I am officially 50 years old. I decided to get two tall cans of Guinness beer. Hours later, I felt awful, classic hangover. I decided to induce vomiting. I wonder how that works? Could it be that alcohol produces a chemical called acetyldehyde that irritates the stomach lining. Usually the liver produces a chemical called glutathione which neutralizes any slight amount of acetyldehyde that fermented foods can bring. Anyways vomiting is a defense for sending too much alcohol and the attendant evil of hangovers. I feel a lot better after vomiting. For awhile, I wondered if the anxiety of turning 50 brings a debilitating physical stress which is quite palpable, then I thought, Wait, I think this has to do with the beers I drank. I don't drink often at all. "And he swore, not for the last time, that he would never touch this poison again." Stephen King
One way to make God laugh is to tell Him he you think the future will turn out.
Saturday, May 16, 2020 My new Forart plague doctor mask purchased on amazon. The black plague doctor mask is Southern European. The brown plague doctor mask is Northern European.
Me at age 50. When 50 years old you reach, look as good you will not. Chances are you'll look better and you probably won't be missing a front upper incisor like yours truly.
The dazzling spectacular heavenly stained glass windows of St Chapelle in Paris. This reminds that life is good. The beauty in the heart carried over from looking at stained glass windows on Sunday morning then at night listening to 70s and 80s rock music exquisite and excruciatingly blissful at times.
I used to regret the past. Now I'm just baffled that I made it to 50 when so many others didn't. But like Jar Jar Binks said, It's crunchen time. At 50, you wonder if you'll make it to the end of the decade. At 60, it's any year now. At 70, it's any month now. At 80, it's any week now. At 90, it's any day now. At 100, it's any minute now. But what does this mean if 50 is the new 30?
The mind has a life of its own. "From the neck up you might have a few problems but from the neck down, you're all Dave." Woody Harrelson
The princess kisses the frog and he turned into a Prince. Did she use CRISPR? That's gene editing software. Forget metal stents in my legs to be taller. Could I use CRISPR to be taller? Realistically at 50, I could hardly expect to be taller. As a comment on a website said, You're trolling, how much taller did you grow in the last few decades? I won't grow taller. It's not rocket science. As one grows their bones grow along an epiphysial line forming epiphysial caps as it grows along until the last one forms at age 18. CRISPR could change all that. If I were taller I could write my own ticket equals scoring with more women. However I know of some tall guys who just about never score with any women.
Life hates a vacuum. Hopefully some new things can come into my life that I can write about. I hate writing about the same old things over and over again. I only play running apps now like Paper Train, Subway Princess, and Talking Tom Gold 2, also Angela Cat running game. Dune 2020 will be released this year. Will it be good or not? The heartbreak really took the wind out of my sails artistically. It's the opposite of a muse. When I get out of my funk, I was thinking of doing a cartoon about all disco and funk dancing. I'll have to use recorded music but YouTube has been good about allowing me to do that. No money, who cares, what do I need millions of dollars for? Low view count? File sharing has killed the bottom line. No comments? The fewer comments, the better. I rarely get comments because I rarely send one.
Coronavirus. Second and third wave. With each successive 🌊 wave, more and more people would have recovered from it. With each successive wave, the herd immunity is greater. That lessens the chance of further lockdowns. The health authorities must know this. They have University degrees while I barely have a high school diploma yet I know this.
With society and Police, first it's "What are you doing with that girl?!" And then two years later it's, "We haven't seen you with that girl for two weeks. What happened?" Society is kinda perverse in that way. One time, I went to the liquor store to get some beer for a girl I was dating. When I left, I saw a cop car pull into the parking lot. I eventually got it on with her. Cops often have intelligence that the girl you like, likes you too. Even saying, "What are you doing with her?!" in some cases, not all, is their playful way of saying they have intelligence that she likes you too. "I'd be more worried about her making the first move." Captain Panaka, Attack of the Clones
The magic word is vaccine. One day, I'll wake up, and the word VACCINE will appear on the News. That's when the pandemic will be over. That might be when I get a ride to WalMart. Yeah right. I think I fucked that one up. That's life. That's if I'm stupid enough to go wait around and see if that will happen. That would be a complete and total fuck up. Under the grim auspices of such a deal hanging over me, the dynamics have soured. Friendship over.
Try saying the word vaccine with a missing front tooth when your v's sound like w's and your w's sound like v's. And forget about enunciating the letter f as it sounds like something between a v and a w.
Buddha said that if you smile when you are alone, that is the most genuine.
My sweet girlfriend is in the hospital. How sweet? One time years ago I was talking to her about Kegels. I said I once tried it too, while standing upright riding on a bus in Bangkok. I didn't tell her about the bus in Bangkok part. She laughed when I told her that. Maybe other women would've taken offense. But not her. That's how sweet she is.
Today at Wal-Mart, I got a shirt. I went for the paisley design. When I wore it, someone told me it is a gang shirt. That sounds cogent. It's the bandana design of the notorious crips, or is it? I asked other people and no one else said it was. I'm wondering if I should wear it.
Due to a computer glitch, touch sensitive screen, I erased a few paragraphs of my writings. Nothing important as usual. I barely have a high school diploma. I think I got that on a sympathy vote. Why read my writings when you can read something a University professor wrote? I thought a hacker erased it but that never happened. My writings are something a hacker would regard as insipid and below their radar. I try to keep it that way. I wrote about the importance of supporting the Police Department even when the public is against them and protesting, even rioting like the final scene of the movie Police Academy. Some people have a difficulty distinguishing the difference between some and all. Perhaps some cops are crooked. But would that mean that all cops are crooked? What about all the cops that had nothing to do with the death? Get mad at them too? "It's not the voices of our enemies that we should fear. It's the silence of our friends." Dr Martin Luther King
Buddha said that if you smile when you are alone, that is the most genuine.
My sweet girlfriend is in the hospital. How sweet? One time years ago I was talking to her about Kegels. I said I once tried it too, while standing upright riding on a bus in Bangkok. I didn't tell her about the bus in Bangkok part. She laughed when I told her that. Maybe other women would've taken offense. But not her. That's how sweet she is.
Today at Wal-Mart, I got a shirt. I went for the paisley design. When I wore it, someone told me it is a gang shirt. That sounds cogent. It's the bandana design of the notorious crips, or is it? I asked other people and no one else said it was. I'm wondering if I should wear it.
