August 2025

Friday, August 1, 2025

Today, cleaned at Blanchard Street, then the Courtyard at the Courthouse, then stairs then driveway. 

August meta horizon plus apps

- Starship Troopers, I've always thought that an embedded anagram and with letters in sequential order can be derived and that embedded anagram is ars hoopers.

This app is the premium chanpagne version of Crash lands VR. This has a licensed Hollywood franchise attached to it. I never saw the movie. What's to see? A lot of insectoid arachnids on a hostile desert planet. I tried the app but you have to be fast with the reload and the grenades otherwise you'll get struck down. Again and again.

- Workshop. Be at a office. Make coffee. Prep paperwork. Or flip ground beef patties. What's the difference? One is blue collar and one is white collar. I never tried it. I was sitting down and it asked me to get up and walk two paces to the starting area and stand up for VR calibration alignment. Too lazy. I couldn't be bothered. And this is someone who volunteers sweeping the street for hours on most days of the week. Selective lazyness.

- Eleven Table Tennis. I don't want to play any VR games involving rackets. The only distant favorite is the free VR app that is strangely premium champagne grade because free apps are usually low in quality. Tennis VR is a favorite because it reminds me of the tennis courts of Beverly Hills. With this app, I can have the Beverly Hills experience in my own apartment.

With any VR table tennis app, you could have the Forrest Gump experience in your very own home. 

With any VR pickleball app, you could have the middle class suburban townhouse experience. 

- Ghosts of Tabor. Ghosts of who gives a f***.  Tabor. That reminds me of Shakespeare, Twelfth Night. "Lives he by the Tabor?"

Anyways, tried it. The handgun bullets looked and sounded like it was a pea shooter. No accuracy or reliability in aiming at all. Gun Club VR is profoundly intuitive. Ghosts of Tabor. Not so much. 

- The Room VR. Dark Matter.

The Room VR app is from a Polish VR app developer. The Room is a movie from Tommy Wiseau who is Polish. Room in Polish is pokoj.

Anyways, the app throws the player in the deep fryer as one is all of a sudden at a Police station as a Constable in 1800s London. The Police station is devoid of Police Officers. Even in the 1800s, they were more together than that. The paucity of personnel. Let's face it, meta Quest 3 is basically the first generation of instruments in an entertainment media that is still in its early pioneer days.

On a desktop is a key. The key opens a safe but as soon as the key is withdrawn from the supposedly open safe, vines grow out of the keyhole. The evidence locker produces a matchbox, a dagger and a gold pocket watch. Neither of those things as it turns out can open the safe. Am I missing something? Well obviously. But what? 

The app addresses the player as Constable when let's face it, no Police department would have anything to do with the likes of us as prospective Constables.

Remember that while a Police Officer presumably has some level of security clearance, the average conspiracy theorist has level zero security clearance. That is none at all. 

That's when I couldn't proceed any further. I've heard of arrested development but this is ridiculous. At the Police station? It wouldn't be the first time.

I'll have to watch a walkthrough video on YouTube which is the cheater method. The Room is from the same developer as Ghost Town VR.

I saw a walkthrough video. I'll try it again. This promises to open up mind blowing worlds. The Police station looked very detailed. And Victorian London nostalgic. 

"Ghost of Christmas future, I fear you more than any other spirit I've seen." A Christmas Carol 

Half Life Alyx costs $80. Any high definition high data game connected to a VR gaming computer because of increased data costs way more than the average meta Horizons app. 

Get a VR gaming computer, $1,500. Sign on to steam, open an account. Then pay $80 plus tax, about $90 for Half Life Alyx. 

Forget it. 

Meta horizon is good enough. 

"Come senators, congressmen Please heed the call, Don't stand in the doorway, Don't block up the hall..... For the times they are a changing." Bob Dylan 

News. US lawmakers and Congressmen complain about smoke from Canada's forest fires. Well, did Canada complain to the US about Mount Saint Helen? 

Trump imposes a 35% tariff on Canadian goods. Trump is a 35% tariff in human form. 

YouTube comment:  "Donald Trump Jr is cocaine in human form."

Life has its signs and serendipities. Dawn of Jets. I had VR for a year but it was during Trump's Administration that I got Dawn of Jets. Dawn of sounds like Donald. And J for Jets is the first letter of Trump's middle name. 

This VR app is unlike any other. It is on a cosmic celestial level approximating that of Sturmovik IL-2. 

The 50s era style jets seem so visceral and realistic that there are immediate Dr Strangelove vibes. 50s era military airplanes. 

Under the administration of every President and Prime Minister ever, I have had some good times, new electronic luxuries. 

Victoria and Vancouver are towns that are very strong in their traditions of Shakespeare. Bard on the Beach, better than barred off the beach in Vancouver and the MacPherson Playhouse and the Royal Theatre in Victoria has Shakespeare productions. 

Very expensive. Couldn't afford to go. 

The two Shakespeare plays I want to see the most are 

- The Tempest. Shakespeare's last and most philosophical play. Explores the themes of our place in the Universe. All the World's a stage and all the people are merely players. 

See, Shakespeare loves idioms and puns etc. Stage. Stage as in theatre performance platform or a stage of life. Caterpillar is a stage, butterfly is a stage. Life in this dimension with its Shakespearean set of physics is a stage. The afterlife with quite a different set of physics and time dynamic is another stage. 

A couple is shipwrecked on an island where on the island lives Prospero the wizard from Midgard or the Earth world. Ariel the magic nymph from Astrogard, and Caliban from Helheim or else Swartelheim, the land of the swarthy. 

The idea of the play always interested me. 

- A Midsummer Night's Dream. Shakespeare's most psychedelic play. Recommended after smoking some hash. Most visually spectacular. 

England has a midsummer night festival at Glastonbury and at Stonehenge. Lots of young people dressed up in costume and getting drunk. 

I'm not really sure of the complete plotline of these plays. I've read quite a few condensed versions of Shakespeare's plays. 

I once found a thick book which I left behind on a outdoor picnic table then someone scooped it. It was a very old book of Shakespeare's plays but rewritten in modern English. First of all, I thought, "As if I'm going to read all of this." I don't do a lot of reading anymore. Just piloting airplanes in VR is what I mainly do these days. And then Shakespeare's plays are most magical in their original. I can tolerate the King James Bible being translated into modern form but not Shakespeare. Shakespeare's magic lies in the original wording in the original 16th Century English which is priceless and inimitable. 

Shakespeare rewritten in modern English seems like a watered down version of Shakespeare with not nearly the magic. 

I don't regret leaving the book behind. 

The idea is to see the plays at the Globe Theatre in London. Know the plays well, understand the plotline well first, otherwise you won't get what's happening. 

Saturday, August 2, 2025 

The Titanic VR app now has the sinking segment which it didn't have before. It looks better in actual VR rather than in a VR 360 video. The cost, $25.75 total. 

This app doesn't really have replayability, certainly not on the level of World War Airplanes VR. 

I haven't gotten the app. 

Harmony Mediation VR, $10 is a mixed reality meditation app. 5 settings, golden illuminated floating paper lamps, snowflakes, aurora borealis, rose petals and then whatever. In mixed reality. This app seems interesting. A person can look at anything and meditate. There was never a specific requirement to look at anything specific. Some schools of meditation sit facing a wall. The wall is a blank neutral screen free of visual distraction. 

I meditate while looking at television, watching movies. 

Meditation is sitting still and not moving. There are different postures and time lengths. A person must pick one that best suits them. Optimally, one should meditate at least once a day. Meditation is the sitting down for of guards, military, standing at attention for a long time and not moving at all while doing it. That takes self discipline and certainly not everyone in the world can stand or sit still for even five minutes without moving or fidgeting. 

If I was rich, followed to its ultimate, sure, I'd get a VR PC and Sturmovik, Half Life Alyx etc. If I was rich, I'd get Titanic, both VR apps, and Harmony. 

The other Titanic is a very richly illustrated with warm vibrant colors and it depicts escaping from the bowels of the Titanic and to try to see if you could get on board a lifeboat despite that a man who was fit had a significantly decreased chance of getting on board a lifeboat. 

The temperature would have been awful. Hypothermia. No way to maintain body temperature. Death all round. In real life, this app would be unsurvivable. 

A person can watch an entire walkthrough video of this app in 2D video on YouTube completely with the motion sickness inducing constant quick panning of the camera. That's my favorite. 

I really like the Television Series Hope Street. 

It reminds me of the town I live in. 

There is no Port Devine. That's a fictional town. The television series is filmed in a town called Donaghadee, Northern Ireland. 

That town looks to be in between the size of Victoria BC and Sidney BC. Not as large as Victoria, Not as small as Sidney. 

The lighthouse area looks like Ogden Point. 

It's like any other soap opera. You get to know the characters and their ongoing interweaving stories. 

They speak with an Irish accent, an Irish brogue, however its a very comforting sounding accent and to me it doesn't sound that much different than the local accent. 

When I was on the boat from Vancouver Island to Vancouver City, I saw a lighthouse on a small island. That's probably the best lighthouse in the World. It looks really iconic. Archetypal. Whoever works there has a lonely job since lighthouses are warnings for boats to keep away or else run aground. 

I wonder what island and lighthouse it is. It's part of an archipelago of islands that typically surround a large island such as Vancouver Island. 

Yesterday's Hope Street episode released on YouTube is Love and Lies Under the Raggedy Tree. 

The Raggedy tree is a mourning tree where people hang stripes of cloth, similar to a spirit tree in Thailand and all throughout Southeast Asia. 

"Hands off our tree!" 

I thought, the tree is involved too! The game is afoot, Watson. 

Then, on yesterday's News. A tree just fell over in Cameron Lake killing a mother and her five month old child. 

Satanic. No other word to describe it. 

Experts said that there was nothing that could have been done to prevent it. 

I doubt that the fallen tree, the fell tree, will be brought before the Courts, denied bail, remanded in custody and then sent away. 

Then, after going through some arboreal judicial due process,* the tree could get sent to prison with its sentence being commuted to the wood being converted to furniture made in the prison shop area to then be sold at local furniture stores or else used in the prison. 

However since that tree killed not one but two people, any furniture made from that tree could be bad mojo. 

*If that's not bizarre enough, in history, people have been exhumed, placed in some kangaroo Courtroom, and put on trial posthumously. What's the difference? 

I'll probably wind up getting the Titanic app and the meditation one as well. I don't know when. I'd like to see a walkthrough video of the other Titanic VR app which would be to basically relive the Jack and Rose Titanic movie escape but without drinking PCP laced clam chowder beforehand to do it. I've seen enough of the walkthrough to get an idea. 

I'll get these before Christmas which gives me time to space out the budget. 

Titanic Submarine VR - see the wrecked ship in the dark and under two miles of water. Or else see the exterior on the day of the sinking. Same developer as Apollo 11 so this will be good. 

Titanic A Space Beneath VR - see the ship in its original glory. Explore the immense hallways of the ship, but while its sinking and unlike the original Titanic passengers who were stressed enough, in the VR version, you'll have to try and solve escape room type puzzles while trying to escape. That detracts from the feel of historical realism that I was wanting. Just try to escape with no frills. 

The escape room is a disincentive to get this. 

The other Titanic VR app, Titanic submarine is pure historical representation with no extraneous ersatz impossiblist escape room elements. 

However, there is no VR app that let's you tour the entire ship when things were going well. When the Titanic was in the middle of the Atlantic and hadn't hit the iceberg yet. 

However makes that VR app will be a Millionaire because VR historians would like to see that. 

Titanic A Space Beneath looks really good. You get to go on a normal boat which headquarters and on the Titanic too. The premise is that it's the year 2145 and you have time travelled back to the Titanic to rescue two people. The graphics looks really good. Tempting. But the base price is $25.51 plus tax. No problem if you live in Shaughnessy Heights but if you are on a budget. 

This cuts into going to Sidney BC to see the F-86 money and getting a new pair of runners to replace money which register as opportunity costs. 

Priorities, priorities. 

And you wonder why I fear the future. 

Titanic is very slow moving and cerebral and is somewhat replayable. World War airplanes is fast moving, visceral, almost mindless fun. Intensely replayable. I don't mind post pining getting the Titanic apps. 

I'll only wind up drifting back to World War airplanes after some time anyways. 

If you like the Maritime museum and the smell of wooden barrels of oil from the docks, then you have to get all two Titanic apps. It's an intensely Maritime museum experience. 

Being on a budget, I won't get Harmony. I've already seen quite a few things in mixed reality. What's a few more? Would I use it to meditate? Probably not. I put on movies on television to meditate. The intellectual pacing of the plot makes a half hour meditation seem like only a few minutes. Floating lamps, falling flower petals. Whatever. 

The Titanic A Space Between has visuals but in this app, it's kind of like the actual Titanic and then on the other hand it isn't. And the pacing and set up. Titanic A Space Between seems like a trip to the local escape room place where its all work work work. And often within a time limit and the Titanic sinking was certainly something that jnvolved a time limit! 

The walkthrough video was four hours and that's for someone who was dialed in and half ass knew what they were doing. If a person doesn't know what they're doing, playing this could take days to figure out. Yeah, like I'm going to play the entire thing. Just like yeah, I was going to read that Shakespeare book. 

Otherwise, one sees spectres in the hallway, one is using electronic devices from the future which are anachronistic and throws off the integrity of historical pacing that the app is presumably trying to replicate. 

This app has pretty much nothing but fictional characters with a few real actual historical characters like, they probably wouldn't have mentioned Captain Edward Smith, or what? 

Whereas the other Titanic submarine VR app is a more scientific based trip to the museum, then a quick trip to the science lab to wash off any found artifacts and examine them and there is often a story behind that artifact. Anyone who has ever wanted to go to a Titanic museum and see artifacts would like the app. This Titanic app has pretty much nothing but real actual historic characters with a few fictional characters. 

Another personal proviso is ill get it on Sunday which is tomorrow because the Titanic sunk on a Sunday. Sunday, Sunkday, to the Titanic what's the difference? 

It will be a nice after Church treat. Due to my financial situation, I am unable to donate to the collection plate tomorrow. 

However today, I swept and cleaned the grounds of three Churches. The first Church was the Catholic Church. There was quite a bit of debris and then two heavy wooden pallets strewn with at least a dozen large pieces of flattened cardboard boxes. I removed all of that. Who knows how long that was there. And swept clean, museum clean, the walls and removed all weeds going for a 100% kill rate. That Catholic Church looks cleaner. And as I was leaving, I noticed a couple dressed in wedding clothing looking right at me. They squinted at me meaningfully, as in a look of gratitude. Today is their wedding day and no one expected me to clean and they seemed glad that I was there to clean. Glad that I removed the pallets etc. This makes the day extra special for them. Not a lot of people would have cleaned to that level. 

Then I cleaned the grounds of the Jewish temple. There were a few parishioners about and they noticed me cleaning and smiled. I'm glad to do it. 

The I went to clean the weeds off of the grounds of a Chinese Presbyterian Church. I went for a 100% kill rate on weeds but only within a certain area. That area looks freakishly clean. I'm sure that the people who go there will be happy to see that. And I'm one of the parishioners that go there. So instead of being able to make the usual nominal donation, I worked and cleaned, the amount of work would be worth a few dollars if they had to pay someone to do that. 

And so I will get a blessing. Probably a few. A Catholic blessing, a Jewish blessing and a Chinese blessing. Blessings are in the form of prayers and prayers can be powerful. 

Jesus said to do good works in private, but today, the work I did, I don't know how many people seen me sweeping and cleaning the streets. Quite a few probably. So it wasn't done in private, which is why I can write about this. 

Larger cities are generally cleaner. They have the manpower. 

I don't know what form the blessing will take. Is it true what God s around comes around? Is good karma real or is it that someone does something good and no good deed goes unpunished. What a rotten dimension, then. 

I don't know what form of good karma I'll get but perhaps it's best not to underestimate the power of good karma. A few blessings. 

Dean Cain said that the new Superman movie is woke. So I don't know if I want to see it. Despite the fact that Nicholas Hoult is in the movie. That guy is a genius. The Midas Touch. Every movie he is in turns to gold. Like Johnny Depp, Nicholas Hoult is a Man of A Thousand Faces. Very mercurial. Every movie he is in, he is a totally different character inside and out. Total chameleon. 

I'll get the Titanic app tomorrow. 

Imagine being on the lifeboat. Thoughts of panic. What if it's days before we're rescued? What if it's never? 

"We shall die out here." Jar Jar Binks

The next morning the ship The Carpathia rescued the Titanic's survivors. 

A jet plane works like this. 

A propeller draws air in which would be normally enough to provide an updraft for the wings and the plane to achieve lift off. The air goes into a spiralling device called a condenser that is connected to a conical device at the other end of the jet tube. 

This compresses the air to more psi and then it goes through the ignition combustion chamber where atomizer or else sprayed droplets using spark plugs and spraying at few thousand times per minute the compressed air is ignited using jet fuel which escapes through the exhaust portion and the force of the thrust from the combustion chamber causes the conical wheel to spin which spins the condenser unit thus repeating a vicious cycle. 

A jet plane sounds very loud. 

An jet plane has two no go areas. A radius of about 25 feet in front of the jet tube and 200 feet behind the plane. 

In the early days of hand spinning propellers to start an airplane, there was some risk of death if it wasn't done properly or if the person wasn't standing in the right place. 

The smaller the plane the more likely it is to employ a stick due to the narrower center of gravity. The larger the plane, the more likely it is to use a yoke. 

The Hawaii Mars water bomber uses a yoke. 

That plane has been retired as other more modern planes are being used. 

Its best to pick a hobby that isn't dangerous being a pilot involves some level of danger. 

However being a model airplane builder does not. It's best to build a medium sized, not too large or small model of a WW1 or WW2 or cold war era  models. The Goldilocks size of airplane model, not too large or small. 

I wish I had enough money to build airplane models. 

Any World War 1 airplane, German side, I would paint red. The ones I'd opt for are 

- Fokker Dr 1

- Fokker D7

- Albatross C3

These would be painted red. 

If I had a Sopwith Camel model airplane, I would paint it desert camouflage, tan and a darker tan mixed with green. 

An F-86 Sabre I would paint it silver and have it look as much like the airplane in Sidney BC as possible. I would decorate it with Canadian rather than American decorations. 

World War 2. A few come to mind 

- Mark 5 Spitfire

- P-51 Mustang

- Curtiss P-40 Warhawk

- Avro Lancaster bomber 

- F4U Corvair

- B-29 Flying Superfortress

- Focke Wulf FW-190

- Messerschmitt Me 262 *jet

- Gloucester P-80 Meteor aka shooting star *jet

- Nakajima Ki-84

- Mitsubishi F9M Zero 

Cold War era

- F-86 Sabre 

Japanese World War 2 military planes looked just as much like fishing boats as they did an airplane. Throttle and flaps controls look like a huge reel on a fishing rod or something found on a fishing boat. It's very comforting and nostalgic looking. 

My other dream is to get and build a large winter Christmas time model railroad with over the top spectacular buildings, Christmas trees and whatever other decorations. I hope one is released in VR and in mixed reality although that would limit size. 

Best is to have a large VR room to build the Christmas model train set.

- Christmas model train set

- The Orient Express 

- Western style, mid to late 1800s 

- 1930s circus train with 1930s style buildings, lampposts, and the big top. 1930s style. 

To offset my expenses and to defray my budget, I'll delay until tomorrow to get the Titanic VR app. Only the non fictional submarine one rather than the completely fictional other one. That's about all I can afford. 

What's the difference if I get it today or tomorrow since I have about three weeks to pay for it. $25. 

Think about it. 

The submarine exploration is intensely detailed with narration. It's a vast exploration space. Plus experience the sinking in actual rendered VR which looks shockingly better than the VR 360 video on YouTube. 

Sunday, August 3, 2025 

I got and tried The Titanic app. Intense. It's very well done. Don't bother playing the game. Just go for the experiences and the tours. One prime experience that everyone has been waiting for is the sinking experience. It was better than VR 360 video in terms of rendering. The story and scenes were mostly the same so there was no surprise. But it was the best Titanic experience anyone can ever have in VR. 

There is a short tour which is just incredible enough. I haven't tried the long tour. 

The submarine is from The University of Nova Scotia and there is a Canadian Flag on the wall onboard the mini sub. 

The realism was there. I did really feel like I was on the wreck of the Titanic. A very clinical and claustrophobic feeling. All ships in general have a standard regimented look that is almost clinical. 

I went to the Chinese Church today. Good people there. A very small but regularly attending crowd. The usual Pastor has a case of shingles but he'll be back. I asked the other Pastor, he said that shingles doesn't last for life, it goes away and people don't die from shingles which is something I was worried about otherwise lacking any kind of medical degree. What do I know? I guess and I google and then think that I'm going to die. 

"You're not dying, Cameron! Cameron always thinks he's dying." Ferris Buellers Day Off

Titanic A Space Between. Sigh. A review said that one is involuntarily switched between two and three different characters often in mid flow when its very inconvenient and anger causing. 

The full exploration mode is only available after the game is completed. 

Otherwise its, use a Half Life Alyx type multi purpose tool, look for stuff you've already looked for before umpteen times, a key, a letter, some pieces of coal to keep the ship engine going, to open another door where you then have to look for another key or a letter to open another door to collect more whatever. Great. More escape room BS. And all with the multiple stressor inducing timeline because of water flooding in and also there are all kinds of ghosts and spectres and the most hideous human entities imaginable all of which I'm sure the original passengers of the ship historically had to go through. 

One scene. Figure out how to turn a crane to create a bridge to cross from one place to another while trying to find more lumps of coal on the deck of the Titanic. 

Very obfuscating which means confusing. And on a Titanic level. 

I wonder how historically accurate the graphics depicting the interior of the ship are. What. 50%? 70%? 87%?  

I'm hoping for 100%. Like, if it's 100%, or at least 80%, I'll get it. However until I find out. 

The price tag is pricey. $28. 

So it will have to wait until another day or else never. 

Titanic Submarine VR is very similar to Apollo 11 VR. There is a play the game segment on each of these apps. The Apollo 11 involves you using controls to try to land the lunar lander on the moon. Uh, forget it. But the historical tour segment is ten stars out of five. Titanic Submarine. The play the game segment. Look for this, look for this, do this, do that, examine or place on a certain spot on the Titanic. Just forget it. Too convoluted. There are 2 Experiences and Two Historical Tours. The short tour, what little of seen of it so far just blew my mind. Really really good. 

Titanic Submarine VR is based on how the ship was when it was first found in 1985 based on 200 photographs. To render the ship as it is today without furniture if its even there as entire rooms have collapsed, wouldn't be as interesting, the developer writes. In 20 years, the Titanic will have completely collapsed. 

One day, I'll do the full tour which gets into a lot of strange details. Sure. Why not? 

Immersive Education VR is the company and they made two apps, Apollo 11 released in 2019 and Titanic Submarine released in 2025. This developer is on a similar excellent level as Faber Courtial in terms of sheer quality of their history based VR apps. 

Faber Courtial did Rome, Genesis, Into Space part 1 & 2. All really good apps. 

Absolutely mind-blowing. 

One reviewer on YouTube did say that Half Life Alyx is the best thing he's ever seen in VR and nothing before or since has come close. 

In its own way, the apps of Immersive Education VR and Faber Courtial VR are as good as Half Life Alyx. 

One day, VR goggles that can generate Half Life Alyx standalone without a VR PC will be produced. Again, it would be a case of poor people enjoying now for $300 what rich people enjoyed ten years ago for $1,000. 

However, VR apps with that amount of data, how many GBs, those apps will cost about $100 each. 

The actual Titanic passengers had a way easier time of escaping the Titanic than you will trying to escape this VR escape room parody of the Titanic. And there's something wrong about that. 

There is the free exploration segment where one can try to escape the flooding Titanic with no ghosts, or spectres and none of that escape room whatever. 

Apparently you can start the free explore segment right away without doing the escape room chapters first. Tempting. 

