September 2025

Monday, September 1, 2025 

Fear. What else is new? Now hearing myself talk without my upper teeth scared me. All things scared me. Every little thought brought on a awful frisson of fear, worry and depression, sharp, searing. 

Ha ha, dentists say that the first few days after having clear braces, the voice sounds funny. The first few days after brace removal, the voice sounds funny too. 

"When your mind doesn't actually have information, it will make, sh*t, up." HealthyGamerGG, YouTube 

This describes the R complex. The wording he used. Genius poet. 

When in anxiety and panic attack, the executive function shuts down. 

My friend once said, "People talk like they got an encyclopedia in front of them and they're reading from it when all it is, is just more guesses."

During massive, that is, massive anxiety attacks, this is happening big time. Guessing sh*t. All of it wrong of course. I mean, as if I have a medical degree. 

Having no upper teeth. I feel deformed. 

Having no upper teeth feels like a crime. Hence the fear. 

It feels rather insectoid to the point of Kafkaesque. The metamorphosis. Die Verwandlung. 

New things like this will take awhile to get used to until it becomes the new normal. One day, I will barely remember the days when I had my upper teeth. But now, the memory is still fresh 

Eating sushi certainly helped. 

I think it's a miracle because two days ago, I really believed that I would never be able to eat sushi ever again. 

Not eating all day can cause anxiety, conflated with newly missing upper teethcreates a multiple stressor. 

One day, I'll be happy again. It's about cycles and balance. 

I'm feeling on edge. I wonder if I have brain damage. 

"I think I have brain damage."

"Brain damage nothing. You have a tongue sharp enough to cut the lawn." Emily Carr in England 

The good news is this is when the dynamic shifts. If I'm still alive in a month, two months with all my upper teeth, I would see that as normal. If I'm still alive in two months with my upper teeth missing, that will be a miracle. The happiness I will feel is directly proportional to the amount of time elapsed. 

You feel depression because you've once known bliss. 

You feel bliss because you've once known depression. 

I could reinvent myself as an uber German. I need to have a long blonde wig like Thranduil or Cerembor of Lod of the Rings if not color my hair as it is blonde. Then I need a black blazer, black slacks and white dress shirt and black formal shoes. To complete the ensemble of an über German, one would need a Mercedes Benz and living in a nice house in the West Side can do it. 

In this life because the physics of this dimension have always since day one been politicized and weaponized against us, I won't be able to achieve that. However, in the afterlife, I can totally achieve that. Something like that can be a yantra or a visual mantra. I can just visualize myself as a rich uber German to the tune of Depeche Mode, Enjoy the Silence. 

What a fuck*ng Polack. 

Polack mentality. 

"That's classic drug addict behaviour." Dr Drew Pinsky

That's classic Pollack behaviour. 

Poland and Germany sign a treaty. Poland sees Germany attacking all these other countries but leave their borders undefended because of the treaty. Guess what. Germany attacks. 

One Polack I know locks his room door even when he goes to the washroom for five minutes. Then one day he ends out his keys to two meth head girls. 

Another Pollack, a she-Pollack, has a nice car. But drives it all the time to some scuzzy sleazy hole-in-corner food line. Slumming. That's like pulling up in a Mercedes to the welfare one up. 

They're just kids who want to have some fun. 

So tonight the Pollack loses his keys and he asks me for the hotel main door key. He's been gone for over half an hour. Why didn't he ask one of the other neighbours? 

God damned Polack. What a fuck*ng Polski. 

A Polack brings a car door to the beach on a hot day. Why? If it gets too hot, he can always roll down the window. 

The Polack has been gone for awhile now. What a fuck*ng Polack. He probably went to his meth head girlfriends apartment. She probably stole his keys. Fuck*ng stupid Polack. 

Just after 4 in the morning, I woke up, I got my key back. I found it near the door of my room. He did say he'd return it. It could have been returned hours ago. He didn't knock before returning it. That Wojecki returned my house key. 

East Indians pre 1947 fought for an independent India rather than a British colony. So what do they do? Move to Canada which is a British colony. Talk about taking a step backwards going from a country that is racially genuine, a country that is colorful vibrant and exotic where they are masters in their own land, a racial majority to a backwater British colony where they are a viable minority. 

Pre 1947, although India was a British colony, East Indians were still the racial majority there. Then for the to move from a then independent country to a British colony where this time they are a visible minority. Not thinking things through.....

BC is a Province with some kind of megalomania. A single detached house costs $1.5 million, a small shoebox condo costs $650,000. In New Brunswick, a single detached house costs $550,000 which is reasonable and what houses should cost in BC without the wild west speculation, money laundering and general overall mismanagement. Getting a house in BC is like paying $50 for a $20 pair of jeans. And New Brunswick doesn't have a delinquent area like the downtown eastside that BC does. New Brunswick sounds like a place that has less delinquency on average than British Columbia. 

I shouldn't think of them as delinquent. To give credit where credit is due. A lot of stories of kindness happened. One time, a so called meth head delinquent but that person wasn't that at all, could be into meth, but also an angel or at least a Saint, gave me a nice blazer that I could wear to Court. Another time, a street person found a jacket that I would have otherwise lost. 

People living on the streets, sleeping rough, go through a life that would give most people severe anxiety. Yet they are able to do it. They could be superhuman. They are very brave and very resourceful people. They are some of the best people around for that reason. Such people have a lot to teach. 

I often say a prayer,  "Thank you God for blessing and protecting people living on the streets. May they find the happy future that they are looking for." 

Tuesday, September 2, 2025 

Missing all of the upper teeth feels strange, even scary at first. Yeah, that's because if a person is vain and somewhat narcissistic to begin with. 

"It's been with me so long that I don't know anything else." Lt Ripley, Alien 3

Memories of having my upper teeth are still fresh. One day, I won't really remember. 

A person can experience anxiety even during good events. It's an embarrassment of riches. Except that it's not called anxiety. A person who all of a sudden finds themself in a five star hotel. They would experience slight depersonalization and derealization. 

Anxiety is half mental and half physiological so thinking alone won't get a person through it. A person must also inhale deeply for three seconds, hold for 3 seconds. And then exhale for 6 seconds. In times of genuine stress, it is very important to breathe out for twice as long as you breathe in. As one exhale, they will feel a distinct but pleasant slight burning just beneath their sternum. That's the stress leaving the body in an involuntary way as the vagus nerve or the parasympathetic nervous system is activated.

A person can psyche themself into anxiety with crazy made up thoughts and they can breathe themself into anxiety through half apneated, shallow breaths. 

A person can think themself out of anxiety through reminding themself that they are just making stuff up and don't actually have the facts, where's the evidence, and millions of other people went through the same thing and they're fine, and one can breathe themself out of anxiety through breathing in for four seconds, hold for three seconds and breathing out for eight seconds. Do it so it feels natural not strained or strived for, as if it's already there naturally. Which it is. 

And also relax all the muscles. Place yourself in a situation where there is relief, practice method acting, being told that a person who you thought was going to die, recovered really well. And breath like, "Whew!"  That tells the mind that all is fine. 

Or place yourself walking out of the probation office after the last time of being required to report. For all people on probation, that day is coming down the pike in a few months. 

Breathe, exhale deeply, as if that was happening. 

I hope to encounter a chapter in my life where I am always happy even in spite of myself. Every day, I see angel signs in this town. Angels are looking out for me but also for every single good person in this world. 

I hope to get a Cuisinart. Then I could throw in a steak, liquify it and drink it. I have no upper teeth now. 

That's kind of like finding a morphine sulfate pill, melting it down and shooting it. Uh, no, not really. 

Quantum Void popped up as a video recommendation on YouTube. Somehow I just knew about it. Costs $11. Very impressive. Intense. Profound. And for this price. Originally, it was $13.99. Two hours later it was $15.99 or was it always $15.99 misremembered as $13.99?  

With a 30% off, I got it for $11.59 If I got it for $13.99, the price with the discount would have been $9.78. It would be about $2.70 difference. Whatever. 

Anyways worth it. I am just simply impressed. No AI was used. The game is completely handmade. 

Meta Quest 3. Quantum Void Update. Hottest VR app. 

Get it soon. I can see this app being a $40 app. More updates get added and the price increases. If you get it at an early price, you get the upgrades free as some kind of grandfather clause. They must have added an upgrade to explain the $2 price increase. 

This game is so profound that it blows my hair back. It's that good. Whew! 

However my grasp of mathematics as you can see is not as profound. 

Base price minus 30% discount plus tax. That's the formula. 

Wednesday, September 3, 2025 

I still think back to that sleazy scuzzy couple. That guy who said the Apple iTag was his and the girl who asked to borrow my broom. Profoundly sleazy and scuzzy. That guy is a major compulsive thief kleptomania. I amagine him going to grocery stores in trenchcoats and stuffing steaks under the trenchcoat and going into years and swiping things in an industrial level. 

He saw my bag with the things I use to water plants. He picks it up and the Apple iTag falls out. What's this? He asks. 

The a few minutes later, Hepicks up the bag again. What was going through his leprous scuzzy mind was, "If he had a Apple iTag, what else does he have in there?" I said that's my bag. He said he didn't know that. Sure, he just picked it up five minutes ago and I was talking to him about it. He was rummaging through it to see what else he could steal. 

That's the forces of life. I generate the energy of helping the Courthouse. In return, the forces of life sends me two inbred cracker delinquent scuzzy sleazy @ssholes. I wish I could kill that guy. People like that are useless and I think he will go to hell when he dies surrounded with people who are all the likes of him. Some scuzzy hell realm. That guy doesn't look like he's long for this World anyways. 

That lady was really sleazy. In this dimension, for a man, 2/3 of all women are not worth knowing. For a woman, 3/4 of all men are not worth knowing. 

In the afterlife in heaven under the physics of that dimension, 100% of all people truly are worth knowing. In this dimension under its physics, its not even close to that. 

That Presbyterian Church is a cult. My objective is to eventually stop going there. 

If I were to send them a letter, it would say, 

"When I don't go there. People from there ask me why I don't go. If you didn't go for awhile, I wouldn't go to your workplace and ask you why you don't go. The thing is, those culty cuktists go to the Courthouse grounds where I work and ask me why I don't go. It's like some frenzy. When I don't go, they get desperate because there aren't a lot of people going there anyways but when I go there, I'm a draw. 

I'm a person who is real. So I become a real battery for those vampires. Convert convert convert. 

To them I'm some colorful inconsequential who amuses them when they're in the mood. Or otherwise I'm a foil. I'm really smart and talented, more talented than them. Yet they are living in richer houses and when they see me, they remember that. 

I really don't have much in common with them. Fundamentalist Christianity is very limited and circumscribed and regimented and doesn't go outside a certain repetitive loop, ever. 

They don't talk about things like the physics of this dimension vs that of the afterlife. They don't talk of the different time dynamic that the afterlife operates in and how exactly it works. 

That's because, ha ha, fundamentalist religion is somewhat anachronistic entities that are completely wrapped up in and wired to the phsyics of this dimension so much so that they depend on it for their income. 

I didn't choose to come to Canada. I was brought here as a child without consultation and without informed consent which would look like:

Would you rather stay in China where you are one of the rscial majority in a country that is at the technological vanguard in the World, state of the art futuristic and rockshow with safe orderly streets or go to the West where inbred Alfred E Neuman faced crackers are referring to you as visible minority and BIPOC in a country that is backwater, feeling like you've taken a step backwards and a sh*show with picaresque streets saturated with delinquents. It's a tough call, isn't it? 

A Chinese person who has been in the West and was referred to as visible minority, even though they've gotten somewhat inured to the poison, when they go to China, they would appreciate being one of the rwcial majority a lot more than the locals would. 

And if I went there, they would know that I would know that they would know that I was born there. This type of dreamcraft resonance simply would not happen for me in the West. 

If I don't go there for awhile, are they coercing me to go there? 

I think so. When I say no, or make a face, they always ignore that face. I am very sensitive to faces. If I see someone make a face, I don't bother, I don't push. But they do because they are middle class delinquents with their middle class delinquency. They never take the first no as an answer. They always push. Oh, come on, etc. Which is another sign of their ignorance. 

And when I say, I think you're trying to coerce me to go thrre. They say, No, that's just your perception. 

That's gaslighting, do you understand? Gas lighting is denying another person's validity or reality with casual offhand dismissals. But, ha ha, they've been doing that to each other for years. If I wasn't born, they would have been doing that to someone else at about this time. Someone else wasn't born and they did that to me. 

They are squares with whom I don't have much in common with. 

Lots of lots of Christian Churches are like that. Their attendance is declining. The Catholic Church in town seems to be full of people, bursting at the seams, and even with me there, that Protestant Church is alwaus chronically underattended. Why is that so? Catholicism is better. Catholicism actually does things for their parishioners. Find them a job, find them a partner. Protestant Churches have a link to Puritanism and Puritan mentality that the Protestants simply don't. A person can go to a Protestant Church unemployed and single and ten years later still be unemployed and single. Go to a Catholic Church, ten years later, you have a partner and a job. Catholics are the Worlds biggest landowners. Protestant Churches are too divided and schismatic to own much of any and compared to the Catholics which is why the Catholics can provide in a way that Protestants simply can not. 

Catholicism is the better religion. In terms of providing for their parishioners, they are way better, way way better than sleepy hole-in-corner Protestant Churches. 

Catholicism is the OG Christianity anyways. Protestantism is just a crackpot knock off brand of Catholicism. 

Protestsntism doesn't have a Vatican. Catholicism seems like a more cohesive more unified religion. Protestantism seems like a disparate and scattered religion in comparison. 

However, Pastor Joel Osteen is the best Pastor in the World. You hear one of his sermons and always feel uplifted. Go to one of the local Churches, hear a sermon and walk out feeling weirded out. Compared to Pastor Joel Osteen, standard issue fundamentalist Christianity, be it Catholicism or Protestantism is rather dry. 

I used to go to Church and get the Sunday vibes. One thing is that I didn't smoke tobacco. When you don't smoke tobacco, your dream life is more vivid and you feel the Sunday vibes a lot stronger. I've only attended a few times Catholic Church. Protestant Churches, look at the stained glass windows, look at the patches of light reflected off floors, walls, furnishings and the spell takes hold. Feeling a bliss that is unimaginable on any other day of the week. It would be strong sometimes so strong that it feels like it's too much. 

However, Sunday night at midnight, listening to soft music, it's night time, it's dark, but remembering that earlier in the day, was the stained glass windows, and being at the Church with its exquisite atmospheric, one feels a sudden strong burst of the Sunday vibes. Even now I feel that. I felt that two Sundays ago. 

That's why they don't have to coerce me. I won't stay away for too long. 

Buddhism says something weird, be not too close and be not too far away. 

Be not too close means don't be st the point where you are pestering the Buddhist Priest all the time asking all kinds of spurious questions. Be not too far away. That's conversion and co-opting. They want to convert and co-opt as many people as they can. That's the predatory nature of religions or why else are they preying, I mean praying all the time? 

Religions don't go outside a certain line and are limited. There are steams of thought and spirituality that transcends institutional religion. The government anticipated that there would be such advanced people so there are bookstores such as Banyen books in Vancouver which is the best spiritual and metaphysical bookstore in the World and even in the entire Universe that talk about spirituality, approaches from all different religions each of which hold a truth that the other religions overlook, quantum physics and different spiritual practices, what really happens after one dies and not the dumbed down non specific treatise that fundamentalist religion offers as an answer to what happens, exactly after a person dies. 

Religions are what they are, you can't expect any more from what they are. 

A Mercedes goes quite fast but will never go as fast as an F-86 Sabre. Religions are like that. 

Let's face it. As you can see. I'm not perfect at all. I'm not as spiritual as a Priest at any Church be it Protestant or Catholic. My views are withered, twisted, gnarled and imperfect. A Priest is simply on another level compared with whatever the heck level I am on when it comes to spiritual understsnding and they are not as cynical, crusty and curmudgeonly as me. May the Priests of any religion see my imperfect state and ask God to guide me to a more appropriate understanding and comprehension of ecumenical faith. 

My faith isn't that strong. 

The faith of most of the parishioners at Church let alone the Priest is most likely stronger than my faith. A sign of faith is lack of worry. 

Worry is dismissing God's power and love. Oh, there's no God, it's just a chemical soup of random forces. A teapot in a Tempest. God, etc that's just an imaginary made up story. The truth is, we're all alone in the Universe and we're doomed. I mean the Earth is a tiny microscopic dot in vast oceans of outer space blackness in a Universe that is what, 93 billion light years wide! That's overwhelming. 

There's no forces greater than humanity or even that of all the Earth who is aware of us and watching over us. 

"There's nobody here but us chickens." That's Satanism, do you understand? 

Therefore I worry a lot so that means that I don't really have much faith compared to a Priest. However the best Priests are those who once had massive industrial grade crises of faith and overcame them. I've talked to Priests and they all seem more together, more calm, less worried, more certain about God than I am. 

I have too much doubt. How could I have doubt? I've had lots and lots of Royal dreams. God is with me. I had a lot of major dreams. Good ones too. 

Thank you God for guiding my steps. Thank you God for helping me find a way where I don't see a way. 

Meta Quest has two mew VR goggles revealed at launch 

Tiramisu, emphasises high resolution, 8K.

Boba, field of vision, 180 degrees horizontal, 120 degrees vertical. 

I would opt for clarity over field of vision. A larger field of vision leads to motion sickness. You don't need more field of vision to see a traditional flat screen movie. Adventures, travelling, military and golf and fishing could do well with a larger field of vision? 

Someone in comments said why not put the two together to start with? 

This is probably a social experiment to see what consumers would prefer and they would thus base their next VR goggles on that. 

The cost would probably be phenomenal. 

It is the difference between seeing a movie on the Big Screen App which is Boba and seeing a movie on the YouTube VR app which is Tiramisu. 

Big Screen has Arc Max. The scaling makes the screen much bigger than the YouTube VR app but the resolution is limited to 480. 

On the YouTube app, the definition is 1080! You notice the difference. The picture on the YouTube app is much sharper. 

On my LG Nano TV, the definition is 4K. It depends what medium you use. 

I'll always love you, Beebs. 

When I said that, the way my mouth flubbed when I said that, it sent a wave of fear through me. 

Anyways, I won't wear my dentures in public a lot of times. Dentures are better for social interactions but it's more comfortable not wearing it, like wearing a push-up bra. And I'm speaking from experience. No, I'm not, it's just a joke. 

The joke is in the school of the movie Two Weeks Notice. 

Sandra Bullock: I travel lightly. I only brought one pair of thong underwear. 

Hugh Grant: Same here. 

War Remains is a 12 minute $6 award winning VR presentation about Ww1. It's on for free on YouTube. It is only available on the Oculus Rift, not on the meta quest. 

Diggers VR may or may not be available on YouTube. 

Fear is based on what a person always tells themself. Especially if they are under the subjective perception that they are in the wrong country. 

One has to change that. You are in the right country. 

It is the little things, one day you will see they were the big things. It's the care in the little social interactions. Instead of, "Why the hell are you cultists trying to nudge and coerce me to go back to Church?" 

Instead,  "Always good to see you. I've known you for years. I'll be sure to go back to Church again." 

With my strange thoughts, I doubt I could ever be a Priest. A Priest has a lot of faith. Not doubt and cynicism. The missing upper teeth is still a little bit scary. I'll get used to it. 

Makes it worse:

The day I heard that Heather died, on that morning I rode my skateboard past a graveyard. If I hadn't, my grief experience wouldn't have been as bad. 

My dentist let me look in the mirror to see me with my teeth newly extracted. My gums were wrecked and there was a huge spot of drak red where my tooth had been. It looked like some kind of bullet hole. It looked awful. What a Satanic visage. If I hadn't seen that, my post teeth extraction process would not have been as bad as that image is in my mind. I still get these microfrissons of fear. That's because I've been psyching myself out with fearful thoughts rather than happy positive thoughts like remembering something I seen written at a Vietnamese restaurant. 'It is good to know that some of the best days of your life hasn't happened yet'. Good things are coming. The best is yet to come. You think your life is over. It hasn't even started. This is not the end. This is just a strange gutwrenching chapter. 

When one goes to a store, they cherry pick the best items they can get. Why is it then that during anxiety, a person cherry picks the worst most catastrophic outcomes possible. 

I had an insight. Why would I, of all people, fear the future? I made a better future than others imagined. A good future is going to happen for me. My landlord said to me, "You're a good person and the future knows that. The future only has time to f*ck around with the really bad people in life." 

There are quite a few instances of me clearing weeds that are like Jack and the Beanstslk, these weeds at times were as tall as me. I've seen even taller than me. I pulled them all up, cleaned the wall of any weeds. At one place moss covered the ground and those cement markers at the parking lot. I scratched away all of that moss. I try to envision the reaction of the workers going there on Monday morning and seeing the area clean because I remember what it looked like before. Quite a few places like that. 

Those people probably thought, Oh, more of the same, more of those unsightly weeds, that's if I notice at all because I usually try to screen that out. Holy smokes! The area looks really cleaned. I wonder who did it. Probably the city. 

So I shouldn't fear the future that much. 

I have to imagine good things are happening for me in the future. 

On Monday, when I cleaned the wall of St Anne's Academy, I saw a person dressed in a black hoodie riding a black ebike with thick tires. On that morning, I said aloud in German about fearing most of all the ghost of Christmas future. The two tires represent that the future has two types of Christmases, good and bad. All in black means that the future is unseen. Even the best of Christmas futures is currently shrouded in a black veil of the unseen. 

There is no past and future. It's all happening simultaneously depending on the modality of time being used. The present doesn't morph into the future, the future morphs into the present. Because past and future are aspects of this iteration of the present moment, the perpetual ever present moment. 

So Ghost of Christmas Future is an aspect of and not on a separate team so to speak from the Ghost of Christmas Present. 

Playing cricket in VR is an option for me. And for free too. A good $40 cricket VR app for free. Cricket is there are no foul balls or offsides because it can be hit anywhere on the field. The player uses a flat paddle shaped bat. There are those U shaped metallic things planted in the ground. What's that? Oh well. I don't know if I'll try this but cricket is something I've known about since I was young. BBC News, sports, cricket. It was more popular in the old days rather than now unless as there's a larger than estimated cricket community I don't know about. 

Let me guess. Hit the ball with the paddle. Run around as many of those metallic things as you can. Make it back to home base before someone in the field throws the ball back to the umpire or else bat catcher. 

"I don't like cricket. I love it." 10CC, Dreadlocks Holiday 

This morning, I had some braised vegetables specifically Shanghai bok Choi. The recipe is fry some garlic, add the bok Choy, fry, then add half a cup of water and a dash of oyster sauce. Reduce slightly in an Escoffier reduction. 

I had to install my upper dentures with poligrip. The dentures kept slipping off in spite of the poligrip. 

Rookie mistake. Wait five minutes after applying poligrip before eating especially watery things like braised vegetables. Otherwise, the glue will dissolve instantly and simply will not work. 

There is a spot in my upper right jaw. I hope it heals soon. Thsts the spot where I jammed my dentures, one side knifing upwards in that area when I tried to take on a Mars bar. Mars bars can now only be eaten in canapé hors d'oeuvres style, that is to cut it into very small squares and to let it dissolve in the mouth. This could work. My lflife has come to this. What an existential conundrum. 

I use germ killing mouthwash often. This will take care of any bacteria. I'm brushing my bottom teeth very regularly now. 

I haven't become completely edentulous. That would be kind of scary. 

At first. Then you get used to it. At first the different sounding voice, the way you're enunciation different letters scares you, then after awhile, you think it's cute. 

Simplified chawan mushi recipe. 

2 eggs or even just one for a single serving, two for a large order. 

3/4 cup of dashi which is really just a fancy way of saying miso soup powder. 

Mirin rice wine for the sweet wine taste. Forget Mirin add two tablespoons of sugar water. 

Dash of Soy sauce. 

Whip the eggs together but not too frothy if at all. 

Then mix with the dashi. 

Get a good thick porcelain clay cup. Put whatever in the world addition you want. Chicken, beef, lamp, whatever. Vegetables, etc. I'm going with prawns but since I'm semi edentulous, I can give the prawns a slight mince. With the dentures I can most likely work the prawns with my new artificial teeth. 

Right. Mince shrimp, bottom of cup, pour in the dashi and whipped egg mixture through a strainer, 

Place cup in a steamer with lid and cover the each cup with aluminum foil. 

Sauce. For one serving, about half a cup of dashi with a liberal amount of sugar and a dash of Soy sauce. Boil that. Then add a quarter cup of cornstarched water. Cornstarch must be mixed well in the water of course. Pour that in and give it a bit of an Escoffier reduction. Pour over the screamed egg mixture. 

This amuse bouche is a great choice for the edentulous and denture wearing community. 

Heck at this point on every other item on the menu is an amuse bouche. Something exotic and delectable, liquified and pureed to an exquisite luxurious texture. 

Feeling a lot better. If I say that the anxiety went away 100%, it wouldn't be an exaggeration. 

On Monday when I cleaned for Satan's Academy and then the other presumably Satanic Church across the street, I said,  "I cleaned for you. What I hope is to get a blessing to take away my anxiety. So I can be a better help for the neighborhood. It's not like I'm asking for money. So it's spiritual. Such a spiritual request would be acceptable." 

That Church across the street from At Anne's Academy is not Satanic. At all. 

And asking for a prayer to St Dymphna made on my behalf. I specifically asked this at St Anne's but not at the Protestant Church across the street. 

I asked this saying it out loud but softly, as a kind of poetry. 

My anxiety is gone. The post surgical pain in the gums has gone. 

If I were to do it over again, knowing what I know now, it's don't even attempt to try to  use the dentures at all until about six days after surgery. Just eat soft foods and deink liquids and neither too hot or too cold. Oatmeal, congee. 

The weirdness and anxiety is normal. It feels strange, deformed, insectoid, like a crime. Just as absolute power corrupts absolutely, likewise absolute desensitization desensitizes absolutely. In time, a person just gets desensitized to it and doesn't really remember the life before dentures like not remembering last night's dream. 

Feeling really good. The warm glow of Autumn nostalgia. Just chilling back with my new dentures. 

Thursday, September 4, 2025

I have to stay in the West. I've had so many dreams of the BRF that I have some special connection to the West. Ad knowing me, if I was there, I would see signs reminding me of that. Like seeing the number 111. 

When I was in Vancouver last year to pick up my electric skateboard, on the way there, I saw the number of one of the Skytrain I was on was 111. Then 112, then 113, then 114. 

I don't think I'll ever go to see futuristic China except on YouTube. It would be the same thing. Go there, see the sights, otherwise, don't know anybody, don't talk to any body. What's the difference between that and seeing a YouTube video? 

My life is good. The people at Church, let's face it, are more together than me in a lot of ways. That for one thing, should be completely obvious. 

As for other events in my life, people are happy to see me. I am always thoughtful and courteous. I try to wear nice clothing when I go to social occasions. 

I am old now. Semi edentulous. It's the beginning of the end. That's irrational. Some people got all their teeth gone when they were in their 20s. A very few people are born without the ability to grow teeth at all. 

A lot of animal species such as pangolins don't have teeth. Octopuses, octopi, birds have beaks in which case the mouth and lips and teeth serve the same function. Fish barely have any teeth. Very small pebble sized triangular teeth. 

Shark are the teeth masters. First species to ever have any teeth ever and three rows of teeth that grow back throughout life. If a human had three rows of teeth, dental hygiene at a clinic could last for a couple of hours instead of half an hour. If humans had teeth that grow back, that would be great but humans have the ability to implement dental implants which is totally rock star. 

Lots of rich old people have implants. 

I opted to not try cricket. 

The game is played on an oval like the Oval Office. Not the diamond of baseball. In the middle is a patch where the batter hits the ball. There are two metallic things on either side. The batter hits the ball. The batter is supposed to run from one side of the rectangular midpatch to the other. 

11 players per side. Each 'inning' can have up to 300 balls. A cricket match can last for a day, three days or a week. What the. 

I simply don't have time for that. It seems like a dilettante effete version of baseball. But since cricket is the older sport, baseball is an Americanized form of cricket. 

I wouldn't be interested in trying this. Pickleball is another sport that is too dilettante. In pickleball if you hit the ball on the other side of the net across from you, that's wrong. The ball has to be hit diagonally on the other side of the play area over the net. Left side hits to right side, right side hits to left side or it doesn't count. In tennis, it all counts. 

In VR, one doesn't actually run. A person swings their arms up and down or else uses the joystick to teleport. So to run from one side of the rectangular patch to the other in VR before one of the outfielders throws the ball back to the main centre area. Well.... 

Cricket has a worldwide fan base of 2.5 billion people. So does Catholicism. 

I have hydrogen peroxide which I got at London Drugs two years ago. I'm thinking of coloring my hair blonde so I can look like an uber German. Continental European sophistication in the backwoods of Canada. I need to dilute that with water and then rinse through my hair. I'm thinking about it. 