Due to a computer glitch, touch sensitive screen, I erased a few paragraphs of my writings. Nothing important as usual. I barely have a high school diploma. I think I got that on a sympathy vote. Why read my writings when you can read something a University professor wrote? I thought a hacker erased it but that never happened. My writings are something a hacker would regard as insipid and below their radar. I try to keep it that way. I wrote about the importance of supporting the Police Department even when the public is against them and protesting, even rioting like the final scene of the movie Police Academy. Some people have a difficulty distinguishing the difference between some and all. Perhaps some cops are crooked. But would that mean that all cops are crooked? What about all the cops that had nothing to do with the death? Get mad at them too? "It's not the voices of our enemies that we should fear. It's the silence of our friends." Dr Martin Luther King
Anyways, a Police Chief patiently explained to a City Hall Council during a meeting about defunding the Police that there are a lot of things the public never sees, organized crime, and very violent individuals. That should be enough to convince why the Police should not be defunded. The Police should be given even more funds.
I wrote about if you're a minority move to a country where you're a majority. But that might not always work. Vast language barrier, even more vast wage disparity; we get $15 an hour, they get $15 after a 12 hour day, that other country might be in the midst of a civil war etc. Most minority people of any country usually get a pretty fair shake. I wrote about Sweden's PM getting shot, that was erased too. Shocking since that's the country that hands out Nobel Peace Prizes. Maybe if he had a security detail. Honest Abe also didn't have a security detail although he signed into effect the Secret Service Act just days before his death although upon hindsight it should have been years. I could see a hacker deleting that. Maybe. But even then. I also wrote about the wall of my apartment that's buckling. Would that piss a hacker off? The only person something like that could upset is me. And I'm not even all that upset about it. Anyways, why would anyone read my writings? Jack of all trades, master of none. The you know a little bit about a lot of things disregarding the gaps in knowledge kind of guy. That's me!
I'm also doubling down now here that all races, ethnicities etc have a gangsta empire builder mentality and will try to co-opt you. Ferengi imperative, rule #95: Expand or Die. Racism is a form of either culture shock or else reverse culture shock.
All ethnic cultures have a sleazy gangsta empire builder agenda and if you send too many signals that you might be interested in their silly culture, they'll try to co-opt you into their weird shit. Weird language, weird foods etc.
No one wants to be coopted by what they secretly feel in their heart of hearts is an inferior culture. No one wants to be coopted by an inferior culture.
All cultures are inferior. All cultures have something that you'd complain about. All cultures without exception have things about them that leave much to be desired. All cultures are hopeless futureless venal incompetent mismanaged backwater parodies of themselves. Agents and surveillance is all part of a thug agenda which is a tacit admission that the place is a backwater. Jump on the local bandwagon. Tow the backwater line.
Moral Relativity = personal Ethical Relativity vs collective Cultural Relativity. I once met someone who thought they were superior because they were White and that person believed White people were in power. I wonder, how is that working out for her? She has a weird shit ass unenviable disease. Look what being White did to her. If she were something else, of some other race, maybe she wouldn't have had that disease which is even more of a different twist of fate than having been born to different White parents. She would still opt for being White even if it meant having that weird shit disease as part of her personal genetic package deal for being White to the point where she believed they are superior and run the World rather than be some other race but otherwise not having that the weird disease which is counter intuitive.
In fact a lot of people who are the most virulent vehemently vitriolic racists suffer from some weird shit unenviable disease and the racism is how they compensate for and thus how they have reconciled with themselves in their mind with their weird disease against people not of their race who don't likewise suffer from their strange disease. All I could say to people like that is ha ha ha.
This person with the godawful unenviable disease I am talking about died in 1996. What she actually said was, "Do you know who came up with the words chink and wop? It's the people in power." That must have been her attempt to make an oblique reference to White people. I should have asked her if she feels like she's in power especially with that awful disease. She said that to me in a phone call two weeks before her death. I met quite a few other people who acted really mean to me just before their death. This meanness is their indirect way of telling me that they knew they were going to die. The anger is from the frustration of not being able to live on so that they could possibly further keep tabs on me, stalk me and ruin my reputation, well don't put yourself out on my account, don't do me any favours, which would be highly redundant because it was already ruined years ago, or else being able to live to see what I would do next because they deeply love me. Either way it's a train wreck. And also they want me to be angry with them as that eases the separation process for either of us. A spirit would have a greater afterlife attachment and some kind of however much obligations to those who are mourning them and sad for them than those who are angry with them and still reeling from whatever words.
As for chink and wop, that cracker was talking out of her ass. Chink and wop are culturally eponymous terms. Chink is an allusion to the Imperial Ching Dynasty. A wop is derived from the word guapo meaning handsome. What a fucking bullshitter she was. I'm glad she's dead, that way I don't have to worry about dealing with her physically anymore. I have seen her in dreams. She was very loving towards me in all the dreams. So much so that I always held back on saying, "Even with the PMH Atwater master vibration of the afterlife, you still look like shit." But I could never ever say that to her. She was a very loving person towards me for lots of years.
My friend suffered from Ehler-Danos Syndrome and that meant having loose skin making a person look 40 years older than they are. However there is a more severe form called vascular Ehler-Danos and that involves rupturing of the blood vessels, intestines and uterus. She died of a ruptured bowel; intestine which is classic with those with this ailment. That was almost 30 years ago. I'm sure they can manage it a lot better. Hospitals can do things now they weren't able to five years ago.
Anyways, I sure as heck don't feel that way. Being my race has resulted in having a sleazy mendacious crackpot father, dead mother, no birth certificate and no inheritance. Zero out of three ain't bad. I'd sooner be White or Black or Japanese or East Indian if it otherwise includes a living mother, an honest truthful father and an inheritance, I would instantly cast away my race without any compunction and be another race even Native although they often get the shit end of the stick racially and culturally in Canada, but not always. A lot of Natives are millionaires. I heard of a Native who went to Thailand, appeared in a TV show and was paid $10,000 US. Not bad. I never thought my race was superior. That my race is smart, industrious and has a lot of potential I believe. But that it's superior to all other races?! That's bullshit! It's a good race, yes. But the best race? I don't even know if that's an ideal let alone a reality.
Cracker too, ie blaxploitation is an eponymous term. Shakespeare himself used it in the play King John: "What cracker is this same that deafs ours ears with his abundance of superfluous breath?" 1*
Benjamin Franklin used the term crackers, referring to British convicts imported to America as "a race of runnagates and crackers equally as wildland savage as the Indians who inhabit the mountains and forests." 2*
*Source: 1. Wikipedia: cracker
2. Ibid
That is, Krakkers.