The Explore segment is trash. The player attempts to escape the Titanic. Alone. No other people around. Not historically accurate at all. Settings for how fast the ship sinks as you explore is supposed to be there. Either it is or it isn't. Then escape up onto the deck and there are no lifeboats. The story ends. A fog shrouded night, the deck illuminated with the few lights left working on the Titanic. That's it. Anticlimactic. 

VR is in its pioneer days. It's reach exceeds its grasp. Escape the Titanic along with hallways full of people. To try to achieve that premise but with substandard engines and technology. 

Apps where the premise is where a person is understandably alone like explore an alien world as a line soldier. Sure. Escape the Titanic alone when the entire schtick was all about a ship full of people is what it is. Overly ambitious. A titanic cash grab. 

Bait and switch exploiting a new technology. 

Not exactly breaking the fourth wall. 

At least they made the effort when no one else would. They are the one who points the way. That's an archetype. John the Baptist was described as someone who pointed the way. 

Titanic A Space Between would only wind up giving me motion sickness. Basically, it's Tea For God VR but with a Titanic theme. I'm not really into roaming type VR. Even Starship Troopers is free roaming and isn't for me except I really like Arizona Sunshine, all 3 editions. And Arizona Sunshine is a free roaming type VR app. 

Titanic Submarine. I'm really glad I got it. For some reason, I really feel like I'm in some semi scary claustrophobic situation of exploring an old shipwreck, what, 2 miles under the sea? 

The Marianas Trench is five miles under the ocean. The Titanic is two miles under the ocean. I doubt any person ever visited the Marianas Trench but have any submarines with cameras been sent down there? Or not? 

Immersive Education is if nothing else, all about extremes. They did an Apollo 11 app representing the highest height that mankind ever attained. What, walking on the moon? 

That's far out! 

The Immersive Education VR did a Titanic wreck app representing the lowest depth humans ever visited. If humans ever visited a depth lower than the Titanic wreck, it's not something that I'd know about. 

Monday, August 4, 2025 

Titanic A Space Beneath. A person starts at the bottom of the ship and makes their way ending up in first class then outside on the mist shrouded deck of the ship at night. 

This app has an area near the start which has rounded walls like the lateral half of a quonset hut interior. Did the Titanic really have an area like that? It looks kinda too modern. However that look is reminiscent of something from the movie Metropolis,  industrial looking architecture. 

I'm going to try to slowly learn German. The World of Warplanes VR app makes me want to learn the language to whatever extent as all languages are impossible rabbit holes. 

The thing is to commit the words to memory without looking however spelling is one of the finer points of any language. 

Hello, my name is, Pleased to meet you. 

Hallo, ich heise, Schon, sie kennenzulernen. 

The building is technologically advanced and futuristic 

Das gebaude ist technologisch fortschlittlisch und futuristic. 

How's that? These would be useful phrases at a University or touring the downtown area. 

Everyone has the ideal life in their mind, that is, if things turned out 100% right and then there's the bonkers delinquent reality that the physics of this dimension brings. 

The ideal life is one where housing is plentiful and inexpensive. One has to overcome commitment issues and second-guessing themselves and the future and once they do, they could get married thus adding to the ideal life. But even the best of lives have a shelf time, a time limit. Old age, then one shuffles off to the next quantum based stage of life in a more directly quantum physics set up than this dimension offers. 

Don't worry about missing out on anything in life. Even sex. A woman in her 20s is beautiful but being in my 50s, I am too old for her. 

The afterlife has something better than sex. It is the next thing. 

This next thing is to the experience of sex in this dimension what eating at a fine buffet with king crab legs and lobster claws is to drawing food in frkm an umbilical cord while being as sight less as a tadpole to say nothing of looking exactly like a tadpole in the very early stages of embryonic gestation. 

It is indescribable to humans and incomprehensible to human understanding as the time dynamic in the other dimension was indescribable until I spent literally decades trying to solve the puzzle. A mathematical puzzle like a Rubik's cube where all the pieces connect. 

Einstein said that everything is happening at the same time. Time travel is time experienced on a objective level and liners time is subjective. Etc. Etc. The ohsyjcs of this material dimension vs the physics of the afterlife spirit dimension. The one second download. 

Anyways, sometimes a person doesn't achieve their ideal life because they are in the wrong country. Either the country is mismanaged or that there are things about their life that are such an issue in one country but is completely irrelevant in another. 

On the YouTube video, Streets of Plenty, a leftist poverty pimp, typically towing the local line, said,  "You ask people down here what the most important thing is and the answer that always comes up is housing." 

I say that the most important thing is country. 

If a person isn't successful and thriving, it often isn't because of who they are but where they are. Things about them that are such an issue in one country, are irrelevant in another. And vice versa. 

In the right country, good housing is automatic, reasonably priced and above standard. In the wrong country, there is a housing crisis and what housing is available is over priced and below standards found else where like modern futuristic China. 

There is something you really like. In one country, it's rare if it's there at all, but in another country that personally prized commodity is almost ubiquitous. What a difference. A person who like skiing is living in the wrong country if they are living in a tropical country. A person who likes tropical palm trees and beaches is living in the wrong country if they are living up North. 

Having a certain personality trait is an advantage in one country and a disadvantage in another. In the West, being loud and brash and forceful is an advantage but in Asia, that is a disadvantage. In the West, being quiet, calm, is a disadvantage but in Asia that is an advantage. 

For some people it's better to be an expat. They shouldn't be coerced or nudged to be a regresspat. I wouldn't suggest to any expat that they should repatriate. They should be an expat for life. Keep going. If they want to stay, they should stay. If they want to return, they should return. If they want to stay, no one should suggest to them that they should return. 

Have no loyalty to any country except to the one that gives you the best deal. Expats say that more has happened to them in that country in one year than has happened in where they came from for quite a few years. Not all places are equal. Some places are a rockshow. Some places are backwaters. 

Some countries have a faster pace of life. Some countries have a slower pace of life. 

Some countries have inexpensive housing, well managed economies and better purchasing power than other countries. 

Some countries are overrated, while other countries are under rated. 

Some cities in some countries have built themselves up in the last couple of decades, cities in China. Some cities in other countries have let themselves go in the last couole of decades, cities in the West. 

In one country, you are one of the racial majority. In another country, you are a visible minority. 

Ask yourself. If you had a million dollars, would you still be in the country you are in now, let alone city? 70% of the World's population of those who don't otherwise have a million dollars, if they had a million dollars, they would move to another country. 

However, 70% of statistics are false statistics. 

#expatforlife

A Chinese person in China: stay in a country where you are one of the racial majority in a country that is futuristic with a better economy where the average citizen has more purchasing power or else move to the West and be a racialized visible minority in a country which is architecturally kinda whoop, backwater in comparison. 

Hmmm.... Tough call. 

I wouldn't advise any Chinese person in China to move to the West. 

A YouTube comment,  "I am an African living in Africa and I am happy here and do not want to move to the West." 

I don't know if I'd advise any Americans to move to Canada. 85% of Canadians live within one degree or 60 miles of the US border. The weather in Northern Canada, North of 50 is unenviable. The United States at its apex has more advanced medical technology. And this is while nurses are being encouraged to move from the US to Canada. Why would people in a country where they reached the apex of technological achievement in their profession move to a country which is less advanced in terms of their absolute pinnacle of technological realization and understanding? For nurses to move from the US to Canada would be like taking a step backwards. 

It would be like encouraging an American astronaut to move to Canada or an American Hollywood actor to move to Canada. Canada is a backwater compared to the States. 

Germany might be a country where things are better. A higher standard of living. Michael Moore, Sicko, basically Europeans have a higher standard of living that North Americans. 

I wouldn't mind moving to Europe. 

I don't know if I care about race. Otherwise I wouldn't want to move to Europe. 

Learning new languages gives the left brain a holiday. 

Signs are what tell you if you're in the right country or not. If you are successful and thriving you are in the right town. If your life is difficult, then you are in the wrong town. With the wrong people. Move to a better town and live with the right people. But does that exist? That's the ideal. The reality under the duress of the physics of this dimension is quite different. 

"There's no such thing as bad weather, only bad clothing." 

There's no such thing as bad physics of a dimension, just bad perception. 

TASB costs $25. I'll wait until the once or twice a month 30% discount offered on all apps. That's a $7.50 saving which is better than no saving at all. 

I doubt I'd ever be able to afford to move to Europe. This is what I can look forward to. A medium who gets messages from those who have gone one got this message, paraphrased, 

"As soon as I died, I discovered that I was in a very nice room. It was a room where in life I had not the wherewithal to rent let alone to purchase. A spirit guide in the room told me that this was to be my home. And that I was to rest. That I had an event and that there were people who want to meet me." 

In this life, I fear an existence of only rooming houses. That's why I wouldn't mind skipping the future altogether however I don't get that option. 

I've been interested in the Titanic since I was a teenager in the 80s when television documentaries talked about the Titanic. Then in 1994, A Night To Remember was on television and after watching that, it increased my interest in the Titanic. I even borrowed it on VHS videotape from the Library to watch that again. So the thing is, I have been interested in the Titanic longer than a lot of people have been alive. Why shouldn't I get A Space Between? It's not a purchase made lightly. It is based on years of thinking about the Titanic at least for a few seconds every day. Just like I think about Star Wars and Back to the Future every day. And Lord of the Rings is something the is thought about for at least a few seconds every day. 

I used to sketch pictures of the Titanic sinking, not difficult if approached geometrically, broken down into basic shapes. The sinking Titanic is of course, basically a rectangle and then go from there, adding whatever details. 

Ecumenical breakdown 

Star Wars - Methodist, George Lucas was raised Methodist. 

Titanic - Catholic, Irish 

Back to the Future - Jewish

Lord of the Rings - Catholic, JRR Tolkien was Catholic. 

$28 isn't a serious plunge. A small round pecan pie at a specialty shop is about $15 with tax. Some rice wrapped in leaves which is a Chinese treat and is available costs about $12 plus tax. I could have and in the past I did get those items, when I visited Sidney BC. 

Hon's is a brand name in Chinese food equivalent to Mercedes in cars. Hon's rice wrapped in leaves. Its not to bad. It can be steamed and microwaved and recommended soy sauce and or sugar be added. Also some mulled red vinegar which is optional. 

I fear my teeth being extracted. Despite lots of people including a team of dental technicians telling me otherwise, I still think that there is a good chance that I'll be dead after the dental extraction. And I have to pay a co pay of just under $500 so that is why you'll believe me when I say that after Titanic A Space Between which I am still pecuniarily mulling over for fudiciary reasons amounting to $28 Canadian, which is $20 American, I won't be getting any VR apps or movies for awhile. For quite awhile. 

Michael Moore Sicko. That's the Canadian medical system. Co pay $500. That's the magic of allopathic medicine. In England or in Europe, the co pay is $0. Of course income tax is rather high in Europe compared to North America. 

Titanic A Space Between is very good and worth it. I really felt like I was onboard the Titanic and escaping. It was definitely a Maritime museum experience.

More than any others. 

Pirates of Nassau VR. Somewhat of a Maritime experience. Not that great actually but I don't mind getting it because this developer's other apps hit a hundred stars out of ten. 

Titanic VR intensely Maritime museum. Visit the old shipwreck. 

I tried the main storyline segment and I had to stop because of motion sickness. And there were for sure some really scary scenes involving ghosts and spectre that really did scare me. 

During the explore segment, there wasn't much of the ship sinking. 

Objects still interact in that strange way that happens with VR at this stage of the game. It will be better in ten years but will I still be here? 

I'm 55. I don't know if I'll make it to 60. 

Everyone worries about making it to 60 and then what's beyond that? I think it would be better if I were to quit life now while I'm ahead yet God has given me luxuries such as VR. God has given me the opportunity to help around the neighborhood in terms of sweeping the grounds. Autumn will soon be here and I will be there to do what I can. Autumn is the most busiest time for street sweepers. 

Again, I'm glad I got it. I will always treasure this. 

Being a fan of the Titanic for so many years. I really did feel like I was on the Titanic. The reviews BSed. They said the rate of sinking can be set in settings. Nope. I didn't find anything like that. Maybe they're talking about the PCVR version. I was hoping to see that. 

The squash court looked gorgeous and it was even more gorgeous when I got there. I walked past it into a hallway and saw water starting to spray through the walls. Oh no! It's happening! So run back through the squash Courts and up one flight to the deck of the ship. About ten minutes later, I descend to the squash Court level area and there is no sign of water. Reviews did mention that. Water flooded down a hall. Go up one flight. When return down one flight again just to check it out, water is gone. Glitchy as fudge. 

Oh well, it's a passable good Titanic experience. On the way up from the bottom of the ship to the deck, I missed the Grand Staircase. The floors have different entrances and exits and passageways and taking the right one will lead to seeing the Grand Staircase. 

Oh well, whatever. 

Topside of the Titanic in VR intensely reminded me of being on board the RCMPolice St Roch at the Maritime Museum in Vancouver which is truly a slice of heaven. 

What a treat. Nostalgia and elegance. 

It's not that expensive in today's economy. I went to a Chinese restaurant a few months ago and the bill was $33. That was for fried noodles and a glass of root beer. Why not? 

These apps have made me a fan of the Titanic again but once yu know the story, it gets quite repetitive. No one talks about the Olympic which was basically 97% of what the Titanic was and that ship sailed for years so in a way, the Titanic really never sank as it could be visited by proxy through boarding the Olympic and then later the Britannic. The Britannic was 85% similar to the Titanic, which is better than the zero percent of most other ships. 

Go and watch videos of the Olympic and then you can see what the Titanic would have been had it not sunk. 

The app is worth the money. 

I will indeed enjoy these Titanic apps. I'm chuffed* that I have these apps! 

*extremely happy

Finally found the Grand Staircase. Fun fact. All existing photographs of the Grand Staircase are from the Olympic. No photographs exist of the Grand Staircase frkm the Titanic which was supposed to be even better. 

The, using the machine over the left shoulder and using the virtual finger to point, the sinking speed can be enabled or disabled and the sinking speed can be set to 1x, 5x and 10x. I recommend starting from the bottom of the ship at 10x. That should be fun. Really fun. Living the dream. I've always wondered what it would be like to escape the sinking Titanic alone like Jack and Rose from the movie. But not actually do it in real life. 

Now Titanic A Space Beneath has the option of normal escape but in an empty Titanic or realistic escape with people but then there are ghosts and spectres and escape room confusion. Why not set up a normal escape segment with people, but no zombies and no escape room set ups? That would be more realistic although the odds of making it off the ship with so many passengers in the hallways would be reduced. 

Why didn't they do a level like that? That's called not thinking two steps ahead. 

I got motion sickness. So I reset the comfort settings and so should do better. Definitely a Titanic theme park experience in my very own room. 

Wednesday, August 6, 2025 

Some jobs simply won't be available in the afterlife. 

English teacher. Everyone will speak telepathically with automatic language translation. Verbal languages will be obsolete. 

Police. Obsolete in the afterlife arena but not the job is not gone because Policing even extends to Police from the other dimension still Policing this dimension. Once Police, always Police. When I saw the AI animation of two Policemen in the rain each wearing a raincoat and their Police hat near the start of the YouTube video from Docureel, Jack The Ripper Who Do You Think He Was, I knew then that Police do indeed operate in the afterlife. 

Heather is in the good dimension where one doesn't have to worry about growing old, where one isn't tied to the amygdala and cortisol and where one is connected to a different time dynamic, when anytime is Miller Time. One can time travel, experience linear time, sporadically, randomly and at will. 

Craig Hogan of Seek Reality Online said the word consciousness as in a higher level of consciousness is a misnomer. 

In the afterlife what we will have will be to Earth consciousness what eating at a luxury buffet will be to drawing food from the umbilical cord as an embryo. Craig Hogan said that consciousness is exclusively and completely tied to linear time. 

Jung talked about the conscious and the subconscious and the superconscious.

Freud talked about the id, ego and superego. 

The id and the subconscious is the limbic brain R complex physical funs ions of the body. 

The ego and the conscious. Hippies talked about a higher level of consciousness. Indeed consciousness is something that can be raised or lowered.

The superconscious and the superego can neither be raised or lowered. It functions at so high a level that it couldn't be raised any more. And it couldn't be lowered because it is not subject to the linear timeline. The superconscious unlike the conscious does not expire when the physical body expires. 

I have worries that I won't make it to 60. If I don't, then I'll get to connect with that much better dimension and to get out of this backwater dimension. 

Even if I were in the most futuristic China, Guangzhou China, I'd still be in a backwater dimension compared to where Heather is. 

I envy her for being in that much better dimension although she would have thoughts of regret and sadness thinking that she could have lived longer had she taken better care of herself and made other choices. Sure, because everybody in the World thinks like that. 

Religions like Christianity are really square. They are good people but we don't have a lot in common. I've written about this before and then I saw on one of their leaflets distributed during Church, "We should strive to develop a kinship with others even though we have differences and not much in common." 

See, that's culty sh*t. 

All religions have a sleazy gangster empire builder mentality and if you give any signals that you are into their silly religion they will try to coopt you into their weird square culty sh*t. And they will gaslight you. Ha ha, that's because they've been gaslighting each other for years. They're well practiced at it because that's what they do. That's part of their square vapid middle class mentality. Middle class delinquency. 

One day I'm going to quit going to Church completely. 

Churches in some cases like to tell you how to think, how to live, what to eat, what to wear in extreme cases. Anachronistic. And other religions emphasize certainly finer points that Christianity just seems to gloss over and ignore. Squares. 

And when you go to any Church, the attending is always small, small. Why is that? It's like why do small towns have small populations? That's because no one wants to go there!!! Just about nobody else in my apartment building goes to Church. 

It's a hopeless scene with no future. It's another backwater extension of an architecturally backwater culture compared to China. 

China has no use for religion. It's not that they're not spiritual. They are spiritual in the Banyen Books form of spirituality, a hybrid discussion of the best ideas encompassing all religions and traditions of spiritual practice such as insights from DMT ayahuasca trips,  learning from dreams and insights from those who have had near death experiences which offer ideas and lessons far in advanced of what fundamentalist Christianity offers. 

When you talk about either mismanagement or worse some systemic anomaly and not in a good way in a country, it's time to move to a better country. 

Three regions in the world have a North of 50, Russia, Northern Europe, aka Scandinavia, and Canada. 

Of these three, only Canada has barely any people, ha ha, not even ten million people, compared to Russia and Scandinavia which have about a hundred million people nor more each. 

Australia is a Continent that has a large land mass and a tropical climate and a year round growing season yet it has less population than a small island North of 50. Some Continent! Bizarre. 

POM. Prisoners of Majesty. 

"Right pommy bastard!" Archie Luxury 

The US doesn't have that and they have a population of over 400 million. What is wrong with this picture? 

Is it the colonialist system? "We want you to be successful, but not more successful than us." which is part and parcel of the chickenshit physics of this dimension. 

Therefore the country of England has 58 million people and its just a part of a small island while the rest of the UK, Scotland, Wales Nad Northern Ireland have 10 million people. 

While the small part of a small island that is England has 58 million people Canada has 40 million people and Australia has 26 million people. Plus, England is one of those countries that have more citizens living outside it than within it and its not hard to see why. A small town in the mainland is a backwater. A small town on an island is another level of backwater and not in a good way. 

Is that an accident? I don't think so and neither do you. 

That's the essence of colonialism. The solution is to simply vote with your feet. 

Move to China. Or move to the US. 

Shenzhen has an annual GDP of $294 billion yet they have one modern, state of the art, clean, ultra futuristic subway station after another. New York has an annual GDP of $2.2 trillion yet their subway stations are absolute garbage saturated with delinquents. Yeesh. That's the West for ya'. 

Now why is that? 

"Just asking questions."  Bill Maher 

"But I'm not wrong!"  Bill Maher 

Meanwhile Brits in England would be saying,  "Oh, that's original. He actually thinks that he's the first person to have ever thought this." 

When it comes down to it, this is a collective phenomenon, not problem. It's nothing one individual person can do anything about or even has to think about if they don't want to. 

It's not a problem. It's just a state of being. 

I've written about this before and then I see a van from Britain almost as if warning me. The van has the word Madill written on it. Mad, ill. 

Mad is a gangsta word. When you're not towing the Neanderthal Fred Flintstone local line, or agenda, or narrative, or propaganda, then you're mad. 

And ill of Madill represents 111, January 11, my Bachman Turner Overdrive major Royal dream. 

That vernichten, I mean pernicious dentist has me going in there once every few weeks or once every three months every year. For life. 

In Vancouver, and in other towns, I went years without seeing a dentist and I still had all my teeth. I go to this town and the hyper gung hi dentist has me going in there once very three months to have my teeth clean wearing down my enamel with their God damned electric teeth dremels and scalar hooks. The dentist is really after the government dental insurance minty. Now that I'm on the federal plan, all of a sudden they find that they have to extract all of my upper teeth. It's called allopathic medicine or surgically invasive medicine. 

Doctors are like that doctor in Cloud Atlas. They're after your money. 

This town is an especially officous backwater and once a dentist in this town has designated you as a mark, they don't want to let you go. Set up all these extraneous teeth cleaning appointments. 

Others in this apartment building I live in aren't going in for teeth cleanings all the time. Heather told me that dentists are weird people. 

I wish that God would just kill me otherwise I have a future to look forward to that involves going in to see the avaricious dentist a few times a year. For life. 

Quite a few dentists in this town we're like that. 

I'd rather be dead than to have to go in to that dentists office a few times a year but obviously I don't get that option. After hearing how good the afterlife is, why the hell would I want to stick around here in this dimension? 

"God, why don't you just kill me? I'd rather be dead and in the afterlife than to have to go in to that dentists office a few times every year, year in, year out, for fucking life. How many more years do I have to endure this?" 

I hope that God intervenes and arranges for my death. That way I can avoid a lot of worries and problems that are specifically connected to the shit physics of this dimension. 

Every single time I go to the dentist I get these same acrimonious thoughts and then afterwards it is always, I'd say better than I expected. I walk out of there floating on a cloud. Literally and not figuratively, 100% of the time. 

Every time. It's like a repeating cycle. 

My brain is defective. 

I'd be the first to say that all the people who work at that dentist office are more together than I am mentally, as if it wasn't obvious. 

- The trip to the dentist was better than I expected. As ever. I think I have some kind of a mental problem. It's called my mind which operates exclusively under the physjcs of the afterlife dimension clashing with my brain which operates exclusively under the physics of this dimension. Its a match made in hell. 

This is a town I wind up loving. I already met a lady, Heather, whom I've pledged to love for all of eternity and I will. 

The Churches have a small population. Most people watch Church on YouTube on Sunday. YouTube doesn't always accurately reflect the view count. Not even near. Most Churches have sponsors and supporters not usually present at Church on Sundays. 

All religions have their peculiarity. Name one religion that doesn't. 

Jesus wasn't always perfect. There were times in his youth when he lacked a full understanding of things. 

The word for perfect in the original Greek is telos which means end. Telikos means final. 

Jesus was a work in progress getting better and better until he attained perfection. 

"Every day in every way I am getting better and better." August Comte 

Every religion has its quirks and peculiarities that don't detract but rather define. 

The parishioners of all religions if you ask the, they have hybrid beliefs from all kinds of places but these esoteric beliefs of spirituality all fall under the umbrella of the Grace of the Lord Jesus Christ. Esoteric and spirituality is the command prompt but God and Jesus is the source code. All scientists believe in God because the furthest edges of physics has such unfathomable things that can only be explained with the presence of God. 

A person should really do their best with the time that they have to refine their personality and to acknowledge weaknesses. Raymond Moody said that we are all spiritual but every day we have moments when we feel that we want to strangle someone. Raymond Moody says that. 

I get angry thoughts that at the time seem like a good idea. Later they register as a crazy, intrusive unwanted thought. 

There are process thoughts and conclusion thoughts. One must go through processes to reach a conclusion. 

I'm not perfect. 

This island has a magic. I have all these pains and problems and later they all go away without exception. Even pains and issues that arise in my body and then I think I might die from it, the next day, they go away. 

Most movies, they make start to make sense once you've watched about 15 minutes of it. Wes Anderson's movies don't start making sense until you watched all the way to the kingdom end of it. 