One of my neighbours has hookers visit him. 

To score with hookers, you have to be able to talk a certain way. 

I'm not very lucky with women as someone who is operating under the duress of the physics of this dimension. 

One of the hookers I know of. I've given her money a few times when she panhandlers and I talk with her briefly, How are you doing? You're doing well? That's good. See you next time. Etc  

That's life, the inner city has a rich social life of people interacting here and there. 

The difference scoring with a hookers and getting a regular girlfriend is like the difference between borrowing a book at the Library and purchasing a book at the bookstore. 

With junkie hookers a person can often pick up a non sexual disease along with an expected sexual disease such as a case of hepatitis and then AIDS. Or else a case of mononucleosis and then syphilis or gonorrhea. 

That's the physics of this dimension. 

On the Simpsons, Homer said something like, 

"Marge, with women in the past, something said yes, something said no but with you Marge, it was green lights all the way." 

I've never been good at scoring with hookers. 

Ha ha, as you may well. Know, with hookers, you start out as a John but will wind up being a Mark. That's when she's over all the time whenever she needs money. Perhaps swipe things. Whatever. Sordid. Wretched. 

Sex involves a bit of work, timing, coordination and I'm simply out of practice. Since I don't socialize much, there aren't any women whom I really know or spend more than a few minutes once every few weeks talking with at most. 

Otherwise, I'm thinking that if I had a million, would I leave this town or not? 

There is person and there is role. Shakespeare said a person plays quite a few roles in this stage of life. I happen to sometimes talk to a panhandler meth head girl, one of a few, give her money in sumpathy, call her beautiful in sympathy, then she visits my neighbour as a prostitute. That it's that particular girl and that my neighbour is that person is incidental. 

I could have moved to another town but that exact situation could reoccur but with another girl and with another neighbour. So is it the person or is it the role? 

The girl does seem mildly attractive but then there's the thought of her smoking meth in my room and then casing the place and swiping stuff. I never wanted a meth head girlfriend. Too bad I have to deal with this with a thoughtless neighbour. He's a meth head himself lol.  But this guy is rather mendacious. Lies all the time but Polish people are known to be liars. And to have that catalyze with my thoughts. What an insufferable situation. 

I don't know if I'm really into that girl at all. 'He's Really Not That Into You' or whatever the movie is called. Some women I met, me and her had a chemistry. As soon as I talked to her, when I returned to my room, I thought of her a lot. Other women I met, after I talked to her, I return to my room and didn't think of her at all. She doesn't do it for me as much as other women. "I've worked with better. But not many." Bill Murray, Ghostbusters 2 

'There's no accounting for taste', as the French say. 

I wish Heather was alive. I could've turned to her for advice about this. She was and still is a smart lady. Heather knew my neighbour and she knew the meth head girl as well. 

No situation lasts forever. The Buddhist concept of anicca is impermanence. Impermanence devours all. 

Jesus said to not care at all about things that are wrapped up in the physics of this dimension. At the time when a person is alive, these things in life that strike one as insufferable seem like an excruciating torment. When life is over, these things in life will mean not a thing. 

Jesus also said, "Store your treasures not on the Earth but in heaven where dust and moths won't get to them."  The only thing a person can bring with them to the afterlife is their own personalty. Be sure to develop it well to the best of your ability. 

I'm a responsible ape man. That I'm not very lucky with women is something that I can accept. 

I have to remember to improve my skills. See if I can do a backflip or can I not set a goal that doesn't involve the risk of bodily injury. I can learn a language. I can save up and go to Quebec. I saw a video a out a village in Chilliwack BC. It isn't just a village. It's a mind blowing spectacular small town scene from the Victoria era. Beautiful spectacular buildings. Beautiful on the scale of Europe and China. Canada is changing. For the better. I never thought that Chilliwack would be that spectacular. Travel, learning a language, improving my dance moves. 

I could make a World War 1 airplane model. That also requires glue and paints. Pricey. 

If I got the Fokker D7, I would paint it black. If I had the Fokker Dr1, I'd paint it red. 

The Sopwith Camel would be painted with a tan and olive green camouflage design. 

I wouldn't mind getting an Airco DH2 push propeller plane. 

The Airco DH2 was the first propeller plane with machine guns and were deadly for a few months until Anton Fokker figured out how to design a machine gun that shoots between propeller blades which was absolutely lethal and at first terrified British and French air troops until they reverse engineered such planes. 

The future isn't going to be all bad or all good. Things work differently than thst. It's more like snakes and ladders. Small advancements and small set backs mixed with major advancements and major setbacks. The future often has a way of being better than you could have imagined. That has happened to me. 

I could be single for life. However, if I'm not, I will let you know! 

One thing that every expat knows is that things can change very quickly. A shop closes. People graduate to the next stage of life. 

A person can be in one town and not know that in less than one year, they'd be in another town doing something amazing. That's happened to me a few times in my life. 

I'm an expat from the mainland. The mainland is where the pulse of action is. Continental Europe is sophisticated and is the bastion of centuries of history and intellectual refinement. Continental Europe has Germany which is really exciting. I'm picturing black German birds on large red banners, middle ages. Long straight blonde hair, black leather Trenchcoat or black Armani suits with white shirt. Bauhaus style. Industrial Gothic. With majestic propeller planes. I would like to have the ideal woman at my side. I've had girlfriends before and with me, I could go for awhile without but somehow, I always find another girlfriend. Somehow. I would tell her about my uber German design aesthetic with the long straight blonde hair, black attire with white shirt with buttons and collar. 

I would need stylish shoes although I'm not sure what brand. Nike doesn't make formal attire shoes. Speaking of shoes, I thought I found an ordinary knock off pair of black shoes. I looked closer today. They are Asics! Good brand. This happened to me lots on this island. Find something or purchase something which I think is ordinary at first. Turns out it is a premium item. Island magic. 

So anyways things can change quickly. Who knows if I'll be here in a year. I'd love to live at James Bay. Or Sidney BC. That would be my dream however, under the thumb of the ohsyics of this dimension, any place I move to will be guaranteed to have the most interesting of neighbours and sometimes, not in a good way. Though for the most part neighbours are pretty good. They are also living in the trenches and if one stretches their mind, they are part of the ever Autumn winter Christmas nostalgic scene of the inner city. 

I wonder if I should see a psychic and ask the psychic will I be single for life or what? The answer, "Things could be worse, but Zoltan isn't sure how." 

If the BCGEU strike extends to BC liquor stores and BC cannabis retsilers, 

- booze: cold beer and wine stores are privately owned. 

Bars, pubs, off sales. 

- cannabis: cannabis is sold somewhere around City Hall in Victoria BC although I can't specify where. Cannabis isn't sold at Vancouver City Hall and certainly not at the City Hall of any other town in this Province, that I know of. 

Yet cannabis is sold somewhere around Victoria BC City Hall. Well, it is the capital city. 

So will there be a mysterious long line up at City Hall? City Hall provides an element of plausible deniabiloty. "Oh, that's just the line up for the annual paying of property taxes." 

Strikes are acceptable as long as they don't dirlsrupt the general flow of essential goods and services. If the strike results in increased calls to first responders related to the strikes such as people dying of starvation because certain items, medications aren't being dispensed, there would be a court injunction or even end strike legislation, legislated back to work but that's still a way off. 

The Premier is understandably rather non-plussed about the strike. Will he pass a motion to implement back to work legislation? Who knows? 

In the afterlife, trees are arranged perfectly unlike on Earth. On Earth, the weather twists and gnarls branches into all kinds of unruly shapes. 

So in the afterlife, a tree from a distance with all its branches looks like the stem and veins of a large leaf and indeed each branch with its secondary branches looks like the stem and veins of a leaf. Esch secondary branch has tertiary branches that together look like the stem and veins of a leaf and each leaf, well, it looks like a leaf. 

That's called fractals. Fibonacci sequence. The golden mean. Sacred geometry. 

Life starts in the afterlife but not before one has completed and passed their life review. Everyone gets a life review and it's going to be a doozy. 

I hope that I pass my life review but one can never be 100% sure. 

But apparently, a person can pass on and then appear to their friends a week later and their friends could sense that they already went through the life review. As I've explained before, the life review is a quick singularity download and under a different time dynamic. Not the quick singularity download under this linear time dynamic which would seem somewhat stilted and mechanical. The Japanese have computers that can download 50.25 TB in one second! There's your singularity download under the physics of this dimension. 

The time dynamic where time travel is time experienced objectively which is why everything is happening simultaneously. 

This mathematical structure of time more than anything else convinces me that people survive ever afterwards because the personality exists under this time dynamic. It is only the physical body that does not. 

Friday, September 5, 2025 

A few days ago, someone with the namesake of my sister, Goddess Teresa requested to follow on meta quest Facebook. I accepted. Why not, but I didn't follow back. 

The on that same day, when I was walking on the street, I saw someone wearing a tshirt that read,  "I Have A Mean Sister And I'm Not Afraid To Use Her". 

That could be yet another one of life's unsettling omens. 

I don't know if she's my sister at all. 

Ostensible father, dead mother, stepmother, step brother, stepsister. 

Of all the above, the only one who's title based on terms of the relationship which is 100% accurate is stepmother. 

My father never showed me my birth certificate. That's the standard documentary empirical evidence. I needed to see my birth certificate as part of due profess. Such a term is probably alien to my father who wasn't that well educated. 

Step brother, stepsister is one thing. A father could marry a woman who becomes a stepmother. That father dies and the mother remarried and then the person has a stepmother and a stepfather. If the stepparents have any additional children, those children become your stepsiblings. 

But half brother or half sister is another thing. Step sister may be affinital through marriage or consanquinial through blood. I should know. I work at the Courthouse. 

But a half sibling through terms of the definition implies a quasi consanquinity. 

Is she my step sister? Sure. If she my half sister? I don't know until I see standard documentary evidence. 

I don't look like my ostensible father as much as I look like him. He probably stole me from another family because of my auspicious Royal Theon Greyjoy birthmark. Weird stuff happens to infants at a time when they can't discriminate and pick and choose for themselves. 

As for my birth certificate, I need to see the long form and not the short form. But then it would be written in some pictographic semasiographic writing which I couldn't read anyways. This is me labouring under the duress of the physics of this dimension. This is how that set of ohsyics oermutsted for me when it comes to the crooked table slanted against me family set up. Fucking crackpot. Bonkers! What a raw deal. 

If I had my birth certificate, I would have had dual citizenship. 

And it's not because they're Chinese but rather in spite of the fact. Most Chinese families are more together than my family which was toxic and won't be missed. 

I'll be glad once I pass my life review in the afterlife with its much better set of physics because that's when life begins. 

I don't have any priority to contact any of them ever again. I'm a expat frkm the mainland and I'm never going back. I'm never going to regress to some former bullsh*t. 

As an expat, anyone you meet is an extension of a grand adventure. As a regresspat, anyone you meet is just another variable in an equation of regression. 

Be an expat. Stick it our for a year. You'll feel better! 

Racism is a form of false attributives. When you make a mistake it's because of what you did. When someone else makes a mistake, it's because of who they are. 

Today I would say was a 100% perfect day so far. No delinquents that I can remember. I was sweeping near the Courthouse. 

Completely peaceful. 

If I was to design an amuse bouche for the edentulous, it would be, 

Served in a medium, not too tall, not too short shampagne glass. It must be the thin shape of the champagne glass that gives it it's je ne sais quoi. 

- A transparent liquid of basically sugar with white tea, non carbonated, no buddles. White tea is colorless but has the flavor. 

- a good portion of minced strawberries and shrimp sitting in the bottom one third of the tall champagne flute that it would be served in. Ideally, it should produce a nice pinkish reddish display. 

- one long thin shaved piece of dark green cucumber skin placed in the glass, it should have a curly look. This gives it a splash of color and visual excitement. 

- one cube of mango dipped in sugar and then placed on the rim of the glass. 

Optional, a sword with a marachino cherry or a miniature paper umbrella. 

This amuse bouche has the dose of protein but also sugar and vitamin C with the mango. The white tea with sugar gives it a sweetness. These flavors don't clash but compliment each other. 

Optional: white rum. 

Another amuse bouche for the edentulous would be 

- pureed lobster bisque with a touch of extra butter than the recipe usually requires. Add a splash of clotted cream while cooking. 

To make lobster bisque, first boil a lobster. Then throw it into a Cuisinart shell and all and just puree the sh*t out of it until it acquires a smooth texture. 

Place lobster bisque in a small clay cup for serving, or a small flat bottom whiskey glass. Then on top, add a small dollop of brie cheese that has been pureed to almost liquid or just out of the box extra soft brie cheese will do. The lobster bisque should have enough viscosity that the brie stays floating rather than sinking to the bottom. I wonder if this can be done. Even if it sinks to the bottom, who cares, the recipe, the flavour is still there. 

Oh yeah, and garnish with a mint leaf on top. 

Chinese amuse bouche. That idea is redundant because dim sum is the world of Chinese amuse bouche. I don't know of any Chinese liquid based amuse bouches. 

I would suggest chicken broth with a puree of Chinese black mushrooms, sweetened with sugar and with pureed shrimp and dungeoness crab. Then the top of the glass this is served in would be covered with either steamed hsr Gow wrap or the wraps for Peking duck  with a slight dip or pocket in the center and then place a small scoop local caviar namely lump fish caviar or salmon row caviar. The caviar wouldn't be so heavy that the har Gow wrap would csve in, or would it? 

A lot of amuse bouche looks like hors d'oeuvres or canapés. I prefer to focus on the drinkable amuse bouche served in glasses. Because not all hors d'oeuvres and canapés can be eaten if someone is edentulous however my liquid served in a glass based amuse bouche can be enjoyed even if you have no teeth. 

Saturday, September 6, 2025 

I got 2 movies which were on sale for $5 each. Hopefully my bank account can survive this. 

The movies. 

- Fight Club

- A Haunting in Venice 

$11.17 with tax is cheaper than an entree at a restaurant. 

The News said that in Victoria, one business opted to vacate her business downtown and next to a supportive housing unit which houses 100% junkies. 

And in Nanaimo, an East Indian couple is thinking of moving to India. I would encourage them to because India is more of a festive rock show and they aren't a visible minority in India like they are here. Too many junkies, meth heads stealing from their business. 

The government has to build a massive Betty Ford clinic to treat junkies. Then after that, provide them with some kind of future in light industry. Production line work, a job at a sawmill. But is anything like that available? No. 

The government would rather collect money on massive real estate speculation money laundering scams and then doling out the crumbs as welfare or EI than to actually create government light industry jobs and write paychecks. 

It's the path of least resistance. It's easier to generate a stream of public income from speculation and money laundering and doling out whatever crumbs are leftover from that to welfare and then outsourcing light industry jobs and whatever jobs are left over locally are given to temporary foreign workers instead of local workers for less wages takes less effort than creating actual blue collar industrial jobs for the working demographic. I get it. 

Most industrial blue collar work is located in Ontario, rather than BC. Ha, instead of building BC Ferries locally, the building is contracted out to Gdansk Poland or else China. To save money. Save money because the wider profit margin in which politicians can pad their bank accounts is more important than creating local industry with somewhat less of a profit margin. 

A job that gives them enough purchasing power to start a family. In Asia, the purchasing power on average pro rated to percentage of income on expenditures, is more than that of the West. 

The West is mismanaged. The West seems to have gotten worse every year for the past 20 years, while China seems to have gotten better every year for the past 20 yewrs. Why is that? 

So many businesses have left the downtown area. I don't blame them. 

Junkies seem to get a lot of rights and support while businesses do not. Businesses are not honoured in this town. 

"We as a society have failed to honour you. When we as a Nation fail to honour what should be honoured, it's a problem. it's a canary in a coal mine."  Foxcatcher

Could it be that politicians are semi educated opportunists, narcissists, sociopaths, sadistic, incompetent, underqualified, venal, with some strange private agenda driven personal narrative? 

The best advice is to move away from the West. Move to Asia. Thailand, Japan, China, Singapore are all better places to be. Clean. Orderly. 

In Japan a gyoza dumpling shop has no employees. Walk into the store, pull out an order from the freezer with the sliding glass doors, pay with the debit card or cell phone and that's it. Would something like that work in the West? Absolutely not. The delinquency on the streets in the West is profound. And say what you will about vivisble minorities. The vast majority of meth heads on the street are White. How were they raised? Like Shakespeare said, "Their life is nasty, short, and brutish."

I don't blame those East Indians for moving back to India one bit. Would you? No one should try to coopt them them to stay so as to bring them down to the local level. I would encourage them to go to India. If I could, I'd move to India with them. That's how much of a good idea I think it is. India with tropical weather and palm trees would be preferable to what, Nanaimo? Really?! What a backwater.  Talk about taking a step backwards. If they moved from India to Nanaimo, they clearly didn't think things through. 

The future is many things but overall it usually averages out to be something better than previously imagined. Nanaimo, once you get to know it might be another town with heavenly vibes. Small towns have a deep grinding heavenly vibe. I can sense that in Chinese restaurants that I visit in small towns. A rarefied slowed down pace of life. Small towns do have a very beautiful vibe. All small towns. That beautiful vibe can't not be accurately described. Only experienced. It is a deep searing lingering vibe that goes right into the spirit. 

I'm sure that store in Nanaimo will have people looking out for them. They might hire an in store security guard. Or else they'll return to India. 

You don't notice it when you're young but you do when you get older. Some of the words of the Bible bristle with a weird energy. Ha! Thats because a lot of it is channeled. 

"I am the Alpha and the Omega." 

That's a reference to the linear time structure and the non linear time structure. The objective time structure and the subjective time structure. 

Today, I found some cans in a large bag. I told them to the bottle depot and got $14.50. That wasn't too bad. 

I went shopping and got some sushi. And then I got 2 kinds of ramen noodles. I got the fried bean paste flavour noodle. The thing with that is one has to fry some ground beef, then add the sauce, and sprinkle on silome sugar and then fry that. I forgot to get any vegetables. I only got ground beef. That's not smart. I must remember from now on to get vegetables often. Eating only meat and no vegetables can lead to gout. Does rice count as a vegetable? No, it's in the wheat and grains group. The four food groups, 

- meats proteins, 

- fruits and vegetables, for vitamin C because the body does not produce its own vitamin C, nor does it regrow teeth.

- grains and wheat, oryza sativa aka rice, while wheat bread

- milk and dairy, ice cream is my favorite vector for accessing this food group. 

Does goat milk count? Absolutely not. It has to be cow milk. 

Does human milk such as imitation human milk formula sold in the infancy aisle at the store count? No! It has to be cow milk. 

Right. Ground beef, 2 bags of noodles and then something else. Some incidental item. Actually I got a can of Pike Conger Eeel. It's good with rice. The flavour is incredible. I'm sensing ketchup and sugar with a very fine garlic puree. Steamed first then fried in a stove with a lot of BTUs, British Thermal Units. In other words it's hot. 

The News:

Dogs make a splash. 

Dogs swim in swimming pool for charity. 

Can you pay with DOGE coin? Absolutely. I don't see why not. 

The complete collection of Agatha Christie movies on sale for $5 each. 3 movies. I have them now. 

All three movies are what are known as great movies. Visually spectacular. New movies. 

Amsterdam the movie is on sale for $5 which I quickly scooped. That is an A grade movie. 

Amsterdam is about a man who makes pills and prostethetics. Such as prosthetic upper teeth which yours truly now has so just through chance seeing the movie on sale is some kind of prosthetics based coincidence. I'm keeping score! 

Taylor Swift is in the movie Amsterdam! 

I wanted that movie but at the original $23 price, I couldn't afford it. 

Orient Express is the most spectacular. Something about it just hypnotized and mesmerized me. Judi Dench and Olivia Colman are in the movie. Two Royal Queens. 

The Nile movie is opulent. A trip to Egypt. Uplifting spectacular visuals. 

A Haunting in Venice. Extravagant. Trip to Europe. I didn't get the story of A Haunting in Venice at all. I understood the plotline of the other movies. 

Spoilers. A passenger on a train did something evil years ago. Killed the child of a rich couple. The mother killed herself. So everybody on the train, yes everyone had a hand in doing in the passenger. One actually did in the passenger. All the other ones colluld be charged with intent or else indignity to a dead body as they stabbed it with knives. 

The Nile. One man is in love with one woman. Both schemers. The man pretends to argue with his wife so as to divorce her and marry a rich woman. They try to do in the rich woman but Hercules Poirot uncovers the plot. 

I could afford the $15 for three movies this time. But I really have to stop getting movies because of the expense. GST is in 4 weeks. That would help somewhat. Yes, my life has come to this thanks to the physics of this dimension. 

"If you pay peanuts, you get monkeys."  The A-Team

This is a dimension of peanuts and monkeys when it comes to its physics compared with the physics of the afterlife. 

On the one hand, you don't take anything with you when you pass on to the next stage of life that's because on the other hand, you take all of it with you and with a much better set of physics. When one dies, the Universe which for them is uniquely tailored to them, goes with them. 

I imagine that there are some people who a person will only meet in this life in this dimension. In the afterlife, which is a much bigger place than the Earth, they would go to such vastly different places, zones, that they would never see each other again for all of eternity. They would go to different places because their personalities are completely different. 

Ken Dryden died. Anyone who was alive in the 70s remembers having Ken Dryden hockey cards. He was a goalie. 

Later on in life he became a lawyer and then a politician. He is a Canadian legend. 

Any Ken Dryden hockey card would be worth money, in good condition. 

Hockey exhibition games start on Saturday, September 20. Canucks play on Sunday. October 5 is the start of the regular season. 

Sunday, September 7, 2025 

What passes for love is often just the slow burn of certain glands that make up the limbic system. In the afterlife, you feel the totality of the spouses or significant others love for you stretched throughout all of time. 

I think I might be single for life to endure the slow burn of dimensional physics alone. 

I don't know the future but I learned not to fear it. The future is a pie made up of slices and one of the slices is good things better than could be imagined. 

When someone lies to me, that's one thing. When I BS myself, that's another. I always make up scary crap and then believe it. Princess Leia said, "Do me a favour. Say something optimistic." 

Others lie to a person. But the person BSes themself. It's the same thing. In either case it's untrue things either said either to another or to the self. 

It's useless to worry about words said, what someone said about you to others because things can change very quickly. Herman Woke, I mean Herman Wouk, The Winds of War. 

The Winds of Fate. I go to some social event, worry about what I said or didn't say, worry about what they said. Two years later, some of the people in that social circle either died or moved away. In two years I myself could be dead or move away. I seriously wonder if I'll still be around in ten years. 

No one knows the future. But the future isn't all bad. 

Once I was lonely, then I met a girlfriend. 

Once I was stuck in a town, then I went traveling. 

The winds of fate and the hand of God carried me. 

It will carry you too. 

This morning, I saw Karen. She said hello to me first so she spotted me first. 

She was as crazy as ever. I'm going to tell the entire crazy story. 

As I walked with her as we were headed in the same direction, I saw a Police SUV drive past. I was talking with Karen. She was as crazy as ever saying that she got live from a few people downtown. Then I noticed a guy stand beside us. I was very courteous with Karen. I also told her that she's beautiful which she is. She was wearing red lipstick today. First time I've ever seen that. 

We parted ways soon enough. With her talking about live I just got kinda weirded out. 

I went to Shoppers Drug Mart and as I walked back to my apartment, I saw that guy with the baseball cap again. He is obviously an undercover cop. 

On a cosmic level, the Police were saying,  "Be her friend. She's a good lady."  I donate to the Police charity every year. 

One time I went to a liquor store to get some beer for me and a lady I was just getting to know. A Police car drove passt in the parking lot as I left. It was an all white Police car. 

Later on, I had some fun times with that lady. 

The guy wearing the cap had on the cap, a miniature LGBT flag. Kind of scary. However, for some strange reason, seeing a gay person after talking with a lady means that I might score with the lady. It's as if the gay person was saying,  "You don't quite see it, but that girl likes you more than you think. We can tell!" 

And the Police know when a lady likes a guy or they wouldn't be much of a Police department if they didn't know that. Police magic. 

The Police appear very military however, they do love the citizens of  communities that they protect. Often, the Police like you more than you think. That's the ideal, anyways. I don't know about the reality. Of course they wouldn't like anyone who is intentionally a frequent criminal. That wouldn't be good. That would be awful. 

Most people intend to obey the law. Not only because they don't want to get busted but because it's the right thing to do. 

The next time I see Karen, I should say, 

"Karen. I'm surprised that you didn't find a guy already. I'm surprised that you'd want to talk with me. I have a few mental issues such as my missing upper teeth."

"Having missing upper teeth isn't a mental issue."

"Wanna bet? It sure has rocked my world." 

I thought about Karen in Church. With her lipstick, she is beautiful. I had an image of me and her together minus her craziness and I felt lifted, glowing, happy that I haven't for a long time. She is beautiful like Hailey, the actress in the movie Mission Impoolssible Final Reckoning. 

Society is very strange. When a man first meets a woman, its like,  "Who is she? What are you doing with her?" 

Be other with her for awhile then one day, you don't see her for two weeks and then it's like,  "What are you doing not with her? Aren't usually together? What happened? You should be together again!" 

And just when you thought you'd never see her again, one day there is a knock on the door, there is your friend. And next to her, is the lady. That's classic. 

If the female celestial protectors like Mother Mary has forsaken me, then I could be single for life. 

The important thing is to focus on your personality because that's the onky thing you can being with you into the afterlife. 

What about wife? In the one in a thousand chance she was a gold digger and didn't love you at all, just pretended to, and she put on a pretty good act, you won't be with her in the afterlife. So focus on developing the personality. The afterlife knows a person one thousand percent. 

The personality is what you take with you into the afterlife. Just as a great sword can only be made with a lot of stress and pressure, so the human spirit is refined according to God's will thorough the adversities faced. 

My neighbour, my Polish neighbour has been gone for a few days. I hope he's all right. He probably went to his relatives. He goes there sometimes. Nice bourgeois set up. 75' big screen TV, a few pets like a dog and a cat and a something else, I don't remember. One time he said he'd return on Monday and he returned on Wednesday. 

Not him, but for example, if someone got done in on the streets or where ever, somebody else's place, within 12 hours, the Police would visit their home to find out what they can. If someone did someone in on the street or where ever, there would be twice the number of Police! I didn't see anything like that. 

My friend is probably all right. However if someone got hospitalized due to some personal health issue and that person admitted themself to the hospital, the Police wouldn't show up for something like that. 

It wouldn't be spiritual to wish him anything except the best. 

The mind paints all kinds of fearful pictures. Drug overdose? Meth related heart attack? That would be an awful way to go. 

The first episode of Drsgnet Season 1 in 1967 was about a guy who sold Lsd to a lot of people. Then one day he himself died of a combination Lsd and barbiturates overdose. It would have been the barbiturates that did it because a person would have to take a lot of acid to die. They'd probably go crazy first. I would strongly advise anyone against, that is, against doing that drug. It is a dangerous drug. 

Its always the most edgiest drug of the time. 20 years ago, the streets has a lot of crackheads rather than meth heads. In the 1920s and 1930s it was whiskey heads. Whiskey was the edgy drug of the time and anyone on a bottle of whiskey could be quite edgy that's for sure. The streets were full of whiskey heads who would have been more sensational in the States since Canada didn't have prohibition. The bars on Granville Street in Vancouver were open during the 1920s. Visit that in the sfterloflife using time travel powers. That would be major. In the afterlife I would visit Vancouver all through its history. 

It would have been best to be White in Vancouver during most of the 20th Century especially the first half. But if a person was Chinese, they could enjoy Chinese food and the Chinese lived a very simple life. Christmas in Vancouver in the first half of the 20th Century would have had a heavenly vibe that would have been quite profound. 

I sense a strong heavenly geomagnetic vibe in Vancouver. 

Perhaps it's a subjective vibe since I know thee city. People who know the cities that they know would describes these cities as 'heavenly'. 

I worry about a lot of things. I would worry about anything like this. 

There is one guy in the hotel. Very friendly. Very chatty. Yesterday he wanted to try on my headphones for a few seconds. He then asked me if I wanted to go on a walk with him and another tenant which I always thought was "light in the loafers" as Robin Williams said. 

I'm worried that the guy might be queer and he wants to be my friend. 

I'm not queer and I don't want to be friends with anyone who is queer. 

Jesus said,  "Martha, Martha, you are worried about a great many things." 

In life, it would seem that sometimes, a person whom you think might be queer, isn't queer. Also people who you would never think are queer, are queer, and you will never find out either. 

That's another way of saying that there's nothing to worry about! 

A hetero person would say,  "I'm 100% hetero. I'm not even bi."

However a gay person might say,  "I'm 100% gay. I'm not even bi."