"Always playing the race card. You know, that's sad." Bad Boys 2
In the United States, Canada and Europe, there has been a movement to deface or remove statues. In some cases replacing the statue with another statue, that of a Black Live Matter protester.
Pope Clement the fourth remove the genitals of statues finding them offensive. Nowadays it's why settle with the genitals when you can remove the entire statue itself?
The Nazis burned books. Where books and/or statues are destroyed, could people be next? Not always. Beatles records were burned in the 60s.
During the Cultural Revolution in China they had a movement called 'Let the flowers bloom, Let the dragons walk' which was an invitation for scholars and dissidents to express their criticisms of the government. Mao then said, "Now we will coax the snakes out of their holes." Anyone who was too outspoken and deemed a threat was investigated. Not everyone is a protester or defacing statues. Like restaurants who 75% of their customers are repeat customers, there is always a core floating population of repeat offenders when it comes to protesting and vandalism. The Police know who they are.
The Chinese don't care if people talk about even criticise the government. They do it all the time. Just as long as it's true and not spurious bullshit.*
*source: YouTube comments
In Vancouver, a vigilante group put up a sign, "You touch George/Stanley/John A and down come your totem poles" I agree with that to a great extent. Moral Relativity, cultural relativity, what is deemed right in one culture is deemed wrong in another, however relative to either culture, vandalism and the defacing of esteemed cultural monuments is culturally mutually relatively immoral. Basically it's about respect. You respect my culture, I respect your culture.
They don't want to assimilate. They want to take over. Takeover mentality.
Do we have to give over our entire country just to show that we're tolerant?
In England the statue of slave trader Edward Colston was removed and replaced with a BLM protester, of which that statue has also, ...since been removed.
They've taken to defacing the statue and covering with purple paint, the statue of King Edward the 7th. In some countries that's known as insulting the monarchy and is an arrestable offense.
I can see White people themselves thinking that some of the statues are anachronistic and obsolete, hence they were removed. But it might otherwise have been gone about in a completely different way. Other times in where there was a frenzy of statue busting was fall of communism when a lot of those communist statues were being brought down and in the middle East after a war and a local head of state was defeated, a lot of statues were then also defeated.
Getting too hung up on things like statues is too dilettante, too obsessive. It's a waste of time to get hung up in trivial and spurious things. Just forget about it.
I also talked about the Local and National Arts Councils. I might say that would I join the Arts Council of a locality or Nation that if I had $100,00 I would immediately leave? But would I leave? And would I have to join an Arts Council even if I didn't? Art Councils are judges who judge art work on criteria for grants. These grants are paperwork before during and after. The smartest people don't apply for solo grants but grants based on forming organizations that way there's enough grant money to hire a secretary on salary who does all that tedious but necessary paperwork full time. And I'm not good enough of an artist. My skills are all right but look at deviant art. Look at wallpapers that graphic designers did from art school school. Not animation as it's difficult to try to do a level 6 animation and maintain that level throughout, I'm talking about still images. Well my art isn't on that level. Some artists achieve colour photorealism. Not something that I could do. Robert Bateman. His paintings are so realistic you feel you could reach out your hand and stroke the fur of the animal he did a painting of. I'm not that good of an artist and I don't need to be applying for grants.
I would give up on the country altogether if I don't give up on being an artist altogether. A Canadian artist is second rate on the World stage. The five permanent members on the UN Security Council are the UK, the US, China, France, and Russia. They are also the countries where their artists are more successful and make more money. That's irrelevant to me. To be an artist who makes a lot of money, you have to be really good. I'm not that great of an artist. My YouTube cartoons. The view count is low. That's discouraging.
Sometimes I wish I never went on YouTube to begin with. It never worked out as well as I would have liked. It's not easy to make money on YT. If it was, so many people would quit their jobs.
COVID-19 is a viral pandemic. The black plague was a bacterial pandemic. Viruses can be attacked with an RNA based treatment. Bacteria could not. A virus is RNA based. A Bacteria is DNA based. Bacteria breeds 10 times as fast as viruses. It uses a different vector.
Virus and bacteria are what are called germs.
A bacteria breeds through cellular division; cellular mitosis and can survive without a host. A virus replicates through invading and infiltrating a healthy cell and inundating then overwhelming it with copies of itself.
Bacteria is sensitive to hot and cold. The food safe program addresses bacteria like salmonella, anthrax, yersinia pestis and botulism. They are bacteria, not viruses.
The smallest bacteria is larger than the largest virus. Viruses are tiny.
While all scientists agree that bacteria are living organisms, a virus is only considered a living organism depending on who you ask.
I also wrote but got accidentally deleted that quarantines and health measures such as social distancing helped to control the Spanish Flu and this was about 10 years before Alexander Fleming discovered penicillin, and basically antibiotics in 1927. And helped to control the bubonic plague hundreds of years before antibiotics were discovered. A vaccine would therefore be unnecessary or else redundant. However it would be nice for them to discover one. Vaccines are largely composed of egg whites. That's what carries the antigen which ironically contains a bit of the disease virus itself.
Antibiotics are useless against viral infections. Antiviral drugs are needed instead.
Stalag-17, carbon 14, COVID-19.
Due to restaurants closed there has been a nine hundred percent increase in donations of eggs to food lines. Pandemic of not chickens keep laying eggs at the same rate. These extra eggs with their eggs whites would be useful for making vaccines when the time comes. Sometimes life provides solutions to it's own problems. One hand washes the other.
When the VanCOVID Vandemic is over, I'll want to travel to Vancouver. At this point, about 50% of the buildings that I used to know are gone or get drastically remodelled and renovated. Once you know the sweet geomagnetic vibes, it hits you like a brick wall. I think that a lot of people who thoroughly know the sweet vibes that could be found in their city would say the same thing about their city. There's an indescribable yet distinct sweet thick geomagnetic vibe that once you get there, you feel it. Under the ground are lei lines. These magnetic lines form geomagnetic signatures through their very being and are responsible for sweet geomagnetic vibes. There are a few franchises there not available here, but are available in Vancouver; Hon's Wonton House, Vera's Burger Shack, Harvey's Burgers and Big C All You Can Eat Fish and Chips. These restaurants are not island franchise minded.
