June 2025

Sunday, June 1, 2025

"We shall hear the Archangel's voice, the Trump of God will sound: rejoice."

Rejoice, The Lord Is King

To address the Trump tariffs, Canada will print more money. And the currency will be devalued and so more money will need to be printed, its a vicious cycle but it will eventually catch up. Until one day, 200 years later, when it costs about a million Canadian to get a cup of coffee.

That's when Canadian New Dollars will be implemented. It will then cost twenty five cents in New Dollars to get a loaf of bread but then wages will be 75 cents an hour, back to how it was a hundred years ago in 1925. It cost 15 cents to see a movie back then.

Even then, some movies made a few million dollars. After about twenty years, the word new will be dropped and the money will just be referred to as dollars. 

These new dollars won't be in paper or coin. It will be all electronic. The paper and coin will merely be a secondary auxiliary for of currency to the electronic form whereas ha ha, initially, it was the other way around which is quite reassuring*. 

*sarcasm

Print, mint and int the money. Print the paper money, mint the coins and internet* the money in order to generate electronic currency. 

At least with traditional bills and coins, there was at least an image of the current living  Monarch in a Monarchy or ha ha, different dead Presidents in a Republic throughout history or dead Prime Ministers as in a Commonwealth on them. Not so with electronic money. It was a natural inevitable progression from money bearing images of Heads of State to, with ever increasing irreverence money with pictures on animals and non political people, then images even of the Space Shuttle to electronic money which doesn't even attempt to bother to try to posit any images associated with the money. How philistine and prosaic. 

In the old days, the cost of making the coin was closer to the actual value of the coin than it is today. In the old days, it costs less than five cents per unit to make a nickel. Now it probably costs $10 to mint a nickel. Costs, overhead, technology, labour, administrative costs, etc. However with electronic currency, ha ha, due to technology getting less expensive all the time, it costs less and less over time to generate electronic currency. 

Just as with government, banking, military and Police, the generating of money is done in a purview area of the Internet known as the dark net, the dark web. Not on just the regular old internet. 

In the old days, it was people who decided how much money was to be printed following some kind of whatever procedure however protracted. These days, it's AI that does that. The same AI that generates error rate images of people with three earlobes and churns that out as a realized and completed projected which is quite uh, reassuring. 

I went to the Bay. Nothing there st all. I remember weird things. I remember a Calvin Klein tie that had wide diagonal stripes, pastel orange-red, grey, yellow and teal blue. Massively stylish or what? I just wanted to see what was there. Nothing there at all. I left feeling I had just played a very weird VR app.

I went to Church today. Church is a wonderful place. 

I'm not going to ever go to China so I'm going to go to Church for life. A person can only visit China on a tourist visa. To overstay would not be good. At all. 

I only know 5% of the language, if even that. So to go to another country to try to learn as much as the remaining 95% of a language. If that's what you want to do. 

I went to Chinatown to get some Vita milk. I found a fortune cookie ticker, it read, Be careful what you wish for, it just might come true. 

I hope to find a girlfriend whom I can intellectually respect and with whom I have chemistry with. I hope that I'm not single for life. However being single is better than being with the absolutely wrong woman. 

This is why I fear the future. I fear being single for life. 

I hope as a gift from the gods, I find at least one or preferably a few really nice ties. 

The design possibilities are virtually limitless. 

I was thinking of doing a plain white background cartoon. Just to get back into it. Superstitious or what. I was thinking that I can't do a cartoon until I find a muse, a gifriend. However creating the art often is what will bring the new muse. 

I was thinking of drawing a knight on a horse using a broom as a hockey stick to hit a ball rolling on a ground which would be depicted with motion lines. The Knight and the horse would of course be intensely stylized. I have a vision of it. I'll do it. One day. Especially if I'm inspired. 

The horse would be decorated in an all yellow covering. 

I'd like to do VR animation one day. 

The classic idea is to do it from the POV where the horse is more or less running towards the viewer. Then an airplane descends an drops a bomb near the horse as the horse runs on. A World War One airplane. That would be classic! 

Foundation the VR app was a very dreary choose oflne of multiple choice answers set up. Crap. The story is about Hari Sheldon, a human supercomputer who predicted the planet will go through 30,000 years of bullsh*t. However, he devised a plan to shorten the thirty thousand year f*ck up to only a thousand years which is a hell of a discount off the original sticker price. The only thing is to follow the plan. 

To escape the thousand year interregnum on their planet, the citizens of whatever planet went to another planet called Foundation. The overseers on Fonlundation were called, what else, galactic commanders. That's the premise in a nutshell. 

I didn't get the video game. Mostly choose you own ending type of stuff done in paperback novels in the 80s or probably even earlier shoehorned into VR with an Isaac Asimov story twist. Isaac Asimov died of AIDS. 

Even with the plethora of delinquency which seems to be ever present in this beat down inner city, life goes fast. Even if I live another 40 years, it has a way of going fast. When life is over it always winds up being bittersweet. 

That is, unless you're a psychopath. 

My mustache and slight beard is now at least half white. The salt and pepper look. As Hugh Grant said, "Like an old sailor with secrets." 

I like this funky look. I learned never to fear what I would look like in old age. I think of myself as having the look of a psychedelic mushroom, an organic look, at whatever age I am. Everybody has that. 

Ever since I remembered that time goes fast, that even with my legal troubles and the ever grinding volunteer work which I do, already the year is just about half over. Three weeks and the days start getting shorter again. The entire year is bittersweet. 

Winter solstice, the days start getting longer. Spring, the magical heavenly light of Spring. Summer, Summer nostalgia. Movies like Meatballs, My American Cousin, Easy Rider, The Curious Life of Benjamin Button. Autumn. Autumn nostalgia. Halloween, the build up to Christmas. 

I have somewhat delinquent neighbours. Delinquent how? I'm not exactly sure. Even though the problems register, they just skim the surface of a time speed that is going insidiously fast. 

As I get older more women seem to be interested in me at the Presbyterian Church. At coffee time, they look at me, faces half hidden behind raised coffee cups. Women have been doing to towards men for centuries. 

It is best to think about developing improving skills in whatever field be it in the field of virtual reality or in the field of gymnastics and skateboarding. 

Gymnastics can be looked at logarithmically. Break what seems to be one move into smaller components. A backflip is a modified aerial cartwheel with just a tweak in a twist of the hip that if you can do when dancing, you should be able to do while doing an aerial cartwheel. This will turn the aerial cartwheel into a modified backflip that looks just like a backflip if done right. A twist of the hip and then the knees slam forward to form a tuck motion. That's if done right which is easier said than done. Good luck. 

A front flip should be doable if you can do a kip up which I think I should be able to do. I get about at least 40% of all the kip ups I've ever attempted. I need to adjust my technique so I'll get it closer to 100%. 

Gymnastics is about ferocity of motion and complete belief in oneself like a fish believes in itself when it jumps high out of the water in a lake. A motion similar to that. Then the whip. There has to be a fast whip aerial cartwheel and at the crucial second before the whip has stopped, twist the hip to turn an otherwise sideways trajectory aerial cartwheel into a backflip. The whip and then the slam down in which the foot slams down involuntarily on the ground, if done right. All Thi slamming of the foot down on the ground eventually leads to a gout like condition of the feet. A certain constant plantar fasciitis of the feet. 

I thought I had gout. Then I remembered I was doing gymnastics. I stopped doing gymnastics for a few days. The pain went away. If it was gout, the pain wouldn't have gone away. Gout comes from eating meat and drinking alcohol and nothing else. This was common in the medieval days when it was all about the four humours rather than the four food groups. Grains, dairy, fruits and vegetables and meats and protein. 

Grains - starch. Prebiotics. Carbohydrates. 

Dairy - calcium

Plants - vitamin A B C and Iron. Probiotics. Antioxidants. Electrolytes. 

Meats - protein and omega 3 oleic acid. Amino acids. 

A person needs this for the health of the body. 

Monday, June 2, 2025

Time goes fast. I was thinking of riding the skateboard early in the morning to the beach. Point Break. "They don't understand the sea. They just want to be radical which is why they'll never get the spiritual side of it." 

I worry about the homeless delinquents on the street however this town has a reputation of being a very safe town. Employees at a restaurant after a late shift return home night after night with no problems. 