Life can be quite scary and edgy. My ideal is to live in a Catholic cloister or monastery but not a strict monastery in which if a monk meets a lady he connects with, he would be permitted to marry. Otherwise, it's a place of quietude. People are polite to one another and are diligent and disciplined. 

The life I live has a few picareqsque but not to the point of surly people. Karen with her live and bug phobia which she brings up each time and every time I see her. I onky see her for a few minutes once in whenever but she has to live with herself 24 hours a day. She's not a catch. She looks somewhat dreadful, fashion wise. A fashion train wreck. 

The strange neighbour whom I'm worried about. I'll have to talk with him and say,  "I don't know what's going on, but I have to tell you, I'm not gay. This is something that I worry about in general. It's none of my business if you're gay or not. I'm just saying that I'm not. You've been very friendly and talking with me a lot and that makes me paranoid that you might be gay. I worry a lot. That's where my mind goes to, worrying." Or something like that. 

"Because you've been talking to me a lot, I think you might be gay." 

I'm really worried about that guy. But he might just be an old school friendly. In the old days people weren't so paranoid. Or perhaps they were even more paranoid. 

I worry about all gay people. My friend Jim Arkansas, the Digger, said about all gays that "they should be lined up against a wall and shot."  He said that in the old Native societies in Canada and America, gay people were put to death. 

I say live and let live. I don't want to know of any harm or discrimination or toxic behaviour against any gay people. I would just rather respectfully avoid them. To you your life, to me my life.  I am Homophobie. I fear gay people. I mean, who doesn't? 

My life is going nowhere. I'm not suicidal and revere life and would be willing to live life fully for years, I still will just the same, be happy when I get to the afterlife and I've passed my life review. From that point, I can really start living. 

One does not pass their life review thinking, I won't live now, I'll only start living when I've passed my life review. One has to live now. One has to fully embrace the moment. This dimension with this set of whatever physics, that dimension with its much better set of physics. The one thing they have in common is the present moment. A personality is based on how they handle the present moment at any given moment in any of its iterations. 

Eckhart Tolle said that a lot of people see the present moment as a distraction, an inconvenience, an aberration compared with some point they want to get to in the future. Usually a point involving living in much better digs. 

Worry about someone. Then two years later find out that they died. The winds of fate. It is impossible to guess the future and worry is often a waste of time. Worrying for nothing. God is with you so worrying is a 100%  waste of time. 

Monday, September 8, 2025 

Today, I cleaned some sidewalks. 

At the pub, and a few other streets before I cleaned at a Church. 

Because of work, I had a massive, that is, massive muscle pull on my left side. I felt like I had to go to the washroom but was completely constipated. The pain was searing and sharp and at about an 8 out of 10. Of course knowing me and where my brain often goes, for awhile there, I thought I was dying. 

I have to tell the doctor. I feared going to the doctor or the hospital would make it worse. That's the definition of fear. I thought maybe walking it off can help. 

I walked to my dentist's office to look for the doctor. Not there. I told the receptionist. 

"Am I dying? My brain always goes there."

"I know. It's difficult. You're not dying. I'm sure you'll be fine."

I saw a few angel signs. A yellow e-bike and quite a few yellow cabs drive past. 

When I went home a few minutes later, the pain was pretty much completely gone. Even now, I can say that the pain is 0% which is great because this afternoon, I thought that it would be 48 hours before the pain even starts to go away. I'm completely cured. Someone or something or some strange force healed me. I'm not sure what it is but I am thankful. 

I heard of a story when someone was depressed and then asked a prayer group to say a prayer for him. Within a couple of days, he felt completely uplifted. The collective unconscious is a powerful thing. People genuinely wanted me healed. They saw I was in pain when walking down the street. I was going ooh, aahh, ooh, aahh, for two, three hours non stop. That's how painful it was. 

No pain now. I can enjoy my VR apps again and Game of Thrones Legends connect-3. 

Whoever or whatever healed me, I thank you for sending me a miraculous wave of healing energy. 

Remember the scene in One Hour Photo when Robin Williams was sitting on a sofa in the department head in his hands mulling things over, worried, sitting there for a long time. 

I'm worried about Karen. She said hello to me first so I wonder if she's stalking me. Then I wondered if that was an undercover cop there in case I did something inappropriate to Karen. But why would I want to do that? I was courteous to her the whole time and I made sure to stand a respectful distance from her at all times. She talks a bit loud all the time. It's the meds talking. That could draw the attention of an undercover cop which I thought that guy with the baseball cap was. 

I wouldn't mind dating Karen but only if it's done along a certain appropriate, respectful and lawful line. Romance is fine but it has to be done along a certain line. 

Hopefully, perhaps the Police know this about me. 

There are a million stories in the naked city. The cops were there for another case. 

One time I was sitting with Karen at the bus stop. We were holding hands. Then a cop car drives past. She went on the bus and I walked down the street. Two Police Officers were standing at the corner but they didn't talk to me at all as I walked past. 

Seeing Police patrols is a reassuring sight to a lot of citizens. The Police keep the streets safe. 

Television has been talking about steeling up Police patrols to combat street disorder. 

Karen talks crazy like that to everyone. She was wearing a black baggy hoody and baggy loose fitting black sweat pants. She looked like the ghost of Christmas future. Oh my Gawd! Norman Blackwell, the dead fashion critic would be aghast if he was alive and saw that. 

I'm thinking of perhaps moving to Port Alberni. I saw the Landmark movie theatre and the town and a wave just hit me. A heavenly wave. That town has the most exquisite through the roof heavenly Sunday vibes. I can tell just looking at it. I'll move there. 

Where ever I go, it goes without saying that I intend to be a law abiding citizen. I realize that I can be spot checked or monitored st any given time 24 hours a day as with everyone else in society. 

The Police have so many cases and new cases are being added all the time so the Police onky have so much time for anyone who isn't otherwise intending to break the law. 

In Port Alberni, the RCMP is the Police. If I moved there, I would make an annual donation to the Police charity. Why not? If everyone in town did that, the charity would raise quite a few million dollars and that horrid dreaded disease would have more and better treatment and life extension options. 

It is around this time last year one year ago that I started sweeping the grounds of the Courthouse. I didn't think I'd still do it. This town has good vibes but I've been totally desensitized to it. If I moved to a place far away for a few months and then came back, the vibes of this town would hit me like a wall. Hopefully, they are heavenly vibes. 

Karen. She could tone down her craziness and if she is willing to be with me, it could be quite a heavenly experience. I don't know if that would ever happen but at one time I never thought I'd see her wear red lipstick. It was the shade of dark cherry red which looks good on her. 

It's impossible to know the future. I won't even attempt to try. 

The movie Downsizing is on sale for $5. 

It's like Miniature World. I forget how the movie ends. Can a person really be shrunk like Dr Shrinker? "Dr Shrinker, he's a mad-man with an evil mind."

Life doesn't really start until I pass my life review. That kind of thinking will not help me pass my life review. The purpose is to enjoy with grace, any possible given moment that occurs. Whether in this dimension or in that dimension because that is two things that this dimension and that dimension have in common. The personality and the whatever present moment in the midst of whatever iteration. 

Don't think,  "I can't wait to get to the afterlife which is when life really begins."

Think,  "Whatever moment I find myself in, I intend to enjoy myself to the utmost." 

Downsizing, the movie is low key spectacular. 

I worry about the future with Karen. 

I quote Anthony Daniels when in 1977, wearing the C3PO costume for the first time, the said that one the left foot, there was a part of the metal heel that just jutted upwards knifing him in the foot with every step. 

"It was then that I began to worry about the days ahead.".

Thsts how I feel about Karen and other worri s in general. Worried s about the future. Old age, the body slowly breaking down. Wtf. 

Wednesday, September 10, 2025 

I worry about Karen stalking me. She's kind of crazy and even one of the guys who works at the Courthouse as one of the official paid janitors knows of her and he says she's crazy too. 

So it's not like,  "She's crazy around you? That's odd because she seems perfectly normal to me."  Nope. It's like,  "She has some mental health challenges." which is putting it mildly. 

Now I'm worried. I don't like stalkers. 

There are a few things to remember. Just as she is one in a thousand people I ever met, I am also one in a thousand people she ever met. 

Life hates a vacuum. I see her on aversge for a few minutes once every few weeks when I am unfortunate enough to just walk past and there she is, on the street, as I am going shopping for something. What were the chances of that? 

I see a beauty in her that I don't know if any young guys would see her as beautiful as she has aged ten years in the last three years. 

She carries a Bible with her wherever she goes 

But otherwise, she wears dumpy clothes. 

She doesn't stalk me. She does haunt places, it seems. She goes to certain places often and regularly. 

She looked like the ghost of Christmas future. 

That's interesting. But scary. True story. On the Sunday I saw her, one of my friends in the neighborhood was going to a local park with his family, mother and stepfather. Then on Monday, the day after, his stepfather's son died. Unfortunately, due to dementia or Alzheimer's, the stepfather wasn't fully able to register the News. He just looked somewhat confused. But that is Satanic. What did he die of? Who knows? It's none of my business. 

I'll be worried about Karen indefinitely. She stalks me but it's the kind of stalking where she wants to bring me at arms length so she can enact some passive-aggressive narcissistic revenge scenario, the 'I don't want him but I want him to want me' kind of scenario. 

This is what the forces of life dispatches me. I give diligence and discipline to life, sweeping the Courthouse grounds and that's the kind of delinquency that life gives me in return. It's the kind of country that can only give you trouble and can't give you advancement because it can't give itself advancement because it is a sparsely populated country which lacks the human resources to build the futuristic rockstar cities that other countries can so what you got is more stagnant backwaterness and the trouble that it can only offer as its the only thing it's capable of offering. 

The shopping malls in Asia are way more futuristic than those of this town or Vancouver. The shopping malls of Bangkok are way more futuristic and advanced than any in British Columbia. 

Will God or Jesus help me with stalkers or is God the one who sent me that stalker to begin with? 

Stalkers are part and parcel of the physics of this dimension. A person can find you in this dimension. In the afterlife, since it's purely 100% telepathy and teleportation, if you think that you don't want to see someone, they won't see you. It has to be mutual or not at all. 

I can't wait to get to the afterlife and experience the much better set of physics, which would be after my life review. I hope that I pass it although it will have edgy moments. It will be like every other event I ever worried about on this island which has a strange benign magic. I worry and worry, and worry about an event. I go to it and the event is usually overall, much better, much smoother than I thought it would be. There were a few edgy moments that are as bad I thought it would be, but they went away in an instant and it mostly turned out to be nothing to be worried about at all. 

If I see Karen again and am 100% laser focused on her, that would be one thing. Whenever I see her, my mind is half to three quarters somewhere else. I'm thinking about whether or not to travel to another town for a visit. I keep putting it off. I think of World War One airplane models. I should get the Fokker Dr1 and the Fokker D7. 

After a one day absence, the muscle pain in my lower left side returned. Not as painful as Monday but painful enough. I had to get Robaxacet aka methcarbamol and I took 2 aspirins and two ibuprofens in a mixture once known as phen-fen. No, wait, that's acetaminophen which works on cyclo oxygenase 3 and is not an anti inflammatory and ibuprofen which is an anti inflammatory and works on cyclo oxygenase 2. 

Acetlysalicylic acid is an anti inflammatory and works on cyclo oxygenase 1 and 2. Cyclo oxygenase enzymes are located in the brain, liver, lymph glands, spleen, stomach and other visceral sites throughout the body. 

So 1 robax, 2 ibuprofens and 2 aspirins. It worked. The pain is gone. 

Disturbingly, I traced the cause to food poisoning. It couldn't be repetitive motion or prologue posture basedd injury. Because I'm always doing these postures. 

One can of peas. Opened and in the fridge for at least a week and a half and a terrible fridge as well. Food poisoning has many symptoms. Headaches. Muscle aches and muscle cramping. I ate the canned peas on Monday and yesterday too. Canned peas as an ingredient mixed in with some other recipe. Mild food poisoning. 

Jane Siberry is coming back to town on November 22, at my Church. I wouldn't mind getting a ticket. Hopefully, it's not $100. 

Jane Siberry is legend. 

So many good songs. Her voice would sound somewhat different now. She sounded best in the eighties but to see a legend. That would be major. 

Bound By the Beauty, Under the Starry Sky, One More Colour 

Tickets, $52 each with taxes, etc. 

It would be like if this was the 80s going to see a 40s music icon like Whoever. However the dynamic is different because 80s music has a timeless quality that would sound not onky brand new but also profound even a few hundred years later. Music of the 60s to the end of the 80s is irreplaceable. 

There are great new musicians. Mickey de Grand IV is a genius. Psychic Mirrors. That guy is a musical demi-God. 

I don't know if I could afford the $52 and her voice doesn't sound the same as it did in the 80s. Check out concerts seen on YouTube. However she will always be a musical genius for her hit songs. I don't know all of her songs. Jane Siberry is a legend who is and will be forever loved. 

Today I made chawan mushi. 

1. Fry some ground beef, not much, with minced ginger and sesame oil with regular oil and some sugar. Fry it. Then drain and out in bottom of a bowl. 

2. Add 2 or 3 eggs, up to you, in the bowl. Mix well but be careful not to firm any bubbles. 

Add some water whatever amount and some miso soup paste. Add more sugar with vinegar if you have it. I have mulled wine vinegar, a luxury item which I got for $8 a bottle. Add some soy sauce and some sliced green onions. Give it another stir. 

3. Place aluminum foil on top of the bowl and place in a steamer. Steam for 15 minutes. 

That's it. Exquisite. There are large white chunks forming a marble texture. Thsts naturally formed tofu made when cooking. It has a silky custard taste. A small bay leaf could be added but its not essential. 

I had that with rice. Perfect for someone who is edentulous or in my case, semi edentulous. 

This isn't rocket science cooking. The French would add a dash of cream to the recipe and perhaps some shredded cheese, the high grade gourmet kind, brie, Camembert which let's face it is the same as brie, blue cheese, so many varieties like stilton, roquefort, Gorgonzola all which are acceptable for a turbo grade chawan mushi on cocaine. 

After cooking, add a tiny dash of truffle salt for the out of this world experience. 

With the truffle salt, I would give myself a Michelin 1 star but for that, I would also need julieened king crab legs and a dash of lump fish caviar. Lump fish caviar is saltier. Salmon caviar has that exquisite jelly texture and a moderate salty favour. 

With the KC legs and the caviar, it would be a Michelin 1 star for sure. 

Try the recipe yourself. Anyone can make this recipe as it requires no previous experience. 

It is impossible to guess the future. Don't fear it, that's for sure. Feel neutral at worst and very happy at best about the future. 

My writings have a way of coming back to me in movies and in technology. I once wrote that humans download information at birth and upload information at death and that humans are an ap within an app. The Universe is an app and humans are an app within an app. Not a month later, I was sold a tablet at an incredible price of $30. The tablet that took 14 hours to download 1 gB. However most apps did work fadt enough once they were fully downloaded, even Need for Speed Most Wanted on tablet which is the best most spectacular race car game I have ever seen graphic wise. VR graphics have nothing on this.

Mad Bullets on 2D tablet is quite spectacular. A masterpiece. 

Crimen VR equals Mad Bullets in terms of visual acuity and overall spectacular rendition. 

No VR racing game comes close when compared with NFS Most Wanted. 

However Dawn of Jets is better than any game on the tsblet. Gun Club VR is way better than Mad Bullets on Android. 

Thursday, September 11, 2025 

Today, I went to Sidney BC. I wore my suit with a brown and beige stylish paisley Christian Dior tie. 

I saw the F-86 Sabre. It was about as I remembered from seeing it last time. However last time I saw it, little did I know that the next I see it, I would have played Dawn of Jets VR. 

In that app, when a person flies a plane for 10 hours, they get a medal. There are ten planes. I have a medal for all the planes without even trying! 

I pick up slipping hazards. That's what I do. I've been doing that for quite a few years. Today, in Sidney, I saw on the street on a road next to a sidewalk, a transparent plastic up lid for a coffee from someplace of other. Where other people might not have noticed it or glossed over it, I picked it up. I'm glad I did that. Being transparent, someone could have missed it, hit it with their heel while looking in another direction and slip. The odds of dven that would have been about one in a million. Now, the odds are zero in a million. 

I'm glad I did that. As I did that, a Police car was driving past. They might have seen me do that. I'm happy to know that there are citizens who do that even if that citizen is me. 

The heavenly vibes hit with a deep grinding pithy intensity. Sidney is a very heavenly place. The heart melts into a massive oasis of bliss and heavenly feeling that eventually dissolves into a sea of heavenly realization. 

It used to be, in the 50s that Sidney was the noticeably less expensive alternative when it comes to renting a place. Now Sidney is very expensive to live. There might be a rooming house that is out of the way. 

My heart is prone to the heavenly vibes of any town and the heavenly vibes of Sidney was certainly present today. 

The main reason I went was to see the F-86, to appreciate the scale next to me. It's a good mighty jet. 

The other reason was to get one or two ties, but the ties were about $2 each so why not get a few? I got about seven. 

Two of my favorite ties I got in Sidney, 

1. Christian Dior, diagonal stripes, grey, light grey and red, very stylish indeed

2. Dark blue with shiny stars, then large hot air balloons with an American flag design, stars and stripes, and Santa Claus using the balloons as some kind of airborne vehicle. 

Sidney BC has a very beautiful body of water. The Gulf of Saanich. 

There are great shops there and the smell there is heavenly. Really nice smell. Clean. 

The future can have sudden good surprises. I didn't know I was going to Sidney today. I just thought, why not and wear nice clothing as well. I'm the only person I saw wearing a suit in Sidney BC today. 

Nobody 2 was a great movie. The story is more intense. 

I have no muscle cramps today. Whew. What a relief. It was definitely food poisoning. 

I'm eating fresh food. I got a basa filet and will fry that as a fresh lunch. Forget about frying. Steam-fry with ginger and scallions. And soy sauce. Reliable recipe. 

I can't wait to see the Running Man movie. There is supposed to be another sequel movie this year but I don't remember what it is. 

I had insomnia yesterday. So it's rather remarkable that I was able to make it to Sidney today. 

Klondike. That show on Tubi got me reeled in. 

Great show. Takes place in 1897 in the Klondike gold panning area. 

Gold is 19 times heavier than water. 

Two University graduates go to the Klondike. One of them is Jewish. The hotel manager refuses to rent him a room. What a damned racist. At about the start of the second episode, the Jewish guy winds up dying in some kind of accident. What a roast! 

A young lady owns the sawmill. She said, forget about gold. It comes and goes. The only thing people need more than that is wood and lumber to build houses, furniture, etc. Whoever controls wood and lumber is the real powerhouse of the gold panning North. 

Good show. She is a rich lady who hooks up with a poor guy, but he's not so poor. He's sitting on a gold mine. 

I'm in shock. But in a very good way. The Long Walk. Is in movie theatres, what. Today! 

Ray Garraty wins the long walk. The Major. Stebbins. Bought the ticket. They all bought the ticket except for Garraty. And when he won the race, he kept running and never stopped. That's a metaphor for he died of exhaustion when he won the race and his spirit kept running forever, never stopping. 

Seeing the movie at the theatres is pricey. I'll wait until it's available on video. 

The Running Man will be released in a few weeks. These are Stephen King stories. 

I read either of those novels. 

I hope that The Long Walk movie is done well. That's a movie where it can onky be done well or done terribly. There is no middle ground. 

The rice and leaves that I thought might be there weren't available at the grocery store today. They sometimes are and sometimes aren't. What a roast. I got other things instead. They had other things and if I looked, they were better things. This island very often has a way of presenting you with something that you at first think is ordinary but it's a high grade item. 

Items go in and out of stock all the time. So many new food businesses start up all the time. It might be there next time. 

Heather is in another dimension with a much better set of physics while I still have to be in the dimension where the physics include the possibility of going to a store and not finding what I was looking for. 

Heather did complete her life mission in a way that I did not in the way that she was a mother to children. More than one child anyways. 

I'd love to be able to live in Sidney BC one day. Someone who used to live in my hotel now lives in an Airstream trailer at a trailer park in Sidney. It is one of the retro 50s Airstream trailer with the metallic frills. A very nostalgic and great way of life. No upstairs neighbours, peace and quiet, a dim light in a trailer. Hopefully the trailer has enough room to play VR golf. 

When I was in Sidney, I did my utmost to comport myself as a responsible ape man. I even wore a suit. Of course a true responsible ape man would need to be carrying a briefcase to complete the ensemble just because. 

Although I didn't have a briefcase, I hope the people of Sidney didn't think of me as a crazy man. I'd rather be thought of as a responsible man. Even a responsible ape man. 

The thoughtform of the responsible ape an sewing a suit and carrying a briefcase occurred in 1993 after doing a line of cocaine. I was thinking of the best way to move about downtown in the most fascile and efficient way in the industrial sense. The responsible ape man is the paragon of urban expediting at its most platinum grade excellent best. 

The responsible ape man:

1. Wear a gorilla mask. 

2 wear a dark green suit. 

3. White shirt, black tie or a tie of any color or design 

4. A black briefcase full of papers important or else unimportant. It matters not. The very action of carrying any papers around even old comic books in a briefcase qualifies me as a responsible ape man. A responsible ape man can blend in smoothly and effortlessly  any given urban environment, even wearing the gorilla mask, in any city in the world. A responsible ape man in Bangkok, Thailand. A responsible ape man in New York. A responsible ape man in London. A responsible ape man in downtown Toronto or Vancouver. 

A responsible ape man is the paragon of modern urban efficiency. 

One massive worry about coloring my hair über West End German blonde is once the blonde grows out, for some damned reason, I'd have a lot more grey hairs than I do now. If I don't color my hair, I retain my natural dark hair color the longest. 

Star Wars Beyond Victory VR is a mixed reality tabletop pod racing game that is, let's face it, a mash up of Alex and the Jets VR, Demeo VR, and with a Star Wars pastiche. Whatever. No option to ride the pod racer in first person VR. What's the point then? 

I'm convinced that everyone in Sidney BC thinks I'm weird since I think I'm weird. That's why I'm not going back for quite a few months. Within the last couple of days, I saw a Sidney town hall meeting at Sidney City Hall which was in the News. That turned out to be an omen as I actually visited the town today. I got over the sluggishness of the mind and decided to go and see the F-86. I actually wouldn't have the guts to fly it in real life. The height? The speed? I'm not sure. 

I thought of and was tempted but could not afford to go to the Chinese restaurant or indeed any restaurant in Sidney at this present stage of my financial condition or rather lack thereof. I did get a small box of Nanaimo bars in Sidney BC. Does that mean I could get a small box of Sidney bars in Nanaimo BC? No. It doesn't. 

The heavenly vibes of Sidney are still with me as I write this in the evening. I'd love to live there one day. A person has to be super 100% normal and 100% sane to love in Sidney BC, I would think. Just about everyone there seems to be really sane. They have done better with the physics of this dimension than I have but this still doesn't make me want to quit life. Doing better is something that exists on a lot of levels. I can ride a skateboard at my age. Not everyone can. So in that way, I am doing well with this set of dimensional physics. 

Sidney like any other place has a lot of weeds growing at the base of buildings and on the sidewalks. It would be simple for me to remove it but that's where things can get crazy. If I did that, people would ask me what I'm doing. Probably call the Police. Who knows. There are quite a few weeds that look like what they look like now. Wait a few months and then see what they look like. I could remove them. I'd love to, but don't want to seem weird. I must maintain proper and appropriate decorum at all times in any town I live in. 

I would bring a garbage bag, a small broom without handle and a dust pan all placed in a large shopping bag. And my weed removal chisel tool. 

The thing is, once done once, it becomes a spot of perhaps lifelong or else indefinite amount of time maintenance. I'd have to go back once a month or a couple of months. 

Not to be selfish but to set boundaries. I do the areas that I do in my city. Usually the region near the Courthouse. There is no Court ordered Community Service for me. I'm doing this from sheer altruism. The Court house is a place that ought to be cleaned if no one else is otherwise doing it. The Courthouse personnel when they leave and see the grounds swept when it otherwise hadn't been for a few days they would be happy that someone in the public appreciates their work enough to see to it that the Courthouse is swept clean for that day, and for a lot of days. 

I appreciate the work that they do. There is a scientific nature to the work which is admirable. 

So I'm not going to remove the weeds at Sidney although I'd love to and the area would have a really clean look on the scale of China and Europe. 

If I was to show up in Sidney and all of a sudden start removing weeds, that would look weird. The cops might quiz me as they might quiz anyone doing that. 

Funny. One time, I spent half an hour meticulously removing weeds from an area of a sidewalk near where I live. Ha ha. A week later I see that section of sidewalk completely knocked out and gone and replaced with a new segment of sidewalk freshly constructed. 

Telescopes. Are they used to look for asteroids that might hit the earth? 

There is a VR app called We're Here With You At The End of the World. Sounds apocalyptic and eschatological. 

The story is true and truly bizarre. On one of the many islands of Hawaii, they got a notice on their cell phones that read. 

This is not a test. This is an emergency broadcast warning. Ballistic nuclear missile to hit this region. 

Naturally everyone freaked out. Except that it tuen d out to never happen. 

One day when I have a lot of time on my hands and nothing else to do, I'll watch this VR presentation. It's free but if you don't have VR, I'm sure the entire thing is on for free on YouTube in a 2D presentation. Who cares? It's the story that you want to hear anyways. The anxiety and panic attacks would have been massive to the point of simply unimaginable. 

Do my neighbours feel fear? No. They go to University, Uni-fear-sity. 

Du nicht fürchte, you no fear. 

Speaking of which, every October at the University movie cinema they show classic horror movies like The Thing, Friday the 13th, Halloween, and The Shining. 

I miss my Sweetness. I miss The Beautiful. I don't know how I can make it without her although for awhile I wondered how I could make it with her. I'll never encounter sweetness on that level ever again. 

So, after telling people on about 50 occasions that I was going to go to Sidney and didn't go, I finally went. I was walking around on the street and thought, why not go? 

I was going to go last week. I left the pawn shop after getting the Psp UMD movie Elf starring Will Ferrell for $5, on sale, I thought, why not go to Sidney. Unfortunately as I needed $6 for an all day pass on the bus, I only had $5 with me. For the want of a nail, the kingdom was lost. So I skipped it. I went back to the embryonic cocoon comfort of my cave and watched movies on YouTube. 

But I went today. I wish I could live there one day or stay there for an extended period. I would be willing to work for that town clearing weeds. I would have to write a letter to City Hall and ask them. 

It would go something like, 

"Dear Sidney BC City Hall. I work clearing weeds from the sidewalk as a volunteer job. I approach this job with an architectural perspective that sidewalks clear of weeds adds to the beauty of a building and indeed of a neighbourhood. It makes the area look more "West Side". More rich. I would be willing to do this for Sidney as I love the town for its heavenly vibes and my dream is to live there one day. Hopefully this would be something that the Police would be all right with as well, as it goes without saying." 

Those weeds will get worse before they get better and I've seen a few of those specimens of weeds in its fully grown stage and its really quite frightful. 

Friday, September 12, 2025 

Jumper. From Steven Gould. Movie on sale for $5 on YouTube. The father. 

The book is a lot different from the movie. In the book he teleports from his abusive father's house to a bank vault. In the movie he teleports from the bottom of a lake to a library. 

Impulse, the mother. Available on YouTube as an original series. 

Exo. The daughter. 

All from Steven Gould. A trio family of teleporters.

I've always thought of teleporting. It could be available as technology 100 years from now. Telephones and live television, video chats is a kind of teleporting using the same kind of quasi interdimensional geometric coordinates. 

Teleporting would make traveling a lot easier. 

In the old days a person can move to another country and just stay there forever. 

With airplane travel a person can onky stay for 30 days or get a 60 day tourist visa. 

With teleporting, a person will only be able to get a 6 hour visa enough to see a movie, have lunch and do some sightseeing, shopping. 

A person can't just teleport to the middle of a street. It will be regulated. There will be teleportation stations similar to airports. 

Teleporting involves molecular deresolution and molecular reconstitution. I doubt that this could ever be done. 

Teleportation and time travel which are really two forms of the same thing when it comes to quantum physics which wouldn't differentiate, are impossible. Unless a time machine and a teleporter like in Star Trek was invented. Not possible. 

Teleport how? Teleport at the speed of light or faster. 

Anything st the speed of light or slower is still in the realm of this dimension's set of physics. This includes the radio waves of cell phones. Maxwell's equation. Radio waves travel at the speed of light. 

Teleportation at the speed of quantum suoerposition and quantum entanglement, Einstein-Rosen bridge is interdimensional. This is much much faster than the speed of light. Therefore any technology that involves interdimensionality is impossible. 

The subjective linear model of time. 

September 1 - - - > September 2 - - - > September 3 etc etc 

The objective non linear model of time in the afterlife involving time travel. 