Homeowners insurance rates increase drastically. It's not rocket science. Ha ha. Too many small town fire insurance scams, big cities got to make up for the shortfall. Small towns are famous for and rely on fire insurance scams as those towns have no tourist buses so they have to make up for the shortfall. Small town fire insurance scams are quite complex and there is a lot of networking to the point where everyone gets a cut, the fire chief, the Mayor even. Individuals living in condos in big cities don't have this kind of small town networking and don't stand a chance against the insurance companies. Sociology 101. This is an unproven conspiracy theory, urban legend, creepy pasta. All I know is a small town which has snow on the ground 8 months of the year has 6 major buildings burn down and immolate, the buildings themselves became crispy critters in 10 years, on average. Once every two years, like a STAR WARS movie, can't do it too much. Case in point, not naming the town, Ho Le Chow nightclub burned in 2006, grain elevator burned in 2008, Alaska Cafe and Hotel burned in September 2012, that's 3 in 6 years. Due to the stress of the global pandemic, their doing it more often, again, to make up for the shortfall. That would destabilize the actuarial tables. Therefore big city home insurance rates rising is an industry making up for a shortfall making up for a shortfall making up for a shortfall. They didn't figure that out yet? The News will never tell you this as they are notoriously infamous for not telling the whole story, ever.
"CERBside gang, putos!" "Fuck you!!!!!" End of Watch
CERB your enthusiasm. CERB benefits extended for 8 weeks. A few of my friends went for it. They got $6,000. The government opposition opposed a bill to punish the offenders with a $10,000 fine and 6 months in prison. My landlord said the government will go after the fraudsters in one way or another. The Canadian Prime Minister said, "Fraudsters, you're not ripping me off. You're ripping off the neighbours who are next to you." If I applied now, I'd get $8000 with back pay.
Theoretically governments have nothing to worry about if they dispense CERB. As Orwell said, "Socialism will never work because if you were to distribute money equally, all that money would wind up back in its original place in two weeks."
That's enough for an old 80s BMW if I shop around. A 320i for sure. But a 320 is a V4 engine. A 4 series BMW has a V8 engine. A 5 series has a V10. A 6 series has a V12 engine. In the 80s most cars were inline 4s so a V8 let alone a V12 would be sensational. But now V8s etc are more standard issue than they used to be and aren't as sensational. The elements of a 4 stroke engine: intake, compression, combustion, exhaust. I'm not making any chances. They did stipulate that those who collect must be ready to accept any job opportunity that is offered to them. I'd rather have an 80s BMW than a 70s BMW.
BMW made the best and worst cars I'd ever seen. The worst was the 60s BMW just in case you thought the insectoid 70s BMWs were bad. The 60s BMWs looked like a minion sliced in half widthwise. When you opened the door, the steering wheel went along with it. If the 60s BMW had a head on collision with a motorcycle, the motorcycle rider would walk away having come away with the better of it. Awful. And you thought Italian Fiats, Russian Ladas and the French Renault Le Cars, the Canadian Acadian and the Gremlin were bad. Unsafe at any speed.
BMWs are expensive because they rely on mass marketing to establish and to maintain consumer integrity. It's a vicious cycle.
On Thursday June 18, 2020 the Canadian government sent emails to people committing fraud explaining that their future benefits like GST cheques and etc like PST and any pandemic relief cheques would be cut off.
The welfare annual $35 Christmas bonus has remained unchanged since the 80s. Although all other aspects of welfare dispensation have increased majorly since the 80s. The first GST relief cheques were $35. Now they're routinely $135 including a public subsidy dispensed for the building of a pipeline. Somehow when the Government builds a new pipeline or launches some environmental initiative, somehow, we all get extra money for it. My PST cheques has gone up from $75 annually to about $135. And welfare for me has gone from $771 a month decades ago to $1,100 a month or usually it's more! That's a minimum estimate. I'd think of it as a roundabout way of getting a raise on the Christmas bonus as six of one is half a dozen of the other. As for the $35 Christmas bonus remaining unchanged, it's a sign of society having gone from a mainly Christian one to a society of atheism, secularism, and plurality. The not raising of the $35 Christmas bonus is a derisive act of derision and a tacit acknowledgement that Christianity based priorities have degenerated. Cold comfort is a Victorian term for when the poor when given free meals at Christmas but not before some odious sermon.
I've thought of giving up on life altogether. However it's much better to just give up on the country altogether and move to another one. But it would have to be for a much better reason than not having gotten a raise on the annual Christmas bonus for decades.
My reason for giving up on life might be the four stations of the cross. I don't mean cannabis, tobacco, alcohol and cocaine. I mean dead mother at birth, no birth certificate, never got married, and no inheritance. Most people got at least one of the four things. I'm 50. Not having any of those things technically would give me less of an incentive to go on living. Yet I go on living. I live for the two ladies whom I am often with. If it wasn't for the two women, I'd leave town.
The predictive script that appears above the keyboard on my HuaWei tablet is next level. Stephen Hawking had one that if he spelled a word wrong or even started typing a word, the computer would predict and complete the word. The one I have here on the HuaWei tablet guesses the next word before I even write it and gets it correct at least 50% of the time. However the other day when I type the course of true love never did run smooth, and I just did it again here now, it guesses every next word of that Shakespeare quote before I even wrote it! What. Is it the Amazing Kreskin? I think it has an IQ of 300 to do something like that. I've never seen that before. Isn't technology wonderful?
The two Michaels apropos of the Two Ronnies are detained in China to get back at Canada for holding Huawei's Meng Wanzhou in detention. It's the States that mainly wants her so it's its baffling that China wouldn't likewise detain Americans. If China won't fight the States over Taiwan, the certainly won't fight the States over a prisoner exchange. China and the US are both permanent members of the UN Security Council. Canada is like a fierce badger but caught between a bear and a cougar or else a mighty dragon and a humongous bald eagle. It's a real rat's nest. If it were up to me, I'd return Meng Wanzhou to China. Just say, "Ooops, we made a mistake, somehow she just returned." And let the States and China go at it. Then, Canada would only have one country angry at it instead of two. The whole situation is painted shit. There's no guarantee that if Meng is returned to China that the two Michaels would be returned. There's no guarantee that if Meng is returned to China that they won't execute her. The world is going to hell in a handbasket. Why go to Church, does God exist and does he care? Or does he just decide to sit some things out?
Maybe Canada and China could set up a friendship bridge situation like in Die Another Day with Pierce Brosnan and Rick Yune. The two Michaels for Huawei's Meng Wanzhou. But China would vociferously argue, "Two mid-level Canadian businessmen for a Princess of China's corporate business royalty is hardly a fair exchange."