His movies The Royal Tennenbaums and The Life Aquatic with Steve Zissou is on sale for $5 each. Of course I scooped them immediately. At that price. Not one seconds hesitation. Not one. 

I'm over the moon. These are prime AAA certified platinum grade movies. 

I must a have done something right to score these movies regularly price at $20 each for $5 each. 

I've never watched The Royal Tennenbaums to the end. Too confusing. There didn't seem to be much of any story at all. I'm missing something. 

And that's getting off light. With Christopher Nolan movies like Tenet and Inception, the plot doesn't even begin to make sense unless you watched the movie all the way through at least three times, which I as yet, have not done. 

That I got two each Wes Anderson movies each regularly priced at $20 for $5 each and on the same day, the odds of me actually digging and finding the other $5 WA movie whenn I could have just stopped looking wasn't exactly 100%, is an example of quantum entanglement. 

Wes Anderson movies are an extended IKEA catalogue set to motion with a story with people around each page of furniture displays. Wherever the film is set, India, Eastern Europe, etc he is able to successfully give it an unshakeable IKEA aesthetic. 

Stanley Kubrick filmed movies only in England. He was able to turn England j to any place in the World, California Hotel Overlook in The Shining, Vietnam Full Metal Jacket, New York Eyes Wide Shut while Wes Anderson is able to turn any place, India etc into Sweden. Which is wonderful. 

That's kind of what Warplanes VR does. The player is supposed to be flying to all these different countries, the player is supposed to be flying to Italy, to England, to Algeria, but then all these places look exactly 100% the same. So like Wes Anderson, Warplanes VR turns a bunch of different places into one place. What do you expect? This is still the early days of VR. 

I would never have known if not told that the same director behind The Grand Budapest Hotel is also the director of Rushmore. With Rushmore, Wes Anderson achieved mid orbit. With the Grand Budapest Hotel, he voyage to Saturn and back. That movie is my number one favorite Wes Anderson movie despite the sad and dark ending. The visuals. The story. Misquoted, "The guest smiled and exchanged pleasantries at the Palm Court, at the Turkish Baths and on board the Colonnade Funicular." 

I always resolve to stop shopping for movies on YouTube. That can add up. But then once a week, or heck, once every half a week, I try to see if I can find a $5 treasure. This gets counterproductive. It's an embarrassment of riches. The more movies a person owns on YouTube, the longer it will take them to scroll down to find any specific movie they have, duh, that is unless they search for the name of the movie. 

My theories and write up's about time, about how Einstein said that all things are happening simultaneously and that linear time is an illusion etc etc etc are better than that from Christopher Nolan movies and better than the explanation that the movie Lucy had given. Time is a mathematical entity. It's an algorithm within an algorithm. 

Thursday, August 7, 2025 

I found out at the dentist office that it will be in a few weeks, heck, it will be on welfare cheque day that I will have all my remaining uoper teeth removed all in one British go. 

I will always love Heather. I miss her every day and I don't know how I'm going to make it without her. I'll probably never experience sweetness on that level ever again. 

Grief hurts. That hurt is a slight searing pain in the heart that just never goes away. Or could it be like the dentist says, the slight abscesses in my upper teeth affecting the heart. I mean, that wouldn't help. That is, actual hard core clinical grief. 

The physics of this dimension. That really makes me feel like this world is a garden, rather than a kindergarten, garden of children, it is a seelengarten, a garden of souls. 

I've always thought of the foundry metaphor. Life is a foujndry. Once the die is cast, the mold is smashed and broken. 

In an actual foundry, sort material is poured into a preshapred mold. When the soften material fills the mold enough that it takes on the presumed shaped of the mold, the die is cast and the mold is either smashed or reused. 

In life, hard material is used which is purposed to soften to assume the presumed form of the mold then the die is cast. In other words, in life flesh, a harder material is used which is repurposed to inevitably soften to a less dense medium, the spirit. That's when the die is cast and the foundry process is complete. 

A better foundry metaphor is a mold is set. Different gasses made up of different chemicals are squirted into the mold area in specified differing amounts. These gases harden. The hardened form mixes and processes all the gasses together. Then the mold is sublimated, going from solid form to gas form skipping the usual liquid form that happens in between. It forms an entirely new gas, some kind of precious molecular compound of gas which could have been formed in no other way. 

The mold is the Earth which is attuned to the will of God. Gases squirted in to the mold area are past life influences, ones present personality being the amount more or less of their different tendencies, are they thoughtful or thoughtless, are they patient or impatient, as well as the external cultural influences of the generation and time era the person is born into. In life these influences shape their body thus shaping their psyche and a person isn't the same person as an old person that they were when they were very young. Then the body, which is part of the mold is cast away, melted as it were and an entirely new gas or else an entirely more evolved spirit results and emerges. 

Even within two airplane of the same make and model, there can be differences. On one plane, the steering stick is a stiffer than most and one has to use a more effort than usual. Or one plane yaws too much to the left and one has to turn the yoke a little more to the right than usual to compensate. 

AI machines have different personalities. There isn't one AI machine controlling the world. There are groups within groups of AIs kind of like the daimyo model that is the Japanese business model of larger companies owning a group of smaller companies. 

The AI that is behind my tablet isn't that intuitive and kinda retarded. It's downright retarded at times. Just like their human progenitors. 

I'm kinda retarded about a lot of things in life. Me and Heather were like two retarded peas in a retarded pod. 

The AI of my tablet, the autospell, autocorrect feature will misspell a word that I spelled right. I don't know if it's deliberately, it's more just a part of its retarded innate AI programming, So much for the miracle of AI. It's semi miraculous at best. 

These AI daimyos will one day be mapped out and become household names. Until then, I'm thinking these are based on public sector lines, the Russian AI consortium, the American AI consortium, the British AI consortium, the Chinese AI consortium, the India AI consortium. There are private sector ones such as Googlemind and groupthink. Meta Quest AI which is the macro AI which controls the micro AI in VR goggles which explains why the strangest words like 'gay' often appears on the autosuggestion of words at the top of meta quest keyboard. Elon Musk AI systems. 

These AI groups are nuanced in structure as AI systems are structurally involved around a certain niche range of products. The Internet AI of things. So for Tesla its cars. For Facebook meta AI it's VR goggles. For Apple it's cellphones and Macintosh computers and for Microsoft it's anything like Microsoft smart glasses, Microsoft smart wristwatches etc. 

This is a lot different than twenty years ago when the internet wasn't Google dominated and search engines like Google, Yahoo, Netscape and Metacrawler pretty much shared equal billing. Meta crawler and meta Quest are Facebook products. 

On my tablet keyboard word autosuggestions, every time I type the word 'the', the word 'police' appears as an autosuggested word on the top of the keyboard. I have the option to delete that word as an autosuggested word. Why would I? 

My damned tablet always always always insists on spelling the word 'In' whenever I start a sentence as 'I'. I always have to check. I wrote the word In! Why the hell would it always insist on registering it as 'I'. Retardation or what? 

Vancouver and Victoria are the only towns worth living in, in the Province of British Columbia. Every other town is a blithering blinding backwater, hopeless futureless shitholes. There is nothing exotic at all about small towns and you don't get any expat traveling brownie points for going to backwater shithole towns. After staying in Bangkok, to go to some small town in British Columbia would be like taking a step backwards. Whoop. Yeesh. 

Small towns in Canada, their rents are still kind of expensive. Not much cheaper than if cheaper than rents in the city, in my experience. Rents in cities are based upon that there is infrastructure and things worth doing and places with visiting in the city that are intellectually stimulating, even in spite of yourself. 

Small town rents are based on the opposite premise, that this is the only thing there. 

In the States, for every hundred miles, there are at least five small towns, every twenty miles, take a turn pike off the highway, drive another five, ten miles at most and you got another small to mid sized town. In Canada, drive a hundred miles and there is only one small town a hundred miles apart. In England, there is a funky small town every few miles. In Canada, not so much. 

Even though the rents in small towns in the States may be disappointingly similar to that in the city, you get more bang per buck in the States. Go a few miles in any direction and you got another small town. In Canada, yeah, there is another small town, about a hundred miles away. 

Vancouver has a neighborhood that is getting progressively worse in a way that is profound and absolute fuckin bonkers. A result of governmental mismanagement. Vancouver is a very angry city. Smaller towns have a slower pace of life and it is true, where seldom is heard a discouraging word. Vancouver has a fast hyper, gung ho pace of life ad absurdio, I mean look at the downtown eastside, and where often is heard a discouraging word. Vancouver is a very intensely verbally abusive city. The first two letters of Vancouver are VA, verbal abuse. 

Compared to New York and Los Angeles, Vancouver has a slower pace of life. Compared to New York and Los Angeles, Vancouver is a backwater. 

I've committed to memory more German. 

I still remember the German phrase I wrote years ago, Warum sieht dein Gesicht aus wie ein Schildkrote? Why does your face look like a turtle? 

There is high German and low German. High German is used for formal occasions and for speaking with rich people. Low German is more colloquial, more ghetto and the kind of language that is more street. 

High German: Schon, Sie kennenzulernen. Good to meet you. 

Los German: Ich freue mich, Sie kennenzulernen. Happy to meet you. 

High German: Was machen sie beruflich? 

Low German: Wo arbeitest du? 

What do you do for a living? 

I would answer: Ich fege des Gerichtsgebaude gelande und entfern unkraut vom gehweg und von burgersteig. I sweep the courthouse grounds and remove weeds from the street and sidewalk. 

High German: Konnen Sie ein Hotel empfehlen, nicht teur ist? 

Low German: Kannst du ein gunstiges Hotel empfehlen, nicht teur ist? 

Can you recommend a hotel that isn't expensive? 

Those would be critical phrases to learn as a traveler. 

Essential conversation starters that only require a ja or nein answer would be:

Gefallt Dir die Stadt? Do you like the town? 

Schmekt Dir die Essen? Do you like the food? 

Not bad, huh? Learning langues is a good way to spend time rather than spending hours on end ruminating, commiserwting and worrying. 

German is a great language. Problem is, I live in a place where I never hear these words spoken even once every ten years whereas in Germany, these phrases are spoken quite a few times every week. 

German grammar has a curious habit of starting random large words within a sentence with an upper case letter where iin English, it would have just been left it as a word starting with a lower case letter. I'm going to find out why one of these days. Very strange. 

Polish is a great language. However, German has a bounce to it that just sounds more funky. In other words, German is more Rindfleischetikettierungsüberwachungsaufgabenübertragungsgesetz. 

My grasp of German pronunciation is trash. There is a shtick to German pronunciation. 

Just say, "Ich verstehe nich." if you ever get stuck which literally translated is even more funny, "I understand nothing." or else it's "I don't understand." 

Or else, "Ich spreche nur ein bisschen Deutsche." I only speak a little German. 

A dream is to go to Germany and to start over. My life isn't a life that I'd want to live over again. I'd like to start again in a place geographically and linguistically that is farthest away from anything that I've ever known. Even if it's not Germany, I still would like to start again in a very good place that is farthest away from anything that I have ever known. Given enough time, that is inevitable. It's a long road that has no turning. 

Already, at age 55, I am time and miles away from anything that I once knew decades ago. I'm in a time that is so different than before that it seems almost timeless. 

Languages are an impossible rabbit hole and most people will only wind up being fake polyglot, that is knowing only a few phrases in any language. At some point I suppose I will drop the rabbit hole. 

"There is no such thing as a completed film. There are only projects that are walked away from." George Lucas 

There is no such thing as completely learning a language. At some point, you just give up. 

The best way is to move to where the language is spoken. Otherwise. Or else hook up with a Bund in whatever town you're in to practice German. But ones grasp of the language must be at a certain level. Otherwise. Be at the level where you are asking advice about your worries and understanding whatever advice you get. If it's not at that level, then forget it. 

I would ask a German about my fear of the future and about the duress of the physics of this dimension. Fear of the future, in rusty German is, Verangstigt die Zufunkt. 

Ich verangstigt das zufunkt. I fear the future. 

Learning a few other languages can make a person a better writer in their own language just as learning how to pilot an airplane in VR can make a person a better car driver. 

Geist des zufunktigen weinacht, ich verängstigt dein mehr den oder Geist ich je gesehen habe. 

Ghost of Christmas future, I fear you more than any other spirit I have seen. 

The party will never end. This thing you know of as being what passes for your consciousness will not only not stop, it will be intensified and amplified one day. Just go through the weird physical bullsh*t known as the death experience and the party goes on. 

I will always practice dancing. From sheer boredom otherwise. I want to enter into a zone where I see a disco wall of glowing purple. 

Even if I don't go to nightclubs, again, the khysics of this dimension have altered the dynamic for me that while I am 55, most ladies at the nightclub are in their twenties. The physics of this dimension has ruined it already for me. 

One day, I will be in the afterlife and go to a major dance party more major than any in this Universe and I will have the option to do that before doing my life review the next morning, so to speak. That's something that I'm really looking forward to. 

In some strange unexplainable way, I feel, in spite of myself, that my dancing is getting better as time goes on. 

The idea of the future seems overwhelming and I often wish that I could skip it altogether especially since I've come with the answers I've come up with. 

Thursday, August 7, 2025 

Today I cleared weeds off of the large planter area at the Library. I pulled a back muscle. The pain isn't as nearly as bad as the back muscle pull that I had last year when I was off for four days. This time, as soon as I felt it, I got up right away. The pain is still there. It's mild compared to last time. It even feels slightly enjoyable. 

Expats are real fans of etymology and it isn't as if one language is connected to another in a singular branch. The more one learns about different languages, the more one sees that there is a web of languages in the way different multiple languages are connected. 

German, Ich heise, I am. Cantonese, Ngor hei, I am. 

German, Machen sie, Drucken sie, you make, you drag as in dragging a throttle lever for an airplane. Thai, Long sie, du sie, you try, you look. 

In China, there is a Province called Canton. In Switzerland, there are Provinces called cantons, lol. 

All languages in the World have certain sounds, the m sound, the t sound, the ee sound, and there isn't any language which has many if any, alphabet sounds or else semisiographic sounds as in the Chinese and Japanese language that every other alphabet in the World doesn't have. Some lanugaes have alphabets that have more and some languages have alphabets that have less letters than the English language has but again, these letters are often repeats of other letters. 

German, viel Gluck, good luck. 

German, Es kommt viel Rauk heraus! Lots of smoke coming out! 

Alles ziele es erreicht. Alles ziele des gestetiert. Zurückkehren zu bazis. 

All goals reached. All goals completed. Returning to base. 

All goals completed could also be alles ziele abgeschlossen. 

Languages are full of paraphrase words. Different words that mean the same thing. You just gotta work around that. 

It would be great to travel to Germany and then to meet an expat who tells me this or else I tell an expat the following: 

German and English have similar language origins. 

You 

German - du, dein

Old English - thou, thine

Day

German - tag

Old English - taeg

I

German - ich

Old English - ic

Deer means animal in German, Dutch dier, and in Old English - daer. 

In English deer means a specific animal rather than all animals. 

Knecht means servant in German, a knight is a servant to a Monarch. 

I felt a minute of terror thinking about my teeth extraction. Then I reframed it. A person can lay he themselves into or else they can psyche themselves out of terror. 

The teeth extraction part to worry about is needles. But that's just a sharp pinch that lasts for no longer than ten full seconds max. Six teeth, three needle shots per teeth is 18 shots. I don't think they're doing 18 needle shots. It will be a very efficient and strategic surgical approach, trajectory. I'm thinking ten shots max. Ten sharp pinches. That's doable. The extraction itself is painless. 

During the evening, I might take T3 but they are legal and for something like this. My regimen is two T-3 two hours after the extraction which is when the numbing should start to wear off then one afterwards. 

Drink some beer? Why not? It will give me balance. And beer catalyzed with two T3 wouldn't be a critical overdose amount.

And I'm thinking one beer, maximum. Which is the usual amount for me. 

It will be all right. 

Remember to wear enough clothing before the nightly temperature drop otherwise a hypothalamus sensing a temperature drop with cortisol coursing through the body because of the numbing wearing off induced panic attack that will be right through the roof! 

I also had a panic attack during a nightly temperature drop that coincided me seeing the end scene of act 2 of the movie Kinds of kindness. The liver on the floor. That was terrifying. I don't think that a surgeon would be terrified if they saw that movie. 

Es keine mich greuv mehr. It doesn't bother me any more. 

My ideas of time travel being the objective experience of time, the physics of this dimension, the Planck second download, I have already released as public domain and not only would I not mind, I am actually rather Hollywood would make as many movies using these ideas as they want. 

Marvel can use these ideas. Disney owns the MCU. Marvel is already talking about multidimensional interdimensional entities. Watch any Spiderman and especially Dr Strange movies in the last ten years. 

I hope they do Lucy part 2 and it has an explanation of time that blows my mind even after I've come up with these answers. 

When the student is ready, the teacher appears. 

There is the in going tide and the outgoing tide. There is a student phase in life, there is the teacher phase in life. 

I hope I hear some really good theories about quantum physics, the nature of time and space etc. 

I think that the government did invent a time machine. 

Tesla experimented with time travel sending small objects a short distance away in linear time. Einstein collaborated on The Philadelphia Experiment. 

In 1960, the movie The Time Machine was released. 

All the technology of the 60s television and movies science fiction were already invented. The military has technology 40 years in advance of the public. 

The movie 2001 depicted tablets called News Readers. Star Trek in 1965 talked about other planets, had cellphones called communicators. 

By the 2000s 40 years later, ultra light iPhones had long since been released, tablets were released, and thousands of exoplanets had been discovered outside of the solar system. 

YouTube has lots of strange facts about science videos. 

The only thing that the government didn't invent is a teleportation machine. 

Warp drives, the Alcubierre warp drive, the Casimir warp drive have in theory been invented. YouTube has videos that say all kinds of conspiracy stuff about outer space etc. Too crazy. US government Ships that patrol to the edges of the solar system that are part of a galactic federation that even some US Presidents are on YouTube videos talking about in clips. Sure, if you believe that. 

I believe that the movie Project Europa is 100% real but the reality is even stranger, that there are lots and lots of dinosaur sized sea monsters under the ocean. Astronauts have been sent there. The specific details are top secret. 

I learned that it takes 0.13 milliseconds for the eye to register and identify an object. So the present one sees is already 13 milliseconds in the past. Do you know how many Planck seconds that is? I don't. It's a lot. 

Life could be like a Twilight Zone with a twist and one day science will make some Nobel Prize winning discovery that will turn life into an episode of the Twilight Zone. That would be intense. 

Sunday, August 10, 2025 

Today, I removed weeds from a couple of buildings downtown. 

The people who work there will be surprised tomorrow morning to see the buildings clean. BC Housing and Yellow Cabs buildings. Weeds removed, moss removed, walls swept to military or museum clean. Or at least 85% - 95% cleaned to that level. 

The News said Israel was going to invade Gaza City. That's kinda like the Chinese invading Tibet except that this time, there isn't a Dalai Lama to guide them. That kind of freaks me out but what can any one person do about it, that is, if they wanted to do anything about it. I really don't. 

Nothing in politics is as good or as bad as it first appears. Decades later, Tibet is a chill and tourist friendly place. 

Old habits die hard especially in that region. 

Some might say it's a form of racism as most Jewish people are. Ashkenazi meaning part White, part middle Eastern. Muslim people in Gaza are more of middle Eastern, genetically. 

Racism trumps Nationalism whereas in generations of old, Nationalism still trumps racism. 

Race over Nation mainly discourages thinking of going to another different possibly better country. Race over Nation is more hegemony friendly. 

Anyways, Israel is overall a very spiritual Nation. There is a rich spiritual energy in Israel which will carry them through whatever temporary adversity. 

As an algorithm, Israel is a Nation that has had a millenia long rivalry between two groups of people. Factionalism. 

Occupation usually refers to another country. Gaza is a Province in their country, a Province that hasn't even separated like Ukraine separated from Russia. So in this case the correct term wouldn't be occupation or even annexation. The correct term to use would be commandeer. The Israeli military will commandeer Gaza City. 

As a logarithm, it is one short battle after another, then a few years of peace then some battles again. More like internecine warfare. Skirmishes. Guerilla warfare. Not the multinational slugfest of World War one and two. That's old school. 

This is new school. War profiteering. Money laundering scam. 

You can't make an omelette without breaking a few eggs. Israel is going to do what it's going to do. I'm surprised that England with all its colonies can't just outright stop the Leader of Israel from invading Gaza City of the international consensus is indeed against it. 

If even England can't stop Israel, then it's no use complaining. There isn't anything anyone can do about it. Even protests do nothing. 

Israel is even handed. Whereas Gaza was hoping for a two state solution, Israel, I think, is going to go with a one state, two systems solution. The Jewish system and the Muslim system. Gaza would be a religious cultural rather of practicing Islamists than a political region of politicized individuals. Gaza would have more cultural autonomy than before, but not political autonomy. 

The mind races. I hope that things go well for all in Israel. May God be with them. 

"Me and you and a dog named Boo, Travelin and living off the land.," 

Me and you and a God named Jew, Travelin and living off the land., 

Monday, August 11, 2025 

I'm learning more German. I'm learning the phrases on World of Warplanes VR. 

These phrases sound poetic out loud. 

- Los Geht nach Höhem. Das ist fast Höher der windig. Going up with the wind! This is almost as high as the wind! The required minimum altitude. 1,000 m. 

- Starten Sie wenn bereit. Start When ready. 

- Das Geht zu nicht veiters. This goes no further. 

- Flug führer, ich stehe unter beschütze wichtig unser unterstützungs. Flight leader, I stand under to protect our vital support. 

- Ich stehe unter beschütze. I am protected. 

- Sicht Nahe und sicht veiter. Look near and look far. 

- Das keine Mich greuv mehr. That doesn't grieve me anymore. 

- Es naher und es werden abschuss. It's near and we're going to shoot it. 

- Es Höhe getroffen. It's an aerial dogfight! Literal it's high shooting. 

- Jäger das sturz. Jaegar sinkt und flamen. Airplane crashed. Airplane going down in flames. 

- Ballon aus gesichted. Blimp out of my face. Or else it's more likely, 

- Ballon aus gescheitert. Blimp destroyed. 

- Schnell werden. Be fast. 

- Ist kommt viel Rauk eraus. Lots of smoke coming out. 

- Pilot, du flugzeug ist kommst zu schnelle. Pilot, your plane is coming in too fast. 

- Mein flugzeug ist zu langsam. My airplane is too slow. 

- Verrigen Sie Drossel, gas hebel. Slow the throttle. 

- Feindlichge jägar sinkt und flamen. Hostile fighter going down in flames. 

- Alles zieles erreicht. Mission abgeschlossen. Alles zieles est gescheitert. Alles zugs und scheiden zieles und schaden. All goals reached. Mission completed. All targets obliterated. All trains and parts objectives achieved and destroyed. 

- Kohlminengebaude - Coal mine building. 

- Zeit für richtsge feurkraft. - Time for some real firepower. 

- Deutschge feuer - German firepower. 

- Ich shieße auf wicht. I shoot at the important target, the idiot. 

"Schieße fenster. Oh! Shoot the glass." Die Hard 

- Macht spreche erreicht. - Do what I say. 

- Ich geh folge ihm. I go follow him. 

- Ich habe sicht contakt feindlichge jäger. I have sight contact with enemy hunters. 

- Ich habe ein in mein fassen. I have one in my grasp. 

- Ist sehr in. I got it very much in my target sights. Literal. It's very in. 

- Fleugabwehrge ist sturz. Anti aircraft artillery smashed. Flugabwehrgeschützestationen. 

- Ich ber aus zu helfen mit diesem bandits. - I'm about to help with these bandits. 

- Ein schritt näher und sieg. One step closer and victory. 

-Sicht nahe, und sicht bombers. Look near, and see bombers. 

- Los Geht nach Höhem! Gut arbeit. Let's go high! Good work. 

- Schöner Schuss. Good shot! 

- Lassen Klappe bevor Ballon jizzin', I mean schießen. Extend flaps before shooting blimps. 

- Das was für die escortiert. That's what for the escort. 