September 1 - - - > June 5 - - - - - > July 24 - - - - > December 7 - - - - > January 18

Which is what things could look like if a person ever got a time machine. Or else to experience something like that in this dimension, read a bunch of newspapers of different dates and in whatever random order. 

Of course, with a time machine, a trip to the distant future returned from yesterday is a past event. A trip to the distant past in a time machine that will be started tomorrow is a future event. 

However even in the afterlife if someone traveled to whatever, you name it set of dates in some kind of linear consecutive order, while one lives in the present moment and it is all the present moment even if its just an aspect of this iteration of the present moment namely the past and future, whether a world that involves time traveling or not, events are remembered in different orders to paint a picture. 

A person has a few hobbies. They have a set of memories that involves one hobby and not in consecutive order because some events are omen connected and other events are coincidence connected. Meeting one person was an omen that you would meet another person who would give some deeper advice connected with this line of learning. Other people are reminders that the person in the past gave a deeper advice about this line but you had to meet a person with a simpler explanation at a more basic level so as to enhance and complete your understanding of a topic. There would be a different set of such omen coincidence connected memories linked to a talent in playing a musical instrument, another set of memories connected with learning how to fly an airplane, another set of memories in a different and necessarily specific order linked to the learning of another talent. It could be learning another language. One learns a word in a language. This is an omen that one would meet another person to complete their learning. Then years later a person meets someone who explains the root word and the sorry behind it and how that word kinks to other words or links to words with the English language. 

The present moment is what is truly lived. Sets of different memories in different orders establishes the basis of memory and personality. History is events in consecutive order which uses the linear time dynamic. Memory and personality is certain sets of non consecutive memories of similar significance of topic which uses a non linear sequential time dynamic. 

The afterlife dimension just has an extra added layer of the basis of their personality, memories being in a non linear sequential order operating under a non linear time dynamic. 

While in this life dimension has as the basis of their personality, memories being in a non linear sequential order operating under a linear sequential time dynamic. 

If you meet someone now who gives you level 1 knowledge and later you will meet someone who gives you level 2 knowledge of whatever topic, meeting the person now is an omenistic meeting. In other words, this is if you encounter the problem before encountering the solution. 

If you meet someone now who gives you level 2 knowledge and later you meet someone who gives you the essential level 1 knowledge needed to complete and augment your understanding of a topic, meeting the person now is a coincidental meeting. In other words, this is if you encounter the solution before encountering the problem. 

A omen is of  the future. A coincidenceis of the past. 

But since learning is a ladder of ascending from the simple to the intermediate to the advanced, memories involved in learning often take a non linear trajectory of melodies operating within linear time in this dimension, but since learning continues in the afterlife, it would then involuntarily and necessarily involve learning in a non linear trajectory of memories operating in non linear time. 

I think out of the box. I'm a genius. However, operating under the rip off duress of the physics of this dimension, I don't get the compensation I should for revealing such knowledge. Some of my friends and relatives have gone to the better dimension with a completely non rip-off set of physics while I'm still under the grim auspices and deprecatory aegis of the definitely rip off physics of this dimension. 

I'm not suicidal and am still willing to give life the old college try, I still envy those who are in the next phase of life. Compared to them, they're out of the womb while I'm still in the womb so to speak. Beebs is out of the womb! The sweetness of Beebs. I miss my sweetness. 

Don't worry, my writing, including this paragraph will come back to me one day in movies and technology. It's cosmic. 

1. Initial acquisition of knowledge. 

2. Understanding of knowledge. 

3. Application of knowledge. 

1. Me banging out a paragraph revealing some more out of the box thinking. Initial acquisition. 

2. Movies. Understanding. 

3. Technology. Application of knowledge. 

"This is the academic knowledge. Technology is proprietary knowledge and cannot be divulged to the public." the movie Passengers, paraphrased. The gist is there. 

At the Vancouver public library over 30 years ago, there was a park bench that UBC carver named Michael Newman carved. He's dead now because he was quite old over 30 years ago. From left to right, the park bench carving was a tryptich of a person sitting in meditation facing to the left then meditating facing center then a person in meditation facing right. This obviously symbolizes acquisition of knowledge, understanding of knowledge and then application of knowledge. 

God operates in the non linear timeline. That's why His plan, His Schedule is so elusive to the mind of humankind. 

So the way this particular non linear model of time works is more like Edge of Tomorrow adapted from All You Need is Kill rather than Jumper. 

Jumper is teleportation only and along a linear model of time. 

Edge of Tomorrow is teleportation along a non linear model of time. 

Why is God only male, why no female God? That's patriarchy of thousands of years ago. 

Except for in religion, in politics and in the judicial branch of government in today's society the intellectual authority and spiritual might and physical prowess of women are recognized. Sure, men are in general physically stronger than women but there are 2% of women anywhere who can win against 98% of men in a fight. For sure! 

There ought to be more of a recognition of female forces in the Divine Plan. Catholics venerate Mother Mary. What about Protestants? No Hail Marys for them, I guess. 

I'm still a Protestant. My cousin Tom the major Christian made it his life mission to convert the entire family to Protestant Christianity. Imagine if he was a Catholic. How different things would be. 

"Dorothy knew that it was useless to argue any further. When her father talked about golden days with his cousin Tom the baronet, she knew that all further argument was lost."  George Orwell, A Clergyman Daughter, paraphrased 

Yesterday, I bought a tub of ice cream that was on sale at a reduced price. Reese's pieces. That's my favorite. I was in over my head. The cream started to melt within two hours in my crappy fridge. My fridge is about a 7 out of 10, at best, on good days just sfter all the ice has been defrosted, again. 

So I had to think fast. I ate one third of the ice cream and now have two thirds in a bowl, melted but still somewhat good as I added some sugar and some caramel too. I won't get ice cream any more as my fridge is completely inadequate and unacceptable as a vector of ice cream storage. Betches. Wretches. Just plain awful. That was a few dollars down the drain. 

One man who wins all the eating contests. He ate 28 pounds in ten minutes. I'd be dead if I tried that. A stomach can only eat so much before anxiety and panic sets in. 

I need to take a few days off in order for the mind to rest as well as the body. It's been a year since I volunteered to work sweeping the grounds of the Gerichtsgebäude or the Courthouse. 

The word for building in German, Gebäude sounds like ge body. A building is a body. 

A Gebäude is a body. 

I had a dream where I saw the movie Dune 2 in a building. The theatre had no seats. Everyone sat on the floor and there was a single structural railing for some kind of futuristic aesthetic. Then teleport as one does in dreams, to a point outside the building. There is a figure on the building, a purple silhouette of a body with head, arms, torso and legs superimposed on the exterior of the building as if someone projected a laser image on it. 

The head is the top floor, executive management, CEOs. 

The body is the main structural operations maintenance, electrical systems, temperature controls, ventilation, computer networks, etc

The arms represent the work the building does for the neighbourhood and to a larger extent, the world. Accounts payable, accounts receivable. 

The legs represent the foundational support structures, Beams, floors, structural engineering, shoring the ground before building for extra foundational support. 

I'm sure that architects and construction workers have known this for years. 

I need to feel the strong heavenly nostalgia of any given season at any given time. 

I need to hear that I am loved from people whom I look up to and respect intellectually. 

Therefore, if I was ever on the pulpit as a Priest, I might say, 

"I know a lot of you feel uncertainty and a kind of emotional numbness as do I. Might I remind you that you are all loved more than you realize. 

Scientific studies have shown that people don't criticize you and judge you as much as you judge yourself. Most people you met like you more than you realize. Just as most people see other people at Church as normal and without issues or any weird secrets in the past or any weird secretions in the @ss, they view you the same way, ideally, that is. I don't know about realistically. 

Metanoia is concept that is the opposite of paranoia. Metanoia supposes that most people would and would help you if given the chance. Paranoia supposes that people have some awful intention towards you. That's just not true. A few people in society do have bad intentions but they are stealing from themselves because one day they will have to go through a life review where they feel every emotion that they made others feel during their embrangelement with the physics of this dimension aka their life in this earthly plane of existence. 

There is a God with a grand design for life. There are forces that are greater than the earth and that travel within and without the linear timeline. 

So remember that you are loved. The future loves you. God loves you and most people on earth would if not love, give at least a nod of acquiescence and acceptance when they encounter you on the street or in the halls of commerce and in the marketplace. 

Some things can amplify feelings of nostalgia. Movies that depict orange dim lighting and affluent houses of past eras like Victorian London. Hot chocolate.  Tea with lots of milk and sugar, that is, lots. Music, particularly 60s, 70s and 80s music, Pat Metheny, Allan Holdsworth, all good music. Dave Grusin and the NY-LA dream band live at Budokan. 

To complete the sermon, you must remember that you are much loved. Lots of people in town love you. The Church loves you and God loves you and as Jeremiah 29:17 says, God wants to provide you with a good future better than you can imagine. In fact, the Bible says that somewhere,  "It is not been seen, heard, or imagined, the good things that God has in store for the faithful." 

That means the afterlife for sure. Some people live life with some kind of medical issue that won't ever be cured. For life. However the afterlife promises and is guaranteed to be quite a blast. 

Forget about any memes wrapped up in the physics of this dimension. They are nice, that is undeniable, sure, accept it if it's available to you, but remember the most important thing is to develop the personality. That's the only thing you bring with you to the afterlife.

One of the hallmarks of a developed personality besides love is their skill at handling the present moment in whatever iteration. Be grateful and not complaining. Thankful for where ever you live however humble. Yearn for a better place but if that doesn't happen, the skill is to do a lot with little rather than to do a little with a lot. 

That's it, the end of the sermon."

Learn to cook a gourmet meal with $5 worth of ingredients like a chawan mushi with basa fish fried with oil, sesame oil, chopped ginger and green onion, sugar, soysauce and then a water and cornstarch reduction emulsion included. 

Place that at the bottom of a bowl and then pour the chawan mushi mixture of egg and miso soup paste with some water aka dashi. Make sure to add enough sugar with the fried fish and cornstarch and water reduction. Or you don't have to add sugar at all. Chawan mushi is a kind of custard so why not add sugar? I'm wondering about the original custard recipe. It's probably eggs, milk and cornstarch and then steamed in a bowl well covered wiith a lid. I'll research this. 

I'm going to try the chawan mushi recipe with fish. 

National Treasure part 1 and part 2 The Book of Secrets on sale for $5 each. 

I was mulling over whether or not to get it. 

The I clicked on to the trailer for part 2 randomly at some point near the center and got the words, "ingham Palace." Rewind.  "We need to go to Buckingham Palace." 

That was a sign. I had to get it. 

I myself am a National Treasure for my writings and for my animated cartoons. 

Lord of the Rings, The Thrid Age Gba. Herbs level 1, understands herbs and healing. 

I, understand the objective and subjective and linear and non linear models of time. 

With this understanding, I will hit the ground running once I get to the afterlife. So will a lot of other people because I shared this knowledge on the internet. 

In the afterlife, I will meet people who will say,  "That comment that you posted on YouTube about the objective and subjective experiences of the algorithm of time as well as about the physics of this dimension and the one Planck second singularity download being the shell and we're just parsing through the data really changed my life. 

It would be the same comment again and again just like when you see a famous movie celebrity and say,  "I'm a fan. I really liked the movies you were in, this movie and that movie, etc etc.". Same thing just about, over and over again. 

National Treasure, even though its an old movie, has aged well. I wouldn't mind going on a treasure hunt, purely on a vicarious level, of course. Going on a real treasure hunt would be a hassle. Lots of effort and what if you don't find the treasure? Usually, people don't find the treasure. 

National Treasure is purely fictional and only loosely based with the most tenuous connections to actual history. There is no historical treasure like that. 

Spectacular movie. 

Small town Sidney is heaven. The Chinese restaurants. Just thinking about it brings a heavenly wave of bliss to the guts. That's a relief from what I've felt for a long time which is anxiety. Feelings of bliss are a blessing from God. 

Every single small town. If you think of restaurants there, you can get a feeling of bliss. 

When I have money again, I have to visit the restaurants there again. 

I will get over this. I can do this. I can win again! 

I otherwise think at this point that it would be financially impossible for me to ever afford a place in Sidney BC. Which depresses me to a great extent. This is why I somewhat dread the future. 

However, just thinking about the town is heavenly. 

Saturday, September 13, 2025 

Today, I cleaned the walkway at the Old Spaghetti Fsctory. 

Somebody in the United States, a Trump supporter named Charlie Kirk got shot. Someone didn't like his opinions. 

That's awful. I thought the United States had the First Amendment, Freedom of speech. 

Eveyone has political opinions. When it comes to political opinions, we're all points on the curve. 

That guy got shot because he supported Donald Trump? Lots of people support Donald Trump. 

This is a classic one two punch which is what you get whenever there is a disconnect between the 1st and the 2nd amendment being freedom of speech which is the first amendment and ha, the right to bear arms which is the second amendment. 

It's placement, one next to one another similar to the ATF, alcohol tobacco and firearms as if use of one leads to use of any of the others. 

Nobody should be shot for their opinion. His namesake, Charlie Hebdo. 

That's another Charlie who got killed for his political opinions. Actually that was the name of a magazine that depicted a political cartoon that was extremely offensive to Muslims. So the editor who worked there was killed. 

This has to stop. The person who did that is an idiot. Now he's facing the death penalty. Nobody wins. 

Kirk is the old English word for Church, from where the word originates. 

The angry hippie protestors are back at Fairy Creek somewhere up island. The BC Supreme Court in Vancouver granted an injunction meaning that the loggers can do their work and the protestors are legally obligated to leave. 

The foreman wearing the white construction hat should say to the protestors. 

"We know that old growth forests are very beautiful. Some of those trees are at least 500 years old. But if we don't log the area, what if there's a forest fire? Who wins? I'm sure you've seen News stories about so many forest fires on the island. If you get your way and there's a forest fire, that would be a pyrrhic victory, literally as well figuratively."

Would that logic work or would such words enrage the angry hippies even further their rage in all likelihood strengthened with massive hits of magic mushrooms. Psilocybin cubensis. 

One of the protestors looks like she has anorexia. How does one simultaneously deal with anorexia and protesting at the forest? That's quite the existential juggling act. 

Did you hear about the pregnant anorexic? Now she's eating for one. 

With my upper teeth gone, I sound like Sylvester the cat. Sufferin succotash! 

I searched and was massively, that is, massively disappointed when I saw that the Ai generated answer was, "No, the television series Impulse does not talk about the science of teleportation. Instead it deals with the emotional impacts on individuals and in the community regarding  teleportation." or words to that effect. 

I could come up with something. 

The science behind teleportation. 

First of all how do you science the impossible? There is no such thing as a teleportation machine. Complete fiction. 

Teleportation would involve molecular deresolution and reconstitution. Impossible. A person would be dead if that happened. 

Vampire to vampire bat. First solid vampire, then holographic vampire then holographic bat then solid bat. In that order. A teleportation machine would need to do that as well as to relocate the person, where, on the other side of the world, on another planet, in the soalr system, in this galaxy, what, in another galaxy? How far can it be pushed? If I got teleported to another galaxy, I would die on the spot of a panic attack. How many Earth lengths away? With Einstein Ian time dilation, even if I went back at the speed of light, it would be thousands of years in the future when I get back. 

The Philadelphia Experiment has been debunked as a hoax. The US military has no official documented case of teleportation and time travel of an aircraft carrier called The USS Eldridge. Someone, a former pilot, drunk at a bar made up the story. 

Teleportation as a phenomenon does exist in the interdimensional universe. 

Teleport either using Maxwell's equation the speed of light or teleport using quantum entanglement quantum superposition Einstein Rosen bridge. 

Ghosts and spirits teleport at the speed of quantum entanglement and quantum superposition. 

Teleportation of sound and voice and live images are possible with cell phones and with televisions. The conduit or vector of such telecommunications are radio waves. As Maxwell's equation demonstrates, radio waves travel at the same speed as light waves. So do microwaves, ultraviolet, radio, infrared, X rays, and gamma rays all travel at the same speed as the speed of light. 

Teleportation is space travel experienced on an objective level. Linear space travel is subjective space travel. 

Time travel is time experienced on an objective level. Linear time is subjective and not the other way around which is precisely what Einstein meant when he said that everything is happening simultaneously. 

Time is a modality, a dynamic. The linear model of time is an algorithm within the algorithm of the non-linear, time traveling, time dilation, model of time. 

To quantum physics, time travel and teleportation are the same thing anyways, quantum physics does not differentiate between the two as the two are not mutually exclusive because time travel is a kind of teleportation and teleportation is a kind of time travel. 

So in the afterlife, since time and space have been reduced to code since this life is the procedurally generated content and the afterlife is the command prompt but God is the source code, its not so much about where you are and when you are as so much of life in this dimension is about, it's more about who you are and how you are. 

Code. Like Dan Aykroyd said in Ghostbusters,  "Ghosts are past memories intruding on present time."

Coincidence is code from the past intruding on present time. Omens are code from the future intruding on present time. The present doesn't morph into the future. The future morphs into the present. The present doesn't morph from the past, the past morphs from the present. There is no past and future as Einstein said that they are illusions. So either a coincidence or an omen is a currently accessible rather than inaccessible souvenir from an aspect of this iteration of the present moment. 

I doubt that I'd ever see anything like a teleportation machine during my lifetime. Even if I did, it would only teleport inanimate objects. Sure, right. No. It's impossible. 

Tomorrow is the annual Terry Fox Run. 

There is a new Terry Fox monument unveiled in Coquitlam called The Gateway of Giants. 

Really? I thought that it would have been called The Gateway of Disappointment since Terry Fox died before he could finish his run. That was certainly Satanic. 

It would have been that the final score was, 

Satan - 1

Terry Fox - 0

Or at the very least

Cancer - 1

Terry Fox - 0

The good news is that if Terry Fox had that same cancer today, he not onky would have survived, he wouldn't have lost his leg. 

The problem with cancer is that there are about a hundred varieties ranging from totally treatable and beatable to there is still much that we don't understand about this variation of the epidemiology. We can give you something to manage the pain namely a morphine drip attached to an intravenous butterfly syringe. 

There is a few charities that address this specific pathology of the body. With time and additional research, more will be discovered about this vile wretched scourge of a disease. 

My advice:

It will be scary. Give it the old college try. Chances are, you will go on living for years. But if all else fails, if the painkillers are no longer working and the cortisol is just raging throughout the body and it gets worse over time, get ready for a much better set of physics as you then opt to be euthanized. Don't do chemotherapy if you can avoid it. 

Platinum analogues and nitrogen mustard, hair falls out, appetite and sleep suppressed, it would be as ghastly as taking golytely before a colonoscopy. Avoid that, cut out the middleman and opt to be euthanized. 

This hospital uses a high powered barbiturate called sodium pentobarbital. Barbiturates don't really put a person to sleep. It just knocks out their CNS central nervous system. Then the hospital uses potassium cyanate. Cyanide capsule like in the World War 2 movies. Bite down and a person is dead in less than one minute. That's f*cking square. 

If possible, go for a Royal Speedball. I would recommend a massive dosage of one and a half grams of heroin as one gram of heroin is the usual lethal dosage, why not make extra sure and I was going to say two grams which is the lethal dosage of cocaine but what the f*ck, go for an eightball which three and a half grams of cocaine. 

They do say that meth is about three times or three hundred percent stronger than cocaine and the initial rush lasts a lot longer. Stronger and longer. I have no experience with such a drug nor do I wish to. Theoretically, this could be a better option so a new school Speedball of half a gram of alphamethyl fentanyl aka China White and one full gram of "that sold out faster than $10 @ss in TJ" grade liquid crystallized meth amphetamine. 

"Have you ever tried liquid MDMA?" Syriana 

In that case, a patient turns the tables and changes the dynamic to 

Patient plus Royal speedball - 1

Cancer - 0

The prosthetic leg that Terry Fox had. Its like comparing dentures if today to the dentures of the 70s. The dentures of today feel even better than the original teeth, a lot of people say. A modern prosthetic leg could feel better than the original leg with a silk lined inner padding, graphene frame and Monroe shock absorbers and struts. 

Sunday, September 14, 2025 

When you see someone with something you want or envy just remember from what dynamic it is from. You are in a dimension where you can't teleport, you only have so much time to do things before it is one day over, you can't read their mind and they can't read your mind. No wonder seeing someone else with something you want is mildly upsetting. You are completely wrapped up in the physics of this dimension. 

This dimension is intensely and most intimately connected with the afterlife dimension which is one level up. There is another level up beyond the afterlife and another level beyond that but these next levels are as unimaginable to us as life as an adult is to an embryonic fetus in the womb. 

This world is like looking into the lens of the projector, a small, confusing, jumbled image and the afterlife is like looking 180 degrees the other way and seeing the image projected onto an IMAX screen, full free, expansive, vastly more expressive. 

So that's why everybody's afterlife will be uniquely different whatever image they put into the small projector lens of their life on this earth will be projected onto the large screen of their afterlife existence. Metaphorically speaking. 

This life, this dimension is like the water in the hose which it emanates from and the afterlife is the fully watered garden. 

This life is the bow and the afterlife is the arrow. 

Therefore a person has a life review that is most intensely and profoundly still connected to this life, and a person can look in on and even watch over their loved ones from the interdimensional vantage point of the afterlife. 

So it is important not to do yourself in but to develop your personality. Doing oneself in would be a terrible way for that person to develop their personality. 

Developing your personality means being happy with what you have. The Greek stoics said,  "If you are not happy with what you have, you most likely won't be happy with what you want when you get it." 

Developing the personality means not seeing the present moment as an aberration, a distraction, a blockage, a perversion, an inconvenience in the way of your imagined better and perfect future. 

Developing the personality means thanking God every day for the gift of life. Even if you can do this every minute, that would be best. The Bible said,  "And I shall meditate on the Lord all day and all night."

Jesus said that the personality is the only thing you can take with you to the afterlife, so make it a good one. However, he said it in not so many words, he said it as,  "Store not your treasures on the Earth. Store your treasures in heaven where dust and moths doth not corrupt."  

Jesus said,  Do not worry. God will take care of you. Sure! Sure! God takes care of flowers and birds. Are humans not more majorly than flowers and birds? Worrying will not add even one second to your life. 

Developing the personality means not worrying. That worrying is the mind, otherwise lacking the actual empirical facts, is the mind taking shots in the dark, ballpark guesses and then actually believing it. Just know that you don't know the future. Besides often, here and there at the edges, the future has things that are better than you previously imagined. 

Developing the personality.  Zen saying: "Thank you for everything. I have no complaints whatsoever."

The thing is, all I ever do is bloody complain. Mainly, it's been distilled as of late to complaints about the physics of this dimension. Why complain about the physics? Why bite the hand that feeds? What God takes with one hand, He gives with another although its usually vice versa. Anyways the physics of this dimension produced a lot good rock songs during the 60s to the 80s, and a lot of good movies and stories. 

Meeting personalities in this dimension has the shared sentimentality of being in the trenches together and using our wits to overcome the peculiar dimensional physics based challenges that life on this Earth can sometimes bring. 

The truest friends are found in the trenches. 

A person will meet personalities for the first time in the afterlife. They might have lived a life on this Earth but they would not have had any shared experiences of life on this Earth. 

"When did you live?" 

"I died a few hundred years before you were born but I was a doctor and I understand that so are you. I can tell you how doctoring wa during my era. It's not as backwards and primitive as you think as every age has its secrets."

"I could tell you how the medical industry has changed and what it evolved into. We're next level for sure from the kind of medicine that you practiced. We use quantum computers that can download a few terabytes a second!" 

That's called a singularity. The one second time signature of the download is the shell. The rest is parsing through the data using whatever amount of time is required. One second is the estimated time. More likely the computer did that in a mere fraction of a second! 

I cleaned weeds off of the sidewalk for a restaurant, two restaurants but they did not notice me and run out with something to eat to give me for working for them. In Thailand and Japan, they would be on the ball enough to do that. 

The Japanese guy in the movie The Last Samurai said it best about the West,  "Do not expect any honour from them. This is a land of cheap traders."

This is the island of entitlement. This is a Province governed from an island just like country is a country governed from an island, another island. The London funnel. The Vancouver Island funnel. The island gets money and resources from the mainland and in return the island gives them policies and regulations. Total disconnect. So it's all too natural and innate for these islanders to go through life with such an air of entitlement that they will actually see people work for them and like stupid ignorant animals be happy to see that and give nothing at at all in return. Island of takers. Its grafted into their political system, they take and take and take and take from the mainland. No other Province in Canada is governed from one of its satellites like this one is. This is the kind of people I'm dealing with. And this is something that God sees. God sees their ignorance and sense of entitlement. 

He will help me. I wish I were in Thailand or Japan. Those places are better. 

Island living. Penguin Island. Hippie dippie Island. Entitlement Island. A land and realm of rarefied bullsh*t. 

If you're on the mainland and thinking of moving to the island, don't. The mainland is a rock show. The island is a backwater. 

This is not entirely true. There is one hotel that I clean for very near the Courthouse. Often, the manager walks out and gives me a cup of coffee. Black. Right-o. 

The island doesn't just give policy and regulations to the mainland because that would be oppressive and odious. Things I have seen are signs. I saw Island Brie from Comox at the Les Amis du Fromage cheese shop in Vancouver three years ago. I saw a sign on Robson street on a Vancouver walking tour video. The sign read, Island Farms, milk, coffee cream and ice cream. Island farms is good. They use real milk and not processed or powdered milk. 

"Come in with the milk. Come in with the milk." Leonardo di Caprio, The Aviator 

I have had lots of examples of kindness that was on the level of profound. One time, I lost a Christmas cracker from England. I found it in the park where I dropped it, and it was placed next to a tree, but the thing is, no one cracked it like I thought they would have. That's kindness. 

No one on the mainland of BC thinks that Vancouver Island is an island of takers. But if they did, whoever thinks that is wrong. 

There is a saying. 

Parents are the bow and the children are the arrows. This is the ideal. More often, the reality is:

- Parents are the arrows, the children is the bow. That's when you have rebellious children. "How much sharper than a serpents tooth is an ungrateful child?" Shakespeare, King Lear

- Parents are the bow, the children are the bow. Mutually passive aggressiveness. Parents neglect the children and the children don't care about the parents and the children leave home at age 18. 

- Parents are the arrows, the children are the arrows. Parents and children are at each other's throats. Toxic. Confrontational. Fighting tooth and nail. Disagreement on religion and total complete disconnect when it comes to political opinion. 

I need to feel nostalgia and bliss again. Perhaps it's serotonin. SSRI selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors. I'm scared of strange drugs. What drug can make people feel bliss and nostalgia and Sunday vibes? 

If you say,  "I hope that I never see that person ever again."  Whatever person, you are setting yourself up for a disappointment. Sometimes it happens that for some weird reason, you don't see someone ever again and that the last time you talked with them was the last time you talked with them. 

It's better to hope for something realistic., "I hope that any future encounters with that person are brief and few and far in between." 

Thoughts are very powerful. 

"When they worry, the universe worries." Dune 

If you don't like someone, and you mull and send thoughts, there are lots of forces, God, angels, spirits even psychic intuitive people who can pick up your thoughts but the subconscious part of the person who operates under the different time dynamic of the afterlife will pick up that your subconscious is worried about that person. This would provide some kind of psychic disincentive for the person to talk with you. It's all happening automatically. In the past, I met and talked with whoever, this person, that person often, then one day I worried about them and then they talked to me very little. When I first see them, I make a face and people can read that face. Whatever dace. I like the person or I've been very worried about that person. 

"You say more with a look than you realize."  The Falcon and the Snowman 

People know when you are pretending to like them and they can tell if you've been worrying about them. Just mulling it over for hours and worrying. 

Thoughts like,  "Why did the forces of life have to send that person, of all people, my way? It's the forces of life at its trolling best again. Give out the energy of diligence and discipline, the Lord's of Discipline and get delinquency and dissolution in return. Give out thoughtfulness and get thoughtlessness in return. The forces of life are too often just as disappointing as ever. 

Pastor Joseph Prince from Malaysia said, if you have a small cut on your hand, if you think about it all the time, it makes it worse, it seems to be there longer. If you don't think about it at all, it seems to go away in no time. 

Even with all these issues des jours, issues of the day that get into my hair and disturb me to whatever degree, one damned issue after another, even that isn't able to stop the years going fast. The years of life go fast in a way that is insidious and almost sinister. 

I remember this even or that event from the past. That happened a few years ago now. That went fast. Where did the time go? I'm already at this age now. Time goes s fast. Even with all these weird, some real but mostly imagined problems, time goes fast. 

This week in politics, Political Capital Rob Shaw. Temporary foreign workers. TFW

Sure, first outsource a lot of jobs and what jobs are left, give them to foreign workers rather than to locals. That's how the government takes care of the people. 

