Thursday, January 1, 2026
God owns the future.
Loy Sing has barbeque pork and chicken. The prices there are reasonable. Cash only.
The New Year is full of anxiety and fear. Torpor of the mind has circumvented any plans I have for traveling this year. In all likelihood, I won't travel at all this year except in my mind and in VR. I don't know if I'll go to Sidney BC although I should because of the heavenly vibes which are completely undescribable.
I am still in grief for Heather. The biggest mistake of my lifetime was not asking her to marry me. It hurts. Grief is a dull crushing and searing pain in the heart. Grief increases the likelihood of an early demise and then its on to the afterlife with its exquisite time dynamic and setting of physics resulting in a different set of physics.
Life must be honored.
A person builds the place they will be in the afterlife with the actions done in this life. They are making their own bed which they will one day have to lie in.
I thought of visiting Vancouver. My conspiratorial mind makes me think that Debbie with the dog is bait to trap me to move back to Vancouver. I don't mean bait as a girlfriend. Just as a normal common friendship based on a modern form of pen pallery which is a YouTube based friendship. Debbie is a great lady. However me and her are very different people. She is loud which is something I admire about her. I wish I could be loud like her.
I'm not able to be. That's just not in my temperament. The cat gets my tongue.
I will resume my cartoon animation when I find a girlfriend.
I told one lady who looks like Kate Beckinsale, that she has the power to take me to heaven if she were to uh, hold me.
She said, Only Jesus has the power to take someone to Heaven.
Kinda flakey. So I don't know.
I live in a small backwater town. Slim pickings. Not much selection.
I might be single for life. So I might not do any cartoons ever again. Not that anyone cares.
My favorite videos on YouTube are,
Emily Carr, Group of Seven.
RCMP St Roch, 1943 video
RCMP St Roch, Secret WW2 Mission
Miniature World Documentary
Bruce Lee Fist of Fury
Bruce Lee Way of the Dragon
The Green Hornet 1966 Showdown in Chinatown
F-86 Sabre Documentary
Big Trouble In Little China
Bruce Lee The Big Boss
This months apps on meta quest Horizons plus we're all awful. Not one was much good.
Ultra wings 2 - Got it. Not bad. But not better than Warplanes WW1 and Dawn of Jets.
Superhot - word ladder: Superhot, supershot, supersh*t. Downright toxic and anal. Super janky.
Into the Black - Into the wtf. Indifferent gameplay and story. Extraneous mess.
Sometimes I wonder if there is a God or if it's all just random forces. There are a lot of Churches. Some are really large and ornate. There is no way there would be so many Church built over the centuries if it was fictional. Lots of money and energy, lots of high ranking people, lots of interesting stories over the centuries. There is a God. A person wouldn't spend their entire life being a Priest if that person thought it was fictional.
Jesus said to not worry about a thing. He addressed food insecurity and food anxiety specifically.
Animals don't go to organized grocery stores yet they never seem to worry about the next few meals of the next few days.
F18 VR is supposed to be released this month.
Tin Hearts VR is supposed to be released next month.
Future faked:
Mickey de Grand IV - Masters of Ancient Midi
Teleport Scotland VR from Jonathon Fong
Advertised as, will be released later this year 2025, and never happened.
Disappointed. Crestfallen.
Will F18 and Tin Hearts be future fakes too?
Even World Flight VR released 6 out of 10 planes. Odd because WF VR appeared on other platforms with all the planes. A quasi future fake. You never get that on Amazon android. All apps are complete upon release. No half finished apps which are supposed to pass as market standard, market ready products.
Flying at night in World Flight, the landing Strips are illuminated and they are not as obvious during the day.
I wouldn't live on Salt Spring Island. Sherlock Holmes said that not even the lowest and vilest alleyway in London has as dreadful a record of sin as the smiling and beautiful countryside which is why moving to small towns are a mistake. Safety in numbers.
Yet some people in small towns lived there for years and their business is still prosperous unlike the boarded up business store fronts in the city.
Small towns have a heavenly vibe and listening to the radio at night, the mind stretches on almost forever, to the horizon. Sunday vibes, the heavenly vibes of Sunday in a small town are through the roof. Heavenly, definitely.
All small towns have that. Minimum wage is equal throughout the entire country. Washing dishes in a restaurant in a small town is a luxury detail. In the novel Down and Out in Paris and London, Orwell was eventually moved to work washing dishes at the smaller area where the Officers and high ranking staff of the hotel ate. The job was much lighter in volume. That's what washing dishes in a small town is like compared to the big City.