- Das flugzeug sinkt! Plane shot down! 

- Feindlich von mir vorne - Enemy in front of me. 

- Ist hinter mich hiér. It's right behind me! 

- Feindlichge flieger nahe und sicht. Fast den fluegen ritten auf. Hostile flyers near and sighted. Almost they fly away. Literal Almost the flying rides away. Languages are idiomatic and have a lot of grammatical energies to work around to translate to English, either formal English or colloquial English. 

- Wagen aus geh Licht. Lights out for the train wagon. 

- Kannst du nicht Sehen was ich Panzer macht habe? Didn't you see what I did to that tank? 

- Schwalbe ist gefallen. Fighter is down. Idiomatic. Schwalbe means sparrow idiom for airplane fighter. 

- Zerückkerehen zu bazis. Returning to base. 

- Ich rit zu bazis. I'm riding to base. 

- Pilot, Unflug sind sie zu schnell. Pilot, your landing is too fast. 

- Zeit nach haus es zu geht. Time to get home. 

- Zurück und in einem stuck. Back and in one piece. 

- Zerückkerehen zu heimat bazis. Return to home base. 

- Kommandant gerichts, alles ziele erreicht. Mission abgeschlossen. Commander has judged all goals have been reached. Mission accomplished. 

I could go on and on. 

Nootropic drugs like ginkgo biloba helps a brain learn languages fast. My dream is to escape to a new and better world that is farthest away from anything I've ever known. 

The problem is, I'm always moving my goalposts. A few years ago, it was Gdansk Poland. Then I wanted to move to futuristic China. Now I'm thinking of moving to Germany but not before learning more German. These words I'm writing are memorized. I'm not going back every five seconds to check. I've got this down. 

Ich war Mir Deutsch gelernt. I've been learning German. 

Ich spreche ein bisschen Deutsch. I speak a little German. 

Ich kennen nur ein bisschen wörtzes und sätzes. I only know a few words and phrases. 

Ist immer ein vergnügen. - It's always a pleasure. 

Ist war Mir ein vergnügen. - It's been a pleasure. 

How's that? 

One sentence I don't get. Gut arbeit. Gut technique für de.... The word that follows sounds like line-in. Good technique for the line-in. This is said as the plane takes off. The voice on the radio headset says quite a few different things upon take off such as, 

Los Geht! In der Luft! Ich liebe das! Gut arbeit. Gut technique fur da line-in.

Get going! Airborne! I love it! Good work. Good technique for the what, linen? 

I looked up leinin and it means linen. Good technique for the linen? I'll figure it out one day. 

Today, my mp3 player died. I left it on and unplugged into the charger. It said battery needs to be recharged. The first time I ever saw that. Then it went off. I plugged into the charger for a couple of hours. Nothing. Bricked. I tried putting it in the freezer because freezing helps battery fells. Again, nothing. Good thing I still have a PSP which is what I wanted anyways. 

The story. Had a PSP. Bricked. Years of use. Lots of bang per Buck. 

Then I about an Sony Walkman brand MP3 player for $140 which is cheaper than a new $300 PSP. If they're even available. As time went on, I then got a used Sony PSP for $100 at the Pawn Store. Good thing I still have it. It can be used for a video player and an mp3 player but unlike the mp3 player, the PSP does not have a built in radio. I can get a radio only Walkman kind of thing for cheap at a second hand store. Wait. I already have two radios. One is a tiny no name brand radio which I got for $7 in Vancouver. Still works. 

It's not a transistor radio. Transistors radios have actual transistors, resistors, capacitors, vacuum tubes. Any radio made in the last few years is all small curcuit boards. I remember making a circuit board for a radio in the early 80s. The circuit board was as large as my hand. That's high school electrics course. Electric. Not electronic. 

The old buildings like the old Vancouver Hotel were electric wired and had central heating. 

Newer buildings are electronic wired to the point and level of being a smart home. Central heating? Who knows? It's not out of the question for modern buildings. 

The old PSP had quite a few useless songs. Jazz. Sure, jazz is fine, but it generally isn't dancing music although it has the ability to lift the spirit to a certain timeless space in a way that dance music can't. 

Wynton Marsalis and the VSOP Quartet live in Switzerland and live at Budokan in 1982. That music has the power to take you to another world. 

Pat Metheny Group

- Better Days Ahead 

- James 

- San Lorsenzo

That music is heavenly. I envy those who would be hearing this for the first time. 

There's no accounting for taste. Suburban middle class musical connoisseurs into thrash metal. There is a wide spectrum of music. All of it is acceptable music in today's culture. Strategic use of thrash metal songs can elevate a scene in a movie to an entirely new level. What would The Northman, or Furiosa, or Fury Road be without thrash metal? 

German. 

- Wirklicke. Really. Ver - true, real, really. 

That's where the web of languages comes in. 

French, verite, Italian verre, Spanish verra, Portuguese verdad. 

English, veracity, verify. 

Web of languages. 

The word window, like Microsoft Windows 11. 

Windows in French is fenetre. Windows in Italian is fenestra. 

In German, it's fenster. 

This word for Windows exists in English too but in subtler forms, Venetian blinds doesn't mean from Venus. So in this particular case, the English language has the word venet, again, windows and it has the word defenestrate, falling from a window. 

Even the word veneer, with the syllable ven, probably has something to do with the word for windows in the web of languages. 

The web of languages doesn't come from Atlantis, although a person could think that. It's more from centuries of traveling and one culture adopting, appropriating words from another culture. The Internet. In a couple of hundred years, languages in general will be a lot different. It will be more of a web of languages. As one word in one language strangely sounds like the same word in all other langues with some variations and subtle disguises. 

G can be changed to Y so taeg becomes day. 

Grundlager becomes groundlayer. We of languages. 

My life is down to World of Warplanes VR, World War 1 and 2 in German speech and text. Otherwise it's sweeping the streets and clearing the streets of weeds. 

These days is a heatwave and I cut my work down slightly. Heat wave can lead to heat related body temperature issues. The hypothalamus senses temperature change. Like the amygdala, it is also a fear center. 

Strange but true. I smoked a roach that I found in the street. It had a funny charcoal taste. All of a sudden I felt funny. Is it crack? But I feel fine now. Crack, the comedown lasts for three hours. You'd know it I'd you were coming down off crack as the amygdala would be on fire. Panic attacks or what? I had a slight panic attack. I thought it might be crack but then I drank some tea earlier, the usual evening cooldown hasn't happened and it still feels as hot as an oven. And then I had to suddenly go to the bathroom. Those things can also bring about a similar micro panic attack that st the time, could be attributed to a self induced placebo effect of possibly having crack. 

To me, any drugs except cannabis is to be avoided. I have no interest in smoking crack or anything else. None at all. 

I then thought what if it was meth? But that charcoal taste. 

Crack tastes like if you were to melt down a plastic skateboard wheel and then smoke it. Crack cocaine has that acrid noxious huffy plastic charcoal taste which would be the making powder used during preparation of the product. Anyways, I would advise against, that is, against anyone smoking it. Don't do it. Just say no. 

I've seen the Police quite a few times on the street and so did anyone else who was there. It's as if they were saying, "Don't be afraid to go out at any time of night or day. If someone does something to you, you can tell us about it, but there is some chance that we'd know about it even before you tell us."

Dont be afraid to visit other towns for a summer holiday. Don't worry about torpor of the mind and don't worry about the Ghost of Christmas future. Any future of humanity and human workings is one that also includes the Police so one only had to worry to a certain extent which hopefully isn't much, and not any more beyond that. 

Visit other towns. Check out the legendary F-86. Get an appreciation of its true scale. MiG alley, baby! Any one who gets Dawn of Jets VR can fly an F-86 in VR. 

The thing is, fear of the future and overall worries in general has created a torpor of the mind, a turgid morass of cerebral ineptitude which has thus far successfully prevented me from visiting other another town for my summer micro holiday. 

Because of my financially beleaguered state, if I visit another town, I won't be able to afford going to a restaurant as usual. 

The choices are usually something or other. Anyways. 

I can only afford sticky rice wrapped in pandana leaves for $15 with tax for 3 units in one bag. Not bad. It's a sumptuous feast especially if you try for all three in one go as each one is large enough for a meal in itself. 

The idea is to see the F-86 as I've flown that for quite a few hours in VR. I remember the look of the interior of the plane. It has a real 50s Dr Strangelove military look, for sure. 

Seeing the F-86 probably won't take away my fear of the future. I'll see the legendary plane all while struggling with the effects of Alvin Tofflers Future Shock. 

Today for lunch, I had some oil left over from a small can of amoked mussels, I added some sliced garlic, Italian spices and bay leaves and sliced cherry tomatoes and some tomato pasta sauce. Mix that all in and cook it. Fry the garlic first them add the other ingredients. With the tomatoes and pasta sauce being the last things added. Then pasta. Then one heaping tablespoon of parmesan cheese. Not bad. That meals didn't cost much either. 

Tuesday, August 12, 2025

It is always an uphill climb learning a language where that language isn't spoken. Heck, the physics of this dimension are an uphill climb. 

There is no opportunity to speak German or any other language that isn't English in this town. Not a lot. There is the Chinese Church but they often like to speak English more seeing that my grasp of the language isn't nearly that of their grasp of the language. 

Learning another language can be a waste of time. Plus Germany has the World War 2 stigma. That was almost 100 years ago. Germany had a culture hundreds of years before WW2. It didn't get really interesting until the industrial revolution when the Germans got technical. They were always technical. They built pocket watches and intricate wind up toys. 

It is difficult but possible for anyone to attain citizenship in another country where things actually work for them rather than against them. 

Taking the day off today. Fears and worries of the future is preventing me from traveling around town let alone to the next town over. Plus I'm still experiencing some degree of grief although it is at the psychological level and not the clinical level. 

I fear the second half of this month because of certain appointments that I won't get into. 

I think I could be single for life which also makes me want to rather skip the future here on Earth altogether. 

The life span of a California yellow poppy is two months. The flowers seem wilty. It's been about two months. The California yellow poppy is classified as a perennial which means that it can be grown year round. 

During heat waves, poppies need to be watered every four days rather than every five days. And lots of water. 

In one planter at the Courthouse, the flowers are disappointingly devoid of posture. In the other planter, a few flowers have grown. And then wilted. Two month life span. 

Because of my fear of the future, no woman would ever want to marry me. Women like to turn to men for advice. They don't really like men turning to them for advice. 

I'll be glad when my life is over. The physics of this dimension have done a real number on my psyche and possibly my spirit. 

People at Church, I saw one on Sunday on the street. I skipped Church to work and when I saw the person, I was the one who blurted out, "I didn't show up at Church today, I know."

That person might not have said anything. 

This person is the intellectual European looking person I was talking about. 

I don't know if he knows German but he might. All intellectual Europeans know some German. 

The people at Church often ask me to go back when I haven't gone for awhile. What a cult. 

It's a general thing they do with anyone they haven't seen there for awhile. An uncomfortable silence. A common point, something in common, oh yeah, uh, the Church. 

Wtf. 

Asking you why don't you go back is better than them saying,  "We don't want to see you back. We got someone waiting at the door with a shotgun should you show up. Remember, at our Church, service isn't over until all the snakes are put back into the bag. Which is usually right after the part where we speak in tongues for no less than half an hour." 

5% of people in any country are better off in another country. 

Where ever you go, as an expat, for life, if you hear the Canadian National Anthem, stand to attention especially in the privacy of your own room where there is no excuse not to. Streaming a hockey game from North America while overseas? Stand to attention when you hear the National anthem. 

When a hockey game comes on, I also stand to attention for the American National anthem too. It would be bad sportsmanship or just plain thoughtlessness not to. 

Americans are our neighbours. 

So many good movies from the United States. 

The Outsiders. I watched that movie with Heather. 

I miss her and I love her as much as life itself. She's in the good dimension. I'm still down here in the hell known as linear time which can be wesponized against a person. 

The good one goes to the lady once again. She gets the good dimension. I get the backwater dimension. 

"While he's up there living and lying, we're down here digging and dying." Cool Hand Luke

Yeah, Beebs is up there living and lying while I'm down here digging and dying. 

I would give up on life right now to be with Beebs again if I had my choice. She is absolute pure sweetness. I'll never experience sweetness on that level ever again. 

I don't see how I could make it without her. I'll always love that beautiful lady. 

I'll always love 'the sweetness'. 

The ongoing psychological grief. 

Ich möchte das keine mich Greuv mehr. 

I want that to not give me more grief. 

What you see is what you get. Was dein sicht, ist was dein Geht. Or Was Sie sehen, ist das, was sie erweben. 

Natalie Portman, Christopher Waltz, Leonardo di Caprio, Mark Strong, Kim Cattrall, are Hollywood celebrities who also speak German. 

Wednesday, August 13, 2025

Today, there were quite a few feathers at the Library grounds. I swept the up. I didn't have to but I did. Then I swept around the Courthouse grounds. The weather is heat wavy and I took off my jacket. 

Half an hour later, the jacket was gone. Swiped. Last night I saw there is a movie called Stolen, Heist of the Century. I thought that was an omen. Now my jacket is swiped. 

A few minutes after, I was again sweeping at the Library and someone very kind had my jacket. I said, "That's my jacket!" He returned my jacket and I didn't have to but I gave him $5. I'd be a jerk if I didn't. It's the honorable thing to do even though I now have, well, not a lot in the bank. The amount would simply be too depressing to disclslose. 

This is a great town. That person offered a high five which I returned with. 

I don't think that I'll ever leave this town. I might be here for life. Nobody knows the future. 

I have the Luke Skywalker problem. 

"This one have I watched for a long time. All his life has he looked away, to the future, to the horizon. Never his mind on where he was or what he was doing!" 

One can spend their life wishing they were somewhere else and never enjoying the present moment as if the present moment were a distraction, even a perversion against the ideal picture of extreme wealth, success and utopia that they painted in their mind. 

When I paint a picture in my mind and keep it there and then compare my life with that picture. And I wonder why I get depressed. 

Success is usually centered around artifacts of a certain era. A few hundred years later, the objects that define success will be very different. Just over a hundred years ago, if you had a Model T Ford, you were successful. 

In a few hundred years, having a gold plated teleportation machine that can teleport you even to other places in the World might be what defines success. 

A lot of people already have that. It's called VR goggles. With VR, there is an app called Teleport Iceland. I really wish the developers of this app could get off their duff and release Teleport Scotland on Meta Quest. However, let's face it, on YouTube VR app, there are tons of VR videos about Scotland or etc etc etc a lot of other places in VR 360 and VR 180. 

VR 180 is true to scale and always has 3D as a default setting. 

VR 360 is exaggerated IMAX scale and doesn't always have 3D and usually doesn't. 

Low def blurry VR videos in either 180 or 360 are simply awful. 

Sometimes I think that life is just an abiogenesisetic chemical soup and we are a teacup in a Tempest of random forces. 

Except that I broke the code when I disclosed that since time travel is time experienced on a subjective level, other things are happening. When humans invent a time machine, they can access that other time dynamic while in this dimension. 

A few German movies that interest me. 

- Goodbye Lenin. A woman wakes up from a coma to discover that East Germany no longer exists. 

- Run Lola Run. She has a hour to deliver some money to someone otherwise something bad will happen. The person she has to deliver money to, her boyfriend, will rob a store if she isn't able to make it in time. She doesn't want him to rob a store. 

- Ali: Fear Eats the Soul. A 60 year old German woman falls in love with a 35 year old Islamic Black man. The racism rises quickly to the surface but eventually the community accepted them. Don't fear. Fear eats the soul. 

I got what I saw of the movie. Ordering drinks. He talks a little bit about him being Islamic. She has three children. She offers him a cognac and invites him to her apartment. And this is without subtitles. I got about 5% of the words. 

I'll try to slog through this without subtitles. Watching movies in languages you barely understand without subtitles is always fun times. 

That's what happens when I watch a Chinese movie. Let's face it. my knowledge of that language is nominal. Minimal. 

Easier said than done. Sometimes, heck, often, I lose sight of God and revert to the default presumption of no God but rather random forces in a chemical soup. That's when fear sets in and fear eats the soil. 

There are lots of signs of God. Vivid dreams of dead relatives, celebrities, dreams of angels, Royalty, even of Jesus. That's a gift from God. 

I haven't experienced any vision of God directly. God is the Majorly One. I haven't experienced anything on that level in my dreams. 

People in comment threads have said that they seen God in a dream. That would be major. 

If I see God in a dream, then I won't doubt anymore, but wasn't seeing Jesus Himself in a dream enough? 

Anyone who is a high ranking Priest in the Catholic Church probably has a story, like they've personally seen an angel, a prophet, Mother Mary, Jesus or even God in a dream or while awake. Any of those things would qualify you. 

At age 55, I probably have about twenty years give or take a few years, to go. What's the point in learning new languages since in the afterlife, it's either telepathy or else knowledge og any languages are downloaded to the mind instantly. 

Without language, telepathy would have no meaning. Without telepathy, language would have no understsnding. 

Learning a language will help a person connect to a realm in the afterlife that corresponds to that language. A theme park centered around that language that is beyond imagination. 

If I'm never traveling to Germany nor kkow anyone who speaks that language, what's the point in learning? 

French would be the best language to learn if a person wants a civil service job in Canada. English and French. Visit Quebec. A lot of people there speak only a little bit of English. It's mainly French. The French culture is a very profoundly beautiful culture. 

The architecture, the furniture, the artistic designs of things. 

I would still learn German. It's a very techno funky Gothic, Sprockets language. 

"Und now, vee dance!" SNL

"We are Hans and Franz and we are going to. Pump you up!" SNL

This evening, some people were talking loudly outside when I looked out the walkway of my hotel. Just loud enough to also not hear what they were saying. Now I've been on Warplanes VR with German audio for hours on end today plus I'm watching the movie Fear Eats the Soul which is Angst Essen Seelen Auf in German. It sounded like the people outside were speaking German. I leaned closer to listen. The occasional words were English in a perfect accent yet the rest of the words sounded German in a perfect accent. Who talks like that? 

When I was really young, I was watching Chinese movies for hours on end. What can I say? I like to party. Anyways, after that, it was back to regular English speaking television. With the volume low and me almost falling asleep, it sounded to me like they were speaking Chinese. But of course they weren't. 

In the movie, the old woman wore a brown pin-striped suit with blazer and pants with a shirt and kind of bow tie. That look is hard core German for women and looks very delightful and lovable. 

The movie is delightful. There are scenes which are classic German cinema. Classic. The group of actors sit or stand in a pose motionless and speechless, with all of them looking in one direction, usually right at the camera so you get the actors point of view as all the other characters are staring at this actor. To see it is so delightful. 

Warplanes VR Ww1 and WW2 each has voice audio speaking. 

Realism? In WW2 pilots had radio communication between other planes and with mission control. 

Would pilots of Ww1 had radio communications? Absolutely not. 

World War One pilots flew down near train stations to read the name of the train station to know what town they were flying over. During long trips, they stopped off in fields to unfold a map and look at it. It was real primitive. 

Today, there is GPS flat screen display standard on airplanes. 

Thursday, August 14, 2025 

I didn't go to another town today. 

This is despite me hearing the song Leaving LA which I always always play on my Walkman whenever I'm riding on temhe bus leaving Sidney BC. 

And then when I was sweeping the grounds of the Library, an old man walked past me and yelled,  "Go away!" 

Loud brash people. That's the West. 

He was probably yelling at me or talking to a Bluetooth or else he says that to a lot of people. A few minutes later, a security guard walked past me and I told him about it. I said,  "He probably says tst to a lot of people. People work in patterns.". He nodded and he thanked me for my work as I told him I do this on a volunteer basis. 

Working for the neighborhood for no money is at the essence of what Jesus taught. 

Then I thought the words, " Go away!" struck on another level. Go away. To Sidney BC. That's the expression, I'm going to go away for awhile, on vacation. 

Still that wasn't enough to prompt me to go to Sidney BC. Today. 

I am still haunted from the memory when I went to Sidney BC for dinner instead of going to dinner with Beebs. Now Beebs is dead. What a roast! Now I simply can't make it without her. I can't make it without my sweetness. The absolute pure sweetness. I'll never experience sweetness on that level ever again. 

Pastor Joel knows people who have been hanging on to certain events that cause them pain, hanging on to the pain for decades. It's no longer just baggage, it's become a part of the, it's become who they are. 

The physics of this dimension are wretched. Moses said to God, If I am to be treated this way, I'd rather that you end it for me. 

As of late, I think these thoughts. I wonder if I'm better off dead rather than to go through having all six of my remaining upper teeth extracted all in one day. Would I not be better off dead? I can be with Beebs. Better dimension with a much better set of physics. 

There is an opportunity, kind of, to speak German full time while living in North America. That's to join a Mennonite compound, Amish as well, probably. They pretty much only speak German to themselves although they know English well so as to speak with any visitors. But it's a kind of German which hasn't been used since the 1700s. Even modern Germans from Germany visit those places in which they can barely understand one another and modern Germans walk out of there feeling weirded out. 

Wrong. The Amish speak Pennsylvania Dutch. And the Mennonites speak Low German. 

Neither of these groups always speak 17th Century German. 

Train of thought. 

One German phrase that I learned that's useful is, 

Ich kann nur fragen stellen, die mit ja oder nein, beantwortet werden Können. 

Which means, I can only ask questions answered with yes or no.

That is a useful phrase for someone starting out in a language. 

Some useful Spanish phrases I've learned are, 

Es siempre me gusta vistrar este lugar. I'm alway happy to visit here. 

Estaré aqui de nuevo el proximo los mes. I'll be back again next month. 

Or else, just, Estare aqui de nuevo. I'll be back again. 

My dead mp3 player came back to life. 

Pilots say that flying with a side stick is better for quick aerial military flying, takes up less space. 

And flying with a yoke allows for more precise stable control especially for large planes and you can feel the responsiveness more flying with a yoke. 

Then there is the Embraer yoke which is a cross between a side stick and a yoke. The Embraer yokes looks like a Y with approximately 45% downward facing chopper motorcycle style handlebars which combine the alacrity of a sidestick and the stable precision of a yoke. 

In Catholicism, St Damphne is who to pray for when you have fear and anxiety. I'll be praying to her a lot! I often say a prayer to St Anthony when I lose an object and almost 100% of the time, the object is found. 

Tragically St Daphne's father did her in. 

"Kill dead." Poor Things 

That's Satanic and is the kind of BS that although extremely rare, is the kind of thing could be expected from the physics of this dimension. It's the same set of physics behind animal babies being born and then eating their mother alive or a mother hamster eating her babies let alone animals eating other animals. 

I hope that St Daphne would be able to help me, but realistically, I doubt that I would be the person in this town with the most anxiety. 

Praying to St Damphne, one feels a cool calm, picturing a lake with almost no ripples on the water. The burning anxiety feeling gives way to a non burning no anxiety feeling. 

"St Damphne, please help take away my anxiety so I can better serve God. May God guide me to what His will would have me strive towards. Amen." 

Not take away my anxiety so I can better realize my goals. To serve God first is the utmost. 

One day, inevitably, I will meet the Majorly One, God. We all will face Him one day. I hope that I'm wearing something that's good enough. God might say, " You always worried too much and took things too seriously."

A YouTube video said that Edgar Cayce said that other intelligent entities created humans and during the course of this, the human species took on a few experimental forms that were eventually rejected. Scary. 

This goes along with the Catholic notion of intermediaries to God including Saints such as Saint Anthony and Saint Damphne. 

Human intermediaries - Priests, Pope

Saintly Intermediaries - Saint Anthony - lost items, Saint Daphne - anxiety, St Christopher - travelers, St Barbara - soldiers, Mother Mary - the benevolent yet powerful Godmother. 

Angelic Intermediaries - Gabriel, Raphael, Azrael, Archangel Michael 

Divine Intermediary - Jesus 

As crazy as the Bible sometimes gets with stories I won't get into, it is most likely a watered down version of a more mind-blowing story that hasn't yet been disclosed. Who can really know what happened ten years before they were born, let alome what, thousands, millions of years? 