The Health Minister is censuring some doctors for systemic racism. Apparently as soon as a Native walks into a clinic, hospital, whatever, they play a game; the one who guesses closest to the Blood Alcohol Content BAC of the patient laid out of the bed in some Kafkaesque scenario. This is like something from a WP Kinsella novel. What is this, the Miss Hobema Beauty Pagent Frank Fencepost Chronicles General Hospital? Is this the 1800s? Dances with Wolves? Important Natives arrive at the Fort and the Fort Doctors are there as 1800s characteristically as usual guessing how drunk they are? What can you say? Canada's history is riddled with if not saturated with such culturally unenviable stories of Native-baiting towards a peoples whose lives are nasty, brutish and short enough without the added exacerbation of such morally ludicrous medical room antics. It's more systemic than you think! In the old days about 30 years ago, when they had the Yellow Pages phone book and people were regularly using it to the point where they were doodling all over the front cover, the Yellow Pages then started with A aboriginal goods and ended with A zymurgy. So basically Canadian society is bookended between Natives and beer. Typical. Linking Indians with alcohol, what were the chances of that? When I wrote an article and pointed that out, the next year I looked and it was changed to A abattoir and Z zoo. Desmond Morris; The Human Zoo. - That's not much better! What can you say about the pernicious egregious human species with their piddling 115 IQ and the shit ghastly wretched defective physics of this dimension and the subsequent culture and politics derived thereof? 80 years ago, they were throwing people into ovens. Next to that, otherwise those working in the ER with nothing better to do placing bets on specs, having a flutter, at the quantification of hepatocellular dissolution of racialized Indigenous patients is getting off lightly.
My advice is that as soon as the pandemic lifts, move to a different country where they don't do that. They don't do shit like that in a whole lot of other countries.
In fact, if you come from another country as a young child and they sense that you're smart, they lump you in with the "Canadian Special People" especially if you come from a country that's a Monarchy, just to bring you down to their level. The "special people" of Canada are the mongloids and the sufferers of Down's Syndrome hanging out at the ice rink all the time. Hours on end every day at the ice rink, with the mongloids, Down's Syndrome sufferers or those who are otherwise trisomally challenged. What ice rinks? What mongloids? That's purely delusional and hallucinatory bullshit. For one thing, the last time I visited an ice rink was in 1994. And the last time I seen a mongloid person was about 15 years ago.
Thailand has never been colonized. Not overtly. Covertly it's the 51st State. Look at the postal code. Let's say American Protectorate. Whereas Canada's Natives have been colonized to a profound degree. Canada's Natives are visible minorities in their own land that they've been on for 27,000 years. Even though one is a visible minority, they can contribute and add and be respectful of whatever culture, of all cultures and be grateful for generosity. However, objectively, you see a lot of Natives who dropped out of school as part of their disdain for White man's culture and white White man's education. All they do is drink or drug. They collect welfare. They don't look for work or otherwise try to give back to society in any way either through writings or art. Certainly not grateful. All they ever talk about is how they were hard done by. Many are fetal alcohol spectrum disordered scofflaws. "White man's laws don't apply to us. We have our own laws." Not all are like that. Not by a long shot. But there is a very conspicuous minority of a dissolute and dipsomaniac segment of that society that the medical industry sees all the time and as a result, they all get tarred with the same brush of presumed dissolution. In any culture you get the really Westernized people and you get the hardcore ethnics, for eg Westernized Jamaican, perfect English accent, short hair cut and wearing a basketball tank top and a hardcore Jamaican with a heavy accent, long dreads and wearing tropical style clothing. The hardcore ones call the Westernized ones Uncle Tom's, Jim Crows, sellouts. The Westernized ones call the hardcore ones savages, hardcore ones, give us a bad name, lazy, drunk. You hardly see the well heeled and educated Natives in the hospital drunk. It's usually the other group and reeking of alcohol on their breath whenever they go to the hospital which would clue the doctors in. Theon Greyjoy aka Reek. Anyways, that explains it but it doesn't excuse it.
Today, June 21 is National Aboriginal Peoples Day in Canada. Canada needs to remember the contributions that Natives made in this country. Just as in the 1800s there some Natives that White people deemed more important than others. Some outstanding Natives, there are so many, include Buffy Saint Marie from Sesame Street, Neil Young, actor Graham Greene, Redbone, the cast of Dances with Wolves and Grey Owl and MP Jody Wilson-Raybould. Some Native people are very spiritual. I met one Native guy who for some reason reminded me of a teapot full of jasmine tea. He was a very intensely spiritual guy, very mellow, a true gentleman.
Natives are like Scottish people in the way that they have a reputation that precedes them when it comes to knowledge about ghosts and the dreamworld. East Indians, the other Indians, also have a reputation of having a profound understanding of ghosts and the dreamworld. I think that when I talk about my dreams, they'd know something on another deeper level, something I have yet to learn. Every few years I get another clue about the workings of the dreamworld.
I am proud to live on the lands of the Songhees and Esquimalt peoples. I met a few of them and they are very kind people. More spiritual than I am but I never really knew I spiritual I am. More spiritual meaning that they don't let petty things get to them like I often let petty issues get to me.
Canada is pretty much Indianundated with stories of Native racial profiling like an unnamed bank detaining a grandfather while his traumatized granddaughter watched. A supermarket somewhere recently, just before the global viral pandemic, kicked out a guy just because he was Native. Natives told me stories of how in Chinatown whenever they went into a store they were stalked and followed like they were going to steal something. Shopping While Native is Canada's answer to the US's Driving While Black. In Shanghai Noon, Owen Wilson said to Jackie Chan, " The Natives have a word for honor and you're chock full of it." It's projection. Those who stalk Natives don't see the warrior or the honor in Natives because they have so little of it themselves. Some, not all, Chinese come to Canada, and start up businesses for sheer venality because a lot of them don't, can't, or won't learn English and they project this intellectual slovenliness onto the Natives. Meanwhile Natives can speak their language well and they can speak English a lot better than the Chinese who are allegedly racially profiling them. A lot of people who run businesses otherwise constantly verbally abuse their own children, cheat on their wives occasionally and gamble all the time and again, they project these awful habits onto the Natives. A lot of Natives are single and don't have any children which also means that they're not constantly and on a daily basis verbally abusing any. Well, happy aboriginal day.
There are apparently reports of racism directed towards Asians scapegoating them for causing coronavirus at wet-markets. Bill Maher pointed out that America's factory farms are just as bad. Where and how food is produced isn't often talked about. It isn't because there's a gangsta lobby against that. It's because such shows don't get high ratings. It's grim, clinical, and redundant. Our Daily Bread - ghastly! Salmon farm documentary - informative yet turgid and turbid. A lot of people could be mistaken for Chinese. Lots of times Chinese people have corrected me when I told them I thought that a Hollywood actor is Chinese. They told me, "He's Korean" or else "He's Japanese," depending on who it is.