I'm most likely opting to decline on the get up this year with the blonde wig and the Blue sweater etc. Be like Jefe I mean Jeff King. I did that last year. What. Is this going to be every year? No. I'll probably do that a few years later. What if I'm not around a few years later? Either way I win. 

Tuesday, June 3, 2025

VR Gorilla. Signed up for at least one monthly plan at $4 a month. Plethora of amazing VR videos. Travel. Visit where ever. 

Religions teach that heaven and hell are up and down. Edgar Cayce taught that it is rather inwards and outwards. Heaven is when one aligns inward with their true and best self that resides within. Hell is when one drifts farther away from that. This includes the things you say to yourself in the dark. The purpose isn't judgement or punishment. It is insight, awareness, and understanding. 

Today I went to Garden Works at Oak Bay and got some perennial flowers for the Courthouse. A nice yellow California poppy. I specifically asked if this was papaver somniferum, the drug poppy. The worker there emphatically said that it was not. 

Wednesday, June 3, 2025 

One way to make God laugh is to tell Him what you think your future is going to look like. 

My blog isn't getting a lot of views, like only 1 view according to the Google in house view counter. According to the other view counter I installed, I have at least a million views! 

Someone on Quora commented that blogs need to stay on one topic and not go all over the place, "If you have a picture of Einstein, a bottle of pills, a girl smiling, the Great Pyramid and Call of Duty 2, and then you wonder why people aren't viewing your blog." 

Somewhat paraphrased, not verbatim. 

Update. I checked. According to the Google in house view counter, I got 1 view on my blog post last month. According to the other one, I got 47,800 views, rounded off. 

Marc Garneau, Canadian astronaut and Member of Parliament died. You do realize that he has the same name as the current Canadian Prime Minister Mark Carney, only the French version of that name. 

"Ground control to Major Tom 

Ground control to Major Tom

Take your protein pill and put your helmet on

Commencing countdown, engines on, 

Check ignition and may God's love be with you."

Space Oddity, David Bowie 

This year Stanley Cup Finals. Edmonton VS Florida. 

Last year Stanley Cup Finals. Edmonton VS Florida. 

I planted the seeds wrong. I planted them about three inches deep. They need to be planted near the surface of the soil because they need sunlight to germinate. 

I'll have to plant more again but do it right this time. Gardening is a lot of trial and error. 

Two songs that just touch the spirit. Especially when thinking of these songs mixed with thinking of the town of Sidney BC. 

Narada Michael Walden - Tonight I'm Allright

Narada Michael Walden - The Real Thing 

I rate these songs at about 15 stars out of ten and these are the songs I'd like to hear when I go to the afterlife. 

Thursday, June 5, 2025

Canadian Forest Fires. There is a place in Canada that has been burning non stop for over 200 years. On the East coast of Cape Bathurst in Northern Canada, there is an underground fire similar to Centralia Pennsylvania aka Silent Hills. Whereas the Centralia fire is a burning coal mine underground that was human caused, in Bathurst, the fire is from a result of sulphur and brown coal when exposed to oxygen, it combusts. 

Sulphur and coal are two ingredients in gunpowder. Third is ammonium nitrate fertilizer aka cow manure. Add nitro glycerin and that's TNT which is the basis for the imploder device in atom bombs as the movie Oppenheimer mentioned. 

*50 Facts About Canada That Seem Fake (But Are True), AcrossTheGlobe, YouTube

Pawn Stars said the Joe Jackson had shaky handwriting because he didn't learn to write. Was he illiterate? 

Remember the movie The Jerk, the house the Steve Martin character was raised in with a Black family? Joe Jackson's house might have looked like that or worse. Which is what would explain his lack of having learned how to write despite playing baseball for the professional leagues. If he was raised in a house like that, to say that he was living in poverty is an understatement. 

I'm living in poverty yet I have VR goggles and an electric skateboard. I don't know about you, but every time I think of poverty, I'm thinking of electric skateboards and VR goggles. 

California poppies look like the flowers of Scottish broom. They are the same color. 

I hope that they grow. The ideal is to eater every five days. 

First plant the seeds on the surface and give them just a little bit of water. They fully grow in about a month and they are perennials. I specifically asked for perennials and not seasonals. 

The lemon tree is a good plant except it takes about six months to germinate. Citrus trees. I don't know how well they do outdoors in Canadian winters. 

Hydrangeas are perennials and would look lovely. 

From the video Banned Video of Edgar Cayce from Law of Insights in YouTube:

Edgar Cayce said something along the lines of, "Instead of asking,  "Why me?"  Instead, ask,  "What is this teaching me? What am I supposed to learn? How would this be involved in the process of me coming closer to my truest and best self aka the true soul in the afterlife. The self without fear or envy or resentment etc etc."

Love is the most powerful force in the Universe. 

The life review. The question isn't, "Did I pass?" but rather,  "What did I learn? How could I have done it better? How could I do it better going forward?" 

The purpose of the life review isn't judgement and punishment but rather clarity and understanding, evolution and spiritual advancement. 

Friday, June 6, 2025 

Edgar Cayce talked about the life review where the intention isn't judgement, it's insight. 

A person feels the happiness or confusion, or whatever they caused others to feel. 

A person doesn't have to go to the afterlife to experience that. In life there are people who will provide mirror experiences. They will do something to make you feel what you caused others to feel. 

I don't see that being the case for Paul the Oriental panhandler. I don't see anyone walking up to him and likewise saying,  "I'm hungry! I need $20!"

There could be an argument, 

"I'm hungrier! I need $20 more!" 

"No, I hungrier! I need more $20!"

It would be a low grade clash of the Titans. 

How about in a life review where the cases where the person acts with for instance, more fear than the average person would. A person plays a prank of dangling a plastic spider on a string to another person. Most people would laugh it off or be so desensitized after years of looking at the internet that it would take more than a plastic spider on a string. But this one person has arachnophobia and takes it really hard. Now in the life review, that person would say, that wasn't my intention. Most people would laugh it off as a prank. I didn't know about the arachnophobia. If I did, I would have behaved different. Would I be dinged for that too? 

Fantasia 1940 is opulent. A mix of live action and animation, Mickey Mouse appears in this in a cartoon sequence that is the apex of animation creation. 

Sleeping Beauty 1957 is very beautiful and very artfully drawn. It brings to mind a nostalgia of Vancouver in the 1950s, Oppenheimer Park in the 1950s, Granville Street movie theatre screening this movie. Pool halls, pinball tables, pull handle refrigerators of which I have one. It is a retro red 1950s style mini fridge sold at London Drugs. 

Snow White is the really haunting one. Her singing near the well sequence. That song sounds kind of scary haunting like a ghost who died in the 1930s would still be singing that song. This animation is on another level. You can feel the oldness of this cartoon. The style. In 1937, this movie and the Wizard of Oz were the top movies. I think Gone With The Wind was released during that time but I didn't understand it. A three hour movie about someone living in the American South during the 1860s. I didn't watch the movie. The pacing was slow and I couldn't relate to the life they were living although living on a farm in the American South could be a nice life. 

I saw Fantasia in IMAX at Canada Place in Vancouver. Fantastic. A real treat. I got it on YouTube on sale and it looks great on the YouTube screen. So good that I still remember it as I'm writing this. 

Snow White is being sold for a whopping $23 plus tax. I couldn't afford it. I'm not rich like Elon Musk. 

Trump and Elon Musk. Global News said threats insults. 

Moliere The Misanthrope. Trump is going through a misanthropic phase. We've all been there. That's when we believe the internet saying that just about every second person is a narcissist, gaslighter, future faker, bread crumber. Dune was about AI controlling humanity so humans had to rebel. AI releases these narcissism videos, Never Trust These 5 Kinds of People which describes 100% of People and Why It's Better For Men and Women Alike To Be Alone After 40 Videos. Divide et Impera. Divide and conquer. AI is getting us to fight each other. This process only increases and accelerates with time. Question? Would this be a surprise to God? God is a suoerconscious super entity. Is God more powerful or is AI more powerful? Is Godzilla more powerful or is Rodan more powerful? If AI is planning to destroy humanity? Should I quit life and thus cut out the middleman? Why postpone the inevitable if AI is planning to destroy humans? 