Danger prone Damphne, Scooby-Doo. 

The Why Files said that Swift Tuttle is the most dangerous object to humanity. It is an asteroid that if it hits Earth, would result in a strike that's 27 times more devastating than the asteroid that took down the dinosaurs. Why we'd simply all be dead. Talk about anxiety. 

Last night's dream. I was at a food truck and ordered a hamburger and something else. Deep fried okra. Then there it was a second later. The female cashier reached down and produced the items from behind the till. There were two items each wrapped in white paper one stacked on top of another. The items were approximately the same size. The items were produced in no more than one second. I was shocked but it felt completely bsutural, like that's the physics of that dimension. The cashier made it all seem 

natural. 

Of course in another dream I wrote of before. Food truck cloudy day. I order a drink, a Pina colada with coconut, pineapple and tequila. And there it was, not a second later and it all seemed so smooth, so natural, like an every day thing. 

Whereas in this dimension, restaurant meals can be up to a twenty minute wait. Yeesh. The physics of this dimension. I'll be glad to get to the next stage of life. I'll be glad when I get to the afterlife. 

Friday, August 15, 2025 

"You've met me at a very strange time in my life."  Fight Club

Until less than two weeks from now, at this point in my life, I have 6 upper teeth and 9 lower teeth. 69. Yin and Yang. 

That all ends in a few days as I will have all my upper teeth extracted all in one go somewhat reminiscent of the scene in the movie A Cure For Wellness. 

That day terrifies me. That's like an end. It's like a presage to my final mortal end. In this dimension anyways. 

Some medical things are more terrifying like childbirth. That's a major medical issue in which a person can die especially in the old days. The physics of this dimension. 

Major medical issues are always terrifying. A lot of souls choose not to incarnate. I wouldn't blame them. I wonder why I chose to incarnation since I have such a loathing and suspicion of this set of dimensional physics. 

Like Moses said, God if I am to be treated this way, I'd rather that You end my life instead.

More than one, a few prophets in the Bible said that. I'd rather be dead than to go through what I have to go through. 

The dentist. Especially that. People usually like to paint a picture of it being a volcanic eruption of pain in their mouth. A plethora of painful needle shots, and collapse even death from surgical shock. Anaphylactic shock. That's the picture I'm seeing. 

Then one goes there and there could be some slight edgy moments. But it's usually not nearly as bad as they thought it would be. Fear fear fear of the pain pain pain. 

"I haven't got time for the pain." Carly Simon

"Fear?" "Fear." 

"Fear?" " Fear."

The Terminal

I am disappointed that the answers I've come up with hasn't gotten me an early reprieve. Which is to die quickly and painlessly in my sleep and instantly teleport to Heaven. Which would be great. Better conditions. That's.when life really begins. 

When I typed the word That's, the word Others appeared instead. Stupid tablet so called  autocorrect. Others is the name of the Nicole Kidman movie The Others. 

Completely Fictional: 

In the YouTube comments section of a Police related video. 

A:  "As a cop for the last 40 years, I appreciate the attention to detail in this video. You got a lot of things right."

B:  "Sure you were, AI bot. The only thing you were in the last 40 years was innate yet unregistered and unrealized procedurally generated programming on a data chip and before that, you were an idea in a University student's mind."

A:  "Laugh it up troll you'd best hope I don't pull you over for a busted tail light."

Wizard of Oz 1939 is in public domain. That means it's available online for free. I watched the first half of the movie, sort of. It was musically synced to the soundtrack of Dark Side of the Moon. Which is no less enjoyable, possibly more. 

I haven't watched the entire movie for decades. It would be good in IMAX. The first half is all right. The second half has the flying monkeys, the castle, the Wizard himself. 

"You're a very bad man!" 

"No my dear, I'm a very good man. I'm just a very bad wizard."

That movie for sure influenced all movies after that. I normally wouldn't watch that movie. I might not even watch that today. That's why I haven't seen it for decades. It seems like a childish movie. A closer look once again will show how much special effects 

have changed since then. 

That movie is almost 100 years old. 86 years old movie. 

The internet library of Congress movies has movies that are public domain or deemed of significant historical value for free and in 1080p which is not 4K but pretty good. 

Let's face it. The Wizard of Oz isn't as spectacular and exciting as Peaky Blinders. 

Sunday, August 17, 2025 

I was thinking of getting Touring Karts. Then looking on Reviews, it said that Galaxy Karts is better. 50% off, and free trial. Give it a shot. Lots of tracks. Intense graphics. Really detailed. Spectacular. 

Then back to Touring Karts. The graphics on TK are crude, primitive, compared to Galaxy Karts. Both are 50% off but I can't afford the other one too even though its $7. Touring Karts is better. I am really watching my budget. 

Proviso. Caveat emptor. Playing this for more than half an hour will give motion sickness. Cruder graphic and sharper turns makes Touring Karts even more motion sickness inducing. But at $7. You couldn't even get 6 deep fried chicken wings at 7-11 for $7, as they are $8. 

My dentist sent me an email. Probably standard that he sends a lot of people. 

- Coverage changes at the end of July 2026. Provincial coverage no longer applies or else has been cut down to 40% of what it once was. Canadian Dental Insurance must be reapplied for once a year or else its cancelled. Reapplication could involve tax return forms from whatever current year. Still, not exactly rocket science. 

- Cleanings are now only once a year. 

- 4 crowns per lifetime. More than that, pay. 

- Higher co-pay for procedures. 

I think that's it. 

"Ghost of Christmas Future, I fear you more than any other spirit I have seen."  The email from the dentist is part of why I fear the future. Can't I just skip it altogether? God gave Heather an early reprieve. Why couldn't He give me an early reprieve as well? 

Michael Moore Sicko. I wish I was in Europe because the medical coverage is better there. 

1 cleaning a year is enough rather than 4. I really don't want to be going there every 13 weeks. In ten days, I'll only have 9 teeth left so there won't be much work to do anyways. 

Cool Aid does all kinds of dental procedures for the poor. I might just have to go to COOL Aid Dentistry. 

The physics of this dimension with so many tedious details. 

As I was reading the email, I thought the dentist was angry at me. I imagined that he somehow knew that I referred to him as vernichten in this blog. So he was sending me that email to basically dismiss me as a client. But the email ended with the words, With warm and kindest regards. It would have been worded very differently if he was dismissing me. Perhaps words like, 

"We don't want to see the likes of you coming around here again." 

The need to reapply once a year, 4 Crowns, higher co-pays and less frequent cleanings aren't an outright dismissal. 

Dentistry is a very competitive profession. In Vancouver's donwotwn eastside, Gentle Dental seems to be a very affordable option. But that's onky for residents of Vancouver's Downtown Eastside. For those who know Vancouver, that town has heavenly vibes the are through the roof. 

Think intense, seating, visceral, out of this world heavenly vibes that makes the heart burst into happy tears. The East side of Vancouver also has intense heavenly vibes as intense as the much wealthier part of town, the West Side. That you have to know Vancouver first. If you don't know Vancouver, you won't "get" the heavenly vibes. People would say the same thing about the town that they know. "Oh yeah, my town, the town that I know well. It has the most heavenly vibes." 

Seek Reality Online. After seeing their videos on YouTube, I think that I'm better off in the afterlife. Those videos teach people that they have to go on because life has a purpose for them. 

A YouTube video says to pray to St Damphne for 9 days in a row. Can I remember? I've never prayed to anyone except God and Jesus for 9 days in a row. 

People who visited her tomb in Belgium, all they had to do was to touch the tomb and their mental anxiety was cured. 

A lot of mental anxiety is self induced, self suggestive, and can be the basis of a Form of confirmation bias. A Buddhist Priest, one of millions on the Internet said, "Do not let your mind tell yourself stories that can cause you to despair." 

The same kind of delusion that brings a person to mental anxiety can likewise be cured with a counter delusion that St Damphne can heal you. Except its not a delusion. Have you ever seen the picture of her? That picture struck me the first time I saw the picture. There is a strange angelic healing power. 

There is a healer called Braga. Just looking into his eyes can heal a person. 

Healing only works to a certain point for everyone because everyone eventually dies. 

There is a ghastly wretched process called physical death and the final month leading up to it. Once I get that over with, and I'm in the afterlife, then it should be smooth sailing from there on in. I am not in a rush and I will live life. With the help of St Damphne, my anxiety and my problems which can be broken down into manageable pieces can be lived with. 

St Damphne is also spelled as St Dymphna. Six of one is half a dozen of the other. 

That something can be commandeered is something based on the trite physics of this dimension. 

Things based on the physics of this dimension are bound in linear time and not being able to teleport or telepathy. 

Sex in this dimension is a phenomenon exclusively bound to linear time, not being able to teleport, being hooked to a nervous system that also produces fear and pain. 

A person can have friendships in this dimension but all of them go wrong given enough time. 

In the afterlife, I can meet people for the first time there who are without the baggage and strange turgid history of anything that has to do with this dimension and the attendant evils of its physics. 

Last night, I had a dream that included a stopover in a small bar in Nepal that reminded me of a small bar in the new Tokyo level of Walkabout Mini Golf VR night time Version, and then at an amusement park during the day, yellow ferris wheel. Then I walked a distance away. There was a swing set and weights. An athletic area like at Venice Beach. There were a few people there. Then some gangsters wearing grey and black plaid checkered thin woolen shirts. 

I saw President Bill Clinton. He was talking to me for quite awhile. He was sitting on a bed wearing white shorts. The bed was against the back to the back and to the left. Clinton sat on the bed, left leg up and right leg bent and foot facing inwards, both legs on the mattress and not on the floor. There was a bunch of papers in front of him. He was wearing a grey t shirt. The Wal was painted light blue. He spoke with me at length but I don't remember a lot word of it. 

Then I saw Trump on a crowded Greyhound bus at night. If the front seat is 1 and the back row of seats is 15, Trump was seated on the left hand side, driver's side of the bus at seat 9, aisle seat. Two people at row 18 were fighting. They were standing up and yelling and punching. I had the view of floating outside of the window and looking in seeing Trump. Trump was wearing a dark blue suit with tie. 

Then. Then not even one second later, I teleported to the back of the bus sitting in Kingly row 15. Trump teleported too. He was seated on the right hand side of the bus, aisle seat, row 7. The two people fighting at the left hand side of the bus had moved up to aisle ten and were yelling and slightly punching. I telepathically sensed that Trump was aware of the fighting but being an elder statesman, he simply just ignored the fighting. It didn't cause him any fear or make him nervous at all like it would most people. 

I interpret the dream segment of the dream to mean. 

Trump changes seats. First seat, first term of Office. Second seat, second term of Office. First two people fighting represents Russia and Ukraine which had been for all intents and purposes already posturing if not outright fighting, during Trumps first term. The second two people fighting represents Israel and Gaza. Trump on a bus means he is bound on a collective course rather than on an individual course moving forward. 

VR takes the sting out of languishing in this dimension when I can be in the milky smooth reality of the afterlife. Wake up after having a nice dream, the feeling that I wish I was still in that dream. 

VR is a dry run for the afterlife. The physics are a lot more similar. Although not completely similar. 

Things similar. 

- teleportation. 

- time travel. 

- no injury or pain. Even after crashing a vehicle or falling from some height. 

- no dying. Something goes really wrong, instantly respawn. 

- no temperature. Whether in the cold Arctic scene or a hot tropical scene, the player stays in the hopefully comfortable room temperature of wherever they are. 

- your Avatar can look any age. Old, young etc. 

- Ability to fly. 

I am going to, in some way, talk to some Catholic clergy or else a high ranking parishioner to help say a prayer to St Dymphna or St Damphne for me. I need to say a prayer for nine days in a row. I'll do that one better. I'll say a prayer to St Dymphna every day for life if I can, and I think I can. 

St Dymphna vs der Geist de zufunktigen Weihnacht. 

Final Score: 

St Dymphna - 1 

Giest der zufunktigen Weinacht - 0. 

The angel said to me in a dream, "You are on the right track." track is an anagram of Kart. The Royal cart for me. 

"Pomposity maelstrom for you, this you." 

Pastor Joel Osteen said that to have a sound mind, you must tell yourself, I am blessed, I am forgiven, I have a bright future. 

I used to think I have a bright future. PTSD has wiped out these visions. My visions used to involve traveling to Europe and living with a rich family even if it is my own. 

I used to be in my 40s and think that. Now that I'm 55 and about to lose my teeth, can I still have a good future? 

I don't understand women. But I understand VR, well, more than I understand women anyways. I will stay with what I understand. 

I used to imagine that I'd visit

- Gdansk Poland

- London England 

- The Wuppertal Schwebebahn in Germany

- Chongqing, Shenzhen, Guangzhou and Beijing in China

- Vancouver, 5 star hotel 

- Sidney BC, Beacon Inn luxury hotel. 

Those are my travel dreams. 

If I can keep these images alive and believe there is some chance however remote that I can travel one day. Or else what the hell, just travel in VR. 

There is a disco concert at the bands hell at Beacon Hill Park at one thirty. I decided not to go. The weather is cloudy and cold. It's a mile away. If it was at the Harbour, I'd go because that's only four blocks away. Fore blocks away. Ha! 

I haven't had lunch yet. 

I'm still not gotten over the shock in a very good way of how awesome Galaxy Karts is. This morning I tried one track where, if a person drives off the regular track and uses a detour, they drive right on the rings of Saturn. How defiantly mind blowing is that? Yesterday morning, when I woke up, I had absolutely no idea that before the day ended, I would discover the Tokyo level is available for sale at $5 which is a cheap hit. Then Galaxy Karts which simply wipes all other Mario Kart style race track games in VR completely off the map is on sale for $14 from the usual $27. That's better than the usual 30% off sale rate! 

I'd be going to the dance alone. Usually people go in groups or as a couple. They have the bolster of at least one other person. 

Feeling too lazy. 

I wouldn't be going there to pick up women. I'd wind up at the end of the day being alone anyways. If I'm going to be alone anyways, why not just cut out the middle man and not go? 

Not that a relationship all of a sudden is a great thing. To use a Chinese story, 

"I met a woman."

"Good thing, bad thing, how can you know?" 

Another example. A person gets busted, goes to Court and gets on probation. One day in the future, either that person is looking for a job or else the job is looking for him and he gets the job because people at the Courthouse and at the probation office recommend him for the job. These crucial recommendations that he wouldn't have gotten if he didn't get busted were what he needed exactly to get the job. 

Eating at the Empress Hotel is to eat at a rich person's place. The aristocracy. The Police and probation officers are aristocracy. A recommendation from them or at least no otherwise outstanding words of opprobrium can help a person advance in society. So it should be no surprise that some politicians got busted when they were younger. 

To take on a relationship is to take on an edifice. Getting busted isn't always a bad thing. Getting a new relationship isn't always a good thing. 

That's why my mind paints a picture that I'll be single for life. 

The sophisticated town that I live in often has day time dance parties. There was one in Esquimalt a few weeks ago. I opted to go to Sidney BC that day. 

The prayers to St Dymphna aren't fully working because I still feel anxiety and torpor of the mind when it comes to thoughts of travelling to the next town. 

The email from the dentist kneecapped my psyche and I wonder about the future of my teeth, or what's left of it. I'd have 9 of 32 teeth remaining. Well, 9 out of 32 ain't bad. I'd take those odds in Vegas any day. I discovered that I can still eat just having only the bottom set of teeth. The bottom teeth are the incisors. The upper gum area is like a holding table area so to speak. I can still eat spaghetti etc. But not corn on the cob or steak. Or chips. Or bacon crisps. 

Hopefully I get notified of any free day time dance parties especially at the harbour. A few months ago, I saw the Grey Cup of Canadian Football and the Stanley Cup at the harbour. For most of my life so far, I never thought I'd ever see the Stanley Cup. Really. 

Then I saw it. How awesome is that? The Stanley Cup is powerful. If a person sees it, that means that they will attain some kind of success in life. I saw it. It was tall and it didn't have any handles. I half thought that it might have handles, being a cup. 

If I don't go to the dance party, does that mean I screwed up my life? It's a one mile walk away and I feel tired. 

In the afterlife, I will go to every dance party that I can. I won't need to walk a mile to get there either. I could just teleport there. In the afterlife, there is no muscle aches, exhaustion, anxiety, torpor of the mind and the afterlife is not tinged with a fear of physical death overhanging at all times like this dimension is. 

There is no fear of the future in the afterlife as the afterlife is suffused with a time dynamic that involves permanent and perpetual time travel. If a time travel trip to the future returned from a few moments ago is a past event, at that point and under such a time dynamic, there is no more fear of the future. 

My aim in dancing is to gradually, and in a way that even I don't fully understand, just for some reason, my dancing gets better and better until one day, I become the softly lot purple background and as well, I actually become a set of musical notes in my mind. I'll look at myself and only see musical notes floating against a softly lit purple background, then I know I will have achieved that level of dancing. I feel I'm getting closer to that all the time. What drives it most of all is that I'm trying to restrain myself. Even in the midst of this trying to not dance for the sake of moderation, the dance moves still emerge, an extension of hearing music and tapping the feet. 

Dancing is a set of moves that can be thought of as grammatical sentences. I often dance in unfinished sentences. That retains a line. A line of mystery. Some choreogrsphical sentences finished, some not. 

Sometimes finishing a sentence of choreography seems too drawn out, too redundant, too exhaustive, tedious and not quite fully holding the line. 

In dancing, one must follow an invisible yet powerful line or it is nothing. 

Dancing should be a surprise. It's gotten to the point where often, at certain select strategic moments, I don't know which part of my body will move where yet retain a line next. I don't even know, not even a second in advance. The only thing I know is the somehow, the move will retain the line. 

It is a mixture of grand sweeping moves, moderate moves and often small, even tiny moves all a surprise and all holding on to a line. 

Oh well, I guess I screwed up today and didn't go to the dance party. Whether or not I went, I would still be dancing tomorrow, the day after etc when I hear music on my Psp. The Psp doesn't have as powerful an amplifier as the mp3 player. That's OK. I don't need the music to be blaringly loud. 

Not going to the dance party at Beacon Hill Park reminds me of Watership Down. The expression is ha ha, 'going tharn' which is deer caught in the headlights frozen. 

Going tharn, miss even a plane flight for a ticket that you bought because of anxiety, doubt, laziness and torpor of the mind. We've all been there. "Speak for yourself!" 

Lazy Boy. Long live the lazy. 

Galaxy Karts simply blew my mind. The graphics were beyond what I expected. 

Tokyo level, Walkabout Mini Golf. I wandered around like an expat and discovered that I can ride the subway! 

Mind blowing or what? The amount of detail. It's like a singularity. Have I ever mentioned that the Japanese have a computer that can download 50.25 TB in one second? Even the 250 gigabytes in one second included in that total is no slouch either! I never had a tablet that could download 250 Gb in one second. Although I once had a tablet that took 13 hours to download 1 Gb. That was a slow tablet.

Anyways, segué not Segway back to the Tokyo Subway. The amount of detail? Forget about it! So massive. Simply mind-blowing. It doesn't surprise me that the Japanese can be so sophisticated and detailed in the design of this video game. 

If I go and look out the window there will be lots of people on the streets as ever. That means that I'm not the only one who opted not to go to the free daytime outdoor dance party. I'd be in distinguished company. 

I looked. There are lots of people on the street. I thought, "How odd. That they all opted not to go to the Beacon Hill Park free outdoor daytime dance party." 

In small backwater towns, being invited or being not invited to a house party is supposed to be some big deal. Those things are such a commodity there. 

In a city such as this one, even the most casual insouciant free outdoor daytime dance party far eclipses the scale that any house party in a small town can conjure up. 

In Vancouver, walking down Granville Street on a casual busy Saturday felt way more festive than being at a house party in podunkville, AnyProvince. Smh. 

Going tharn. Torpor of the mind. What a winning combination. 

Dance like no one is watching. That's another thing. For some damned unexplainable reason, everyone dances better when no one is looking. 

Since I didn't go to the Beacon Hill Park dance party, I hope that this isn't the beginning of the end for me. 

My upper teeth being removed is the beginning of the penultimate end. 

"You think that this is the end. You fool! It hasn't even begun." Batman, Arkham Asylum 

"You're not the same as you were before. You were much more..... muchier. You've lost your muchness." Johnny Depp, Alice in Wonderland 

I didn't go to the Beacon Hill Park dance party partly because I've lost my muchness years ago. Heck, decades ago. I wonder if it will ever return. 

At this point, the dance party is over now. 

I hope that St Dymphna can help me get my muchness back. 

The pandemic made a lot of people lose their muchness. The movie Eddington is about the pandemic. 

Fear is kind of an anagram of free. Fere, feer. 

Fear is what I feel. When I realize the enormity of trying to live under the fearsome duress of the physics of this dimension. 

Can God help us? We must have Faith. 

Faith that there are intelligent forces greater than man, greater than the Earth that is looking out for us. Sure, that's the ideal. Is that the reality? 

Since it rained for a few hours yesterday and Friday, the plants don't have to watered until Thursday. A light rainfall is one thing. It rained for hours over two days. 

It is near Autumn and the first slight wave of leaves has fallen. The library grounds are often suffused with white bird feathers. I sweep that up too. Too many feathers has airborne allergens. I try to make the Library area look nice going for a 100% rate in gathering feathers. 

Feathers are a different medium which require a technique. Sweep feathers into the dust pan. Then tip the dilust pan up so the feathers all accumulate in a pile. Some feathers always always stick to the broom bristles. Use the foot to separate th se feathers onto the ground and then use the foot to swiftly kick the few remaining feathers into the dust pan. Repeat. This method works and is the fastest way. 

For huge humungous Gulliver Travels sized piles of leaves, the leaves being Gulliver in Lilliput, forget the broom. Use two hands and arms to gather huge plles of leaves en masee into the bag. That method saves a massive amount of time rather than using the broom and dust pan which would take hours. 

The work saves me money because I'm not otherwise lighting up every 15 minutes to half an hour. I get the satisfaction of knowing that the Courthouse is cleaned to a level of quality and dignity that befits them. Since the Courthouse does important work, even though I have no idea what it is and its certainly none of my business or even interest to know, I am still committed to providing a quality of cleanliness suitable to that most esteemed and dignified building. Knowing the area looks more than somewhat noticeably cleaner is my reward. 

And the surrounding neighbourhood gets some clean up. This could make a difference in making this a town of quality. Tourists respect a town that is clean and regularly maintained. 

Even under the weight of worries and the fear of the ghost of Christmas future, I still work. 

Every day is the bright future. Because one day I will look back and wish I were here again. These are the good old days. 

These set of friends around me. Who knows how long some of them will be around? 

Each moment of time with them is worth an hour of treasure. Every minute I spent with Heather was worth an hour of treasure. I will see her again in the afterlife. 

The good works done this day for the sake of others unto God is what is success. 

I will need to visit the dentist to talk about what's what. This week, I will need to go to the food bank. 

The future isn't to be feared. Last week, my future included Galaxy Karts as well as the Tokyo level on Walkabout Mini Golf. Which I already paid for. 

Galaxy Karts is next level. It's like living the world of Mario Karts but a better version of Mario Karts especially the Gba version. 

I visited Art Cade which is an interactive art display that is truly wonderful. A mysterious wondrous realm of fantastic interactive objects. Some of these displays would look really good in VR. It is a very lovable and intensely mesmerizing adventure that truly is reminiscent of Meow Wolf and the movie Labyrinth. Music makers. 

Even though I didn't go to the dance party, I still visited Art Cade. I'll see you one and raise you the other as they say. 

I still feel ongoing existential anxiety so I'm thinking that St Dymphna might have a bit of a delayed reaction. 

On August 27, the day of my teeth extraction, Real VR Fishing is releasing a Canada level with 7 locations in Canada. Will there be any in BC? Ontario and Quebec being the most prominent provinces, the OG Upper and Lower Canada, kind of like Upper and Lower Egypt, Lord Durham and the BNA Act, will have representation for sure. 

The Maritime Provinces, the Great Lakes, I'm thinking will most likely be featured. Northern Quebec, aka the Canadian Shield might have at least one fishing spot. 