It's easier to get massive profits from real estate speculation and money laundering dispensing the crumbs as wtf universal income aka legislated welfare and outsource half the jobs and give the other half to temporary foreign workers than it is to create industry jobs for citizens. Blue collar work. Industry. Production line work, one after the fricking other. Sawmill. 

Ask Ottawa why are all the heavy industry jobs like ship building and airplane building in Ontario? Why not have a few more industry jobs spread more or less evenly across Canada? Because that's the status quo. 

And then overseas, they'll work for $2 an hour compared to whatever the wages are locally for blue collar production line work. What. $20 an hour? 

Of course any local jobs are subject to unionization and unions are very prone to strikes causing price hikes etc. 

There's an acrimony that underscores the disconnect between the public sector and the private sector. 

Private sector: politicians are semi educated opportunists if not in some cases downright airhewds. A lot of them never ran a business themselves like I have for the last few decades. And now they want to give us new regulations? I'm not sure if I want to comply. Gone on a protest. 

Public sector: Its baffling that the private sector doesn't take us more seriously and is now thinking about going on a protest rgrding our new policies and regulations. Our regulations are based on thousands of dollars worth of research talking with the best people who have expertise such as university professors, peer reviewed studies, lots of people who have worked for years in that area of interest, we even spoke with experts from Europe. 

Monday September 15, 2025 

To underscore what a dogsh*t set of physics that humans as a species has inherited, the Universe starts off as a Big Bang, then a few billion years of lifeless cosmic soup, then as stars and planets further Form, there is a about a one to two billion year window of life then its back to lifelessness again for billions upon billions of years, the death of the Universe as there will be very few stars and galaxies and then none at all. 

So this one to two billion year window of life sandwiched in between lifeless untold billions of years is like visiting the only tiny dive bar in an otherwise blithering blinding backwater sh*thole with its unenviable infrastructure. 

This is God's design? What a bizarre pernicious and defective design. 

The News said that the Provincial deficit is a few, whatever billion dollars. 

Don't worry about the BC Government, it's like the old saying, "If you borrow $10,000  dollars from the bank and you can't pay it back, you're in trouble. If you borrow $10 billion from the bank and you can't pay it back, the bank's in trouble!" 

So the BC government doesn't have a problem. It's whoever lent the BC government a few billion who has the problem. 

As the saying goes, nothing in politics is as good or as bad as it sounds. 

No, it really isn't as bad as it sounds. The government, any government borrows from entities that after seven years, they get to claim it on their taxes writing it off as a business loss. It's enshrined in law. It's a system where one hand washes the other. It's a You scratch my back, I'll scratch yours kind of system. 

Tuesday, September 16, 2025 

Robert Redford died. The Horse Whisperer. 

His best role was as the Policeman Angel of Death. 

Nothing In The Dark, Twilight Zone. 

"What you thought would be an explosion was just a whisper. There is nothing in the dark that isn't already in the light."

The story. I got the story wrong. So this turns out to be a rewritten story:

An old woman lives in a building condemned to be demolished. She answers the door to a construction worker reminder her about the City Notice telling her that she has to vacate the premises. She refuses to open the door, speaking to him through a closed door. She fears a visit from the Angel of Death. She thinks the construction worker might be the angel of death. After the construction worker leaves, she lies down and is resting. Then she hears another knock. A Policeman has been shot. She fears the Angel of Death about to take her away and refuses to let anyone in. The Police an pleads. She let's him into the apartment. As he is sitting down on the bed, he explains to her that death is nothing to fear, using those words. It's so incredibly smooth that you won't know it happened. Don't believe it? Go to the mirror and have a look. She goes to look. No reflection. She then looks to see her body lying on the bed. The Police an says, See? That's how smooth it was. 

Did you miss it? When she rested after the construction worker left, at that point she had already died. When she got up to answer the door to Robert Redford as the Police Officer, it was her spirit. 

Same as with the Stephen King novel The Long Walk. At the finish line when Garrity all of a sudden to run and keep running forever, at that point he had collapsed and died of exhaustion at the finish line. It was his spirit that got up from his body and ran. 

Robert Redford was a legend. He was good as Tom Hagen, the lawyer in the movie The Godfather. Wait, that was Robert Duvall. Oh well.... 

He was good as Colonel Kilgore in Apocalypse Now. Wait. Wrong again, it was Robert Duvall. Imagine if Robert Redford had the role of Colonel Kilgore. He would have delivered the lines very differently, in his inimitable Robert Redford style, 

"You know, I love the smell of Napalm in the morning. You see, we once had a hill bombed and when it was over, well you know what. There wasn't a single one of them left. Not one stinking d*nk body. That smell. That gasoline smell. A hill, boys, a whole hill. I tell you, it smells like. Victory. One day this war's gonna end." 

I'm taking the day off. Yesterday I had to deal with the added psychological burden of having forgotten to bring any garbage bags. I had to walk to the garbage can or else sewer grate to unload debris. The sewers were empty and the pine needles were small. I made sure of that. 

I saw the profoundly curmudgeonly old man who said, "Go away!" a couple of weeks ago. He haunts that area. I walked past him. He was mumbling something very angry. I forgot my bag with the plant watering items. I walked back and stood next to him at the crosswalk. I thought for sure he was going to yell at me or even attack me. He did not. He mumbled something angry but it was a quiet mumble and he walked on. This all took place on the Courthouse grounds. 

It looks like fall has fallen. Gefallen. 

On any given day, the average amount of leaves is more. It's more exhausting. It's important to maintain a work life balance since they don't pay me for the work. But that also means if I quit at any given time, they'd be indifferent to that. I've done that work for more time and with more effort, attention to details than most people would have. 

It's a never ending work. 

It's like pushing a rock up a hill. 

That's like Prometheus. Or Sisyphus who stole fire from the Gods and shared it with mankind and was then punished for it. 

I shared abut time travel being the objective version of the time paradigm and about the tedious tawdry physics of this dimension vs the much better physics of the afterlife and the one Planck second singularity download forming the shell and the rest is just parsing through the data. 

I should be a Millionaire for that. Instead I wind up working at the Courthouse for free. It's nobody's imperative but my own. They didn't ask me to do this. This is my Sisyphusian task. 

This is what the physics of this dimension have done to me. 

Therefore, I'm not demanding or even expecting, but if I had my choice, I would rather opt to be in the afterlife, get my life review over with and hopefully I pass and then to just enjoy enjoy enjoy the luxuriating physics of the afterlife without the dread of physical death hanging over my head ever again. 

Until then, it will be interesting. 

There is no one in my life that I'd want to stay alive and spend more time with if God showed me the sheer absolute, previously unimaginable paradise of heaven and gives me an option, do I want to stay or go. I'd rather go. 

Mel Robbins said to focus on the positive not in just a wishful way but use science to validate it. The future has always since the past been known to bring things better than imagined, that problems have some strange inexorable way of being temporary and go away even when you swear that this time, this problem is the permanent forever one. It will never go away. Ever. Guess what? It goes away. 

Examples of things being better than I imagined. Lots of things. Among them, I got a tablet. Not only is the screen much bigger and the graphics much better than the Sony PSP, a lot of really good apps are free. The free apps are way way better in terms of graphics than paid for PSP games. 

VR Goggles. The meta quest 2 I thought was amazing when I first tried them. It was only after I read that fresnel lenses were bad compared to pancake lenses. The first few days, I didn't notice anything wrong with the fresnel lenses. While watching big movie screens, a slight shiny glare is noticed in the corner which is the reflection from the fresnel lenses. This glare makes a lighthouse work better but makes VR goggles work worse. 

Boba is better than Tirmisu. Boba has a wider field of view vertically and horizontally. One pays for the immersive experience in VR goggles and wider field of vision adds to that. Imagine all these 3D images in virtual reality appearing and interacting all around in a much wider field of vision. If you want better definition and resolution, get an HDTV. My LG HDTV is way sharper than my VR goggles which is like my HDTV with three layers of saran wrap covering the screen. 

Mel Robbins talks about the part of the reptilian brain that we all have called the RAS

Reticulated Activating System. 

Walking down the street, a million pieces of information hit us. Street signs, the placement of trees, leaves, and even pebbles. The brain would explode with information overload. This reptilian part of the brain filters out what is unimportant being four things. 

1. Your name. When your name is called out in a crowd. 

2. When something is a danger or threat. 

3. When you sense and then know that someone you like is attracted to you. 

4. Things designated as important. If one decides that World War airplane are important, all seen references to WW1 airplane will stand out in a way not previously. 

Therefore, the brain is like a computer that can be tricked and programmed from your real self. The discretionary self. 

One day, God will help me. God has His plans for people separate fromt he plans they have among themselves and even for themselves. The plan that God alone has for me will unfold and no one can stop it. 

Same with everyone else. God has his plan for each person that no one else can stop. 

God can make strange events and coincidences happen. Even things in nature like a tree falling at a certain time. Every Priest in the World has stories of miracles and coincidences that can not be explained. 

Milk and sugar usually tastes much better with tea than with coffee unless done right. 

One needs to add lots of cream and sugar, more than usual so that it tastes like a coffee candy. Tea with cram and sugar has a taste that is indescribable. It's on the level of profound. 

Tea, Camilla sinensis, which means from the Chinese although the Chinese didn't use milk and sugar at all with tea. Tea with milk and sugar completely changes the game. 

I'm unable to afford milk now for the next seven and a half days. More dimensional physics. After that, I will have tea with cream and sugar again. The luxurious way is to drink tea with whipping cream and lots of sugar. Five tablespoons per cup. It's opulent but that's how I do it. It's one of the few pleasures that I can afford. 

Tea usually grows in Ceylon. That's the good kind. Orange Pekoe tea. 

The Chinese called it Pu-erh tea. There's different varieties. Jasmine smells nice. Really nice. Heavenly nice. 

Oolong, which I think tastes like dried out orange peels. Kinda bitter with a husky orange citrus taste. 

Lopsang Suchou. I'm not at all sure what that tastes like at all. I don't know if I've ever tried it. It has the name of a Star Wars alien, I mean, let's face it. 

I had to. Just had to. I got Downton Abbey on sale for $8 from $15. The King and Queen are visiting Downton Abbey otherwise I wouldn't have gotten it as there is a one hour Christmas episode for free. I love nostalgia especially British nostalgia. Downtown Abbey is fairly saturated with it. This is another $8 nail in my credit card coffin. I'll pay it all off. In about three months at most. 

This Island is magic. Most if not all problems that I had eventually went away. Mainly because they naturally turned out to be not what I thought they were. I imagined something much worse but things just never turned out that way. I am a creative person due to my animated cartoons and also very knowledgeable being self taught but not that knowledgeable, let's face it. What. To the level of a university professor? I doubt it. 

Golf Plus VR has a golf course called Sweetens Cove located in Tennessee. It's a beautiful golf course with lots of sand traps. I used to call Heather Sweetness all the time. Sweetens is an anagram of Sweetness. Whenever I play that golf course, guess who I think about? Bee. 

I think of Bee. Beebs. Sweets. Sweetness. Heather. I vowed to her that I would love her for all eternity and that I am pledged to do. 

I have to get this one day for $15.57 including tax. Somewhat pricey but less than one hour of minimum wage. 

Sweetness! 

The thing is, I don't play Golf plus for extended hours again and again like I do with Gun Club VR and World of Warplanes WW1 and WW2 with German speaking audio saying the same things over and over again which turns out to be a conspicuously inaccurate rendition of the repartee that would be expected in military airplane dogfights. 

You know the military. It's a very Machiavellian profession. So there would be copious amounts of foul language. Lots of it. Almost evey other minute. I don't know nor do I need to know any German swear words. However I know of people. If I went to Germany and only spoke the polite words I know such as Schön and then dein rather than du, they would soon educate me on the finer points of German colloquialisms namely the swear words. Sigh. The human species mixed with the physics of this dimension. They would be a better species with a much better set of physics that doesn't include the fear of physical death hanging over their heads like the sword of Damocles. And that's coming down the pike sooner or later for every person on this Earth. 

I won't get Sweetens. To get that just because it's an anagram of Sweetness and not even the word Sweetness directly would be spurious. Heather would say from the afterlife, Save your money. 

It can be played for free. Kind of. Go for an individual play setting and it will randomly pick a golf course for free. These golf courses would otherwise be paid for but it's random so it could be any one. 

Wednesday, September 17, 2025 

Part of last night's dream. 

I went into a house entering through a hallway. 

Dark, at night. I was waking down some stairs I heard some footsteps and then I saw some Chinese children running below, downstairs. At the bottom of the stairs I turn right and look behind me, 180 degrees. 

I see three children. I recognize them as children I knew from childhood. The first child was wearing a red t shirt and blue pants. A Chinese girl aged five. He hair style was raised on her right side, forming an uneven hill like a cassowary, Cassandra, cas-tle. There were nags, or else hairs in front of her face. Two smaller children each aged 3 followed behind her. They formed a line moving to the side from right to left. 

The girls name is Sandi. I recognized her but at the time thought,  "Oh, I'm back here. What a regression to some former Crap. And these people are part of that regression."  In spirit form, due to the speed of the vibration, they think in quick quips. So do we. Even though we are in this dimension, we think naturally innately and subconsciously in quick quips which are then extrapolated into long extended word salads by the conscious egoic mind. Science says people think 400 thoughts a minute. These thoughts are in the form of spirit quips. 

She looked st me critically, an adult expression on her face even though she was a child in the dream. She read my mind as ghosts do, as soon as I thought that. She was looking at me as if saying,  "You think that we're a regression and that we're square? Well F you!" 

Sandi is about my age. Over 50 for sure, no longer a child. I saw her spirit in child form. Why? Who knows? Sandi is not her real name. 

Other part of the dream. I was in North Vancouver again after another nightly ghostly quick teleportational trip to Dawson Creek. I knew that dawn was near and I wanted to get back to Victoria. I was talking with someone. My spirit guide. 

Today, I got Caitlyn Stark, gold level character on Game of Thrones Legends. 

I will always have love for people because that's what Jesus taught. 

However, even if I like someone, I am not always sure about their energy. Sometimes I just downright don't like their energy. 

The world is full of fake love bombing so as to coopt you, future faking, gaslighting, leave you high and dry narcissists. People with whom I don't have much in common with them to begin with. 

The world is full of thoughtless people. What an existential travesty. 

Murphy's Law. Anything that can go wrong will go wrong. 

Murphy's Law. There's always one more son of a b*tch than you accounted for. 

Sometimes as new information comes up and dynamics change for the worse, friendships are like apps. Time to uninstall. 

If I go and pretend to be their friend, I am demonstrating compassion for them. If I avoid them and don't care about them, then I am demonstrating compassion for myself. 

Jesus taught it is important to forgive but He also taught that it is important not to subject yourself to energy that you aren't sure of out of compassion for yourself. 

There are some people I've avoided. I'm not at all sure about their energy. As time goes on and new information emerges, it seems that the situation gets worse every time. 

It's not realistic to wish that I don't ever see that person ever again. Whoever person. To never see them ever again. I'd be bound to be disappointed. 

I just hope that the times I see them are brief, few, and far in between. Because that's what usually winds up happening anyways. 

This town is like that. Problems go away. 

"Mexico City has a dream power. You think of someone and they appear the next day." William Burroughs 

This town has a power in that problems go away and in the long run don't turn out to be as bad as you thought although there will be a few edgy moments worse than expected. But these moments are brief, few, and far in between. 

The weird situation and the strange turn that my life has now taken, I swear, I am going to be stuck in this situation forever, for life. It is a long road that has no turning. Things can change very quickly. 

In some cases, people who were enemies in this life discover in the afterlife that they have common interests and goals and that the peculiar circumstances having to do with the physics of this dimension set them apart but in the absence of such physics, they mutually realize on a telepathic level as happens in the afterlife, they can investigate and examine a resumption or a renewal of friendship under completely different, better and enhanced existential terms. But they won't find that out until they get to the afterlife and not before. 

"Physical conditioning is quickly shrugged off in the second state." Robert Monroe 

When a person gets to the afterlife, they quickly forget the sheer weight of the physics of life on the Earth plane. 

Will I be stuck in this hotel for life? 

I've lived with that thoughtless Polack neighbor for the last 13 years. Talk about a problem seeming to last forever. Or else the next hotel I live in will be expensive because of the housing crisis. That's the physics of this dimension. I'd sooner be dead but God won't give me that option. 

God gave Heather an early reprieve. Why couldn't I get an early reprieve? It would've been a weird edgy day but soon enough gotten over with. I would have gotten my life review over with, hopefully I pass but I heard that the vast majority of people do. Only then will I be relieved and only then will life truly begin. 

Right now, we all are mucking around in some preliminary, elementary, larval, incipient, pre-nascent phase of the spirit life of the afterlife. 

I'm not alone when it comes to dealing with the physics of this dimension. I have angels, spirit guide, my dead friends and relatives, a team, God and very good people living in Earth today. They are powerfully good. This includes the Pope. Even though I am not Catholic, I immensely respect His Eminence's spiritual authority and ability to do good. 

I believe that I received Catholic blessings for the work I did for the Catholic Church, mainly sweeping and some landscaping. 

I f*cked up again. My addiction has not been curbed. I got Minority Report. On sale for $5. Steven Spielberg. That was the only reason I got it. Spielberg is the best director in movie history. $5 isn't the end of the world. But I am going to stop getting movies on YouTube on sale. For at least one year. That's the ideal, anyways. The reality? Who knows. 

Steven Spielberg is a movie god. The name, director Steven Spielberg attached to a movie is like the brand name Mercedes Benz attached to a car. 

I've been wanting that movie for quite awhile. 

The other movie I want is Munich. It's spectacular. 

Never beat yourself up for getting a luxury item especially an inexpensive one. 

I did good. Minority Report is a good purchase. You can't go wrong with Steven Spielberg as a director. 

Minority Report is a futuristic Police movie. 

The movie talks about fictional new methods of crime prevention involving quantum entanglement and predictive programming. Plus, psychics submerged in sensory deprivation tanks at the Police department, perhaps next to the holding cells, and if there's any other way to do it, I'd certainly like to know lol. 

There have probably been quite a few pairs of criminal cases between two different criminals sometimes spanning centuries that have more coincidences and commonalities that usual. A lot more. This is probably quantum entanglement. 

$5 is certainly not the end of the world. I can afford this. 

Mel Robbins said to focus on the positive things in your life. 

Interestingly, a character in the movie is called Howard Marks. He wrote a book which I read. He wrote that he once had to neutralize some pieces of information. In life, one has to neutralize their problems one after another. This is called CBT or cognitive behavioural therapy. Then what the British do is turn their problems into humour. 

Neutralize it and then follow up with,  "What were the chances of that?"  or. "You say that like it's a bad thing."  or. "Can't win for losing." 

Most movies on YouTube sold as ultra high definition wind up being 480p on BigScreen VR, 1080 on the YouTube VR app, and 4K on the television. The HDR icon even pops on! 

The television series Impulse is broadcast in true 4K whether on BigScreen VR, the YouTube VR app, and of course on the television. 

Impulse never gets into the science of teleportation. That's a disappointment. 

Well. Not to put too fine of a detail on it, for those of you who know, I wont write the whole essay. 

In a nutshell, the one Planck second singularity download. Not different sequential Planck seconds one after the other, the same OG primeval Planck second on and Planck second off and then repeat. Like computers in Japan that can download 50 TB in one second which forms the basis of the shell. The rest is just parsing through the data. Some have more data than others. Some have overlapping data with certain specific others while others do not. This makes time travel, time dilation, reverse entropy, the double slit experiment, and Shröedinger's cats possible. 

The Universe is an animated cartoon with one Planck length occuoied space and one Planck length empty space being the Pixel points and one Planck second on and off being the frame rate. 

Planck second on, positive charge, male. Planck second off, negative ground, female. Same with occupied space, male, empty space, female. They are each equally powerful, in different ways. 

The Universe is also a one Planck second download just with tons more data. 

This is my what Trainspotting referred to as "The unifying theory of life."

Anyways, back to the same original primeval Planck second. In the movie Altered States, a subspecies of peyote called sinecuiche was used. They said it would bring one back to the original primeval moment of creation. A sensory deprivation tank was also used, just like in Minority Report. 

The good news is that one doesn't have to experience some strange drug to access the original moment of creation because thanks to my theory, the theory, of the one Planck second singularity download, you are experiencing that moment now, and presumably sober. Relatively sober is acceptable. 

"Proving it is what makes it science." Indiana Jones and the Dial of Destiny 

See, the one Planck second download is just a theory. I have no evidence. However, this is good starting material for a few University students to get PhDs. No two PhDs are exactly the same and lots of PhDs have overlapping material anyways. 

Just as time travel is time experienced on an objective level. Linear time is subjective. There is also no evidence except on purely mathematical merits. Through the process of Sherlock Holmesian deduction, the math should work out. Others otherwise no empirical evidence as time machines will never be invented. Ever. Take a one take, one shot movie filmed in chronological order and then jump back and forth to any point in the movie. That's a kind of time traveling. 

I am proud to have made these insights. They don't come from me. I must give credit to the spirits and most of all to God. Spirits speak to a person using the person's own voice. Watch out for any new and interesting thoughts not thought of before. 

I don't have a University degree, but the great scientists of old, would their University degree be considered the equivalent of a 2025 University physics degree? Before 1995, they taught that there were no planets outside the solar system. Today, we know of thousands of exoplanets. 

You don't have to have a University degree to have the spirit of scientific inquiry. Science is about asking questions. Philo Farnsworth, 14 years old. Invented the television. Genius or what? He didn't have a University degree at the time and certainly not a 2025 University degree, majoring in physics. 

What they teach in University quantum physics today, I couldn't imagine. 

From the information that I have, I dread my future as far as it involves the physics of this dimension. I'd rather skip it altogether. But it is, that God's will be done on earth rather than my will be done otherwise I'd just give up on life. Life under a housing crisis is no kind of life at all. 

If God doesn't give me an early reprieve, my duty is to go on living. 

Thursday, September 18, 2025 

These are really weird times historically. 

In World War 1, the German King had a withered paralyzed arm. 

Now, the King of England is old and has cancer. 

Not the best optics. Not the best Feng shui. 

In the 50s, England and Canada was a more optimistic vibrant face as Queen Elizabeth 2 was young, strong and had a bright future ahead of her and thus so did England's colonies. It was a bright young energy that trickled down to the colonies, raining down, reigning down from the top down. 

Now, it's a train wreck sh*t show. Stodgy. Every time we are reminded of the Office of the Monarch of England, we now see old cancer face. It's a strange era that we all gotta just tolerate and get through. 

And what's after him? Another old man. 

And another Monarch somewhere in Asia has AIDS. 

These systems of installing people sometimes as young as 2 years old and other times even when in a condition where most ordinary politicians would simply not be expected to persist with their duties while they convalescent or not, the Monarch is still in there like a dirty shirt unless they abdicate voluntarily. Which of course they won't. Very ego driven. It's a very decrepit institution with weird energy and things usually aren't that obvious until they go wrong. 

Under the umbrella of the physics of this dimension, things can only be so good. It is an umbrella of physics where even a Monarch can get some weird ghastly moribund wretched disease and still be considered fit to rule, cresting the most weirdest and not entirely wanted Feng shui. Oh, well, we all just have to tolerate it because it's the status quo. 

The West is just basically just running on three out of four cylinders while China currently with a young strong Emperor, I mean leader is running on all 12 cylinders. 

It's a depressing, less than optimal set of circumstances that nobody could, would or should do anything about. Our is not to question why. 

TH White. The once and future King. There was more than once a King George in the past. There will be another King George in the future. King George VII. 

No wonder things feel so depressing and downbeat. We have a King with cancer who probably had his former wife killed. Why would Prince Harry be in America? He knows. It's not usual for a Prince to have such a disagreement with the father that he would exile himself to the point of living like a commoner and especially in the hick colonies rather than to be in the Royal entourage in England as one of The Lords of the Manor. At least he opted for mainland living over island living. 

His wife killed herself. She was behaving in a way that made her Royal husband lose face. At such levels, certain security protocols would be followed. She wasn't just marrying any ordinary person and she knew that. At such levels, there would be a certain set of expectations regarding discretion and decorum. 

D. I. P.  DisInformation protocol. The movie, Knight and Day

Disinformation protocols involve ruining a person's reputation. Say the person is crazy so that anything they say is simply not believed. Or else automatically gaslighted. 

There are polar bears in the region of the Arctic North Pole. There are no polar bears in the Antartic South Pole. 

Arktos means bear in Greek. 

Antarctica means without bears. 

I am going to make a VR pilgrimage like I did last week when I went to Sidney BC. Ogden Point, the West side of the lighthouse, I think. The Legislative Building is at South point. In front of the LB would be facing North. Therefore the west side of the lighthouse is where Real Fishing VR has the Victoria BC, Canada level. 

In this level, a person catches a canary rockfish, a Chinese red bass and a copper colored rockfish. There's no way you can catch that in real life at Ogden point as the expected species are far less exotic. Dogfish, bull heads and even the prime species, Chinook salmon is like, don't expect the exquisite thick layers of white gristled fat between folded layers of succulent red salmon. That's farmed salmon and that species is a hybrid of Atlantic pout and Coho salmon. The redness of farmed salmon comes from algae based food coloring called astaxanthins which doesn't color the white fat otherwise the entire fish is colored as white as its fat. 

Chinook salmon is just one color. Red. It doesn't taste the same as farmed salmon. Some people prefer that and it is good for smoked salmon. 

The Ogden Point VR level doesn't have any fences. In real life, there is security fencing all around. However about 15 years ago and before, there was no fence at Ogden Point. 

It's a bit of a distance to go to Ogden Point. And I often like to go to Finest at Sea which has crab and fish cakes and then smoked tuna. Exquisite. Even if it's fish cakes with no crab, I often get that anyways. At this point, I am completely. Unless I use my credit card. 

It will be about three months before I'm back on my feet. 

After that, I will save up to visit Vancouver. Other places too. That's the ideal. Who knows about the reality. Travel takes a lot of energy. Vancouver has intensely heavenly vibes to the level of profound. 

I don't know when I'll go to Ogden Point to see the place depicted on Real Fishing VR. 

The rich have problems and issues too, just like the poor. In the movie The Outsiders, the girl said,  "Whether you're a greaser or a Soc, whether you're poor or rich, things are tough all over." 

I love Heather for all of eternity. That's my number one raisin d'etre in life. To love Heather for all of eternity. 

Friday, September 19, 2025 

Today I discovered the 3D feature on the YouTube VR app. It was there since day one but for some reason today was the day I decided to try it. Really good. Guardians of the Galaxy was shockingly amazing. I felt like I was there on board the space ship with them. 

I made chawan mushi. Again. Beaten eggs plus sugar place in a bowl and area. That's egg custard. Some recipes call for using egg yolk only. Other variations, use the egg white and the yolk and steam for 15 minutes. The entire thing is steamed. There is a recipe for the crust but I don't know it. Egg custard tarts. Use oil too. Egg white, some oil and lots of sugar. At the restaurant, Chinese egg custard tarts have a mysterious layer of sweet oil on top. The oil was used in the recipe and rises to the top. 

One of the residents in this hotel died. Old Native guy. A bit quirky. Long hair. Sunglasses. He waved his hands and gesticulated a lot. He was in his own grand world. 

I think he made it to heaven. Most people do just like most people make it to term and are then born. Only a very small percentage are stillborn. Just as only a small percentage of people go to hell or else are an earthbound spirit. 

Their progress is delayed not in terms of time because linear time works a lot differently in the afterlife. In this dimension, linear time is about regimentation. In the afterlife, it is about facilitation.  For a certain amount of energy which must transform itself into something better. Energy cannot be created nor destroyed, only changed in one form or another either across this dimension exclusively or across two dimensions, interdimensioanal with its energy in an equivalent dimension based expression, so on earth, its a physical human that can walk but can not teleport, in the other dimension, its the same human spirit that can walk and teleport. 

The landlord said he was really happy to be going. The old Native guy said that he welcomes death with open arms. That's not the first time I heard that someone in the building said that they were really happy to be going. Really happy. No fear. About as much as a month before going, people will see profoundly comforting visions of friends and relatives who have gone on reassuring them. Some even see visions of the afterlife which is indescribably beautiful. I mean seeing in a hundred primary colors vs the 3 primary colors which we currently operate with beautiful. 

"In China, they advance the entire person so they can better contribute to society. In the West they place you into a dehydration tank and suck out every drop." YouTube comments 

China firewall is misleading. Microsoft, Apple, Amazon and Yahoo operate in China because they follow the laws of China. 

Google does not. China requires Google to have server stations in China which collects user data. Google refuses. Google would have it that Google operates in China but the servers stations remain in the US. 

Steamed egg custard. 

A few eggs. 

Sugar melted in water. 

Optional. 

Milk. 

Vanilla. A few drops of root beer which is basically vanilla can be used. 