Intellectual people, the vast majority of people have intellect shaped from years of experience. Intellectual people live in small towns and big cities alike. In a small town, rents are generally cheaper, work is leisurely and slow paced and in no time, a person can save up for a vacation. Some people in small towns in Canada were brave enough to travel to Europe. Something I've never done. They were brave enough but also able to save up enough money to do it.
VR is very popular in small towns and VR goggles can be ordered off Amazon or bought at a local half sized Walmart. In small towns, VR goggles sell out fast. There really isn't anything else to do. VR goggles are the great equalizer. They make life in a small town or big city, what's the difference if you're using VR?
"One town looks like any other When you're head's bent down over your pieces brother." Murray Head
Time travel goes fast but linear time goes fast too. Where have the last few decades gone?
More Chinese people in China understand English than White people understand Chinese.
English is the left brain, mammalian over-brain language.
Chinese is the right brain, reptilian under-brain language.
The reptilian underbrain is much older.
The mammalian brain is the center of the executive function.
The reptilian brain is the center of the just make sh*t up when you don't have the actual information function. The reptilian brain is also known as the limbic system, R-complex.
Because of their versatility in complete integrated hemi-lateral brain functioning, the Chinese can and indeed have taken computers to a new direction. Computer systems as far as I know operate similar to the mammalian over brain and reptilian under brain.
I'm not Mr Computer repair guy techno wizard but what even I know about computers is
There is the ROM which is the reptilian underbrain and RAM in which you can get RAM cards for faster computer processing is the mammalian overbrain.
Software is mammalian overbrain.
Hardware is reptilian underbrain.
The mainframe processor is the mammalian overbrain.
The CPU or motherboard is the reptilian underbrain.
Not bad, huh? Even I know a little bit about computers although that would be the extent of my knowledge for the time being.
AI itself is dependent on all of these increments in any system such as the RAM and ROM, the software and the hardware, the processor and the CPU. Otherwise it just won't work.
The Chinese based on their knowledge of left brain and right brain, mammalian and reptilian language systems, would have an intimate understanding of reverse engineering and somehow coming up with better and better computers.
This also goes for the Japanese who are indeed Masters of the mammalian and reptilian language functioning. The places that the Japanese have taken computer technology are legendary.
Newer and better.
More and faster.
"Faster and more intense." George Lucas
Truth is stranger than fiction.
The News said that, The Vancouver Police are looking for convicted sex offender Dean Robert Merrick who is wanted Canada wide.
He did 18 years for some undoubtedly odious offense.
I'm worried that's an omen.
My name is Dean. And I too have been convicted of a sexual offense but not one bad enough that I was remanded in custody. I got placed on probation.
Often a person chooses or signs up before they were born to go through certain experiences in life. Perhaps to help others.
As for sexual offenders, there is an ever growing community.
That community is divided into those who reoffend and who don't reoffend ever.
Wtf, the News even had stories of some Police Officers who got busted for some kind of sexual offense.
When I went to Court, the person who went in front of the judge before I did, that person's story was a lot weirder than mine. And he got probation. Some kind of sexual offense.
Crimes seem to go through stages.
First it's very sensational. Then the sensation starts to die down. Then society becomes somewhat desensitized to it.
With weed, people used to be arrested even for very small amounts. Then it became arrests only for large amounts and now often enough, if its not a drug call, the Police might walk past a person smoking meth El flagrante delicto as I've seen in a movie.
Someone named Dean got convicted st one point for sexual offense. That describes possibly hundreds of people.
The name game. Anna fo fanna.
I play the name game all the time with mind crippling results.
It could be an omen of some kind. That's a worry. But perhaps not in the way that I think. One day, for sure my parents will die. The internet said that the Police will often notify a next of kin. But the Police will usually not disclose inheritance details at all.
Unless, as I've long suspected, that the energy jangle regarding my immediate family or what passes for it is so snakey that even upon my parents death, the Police don't tell me about it.
What a weird family!
My neighbour's mother died and it was the RCMP Police who notified him. The Police also followed up with details surrounding the death. Nothing criminal, just a natural death. My neighbour told me if the person is alive, they have someone who has power of attorney. If a person is dead, they have an executor.
Say a person was wanted by the Vancouver Police for something but the person lives in Ontario. Would they be flown all the way back to Vancouver or be processed and tried in Ontario? The Vancouver Police might or might not also go to Ontario. It would be the Ontario Police who would bust that person or RCMP. Who knows? In all likelihood not the Vancouver Police.
When they showed the picture and description of that wanted suspect, that person looked nothing like me. I hope the Police catch that person but he might have fled the country.