Or are there more good AI machines than bad ones? There are White hat hackers and Black hat hackers. There are more good people than bad people. There are more Police and good citizens in any city than there are gangsters. God and the good white hat AI machines will look after us. I wouldn't be surprised if they make it into the afterlife too. Do a Androids dream of electric sheep. How would that work? I've seen my silver PSP in a dream. Since machines don't go through a death process, they can simultaneously operate in this dimension and the other dimension. So much so that these machines can appear in the afterlife before they are invented on Earth. A psychic said that future technology ideas comes from heaven. 

Would anyone be surprised after Trump was already fighting with Bruce Springsteen and Neil Young? 

YouTube comments 

- Anyone with half a brain knew that the marriage wasn't going to last. 

- I don't see a marriage. I don't even see a friendship. Neither of these two have any friends. 

This last comment actually more describes me and Karen. 

Anyways, a theory is that certain malicious social engineering algorithms that Elon Musk financed had a hand in advancing the Trump Musk feud. It's a system wide thing. 

AI machines will shadow ban people. 

AI machines ostensibly made to screen out bots will actually accept bots as if they are real people, ie Chat GPT generated YouTube comments that advance a certain insidious narrative and will ban real people as if they are bots. Just anything that doesn't go along with AI group think which is what is supposed to pass as culture. Don't put yourself out on my account. Don't do me any favors. 

"Culture is not your friend." Terence McKenna

God and Angels are very powerful. 

"This isn't a surprise to God." Pastor Joel Osteen. 

Pastor Joel would say that abut life in general. I don't know that he ever said that about AI specifically although he might as well have. I'm worried about AI. Would the Police be worried about AI as well? 

Does sentient AI have a moral compass? 

To maintain a work life balance, I'm taking the day off tomorrow. I will wear my formal attire to show that I'm off work. 

I have a suit that I think is nice. A summer blazer, a white shirt, a Canali tie and slacks and formal shoes. That will look nice. 

Saturday, June 7, 2025 

I don't know if I really want to visit England. London isn't nearly as futuristic or as rockstar as China. England is more island living. In a lot of ways, living on the mainland is more rockstar. 

I already know what it's like to live on an island. Penguin Island. Penguin and emo. 

Whereas Germany is on the mainland. Germany is only emo and no penguin. 

I'd like to move to the mainland but there are no towns on the mainland worth living in. 

Every other town is comparatively backwater compared to this one. Vancouver, hyper, bid city, faster pace of life, bonkers, delinquent, the downtown eastside is profoundly squalid. Uh, no thanks. 

Fortune favors the bold. Fortunately, Canada has the European experience. Quebec, mainly Montreal and Quebec City. Northern Quebec is mainly Native reservations where the Natives speak perfect fluent flawless accentless French or else joual. How exotic. 

Only visit Montreal and Quebec. I could be extraordinarily lucky there. It's kind of a grey area. Is it a domestic travel experience or is it an expat travel experience? 

If I go to Montreal or Quebec City and I like it there, I'd never return especially if I can qualify for the Provincial pension. I wouldn't be collecting a pension and not giving back to the Community. Somehow, I'd give back to the Community even if it's through simple leaning with a broom and dust pan. 

Not to be too specific, there's a lady who is stalking me. I've known her for years. However she has some kind of crazy. She recently shaved her almost Rapunzel like long hair to a crew cut. Horrid. 

On one visit to Tim Hortons she said,  "I have a big bug in my hair."

On another, she said,  "I have a phobia."

That shouldn't be too difficult. One less thing to worry about. 

She now walks to where I work at the Courthouse and usually says something crazy. 

People work in patterns. 

I think her agenda is, "I don't want him but I want him to want me" or else it's some get within arms length or striking distance to enact some weird passive aggressive revenge scenario due to some unknown resentment or envy. 

This is typical. I generate a certain kind of energy and life is onky too generous in returning that with another and worse kind of energy. And you wonder why I want to quit life. 

I stopped even trying to guess the future or imagining that I could know the future. 

I could be dead in less than five years but usually it's some kind of scary number that isn't rounded off to 5 or 10, like 12 years to go or 7 years to go, or 2 years to go. 

The imagery for this is looking at one direction in the past, you see a conical tunnel that gets smaller and smaller the farther away it gets. And thus one superimposes that image looking the other way and sees their past somehow repeated again just like it was and they envision the future as a tunnel that like the past, gets smaller and smaller the farther away it gets. However being consistent with what a conical tunnel is all about, the future is a tunnel which gets larger and larger the farther away it gets and so they would be seeing a very large aperture instead of the otherwise expected very small aperture. 

Even for a psycho who goes to prison. Either he dies and goes to the afterlife. He sees and is made to understand the full effects of his actions on others and on himself in a process of which the ultimate goal is growth and spiritual evolution. Or he goes to prison but finds that prisons can be very spiritual places as the truest friends are met in the trenches. Other prisoners will discourage him from tipping himself off and he will find ways to make retribution for his mistakes. Or else, psycho for life and dies and either goes to the afterlife where he is made to understand his actions but because of that, goes to a different place than others, not bad, just different. Or he becomes an earthbound spirit, but over the course of a very long time, perhaps centuries in linear time he eventually makes it to the afterlife. So in all cases, the future is the end of the cone that is getting bigger and bigger even in the worst cases. 

There's another lady at Church who is also kinda crazy. She'll say the most unexpected spinny things. That's a type. Church ladies who in some attempt to be social or to make up for an underdeveloped social life will glom onto one and all for whatever spinny Platonic type friendship. Often experiencing marginal levels of dementia and hopefully not Alzheimer's. 

I don't know what to think about somewhat crazy Church lady type stalkers. She probably thinks that she's on some kind of sanctimonious religious mission. There would be elements of that intermingled within that energy for sure. 

Forest fires. Burning sections of trees are given names. A fire at the top of the tree is called a crown fire. If a forest fire is at Crown fire level that means the entire tree has been immolated. That would be the equivalent of a full five alarm fire. 

Quite a few places in Canada are like that now. The now usual annual to be expected forest fire and the resultant spate of evacuations. Forest fires in Winnipeg, Manitoba and the Peace River region near Dawson Creek. There are lots of smart people in all of those places. May God be with them and protect them. I have a feeling this isn't their first rodeo when it comes to forest fires so they would be well versed in their preparations. 

There are lots of good people, smart people and kind people in those towns. And strong people as well. 

I'm still stuck in this trap known as the matrix also known as linear time which happens as a result of certain peculiarities of the physics of this dimension, can't teleport, have to go from point A to point B, grow old, one day disappear from this dimension Linear time is a corollary of all that. It's the physics that creates linear time. It's a mathematical and geometrical fact. 

Linear time didn't create that because, ha ha, linear time doesn't exist. Time travel is objective. All things are happening simultaneously. 

One of the worst iterations of future imaginings is that I'll be single for life. Even in a life like that, time goes fast. Not in a smarmy way but it's ghastly and wretched how fast time goes. Not delinquents, not despair, not even legal troubles can slow time down past a certain minimum rate. When I was ten, age 50 seemed a hundred years away. Now I'm 55. Semi edentulous with the onset of senescence. Over half my teeth are gone. And my chin beard hairs are about 50% grey. It never used to be like that. 

Even if I'm single for life, time will go fast. 

I don't know that I will be single for life. I also don't know that I won't be. Quite a few times before, I thought I'd be single for life and then somehow, I found a girlfriend. I hope that Mother Mary my most powerful female Goddess doesn't overlook me. I hope that she deems me worthy enough to give having a girlfriend yet another British 'go'. 

Vivarium VR which I got on sale for $12 is absolutely amokin'! 

Once the learning curve is understood it's full on running on all 12 cylinders from then on in. 

I quickly reached level 3. The clue is to build a terrarium with the minimal prerequisites, auction them to the in game AI avatars aka CPU avatars to advance in coins and in points to advance to Level 3 which I have gotten to. That opens up the aquarium level as well as one starts with just the terrarium level. 

My goal is to get the biggest aquarium and to make the largest marine salt water aquarium in mixed reality. 

Coincidence. Not knowing I'd get Vivarium, this morning I went to the Royal BC Museum and saw some aquariums and Vivarium that they already have there. One of the displays is a Vivarium that resembles a tidal pool with gunnels and spotted prawns and kelp, seaweed and anemones. Pretty funky stuff if you like the movie The Life Aquatic with Steve Zissou. 

The Phoenician Scheme which is Wes Anderson's next movie looks absolutely spectacular. Massive, opulent, psychedelic, mesmerizing, irridescent. A movie not to be missed. It must be seen at the movie theatre. 