Notions of White Supremacy are fine as long as it doesn't become a problem to onself. Most of the time it isn't but in extreme circumstances it can be. Anybody who believes that they are members of an Aryan or superior race and it's not just White people who believe this about themselves. It's just that White people are the most conspicuous and overt about it while others are more covert about it. All equally deluded.
In extreme cases, a White person to advance their notion of White Supremacy might get into his head to climb the highest mountain, or to be the best to go into space or to Mars or to while a wog drinks one cup of ayahuasca during a trip to South America, being White, he has to along with his White buddies be snorting lines of cocaine all day, drinking coca leaf tea, smoke marijuana, drink whisky, drop magic mushrooms, smoke cigarettes and then finally do not one but four cups of ayahuasca, this is a true story that David Choe told on a now internationally famous YouTube video.
A White man in space being the first man to go to Mars might think, "Here I am in this tin bucket floating in space. Forget my old planet, this is my entirely planetary reality now or the closest thing to it. So many Earth lengths away from Earth that if I were to drive a car, let alone walk, it would take me a thousand years to get back to Earth. The distance. The insanity of it all. All that I've ever known is so far away. I don't know if I'll ever see them again. I'm a sole survivor. Now could it be that my notions of White Supremacy was a link in the chain of events that led me here to this sheer insane situation?" Meanwhile other Nationalities are saying, "Let the White man do it first. If he comes back in one piece then we'll try it."
The worst is thoughts of, "I am dying now doing this stupid stunt. If a wog, worthy Oriental gentleman can do one tab of ecstacy, I can do 5, 10, or do like Keith Moon did and just before hopping on a plane flight, 15 tabs of ecstasy because I'm racially superior. Is my notion of personally bolstering White Supremacy through pharmacological means a link in the chain of events that is now leading to my death?" White people or anyone who thinks they're racially superior: You don't have to prove yourselves!
Yet another racist incident at UBC. Interestingly or else disturbingly, UBC is on Chancellor Blvd. Wasn't that WW2 guy's title? Wasn't he the Chancellor of Germany during WW2? Knock knock. Who's there? Chancellor. Chancellor who? Chancellor of Germany in 1933.
To be fair, lots of streets, hundreds perhaps, are called Chancellor street in hundreds of cities on the planet.
In the West, there is corollary racial phenomenon. Everyone more or less even at least tacitly acknowledges that Whites are Supreme or number 1. The question is, in terms of the racial pecking order, who is number two, and three, and four, etc? Most members of a visible minority privately think that they're number two behind the Whites while everyone else is three and four etc. There's no consensus. But if there was a consensus and if I see that my ethnic group isn't even number two, that's what is called in Las Vegas, 'a crooked table'. Why stick around? I'd move to Asia where I'd be one of the majority. I'd be one of the ones who are number 1 in their country. That's when or if the pandemic ever ends.
Black Lives Better is like George Orwell's Animal Farm. Two legs good, Four legs better. It's like Planet of the Apes, if Black people take over and places switch, what was once the slave is now the Master, like Great Gatsby, the book within a book, The Rise of the Colored Peoples, would I think I'd be treated fairly. Sure! No more or less fairly than under a White system. Being Asian and once having to work on railroads, not me, those who lived 150 years ago, I'd be one of the oppressed-in-common.
If there isn't racial conflicts, there are religious ones. Half the wars in Europe before 1700 weren't even about land or money, they were about religion.
I think it's Whites number one. Duh.
Blacks are number two because a Black man was US President. They were in the US a lot longer than Asians were and they changed their names to White names and thus are very Westernized. Don't forget their contribution to the music world.
Natives are number three. They've been living on the land for 27,000 years. They get free hunting; frei jagdschein und angelschein, and fishing licenses and can cross the US Canada border. They get bigger energy and pipeline rebate cheques than any other racial demographic else except White people.
I would be presumptuous to say who is number four without pissing a lot of East Indian and Arabic, Asians, Latino etc people off. The truth is, I don't know. Clearly, what I do see however is that I'm not in the top three. Should I still stick around? Sure! I've always gotten a fair shake. I'm treated very good. The Royal treatment. I've been successful in my life and have been lucky with quite a few women all throughout my life.
Under such auspices, any racial considerations are merely an afterthought.
The News said Mama June whom Deadpool mentioned, supposedly smokes $2,500 US of crystal meth a day. That's $3,000 Canadian. What is crystal meth? How could she still be forming complete sentences after that? That's probably exxagerated because if anyone did $2,500 of any drug a day, they'd be dead. That drug has a reputation that precedes it and it's all bad. Why would the News tell such a sordid story?
James Bond is a good movie collection to get. My favourite is For Your Eyes Only because the soundtrack is on another level. Just listening to every second of it is blissful. This James Bond movie was made in heaven with blue skies and white clouds reminiscent of the 1930s. In FYEO, Charles Dance gets killed with a crossbow. In Game of Thrones Tywin Lannister is killed with a crossbow.
Moonraker was OK. They changed the pretty blonde lady's teeth. Originally she had metallic teeth just like Jaws. In this movie he turned down a drink. In On Her Majesty's Secret Service, he accepted a drink. First rule of spy craft, don't accept drinks that could be laced with some kind of deadly chemical. However in this movie he accepted a drink from his future father in law. Kind of. That turned out to be a train wreck. Usually it's shaken not stirred although once he said, Do I look like I give a damn?
Disturbingly, 007 uses a Walther PPK polizeipistole kriminal. That's the same gun that World War 2 guy used!
Octopussy was good. The lady said, "This is my octopussy." And which 007 could said said, "Is that what they're calling it these days? It's not where I thought it would be. I thought it might be down lower between your legs. Somewhere down in the lower 48, say Florida?"
The first James Bond movie was Dr No. Not bad but the Bond films get noticeably sharper with each successive one. Accelerated pacing and improved production values. The way to watch the 60s Bond films is for me to imagine myself living in the Strathcona neighborhood during the 60s. I'd go to the Odeon or the Vogue theatre, maybe the Stanley theatre. No Capitol 6 Theatre as that opened in the 70s. I'd watch a Sean Connery James Bond movie at the theatre and then return home to that funky snapseed photo era infrastructure with the old cars and the old Victorian style and era houses.
Sean Connery in 1973s Diamonds Are Forever, looked a lot older than he did in 1962s Dr No. He had greying hair and also the sideburns. He would have looked younger without the sideburns.