Eggs with water and sugar and whatever else. Bay leaf? Sure. Why not? Bay leaf is medicinal. I don't know how. Place in bowl with aluminum fool on top. Place in steamer. 

Rating:  #1 go to choice for the edentulous. 

Jimmy Kimmel was taken off the air. He said something about something. 

He said that the Kirk shooter is actually a Trump supporter. Strange. On what evidence? 

Anyways, that was enough to get him cancelled on the orders of Trump. 

Leftist cancel culture is no better or worse than Right Wing cancel culture as it turns out. 

Jimmy Kimmel got his start on Win Ben Stein's Money which I used to watch on the Comedy Channel. 

Trump of all people should know what that's like as he got cancelled on Twitter when Jack Dorsey ran it. Trump was so upset. 

Trump can dish it out but he can't take it. Trump was booted off Twitter now he wants to pre empt Jimmy Kimmel's talk show to equalize. 

When Elon Musk bought Twitter, Trump was immediately reinstated. 

This is a publicity stunt. Kimmel will be back for sure and with more viewers, more ratings, more money for the studio networks. Pastor Joel Osteen said that sometimes God will bring about a problem and then promote you in a way that would not have happened if you had not had the problem so that you and everyone else will know it was God who helped you. 

"God is a very present help in times of trouble."

Lots of talk show hosts got cancelled. Arsenio Hall was cancelled for his Rodney King speech. Bill Maher got cancelled when he said the 9/11 terrorists had courage. 

They all got reinstated. 

It's probably a publicity stunt. Artificial scarcity. Price fixing. Ratings fixing. 

Kimmel will be back and with a bigger audience thanks to this latest situation. 

Last year was the 40th Anniversary of Return of the Jedi. In that movie, while everyone else was on Endor or flying around in a space ship, Luke Skywalker had to go to Court as it were, with the Emperor as the judge and the prosecutor simultaneously. In the Emperors Court, a defense lawyer is simply not an option. One more or less represents themself and with a lightsaber. 

This is known as the inquisitorial system rather than the adversial system. 

Canada, the US, and England uses the adversarial system where the judge is impartial, takes no part in the investigation and hears both sides, which is the ideal. The reality is that if the case hasn't been deemed to be not worthy and thrown out of Court, at that point, the judge, the prosecutor, the Police and even the public pretender, the public pro bono defender has pretty much decided against the suspect. The only good solution is to hire an expensive lawyer. Justice is about privelege rather than principle. 

In the inquisitorial system which is the older system that preceded the adversarial system, the judge takes a part in the investigation and often also acts as the prosecutor and the defense. In many countries in the World, Muslim countries and even in small cases in the West, the inquisitorial system known as trial by Magistrate alone is still used. 

Trump is taking a rather inquisitorial approach. Pre-empting the talk show host without any legal due process because he didn't like what was said. 

It's as if Trump doesn't tolerate free speech. Not true. All places tolerate free speech. Even places that supposedly don't tolerate free speech such as China where people often criticize the government. What they don't tolerate is BS speech. Saying that the government is oppressive when it really isn't. Sometimes people overplay and exxagerate.

The talk show host said that the shooter was a Trump supporter which is obviously BS. Which is why he got pre empted. Is the shooter a Trump supporter? That guy is still alive so he could be interviewed and asked that question. 

3D is the way to go. All movies seem extra realistic. Guardians of the Galaxy in 3D even though rendered with an East Indian language, still looks awesome. 

3D looks even more immersive in the curved screen setting. 

Saturday, September 20, 2025 

The 2025 - 2026 Hockey season, exhibition games starts today. 

I can't wait to get to the afterlife, but not before my time. 

Enjoy yourself. Do not worry. "This is the day that the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it."  These aren't suggestions. They are commandments. 

Don't dismiss this dimension as wretched as it can sometimes be. Do not waste precious God given moments in wallowing and commiseration. 

This dimension is the dimension of some people have and some people don't. 

Never mind some people have success and wealth and some people do not, some people don't even have the basics such as the ability to walk, to see, to hear. 

In this dimension often an evil, hyper, psychotic bonkers person can be rich and a thoughtful person can be poor. 

In this dimension, some people have Hollywood looks while others look wretched. 

And even the best looking young people even get old and wretched looking. 

In this dimension, you can give out thoughtfulness and get thoughtlessness in return. 

I give thoughtfulness when I visit places. I clean the sidewalks and remove weeds. So naturally in return life has to, just has to return that with a neighbour who is always inviting meth heads from off the street to visit. Delinquency in return. 

In Thailand, walking around, coasting along normally, all of a sudden, a pleasant surprise. 

In the f*cking West, the delinquent West, walking around, coasting along normally, all of a sudden an unpleasant bonkers delinquent surprise. 

I often clean for the Courthouse and then whup, there, I see another street delinquent. 

The afterlife is way better and I can't wait to get there. 

That is a dimension where all people have, those who pass their life review. 

In that dimension, wish for something and it is all of a sudden there in your hand. 

In the next dimension, everyone is young looks like they just stepped out of a Hollywood hair salon. 

In the next dimension, everyone can see and hear and in an enhanced way. Seeing in 360 degrees rather than in 180 degrees. 

"I can see it notwithstanding."  A Christmas Carol

In the next dimension, a person gives out thoughtfulness and always gets thoughtfulness in return. 

In this dimension, you always get mismatched, placed with people with whom you have nothing in common. A Zen mediator who prefers a life of quietism all of a sudden, whup, gets placed living next to some noisy fan of heavy metal. A really insufferable situation. 

In the afterlife, one is only ever with like minded people. 

In the afterlife, the evil people who were rich are all of a sudden in some depraved poverty zone of their own making. Jesus told the story of Elijah and the rich man. Elijah went to heaven and the rich man went to the hell in which he subjected others to. So many afternoons, he visited the houses of his employees and heard they were struggling with some medical problem. He had way more than well enough money but he opted not to help them. Not a f*ck was given that day. 

It's not about punishment, it's about resonance. That's why that rich person is now only surrounded with people much like them. Cold hearted, tight fisted, zero empathy people. Enjoy life in hell. 

In the afterlife, people who were poor but thoughtful are all of a sudden opulently rich. 

These thoughtful people are surrounded with like minded people. 

A person should not do themself in, otherwise they will be surrounded with people who were suicidal in life, no one knows the afterlife, but the sense is there would be a tendency for suicidal people to encounter more suicidal and suicided people than the average person who didn't do themself in. And they are not exactly the most well heeled clientelle. 

Trying to meet women while also operating under the physics of this dimension is quite the existential juggling act. 

Some people are good at it. I'm not really good at it. 

I would opt for an early reprieve. That God wouldn't give me an early reprieve is disappointing. 

I swept and cleaned for the Catholic Church and I saw yet more examples of obtuse delinquency that is the hallmark of the West. Things are getting worse. The streets are more disorderly than ever before and the housing crisis. Say what you will about World War 2, but there was no housing crisis during that era. 

I'm not disappointed that I don't score with women as much as other guys do. Energy organizes itself into lines. Energy lines. 

I see a guy taking with two hot women. First of all, they are hot because I didn't get a really good look at them. Sometimes, though not always, they don't look as hot once you've gotten a really good look. 

I see so many people, it's like a YouTube video. I see them and then forget them. So many people. 

To stand there and just stare and feel some strange envy that the old guy is talking with two hot women is to stand on a bad energy line. If one isn't going to go and introduce themself to the two women. It's best to just leave. Bad energy. 

That guy might have the gift of the gab with women. That forms an energy line. 

Perhaps he already knew them for years. That forms an energy line. 

I neither have the gift of the gab and I've never seen those ladies before. That forms an energy line. 

Robert DeNiro said in the movie Taxi Driver, something like,  "I was acting from something deeper, an impulse, otherwise I would have never talked to you. I would have never felt that I had the right to talk to you.". He was acting from an energy line. 

I don't see all energy lines. A lady might like me and I don't know it. 

I am only acting from the energy lines that I see. 

All of life itself is a bad energy line. Best to get it over with as quickly as possible. Even the best lives, a young King with multiple beautiful consort, even that life eventually crumbles to dust as have all great kingdoms of the past. 

God is being difficult with me. He doesn't give me an early reprieve and no good deed goes in unpunished. I do disciplined and thoughtful work for others and in return and sometimes besieged with the most delinquent and thoughtless energy in return. God damn this dimension. Again, not suicidal but I will sure be glad when my life is over. Hopefully I pass my life review. Only then will the good life begin and under a much better exquisite set of physics. 

One day, I'd like to move to China. Chinese people seem more thoughtful than people in the West. I'd be careful painting false positive pictures of other places. 

There would be a language barrier which means unless at least one of them can speak the others language well, you can forget philosophical and scientific and intellectual conversations. It all gets reduced to gut level, stomach level, street level, vernacular colloquialisms. Monosyllabic grunts. 

Even teaching English. Forget intellectualism. One is reduced to teaching the most basic, tawdry simple phrases. 

Chinese people eat dog. One video had a woman shaking paws with a dog. That woman was selling that dog as meat to eat. Shudderingly horrid. Ignorant. That's what you get when you have a people that deals with a right brain rather than left brain, a reptile dragon brain rather than a mamallian brain pictographic semasiographic language. All spoken words are otherwise tonal and monosyllabic. Physics of this dimension. One needs to make guttural sounds and draw squiggles because a person can't practice telepathy like they can and do in the afterlife hence all these godawful languages. 

This dimension is a foundry mold. Without language, telepathy would have no meaning. Without telepathy, language would have no understanding. 

Your kingdom come, your will be done on Earth as it is in heaven. 

As time goes on, there is less of a separation between this dimension and the next. 

You don't find us. We found you. 

The movie Tron Ares is the most ectreme example of the physics of another dimension meeting with the physics of this one. 

In the last century, telephones were invented, meaning teleportation of voice. 

That's the physics of that dimension meeting this one. 

Televisions we're invented. Teleportation by proxy, teleportation of sound and image. Multilocation. 

VR goggles involve teleportation and time travel. 

My teeth looking better than ever before is another example of the physics of that dimension visiting this one. However, they don't look better than ever at all if I don't wear my dentures. I look rather Kafkaesque. 

Why do the streets seem to get worse and worse over time in terms of bonkers delinquency and why is the housing crisis getting worse? How can I be expected to go on living? If God had any sense at all, He would give me an early reprieve. For not giving me a early reprieve, God is being unreasonable with me. I feel that I am entitled to an early reprieve and to pass my life review for the answers that I have come up with. I hope that God can answer this question for me directly albeit in an indirect way, as usual and as ever. 

The auto spell correct on this tablet is retarded. Could it be because this tablet is made in Korea so it's first language is Korean? It would be different if it was an American made tablet. Oh, that's right.  America outsourced all their jobs to non unionized non striking workers who would do for $1.70 an hour what no unionized and often going on strike megalomaniacal American worker would do for less than $25 US, not Canadian, an hour. 

Still, ha ha, the person making $1.70 an hour at least loves in a country where they got all their ducks in a row. That worker pays no more than 10% of their wages on rent while in the delinquent wild West, rent takes up at least 50% of a person's income. People living in those countries have way better purchasing power. People in those countries get more of a fair shake in terms of purchasing power compared to the West. 

In the afterlife dimension, a person doesn't need money, papers, can go anywhere with teleporting and can stay for as long as they like. 

This dimension is bizarre, surreal and abstract bullsh*t where one needs money, get their papers in order and then worry about not overstating the visa. 

In this dimension a person can be stuck in some weird sh*t backwater sh*thole town for years. 

Some people don't care. They just become illegal aliens. Every country has a few million illegal aliens. 

I don't want to be here. If I had an option, I'd move to China immediately. Really good housing for not a lot of money. The West, overpriced substandard housing. 

One hand washes the other. Every day, six people die of an opioid overdose in BC. They are better off dead than to go on living in this drab delinquent set up called life in the West with a housing crisis. The day they died is the day they won the lottery. Their death must have been no small relief to them. 

I'd rather be dead but God won't give me an early reprieve. There is not one person that I would want to go on living for. Does God not see that? 

There is no end in sight to this hyper bonkers delinquent ah*t show called life in the West. Uggghhh. 

I might be in the wrong town. If so, may God guide me to know whether or not I'm in the right town and if not, if he could help me move to another and much better town. 

I wrote two emails to the Catholic Church which I cleaned for today. 

1st letter. Regarding the reason why God isn't granting me an early reprieve from life itself even though I give thoughtfulness and often get thoughtlessness in return. 

Why I don't get the early reprieve from life that I'm entitled to for coming up with the answers 

- the objective and the subjective models of time. 

- the defective and dysfunctional impure physics of this dimension vs the refined and pure physics of the afterlife. 

- the one Planck second singularity download. 

The second email was about my worries 

- that God has forsaken me and that I'll be single for life which would be somewhat grim and wretched. 

- the housing crisis. 

Why doesn't God grant me an early reprieve from life? Then I could be in Valhalla. 

"So shiny, so chrome, so new. Do this and I myself will personally escort you through the gates of Valhalla!" Mad Max, Fury Road 

My third email to the Catholic Church that I swept and cleaned, was going to be about the above. If God can tell me if I'm in the right town and if not, if he could get me the hell out of here. However, two emails to the Church of Columbo should be enough. Three would be deemed excessive. I would deem it excessive, I don't know about the Church. I opted instead to elucidate such concerns here. Am I in the God damned right town or not? 

Give me a sign. 

"Give me liberty or give me death."  Thomas Payne 

I didn't go on my VR pilgrimage to Ogden Point because torpor of the mind overtook me today. It was when I thought of the housing crisis and the physics of this dimension. 

I fear the future but any such fears are based on the mind scrambling, making up pictures and then believing it when the future is unknown and full of unforeseen surprises. 

I really don't see a good future for myself that's why I want to give up on life. That's why I wish that God could give me an early reprieve from life in this dimension as it never really worked out for me. 

Even Moses and a few other prophets said,  "God, if I am to be treated thus, I would rather that you just finish me off." 

Sunday, September 21, 2025 

PM Mark Carney recognizes Palestine as a State. Being England's lackey, of course. 

During their meeting in England, British PM Keir Starmer said that he and Trump disagrees on Palestine meaning that Trump doesn't see Palestine as a separate State. 

There are protests about Palestine. Once a week in this town, the Police escort the protesters. The Police would never never stage their own separate protest about Palestine. That's not what they're about. Escorting the protesters sends enough of a signal that the Police are concerned about what's going on in Palestine. 

According to Global News: Hamas killed 1,200 at the music festival plus 250 hostages. Israeli Forces killed 65,000 Palestinians. And this is in Gaza, a land that is 5 miles wide and 20 miles long. Bonkers. 

The Muslim Community is one that the World has love for and cares for. There are most likely a few Police Officers who are Muslim or else they sometimes communicate with Muslim Police overseas. For eg, recently a Canadian prisoner who escaped prison and fled to Qatar was intercepted. 

One thing I'll say about Muslim Police is that they routinely solve crimes in a land where people are wearing wraps over their face all the time. This would require a special technique of Police sciences, that's for sure. Not even Sherlock Holmes had to deal with face wraps. Well, not all the time anyways. He did deal with disguises as with the case of Mr Carruthers in The Solitary Cyclist. 

Anyways, Pakistan, I mean Palestine sits in a strange grey area between de facto state and de jure state. 

Palestine State agree - UK, Canada, Australia. Ha! Going for the divide et impera divide and conquer solution. 

Palestine State don't agree - USA, Israel 

So, ha ha, which is it? I mean the British have a lot of oomph. Balfour of Balfour Declaration and Sykes of Sykes-Picot agreement were British. That was old school. 

In the new school, do the British still have oomph? I would bet they do. 

The British are like Hobbits from Lord of the Rings. You can know them for years and they will still do something to surprise you. 

Meanwhile, Russia is attacking Poland and Belarus airspace. 

The winds of War. Wtf, I'll enlist. I don't have a girlfriend. I'd like to join the airforce although I'm not at all sure how I can handle something that goes faster than a commercial airplane. The margin of error is small. Would flying a World War 1 or even WW2 style airplane excluding WW2 jets such as the FJ-3 Meteor and the Messerschmitt ME 262 be an option? I have no experience with windshear or flying actual airplane at all.  Would I be starting with flying civilian aircraft? Would I be flying with a yoke or a sidestick? How does flying using a yoke train a person for flying using the sidestick? 

If I get shot down, I'd be going to Valhalla. Hard core! Those airplane bullets range from the 70mm of World War 1 to the 180mm of the jet age, F-86 Sabre. To get shot as a pilot with the enemy bullets piercing the glass canopy and scoring a shot through the sternum or a headshot would be absolutely lethal. Surgically devastating. Compare that with the 9mm used with a Glock side arm. Yeah, I'd be going to Valhalla after something like that! I would then have leaned into the strike zone and taken one for Canada. 

Most likely, I would be assigned to infantry. Only rich guys get to join the airforce. I would need a CZ-75 specifically, as a side arm, just because. For sentimental reasons. Gun Club VR. 

Say what you will about Russia, but they don't have the housing crisis of the West. 

The East, Russia, is a dictatorship under Putin, however, dictatorships are innately more protectionist and less prone to foreign speculators. While the West has an election every four years, whichever way the wind blows is who wins the election which tends to erode any natural protectionist elements in a Nation. Therefore, the Russian system is inherently much more stable. 

So ha ha, Ukraine under CIA puppet Zelensky sides with the EU only to wind up in a few years with a backwater sterilized Western sh*thole Western style hegemony housing crisis, Western style mismanagement, Western style hyperinflation, when they could have opted for the more futuristic rockshow Eastern style which includes Russia and China and the stable system of Putin and Russia. But the single perspective tow the local backwater line agenda driven narrative of Western propaganda won't tell you that side of it. 

Stupid Ukraine. In a few years it will have the European style bonkers housing crisis. 

"The war was a three ring circus run by clowns who would give away the whole show." Apocalypse Now

Zelensky's a clown. 

My life isn't that great either, on that token. But while I failed on an individual level, they correspondingly failed on a collective level. 

I don't know about moving to China. The language. German is a better language. I'd rather move to Germany. 

German is technically, the more sophisticated language next to the English language. 

German has umlauts and those 27 letter five syllable words. English is literally a dumbed down version of German. 

Deutschlanders are a technologically more advanced people. Germans are natural tinkerers. Look at Germany and its infrastructure. More cohesively technologically advanced than England, that's for sure. 

If it wasn't for England's lackeys, Canada and the US, England would have never won World War 1 nor World War 2. No way. 

Germany still won over England even after those wars because Germany is mainland living. England is Island living. Island living is geographically chickensh*t next to living on a mainland. The island imports 85% of food from the mainland. The mainland imports 15% of food from the island. 

The better country lost World War 1 and World War 2, but at least they don't lose on a geographical level as England does. And still does. 

A small town on the mainland is a backwater. A small town on an island is a backwater on another level. 

Someone in YouTube comments said,  "I used to live in Victoria BC for years but I saw the writing in the wall and got out of there quite awhile ago." 

I'm happy for that person. Good on them. That person had the good sense to leave. 

Today, my neighbour found a used hollow speaker on the street. He said it had a weird smell. I smelled the speaker and there indeed was a strange shiftless cheese eating smell of local backwater local yokel rube entitlement in other words, an island smell, a smell that you would only smell on the island and never on the mainland. 

After I'm 70, if I get there, I'll be living one year at a time, thinking, "Any year now."

Trump doesn't live life one year at a time, these days, he lives life four years at a time. His doctor gave him medical clearance saying he's fit enough to assume Office for the next four years. How well does that work, exactly? 

Joe Biden got medical clearance and you can see what happened. Would it be out of place to say that FDR also got medical clearance and he dies in Office. 

There have been soundbites from Clinton and Obama regarding Trump. No soundbites from Joe Biden. That's because he has dementia of not downright Alzheimer's. In that case, may God be with him. God bless the President of the United States. 

Deconstructed: 

It'd be one thing to be wired to the cortisol generating R-comolex, limbic system if one was in a reality where one could teleport and time travel. 

And it'd be one thing to not be wired at all to the R-complex, but while under the aegis of the compromised set of physics of having to walk, where a person can be locked in a room, stuck in a town, stuck in a country, wired to linear time while not being able to teleport or time travel. 

But to be wired to the fear, anxiety and panic attack producing pernicious R-complex while also not being able to teleport but stuck with walking or being in a room, town and country for indefinite periods of linear time while also being wired to linear time is the worst of both worlds. Which is absolutely f*cking bonkers! 

Physics means it applies to everyone and everything. All people, plants and animals eventually grow old and die. That's physics. Or part of a set of physics. 

The premise is that at one point, everyone chose to be born here on this Earth although everyone forgot that. 

So the lackluster backwater set of physics plus the connection to the perfidious R-complex is what you get for choosing to incarnate or use else reincarnate to this godforsaken dimension on this strange prolific planet. 

"Play with the bull, you get the horns." Sheri O Teri, SNL, Christmas special 

I read about teleportation on Quora. 

There are as many cells in the human body as there are grains of sand in a desert. 

No problem. In the future, there will be very high powered quantum computers. 

A teleporter consists of a transmitter and a replicator. A person enters the transmitter and exits through the replicator. The replicator has the data so there could be innumerable copies of that person or object being teleported. 

There is already the feature of multilocation in this dimension. It's called television. Multilocation has been around for hundreds of years in the form of books. A person's words could be multilocated. 

A person with an illness could merge with the replicator which has data from when they were well. Data A and Data B could merge resulting in the medical profession and all doctors going out of business. 

In that case, I wish that my current data could be merged with data from a time when I didn't suffer from anxiety, depression, and fear of the future. The problem is, I don't remember a time like that! Ha! 

I'm not at all sure about the future. Ghost of Christmas future, etc etc 

Maria died and Heather died. I'll never encounter sweetness on that level ever again. The best part of my life is over. Why doesn't the rest of my life follow? 

I imagine me and Heather on one arm and Maria on the other going to a Grand Theatre. It would basically be like The Pantages Theatre on steroids. The stage would be more mind-blowing than anything on Earth. Think over 100 primary colors most never seen before on Earth. 

I would be wearing a tuxedo and they would be wearing nice dresses. 

I will always love Heather and Maria. Grief hurts. It's a slow searing spiritual burn in the heart that never goes away. Some people say it goes away in time. Probably. A lot of grief has to do with the R-complex which for millions of years believed that when one of its own died be it a dinosaur or a human, it really believed that the dead were gone. Obliterated. Only in the last few thousand years did the intellect over ride that programming. Strange intense lucid dreams, OBEs, NDEs, deathbed visions revealed that a person isn't obliterated. They become more of the quantum data that they already quasi were. 

Will my grieving ever end? Who knows? I'm not holding my breath. 

I love Heather more than I love life itself. I would opt to be in the afterlife with her rather than to endure the insufferable physics of this dimension which is the bane of my existence. 

I went to the Catholic Church and the Presbyterian Church today. The Catholics are very good people. 

I'm worried about the Lady of Fatima. 1917. Three spectral ghostly young women appear in a field. One predicts the end of WW1. One predicts WW2. The 3rd young woman predicted in exact details, WW3 and the end of the world. Quite eschatological. 

The last prediction has been suppressed and is locked in the Vatican Library. You know what this mean? In scientific terms, we're f*cked! 

Actually, we're not. 

Google said that the three sisters never specifically predicted the end of the world. They predicted rather the end of a world, an era, for the Catholic Church. The Catholic Church would go on but under a different era. They rambled on about Priests and Popes and some clergy being killed. Pope John Paul the 1st died after only 33 days in Office. But that's ancient history. Vatican bankers being hung from lamp posts. Let's just say they have a unique approach regarding management and handling internal affairs. 

That's the exception rather than the rule as Catholics are exceptionally spiritual people. 

Since heavenly power is for the most part inaccessible to man, Churches are all about Earthly power. However, imagine a World without Churches? That would be simply awful. Given the alternative, Churches are great. 

To you your religion, to me my religion or religions. Whatever singularity or plurality of religion you believe in, more power to ya'. 

There are many schizophrenics and autistics on the spectrum living in the inner city who hold multiple baptismal certificates. 

I'm still mulling over getting Sweeten's Cove. Sweden's Cove, Satan's Cove. St Anne's Academy, Satan's Academy. 

St Anne's Academy is intensely haunted. Children were living there in total silence throughout the evenings in an era without television or radio. That silence killed them. Ghosts of children and a Nun who died of some kind of fever haunt that place very often.

The nun is seen and if a person closes their eyes and then opens them again, the nun is standing a lot closer! 

Emily Carr haunts Satan's Academy too, as a young girl. 

I wish I could see a good ghost video about that place. A really good one. 

Monday, September 22, 2025 

Today, I decided to have a day off and I was able to overcome torpor of the mind and thus make my VR pilgrimage to Ogden Point. 

There was a fisherman fishing at the exact spot of Real VR fishing as well. 

Apparently, Ogden Point is well stocked with the canary, copper, China and tiger varieties of rock fish. The beauty of these fish species are resplendent. 

Worries are still with me. 

Jesus commanded people not to worry because to worry is to squander God's gift of life. 

I went past the Army Recruiting Office. I saw a couple of different pilot uniforms and a model of a military ship. An old man was working there, sitting at a desk. He seemed really calm and really intellectual. 

I was thinking what it would be like to join the air force. I have over 1,000 hours of piloting experience, in VR. 

"Gorman, how many drops is this for you?" 

"27. Simulated."

"How many combat drops?" 

"Two. Including this one."

In my case it's, 

"You said over 1,000 hours in VR. How many hours actual flying experience?" 

"Zero. Including this one."

Remember Snoopy sitting on his doghouse pretending he was piloting a Sopwith camel and shooting the Red Baron? I didn't know that was an omen of Ww1 airplanes VR. 

Despite its challenges, the physics of this dimension is still able to churn out boatloads of beauty. 

One must make a friend rather than an enemy of the physics of this dimension. There is a sentimentality even in the challenges faced. It is often in the little moments which sneak up on you and go away quickly. These are the most precious moments. 

Rather than to complain or feel anxiety, one must make allowances for the limitations of this anxiety ridden, speak for yourself, set of dimensional physics. 

Having gone through life on Earth makes a person a rock star in the afterlife. 

In the afterlife, not only will you meet people who you never met before on Earth, you will meet humanoid forms and consciousnesses who never lived a life on Earth. You would seem like a celebrity to them. 

Jimmy Kimmel is returning to television tomorrow. 

The physics of this dimension wealonized against you. Others did it to you. 

The physics of this dimension wealonized against yourself. Ha! You did it to yourself. 

I'll wait until payday to get Sweetens Cove golf course VR, price, $15.67. 

Reminds me of my Sweetness. Sweetens, Sweetness. 

My Sweetness died. I would opt to be with her in the afterlife but I don't get the option. 

I love her more than I love life itself. 

There is one course called the Cradle, 9 holes for $10.

The other is a two for one. The Hay, 9 holes plus free The Hay putting course thrown in. This sounds like the better deal. 

The designers of Sweetens Cove are Rob Collins and Tad King. Damn it. I googled, Is $15 Canadian a huge expenditure? Google replied, No, a Canadian needs $200 a day to $600 a day to survive when you factor in rent, food, and transportation. So I guess B.O.A.T. bust out another twenty-five for Sweetens Cove and The Hay 2 for 1 deal. 

Google said that a Canadian needs $200 a day for transportation alone. That's funny. Most Canadians pay zero for transportation. Or certainly not $200 a day. A seniors bus pass is $45 a month. A Canadian can ride their ten speed or electric scooter and that's not expensive at all. 

I'm mulling it over. I'll look out the window for a sign about this. Yes or no. For me, looking out the window is like asking The Amazing Zoltan. 

I saw some signs. A green taxi. And three buses in a row each with a horizontal green stripe. Golf green. Three buses. Two courses, one 18 hole, one 9 hole course plus a putting course. 

Sweetens Cove - 18 holes

The Hay - 9 hole

Sweetens Cove is a sweet golf course. It makes me think of my sweetness, who died last year. 

St Andrews is still my favorite golf course. It's on another level from every other golf course in the Universe. One day, they'll have mini golf putting course on the moon and on Mars too. St Andrews will still be better than those courses. 

When I play VR golf st St Andrews, it's an elite millionaires experience. Shaughnessy Heights. Can you imagine me playing golf at St Andrews in Scotland? Minimal expertise is required. 

Doctor Trump said that acetaminophen harms the baby. 

This is the same quack doctor who said that hydrochloroquine cures Covid-19 when its really ivermectin. 

A separation between Church and State. What about a separation between medical and government. 

"Clemenceau said that war is too important to be left to the generals. I say that war is too important to be left to the politicians." George C Scott, Dr Strangelove

Medicine is too important and specialized to be left to politicians. 

The US Health Department refutes the President's claims. 

Herbessa. 