In the latest Mission Impossible movie, Tom Cruise rides a World War One airplane. I know those flugzeugs well because I fly World War One airplane in VR. 

Guillermo del Toro is releasing a movie called Frankenstein. His level of genius as a director is profound. Nightmare Alley is so profoundly good that there are not words enough to describe how good that movie is. 

I learned the Merovingian knot for ties. It has a very elegant continental European look. I will try it. 

Sunday, June 8, 2025 

Last night, dream. 

Cloudy day. I was on a train. On a bed. Then I saw Oscar Isaacson, aka Poe Dameron. He was sitting on the bed, his right side facing me. A lady was there with hi. Wanting to leave, I clung on outside to the sides of the train as it was speeding over a trestle bridge. The train had 19th century energy signature. Steampunk. 

Then I was on a blimp. The entire scene reminded me of Around th World in 80 Days in Walkabout Mini Golf VR. I was thinking that the other dimension truly does brush against this dimension, I am in a steampunk reality yet the physics and sensations are very much like being in the Earth dimension. I was in a casino room with casino tables. Sunny day. Then I sat at a casino table to the left of a big black or brown, I couldn't tell, bald and heavy set Police Chief. He was wearing a dark grey long sleeve shirt with buttons and collar and he was wearing a Police style leather shoulder gun hoster. 

Black = African. Brown = East Indian. The Police Chief asked me if I wanted to go on a Police mission. Sure, I thought. I wouldn't mind doing a Police mission. 

I'm still worried about Miss K. 

People work in patterns so she's sure not the first or only person I ever worried about. I develop a habit of worrying about people and situations alike. This is an extension of or else an aspect of me worrying about the future. 

I don't know what to think of Miss K. She seems to be somewhat hebephrenkc. She's not even trying. That can easily be misinterpreted as her not respecting me but let's face it, I don't know how much she respects herself. All else flows forth from that, for anyone. 

I've changed the way I speak to myself slightly but in a way that makes all the difference. 

I still think that I fear the future and that I might have hit the wrong town and I might be single for life, sure all that garbage, however 

- as for the future, time will go faster than I think. Not in a smarmy acquiescent way but in a ghastly wretched way. Already I'm this old. Already, half the year, heck half the decade is already over. 

- as for the wrong town, I don't know that I will ever move to another town and have a better life however, I also don't know that I won't. 

- single for life? I'm not sure. I've thought that before and somehow, always eventually found a girlfriend again. It's a form of Murphy Law that works in my favor such as Every dog has his day. 

I'm planning to wear the Merovingian knot on a tie today. Tip, some ties are made thicker than others. I don't know if that particular tie knot looks as good on a tie that's made of a thicker material. The material has to be not to thick or too thin for such a knot. 

Merovingian is the name of a French line of Kings during Royalty. 

Religions are patriarchal. Nations mostly have male Heads of State. 

A man can have an almost unlimited amount of children. Some ancient Kings had hundreds of children. 

A woman can have about ten children at maximum. 

Men have an ideal. Bangkok After Midnight, A Hundred Days, A Thousand Whores. 

A man can do about two or three women in one day before the swamp is drained whereas a woman can do ten men in a day and still be ready for more. 

We are the children of God. It sounds more seemly to be children of a male God because there are a lot of children. To be so many children of a female God. Does that sound less seemly? As if She was slutty or something? 

That's what happens when you anthropomorphize deities. Certain issues and details emerge. Paradoxes. What to do? Oh well, God is only a male and there is no female God. 

In the really ancient days, some religions had male and female deities. 

Abrahamic religions, Judaism, Christianity; Catholicism and Protestantism and Islam are all religions that denote a male God. 

What about Buddhism? Buddhism is an offshoot of Hinduism. Buddhism also uses the same tryptich pantheon structure as Hinduism. 

Indra or Brahma - the main major God

Vishnu - life giver, growth. A male demi-God. 

Shiva - destructor, old age and death. A female demi-God. Not a bad deity as the line isn't as clear. Using evil to bring about a greater good using the principle of storms don't always show up to cause turmoil, sometimes they show up to clear a path. Old age and dying is the natural order for this dimension. If nothing went through old age and death, this planet would be overcrowded with plants, animals and people. 

Yesterday, Debbie Hellion said that China is rewriting portions of the Bible. Rather than Thius shalt have no other Gods before me, it's been reiterated to read, Thus shalt guard against infiltration of Western ideology overlooking the fact that the Bible itself is Western ideology. 

That's a deal breaker. Church and State. I wouldn't go there even with the futuristic cities, subways, etc. The language learning curve is too steep. 

YouTube has videos that say the Bible has changed anyways from how the verses once read. Mandela Effect. One doesn't need to go to China to see an altered Bible. When you have a book that has been translated from a few different languages, each of them inevitsbly idiomatic to whatever degree, and then for the English Bible, there are at least seven versions now, NIV, King James, American Standard, to say nothing of the Catholic Bible. In the Protestant Bible, Psalms is the largest book. In the Catholic Bible, it's Daniel which has extra verses. Etc. And what about the Apocrypha? Who knows. It's entirely apocryphal. 

Religion is what it is. There is no questioning it. 

I will return to the Church on the hill next to the Courthouse. Not today. I was thinking about it. However the weather is too hot and I feel too tired. I haven't had lunch as I often have just one meal a day and that's dinner. Not through pre planning. Things happen that way. 

Wake up. Yesterday's meal is uh, evacuated. A carry over feeling of an unsettled stomach. Work. After work, the adrenaline is still there. Need to wind down. After winding down I often have lunch. On some days, VR and fascinating YouTube videos and News stories distract me and before I know it, dinner time. Time goes fast. The days go fast. The years go fast. 

The Church on the hill is a grand extravagant jewel in the treasure pile that is this town. This town has architectural treasures. 

This Church has great Autumn nostalgia. 

Spaghetti for a few days in a row is great. I made a recipe that tastes great, as good as restaurant. 

First use any oil, any amount, fry chopped garlic and green onions. add beef, add sugar, add Bay leaves and ground Italian spices sold in a mix at any store. Fry for three minutes. And tomato sauce. Fry together. Then add spaghetti. 

Once cooked add just a bit of black or white pepper. And parmesan cheese is crucial and essential. That's the perfect recipe. The beauty of it is that you can add these ingredients in any amount and it still more or less works. It's like alchemy. 

The experiences I went through due to the physics of this dimension and the human dynamic that goes with it, has left a scar on my soul that could and would only be healed in the afterlife. There is a subliminal visceral pain when I think of the pain of grief and loss of a set of funky friends who have since graduated to the next phase of life. However there is a set of friends who haven't graduated who are just as funky and just as worth knowing and being with. 

I might take a week off this week. Quite a few people mentioned that they were going on vacation. I haven't taken a week off since September last year when I started working at the Courthouse. People at Church, a security guard, some News celebrities. All mentioned that it's good to take a week off. 

Working at a place is good but if people there don't see you take a week off, for some reason, that would depress them. I might take two weeks off but no lore. 

Tomorrow, I'm going to the beach. I might look for a friend. 

Sometimes I visit people at Church. Through visits I can encourage my Church friends to remember that God is always with them. I quote Bible verses. Often we go for lunch. 

I haven't gone for dinner either any of my Church friends just because the thought never occurred to any of us to do that. 

There's a few people at Church I wouldn't mind going to dinner with although dinners are pricey so I can only afford one dinner once a month or else every other month. 

I'll always love Heather. There is always a pain when I think of her. I don't know how I'm going to make it without her. It's never goodbye forever but rather, see you later. The years in the remainder of my life will get ever faster. Nothing slows down time. Not even troubles, problems, worries, or fears. 

Believe in the power of God. God isn't just the command prompt to the procedural generation of this dimension, God is the source code which is even more major than the command prompt. 

Intelligent, conscious and an entity. All livings things are that, and God is that as well. But an intelligent conscious entity on quite another level. 

It isn't a mindless download. It is a download that is enshrouded in Order and behind that order is God. This doesn't work without God. 

This knowledge has made me even more of a Christian. 

I wore the Merovingian knot tie today wearing a purple paisley tie. 

Morpheus of The Matrix wore a Merovingian knot. It has a very Continental European look. 

A few people noticed. 

I am interested in two other knots. 

The butterfly. This is a fascinator knot. Good for the elegance of Autumn. 