Some spots are daytime only and some spots are night time only. 

After the surgically devastating removal of my teeth, I could look forward to fishing in Eastern Canada in VR on Real Fishing VR. That's if I don't die from surgical shock. So many teeth removed at once. Will I hemorrhage to death or what? How long does it take red blood cells to form platelets? I'm guessing 15 minutes. 

I felt scared and panicky this afternoon. That's because I hadn't eaten in 24 hours. Last night, I had claims with linguine, a massive helping. Food draws blood from the brain to the stomach, resulting in massive sleeping. I slept from 6 pm to 10 PM. Then from 1 am to 7 am. I tried Galaxy Karts VR again and World War Airplanes VR, then at 10:30, I went to Church. The usual small crowd was there. 

I always leave somewhat panicked. I'm thinking that my subconscious picked out a few things that my conscious didn't notice. I'm sensing Mosquito Coast. They nodded in acquisitional nods seeing me there. When I don't go there, then I see people from there on the streets. "Why don't you go there any more? We miss you." 

They are nice people whom I've known for years yet I also sense some kind of vampiric cult. Without fail, whenever I don't go there for awhile, they pressure me to go. Which is bizarre. They are all middle class and I am in the welfare class. I am talented but poor so for them I'm some kind of foil. It's an insufferable situation born from the physics of this dimension. 

My friend once said,  "You're someone who has special energy and you're someone who's real so you become a real battery for those vampires. Convert convert convert."

I'd like to quit that Church for life one day. The whole thing seems kind of extraneous. 

Often, when there is a new Priest there, that new Priest whoever they are always talks to me during coffee hour like they sense that I'm some special person that they want to especially convert. 

This Sunday, the Priest said that he knew some German. So did the last Priest. For some strange reason, since the last Priest before this one was installed, German has been printed on the pamphlets, usually just once, the name of a song. But just about every week. Wir sind sie, Wortet werden Können words become able, etc etc etc 

That statement is self contradictory. So many Priests. How can any one of them really have had the opportunity to convert you or anyone else if there were so many of them. 

What my subconscious saw was that there are a lot of old people at Church with medical conditions living in some kind of despair. That's a generation and era of people who generally don't practice yoga, don't eat Chinese food or use chopsticks. I'm talking about a different energy signature. Add that on to getting old. I'm getting old but I practice two kinds of yoga every day, bhakti yoga and hatha yoga. Bhakti yoga is the ashtangas of the warrior pose, the tree, etc etc. Hatha yoga is siting down meditation. Or is it the other way around, bhakti yoga is the sitting down meditation. Anyways, I sit down for at least 20 minutes. 

The way I do it is extremely informal. Meditate while watching television. 

One person at that Church has extreme Alzheimer's but not so much that they don't make it to Church every Sunday which they do. Seeing that does a number on the emotions. 

When I don't go there, I see them on the streets and think that they are coercing me to go back there. My landlord said that they weren't. They don't say anything to you that they don't say to others who haven't been there for awhile, in most cases, not even as much. It's a small town. People run into one another. An awkward moment. Where did I know this person from therefore what do we have in common? Socialization anomaly. 

Go to Church again? Yeah, sure, whatever. 

Next time I should just ask them, "Say, you wouldn't be trying to coerce me to go back there would you? We're really different people and don't have much in common.". Otherwise I would most likely go there again sometime anyways. There are some others who used to be there all the time and now are not. I'll go there again. 

It's not rocket science. Go to a Church and see people there for what, years and some of them are declining in health. See some people for years and get some kind of attachment to them however minimal, and keep going and see them declining even more in health plus see them otherwise just declining in health equals a recipe for depression. 

Even my health. Having all the upper teeth extracted. It's the beginning of old age. It's the beginning of the end. 

I laughed at Church when I imagined someone going to Church with VR goggles and using them throughout the Church service and all the while yelling words such as,  "Gotcha! Gotcha good! And stay down!"  That would be a funny scene in a comedy movie. 

My upper left hand index finger is dying, therefore I'm dying. There is some kind of aching. I bend the upper part of the finer inwards towards the middle finger. There is a cracking of the bones. The pain goes away. Then it returns in a couple of minutes and I crack it again. Repeat. Repeat repeat. 

Is my finger dying? 

That was half an hour ago when I hadn't eaten for 24 hours. After having eaten, my finger feels a lot stronger and better now. I also turned the heater on in my room and had a multi vit pill. 

I did have 4 small cookies and two cups of coffee at noon. Would that count as soup that eats like a meal? I doubt it. 

Also, Paul Blart mall cop warns about not having low blood sugar. That can cause some anxiety and panic. Time for a cuppa. 

Pastor Joseph Prince said, if you think of something all the time, it seems to always be there. If you forget about it, whatever it is seems to go away quickly. 

"You're not dying, Cameron. Cameron always thinks he's dying."  Ferris Buller 

Towards the second half of the evening, my anxiety lifted. The peace of God that surpasses all understanding. In spite of myself, I could say that the anxiety lifted. St Dymphna is indeed powerful. 

Wednesday, August 20, 2025 

I told some friends that I was going to Sidney BC. Must be the 12th time this month. Guess what? I didn't go. Oh well. The expenses. 

This weekend visits to the BC Aviation Museum are by donation. That means if a person is completely impoverished and opted to enter without paying, that would be an acceptable option.  

If you went there and said, truthfully,  "I am at a very bad place financially right now. I had an unexpected expense."  You would still be admitted. That's a $22 savings. This weekend might be a good time to go. I want to see the T-133 which I have flown in VR in Dawn of Jets. A person can climb a ladder and look right into the interior of the T-133. 

Would an Embraer yoke be there? I doubt it, but it could be. 

Embraer yoke. 

Dash Dash World is as good as if not better than Galaxy Karts. Galaxy Karts was regularly priced at $27 but was on sale for $14. 

DDW is priced at $29. Period. F that. Too pricey. I'm waiting for a 30% discount which should be here in a few days. That knocks it down to about $20. 

DDW is more developed in graphics. 14 tracks upgraded from the original 7 tracks. 

Galaxy Karts has 18 tracks. Galaxy is the best I've played. 

The trailer for DDW looks really good. 

Learning another language is useless for this dimension and for the afterlife too. 

In this dimension, a person can't teleport. It costs money to travel and money worries is a bane of existence. Once there, where ever, it's really difficult to obtain citizenship so you could stay there for life without worrying about visa runs, etc. That involves more money and most people in the world don't have all that much money. 

In the afterlife, everyone is telepathic, so language is either redundant or irrelevant. This dimension is a foundry for learning language because without language, telepathy would have no meaning and without tlepeathy, language would have no comprehension or  understanding. 

German is the cousin language to English. It is intensely similar to English. That's what I like about it.

Learning languages in movies is easy. 

- Most movie scripts don't go past a grade five vocabulary. 

- It's pretty much the same 100 most commonly used words over and over again in any language. These recurring 100 words and or phrases are used about 85% of the time. 

Warplanes VR has a French audio setting. Using that, a person can learn French. It will be really strange and awkward at first but you get used to it. German was really weird. 

I didn't get a lot of words. I thought veiters was fighters. It's pronounced the same. 

I thought vörne was fern. I thought Höhe was her. I thought Nähe und was Leeun. What's a Leeun? 

Learning French, a person can visit Quebec. 

Learning languages is a much better use of time than commiserating. 

"And a good day it feels like rain, And a bad day is when I lie in bed and think about what might have been."  Paul Simon, Slop Slidin Away

"And I never lost a minute of sleep wondering about the way things might have been." Proud Mary 

Even though I can't travel or teleport to Germany, I can still learn the language. 

I have had quite a few German friends. Life is about strange omenistic energy. The Germans were my friends because they sensed that in my 50s, I would be the first to attempt a glossary of the German audio of Warplanes VR. 

It is something no Germans in Germany did because they take their language for granted in a good way, its cool, its casual. It is a bit of work because there are about a hundred phrases that one could only get after playing the game for days and days. And days. 

That's what Chum Lee said about World of Warcraft. That,  "People played that for days and days and days. And days."  

And do you think the developers hired people out of work off the streets of Germany, "We'll pay you 20 Deutschmarks or €15 Euros an hour to narrate some German phrases for a video game. That it's a VR video game rather than a 2D video game is irrelevant to the process." 

No. The developers used Chat GPT with a hand picked stock AI voice. It was an AI generated voice using AI generated phrases which is standard these days on all apps which have multiple language options. Then entered instructions, "Conjure up the most likely and most commonly used phrases used in aerial warfare." The AI program conjured up such phrases. These phrases are connected to prompts. If the action on the screen does A then the prompt for whatever certain phrase is activated. In Wario DIY on Nintendo DS, a person can program their own video game. If this area is tapped on 1, 2, 3, or 4 times, the animation does this... usually an explosion but it can be anything. A shrinking action, an elevation and escape action, a set of sound prompts from which one is chosen sound or voice prompt is often also activated. 

So that I translated a set of 100 German phrases that it took an AI machine less than one second to generate is pretty good. I'm sure I didn't get the spelling, grammar or words 100% right but I gave it a good Teutonic try. 

The developers are HomeNet Games which is from Poland. It is possible that they have someone on staff even who knows German as it is common for a person in Continental Europe to know four languages. However the World War 2 app has a lot of other language options, French, Spanish, Portuguese, Japanese, Greek. German etc. I doubt anyone on staff in that company would know Japanese. Although it is possible. In this day and age. Go to a McDonald's, go to the Ritz Hotel in London, half the people there aren't White. Go to a restaurant in Tokyo, Bangkok, Hong Kong, half the people there are White. It's that kind of World isn't it wonderful? It sure wasn't like that a few decades ago when 100% of patrons in a restaurant in China were Chinese. And 100% of employees and  customers at McDonald's were all White. 

Being Chinese, if I went to a Chinese restaurant in Africa, I would probably see a few other Asian people there. I've been to the most improbable places. The most supposedly redneck towns and then. I want the only Chinese person there! 

Looking on the internet, I saw a street sign in Dawson Creek that read, Kulbee. What's that? Kulbee is Korean sweet braised and barbequed beef spare ribs in Gyojuchang sauce. Highly gourmet and very ethnic yet I learned about it on a street sign in a supposedly red neck town. 

With the internet, a person can practice their language with a friend overseas via email, Skype etc. It's not like the old days. 

In the old days, you could get a pen pal but wait at least two weeks for a reply. Chat rooms, instant messaging on the internet changes all that. 

In the old days, German movies. Perhaps they were available to rent at a video store or else at the Library. Now these movies are available for free online. 

Therefore learning a language isn't useless. 

While the United States has Disneyland, Canada has Quebec. Canada has a mini Europe, a theme park where another language is used. The States doesn't have anything similar to a Quebec that Canada has. Quebec City at Christmas, night time, 4 K video. Beautiful streets. Old buildings. Mummers dressed in traditional costume. Elegant. Wondrous. Spectacular. 

The good news seems to be as some things get worse from how they were before, some things get better. 

In the old days a person can easily own a house. Back then those houses were often poorly built and then they only had electric lights, a telephone long distance calls even across the Province cost money, a radio and a television with only 2 channels. Antenna reception. Staticky. 

Now even a person on welfare in a rooming house can have inrernet with free phone apps that have free calling across Canada, Internet with 5 million channels or websites, big screen television. A 32" 1080p television costs less than $150. You couldn't get that even with $10,000 in the 80s. But they did have three colour rear projection big screen televisions which weren't too bad. But they were really heavy and expensive and had 480p resolution. CRT televisions had 360p resolution. So even 720p can look quite spectacular. 720p excels at still images and animated cartoons which look quite sharp. 

The gap between rich and poor never decreases but never increases either. 

The rich and poor are chained to one another. 

The rich depend on the skills and work of the poor for survival. 

Sometimes, more often, a rich person becomes poor. 

And sometimes, less often, a poor person becomes rich. Lots of poor people become rich. 

There are stories of people who at one time were homeless and drug addicted now pulling down $150,000 a month as a CEO. One person runs a juice company. He uses the most fresh, rare and exotic ingredients. Fruit juices and yogurts. Health connoisseur. 

Another person runs a mushroom company exporting rare mushrooms like lions man and morels and sorels and matsutske and shiitske mushrooms to Japan. They were homeless drug users at one time. Perhaps the homeless drug addict sleeping rough on the streets that I walked past could be a future CEO. Of course linear time is an illusion. If all of the matrix of life is a one Planck second download, and there is no future or past, then I am seeing that person in one aspect of the download. In another aspect of the download, that person is a CEO in another version of the present moment. Hour of the tiger, Hour of the ox. 

There is the concept of of usufruct which means used by all. As cities look more and more technologically advanced and richer as time goes on, more devoted infrastructure, newer streetlights, newer public transit, newer Libraries, this is enjoyed by rich and poor alike. 

Reframe. Redefine. 

No way I'm getting Dash Dash World without the 30% discount. VR is still at the stage where paid for games are worse than the free games on tablet which are way better than the paid for games of yesteryear. 

Dash Dash World looks at least as good as Galaxy Karts. 

I wonder if I'll be around to see the next generation of VR. 

UFOs are partly defined as anything that has beyond next generation technological capabilities. So the government does have next generation technology already. Including VR goggles. 

Well, apps bought at 30% discount don't usually get refunded. At full price. Try it, don't like it, refund it. You get half an hour but you find out in five minutes whether or not you like it. I didn't like Pistol Whip at first after the free 15 minute trial. Tried it again, really like it. It's a favorite. Iconic. 

A YouTube video said that your time of suffering is over. Not because of just saying this to make you feel better but nature is about balance and cycles. Your efforts to do good for others will soon return to you in the form of a better future than you expected. Your suffering was a way for you to find out more about something you already know about yourself. Nothing lasts forever, even suffering. 

Pinball VR has PinBot, and Taxi plus one other one for $20. The app is very generous. Play for free for three minutes or 3 balls. Whichever is first. And free includes MR mixed reality mode. If you don't care about the limits within the free unpaid version, it's a great app. I can't afford the $20. But playing Taxi and PinBot reminds me of the PSP. Sony PSP Williams Pinball, Taxi and PinBot. My favorite tables were Firepower, Jive Time and Gorgar. Black Knight wasn't bad. Space Shuttle was quite good. If any of those first three tables were there, I would have, might have, scooped the tables up immediately. 

I got Laura Croft but two tables were $10. Which is cheaper than 3 tables for $20, on a prorated basis, but come on, not that much cheaper. We're not talking about getting a new car here. 

If I can get a deal on Taxi and PinBot, etc then I'd get it. But not for $20. $13, acceptable. 

One of my favorite pinball games in history ever is Central Park made in 1965. So beautiful. Just look at it. Over the top sheer absolute beautiful pinball table ever. 

Central Park pinball. 

Saturday, August 23, 2025 

Next week is the week of worry. 

Massive worries. 

If I am still here a week later, it will be a miracle. I will be. I just don't know how. 

Other than that, I cleaned for the Catholic Church today. Hopefully I get a blessing. 

While sweeping, I noticed that at an entrance way, was a cluster of literally hundreds if not thousands of ants clustered around about 7 cherry pits. The sight of them still makes me shudder at the memory like thousands of little glistening and moving dark grains of sand forming a small ball. The number of the ants was like something from a bad dream. I swept them up as this train of thought occurred, 

'I could dump all these ants and cherry pots into the sewer killing thousands of dark brown ants all at once. That would be a Satanic move. Instead, I will deposit them in a dirt patch somewhere in the Church garden, not too near the building of course.' 

I did that. Once the ants hit the dirt patch, falling out of the dust pan, they seemed to just disappear. Those ants I believe are the crematogaster cerasi negro. Otherwise known as the black cherry dancers. I'm glad I didn't kill the ants. That would have brought about some bad karma and would have cancelled out any blessing I might have otherwise had for cleaning the Church grounds. Right now, I need all the blessings I can get. Massive worries. The next week contains massive, that is, massive worries. If I'm here this time next week, it will be a miracle. Fear? Fear. Fear? Fear. 

Since I only have about $40 left to last me a few days, I won't be going to Sidney today. 

I can go when I'm in a better position financially. 

I relented and got Touring Karts Pro for $7 on sale from $17. Sale ended at noon. 

Some motion sickness elements but the China track alone is better than I expected. 

I want Dash Dash World but not at $30. I'm waiting for the 30% off sale. Otherwise I won't get it. 

Alien Rogue Incursion VR: a treatise. 

There's this thing about not caring what people think. I'm seriously mulling over getting Alien Rogue Incursion VR on sale at an unheard of 50% off sale. Reviews are mixed. Some say it's a woke story with mediocre graphics. Others say it's the best VR since Half Life Alyx. I already got some other Aliens VR that was supposed to be an Aliens experience. Forgot the name of it for $13 and it turned out to be an awful 8 bit, 16 bit rendition. 

Reviews say that it's just like being in the movies. I watched Aliens part 2 in theatres in 1985. I saw it at the theatre at least three times. I had a few dreams of Aliens too. It's an extravagant purchase but a meal of Singapore curried fried rice noodle with a root beer plux tax plus tips is easily that. Fricking Aliens. On sale. If I get it, would you think that I am wretched? Compulsive? I have a dental bill too. Fuck it. I'm going to get it! 

My finances. 

I have to save money. A penny saved is a penny earned. Someone told me that he knows quite a few rich people and the thing they have in common is that they are all relatively rather stingy. 

It sounds ironic and oxymoronic but penny pinching is the Millionaire mindset. 

I won't be a Millionaire but at least I could have enough to

- go on a trip to Vancouver and stay at a 5 star hotel if I only bring my tablet but if I'm bringing my VR goggles, I might as well stay in a four star hotel. Better yet, pick up the next generation VR goggles in Vancouver and stay at the four star hotel. 

- visit Quebec City at Christmas but my knowledge of the French language isn't that great. At all. 

Traveling involves lots of worries and lots of worrying as well. Hassles. 

A five star hotel is a few hundred a night. I'd have to be a Millionaire first. Otherwise I don't see myself ever staying at a five star hotel. 

A few years ago, my PTSD was at such a level that I couldn't even imagine traveling. To even imagine and write this down is a big step. I was in such a state of shock that I couldn't do even that. 

I might as well get f*cking Alien. I'm still hesitating because of the price. 

Price hesitancy. $26 plus tax = $30. Again, that's easily the price of an entree and a soft drink. Wages are $17. It's not like wages are $8. But for whom? I work for no wages but since I want going to get wages anyways, I don't mind cleaning because that job is rather therapeutic for me. 

I still want to get Dash Dash World too. Even at $20 with the 30% off sales and who knows when that will be, Alien plus Dash Dash World equals $50. 

What the f*ck. I can afford it. 

Three days ago, I got Days of Thunder for $5. It's a matched set, Days of Thunder, Touring Karts, Galaxy Karts and still waiting for the 30% off sale and mulling it over, Dash Dash World. 

Aliens is firing on all cylinders. It smokes like a smokehouse smoker rauken rock show Live at Budokan. It's very good. Immersive and there's something high octane about it. The game only got released two months ago. Basically brand new. 

Living the dream. First time, got struck down immediately. 

Second time, killed one alien with the handgun then five minutes later, struck down. 

Its one where if I have more time. The first time one plays for some weird reason, there is always a rush. Play it a few times at a relaxed no rushed pace. The game isn't going anywhere. 

There is no option to take on another character. Just the female protagonist. 

I already lived 

- the Back to the future visit the shopping mall experience. 

- the Ghostbusters experience. 

- the Star Wars experience. 

- Aliens. I'll never watch Aliens the same way again knowing that I actually visited that world. I still have massive worries. One week later I'll still be around for sure. But I'm not at all sure how. All my remaining six upper teeth extracted in one day. Fear. Oh well. 

I'm still waiting for the 30% off sale for Dash Dash World. 

I had to request a refund for Touring Karts Pro. The motion sickness was off the charts. I'm still reeling. 

I got the refund. 

Once I get Dash Dash World, that's it for my VR purchases. Except I'll get the Canada level on Real Fishing VR, hopefully it has a British Columbia location. I'll get any Walkabout Mini Golf New levels. Other than that I have to go on a financial retreat. For life. 

The refund was $7.80. The 30% savings on DDW is $8.70. I should still wait for the 30% off sale. But this is much ado about $8.70. 

Since I got Alien today, I should wait to get DDW at least til tomorrow so as to bring down my daily budgetary average. 

I so fear next week that I want to say that I at least had a chance to experience Dash Dash World before things go completely Pete Tong. 

Jesus can and will help me. Jesus once said, "Martha, Martha, you are upset and worried about many things." 

Jesus didn't worry about things. He saw the plan of God in action at all times. 

The Lord had to experience the edgy physics of this dimension. However, like any one on Earth, He developed his dimension legs for this dimension. 

Sea legs for the sea. 

VR legs for VR so motion sickness is no longer an issue. 

Spirit legs for the spirit dimension of the dream world and of the afterlife. 

Dimension legs for this dimension. 

Sex as a phenomenon in this dimension is very intrinsically bound around linear time, not being able to teleport, or to conduct telepathy. 

Sex can be all encompassing for those unable to imagine a better set of physics. 

Sex in this dimension is a phenomenon that is bound to a lot of aspects of the physics of this dimension such as still being wired to the tawdry framework of cortisol, the HPA axis and the R-complex the whole time. 

A married couple. Despite the years of intimacy, neither spouse could really feel how much the other spouse loves them. The love in their heart and in their spirits they have for each other is greater than the sum of the actions they did with their physical bodies. 

Being bound to linear time, they can only experience one second at a time. 

In the afterlife, when a couple reunites, they feel the love they have for one another in a way they never felt on earth. They discover that they had mutually underestimated the love the other had. 

It is like being embraced by the entire Universe. 

In the afterlife, there is total telepathy which is mental and total empathy which is emotional. If emotions could be likened to temperature, the emotion each spouse feels from the other is like standing next to a blast furnace. 

And since they are not bound to linear time where the perception and sensation of love is seemingly doled out piecemeal, one minute at a time, in the afterlife each spouse feels the totality of love each spouse had for the other. Of this dimension, it is a love of as entities bound to the linear time dynamic of which its nature spans decades and they could feel all of it. In the afterlife as entities not bound to linear time but something that transcends the linear time dynamic, as timeless entities, they additionally  feel a love of which it's nature literally stretches across all eternity as their new wonderful default state of being. It is a greater love than physical love of which a lot is shaped along with fear and worries as an undercurrent. 

In this life, never mind that some people don't ever find love. Some people lack the basic templates of existence such as sight, hearing, movement, This is a phase of life that is to the afterlife what preschool is to adult life after having graduated from University. 

In the afterlife, a person would be as disturbed that they didn't get this in life or didn't get that in life as much as a University student would worry about missing a few crayons that time when they were in preschool. 

Jesus said to develop the character. That's the only thing one takes with them into the afterlife. 

Tesla and Einstein said that in order to understand the Universe, one must understand energy, frequencies and vibration. 

Whether a person is good or bad or snarky, the zone they go to in the afterlife is one that matches and resonates with their temperament. 

So one man's heaven is another man's hell and it depends on the individual person. 

It's not about judgement or punishment but rather it is about resonance. 

A person into heavy metal and Satanic thrash metal will go to a place with like minded people. There will be heavy metal music piped through loudspeakers. Everyone there is snarky but that's the way they like it. 

The afterlife will have a mixture of music from the Earth dimension and music created in the afterlife sort of how the Internet is now a collection of human generated music and AI generated music. 

"In the shadow of the stars, Far beyond the planet Mars, 

Rises a hero brave and true, Lightsaber glowing blue," Star Wars 1950s Panavision on YouTube. That song is AI generated. 

That song. Final words of each verse, Mars - red, blue - blue. Blue and red are Police lights. 

To a person who likes the more traditional heaven of white rich houses,, all things spotlessly clean, they would shudder at seeing what Heavy Metalers call paradise. And the smug smarmy rarefied gentrified bourgeois world of traditional heaven would be an insufferable kind of hell for the true hard core heavy metal person, be that person male or female. 