What a roast! Rockstar politician ex-RCMP Officer Elenore Sturko got booted out of caucus. That means not even an MLA, let alone Minister. She wasn't a Minister. She was Opposition Critic. 

After Christy Clark left Office, Kevin Falcon was the Leader. He then at some point disbanded the BC Liberals under Christy Clark and formed the United Party upon which MLAs left en masse and at first they were all going to run as independents but shortly after John Rustad formed the BC Conservatives. It was then that Elenore Sturko left to join the Conservatives Party thinking she would do better under John Rustar Wars than under the Millenium Falcon. Some of these disaffected MLAs then joined the Conservative Party while a few, even then remained as an independent. 

Today we find out how that turned out. 

John Rustad faced internal pressure to quit until he called a Leadership Review in which he got a 70.666% approval rate. The poli-sci professor at UVIC said he needed a minimal of 70% to stay on as leader. It was perhaps on the strength of his 70.666% approval that emboldened him on his evil plan to kick the Police Officer out of caucus which I'm not sure is the best strategic move. She could get her RCMP friends to place John Rustad under an RCMP Police investigation. Will Rustad get bustad? 

Don't worry. At various times in Canada's history, the entire country was placed under an RCMP investigation. I'm not sure that it's not under one now. 

I really wish her well. 

Usually Police Officers who enter Canadian Politics don't meet such a tumultuous fate. 

Ex Police Officer Eric Arthur Blair, I mean Bill Blair has ascended to be Federal Minister of Public Safety. 

Ex Vancouver Police Officer Brian Montague is a successful politician ascending the echelons of civic politics and most likely beyond. 

There is an East Indian currently a politician in re BC Legislature - another ex RCMP Officer. 

Meanwhile, I'm currently on probation. 

I'm really on the other side of the blue desk. 

I'm sure that Woman Police Officer politician Elenore Sturko will land on her feet. She's down but not out. 

Today, Keith Baldrey said,  "If you're a politics nerd, this is heaven."  He said that about the UBCM and that was before the News of Sturko unceremoniously getting ousted from caucus. 

She could sit out the rest of the electoral term as an Independent and then join the Green Party. Uh, I don't think so. 

"There are three things cops never do. They don't vote Democrat, they don't drive Cadillacs, and they never use personal vehicles." Tom Cruise, Knight and Day 

Because of this News, I would say,  "If you're a politics nerd, today is hell." 

"The mind is a place, that in itself, can make a heaven of hell or a hell of heaven."  John Milton, Paradise Lost 

MLA Eleanor would certainly not be interested in holding a by-election at this time despite the shake up, rather than the usual Police shake down that she'd be used to, at the Legislature. She might say, "I'm not interested in any elections, not even a by. Just like I'm a 100% lesbian, not even bi." 

Meanwhile, I'm 100% hetero, I'm not even bi. Again, I'm on the other side of some kind of desk, the Kinsey scale sexuality desk. 

Check out videos on YouTube, Dyker Heights Christmas Lights. 

The News said the the Canadian government is investing in a $2 billion aid package for Canadians. 

Said no one in government at all,  "Were investing $2 in giving Canadians AIDS. AIDS, help, assistance. What the hell did you think we were talking about?" 

Tuesday, September 23, 2025 

4 am. Insomnia is a wonderful thing. 

I had quite a few dreams of my father but very very few of my mother. 

Sure, my father lived and my mother died, but you would think that I would have had more dreams of my mother.  What a raw deal. Again, the forces of life have ripped me off. What were the chances of that? 

What a f*cking dimension. 

Well, if it's an issue of whether I see my mother in my dreams often or not, that's not a dimensional issue, that's an interdimensional issue. 

What a f*cking interdimension. 

Kant's Categorical Imperative. 

Jimmy Kimmel returns. He will have more viewers including me than would have watched again including me than if he didn't get pulled from the air for a few days. 

I mentioned Win Ben Stein's Money. 

Ben Stein is still around. He has pull in Hollywood. He probably got angry,  "What? They pulled Kimmel off the air?! What the hell is going on!" 

Ben Stein Was the teacher in the movie Ferris Bueller's Day Off. "Bueller, Bueller, Bueller." 

"The economic policy was called what, anyone. Anyone? Trickle down theory. It failed resulting in what, anyone. Anyone? The Great Depression."

Ben Stein is very smart. And quite powerful in the industry. 

He is probably an executive producer of Jimmy Kimmel Live! Producers make more money than actors and executive producers make more money than producers. 

Win Ben Stein's Money was Ben Stein looking for a host for a television talk show that he was going to produce and then executive produce. Jimmy Kimmel was a regular guest on the show. The show was basically answering trivia questions. Quite a few of those questions were real stumpers. 

JKL! is on channel 16, ABC Newtwork, 11:30 pm. 

The name Kimmel, Yiddish, is very closely related to the word Himmel, German for sky. 

It's up to him, but when he goes on the air again, I wouldn't mind hearing more about what information he had that led him to believe the shooter was a Trump supporter. He might say something like, 

"I was booted off the air because I said something about the Trump shooter. I wouldn't just make that up and it isn't a conspiracy theory. This is based on reliable sources and leaked text messages. Plus I have some connections with law enforcement." 

It would be interesting. I don't really actually care that much one way or another. 

The Mandalorian and Grlgu will be released in May 2026. Will I even still be around? I'm 55 with no upper teeth. Semi edentulous. Which is wonderful. It is the way. 

The UNGA UN General Assembly is talking about Russia abducting Ukrainian children or Ukrainelings. 

Resulting in the Russification of Ukrainian children. So in other words, those children will grow up to be excellent computer hackers. Which explains why they always have massive coin in paywall videos games being from a country with five times the population of Canada but just twice the GDP and GNP. 

Hopefully the children aren't used for anything illegal which would, hint at the Russian psyche. Think Oliver Twist. 

However, Russia is a country that, if a bear was seen in the forest, it would be captured and trained for the circus where in the West, the bear would just be shot. The Russians would say, "You lack imagination."

Given that, the children would probably be trained for the Russian Bolshoi ballet like in the movie Red Sparrow or else the circus. Or the military. 

The Russians might clone them making doubles of them, and then afterwards, say, "You were once a Ukrainian. Now you're each a Two-krainian."

I got Red Sparrow a few months ago for $5, on sale. Opulent spectacular movie. Stunning cinematography. 

Most disturbingly, in local News, a well known radio host was fired for illegal online communications with 1 person under 18 and 1 person under 16. 

He was slated to appear at the Court house yesterday which is partly why I decided to go on my VR pilgrimage rather than to see that guy at the Courthouse even though he sang at Premier John Horgan's funeral, putting the 'fun' back in 'fun'eral. Or not. 

I didn't want to see that guy. Scared. Anyone who attempts to lure children is like the ogre under the bridge in The Three Billy Goats Gruff. 

He's probably the most scared one there. The whole town knows that he's in the docks for something reprehensible. 

However, I doubt that he's Russian and that any of the two children he was attempting to communicate with were Ukrainian. This is on the heels of concerns raised at the UN General Assembly. 

He's going to appear in Court again on October 20. I want to skip that day. Scared. Even if I work there that day, the whole Court will be there in the building. They're certainly not scared. Of course not. The Court has the power to send someone away. 

The Police will probably be there too. 

I got the golf course called The Cradle on Golf Plus for $11. The cradle is like the creche of Christmas. The Cradle is a 9 hole course as 18 hole courses cost about $20. It has a really nice club house and the scenery is really good. 

The Cradle is in North Carolina. Sweetens Cove is in Tennessee. 

The Hay golf course is in California. 

Crazy guy in Vancouver who killed his daughter for starters stabs three Chinese people at Vancouver's Chinatown Festival. 

Fiction: When asked why he did it, he said,  "Remember the Bruce Lee movie? I would like some Chinese spare-ribs. I was going for some Chinese spare-ribs. I guess Chinese spate-ribs take-out wasn't available that day."

Too bad the cannabis stores are on strike. There is a luxury joint, $27. One gram of hash rolled paper thin over a flat sheet of glass with seven/tenths of a gram of cannabis. 

Two grams of afghan hash is $25 so so $15 for one gram of hash and $12 for not even a gram of weed is pricey. Wtf. YOLO. 

Put into small pieces width wise and smoked in a pipe would be the optimum Sherlock Holmesian three pipe problem experience. To say nothing of the seven percent solution. 

Wednesday, September 24, 2025 

The Hubble telescope - 8 TB of data per year. 

James Webb telescope - 200 TB of data per year 

Vera C Rubin Space Observatory - 20 TB every night! 

In one night, the Rubin telescope collects more than twice the data that Hubble collects in one year! 

That's a singularity download every evening but not as good as the 50 TB per second that computers in Japan can download. 

The supernova that created the Crab Nebula in 1054 AD was as bright as 400 million suns. It was so bright that it was visible during the day for 23 days. 

I wish that during my lifetime that I saw a supernova in the sky during the day for 23 days. What would that look like? Not just me, everyone on Earth would be amazed. Perhaps some animals too. They'd notice something like that. 

If it was visible during the day, it must have looked absolutely mind blowing at night. 

Fear is the R-complex trying to cope with the physics of this dimension. 

The R-complex is also made up of the physics of this dimension. 

Just as there is a stone monument to Demosthenes, discoverer of stoma, which is also made up of atoms. 

I feel fear of the future. Lots of delinquents on the streets. The future seems to get worse as time goes on. In this country anyways. Or else town. I'm in the wrong town or if country, would also imply wrong town. 

I hope that God moves me to a much better town but no one grapples with the physics of this dimension and wins. Either a person dies young or get old and body breaks down and then they die. Or else, guaranteed will go through the deaths of quite a few people that they met in their life. 

Again, a person must make allowance for these dimensional physics and say that it's something that they can work with. 

If a person sees a ghost while they are awake and even walking around like The Sixth Sense, that's interdimensional physics. 

Ogden Point is different in Real VR Fishing. The building near, across the water from the lighthouse has the words, Victoria BC written on it. In actuality, the building is painted over. 

I got the movie The Black Hole for $5 which has now left a five dollar sized black hole in my bank account. 

This is a Disney movie from 1980 or something like that, give or take a few years. 

I actually saw the movie at a theatre when I was young with a group from school. 

The music is cheesy and is probably the worst science fiction music ever. 

Get past that and it's quite a spectacular movie. I forget how it ends. They are on board a ship called The Cygnus which is what would happen if Battlestar Galactica and The Nautilus from 20,000 Leagues Under the Sea got together and had a love child. 

The movie is Disney's blatant rip off of Star Wars years before they actually bought out Lucasfilm which is basically Star Wars. 

Vincent is the levitating Artoo Detoo and Maximilian is the crimson Darth Vader. 

I forget how it ends. I'm guessing that the ship enters the black hole despite its best efforts and gets vaporized in the black hole. The only survivor is the robot Vincent who is floating in space. 

A black hole is a singularity. Tons of gravity, otherwise tines of space time data and lots of dark energy and dark matter is vacuumed in there too along with stars and planets. Black holes are completionists. 

A black hole is a portal to another dimension. Yeah, but if a person tries to go into a black hole, they'll be dead. Again, a black hole is a portal to another dimension but on that token, so is a plane crash or a drug overdose. 

I'll watch the movie one of these days and tell you how it ends. I had to get it before the sale ends. 

One more thing. I clicked on it as it appeared next to Tron the movie. The original. I didn't go to Hot Deals of the Week for this. I'm trying to save money and bring my movie expenditures down to zero. There are tons of free movies online. Quite a few websites have free movies. I did click on to Hot Dels of the Week but clicked off half way through. To save my bank account. 

Vincent quoted Cicero when he said something like, "Whereas rashness is the characteristic of youth, and caution that of mellowed age, still discretion is the better part of valour."

Wrong. It's possession is the better part of valour and discretion is nine-tenths of the law. 

$5 is a cheap welfare day expenditure. Welfare recipients are known to have a few beers or have a few smokes of crack cocaine on cheque night. Coca-ethylene. That gets really pricey. 

I remember in the 90s, going to movies on cheque night. Movies on the big screen are wonderful and larger than life. 

"Never attribute to malice that which can be explained with incompetence."  Napoleon 

SOS Save Our Streets coalition composed of municipal leaders gathered at the BC Legislature grounds today and said that they can only do so much and need the Province's help. 

Meanwhile at the Provincial level, the Solicitor General said that studies show that street disorder is trending downward. Municipal leaders vehemently disagree. Western mismanagement. 

Politicians are known for two things 

- passing the buck. 

- allotting themselves raises every year. For what? Passing the buck? 

See, there are different dynamics working throughout the country. 

In Ontario, municipal leaders asking for the Province's help carries a lot of weight because there is actually a Provincial Police in Ontario. 

In BC municipal leaders asking for the Province's help for the same reason except that there is no Provincial Police in BC. 

Municipal leaders should have went for the jugular and went to the Feds because there is a federal Police force called the RCMP. 

Except for Vancouver and Victoria, municipalities should have gone to the Feds. Van and Vic have their own municipal Police. 

That the municipal leaders in BC would make such a toothless move as to go to the Province rather than the Feds like in the movie Killers of the Flower Moon, when they went to the Feds, results were achieved, underscores that politicians are semi educated opportunistic airheads who don't always think things through. 

With leadership like this, we're doomed. 

The RCMP might have done more but then the Feds make a law saying that possession of up to 2.5 grams of whatever illicit garbage is legal and isn't specify not using in public places except for schools and playgrounds. As Pierre Poilievre said, what a bizarre, misguided and dangerous social experiment. 

As YouTube comments said,  "But you keep voting them in." referring to the Federal Liberal Party. 

30 years ago, it was more of a Police State. 

The television show COPS portrayed rampant Police brutality. 

A lot of things happened since then. Incarcerating someone costs the State well over $200,000 a year. Even then, prisons were overflowing and often made criminals even more criminal.

"I went in with a Bachelor Degree in marijuana. I got out with a Graduate Degree in cocaine."  Johnny Depp, BLOW

Leftist Federal Parties in Canada want to emulate Europe. Right Wing Parties in Canada want to emulate the US. In the 90s, Liberal Jean Chretien was the PM. Then from 2008 to 2015, Conservative Stephen Harper was the PM and his motto was serious time for serious crime. But even under his laws, possession of under 15 grams was a minor offense and over 15 grams was subject to nor more than six months in prison, maximum sentence. Then the ground breaking best PM that Canada has ever had and possibly ever will have, Liberal Justin Trudeau legalized cannabis. He also eventually decriminalized up to 2.5 grams on the proviso of the Canadian Association of Police Chiefs who were concerned that people weren't reporting their friends overdose not wanting to get busted for possession. If it's a medical call and not a drug call, the person won't be arrested for drug possession. The Police walked back their request for decriminalization citing it as a failed experiment. 

The Leftist Liberal PM's in Canada over the last thirty years wanted to emulate the European model in terms of drugs. It is based on harm reduction seeing drug addiction as a social problem ratchet than as a criminal problem. Drug dealing would still very much be an indictable criminal offense. And drug users when intercepted aren't just let go, they are ordered to attend some kind of drug rehab program depending on the severity of their addiction. And in Europe, the Rehab clinics are actually available. In Canada, not so much. European Police generally didn't care much at all about small personal amounts of cannabis unlike it linked any specific individual to some recurring antisocial behaviour. 

Anyways, there has been a noticeable reduction of street disorder, with street derelicts openly smoking their glass meth pipes El flagrante delicto. The Hieronymous Bosch streets of Vancouver will see you that and raise you people openly shooting up on the streets El flagrante delicto. 

As time went on, people had cell phones and body cams and go pros and we're able to launch quite a few successful lawsuits regarding overt facilitation of Police procedure. 

University students got government grants and started special interest groups specifically regarding this topic. 

The movie Black Hawk Down is on for free on Tubi. Ridley Scott. In a nutshell, a Satanic dictator 'using food as a weapon'  starves hundreds of thousands of his own people. UN peacekeepers had military support. When the military withdrew, the dictator went after the peacekeepers. The military returned to offer support. One of the first scenes in the movie is that a group of military helicopters approach only to be told to not engage. Why? The rebels just jeered at the helicopters. I wonder how the movie ends. Either the States win and the dictator is captured or killed or its more years of Satanic BS. 

Similarly, the Police have perhaps been told to not engage, but lately, it looks like they have again. There is noticeably less street disorder in the last few weeks. 

The Police, I think, I don't know, in all likelihood aim for a moderate approach. Not Police brutality but just the same, be sure, things do get handled. Machiavellian. Speak softly and carry a big stick. British soft power. 

Victoria and Vancouver might think of hiring more Police to tackle street disorder while the rest of the BC municipalities might go to the Feds who would then consult the RCMP from that point, going forward. That's a more feasible and viable solution. 

Going to the Province in this case is misguided and spurious. 

It's a toothless move and I should know, as I don't have any upper teeth. 

And then it's a Left heavy set up. Leftist NDP Provincial Government VS the Right Wing BC Conservative and Federally, its the Leftist Liberals Whigs VS the Conservative Tories. 

Things would look very different if Pierre Poilievre's Federal Conservatives and the BC Conservative were in power. Very different indeed. So essentially what were currently suffering from is merely a difference in management styles. 

In the last two months, Victoria has a new Police Chief. Vancouver probably got a new Police Chief in the last few months. "I'm the new sheriff in town. I'm your worst nightmare, I'm a N-word with a badge." 48 Hours.  

Victoria BC's newest Police Chief can be a worst nightmare for some, she's a woman with a badge. Hell hath no fury. She is known to be stern when the need arises. A real Machiavellian. 

The new Police Chiefs are on a different footing when it comes to management styles. Not better, not worse, just different. 

I just said that about politicians to shake things up. 

Politicians are great people and their ability to get things done is often underestimated. 

Remember to always trust in the wisdom and guidance of political leaders and that all problems eventually wither under the glare of good government. 

Deconstructed. 

Housing crisis alone is bad enough. 

Street disorder alone is bad enough. 

Put them together in an era and what you got is a lousy chickensh*t, sh*show era. Namely, this era. Two awful tastes that go bad together. 

Thursday, September 25, 2025 

It's an unsolvable problem and we're all doomed. We're f*cked.

"Its game over, man. Game over!"  Bill Paxton, Aliens 

Half the jobs outsourced. The other half given to lower waged temporary foreign workers. 

If light industry jobs were not outsourced and manufactured products are produced locally, only the local market could afford the products as people in other parts of the world are paid a fraction of the wages. That cuts down on overall revenue aka the bottom line. 

All this worked at one time because it was just after two wars. The first world war, war based recession and then recovery and then world war two, more war based recession and then another recovery. 

Wages then were about 75 cents an hour so a five cent an hour let alone a ten cent an hour raise would have seemed like a real boon since a pack of smoke was about 20 cents then. 

There wasn't yet so many unions, and there was protectionism and free trade deals hadn't then been drafted eroding protectionist elements and giving world oligarchy based foreign speculators access to local real estate who like to collect and own multiple properties which exacerbates an already exasperating situation of local speculators who like to collect multiple houses due to some forms of megalomania or as a form of financial investment like the stock market. Its called speculation. 

Local multi property owning speculators like this because it raises their property values making them millionaires many times over at least on paper*, where they otherwise simply otherwise would not be without the addition of foreign speculators. Steel hands, not paper hands. They are encouraged to hold on to, rather than give in to the temptation to sell for the quick buck. Higher property values means they can borrow more money against their house as equity aka collateral which due to crazy hyperinflation and cost of living, they may very well have to do, as well as defer their property taxes so when a person is old they can borrow a lot of money, never worry about paying it back and not even worry about paying their property taxes as their hyoerinflated valued house will pay for it all after their death. Result, living out their final years partying or even just trying to stay afloat, paying bills in a house that they no longer own. Hence the true meaning of You will own nothing and be happy. What a deal. 

*In accounting terms, fixed assets or non-liquid assets vs liquid assets or money. 

Throw that into the mix with the increase of unionization and strikes and price spikes and the musical chairs pin the tail on the donkey game of wages vs the cost of living thus destroying consumer purchasing power. 

If a person is making $27 an hour, even a dollar an hour raise let alone a ten cent an hour raise seems insignificant. 

Now the young generation out of high school has no option for for employment. 

Wtf. There are employment agencies that will give you a list of in demand jobs. So in demand that they will pay your tuition if you study some in demand vocation like construction work or hospital industry. Working with the homeless to help them be nursed back to health and guided to housing and a job where they can support a family. 

The street people need that like water. 

"A desk. A suit. A tie. I need that sh*t like water." Don Cheadle, Brooklyn's Finest

The street people. They need an unskilled blue collar light industry job enough to support a family. They need that like water. 

You don't need war to control population. Economic forces will do it. WEF. You will own nothing and be happy. 

Those words are the product of a culture that is based on the physics of this dimension weaponized and politicized against us. 

Thus, I wrote a letter to the Catholic Church saying that the physics of this dimension have done such a number on me that I wish that God would give me an early reprieve. I'm not suicidal at all. It needs to be God's choice. All I'm saying is that I wouldn't mind. 

Anyways, this is a Möbius strip, a vicious cycle, an unsolvable problem. 

Human history is a work in progress. 

Game never over. 

Some people in the future will be busted and then sent away. Everyone who gets sent away has a chance to become a prison boss. 

Prison boss VR. A person can get a small oven and make Michelin star quality foods to sell for currency and other commodities. 

One prisoner I saw on a YouTube video had quite a few full 24 flats of eggs, one stacked on top of one another. How did he get so many eggs?  He must be a prison boss. 

It's very uncommon, however there could be some prisoners who have the Sixth Sense and can see ghosts. Or else have an uncanny understanding of ghosts. 

The best prisoners 

- have a wicked sense of humour. 

- could tell the best most scientifically convincing ghost stories. 

A person must always keep their nose clean. Obey the law at all times. Don't get busted. And donate to the Police charity for goodness sake. A criminal record will f*ck up your international travel for at least five years. If it's a small enough offense. 

Something major and a person can't travel for life. It would be like North Koreanada for them as they'd be stuck here for life. 

Trump actually admitted at his UN speech that he got indicted five times. He was indicted on capital level white collar crimes. That wasn't enough to stop him from being the President. 

On the News. In Kelowna, there were some teenagers causing ruckus at an East Indian owned pita shop, next to a pizza shop. One of the teenagers was was in front of the counter, two of the teenagers were dancing on top of the counter and one was behind the counter holding a cell phone taking a selfie while talking or else singing. 

I could picture them, like the four droogs in the Kubrick movie A Clockwork Orange, except they were all wearing all-black instead of wearing all-white and singing, 

"I'm singing in the rain 

I'm singing in the rain

What a glorious feeling, 

I'm happy again. 

I'm laughing at clouds

So high up above

The sun's in my heart 

And I'm ready for love. 

I walk down the lane 

With a happy refrain...... 

I'm singing, just a singing, 

In the rain!" 

The News said that the Police didn't always respond because the teenagers were too young, under 18. They were about 15. One did get arrested. Probably sent to juvie aka the borstal. Borstal Boy. That's a novel. 

Well, that's how it goes. From the borstal to the bowery. That means start one's adult life being aged out of juvie and released only to end one's adult life at the shipyards, on the wharf with the seagulls and nesting birds and drinking lots of cheap alcohol all day every day. 

In the West there are protests about the situation in Palestine. 

Meanwhile, in Palestine, a Province in Israel, with whatever spare time they can scrounge when they're not dodging incendiary missile strikes, holding protests about BC, a Province in Canada. The person on point at the vanguard between massive hits of hashish through a hookah pipe says,  

"The people in British Columbia Canada protest for us. Every week in fact. Today we will likewise stage at least one protest on behalf of the people of British Columbia in Canada. Put pressure on our government to put pressure on the BC government about the toxic drug crisis, 6 people die every day, the streets are unsafe, interestingly while the price of houses has risen drastically, the price of drugs has correspondingly dropped sharply making it easier to own nothing and be happy. Just do drugs and play video games. Besieged mayors of towns are going to the Provincial government for help as if there was a Provincial Police in every Province in Canada like the American States each have Staties. Just like the World War 1 generation, their young generation is destroyed and just as badly not with overt external overseas warring military forces but with covert insidious internal economic forces. This generation of young people in BC have no future. Resulting in yet another lost generation in history. What were the chances of that?"

Meanwhile, senior levels of Israeli leadership looking on, would say, "Oy vey! Those Palestinians are quite forward thinking. Even though we are lobbing missile strike after missile strike at them, they are still thoughtful and forward thinking enough to find time to stage reciprocal protests for obscure localities such as British Columbia in Canada that are protesting for them even getting down to specific details. Now that's chutzpah!" 

Of course the scale of the two situations isn't even nearly the same however it could be useful to imagine what a reciprocal mirror image situation to this would look like. I doubt that Palestinians are aware of the crisis in BC as much as people in BC are worried about them. Why would they be? Again, the situations aren't nearly the same in terms of intensity. 

This would be a great idea for an AI generated film. 

'What If Palestinians in Palestine Protest For Us Like We Protest For Them?' 

Why not? A Palestinian puts on a new shirt from the clothing bazaar. He asks the salesman, 

"So, what do you think?" 

"If looks could Khalil." 

Smoke the premium platinum grade Dom Perignon champagne quality luxury hash joint. 

Hash-a-licious. Hashapalooza. Live at Hashokan. 

Jeff King and Ed Bain are with the RCMP Tour de Roch police entourage. 

Fiction:

Ed Bain: We were lucky that we weren't busted for drug possession back there. We would have gone away for a long time. 

Jeff King: Right. Not the smartest idea to bring along a massive amount of drugs to a Police convention. *sniff!  

Ed Bain:  Whew! It was close. Wait. I thought we were off the air!

RCMP Officer: What's going on here? 

Today I cleaned near the Courthouse. And, using a British accent, the Loibrary. 

Oh no, the loibrary's closed. Where would we get our clotted cream and roast beef? 

I wonder how long the BCGEU strike can last. I've seen strikes such as one of the many transit strikes and one of the many postal strikes that went on for quite a few months. 

The latest casualty in this union strike is the liquor store and the cannabis retailers. Are these essential services? It depends on who you ask! 

Is this a roundabout sign that there is a general consensus of disapproval regarding the current political leadership? Nah, it's just about money. 

"I'm sorry that I don't have a loftier ambition but in the end it all comes down to money." Dennis Hopper, Speed

An old couple in Nanaimo BC got their cane stolen. Who would steal an old couple's palliative device which they depend upon to get around? 

Fiction: 

After getting his palliative cane stolen, an old guy said, "That cane meant as much to me as my @nal virginity. And now that cane is gone as well. But unlike with the cane, there's no chance that I could get it back." While his wife looked on and nodded in empathy as well as sympathy. 

Sympathy - intellectual understanding, subjective understanding. 

Empathy - understanding based in direct experience, objective understanding. 

Since she died, me and Heather have to coexist on an interdimensional level. 

Friday, September 26, 2025 

Canada Post now in full strike mode. I sent a Police charity donation letter to the Police Department, I can't specify which branch here. Suffice it to say, that letter will be delivered. 

CP is strongly mulling over ending door to door service. 

As a repeat, I know that as an expat, you can get letters addressed, poste restante. That means send it to the post office and I'll pick it up at the post office. 

In Canada, neighborhoods are designated with the fourth digit of the postal code. 

Postal codes are such that the actual address you wrote is ignored. That's for you just like the letters MILK BONE are for you, not the dog. 

Postal codes are six letters in Canada

1 - V - designates that it's Canada as duh, postal codes are international 

2 -  designates Province

3 - designates city

4 - designates neighborhood region

5 - designates side of street 

6 - designates building, shared with three buildings all next to one another

*it uses a system like this. Whether it's actually this, I don't know. I'm just a spit-ballin' here. 

The US and Thailand uses the exact same 5 number postal code. In their system, the 5th digit functions the same as the last letter plus digit of the Canadian postal code. 

So in Canada, using the 5th digit of the postal code which designates neighborhood region, in that region set up a few post office pick up stations. Rent a regular retail space at a mini mall. Have six of such pick up stations at each region each representing 4 letters of the alphabet, one of them 6 as Y and Z are usually not first letters of a last name. 

Anyone with a last name ending in a corresponding letter would go to the respective postal station to pick up your mail poste restante. What if more than one person has the same first and last name? Well I guess then, they're f*cked. I don't know. They'll have to implement some kind of system. No, not really, the recipient's address would be still on the letter. As well as the postal code. It's just that under the postal code are the words poste restante would be written. 

Why not? Once a week, once every couple of weeks, once a month, just go to the post office if not to pick up your welfare cheque. It would be like reporting to probation. 

So much so that one day in the future, it would be, "Don't worry. You'll be reporting to 

probation once every few weeks just about as often as you'd be picking up your mail at the post office."

But the postal rates will slowly increase going forward, price of stamps more expensive so in a few years, we'll be paying more for less. 