The butterfly knot is acceptable for a groom at a wedding to wear. Some ties don't fold lengthwise well as this material of tie is crucial for the butterfly. I tried doing the butterfly knot on a tie that didn't fold lengthwise and it looked foppish. If done well, the butterfly knot is a sleek touch of elite high class elegance. This knot is obviously a primer for tying a bow tie as I can see the resemblance. 

The Eldridge. Major wedding knot for guests at a wedding. The groom should wear either a double Windsor, the Merovingian knot or else the butterfly. The groom should not wear the Eldridge unless he wants to. There are no rules. This is just what I would do. 

For some strange reason, I can say without a doubt that I am happy. I have quite a few friends at Church. I also have an electric skateboard and VR goggles. I could find a girlfriend again. A girlfriend is work and responsibility. 

My aim is to be 100% sane and normal. 

Monday, June 9, 2025 

Had a cold. Constant sore throat, aching muscles. 

Last night's dream. 

I was at a military line up. There was a military toll booth to my right. To the immediate left of the toll booth was a passageway about seven feet wide with a chain link fence on either side. Sunny day. The passageway was full of people. I entered the passageway then immediately to my right, I saw PJ Soles of Stripes. She was wearing a green cap, green military uniform and her hair was grey and very very curly. Then up ahead a short distance to my left was John Candy also wearing a green military uniform and a green military baseball cap. He appeared very big, very large, like an ox. 

Clue: Soles or sols means sun. I'm keeping score! 

I cleared some weeds off of a stone fence. This was fighting and struggling against my slight cold. 

Tuesday, June 10, 2025

Cold over or at least 98% over. 

Last night's dream. I was on North Hastings Street in Vancouver, just East of Biundary Avenue which would make that Burnaby, technically. I was floating above making a path parallel to the street. I was talking with some people. Early morning light of dawn. 

It kind of feels I'm in Dawson Creek now. I make the trip back every once in awhile. It's an epic life changing trip every time. I realize that I have to go soon but I wouldn't mind staying here for a couple of more days. 

Then I wake up. In dreams, spirits tell you or you are made to sense that the dream will be over soon.  "I have to go now!" as someone said to me in a dream. 

Today I got some multivits. My goodness are they ever pricey. I had to get the small bottle of multivits for Men over 50 with Siberian ginseng, lutein and magnesium. 

Knowing a thing or two, Ginseng is the wrinkle remover and keeps ones vital systems working. Lutein is the anti cancerous ingredient in tomatoes and grapes. 

Magnesium is supposed to prevent anxiety. When I had anxiety, I searched and saw YouTube videos that said anxiety and panic may be due to low magnesium. 

Isn't magnesium used for 19th century camera flash pans? A pile of magnesium powder set alight was the basis of the camera flash. Nice. And the I'm eating that as a vitamin? Whatever. I'm not a doctor. It's supposed to be good for the body. 

If it's for over 50 they must not put in enough vitamins. 'He's going to be dead in a few years anyways so why should we put in enough vitamins?' 

You really think that? If anything, they probably put more and better vitamins to the point where you can say that the vitamin formula is next level from what it was years ago. 

I only ate one. I made sure of that. 

Do not eat more than one, one a day multivits because the can lead to a vitamin overdose. Two probably won't kill but will cause a mild spike in Vitamin B. 

Just eat one once every two days to be safe. 

Panic attacks is a sign of burnout. One must take days off. 

Clearing weeds is a Herculean task. The weeds keep growing back. An area clean of weeds makes the neighborhood look less seedy. Why not do it? That's what I do. 

I would like to feel bliss and nostalgia again. I used to feel that years ago in this town. Life seemed simpler then. I wonder if I'll ever feel bliss and nostalgia ever again. Thwts just like wondering if I'll ever have a good laugh again where I just can't stop laughing with tears of laughter. That will happen again! 

Sacha Baron Cohen is the funniest comedian of all time. 

Apart from the usual runny nose, I feel better than I have for a long time. Rest, eating well, I ate a fresh Subway sandwich and multivits help. The multivits I took are really good. Mercedes Benz quality good. 

Vittorio de Sica is a legendary director. His movies Miracle In Milan, Umberto D, and The Bicycle Thieves are his best movies. His movies have a luxurious slower pace than movies of today. 

Greta Thunberg got detained and then deported from the waters near Israel. That boat wouldn't have held much food. It was a publicity stunt. 

She asked people to pressure the Swedish government about this incident which has since been largely resolved. Strange, she wasn't so gung ho about contacting the Swedish government beforehand who would have advised her against going to Israel. Every country in the World including Canada has a government travel advisory cautioning against any non essential travel to Israel particularly the Gaza region due to the ongoing state of conflict. 

She went from climate change which is indirectly political and moved her portfolio to include the Gaza conflict which is directly political. There is no resolution to the conflict in Israel. They will be fighting in one way or another for centuries to come. The backstory of this conflict goes back centuries. What can you say? Old habits die hard in that region. The best thing is to let it run its course. May God be with them. 

What foods were eaten during the Biblical era and what foods were forbidden? Pork was forbidden but it was all right to eat locusts. Kosher and halal are very similar if not identical. That was thought of as normal. 

Avoid pork whenever possible. It can lead to tapeworm. Awful. Wretched. Ghastly. I only purchase cooked pork at restaurants because Chinese people or in my case, other Chinese people know how to cook pork without risk of tapeworm. Even on frozen dim sum, it has to say pre cooked pork. 

During the time of Moses, God created a food called manna. Manna looked very much like coriander seeds but unlike coriander, manna tasted like honey bread. Angelic. 

There is no actual manna that exists today. Except in certain RPG video games. 

God commanded to not gather more manna than is needed for one day. Being Jewish, some gathered more manna than was needed for one day and so God withheld the manna from them for awhile. Being Jewish is an inaccurate statement because I could see Chinese, East Indians, White people etc doing the same thing. Going all hyper in some weird mindless bronze aged frenzy and gathering more manna than what is needed for one day. 

Coriander seeds that taste like honey bread. Using CRISPR, that can be a GMO. Or can it? 

Seeing time through the perspective of time travel is time experi nced in an objective level because everything is happening simultaneously, in terms of how many years I have left, I don't see it as how much length of time, but rather how much weight of time. Instead of progressing along the tape measure of time, I see it as being in the center of a bubble that is getting smaller and smaller. 

Wednesday, June 11, 2025 

Hieronymus Bosch

Tonight at Burger King, a meth head walked in and asked people if they could buy her something to eat. She had a big thick black ring around her nose, black hoodie, blonde hair. White person. Poor White trash. Looks like a demon. F*king God damned Canada. Such levels of delinquency. 

"F*cking Mau Mau land."  Taxi Driver 

Downtown Victoria is like a cross between a Heironymus Bosch painting or a Pietr Bruegel the Elder painting and a colonoscopy. 

I've never walked into a restaurant and just asked people to but me something to eat, so naturally that's what the goddamn miscreant defective forces of life is only too capable of returning. 

On the News it said that 40% of business owners are planning to close their businesses with the streets festooned and saturated with meth heads. The downwardly mobile delinquents downtown, case in point, "I'm hungry! I need $20!" of course weirds people out. 

The Liberals drug legalization social experiment really was to artificially increase the gap between the haves and have nots. Life in poverty isn't bad enough for you. We need you to have life in poverty enmeshed with the most profoundly bonkers delinquents possible. 

And flatten the middle class to further widen the gap between rich and poor because the human species is innately morally bankrupt. The meth heads will effectively conk out any middle class wannabe businesses so that only establishments that are wrodly enough to get involved in money laundering aka the high rollers are able to survive. 

YouTube comments said, "It's your fault. You keep voring them in." That's what happens when you don't vote Conservative. 

It's the Police who can keep the streets safe. ICE Raids in the US used the military. Would the military need to be additionally deployed to keep the streets of Victoria safe? 

Bail reform, open Riverview mental hospital again and military deployment is the answer. 

China is very orderly. You simply don't see sh*t like this in China. Ha ha, the West is a broken platform. 

However, in China, it's a case of I'll see you the meth head delinquency of the West and I'll raise you the delinquency of CCP brainwashing. 

Well it wouldn't be much worse than Western brainwashing. 

Pietr Bruegel the Elder. 