And some spirits prefer the insouciant recalcitrant charm of being an Earthbound spirit, so they are still in.way bound to the physics of this dimension, bound to a level that no one in the true afterlife would be. They are usually very diffident, self obsessed people, some righteous indignation, basically an attitude. They like to keep to themselves. They're in some mental punk rock cocaine induced starvation funk and pleasantly surprised that even after years, they are able to not eat yet still be very much alive, still rocking and rolling. 

F it. After midnight still counts as tomorrow. So I'll get Dash Dash at midnight. Murphy's Law. Get Dash Dash tomorrow and then find out that the 30% off sale starts Tuesday. Had I only waited 48 hours. 

Two things. 

1. - time is money. 48 hours for a $8.70 savings. Would Donald Trump wait 48 hours to save $8.70? No. - Be like Trump! 

2. - this week, the events are so nail biting and anxiety inducing yet I don't feel anxiety exactly, right now because I emailed the local Catholic Church and in that email, I asked them to say a prayer to St Dymphna for me. For my anxiety. For the most part, it's working. Whatever happens this week, I want to say that I at least had a chance to experience Dash Dash World. 

- I got Aliens because that is such a stressful and scary experience just like Apollo 11 VR. Once I go through that, whatever else happens will seem to be a cakewalk. My events that I must go through are mildly stressful but not at the level of travelling to the moon as a government employee astronaut or else crash landing on some industrial planet, getting lost in industrial looking hallways and seeing those really extravagant y scary aliens just slither up, gleaming black in colour like some deathbound spectre seen in out of body experiences and then shooting it with either a machine gun or a handgun. Or not. Get struck down. Respawn or start the level over again. Afterlife physics. 

Speaking of physics, half the reviewers say that Dash Dash World gave them motion sickness. The test is in the taste so I'll give it the old college try. This one could be a gem like Galaxy Karts with which even with comfort settings off, full immersion, I get no motion sickness. As smooth as anything. Galaxy Karts. Visceral graphics. A winner. 

The whole thing, Alien VR is going through a maze, solving escape room puzzles with a chance of the Alien showing up. Solve it fast because there are not enough bullets to kill all the aliens. There is a red construction workers  hat in the game too. Interesting. 

The red hat is what the apprentice and journeymen wear. The guild master or master craftsmen wear the white construction hats. I have to see the walkthrough. I got stuck at a computer terminal that asks the player to do the same thing over and over again, being to close two sets of door and to conduct an air circulation maintenance check. One is supposed to go on, semper sursum, ever going forward, To be stuck at that computer terminal while aliens show up and with depleting bullets. *groan! 

A person gets three health stems which are needles with some health fluid that the player has to inject into themself. Intramuscular injection. 

Each alien bite costs at least one health stem. So gruelling is an understement and this is on the easiest of four levels. Which leaves me wondering how much more difficult the other levels would be. 

The reviewer was right. The game put me right in the movies. I've been a major fn of Aliens since the 80s. Aliens vs predator. The Antarctica whaling station movie was good. The aliens vs predator set in mid West America. That wasn't nearly as good. But I only watched it on full screen edition which cuts out the peripheral imagery on a glass television. Give it another try on a big screen television. Why not? 

There's a new Conjuring movie. Will James Wan direct it? Probably not. James Wan directs the first two movies in a franchise and leaves others to direct sequels like he did with Saw. 

George Lucas did that. Direct a few Star Wars movies and leaves others to direct. 

Stephen Spielberg did that with Indiana Jones. And Jurassic Park which the last Jurassic Park of the last 7 Jurassic Park movies he directed is the first one. 

Ridley Scott directs every aliens movie, just about. And James Cameron personally directs every Avatar movie. 

Connect the dots. 

Today I found three pairs of clean and new Puma brand ankle socks, blue and white color. 

My only pair of socks which I bought at the Bay back when it was open has a hole in it. 

Are ankle socks only for women? They slide off, are uncomfortable leaving the ankle feeling exposed and in the old days, it was so much so that women wore ankle socks that they even had a little fluffy ball at the back almost as if to eliminate any possibility of doubt as to gender based appropriate apparel. 

I don't know if I ever wore ankle socks. They are a footwear apparel equivalent of a much truncated sawed off shotgun. Demi socks. Hemi socks. Haploid socks. 

Dash Dash World. Two brothers. The Dazzler brothers. Addy Dazzler founded the Adidas shoe company which is the corporate center of existence for gopniks worldwide. The other day, I saw someone dressed in a black Adidas tracksuit, pants three white striped Adidas as well. When I saw that, it gave me a feeling of comfort. Picture Sundays in the middle class inner city. Watching television. Chilling. Wearing Adidas clothing. 

The other brother, Rudy Dazzler founded the Puma shoe company. 

The companies werestsrted some time after World War 2. 

I don't know the story behind Nike. If it weren't for Nike, Adidas would be the number one shoe company. But does Adidas have Air Adidas inflated inner soles? 

Reebok, New Balance, Chuck Taylor are also very strong brands. 

I will have to go to the Catholic food line because often, clothes are available there. 

I got a pair of socks from there a few times before. 

The socks I got at the Bay were 3 for $20. I know of another store in this town that sells really thick, quality woolen socks for Arctic survival for $45 a pair! But a person could wear these socks to Mount Everest and their feet wouldn't get frostbite. 

The Bay closed. A female billionaire from Singapore bought that store. Ruby Liu. I hope that the Bay sees new life. However, without fail, the new iteration of the Bay will have a display of a tall stack of boxes of moon cakes around the second week of September which is harvest moon. But sometimes it is in late August as it is based on a 13 twenty-eight day months lunar calendar. Easter is like that. Sometimes April, sometimes March. Who else's death day is observed like that? Easter is a sublimated form of a lunar calendar observance, basically the moon where farmers should start sowing their crops. 

What should be at the Bay 

- Polo Ralph Lauren socks 

- Calvin Klein neck ties. Klein means little, in German. 

- Star Wars Action figures 

- cafeteria with tossed salad and salad dressing in packets. Italian, thousand Island, ranch. 

- The signature product, Hudson Bay blankets with the green, red, yellow, navy blue stripes. 

- maple syrup

- Giorgio Beverly Hills cologne  

Sunday, August 24, 2025 

I'll wait until after Church to get Dash Dash World. If I get motion sickness, I'm refunding it. Hopefully I won't. 

After World War 2, a lot of pilots chose a lifestyle of riding motorcycles because let's face it, a motorcycle more resembles a plane with the leaning to the left and right similar to the yaw of an airplane. Up and down is pitch. One side up to one side down is yaw. 

A motorcycle has a much narrower center of gravity more similar to an airplane center of gravity than that of a car. 

I'm still somewhat worried about the upcoming week. What can I do about it? 

"Are you nervous?" 

"No. Would it help?" Bridge of Spies 

My teeth extraction. I asked a few people at Church about it. 

Still not having gotten Dash Dash World. Hesitant. How many purchases? 

Purchasing it would make me a ghastly wretched individual or at least a compulsive individual. If I get motion sickness, I could ask for a refund which would be a hyper and extravagant move. 

The rich spend over $30 in one day just for meals let alone gas, etc. 

I'll get it and tell you if I get motion sickness. 

- On the same tier as Galaxy Karts. Little to no motion sickness. Really good. Runs on all 8 cylinders. Recommended. 

 

Overwhelmed. The physics of this dimension are very elementary. A person can know another person for years and not know their last name. It really is a chickensh*t set of physics. In the afterlife, you get an instant download of the pertinent information of the other person kind of like a Wikipedia article rather than a blow by blow account of every situation single microsecond of their life when they were on Earth. Only the individual person gets that about themself. 

Life is so overwhelming that I doubt that I can handle it. 

The situations in life mold a person's spirit. Two pieces of rough sandpaper smooth each other down. The person is one piece of sandpaper, and the situations in life are another piece of sandpaper. It is a Form of interdimensional sculpturing as our spirits are being carved as it were into something that is ever more evolved. 

Evolution can be used as a word in Christianity. My faith in God is becoming ever more evolved over time. The evolution of my faith as an individual and of the Church itself as a collective is ever evolving. 

Talk about painting a picture with the mind. 

I heard a crackling sound when playing VR. I googled crackling sound when using VR goggles. Troubleshooting methods were provided. 

Then I found out that the fan in my room is blowing air on some paper's making them rustle causing that exact crackling sound that I heard. 

The Church has become a kind of family to me all the while I'm wondering if I'll be in this town for life or leave one day. But to where? 

Some friends at Church cut their vacation down from 14 days to 4 days. They were North of Nanaimo but forest fires made them leave early. That's worrying. They otherwise had a Roman holiday, tourist in your own town. The phenomenon of forest fires has also hit Vancouver Island. 

It is often the little things in life, the little moments that wind up being the big moments. The small words of kindness or friendly smile to others. An inc of time is worth a foot of gems is a Chinese saying. 

A lot of the friends I've known in Church for the last ten years, they won't be around in ten years. Heck, will I even be? Staring down the barrel at 55 about to become semi edentulous as all up remaining six upper teeth are extracted. Fear or what?! 

We see those in the afterlife especially with the elevated set of physics that they all inherited as more majorly than we are since they can read your thoughts, to a degree, teleport, time travel. Of course time travel is a type of teleportation and teleportation is a type of time travel. Quantum physics doesn't differentiate because these are things which are outside of the linear time line as these are about accessing codes. Coincidences are code from the past. Omens are code from the future. Of course there is no past or future so coincidences and omens are souvenirs from another aspect of this iteration of the ever present moment that is making itself accessible rather than its usual default inaccessible state. It's all about accessibility. 

As a ghost that transcended time and space, it's no longer about where they are or when they are. It all becomes just who they are and how they are. 

Time travel and teleportation are not mutually separable. However, those in the afterlife see us as just as majorly as they are and isn't that wonderful? We should therefore see those around us as majorly as those in the afterlife see us and that these individuals are worth living for, to be around them, for the sentimentality of mutually experience a set of physics that includes the linear timeline. 

Worries. They come back again. 

VR goggles make a heat wave day seem hotter. Regions with colder climates are good for VR. The goggles themselves emit some temperature. 

The weather lends to motion sickness. I couldn't handle Dash Dash World although the levels look very good. At least on par with Galaxy Racers. This one is a gem. 

They say that 98% of problems worried about never happen. 

Next week, I'm painting a picture of cataclysmic proportions. I even told a few people at Church that I wonder if I'll see them next week because I might not survive the week. 

They all unanimously told me that they'd see me next week for sure. I love them. This town has an energy if fully tapped into and activated is actually a species of heaven. 

Thoughts and images of the Church, a nostalgic program like The Vicar of Dibley, only the vicar survives, the rest of them except for the young guy, Jim Horton is still living. 

Owen Newitt, the farmer, strange sense of humor, Jim Trottier, David Horton father of Jim, all dead. 

Cyril the choir master was Renfield in the Robert Eggers Nosferatu movie. He was the. Manager, Mr Chandler or whatever his name was. Harbulary batteries. 

The lady on the show, Emma Chambers, also dead. 

I hope that St Dymphna can help me with my anxiety. It's more of a mild intellectual anxiety, the mildest I've had in years. No panicky sensations or grinding fear. Just an unsettled intellectual undercurrent of slight worry. Which is actually the best I've felt in years. 

Quite a few people were downtown today. Summer time. Why not? 

The event that I feared came and went and I survived. I was so overwhelmed that I quoted Dune. 

Baron Harkonnen: "Am I alive?" 

Mentat Piter DeVries: "Yes, my Baron."

Baron Harkonnen: "I'm alive! I'm alive!" 

I'll be quoting that on Thursday if I survive my dental extractions. However, if I was going to die, I'd be seeing my friends and relatives comforting me from the afterlife. They would appear as opaque hallucinations. Almost as if sensing my thoughts before I even think them, they might hold a finger to their mouth, shush, if I had ever the inkling to tell anyone about it. 

I'm not seeing anything like that. They can show up as much as a month before death but usually about two weeks before. They always know. 

I'm worried about hemorrhaging. 

I've never seen what I'm about to describe as I'm picturing a trail of blood leading out of the dentist office. A patient sitting in the waiting room asks, "What's the story with the blood on the floor?" 

Hearing this, the dentists stops in the middle of a somewhat complex procedure at about the point when a tooth is only half extracted with blood freely gushing out of the surgically violated socket, then walks into the waiting room and says, "That's a patient who hemorrhaged after having multiple teeth extracted."

"Will the patient survive?" 

The dentist shrugs and says, "Probably. I'd give the chances of survival at about 25%. Which is what they called in the old days, 'a fighting chance'. Twenty five percent would be really good odds in any casino." 

I've never seen anything like that! 

Patient:  "Could I get bulletproof dentures?" 

Dentist:  "How would that work exactly? That would end up badly. Really badly. Even if you got off the perfect shot with the mouth wide open in a grin with the bullet bdkucing off the center of the teeth, the entire mouth area would be devastated. I mean, the dentures would do what they were designed to do, but come on!"

Tuesday, August 26, 2025 

Real VR Fishing will release the Canada DLCs with different levels based on different locations. 

Wanting to know about the Canada level or locations of the new DLC, I googled, 'Real Fishing VR Canada levels. The reply, "In Real Fishing VR, "Canada levels" could refer to a level of expertise and proficiency which is obtained when enough fish have been caught and objectives have been completed."

Interesting answer. 

All of the already disclosed 6 locations. 

- Whetstone Lake, Southern Ontario

- Goat Pond, Alberta 

- Tenquille Lake, North of Lillooet, British Columbia 

- Meat Cove, Nova Scotia

- Centre Island, Downtown Toronto 

- Seton Lake, British Columbia

- Ogden Point, Victoria BC 

Anything on Vancouver Island? Who knows. Canada levels will be released tomorrow. 

 - Three locations in BC, one on Southern Vancouver Island near Victoria! Actually, it's Ogden Point. Lighthouse. Amazing. 

Real VR Fishing presents Ogden Point as having all these different fish. When in reality, these are the only fish that you can catch in BC Ogden Point is famous for sockeye salmon although you could catch bulkheads or Dogfish before catching any salmon. A bulkhead catch counts as a strike against the limit on the fishing license so good luck. 

Saltwater or tidal waters 

- perch

- dogfish

- bullhead

- Halibut aka flounder aka sole because it's round like the sun, Sol. 

- Red snapper

- rockfish

- sockeye salmon 

Fesh water or non tidal waters

- rainbow trout 

- ling cod

- jackfish

There aren't any other fish that you can catch anywhere in BC. There most likely is, but the odds are, these fish are caught about 85% of the time. Dogfish and bull head are completely inedible and must be thrown back immediately. 

Crabs can be caught at Ogden Point. Can lobsters be caught in BC? Absolutely not. 

Lobsters in Canada can only be caught in Eastern Canada, any of the maritime Provinces. Lobsters are jet flown into British Columbia. Visit the Lobster Man on Granville Island or else Finest at Sea in Victoria near Fisherman's wharf for fresh live lobster. 

Or go to Chinatown in Vancouver, T&T Supermarket, or H Mart in Victoria BC for fresh live lobster at a less expensive price. Walmart had frozen pre-cooked lobster. 2 lobsters for $15 plus tax. Crack the shell. Leaves a smell. Tip. Immediately after eating, take the lobster shells to another garbage can outside your rooming house room or else apartment, house, whatever. The smell only gets worse overnight. 

Dungeoness crab. Good species. 

I need to catch and eat a box crab. Have you ever seen one? It looks delicious. Too bad they can't be farmed for some reason. 

Box crab on a plate. They can be eaten and evidently are, somewhere. It would be pricey to eat that. 

Real VR Fishing. Canada levels. 

If a player pre registers, which would mean including their email address and username, I'm not bothering, they get as a prize, a Native totem pole replete with a pair of eagle wings spread out to the sky. Do all Native totem poles have eagle wings? Probably not. 

That looks like a crucifix although to the Native religions, that probably is their crucifix or at least a religious icon. The animals on the totem poles demonstrates that obviously the Natives were, or else are into a tradition of animism. All animals and trees have spirits. 

It wouldn't be a priority for me to acquire the fishing rod shaped like a totem pole. It's a fishing rod but also a totem pole in case you needed one. Would that be as useful as a spork? Probably not. Spork: portmanteau of spoon and fork. The totem pole itself looks really nice. AI designed the totem pole and its not as if they hired an actual Native artist. You could tell just looking at it. Native design is very stylized, down to the last millimetre and they paint all corners. Some segments of the totem pole fishing rod look random, like an AI error but the developers either didn't notice, didn't care or else that look does look very nice and I wouldn't blame anyone for wanting to get that. If I could get that for free, no pre registration, I'd scoop it up in a second! 

I successfully pre registered for the Native totem pole fishing rod, I mean look at it. It looks kind of like Aphrodite. Or Isis. 

Pictures of me with my top teeth before they are extracted later this week. 

"What was once a showcase of scenic beauty is now a centrepiece of total devastation. 

Mount St Helen, IMAX movie

That describes my upper teeth being extracted. 

"This is the end of the line for me as well, Alex. The end of the line! " A Clockwork Orange 

My teeth being removed isn't the end of the line but the end of a line, a line of upper teeth. 

A picture of me with my upper teeth removed would be ofbe offsetting. As offsetting as a picture of a dog's rectum dripping with sh*t. How about dripping with cum? 

I've seen some rather terrible pictures of dogs rectum on the internet because that's what the internet was designed for, to be a foundation of knowledge. . Years ago I saw one picture of a paredoiliac picture of Our Lord when I searched Google images for a picture of Jesus. Another time I had tapeworm and I saw on google images a picture of a dog with lots and lots of tapeworms. That dog should have been either treated right away or else have been euthanized. 

A picture of the new set of dentures will result in me having a better smile than ever before. Denture glue costs $8 a bottle. That's less than half of minimum hourly wage. 

I installed and tried a VR app called Oktoberfest which is a trip through a carnival. Right away, lots of people talking. One person approached me walking in front of me asking if I wanted to go on a bumper car ride. That's when I uninstalled. 

Miniature World in Victoria has something like that. Join their online virtual world and someone asks you if you would like to follow them around for a tour. Uninstall. 

It's a system wide thing. Lots of people would experience that. 

Dialogue that I heard. 

"Hi, Blondie." Not good. World War 2 guy's dog's name was Blondie. Not off to a güt starten. 

"Get out of here, Brown Robin Hood.!" 

"Emma."

"Wheres my money!" 

"Do you want to go on the bumper cars?" 

That's when I uninstalled. That is a microscopic slice of the level of tone of social dialogue that you can expect from this and a lot of other apps. 

Mayne Island can be seen on the boat going from Swartz Bay to Vancouver. And vice versa. Amazing island and lighthouse. 

Do a ghost movie there. The ghosts appears and teleports to different places. You hear words without the ghosts lips moving,  "We can teleport and time travel because in our state of being and stage of life, time and space takes on a different dynamic."

Even without Marlon Brando, The Godfather part 2 is a better movie. The first movie was based off a novel. There wasn't a novel for the second movie. 

The plot is well known. Gangster boss Michael Corleone moved his family to Nevada to avoid the war within the Five Burrows in New York. In Nevada, a Senator threatens him. He has the Senator shot. The Senator was part of an antonist network which his brother is involved in. One of the Five Burrows family was still hunting Michael Corleone. 

So Michael goes on the run again this time to Cuba. He goes in with. a Jewish gangster to expand his criminal empire through opening a few casinos. All the money invested got got absconded with and was then commandeered when the new Revolutionary government toppled the old one. 

There is juxtaposed the story of the OG gangster boss growing up in America, doing in one crime boss in America and then going over to Europe to do in another gangster boss. 

Then Michael Corleone has his brother whacked. 

Then the rest of the Five Burrows gangsters looking for Michael Corleone all get whacked. 

Then the movie is pretty much over. It's a spaghetti Western although way more spaghetti than Western. This is one of Francis Ford Coppola best movies ever, spectacular cinematography, along with Apocalypse Now which was simply on another level. 

TG2 is currently on sale for $7 on YouTube which I scooped. Even though the topic is somewhat unsavory, larcenous and scoff law, I got the movie which at $7 really isn't that expensive. 

The story isn't believable. How can someone do in two people and not get busted? 

"A man with a briefcase can steal more money than ten men with guns." The Godfather 

A man robs a bank. Gets busted and hires a personal lawyer. Legal fees are more than the take in the robbery. The bank robber says,  "I'm the bank robber and you're the lawyer yet you're the one who's robbing me!" 

YouTube put on autoplay a video about Jimmy Hoffa. In the video was a story about two gangsters who threatened to kill each others entire family as fodder to advance their threats. Nothing ever happened of it but what a strange way to carry on an arguments. There should be limits at least for the sake of social decorum. 

When is Denis Villeneuve going to direct the next James Bond movie? I thought he was directing Dune 3. What's the difference? Either movie involves an agent going to a faraway place and then exerting some kind of colonial authority usually achieving this after having killed a lot of people. 

Wednesday, August 27, 2025 

I hope that I give a good impression to others. 

A person has to care what God thinks about them and what powers God has that no man has. God can arrange the strangest coincidences, so strange that you'll have no doubt that it's God. God can place ghosts of Royal figures in a person's dreams. Dreams so vivid and the figure is looking right at them! 

At the rate its going, the World is in a collision course with itself. 

Heck, each person is on a collision course with themself. 

It is the collision course between the objective and the subjective self, between the subconscious and the conscious self. 

Guess which side is the objective self? It's the subconscious. 

Eckhart Tolle said that when a person says that they don't like themself, which self is doing the disliking and which self is the one being disliked? 

Therefore, in life, a person has to care care of what their subjective self thinks about them. What the objective side thinks of them is automatic. 

Pastor Joel Osteen said,  "It's what God says about you. He calls you blessed, forgiven, The angel called Ezekiel a mighty hero. Get in agreement with God." 

Rumi said that the heaven that you are looking for is looking for you. 

This subconscious objective self that says what God says about is trying to get to the conscious subjective self. 

Depression occurs when a person subconsciously senses a distance between how they are now in terms of their attitude towards life and between their best self. 

Therefore we are all in a collision course with ourselves. 

Today, I felt wretched. Yesterday all I ate was ramen noodles. Then I saved the soup and had that with rice but that was last night at 7. 

Spartan fare, but not Spartan fare for a Tartan queer. 

This morning, all I had for breakfast was a three mile skateboard ride and a can of Hey Y'all hard ice tea with vodka which I found on the street unopened. 

Then I returned home and had a nap. When I woke up, I felt a sharp searing hot wave of panic rip through my guts. I went and bought some and then ate some sushi. After five minutes I immediately felt better. 

Even now, there is a slight anemia but I have to eat more because I only had six pieces of sushi thus far. 

In the movie The Chinese Connection, the character that Bruce Lee portrayed hadn't eaten in two days because he was mourning the death of his teacher. A lady told him to eat or else he would get sick. 

In the Bible, Ezekiel hadn't eaten for awhile. He slept, bit having the courage or the energy to go on the mission. When he awoke, an angel appeared and cooked him some food and told him to eat. He ate, slept and when he awoke again, the angel appeared again, cooked some food and told him to eat. He ate and finally had the courage and the energy to go on the mission. 

I am at my financial limits and this causes anxiety. But it's not at the level of having just gotten a Mercedes financial anxiety. 

Notwithstanding that, I made a donation to the Police department for their annual charity and I would encourage anyone to do the same. 

The word Police comes from the Greek word polis meaning city. Metropolis. Indianapolis. 

In ancient Greece, cities were divided into four regions of political influence and administration. Municipal affairs, merchants and pubs, weights and measures and then Courts and justice. People were appointed to be Police usually from the military. 

A few hundred years later in Rome, Police were conscripted from the captured slave class. They formed throngs of a thousand people called legions. The Police of ancient Greece had the additional responsibility of also being firemen due to otherwise lack of division of labour. 

I medieval England, they had the Frankpledge Rules. Large households appointed ten people to be security as if it were I Am Security VR. These ten people were stalled a tithe. Ten tithes was called a tithing. All tithing within a region were under a Shire Reeve or Sheriff. 

