortar and pestle. To make pita bread or tortilla bread. Get it at the supermarket for about $5 with less hastle. 

Mortar and pestle. What is this, the Julia Child Christmas Special? 

And one of the ingredients is called zea. What that? I've never heard of it before. Ever. It's a grain that's used in the mortar and pestle process which can be skipped over with store bought pre made products. 

My old recipe for Chinese steamed fish. 

- chop scallions and ginger, 

- place these on top of fish on a plate

- put plate in a steamer and cover with lid

- after 10 mins, remove plate and then pour hot hot oil cooked in a frying pan on top of fish

- add soy sauce 

Lost recipes version

- chop lots of green onions and place on plate. 

- place fish on top and sprinkle one tablespoon of salt evenly over the fish

- chop ginger on top of fish, add cilantro too, a good amount

- Place fish in steamer for 10 min

- in a frying pan, add mostly oil, then some add an even part of soy sauce and some sesame oil and cooking wine or even beer is optional, mixed. Water equals one part, mixture altogether also equals 1 part. Add sugar, a good amount and a sprinkle of white pepper. Then cook to a boil. 

- Pour on top of fish. 

Its a variation I'm willing to try. Cilantro, white pepper, that's all I need to get as I don't usually have that around. The rest of the ingredients I have often. As for the cooking wine or beer, it gives it a kind of sour boozy taste. Sure, if you like that. I don't much care for it at all. 

Remember, booze plus red meat and nothing but leads to gout. 

Is fish red meat? No, it's white meat unless it's salmon. 

Wine pairing 

White fish - white wine

Wild salmon - red wine

Farmed salmon - rosé which is half white wine and half red wine mixed together in a glass. 

As for brand of wine I would highly recommend Le Velletri, Fontani di Papi or Val Policella. 

Another app I had in mind can wait until next month, unless there is a sale. The Raven, Edgar Allen Poe. 

Once upon a midnight dreary... 

Quoth the Raven, "Nevermore."

Well all that costs $14 plus tax. Next month. I simply can not afford it. 

Its a 9 minute presentation in VR. 9 minutes but 3G it should be good. 

I got the movie The Menu on sale for $5. 

Seeing a movie at the local theatre costs $15. But it's a one shot deal. 

The VR app is there indefinitely once purchased. 

Or at the very least, get it next Wednesday. 

Get it today, get it next Wednesday, what's the difference? But I spent $5 Wenesday for The Menu, $8 for AR Planes yesterday and $12 for Lost Recipes. That's $25. 

I was a fan of Edgar Allen Poe for decades. The Raven is his major classic. 

All reviews on this app are 5 stars. 

Mulling it over.... 

I got it. At 7:20 pm. 

My planned evening is as follows. 

Play the easy level on Widows Walkabout in Walkabout Mini Golf. It's an Addams Family themed mini golf. About ten minutes. Then experience the Raven, about 9 minutes. I hope The Raven is worth the money. I'll let you know.... 

9:25 pm. After having seen it, The Raven has highly saturated rich lush colours. It is an upper class looking app. The app lets a person understand the poem completely to a level never before. Most of it takes place in one room. There is a scene of heaven and a scene of hell. It somehow figures in the poem but I wasn't paying that close attention. Word salad. 

There is some poltergeist activity depicted and that's it. The app is worth the $15. It has the quality of a Mercedes Benz in terms of looking rich. 

The Raven is how all VR apps should look. Most VR apps look like Nintendo 64 or else PS1. VR is still in its early days so you get the advancement of technology but a regression in terms of graphics for the most part. 

The movies Lawnmower Man and Johnny Mnemonic are about VR. 

The poem is about grief. The narrator lost his wife named Lenore. He hears a bird beak knocking at the door of his house and then a Raven flies in and lands on a statue of Pallas, the goddess of wisdom reminiscent of Ganesha of India, located above the door. This is the bird that brings along the spirit of his dead wife. Poltergeist activity happens. The bird is still perched on the statue the entire time. He then briefly ascends to heaven and then briefly decends to hell. He tells the bird to leave representing him telling his grief to leave so he can get in with his life. But as ever, the bird or the grief doesn't leave, as ever, perched on the statue above the door. 

The movie The Menu is gorgeous and opulent. 15 stars out of 10.

The movie is a sleeper movie. The rich setting, basically its set in a location that is a very rich restaurant in a place that every person would dream of living in. 

The whole movie is like a gourmet high life magazine like Western Living magazine in Vancouver set to a movie. 

The menu items themselves, in the movie are enough to trigger a deep churning burning anxiety attack that can be felt like a slight knife in the guts. There is a bread board with all kinds of sauces that one would like to dip Brad into such as ranch dressing and melted butter. Dollops of drizzle with no bread, which also describes the sex life of single men. That restaurant is a macabre brasserie of the bizarre. 

Hong Chau is a genius actress. Completely different look and accent from her role in Downsizing. 

She gives a speech saying something like,  "Around here, we work together as a team. We cooperate and we gel."

Anya Joy Taylor sarcastically whispers to Nicholas Hoult,  "We gel?" 

Hong Chau looks right at her and emphatically says,  "We gel!" 

One of the items is kelp caviar. I've never tried it. At one time, somewhere in town sold Russian beluga or else fine ossetta sturgeon style kelp caviar. It was $25 a small jar back then. Now it's probably closer to $35. 

Its an acquired taste. It's probably much more salty and has more of an oceany, pungent fishy taste. 

Real Russian caviar is about $200 or more a small jar. 

Kelsey Gramar shows that life can make up for lost time. If you would call it that. 

His mother was redrumed and he saw his sister redrumed in front of him! 

At age 70, he is welcoming his eighth child. No personal knowledge on whether some of these children were from former marriages or adopted. 

Fiction: For any woman who who birthed eight children, she would, at that point have a sit down with her husband and say,  "Look, I'm not a vending machine. Vending machine, put in a coin and a prize emerges. In this case, it's deposit some liquid and nine months later, again, a prize emerges."

Prolapse of the uterus. The pelvic floor. The pelvic girdle. I mean, come on, how much can a woman be expected to take? 

How many caesarians can a woman have? Again, fictional, a woman who sired eight children says, "I've had four caesarians." Holy smokes. I'm wondering what the abdominal area would look like. Basically a map of British Columbia and Alberta with all its mountainous terrain. 

If you would call it that. Raising a child can be intensely pricey and there's the caregiver burnout that one risks. Most people tend to avoid being on the hook for child support. It looks like Kelsey Gramar isn't that kind of person. 

The new Deadpool VR app is $70 and it looks like a massive ton of motion sickness. Batman Arkham Asylum VR is also $70. Uh, no thanks on either. Motion sickness and I simply can not afford that at all. 

Demeo Dungeons & Dragons is a hefty $41 plus tax. I already have the original Demeo. 

Question. Are we men? 

Answer. No, we are not men. We are Demeo. 

The new Demeo is 95% similar to the original. Why bother. The new one has finer and upgraded graphics and the Gary Webb Dungeons & Dragons franchise tacked on to it. 

I won't be getting that. The sheer expense. And I already have Demeo. For Demeo, I would need to devote an entire weekend of rainy afternoons with cups of tea with milk and sugar to explore the world of Demeo. 

Sisu 2. Sisu's Revenge is a must see. 

I hope that I move to a better place one day. The only day that will happen is when I die. Hopefully. Who knows what will happen. 

The next menu item for cooking is Chengpo pork. That's the thing. I don't purchase raw pork from grocery stores. Ever. That leads to tapeworm. 

It will have to be Chengpo beef or lamb or chicken or tofu.