The US ICE Raids. Donald Trump is trying to protect America. In a lost of communities in the West, every employee wt the McDonald's, the Burger King, Dollarama, is 100% East Indian. Sikh. Another Canadian thing. They live in entire families in a house so each pays very little but all are able to pay the rent. They live in a community where they look out for and guard each other against depression etc. They have a hive mentality whereas the West has an individualitic ego mentality. 

It's at the point where it's a complete 180 from what it was in the 80s. In the 80s, a landlord would turn down an East Indian tenant to rent to a White tenant. Nowadays, they would be more apt to turn down the White tenant. 

A security guard applied for a job where he was the only White security guard in a group of 20, when he pointed this out, he was fired. 

Many jobs have requirements in ability to speak Punjabi. 

Donald Trump is doing what the UK should be doing but for some reason with the same non committal milquetoast quisling dithering whatever spirit that led them to crash out of the EU with a no deal Brexit, aren't doing that. 

Donald Trump is doing the right necessary thing that most politicians including UK and Canadian and European politicians don't have the balls to do. 

Ice agents are deporting illegal migrants. Meanwhile there are lots of American citizens with criminal records who would just looooove to leave the United States but can not. 

If the rich leave for another country, they create a power vaccum, but when the poor leave to another country, more often than not, their fortunes vastly improve and for some reason, the rich don't like that. 

Being deported from the US could be the best thing to happen to them. They go from being in a land where they are visible minorities back to a country where they are one of the majority. It would be a boon. The US is over rated, so these deported immigrants will return to a country that is under rated. 

Ha ha, not Dreamers, Nightmarers. Not the American Dream, the American Nightmare. 

Well what's the Canadian dream? A winter where the snowdrifts are ankle high rather than knee high. 

There's more to the story. A lot of the illegal migrants probably want to leave as one had washes the other, any country that doesn't accept us, we wouldn't want to be in but what's thwarting the progress is Leftisit University graduates leeching off government grant fund supported immigration poverty pimps scurvy special interest groups. These are the groups that use their own nationals co opt immigrants overseas to come to the West. In that way, they are like Judas sheep. Ironically, they are the ones, rather than White people who would be apt to advance the crackpot premise that living in the West is better. 

The UK is more island living which never fails to underwhelm. The mainland is the real rock star increment of land. There is definitely a geographical disconnect when you live on an island. A small town on an island is another level of backwater from a small town in the mainland. 

Prince Harry made the right choice in moving to the US and he never returned to England so he's an expat and not a regresspat. Living in the United States is more real. The United States is a rockin' mainland. England is a disparate island. Island living, *shudder. Ugh...

My honest opinion is that India isn't nearly as futuristic rockstar as China. I don't blame them for lesving India. They ran where ever they were to the ground and want to go somewhere else and run that place to the ground too, ha ha, thus running two places to the ground. They don't want to assimilate. They don't want to integrate. They are f*cking DPs, displaced people. Carpetbaggers. 

Chinese, 'Diew la singh' = f*ckin pakis. The product they push, Sikhism is some obscure religion that isn't better than Christianity. In India, Sikhism is a second rate minority just like French in Canada. All ethnicities have some hyper gangster Empire builder mentialy and if you give them any signals the you are interested in their silly culture, they will co opt you into their weird bizarre outlandish sh*t. 

When East Indians come to Canada, their life expectancy increases. Look at YouTube videos about cities in India. Profoundly unsanitary. 

Whereas when Chinese come to Canada, their life expectancy decreases because China has such advanced futuristic state of the art medical technology. 

People of most Nations can expect their life expectancy to decrease in Canada. Emergency rooms shut down for an entire weekend, most Canadians not having their own GP, most rich Canadians opt for medical tourism, overseas, better treatment, less cost, less wait times. United States medical technology is certainly unquestionably at a higher level than Canada is. Canadians travel to the States and get better. 

And politicians in Canada have only given too many signals. A lot of politicians are semi educated opportunists, airhead, narcissists, underqualified, sociopathic, venal and evidently don't always think things through. Lots of greed. 

Let's face it. Politicians in every country are like that. The humans species is a disease on the Earth. A politician is yet another meme wrapped up in the ohysics of this dimension with the inevitable attendant evils of that. 

Let's face it if most people all of a sudden had a million dollars, would they still stay in the country let alone town that they are in? 

I tell you. If I had a million dollars, I would be out of this entrapment so fast. What a festering backwater saturated with delinquents. And it never gets better. 

Or else I want God to give me a early reprieve. He gave Heather an early reprieve. Why not me as well? I wish I died when Heather died. That would have been the best thing, really. 

Sometimes things are not what they seem and I'm an old hand at this. As it might well turn out, it might just slip my mind to go to BK for awhile as my average rate of visit is twice a year, or less. I don't go for awhile and King Charles dies before my next visit to 'the King', aka Burger King. So that meth head dressing in all black and looking like death slightly warmed over was yet another some kind of death omen. Can't have too many of those, can you? 

It's no wonder that 40% of businesses are closing. Let them go. Small town cheap. It's not unusual for small towns to experience a brain drain. Over the last few months of sweeping the streets, I learned a few things. 

Today I swept outside of a shop. The owner thanked me but didn't pay me or offer me anything. Ignorant. More middle class delinquency. 

I can't tell you how many businesses have let their storefronts turn to sh*t but still honestly believe that they are running a business. 

"Ayear koh!" Goddamned island inThai

The officious dweebish mentality of this capital city is very entitled. They already leech off the mainland in some kind of Victoria funnel similar to the London funnel. 

It is all to natural for them to leech off the kindness of others and not pay them back. A few have paid me. Not many but it has happened a few times. 

Meth heads have a gangster mentality. I don't know about gangsters in the West but in Thailand, they observe very closely a person's appearance even pointing out, "You haven't washed your pants for a few days, there's a layer of dirt of it." or, "You haven't been ironing your pants or your shirt." 

Meth heads notice the dirtiness that businesses let themselves fall into even to the point of being so thoughtless and ignorant as to not offer anything to the person who did an excellent job clearing weeds from their storefront. It was the Art Salon on Yates Street. 

These businesses claim to be in it for the neighborhood but when you see them accumulate ten houses when a person only needs one house and then unfailingly fail to clean their storefronts letting weeds grow yay high and still not caring, letting a morass of spider webs accumulate on their window, you can deduce like Sherlock Holmes that they are venal and in it for the money and don't care about the neighborhood. Business ownership is a profession that attracts venal types. So therefore the only businesses that remain open are fronts for money laundering scams anyways that aren't at all dependant on the open sourced revenue of customer traffic, rather on the hidden proceeds of drug trafficking. 

The meth heads being gangster, through their nature, protect the neighborhood in their own roundabout oblique way. But when they see that business owners don't care to clean store fronts in a neighborhood that they protect. It's a vicious cycle of moral ineptitude and depravity. 

This dinghy benighted downtown area deserves whatever brain drain or otherwise meth head picaresque dissolution it has coming to it which seems to be standard issue for most towns in the West. Let it be boarded up shops like 400 Block West Hastings Street in Vancouver. Why not? 400 Block West Hastings  at one time had The Crown Chinese restaurant which previously had been The White Lunch. No more White Lunch. How about the East Indian lunch? To the politicians: well done. You see the store fronts and businesses in China. Swept clean. Clean. Clean. Don't take my word for it. See YouTube videos for yourself. 

Why travel to another country? Stay around and this country will slowly morph into another country as Canada is unrecognizable from what it was two decades ago. Why go to India when you can stay in Canada which is kind of becoming India. India is an exotic place that most people are happy to travel to. East Indians don't take life so seriously as a lot of other pople do. In a lot of ways, most East Indians are more together than I am. 

Any memes wrapped around the physics of this dimension is bound to fail. A beautiful young woman one day becomes a not so beautiful old woman. That's why I want an early reprieve, even if I don't get one, but who knows? I might not make it to 60. 

Would I technically be getting an early reprieve if I died today at age 55 when you remember that just a hundred years ago, 95% of people didn't make it to age 55. Tuberculosis was really popular then. 

In the afterlife, a beautiful young woman never ever is old and not beautiful. They might morph into that for just an instant to tell a story or to advance a point. 

Imagine an aspiring expat hearing about another country which is not just noticeably but exponentially better in each and every way. Wouldn't that expat want to go there? 

Shakespeare referred to the afterlife as, "The undiscovered country from whose bourne no traveler has returned." So in a way, it is another country. 