The during the centuries that followed, the office of unpaid Constable was instituted, then paid thief catchers aka bounty hunters were instituted and then paid Constables. 

1800s Robert Peel, England. Police force with the black uniforms we know today. 

New York Police Officer Clubber Williams worked New York's 13th district shaking down questionable businesses like casinos and brothels. He got so rich that he said,  "I've been having chuck steak since I've been on the force and now I'm going to have a bit of Tenderloin.  A certain community has historically co-opted and appropriated words. 

Gay used to mean happy until it meant homosexuality.

Tenderloin district used to mean an area where a cop could get rich shaking down shady businesses and now it means homosexuality. 

Between the Police shakedown and gangsters extorting protection money, how could a business even operate? That's not how it works. Shady gangster run businesses get Police shakedown. Non shady, non gangster run businesses pay gangsters to protect them. 

I saw something very disturbing on the street yesterday. An old man was holding a sign he wrote. I don't remember the words exactly but it read something like,  "Homophobie Victoria Police bad treatment" or something like that. I looked at the sign to read it and the guy looked right at me. Creepy. Delinquent. What can you say?  Gotham City. Arkham Asylum. 

I hope that the Police caught that guy. It's very disturbing behaviour. Hopefully that guy wasn't a queer. Whether he is or not is nobody's business except his own. 

That's the forces of life at its trolling best yet again. To be confronted again with yet another bastion of delinquency which seems to bulwark the inner city of this town. 

Strange embedded anagram:

hoMoPhobiC victoRia police = MPCR = RCMP

Since I am financially beleaguered, I might have to go to the food bank. The Catholic food Bank, and the Protestant food Bank aka The Mustard Seed. I think the Mustard Seed is non denominational. There is a Church there. Plenty of people who live in the inner city go to the Protestant Church as well as the Catholic Church as well. They don't care. Nobody asks questions. 

This morning as I walked out of the bank and up to the curb to wait for the light, a woman sitting on a bench was talking on her phone, she said what sounded like,  "Oh and he's a real loser!" 

I turned to look at her and she looked right at me. 

It could be to check if anyone heard what she said. As I was crossing the street she went on talking on her phone. 

Loser. We're a democracy of losers. We're a Congress of losers. 

Imagine the tellers at the bank. They see all kinds of crazies all day every day. 

It's been a crazy week. Like Han Solo said,  "I've been from one end of this galaxy to the other and I've seen all kinds of strange things." 

Today I was about to get an all black pair of Air Nike for an unheard of sale price of $80. 

Usually a pair sells for $110. Then I saw another nicer pair, white and black design with red stripes, same price. I tried them on. Perfect. 

If it wasn't for Nike, Adidas is the second most powerful shoe brand for me. It's completely subjective. For gopniks, Adidas is number one. 

Teleport Scotland VR is supposed to be released sometime this year. One can only hope. 

I got my teeth removed at 3:30. Now at 6 pm, I feel slightly panicky. It's primeval. Having the teeth removed. 

My dentist is the best dentist. I couldn't say the world a postiori, only a priori, perhaps the best in the World. Phenomenal next level dentistry. 

I love that team a lot. They put up with my fear and worries a lot over the years. 

Eat something. That will take away some of the panic. My only option now is soft foods like congee. Has it really come to this? Yes it has. 

Lots of women are coming on to me in ways unprecedented. I must have done something right, but what is it? There is a Russian saying, when everything is good going, it is sometimes best not to ask why. 

The Seven Faces of Eve. One of those faces is women coming on to you. 

I don't understand women. 

Women wrapped up in the culture derived from the physics of this dimension are wonderful. Even more wonderful in the other dimension. One day, but never before our time, we will get there. 

After extractions, there will be a ten hour period when one is horking up blood. It's the surgical spillage. So many needle shots. 

There was one gob that I wretched up that has huge and had a dark color of red but that's the color of the surgical anaethetia mixing with blood. It's like I horked up some animal's placenta or afterbirth because that's what it looked like in the sink. Ugggghhhhh. Wretched. 

I got through the primeval panic attack. Having the remaining upper teeth removed. That would affect a person on a primeval level. 

Friday, August 29, 2025 

Today I cleaned at Royal Anne Apartments. 

Afterwards, I got some poligrip. 

A few days ago, I looked and looked and looked and looked but I lost my tea ball. I'm using a coffee strainer as a tea ball. I got some gunpowder tea in Chinatown. The tea leaves really look like old school gunpowder from the medieval days, the grade of gunpowder used to make fireworks rather than bullets. 

The tea is good but it's not that exotic of a variety like oolong tea or lopsang suchou. 

For less than $5 I got a good sized box of tea. About a half a pound of tea leaves, I think. 

That's what I needed the tea ball for. And I couldn't find it. 

Poligrip. One small dab in the center and one each on the left and right side. The hold is about 12 hours. It works good and I can eat again. 

Hopefully I never need to get a colonoscopy. The chemical one is asked to drink beforehand, Golytely or Go lightly is reputedly awful and was designed by minions of Satan. Surgeons recommends Citro-Mag which is a lot more milder and does the same thing. 

In the movie Eddington, someone approached Police Officer Joaquin Phoenix and showed videos of Officer Joaquin Phoenix at the shooting range. He's a sharpshooter!

I wonder if there are videos of me playing Gun Club VR show me getting impossible shots, multiple consecutive first shots, a first shot at someone holding a hostage in a distant window and a headshot at that. I'm a sharpshooter! 

It often takes up to four shots or sometimes even more to hit a target. A first shot is a first shot. Self explanatory. 

Anyone can be a sharpshooter in VR. Firing an actual gun has very different set of physics from VR. Obviously. 

In Victoria BC, the News said someone fired a BB gun at two men, then a woman and then another man. Who is he? Charles F**king Watson aka Tex Watson, the Texas bell tower sniper? That's egregious behaviour. 

"Did I ever tell you that I was lost at sea?" 

"You were lost at sea? Who are you, Rudyard F*cking Kipling?!"   Tusk

I was eating some chocolate and caramel. Chewing on one side caused the other side of the denture to stab upwards. Painful. 

Then the denture came loose. Poligrip No flavour has about a six hour hold. I'm still getting used to this. I'll need these dentures for survival now. 

Useless. Toothless. 

Eating a sticky caramel toffee chocolate bar with dentures barely one day after dental extraction surgery is like going horseback riding after having a vasectomy. #rookiemistake

If I was at a restaurant and the dentures start to come undone, I have to excuse myself, go to the washroom, take out the dentures, give them a rinse, and reapply poligrip. I don't want to make out the dentures at the table. 

There is a Poligrip 12 hour hold. I didn't opt for that one yet. I want to experience the regular experience before I go for the deluxe industrial grade experience. 

I broke the number one cardinal rule of dentures. Don't eat hard or sticky foods. I ate a Mars bar. Or more accurately, I tried to eat a Mars bar. That is a disaster for dentures. Smh. 

Donair, soft shell tacos = acceptable. 

Nougat, toffee = unacceptable. 

There is a slim chance that I could get implants. To implant all 32 teeth would be ridiculous. At least implant ten so there are enough teeth for appearance and for eating. Ideally, no more or less than 20 teeth is sufficient. 

At one time only the rich could afford dentures. Technology an new production methods have decreased the cost of dentures. 

One day, someone will come up with a new way to implant dentures that would be as different from old school method implants as the rotary engine is from the piston engine.

Then I too could afford implants. 

UNICEF sends dentists to African villages giving people there free implants. Go to an African village to get free implants. How free? Pay for the plane ticket first. Then this only works if you're Black. 

Belief is based on certainty. Faith is an oxymoron. Faith is belief in the midst of uncertainty. 

Saturday, August 30, 2025 

Now that my upper teeth are gone, I'll probably be dead in a few years at most. The internet said edentulous people have a shorter life expectancy. 

Dentures are somewhat painful at first as one sees the limits of what can be eaten. 

Dentures can be removed at will using warm water and leaving it in the mouth for two minutes. That dissolves the paste. The paste is washed off the roof of the mouth using a toothbrush. The physics of this dimension are odious. I am lloking forward to the afterlife, the next phase of life. 

I feel intense fear and worry. I think I'll be dead of starvation in a few weeks. Why must life be one problem after another? The only escape is death. Existence isn't worth existing in if all it ever is, is a case of if you do one or the other, it's a lose lose situation. 

Doctors say that fear in the first two weeks after getting dentures is completely normal. It's a big change. You're teaching yourself to eat again. You have some contraption in your mouth that you have to learn to use. Good thing I got custom dentures and not the cheap off the shelf dentures. 

Even with the Mercedes Benz of expensive dentures for the first few days the gum area will be sore and sensitive and it will eventually shrink to a more painless state. 

A baby has no teeth for the first year of their life yet this doesn't worry them. In fact, even without solid foods, they seem to grow bigger and bigger. 

Some people are born to never grow teeth. They have dihydrotic ectodermal dysplasia. What a roast! 

I woke up with my dentures in my mouth. I wanted them out immediately. They were stuck on with poligrip. I didn't want to yank my dentures out from sore sensitive gums. I feel a burst of anxiety as I write this. I then remembered that warm water usually does it. I was able to remove my dentures. I had a huge gob of dentures paste on the roof of my mouth that I couldn't get out. Using a toothbrush did it. 

I'm doing this for the first time. If I'm still alive a year later, heck two weeks later, I won't always be so afraid because then I will know that I could survive with all my upper teeth gone and how to survive with my dentures. 

The internet certainly says people without teeth have significantly shorter on the average life spans. That or else have old, long in the tooth half rotten half abscessed teeth. 

Old age is not for sissies. To go on living is scary. To die is scary. Existence paints all of us into a corner. Best not to be born or to ever have children. Then they'll have to go through all this too one day. 

Why must my life be full of fearful situations? This dimension is awful. 

I hope that God and Jesus are real. That the Church isn't making it up just for money and control.. Jesus is indeed great. But then why isn't everybody a Christian?  So many religions in the World. 

This is the same kind of fear that one would have if they all of a sudden found themselves overseas. Questions. I don't know the language, I don't know my way back to the airport. I don't have enough money to survive, I'll be dead! 

But then a person makes it through and the process, although certainly with its edgy moments wasn't as bad as imagined. 

More questions. What if I die of starvation? 

Life is full of these things. Fear of dying but then things don't go as bad as you thought. 

Tips for complete upper dentures. 

Pros. My teeth never looked this good. Ever. Just like with VR, seeing myself with new dentures a taste of afterlife physics. 

The slightly abscessing rotten teeth that were basically dying on the vine got extracted and the abscess pockets that were around the roots of those teeth are gone. 

1. Don't bite off food or it will hurt like anything. Place food in mouth with either hand or else a utensil. 

2. Don't eat a sticky caramel chocolate like I did. I tried to dig into a Mars bar. That is, tried to. The pain was so profound that I had a panic attack that lasted for a few hours. 

"Remember, it's only pain." Tom Cruise, Mission Impossible Final Reckoning 

3. Foods that are good zoner foods that I want to eat. Rice with soup. Miso soup, tofu. Sushi. Pizza but not the crust unless dipped in water first and thoroughly soaked. Eat a bite and then immediately chase that with water. It will help. 

4. Let's talk about the basic integral elements here. All food is soft food once it's in the stomach. That it was or wasn't soft food before eating is incidental. Eating soft foods to begin with simply cuts out the middleman. A lot of it is culture. The West, the person cuts their own steak. The East food is precut making it chopstick friendly. Cut into smaller pieces for the denture wearing community. And the edentulous community. And in the dream world, the waitress cuts your food right in front of you on the table for you. 

My favorite foods anyways and most of these are denture kosher:

1. Rice with soup or else fish prepared a certain way with ginger, scallions, oil, soy sauce, etc

2. Spaghetti. Tomatoes sauce with ground beef and a good dash of parmesan. 

3. Wonton noodles. 

4. Chew down using both sides of the mouth like working both sides of the street. Chewing down on just one side = a frisson of acute excruciating pain 

5. There is only a minimum amount of pressure required. Most people tend to overestimate the amount of pressure needed. You're not on meth, and it isn't bruxism, unless you are a meth head and it is bruxism. Otherwise, just a gentle but firm amount of pressure. Smoked sausages. For denture wearers, cut it into small cubes like with hors d'oeuvres, place it mouth and chew gently using both sides of mouth. With the poligrip, there should be minimum to no pain. Cut all food into bite size pieces first. And a small bit seized piece at that, a morsel. 

For the first few days, gums are still sore and healing after surgery. Give it a few days and it should be somewhat less painful. That is, should be. That's the ideal anyways. But is it the reality? 

I wonder if I'll still be alive in one month. 

Song in my mind, again and again:

When I'm Alone At Night, Michael Franks

"When I'm alone at night 

Watching those reruns of Dragnet 

Getting my dose of electrolytes 

When love pulls at me like a magnet. 

When I'm alone at night, 

Don't you feel the same way? 

When I'm alone at night."

I still feel fear. I wonder if this is unresolved childhood trauma or grooves carved into the brain during childhood. 

"All childhood are traumatic." Calvin and Hobbes 

The fear goes on. Feeling no teeth is strange and new but not in a good way. This leads to anxiety. 

I know at least two people who have been edentulous for as long as I've known them and that's years. 

I got Downtown Club VR. On sale for $14 from $21. 

It's worth it. Really good. Race tracks. Sleek beautiful design. A real car driving experience. $14 is a bit of a price but not the end of the world. 

I'm staying downtown. 

Mapo Tofu is a major option for those with dentures. It's the denture wearing community's most popular Chinese food. 

Anytime there is a new life changing medical issue, there is a potential for anxiety and  grinding fear. 

I wish I had the faith of a Priest and the courage of a Police Officer. 

The best Priests are the ones who overcame major gargantuan crises of faith. 

The Police, they maintain an image because their job is to represent the authority of the government. If they have anxiety, they keep it hidden which could be tough. 

Someone told me of her husband who is a doctor,  "I've never known him to have panic attacks for as long as I've known him."

People on that level are truly on another level. Life and death situations create panic for sure, it's primeval. Seeing cut open bodies in the OR, all that blood and all those organs, cases piling up, and even under all that, no panic attacks. Incredible. 

Dentist as well, seeing all that blood, mouths, gums and teeth in surgery. Potential life or death situation. Cases piling up. Still, no anxiety. No white coat fever which when doctors panic and get delusions about having picked up diseases that their some of their patients have. Some doctors get that. It's a firm of PTSD. 

Those people are superhuman. 

"When you have chronic PTSD, mornings are not your friend.". Debbie Hellion 

My recipe for Mapo tofu. 

Cook rice first. 

Oil on frying pan, dash of sesame oil. Then ginger, garlic, scallions any can be used or not.  Use at least one. 

Fry some ground beef, when cooked, add drained canned precooked peas, then a dash of ketchup one heaping tablespoon of sugar. Don't add tofu until the last minute or the structural integrity of the tofu will be ruined. Then add half a cup of water with cornstarch which must be well mixed in the water, avoiding a clump of cornstarch at the bottom. Bay leaves, optional. 

Use any amount. No need for measuring cups, just use your golden palate to determine approximate amount for desired flavour objectives. 

Its according to taste and every recipe in the World has a few dozen varieties. Even boiled egg. Century egg. Good with congee or just sugar. 

Congee, the preferred breakfast of champions for the Oriental edentulous community. Congee with ground beef or ground whatever. Use a Cuisinart food processor. With a Cuisinart, anyone can become like a human fly. Eat only food that has first been triturated or else liquified. Even charbroiled steak. But swirl the food in the mouth first with enough saliva. Saliva has a chemical vital for digestion called pepsin. 

Cook. And that's it. Serve with soy sauce which is essential and white pepper which is optional. Works for people with dentures and edentulous people too from whom I have been told that the gums shrink and harden and become a kind of proxy teeth. 

Mapo tofu with rice. Use firm tofu or not, either works. 

Shiu Mai dim sum would be good for the edentulous community. 

Lots of animals don't have teeth like birds and baleen whales. And dolphins. They have barely any teeth. Insects don't have teeth at all. Cuspids, bicuspid, incisors, molars, canines, well you can forget about that with these. 

In the year 2525, one small pill a day and that takes care of eating for the entire day. How it does it, I, don't know but that pill would provide sustenance. Once it reacts with stomach acid, it expands to the perfect size, not too big and not too small. A full meal deal. One would still have to go to the washroom afterwards but so what? 

Flavour varieties would include 

- King crab with a large scoop of rice

- pizza mukbang 

- vegetarian garden of delights 

- chicken alfredo with linguine pasta 

- dim sum lunch 

- VIndaloo lamb with rice 

- mapo tofu 

Etc etc. 

One more day and meta releases next months new apps. Driving in Downtown Club feels really like driving downtown at an Indy 500 type event. Cordoned off roads. Cordoned off with cement barriers with plenty of crash padding. 

The buildings look 80s yuppie which is the premium visual effect. 

Love it. 

The best of the eighties would be a jazz rock performance at an expensive modern high tech airport with the black and white televisions and when the sun is setting and the sky looks orange. 

Sunday, August 31, 2025

One tooth extracted is one thing but a few of them. The first few days, the post surgical bruising and pain will make denture wearing difficult. So for the first two weeks, go gently. Don't try to bite off. Put the food directly in the mouth first. 

Only eat soft foods like rice with soup, yogurt, congee, porridge, etc. 

Once the gums completely heal, it will be a lot better, eating wearing dentures. 

Wearing dentures after the gums have completely healed VS the week after extraction is like the difference between night and day. No more sharp searing visceral excruciating pain. 

I have been so depressed and afraid for such a long time that I'm due for a catharsis. 

One day I'll see or hear something that will make me weep for half an hour. Apocalypse Now and the movie Titanic, each of those movies made me weep for hours after watching. 

Happy tears, a happy weeping of relief. 

This has happened to me before. This happens every time because God is looking out for me. 

A few weeks ago, I felt really depressed and weirded out. I thought I was dying. I attempted to go on a walk to make me feel better. I just simply wasn't feeling better. I was walking back when I saw a Philippine guy with a kick scooter waiting at a bus stop. He was wearing a yellow polo shirt. Yellow is an angel color for sure as angels are golden and glowing from the inside and golden. 

I returned home, ate a meal and immediately felt a lot better. 

This is an angel town. So much so that I very often say,  "Thank you God, for every day sending you signs of your guidance and protection."

In ancient Egypt, they believed in a protector God who 'will watch and guard you every day of your life'.  

Anxiety is your own misguided attempt to protect yourself. Even if objectively, there is no danger for sure, but if sunjectively you believe you are in danger, well...

The thing is, you have been in dangerous situations, but like for the most part all other dangers you've experienced, it went quickly. It is a case of:  Is it a bad day or a bad five minutes that you milked all day? 

Therefore, anxiety is old programming imposing itself on a current reality or situation that is mismatched. Unresolved childhood trauma? 

Something can be a blessing in disguise. Someone, a man or a woman, can lose their teeth, get dentures and then this leads them to start a business that sells gourmet food 

to the denture wearing and edentulous communities. Soft triturated food the likes of lamb, crab, rice etc etc etc 

The business turned out to be so successful, and a sign of that is half their clientele aren't even edentulous. Of course a person isn't required to be edentulous to shop at the store. 

It's a new approach to food that views the cutting up of hard foods with a knife and fork is largely cultural, ceremonial, ritualistic and incidental. One doesn't need to do that to survive. The eating of soft foods is a deconstructionalist approach to breaking down the structure of food to its lowest common denominator and that is, that all foods are soft foods once it hits the stomach. Hard foods are over rated. Soft food is under rated. If you eat soft foods to begin with, you are cutting out the middleman which is the approach that denture wearers and the edentulous have been using for decades. 

You lose a world of hard foods but the world of soft foods gets larger. The world of hard foods constricts while the World of soft foods expands. There are many insidious hidden in plain sight foods on any restaurant menu that are soft foods. Eggs sunny side up, for instance. Drink water or some kind of liquid immediately upon eating. This softens the food and does a lot of the job that chewing would have otherwise done, for a lot of foods, like bread and donuts. 

Losing teeth, getting dentures is a part of the algorithm of the human body wrapped up in the edgy physics of this dimension. It's a reminder that I'll one day go on to the next phase of life, in case I wasn't sure. 

Having no upper teeth is like driving a convertible with the top down. It's a lighter feeling. More open breathing space is good for the lungs. 

What if humans were a species that had no teeth to begin with? Humans would live on soft foods such as raw eggs, jellyfish, cook jello made with beef protein. Rice would be made into congee rather than the way it is now. Caviar is soft food! 

One has to disattach themself from the concept that chewing up foods or cutting food in the mouth is essential when food can be cut outside of the mouth using a food processor, mincing with a knife, etc. 

Animals digest food from the inside out. Starts in the stomach and then radiates outward throughout the body. 

Mushrooms digest food from the outside in. They grow around their food first, and then start digesting. 

New things that seem good and exciting later on, don't seem so exciting. New things that are bad, later on, they don't seem as bad as they once did. 

The survival instinct has a built in negativity bias as some attempt at self protection. 

Therefore people tend to cherry pick the bad and scary things in life when there are just as many if not more good and non scary things in life. Worry is an attempt at getting control because as a species, humans don't like uncertainty. 

Jesus said that worrying will not add even one second to a man's life. 

Don't worry. I'd love to do that but getting to the point of 'no worries' is the most difficult thing to do. 

"One searches the world for something only to stumble upon it accidentally."  Chinese movie 

Perhaps I'll find the once and for all thing that will take away my fear. I still feel bursts of fear. Oh well. 

"The human mind is a place that, in itself, can make a heaven of hell or a hell of heaven."

John Milton, Paradise Lost 

Never mind soft food, in the afterlife, all food is holographic yet intensely nutritious. So progressively as we advance towards the next stage of life, food gets softer and softer. 

Life provides omens and metaphors. Smoking is an omen metaphor for holographic food. Smoking is a kind of, uh, rather than a form of holographic food because it is formless. 

Omen metaphor. Star Wars. Using the force to move objects. On Earth in this dimension, that's impossible unless you use a remote control. In the afterlife, as a different dimensional expression, that's an everyday thing. Not only that, make objects appear and disappear. 

Beavis and Butthead. Beavis needed an earthworm for a recipe. He reached into his pocket and there was an earthworm! 

"Why do you have a worm in your pocket, Beavis?" 

"I don't know. It was just there." 

That's next dimension physics. 

My dentures are an omen metaphor for how my teeth will look like in the afterlife and they won't be dentures. 

There is a greater intelligent plan than the will of man. Even greater than the collective energy of all the Earth. 

Problems don't just go away, they often go away in the strangest, most freakishly coincidental or even in omenistic ways which is a proof of God. 

Enlightenment is reached when a person realizes that God and the Universe loves them more than they can possibly imagine. 

Feeling anxiety, I just remembered that sweeping the Courthouse again is something I'm looking forward to. Tomorrow is Labour Day. Do it on Tuesday again for sure. Tomorrow, I'm thinking of working at a Catholic place. I hope to get a Catholic blessing and prayers to St Dymphna for me. 

I'm sure that the people working at the Courthouse don't want me to feel anxiety. 

I feel anxiety tonight. What were the chances of that? It waxes and wanes. Sometimes I get a sharp burst of anxiety that seems scary but then it goes away. 

For one week after some kind of low to mid level surgery, anxiety can happen. 

I suffer massively from fortune telling. I think I can tell the future. 

Fortune telling is a type of cognitive delusion. 

If a person thinks they can see the future and its all glowing and rosy, that's healthy and not as much of a problem as seeing a catastrophic future. 

Negative fortune telling creates confirmation bias. One looks for things that support their delusion. 

This in turn leads to increased probability outcome. A person fears that will flub up a job interview. They go there nervous and not confident and don't get the job. 

However, even this has a slim chance of happening as most worries wind up never happening or else the event isn't as bad as the picture they painted in their mind. 

There is realistic and unrealistic thinking. 

Island magic. It's happened to me a lot in the past. Island magic has the power to cure me of my anxiety. All problems wither under the glare of good government. 

Anyone reading this, please say a prayer for me, for my anxiety.