Ernst Stavro Blofeld ie Dr Evil was portrayed by three different actors!
Die Another Day is good. In the movie, Pierce Brosnan said to him as they were crossing a friendship bridge for a routine prisoner exchange, "Your time will come." To which Rick Yune replied, "Not as soon as yours." On another level it was, You're going to be really famous and legendary one day, and the reply being, Not as soon as you are now. Mutual admiration. It's all good.
I want to see Tomorrow Never Dies. I once had a DVD of it. I remember really liking the story. Unfortunately it was a defective DVD and it slipped and then stopped abruptly mid stream. I have to see it again!
The first James Bond movie I ever watched was The Spy Who Loved Me. Cheryl took me to see that.
Goldfinger rewritten:
Girl: You're breaking my back!
Bond: That's not all I'm going to break.
Girl: You're about ten years too late for that!
Note: - And that's assuming she's 30.
Japanese Man: In Japan, the man always comes first.
Bond: "You must have skipped out of biology class that day and were you sure missing out. A woman can come ten times before a man comes even once. So much for the man coming first." But say that with a Sean Connery Scottish accent.
Live and Let Die: Police car chases double decker bus. Bus loses roof and top level going under a bridge while the Police car gets that one level of the bus added on top of the Police car. That's a metaphor for life. When a Police car chases someone and then arrests them, during that time, that person is down one level while the Police Officer is up one level.
Plane's wings fall off during a chase in a hangar. So much for the Bernoulli Principle. There's no Bernoulli Principle after a move like that! There's no Bernoulli Principle with a global coronavirus pandemic either as international travel has been knocked out. Why go through a chase through a hangar when a global pandemic would do the same thing? End result: Flight grounded.
The Man With The Golden Gun - rewritten:
007: Per ahora e per il momento que verra, for this moment and for the moments to come.
Goodnight: I didn't understand that, I don't speak French.
007: Flat on his coup de grace.
Goodnight: I didn't understand that. I don't speak Spanish.
007: "I know when a woman is afraid and pretending not to be."
Severine: "What do you know about fear?"
007: "All there is."
Skyfall
"The winner doesn't feel the win as much as the loser feels the loss." Ian Fleming
She also took me to see Star Wars in 1977. Cheryl was the group leader of a summer program for children called Summer Fun. Then government paid for and subsidized the admission to all movies Sen this year. I also saw some not so famous movies with Summer Fun like Breaker Breaker and Breaking Away. The 70s was a strange time.
Breaking Away. For weeks before I saw the movie I was reading a comic book about the Bible. I read all of it. One chapter talked about the 10 Commandments, Do not use the Lord's name in vain. In Breaking Away, the hero walked into the kitchen and said, Pass the goddamned french fries! He said that word a few times in that movie. It was the first time I heard someone in a movie swearing. I was shocked!
Then I start swearing all the time and have ever since. In psychology, there is the Bobo experiment. A large doll shaped like a rolling pin. In two rooms two groups of children were placed each with some adults and a Bobo doll. One set of adults acted angrily towards the doll. The other set of adults acted calmly towards the doll. This affected the children respectively as the ones with the violent adults tended to act more violently in general from then on. In other words, with Hollywood, it's monkey see, monkey do.
I saw Spectre with my girlfriend. I hope to see her soon as she is still in rehab in the hospital. What a beautiful lady. She's my sweetness. I called her that lots even on twitter years ago. I found out recently that swietna means great in Polish. I was inadvertently speaking a Polish word whenever I called her my sweetness. That's how I choose to think of it anyways. It's the sheer overwhelming I can't believe it kind of love that I've experienced from one perhaps two Polish women who I see regularly that inspired me to learn the language. I'm going for the $40 Polish lessons on Google Play. Either that or get the $40 rare Blu ray copy of Never Say Never Again. The opportunity cost is there! Care is there! I only see the other Polish lady once every few months but the love is there.
As of July 1st, I still don't have Goldeneye, The Man with the Golden Gun, and Never Say Never Again which has one of the most beautiful songs in all of the James Bond movies.
Goldeneye was the name of the estate in Jamaica Ian Fleming was staying at where he wrote his final novel The Man with the Golden Gun. Ian Fleming died on August 12, 1964 during the filming of Goldfinger.
007 cologne is $57. Pricey. Reviews say it smells like you think James Bond would smell, which is a combination of martini splashes, gunpowder residue and cocaine sweats all collected up and gathered into a 28 ounce flask like Snape's tears in a vial. Some reviewers say that the Ocean Royale version smells better. What's the difference? Whereas in the regular version, the olfactory properties of the cocaine quality was merely hinted at, in the other version the essence of cocaine is more definitely distinct, more pronounced, more extrapolated, more overpowering, just like in the tropics. Would I get it? Perhaps. Would it help me score with women? Probably not, as usual. I saw a t-shirt at WalMart with a popsicle on it saying Licks me. Looks obscene. What if wore that t-shirt and didn't meet any women that would pick me. Wouldn't it be a waste of time? It would give people the wrong idea in any event. I got Giorgio Beverly Hills cologne. I only wear it when I'm at home. There's no accounting for taste. Some women really like cologne. Some don't really like it that much. Should I go for Ocean Royale or regular? Maybe I can try it. Polo Red looks good to me too. More designer worries.
Monday, June 29, 2020 is a red letter day. Today I got 007 cologne! And shower gel for $20. I thought it'd be $57. Well, anyways I got a 007 deal!
I look forward to wearing it around the house.
I've tried it. It's a good cologne. It is distinct, bold and refreshing with strong hints of chocolate, sandalwood, mangos and oranges. Alas, no smell of cocaine sweats which actually smells a lot like patchouli. Nonetheless, highly recommended. 5 star rating.
I might as well mention this. It is Canada Day. There's a David Beckham cologne. It smells like what you'd think a FIFA soccer star smells like, Gatorade splashes, earthy astroturf, and again, cocaine sweats.
That could be my plan B. Who knows what the future could bring? I'd actually rather wind up with one of the Polish ladies which would mean leaving my girlfriend. However if that doesn't work out and I'm presuming it won't because I never want to place expectations on anyone or to be in a position of need with anyone unless I sense that it's 'a sure thing'. Why would I need to move to Poland? Aren't there other ladies I could meet in this town? I mean they don't have to be Polish! I might just wind up staying with my girlfriend. She makes me happy enough. It's just that the Polish ladies have some qualities that my girlfriend doesn't have. That's life!