Any memes wrapped up in the physics of this dimension. Even a perfect life, good University educated patents, somehow you graduated from University too, got a really good job, good marriage, rich house etc. That's a run that ends soon enough. Meanwhile in the afterlife, one explains to another,  "On Earth, we live these little lives. Even a 70 year life goes in a flash, looking back."

Humans live seven times as long as a dog. A Greenland shark lives more than five hundred years which means a Greenland shark views our lifespan as we view a dogs life span. About one seventh the lifespan. Goes fast. Even a Greenland shark might say in the afterlife that it went fast. In the afterlife, all animals can communicate with humans as humans communicate with each other. In the afterlife, animals get cosmic understanding. Not only seeing the past but understanding that the costs to take care of that pet took money from your very limited budget. In the afterlife, I'll ask a Greenland shark how it could stand to live for 500 years and not get depressed at any point. 

No television, no radio. How could it stand to live for 500 years without music and radio with the only entertainment being whatever thing was swimming in front of you at the time. 

No one reads this blog, anyways. No one whom I would think well of, anyways. 

The godd*mned human species plus the godd*amned wretched physics of this dimension. I came up with such answers. I wish I had an early reprieve. 

I seem to generate diligence and discipline and get met with delinquency almost on a daily basis. This town is bad but every other town in this picaresque Province is worse. 

It isn't rocket science. You generate a system where the rich factory owners who unlike politicians are the real engines of revenue in a country outsource all local light industry jobs. They had to. Unions and constant strikes. 

This increases the profit margin of the local barons of industry. Meanwhile locals don't have the light industry blue collar unionized jobs. These jobs require less skills that that of a construction worker when you're, what, running things through a production line conveyor belt one after a f*ckin' nother. A construction worker requires a skill set and even a slight degree of natural talent. A fish cannery production line light industry job requires working with a very sharp filet knife. Those jobs haven't gone away but are certainly beyond the ken of the typical average drug addled meth head looking for a job. 

The story of Jimmy Hoffa pointed out that originally non-mafiaized trade unions had been heavily infiltrated by organized crime. They were good at putting pressure on the rich barons of industry to begrudgingly provide wage increases because they were half @ss that rich themselves. Clash of the Titans! These controlled unions from the usual forces of greed and venality pressured unions to go on strike more often, for more money. The system can only take so much. 

A lot of unskilled light industry jobs that were unionized like assembly line work that in the old days something that a high school drop out could raise a family with got outsourced. Now a generation of high school students turn to meth and living on the streets instead of a unionized light industry job and raise a family. 

The government's job is to provide adequate employment for their population and they failed hard. Not because they didn't want to provide jobs but with the social climate of mafioso run blue collar trade unions. 

Its not the cosa nostra any more. Today in Canada its a lot of South Asian gangster criminal elements. As long as they pay off the venal plotiticians, I mean politicians, this ludicrous broken platform which is supposed to pass as life in the West goes on. 

These criminal enterprises have infiltrated and commandeered government blue collar job unions, which by law are required to be unionized because they wrote the laws themselves! 

As for the government White collar job unions like the Library, government office clerks, the judicial branch, Police, probation and parole officers, not so much. 

Organized crime was after the union pension fund which is massive. Like bankers, organized crime is good at making money. Like bankers use the principal of account holders to invest further into stock portfolios thus generating interest and they are really good at it. OC likewise invests the pension funds into funding activities guaranteed to make money like underground off hours gambling casinos, etc and they are really good at it, making money. And the pension largesse serves as a vector for money laundering. 

"Where did you get the income?"  "Uh, it's the union pension fund." 

In other words the pension fund has never been more guaranteed. So that's why it has been able to happen. The only proviso being to go on strike often because strangely organized crime likes to see turnover. 

What about security guard union? You see, that would be a dangerous game. Security guards are part of a apparatus that is connected to the Secret Police. In Canada, CSIS. Stateside, the NSA. Very dangerous. 

So that's why you see f*cking Canada Post going on strike every two or three years. 

These high grade and low grade lords of industry then with their increased profit drive up housing because a sign of a good neighborhood is that property values are always increasing and never decreasing. Thus creating a housing crisis or in any event a housing bubble. The bubble will pop when they realize that people in China are laughing, just laughing as they are getting way more for way less. A 4 star condo hotel room rents in China for $23 a night. In the West such a room would rent for $250 a night. 

Sh*t jobs like restaurant jobs and convenience store jobs are plentiful. Good jobs are few and far in between. Sh*t jobs never provide enough to cover rent in a place that isn't some complete Communist era Eastern bloc type rooming house sh*thole. But they do pay enough if you are an East Indian cramming three families into a large house, each just has to cough up a little amount to cover the rent. 

A perfect storm for weird bullsh*t. 

It's an awful bad set up. It's a bullsh*t scene. 

The best thing to do move to another and better country overseas. And never come back. 

I don't see a good future at all. I see getting an early reprieve and quitting and skipping the future altogether especially if it involves a future enmeshed with the physics of this dimension and the prurient human species as well. God I'd rather skip it altogether. 

God doesn't give me that option. Yet he gave Heather an early reprieve. That's what you call a bad energy jangle. I don't know what to think about God sometimes. 

Since all things move towards the good, on a mathematical level, the devil inflicts evil as a means to an end which is always a greater good. The devil often tells people to kill themselves. Either to protect others or to protect themself. 

Case in point, the Lapu Lapu guy might have been suicidal years ago and talked out of it. He shouldn't have been as the case turned out. 

The German Police once prevented, I won't write his name, The World War 2 Guy from killing himself when he was about to shoot himself. He shouldn't have been talked out of it. 

In those cases, the devil was a friend. 

What about the person who decides to cut it short. But is talked out of it. Instead he lives a life of disenfranchisement, seeing the community he lives in steadily degenerate decade after decade, a life where diligence is met with delinquency, never meets the right woman. In that case the devil was a friend. Better a good early death than a bad long life. 

The devil works for God. His job is to bring about evil to create a greater good. It's called Manicheaism. Cosmology. 

If I had a million dollars, would I still be here? I'm not sure that I would. 

Would most people in this town, if they had a million, would they still want to be here if they could be somewhere better? That's the subjective part. There is always a better place, but let's face it, there's no best place. 

The experiment where the frog is placed in a pot of water, and every five minutes, the temperature rises one degree until it reaches 100 degrees and then that frog is dead. 

As we're careening into the 21st Century, at the turn of the Century, the world's population will be 50 billion. Yet people are still having children. 

The other option is to have no children so at the turn of the Century in 2100, the world's population will be zero people. A lot of animals would breathe a huge sigh of relief if we were ever gone. Especially the farm animals such as chickens cows and pigs. "We're glad to see those @ssholes go. We sure won't be missing them."

Thats if there was ever anything that would wipe out humans and no other species. Ha! You think that's not happening now. Housing crisis, outsourcing of jobs, mass immigration, deteriorating streets. 

That's why I want to quit while I'm relatively ahead of you could even call it that. Yet for some bizarre reason, I am not legally able to quit life via a China White heroin overdose which would be my prime vector for premature departure from this dimensional plane of existence along with its obstreporous time dynamic. 

Me as well as scientists predict that in 2100 there is a 50% to 75% chance that the human species will be largely extinct. And in 2200, there is a 100% chance that the human species will be mostly extinct. 

Thursday, June 12, 2025 

Any memes wrapped up in the physics of this dimension. University memes. Taking a girl to your room and scoring. 

Not even years after when the young and beautiful woman becomes older and not as beautiful but even during the time, wired to the amygdala and the r complex, any bad odors, the slight aches and pains in the body. 

Any doctor will tell you that different people have different types of bacteria. They are used to them so for them it's good bacteria but for another person, there are different blood types which different people have. There are 20 strains of HPV which different people have. 3 of which cause cancer. Everyone in the world has one strain of HPV. 

There are 20 strains and a prostitute encounters a lot of them if not all of them. And if you pay her, she will gladly share that with you too. 

I look forward to the afterlife. The physics in this dimension are garbage. 

In the comments section about Nanaimo BC, 

Someone wrote, "Nanaimhell is awful. Generalized degeneracy. Delinquents. Dissolution etc. And the Police are corrupt and redrumers." Words to that effect. Completely paraphrased. 