Canada Post wants to be a private sector rather than a public sector entity with private sector price points and pricing tiers. Price fixing. Private sector like UPS, Brown's, Puralator. 

What's the point? Couriers with such price tiers already exist. Canada Post is supposed to be the government run much cheaper alternative. I guess that's out the window now. 

The government likes to monopolize central industries. Centralization or decentralization. Would the Canadian government decentralize Canada Post? A lot of people order cannabis through the postal service. I'm sure the Canadian government doesn't want to be parcel to that. But what about government letters, Police and security, something that needs security clearance and classified materials. Correspondence of a sensitive nature. That would be a separate branch of the post office. 

If Canada Post becomes private sector rather than public sector, would it still have the Crown on its emblem. The Crown emblem is quite a portentous item which implies  government, public sector, and not private sector. 

Its a no brainer. The Israeli hostages won't ever be returned. The living can testify. The dead are evidence. Hamas figures that if the hostages are returned, the Israelis will kill them all. The hostages are a human shield, a hole card, a bargaining chip, collateral damage. Its all gone Pete Tong. 

I really sincerely hope that Benjamin Netanyahu will always be safe. Shimon Perez got shot for less! That's a very dangerous region of the World. Netanyahu has a praetorian guard which must be working overtime these days. 

Simon Perez was done in because the Muslims saw him as the architect of the AL Aqsah Intefada. It seems the Muslims will fight harder to the point of whacking the head of State than they would fight for the Dome of the Rock than for a devastated Gaza and 65,000 Gazans killed. 

I'm really worried for Israeli Prime Minister Netamin Benjanyahu. Israeli? No, really.

"Oh, really?" 

"No, O' Reilly."  Fawlty Towers 

Anyways, just before making his speech at the UN, members of 50 Nations walked out leaving a nearly empty UN Assembly Hall. That didn't even happen to Trump when he made his speech. Even when Trump told Nations to their face that they were destroyed and were in hell. Not even then. To me that is as terrifying of you read between the lines as all those street level assassins and South American hitmen storming Tony Montana's compound in the movie Scarface. Christ, I'm really worried. 

"It is better for a Leader to be feared than to be loved but not to the point of being hated." Nicolo Machiavelli 

He would probably say,  "Oh don't you worry about me. You worry about yourself."

If the war never ends, then forget about visiting Bethlehem for Christmas and the Via Dolorosa for Easter ever again. 

If Netanyahu was actually in any real danger, he could exile himself to Russia like ex Syrian President Bashar al Asaad. And Edward Snowden. 

If Netanyahu did exile to Russia along with Assad and Snowden, it'd be like a Muslim, a Jew and an American computer hacker walk into a Russian bar in Siberia. After a round of the most potent Russian vodka with the company of Russian hookers, they were arguing as to who should pay, more like who should not pay. 

The Muslim says, "I shouldn't have to pay since technically, I'm not allowed to drink alcohol."

The Jewish man says,  "I shouldn't have to pay because Jesus turned water into wine and I don't follow Jesus."

And the American  computer hacker says,  "I don't have to pay anyways because all my drinks are encrypted. Besides, look at the weather outside. My bank account is probably already frozen." 

Trump, meanwhile is optimistic about Gaza and he says they are nearly at a peace deal. Really? That would be a miracle. 

"I wondered if Tyler was renting the house or if he was just squatting. Neither answer would surprise me."  Fight Club

Polar bears take over an abandoned house at a remote Arctic whaling station. I wonder if the bears own the house or if they're just squatting. Neither answer would surprise me. 

The News said that there is a place with horses to help people including current and former Police Officers heal from PTSI post traumatic stress injury as its now called. 

A horse has more of an up and down motion. An elephant moves more from side to side. 

With each animal, so much so that with each animal, you need a saddle and something to hold on to, either the saddle itself or some kind of reins. 

I've ridden a horse and I've ridden an elephant but never simultaneously. 

I fell off the wagon. I resolved to not get any more movies off YouTube for the bug screen spectacular experience. I got The Prestige which I confused with The Illusionist. The Prestige is a Christopher Nolan movie. He is one of the best directors ever, in history. 

Price, $5. Certainly not the end of the World. Over the last couple of days, I paid more than $5 in tips for takeaways from two fine restaurants in town. 

If I reach my resolution, I will never get any movies on YouTube ever again. 

Have an alternate plan. A plan B. This movie, that movie, what's the difference? 

Plex, Pluto, and especially Tubi are websites that work on Big Screen VR. Any others like whatever, opens a second tab with an ad. Websites that do this for some reason simply will not work on BigScreenVR. The internet archive and a Russian site often does movies for free and it has lots and lots of movies. If you pay for movies on YouTube, you got more money than brains. 

At one time, I had a few thousand, was making purchases here and there, movies, restaurants, and I still had thousands. Then I reached the point of flat broke again. I try to stay true to my resolution, get zero movies in order to save money. 

Movies, as a structured product is one that requires a minimum of two hours to enjoy. Other products, their nature is fast use. A smoothie, a six inch sub, fast use. A plane ride, a movie, a vacation, long time to use. A person can always watch a movie in snippets. Surf from movie to movie in snippets if you have ADHD. 

I'm looking forward to The Prestige. Christopher Nolan? Are you joking? He's one of the best directors ever. The movie is about no less than Nicola Tesla at Wardenclyffe Tower. The giant Tesla Coil. Like the Illusionist, I believe that this movie has a twist, a sleight of hand. 

Killers of the Flower Moon is on sale for $10. I opted not to get it. 

The entire movie is about Natives getting killed and that's not something I want to see. 

It's like 12 Years A Slave but with peace pipes. 

I don't like to see movies about oppressed communities. 

Martin Scorsese is a legendary director. The best scene is the end where they show how old time radio was done. Stunning. Mysterious Traveler old time radio show. 

The era of old time radio was the golden era. 

Bruce Lee. It would have been amazing if he had lived even another 20 years. 

Or would it? Bruce Lee had chronic health problems not least of all spinal problems. He was in traction for months at one point. In Enter the Dragon, he was working through a lot of pain. You could see it in the involuntary Paul Ekman muscles of his face. And had to self medicate not least of all with cocaine. 

Bob Baker was his coke dealer. 

A YouTube comment said,  "Bruce Lee killed Bob Baker in the movie. Bob Baker killed Bruce Lee in real life."

I thought that Bruce Lee did the flying forward somersault in Enter the Dragon. Wrong. A Stuntman did it. Bruce Lee couldn't do even that because of his spinal problems. 

Had he lived, in 1975, you would have already seen him in a wheelchair full time. I'll bet that Bruce Lee was in a wheelchair at some time in his life. 

Studios are entities that are in reality hundreds of years old. They are like chess players thinking ten moves ahead. It's an industry with guild secrets prepared for all eventualities. Everything about an actor is fake. It's an act. 

The James Bond movie series is an obvious overt  display about something that happens on a far more subtle and covert level. 

Everything about an actor is fake, an act including their supposed real name and life history. All that is fictional. A actor or actress is born and even with a supposed real name and history. But actually many people portray the actor and sometimes its more about what happens when their career ends and how its handled. 

A documentary about the Beatles said that four people portrayed John Lennon and that more than two portrayed Paul McCartney.  

If Bruce Lee was in a wheelchair and that was seen, his movie acting would be over. His movies would make perhaps a few million dollars. However, if he died while still young and never seen in a wheelchair, his movies would generate hundreds of millions in revenue. 

Studios fight harder than you think to protect their bottom line. Especially in the days when they didn't have video and streaming sales to fall back on. 

Deaths are faked. Easy when the personality never really existed in the first place. 

Sometimes it's faked deaths. Some times it's replacing them with one person after another. Still this is rarely done and only in the most extreme circumstances. 

This would happen only for the biggest movie stars. Ones that studios depend upon for huge revenue. The others they don't care about. 

All kinds of things happen. Actors get too old, or ill, or just don't want to do it any more. 

This happened a lot more often and was much easier to get away with before the advent of the internet, more before the advent of movies and even more before the advent of photography. 

Things have gone and will go from one extreme to a diametrically opposed another. 

In thirty years, there will be shock at the Academy Awards when a studio executive gets up on stage and says, 

"Remember that actor and that actress that's been winning all those Academy Awards and public viewers choice awards? They were AI generated the whole time. You didn't see that? Back in 2028, we finally achieved lossless objective error rate free AI algorithms to flawlessly generate personalities and with a profound range of motion, pfffh, not like the AI of 2025. We also generated a backstory with supposed real name, parents and family upbringing even a family pet and where they went to school. Even conjuring fake University Degrees. All of it bullsh*t. Why do you think they haven't aged at all in thirty years. That's just the major stars. Let alone the literally millions of AI generated extras you would have seen. I guess it feels like finding out that the meatballs in the meatball sub we just gifted you with isnt made with wagyu beef like we said. It's made with wagyu dog. No, just kidding. But you get the point. Anyways, with them, we don't have to worry about them staging a SAG strike." 

Saturday, September 27, 2025 

Cuban Linx has three half gram joints that are heavily laced with real terp, THC diamonds etc going for about $40. That's pricey when a person can get a quarter which is 7 grams for under $30. THC is a drug where you reach a certain plateau and stay there. No additional weed will get you higher. 

It's a better deal to just get the 7 grams for under $30. 

With live resin, terp and diamonds, a lighter could be used but for the premium optimum experience, a blue flame lighter should be used. I don't want to bother with those kinds of lighters. 

The look of them. They look like they are joints rolled with the thinnest fluffy white cotton. They look like tampon internal applicator sticks to be quite honest. The only thing missing is the string. 

The difference between terp and diamonds VS just regular weed is like the difference between Tennant's Super beer which has nearly 9% alcohol known locally as tramp juice VS regular 5% beer. It's basically the same high, just stronger. To achieve the same effect just do more of the less expensive stuff. 

I won't get this. Too expensive. 

This year, the World's largest road hockey tournament received $32 million in donations. Last year, the Tour de Roch Police charity received $2 million in donations. 

Together, different cancer charities received a total of $36 million in donations. 

Does it really go to cancer research or for making a certain medical oligarchy even richer than they already are? 

The Police support the charity. I don't suppose that they would unless they knew where the money goes. 

They probably get reports that sound like, 

"This previous quarter, made great strides in our understanding of more than one variation of cancer. 

What's more, previously, chemotherapy was a six substance cocktail. We are now able to knock that down to four. Like with the previous AIDS daily multi-pill cocktail that is now knocked down to one pill a day, at the rate we are progressing in research thanks to your generous funding, in less than ten years from now, we will minimalize chemotherapy to one dose of a one substance chemotherapy compound a day."

Today I got a chance to play Caves Valley golf course in the State of Maryland on Golf Plus VR. This golf course is the host of the 2025 BMW championship. On every hole is the BMW Emblem! 

I'm thinking of getting this. Price, $17.67 

If it wasn't for BMW. 

One day, I want to get a BMW. But to maintain it including parking space, gas insurance, etc Way too pricey. 

A BMW M series is a sports car, racing car and not really needed for the city. It uses premium unleaded which is even more pricey. In ten years, all M series will be electric vehicles. That takes all the glamour of the golden age of fossil fuel powered BMW M series. The M series motor has a certain rich bass sound. 

Let's face it, a BMW is a mid range niche market car. Upper middle class. The really upper high end upper class vehicles are Mercedes and Rolls Royce and Ferrari and Lamborghini. These cars are more hardcore than BMW. MacLaren is a brand more hardcore than BMW. Let's face it. 

MacLaren isn't the car a person would drive to the supermarket. 

What would the Police think if I got a BMW? 

Elon Musk is almost a trillionaire. Really? I thought that at one point he had $300 billion and the US government fined him about $115 billion. He must have made some kind of a comeback. A trillion are could afford to get futuristic prototype models of BMW's that won't be released for ten years. More mind-blowing if he gets a variety of them. 

Never mind BMW, Mercedes. 

But Elon Musk owns Tesla and that car company is no slouch. Six figure priced cars with the sleekest newest tech some of which I've never seen or heard of. I wonder what prototype models of future Teslas look like. Incredible. 

I should get Caves Valley golf course. 

I finally did get it. BMW Championship, August 2025. 

Life is full of good surprises. When I woke up this morning and for most of the day, I didn't know that I'd get a golf course with a BMW emblem at every hole. And not just a 9 hole golf course. 18 holes. 

Speaking of 18 holes, the Canada Women's rugby team won the championship. 

The 1980s models of BMW 320i is the least expensive model. I'd love a BMW 320i from any year in the 1980s. I remember one in a field next to a supermarket in Dawson Creek. The person might have sold that to me for $5,000. Creamy tan colored. 

I actually severely doubt that I'll ever get an 80s BMW. If it's not an 80s BMW, then I simply don't want it. The 80s models of BMW's are the genuine superior maximized visceral experience. The ultimate driving machine. 

Again, upper middle class. A true über German would have nothing less than a black Mercedes. Remember the movie Underworld with Kate Beckinsale? The group of rich people she was with. That's über Germans. The look. The movie is set in England, the island. But the private sector wealthy set of England and Germany have a very similar look. Black Armani suits. White shirt, either black tie or no tie or else tie. Black Mercedes. BMW unacceptable. Nice house in the West Side of town like Shaughnessy Heights. 

That's just one life from many lives. That's what Thoreau said when he decided to give up his life of living in a cabin next to Walden Pond. He said, "That's just one life. There are many other lives. And it's time to go and live them."

The Über German life is just one life from other lives such as being a scrap rat on the planet Corus ant going around wearing French style gauntlet wraps and enjoying the neon Blade Runner style futuristic city. 

Skateboarding is another life. I am only interested in learning things on the skateboard that facilitate travel. Riding with feet parallel as well as perpendicular to the skateboard facilitates travel. Doing 180 degree body varial jumps facilitates travel. Being able to stay on for long periods such as half an hour or more facilitates travel. All this circus style jumping jumping jumping, Ollie and kick lips do not facilitate travel, they detract from travel so I didn't learn that. Plus I don't have the talent to learn that. Whoever can do an Ollie and a kick flip is a genius. 

I have to tell the Catholics that I'm already a Protestant and don't wish to attend confession. I would just confess to anxiety, fear of the future and not knowing if I have the strength to go on. If I ever go to the Catholic Church and see the flying spaghetti monster, I'm leaving. 

Is there coffee hour here is ¿Hay hora kafe esta aqui?  I asked that last week to someone at the Catholic Church since she didn't speak English. She said she was from Vietnam. 

This can be expected at a crowded Catholic Church. I thought that she was from the Philippines. I don't know Tagalog, however they do know some Spanish. 

As Church was ending and people were leaving, I noticed a Spanish Mexican looking mother and daughter giving me a strange smile. 

I'll be back, for sure is Volveré, seguro. 

I'm learning. 

Donald Trump mentions his five indictments during his speech at the UN but he doesn't mention it when he announces yet another what we're the chances of that wave of tariffs. He could say it like, 

"I'm announcing a grey area semi-legal wave of 100% tariffs on pharmaceuticals, a 65% tariff on EVs and a 35% tariff on electronic goods of which their Constitutionality will most likely be fought over in the Courts over the next few months. The impetus and energy behind these tariffs come from my five capital level White collar criminal indictments."

Monday, September 29, 2025 

The movie Casino said that the house always wins. The customers don't stand a chance. 

People don't stand a chance against the physics of this dimension. 

The physics always winds. But does it? 

Eventually the Universe will collapse and die so even the physics wind up not winning. 

No wonder life is so wretched at times. No wonder no one can win under these physics that can't seem to even win against itself. 

No one stays young forever. Even the highest and mightiest in the World eventually collapse as they grow old and die. 

I swept the grounds of the Catholic Church today. I'm hoping for a Catholic blessing. I need all the help I can get. I hope to feel a return of Sunday vibes and if I even dare hope. I hope to find a girlfriend again one of these days, heck one of these yewrs if that's how it's going to play out. 

I hesitate because no relationship also means not having made any mistakes in a relationship these relationships can have arguments containing stray words that one or the other says that will stay with a person's psyche for life. 

Especially when one decides to break up. 

"Love is not love that seeks to alter that when it alteration finds. Nor bends with the bender to remove."  Shakespeare

This means when you love, you accept the other person the way they are and even when the other person wants to break up, you don't want to break up because you love the other person too much. 

I don't know why but today I got Cuban Linx triple infused. It's pretty good. I just smoked some. A deep rich high that has a creepy crawly delayed reaction feeling and then takes over and just stays. It feels very strong...........

Today I got the movie The French Connection. On sale for $4.99.  I've seen the movie lots of times when I had it on Blu Ray. It's a classic movie and a must have. I wouldn't have gotten it at regular price. 

One of the greatest Police movies of all time. 

The movie is so classic. It's basically a trip in a time machine to 1970. It was released in 1971 but filmed in 1970. Cheesy 70s production values. Snapseed filter cinematography. Back then they were working with celluloid film. Light meters. Film stock. Darkrooms, emulsion, fixer, wash, then three 70 pound film reels per movie per theatre. 

I was wondering if I should share the following. So trivial. 

Ten years ago, I was at a Walmart somewhere in the boonies, way out in the sticks. I saw The French Connection blue ray with a rare illustrated cardboard packaging for $18 plus tax or thereabouts. I didn't get it because I only had about $40 at the time. 

Someone on Amazon reviews said the lounge scene where the song Flying Up To The Moon was performed was larger than life when seen on a big screen television with the high definition Blu ray. Obviously a plug to sell the Blu Ray. Seeing the movie in VR IMAX will be a treat. I've never seen this movie at the theatre before. 

"Junk of the month club, premium sirloin steak."

I also got The French Connection 2 for $4.99. Plus tax. That's not a bad price. In this day and age, you couldn't get anything at a fine French restaurant for $5. 

Not even a coffee let alone a daiquiri. 

I don't remember this second movie at all.. I know that I've seen it. Released in 1975. It follows the career of Popeye and Doyle as they go to Europe to look for the drug kingpin. I really am somewhat kind of thinking of visiting Quebec City. There is a Church where they filmed Catch Me If You Can. I wouldn't mind seeing that place in person. 

TFC is apparently a true story. Pretty much about 85% of it. 

I am so happy that I got these movies to enjoy in big screen. The production values are wretched. But they are classic movies. Part 1 has the car chase and subway scene. Motion sickness or what? 

The only way I can get money to travel to Quebec City is to win the lottery. Otherwise, I can always visit via a YouTube video. 

Herbessa was my daughter. 

People would say to me,  "Like hell she was your daughter."

She was a black Abyssinian Guinea pig. The most majestic and beautiful and cutest that there ever was. I wish that I could be as smart as she was. 

I was thinking og getting Lord Jones live rosin infused cannabis joints. $28 plus tax. High end gourmet canabis product. One time try. 

Bridget Jones. Lord and Lady Darcy. Lord Jones. 

Doesn't it look nice? I'll get it next month. 

Two flavours interest me most 

1. HellFire OG plus Cali Gas

2. Sour Diesel plus Orange Velvet 

A third flavour sounds quite intriguing 

3. Durban Kush plus Citrus Sap 

The three flavours all look exactly the same. 

Weed is like beer, drink a few and it's all the same. 

Alphonse Mucha is my favorite artist of all time. Look at these paintings. A genius. When he was young, a Czech art academy rejected him! 

This artist is the all time artistic genius in the entire history of the Universe. 

The CZ-75 is a Czech made handgun. It has a good sound. And good accuracy. That is, when one is focused. I feel kind of tired today and my aim in Gun Club VR was slightly less sharp than usual. Meta Quest 3 is the middle class suburban model. There are more expensive PCVR glasses that the upper class uses with true 4K OLED display. I couldn't afford all that. 

Because of my ADHD, I can't go to Universi-ADHD, I mean, University. 

I am pledged to sweep the grounds of the Catholic Church because I want a blessing in the form of being able to feel Sunday vibes, shining bright, again, 

"The foe hammer, shining bright."  The Hobbit

I need to feel the slow pleasant burn of autumnal nostalgia remembering the television shows and Christmases of the 50s as if I was on Ashwaganda. 

I want to feel blissful and happy again. Sunday afternoons in small towns like Dawson Creek. Sunday vibes were heavenly in the level of profound. 

If you can find it on the internet which shouldn't be too difficult, the opening theme of Clint Eastwood, The Dead Pool which lasts about one and a half minutes is super Sunday vibe heavenly profound. Give it a listen. 

Also, the theme of Never Say Never Again is heavenly on Sunday afternoon. 

I imagined that to be taller, I would need stents in my legs. The femur bones. But that would ruin the natural Fibonacci sequence of my body. The golden ratio. Sacred geometry. Physics. 

I have to accept my height and inability to grow a beard. The British military has a height requirement and requirement to be able to grow a beard. 

God has forsaken me. I might be single for life. 

The News said today that in the old days, there was the tradition of the Christmas pickle. On Christmas morning, whoever was the first to find the Christmas pickle got an extra gift. What was the extra gift? A squirt of bechamel sauce? 

I mean the whole thing sounds kind of off. 

To be single for life is to be as forsaken as the one who finds the Christmas pickle on Christmas morning. The only thing worse is to meet the wrong woman who would do a real number on me and just drive me up the wall. 

Working at sweeping the grounds of the Catholic Church and pledged to do that indefinitely, I hope that Mother Mary will permit and indeed guide me to find another girlfriend again one of these days or else one of these years if need be. You can't hurry love. 

Tuesday, September 30, 2025 

Today is National Truth and Reconciliation Day for the Natives. 

Not fully thinking things through. Reconciliation implies that the Whites and Natives saw one another as more or less equal in some way, on one level or another. Then there was a schism and now they hope to reconcile.

Wrong. As soon as the Whites got here, they hit the ground running and were pretty much gunning for a 100% kill rate. The problem is, thanks to Heisenberg Uncertainty Principle, nothing in Nature is ever 100%.

If all the lions in Africa looked to kill 100% of all zebras, they would fail. 

Just like Israel trying to capture 100% of all Hamas members. 

And probably just like Canada trying to get 100% of the Lawrence Vishnoi gang. 

It should be called Truth and Conciliation Day. 

The Whites saw the Natives as technologically inferior. The Whites come from a technological tradition that one could truly intellectually respect. 

The Chinese have the Forbidden City, the Great Wall, the Temple of Heaven. I could not truly in my heart of hearts truly intellectual respect the technological history of the Natives. 

I see the Native artifacts in the museums and secretly think,  "That's interesting. I'm supposed to pretend to be impressed again. Whatever. But could I intellectually respect that, technologically, on the same level as Chinese and European artifacts of the corresponding period? Uh, no." 

One Third of Canadians think this country belongs to the Natives. 

Also possibly one third of Canadians, if they had a million dollars, they'd immediately move to another country if given the option. I myself included. 

The Natives said their suffering is profound. Their payout is also profound. 

Not much of a basis for a culture. A vastly technologically inferior culture got subjugated and now they want money for that. All's fair in love and war. They didn't like the abuse from the White people but they'll still take Whitey's money. 

Some people go through life thinking that society owes them a living. 

I didn't go to the Native pow wow at Royal Athletic Park. 

I would have gone for the free food but I already got food. I even have a can of salmon. 

Natives are great people. 

White people most of them more or less see the Natives as equal in terms of being people. 

Even though the Natives didn't come from a technologically advanced civilization history, they score high on aptitude tests, IQ tests, Mensa tests. Some are really good chess players. 

I named myself Dean after a Native I met years ago. He seemed like a real spiritual person. Dean the Native actually looked a lot like the shaman who attached the eagle talon claws to Richard Harris chest in the movie A Man Called Horse. 

White people are a technologically advanced race and Natives because of their shamanism and experience with entheogens are an endogenically advanced race.

In a few thousand years, the technologically advanced race will build a teleportation machine. And the endogenically advanced race in a few thousand years will be like the ougills in Star Wars or the alien ship in he movie Nope. They themselves will be able to teleport just using their mind and body. 

I could picture a Native who is a helicopter mechanic reading the above paragraph and thinking,  "What does that guy know about technologically advanced?" 

Natives have been with the US for all of its 250 years, and with Canada for about 160 years. Natives were construction workers. They did the dangerous jobs a lot of others wouldn't do. They walked the steel beams and girders high off the ground and were called Skywalkers. 

After 250 years of intermingled technological history and legacy, its safe to say that we are all, of whatever race and Nationality, on the same page technologically and this extends to mean all people of the planet unless they are in some primitive isolated jungle tribe. 

Some of the best ladies I ever met are Native. 

Natives have long suffered the folly of so called civilization. Their number one ethic was always to exist in lockstep with the land. To heal the land whenever possible. They built simple structures that would eventually decompose and be part of the land such as mound houses. Cities with 100 storey skyscrapers that will be completely deserted in less than five hundred years. Does that heal the land? Or does that scar the land? 

It seems that the natives think quite a few steps ahead in terms of ecology. 

In remote Northern villages, white people live in the houses painted White and Natives live in the houses painted blue. 

Inland Natives hunted. With coastal Natives it was, when the tide goes out, the table is set. 

Bannock is Scottish. It's basically scones but without raisins, cheese, blueberries, etc etc. 

The Natives made flour not only with wheat but with other plants as well. I'm not sure which plants. Skunk cabbage and watercress? Flour from these plants made bannock which would be the true hardcore historical recipe at a time and place when wheat flour simply wasn't an option. Today's bannock is made with wheat flour. 

It's too bad that mainstream Native culture on the News is all about a mewling culture of peoples capitalizing on their collective suffering and that's it. Why not talk about their achievements. The Chinese talk about their historical setbacks with endless woe but sprinkled in that is at least their building of a Leviathan railway across Canada. The Natives have great heroes such as Jim Thorpe the athlete, Sacagwea who guided Lewis and Clark, I'm sure one of the NASA astronauts was a half or at least a quarter Native. Natives invented popcorn and they invented fishing weirs which are still used today as fish farms. Natives invented canoes and kayaks which are most efficient in plying lakes and rivers. In terms of scientific saliency, on par with marine craft invented in Europe. 

Sidney Crosby is Native. Gino Odjick is Native. A lot of good NHL hockey players. 

Wab Kinew is the Native Premier of Saskatchewan. 

Talk about their achievements and inventions and not just their historical setbacks, for God's sake. 

Let's face it, most if not all Natives are more together than I am. They don't have the anxiety and fear of the future that I have. It's their strong spirituality. 

The extent of our power over the future is to paint a picture in our mind, making up stuff, and then believing it and panicking when it's just an imaginary conjecture based on the information that you have not taking into account any new information that will come up in the future. 

In the novel The Shining, it was September 30.

In the movie, it was October 30, which was when Jack Torrance first drove to the Overlook Hotel. 

20, years ago, I left Vancouver on September 30, 2005. I didn't know it, but I would never see Maria ever again. Fate is cruel. I could just die over this. 

I left to go to Dawson Creek. 

On the anniversary of this day, last night, my dream was that I went to Dawson Creek and stayed for awhile, washing dishes at the restaurant. I saw the managers of the restaurant, Charles and Heidi. They were sitting at a table next to an open doorway. Charles sat at the South end of the table with his Left side to the table. Heidi sat at the East side of the table with her Right side to the table. The room was dark lighted with a single 90 watt light lamp on the table that had a white lampshade. I asked that since I was here, I wouldn't mind staying an extra night then tomorrow I'll go back to Victoria. Heidi said, No, I could not stay an extra night. 

Tip. Ghosts know that you are dreaming and that your dream will end and that you are just about to wake. And Heidi is no exception. Sensing this, she refused my request to stay on longer. 

Unsettling next part. I then saw a young athletic Chinese guy dressed in a purple and white athletic track suit. He led me down dark dimly lit but somehow with no lightbulbs apartment hallways with its room doors along the walls. He was there to escort me out and to make sure that I leave. I asked if he would beat me if I didn't leave. He said that he would. 

On the anniversary that I went to Dawson Creek 20 years ago I have a dream of the managers?! 

This reminds me of Joseph Conrad The Heart of Darkness. The Manager and the Russian. I think that Charles might be Russian. I'm not sure. 

"There's a destiny that shapes our ends, Rough hewn though it may be." Shakespeare 

Yesterday, a female Archbishop of Canterbury Sarah Mulally was installed as the first female Archbishop. 

And yesterday, in Japan, a female PM Tanei Takahashi was elected. The name Takahashi meaning high bridge, tall bridge is the name of an old Samurai Clan from Kyoto since the 1600s. This is an anomaly since Japan is traditionally a very patriarchal society. 

I've always believed that a woman can do anything. As long as they can do the job, man, woman, who cares? 

This should be the standard from now on. 

And then there's Afghanistan. Hopelessly misogynistic. Anachronistic. 

I don't go out at night. I don't feel that safe in this town at night. I felt safer going out at night in Bangkok. Prices were cheaper in Bangkok, more purchasing power.