I don't really know if I'm experiencing the best of Poland if one friend I'm only seeing for five minutes a week and the other one I'm only seeing twice a year for half an hour. I'm thinking of giving up. I could see myself ten years later still in the friendzone and only seeing her five minutes a week. As wonderfully tempting as that sounds I am deciding to trade a mediocre fantasy for a much better one. I'm thinking of moving to Poland. Having no family or else an unenviable family situation sure affects the dynamic. This town has sure done a number on me. I haven't gotten laid in years. The worst luck of any town ever. I was luckier in Dawson Creek. But the thing is, the people living all around me in my apartment, I don't see any of them having gotten laid either. Not even the women. In Thailand I was getting laid often and the people living all around me got laid often. I wish my parents never brought me to Canada. Had I been raised in Hong Kong, I would've gotten married already. In Canada it turned out that I'm 50 and not married. Poland probably has a more lively culture than the prosaic moribund culture of this fly-blown hole-in-corner colonial outpost officious backwater fishbowl existence culture I got here. North America is over rated, Poland is under rated. Unlike America, Poland doesn't labour under the illusion that it would, could, and should be the best country in the World. I'm going to give up on my friends from Poland in this town and actually go to Poland. It would be an escape to a place farthest from any familiarity I've ever known. I thought of Germany too. It's more technically developed, advanced, state of the art and has fururistic prototypes. Germany has a reputation for being more multicultural than Poland. German words are very poetic: Schneeflocke: snowflake, Weihnachtsmann: Santa Claus. Glocken: bell. Tannenbaum: Christmas tree.
Leave me alone: Lass mich zufrieden.
Thai - yah woon wie gup pom, yah ma yoong gup pom: Leave me alone.
It's the time signature, only 2 minutes a week, that makes me give up.
I thought of marrying this lady. That's insane. Not just with her but with any lady I got to spend a few hours a week with her before I'd consider asking me to even be my girlfriend let alone marriage. The whole thing was patently insane. Even in Poland they'd think of that as insane.
2 minutes a week is not a friendship. It's a facade.
Trying to get married with someone you only see for two minutes a week is like trying to make a black forest cake out of a creme brulee. I really don't have a lot to work with!
Two minutes. What is this, more Encyclopedia Brown's Two Minutes Mysteries, again? I don't need any more two minute mysteries!
Anyone can maintain a sweet sugary facade of you only see them two minutes a week. Try seeing them for a few hours a week. See if you still think of them as sweet then.
If I'm seeing a lady, any lady, for just two minutes a week and I'm thinking of marrying her, well, that's certainly milking it!
Seeing a lady for only two minutes a week and then thinking I'm in love with her is bad enough. But during a global pandemic too?! Really?! That makes her what Stephen King in The Running Man refered to as a hostage to fortune. If I don't live through the pandemic then I won't see her and won't that be a tremendous fright? Rather than thinking, As sweet as she is, I'm only seeing her for two minutes a week, sometimes twice a week, two minutes each visit so it'd be insane to think of that as even a future girlfriend let alone wife, despite the Mr Darcy Staring video which feeds the delusion. So if I were to die of coronavirus, I'd be losing nothing, so there's that much more reason to remain calm. Like British Columbia's Dr Bonnie Henry says, Be kind, Be calm, Be safe.
Russian President Vladimir Putin set up a provision where he is going to be Head of State until 2036. And he's already been in office for 30 years. The President before him was Boris Yeltsin. Putin is basically the de facto Emperor of Russia. Head of State for 46 years? That's not a gubernatorial time signature, that's an imperial time signature! Well he certainly knows what he's doing.
I often dance as I walk to alleviate boredom. Today I danced in front of a Church as I was walking past it and some tall guy with a beard yelled at me "Don't dance there! People pray in there!" I didn't hear him the first time and made him repeat it. I thought he was going to fight me. That would have been interesting! I'm asked others including a security guard. It's all right, that's not illegal. That was a crazy guy, they said.
I think that Psalms 149:7 says, Rejoice to the Lord with dancing.
This town is mostly all right but sometimes it's bee-yetches!!! Just awful!!!!!!!!
It's all my fault. It's a cognitive delusion. When one selectively designates a narrow band of experience as the epitome of success, anything outside of that narrow band of experience is not success. What a silly way to live. I had to have gotten married in my 20s or else be like John Holmes and have gotten it on with thousands of women although mathematically it had to be closer to a few hundred. Anything besides that is not success. Getting it on could lead to a chain of events where a pregnant woman dies in childbirth. Say that happened to a guy more than once. Even once. That's worse than not having gotten laid if it would lead to that. Often getting laid isn't what it's all cracked up to be. Then with each woman, there are the long term plans. There can only be one of two. Which is it? Leave her eventually and give her the old heave ho, so to speak, or marry her. Either choice is overwhelming and difficult.
If I meet a lady and I'm not sure about her and I see her all the time without looking for her, then I automatically think that she's stalking me. If I don't have a girlfriend, that means the door's open for me to leave. "Why don't you just leave? Life's full of escapes." The Rum Diary
I thought of ghosting her but since I'm only seeing her for five minutes a week, I think it's already half like that. We're half ghosting each other.
The best of Poland. Yeah, right. Delusional.
I'm still going for the five thousand phrases for $40. As for the five minutes a week. Quitting is what I do best.
All places want to co-opt you and pull you down to something lower than their level. But you on some place on their shelf. They want to collect you! They think you're special. The thing is to allow yourself to be coopted to a twin where the feeling is mutual. They think you're special, you think they're special. I don't think this town is special. It's just another variable in an equation of regression. Just a regression to some erstwhile bullshit. There's nothing like the feeling of living overseas and speaking a different language. In one year you'll speak good. In ten years you'll speak at University level. The English language has plateaued for me. When you get to know a language where the idioms and double entendres get to you and you hate them as familiarity often breeds contempt, an escape is to learn another language. Learning another language gives you access to another possibly better culture in a way that no other way can. Life in Canada just isn't working for me. I give up on Canada.
I'm very talented and good at languages. I'm wasted in a backwater town like this. I have to move from here. Thai - move: blien ban.
Baader Meinhof is insidious. For eg, I like a woman and then all videos remind me of her even videos whose premises are diametrically opposed. On the one hand it's Mr Darcy Stares At His Future Wife For 6 Minutes Straight. On the other hand it's the Susan Winter or else it's the SelfLoveU videos that say the object of your affection is a narcissist playing games with you and always pushing you away. Which is it? It's one or the other. It can't be both.