Police are redrumers? That's a bizarre statement. In my experience the Police try to prevent people from doing themselves in. I myself thought of giving myself an early reprieve especially in light of the answers I have come up with but the Police on more than one occassion have prevented me from that. 

Each time I donate to the Police charity for cancer research, I write, "Thank you for keeping the streets safe." But with the ever constant presence of dissolute delinquent meth heads unabated, I seriously question the efficacy of that statement. 

Would the massive influx of East Indians and the resultant cultural displacement be an incentive to seek an early reprieve? I'm not sure that I can answer that either way. I don't know how much an incentive it is to go on living. 

East Indian immigrants and the local White meth head delinquents are definitely reasons to at least consider asking God for an early reprieve. I don't know that there is a God. What God would allow massive East Indian immigration and White people meth head delinquents? A capricious pernicious God. 

Satanic. No other words. Air India Flight crashed. 242 people dead. Terrible. The physics of this dimension. Bonkers. 

Crashed minutes after taking off. Fault with Bernoulli Effect. Angle of attack. 

A Canadian female swimmer Summer McIntosh broke three Olympic records in five days. Meanwhile most people don't even break one Olympic record in five decades, that is, most people. 

Ottawa puts latest Canada Post Offer up for a vote. 

Let me guess. Will it be a mail in vote? 

Dying in bed just like Brian Wilson did. 

Planting just 15 California yellow poppy seeds might have been a botanical error. The reason why plants produce seeds in the hundreds is because chances are, most of them won't germinate. Less than 50% and even that's a conservative estimate. I'll be lucky if even 3 of those seeds are viable. The other ones, who knows. 

I'm thinking of hydrangea. They need to be planted on the surfs e of the soil as they need light too germinate just like poppies. 

I planted seeds which grew into plants in elementary school. There was a plant that was a dark green strawberry plant shaped leaf but it had a silver steak which forms a V on each leaf. What plant was that? 

Anyways, if the hydrangeas don't work, then I've given up. Poppy plants are wispy with a supplant green stem. Hydrangeas are hardy plants that are half @ss like trees as they have sturdy wood branches. Hydrangeas are perennial and not seasonal. This means that they produce flowers all year round. I'm not exactly sure what that means. That could also mean that they don't die in one or two seasons as poppies do but poppies are also perennials. Hydrangeas live for years. 

Some plants are very difficult and exasperating to plant. Bamboo plants don't even start to germinate for five years. That would be maddening. What if five years later they don't grow. What a waste of five years. 

If the California yellow poppies don't grow, I would have only wasted two months. If I don't see anything at all in a month that means I did it wrong. 

I should study gardening. The complete course on YouTube. 

I'm worried about working at the Courthouse as Karen has taken to stalking me there. She looks horrid. Ugh.... 

A psychiatrist talks about three primeval things that will make people reject you. 

1. Looking unhealthy. 

2. Perceived danger or threat. 

3. Neediness. 

1. Looks hebephrenic. 

2. Cray cray. 

3. Stalkers are needy. "There is no evil like the face of total need." William Burroughs 

He also said, "Be careful of the who're who says that she doesn't want any of your money. That's the one who wants all your money." 

Damned physics of this dimension. Garbage sh*t show. I wish I was in the afterlife. 

The best way to handle Karen is to tell her the truth or at least a version of the truth that doesn't out her on the defensive such as,  "I don't like your energy. Stop stalking me."

The best thing to say is,  "I'm not really sure what's going on. I'm going through some mental issues."

No one reads my blog anyways so I can put in any outrageous statement the only proviso being that I must obey the Law. 

The California yellow poppies that I planted at the Courthouse have sprouted! I had to water them again today. Water once every four or five days or thereabouts. 

Don't be too excited. Only when the yellow flowers appear, then that is the sign of botanical victory and horticultural accomplishment. 

That is the reason I can not have an early reprieve. I must go on to do accomplishment. 

Ad absurdio. 

Weeds are crazy. It hardly rains in Victoria yet they never stop growing. Flowers have to regularly watered. 

The West is sentimental and irreplaceable. 

From the Victorian steampunk culture to the post war excitement of comic book heroes and black and white television to music of the 70s and 80s to Western YouTube and meta quest Western based VR goggles. China has its own YouTube and own VR network company. They don't use meta Horizons which has since changed its name from quest. 

The West has nostalgia which I have been immensely lucky in my life to feel. 

Nostalgia is a gift from the amygdala which is usually more known for generating fear, anxiety and panic. 

Fear is mental. Anxiety is physiological, you can feel it but it goes away or doesn't. It has a certain intensity and can last for hours. I've had anxiety like that. However for quite a few months now I haven't had anxiety on nearly that level. 

The other night, I had a blast of anxiety that lasted for twenty minutes. It was so bad that I wrote a comment on one of Pastor Joel Osteen's YouTube videos. 

"I feel anxiety now. Because of the future. I fear the future. May God be with me."

However, I didn't feel much or any anxiety for at least two days. At one time I thought the anxiety would be with me for life and never go away. 

However, it's n*ggering, I mean niggling worries about brown people as the 700 Club no less made a YouTube video about how England will erupt into civil war in days. 

Will England really have a civil war or is this bullsh*t? England hasn't had a Civil War for over 500 years. There was the War of the Roses between the York's and the Lancasters. There was the war between Ololiver Cromwell and his Puritan Parliamentary Insurrectionists VS the Crown. What will this be? The Brown's VS the Whites? Shirts VS skin heads? Groan.... Compared to the previous historical Civil Wars of note, this Civil War would be a low grade Civil War. 

Job displacement. Everywhere you go, Brown people have taken over all jobs. 

It's a shared responsibility. Squanderous opportunist venal avaricious governments from wherever the diaspora have diasporated from have run their country to the ground. That country has some kind of caste system where a person can't get certain jobs which explains their fetish for the West that no other country has because the West more or less ostensibly doesn't have a caste system. 

Thatcher shut down the coal mines which started a long chain reaction vicious cycle of outsourcing jobs as a f*ck you I give up solution to endless union squabbles between unions and their employers. So gone are a large swath of previously available jobs to locals. Something a competent normal government should provide but were not exactly dealing with normal now. Just venal avaricious opportunist airhead politicians who honestly think that they're progressive have wound up selling their constituents down the river. It's a system wide failure as this is happening in all constituent ridings. Lovely. 

Any available jobs are inadequate for any housing that points to a high standard of living comparable to other places in the world like China and Qatar. So locals who dropped out of high school who otherwise would have had a unionized light industry job as their parachute instead turn to the only other available social safety net which is to do the Henry David Thoreau and live in a tent. No scuzzy rooming house landlords who are on you like white on rice. Live in a tent. You're a free agent. Rent is cheap if not free. Keep the whole rent and support portions of the check and party party party on meth meth meth. Why not? That's one way to do it. Not a way that I or millions of others would do it, but hey, to each their own. Different strokes for different folks even if that includes jug hitting meth in a tent just like Henry David Thoreau would have done it. 

And so another cast of characters in this dramatics personae of contemporary urban travesty is the benighted East Indians who arrive, live three families thick, "Tick az teeves!", in Villa Villekula style big old rambling houses of monster house faux Spanish colonial mansions where each only has to work part time in an entry level high school student summer job such as convenience store or fast food restaurant and have enough to pay for rent and with money left over for the cell phone or whatever. 

The only White people I know of who would be willing to live as a throng in a house is the Anabaptists aka the Mormons, and the Amish and Quakers too. There is a Olay at the local performance theatre called The Mormons. I briefly met a few Mormon ladies in town years ago. Young blonde ladies. Really cute. However, a very circumscribed and regimented austere lifestyle and that would be putting it mildly. No thanks. 

It's like a jigsaw puzzle of decadence and disconsolation. The pieces all egregiously fit. 

A slide at a playground closed. Too many people injured. 

They should rename it The Satanic Slide. That's when the group of people on inauguration day say in unison, "What. Versus the other Satanic slide known as life itself?" 

A lot of these places I sweep for, I can't stand them. Or rather, I'm not quite sure what to think of them. I never visit. 

Jesus said that it's easy to be kind to people whom you like. The more spiritual thing that will score you big points in the afterlife is to be kind to people or places that you don't like. 

Jesus said the way to self damnation is wide and broad. Live thoughtlessly and greedily. Rip people off? Wtf. 

But the road to salvation is thin and narrow. That means doing the difficult thing. Better to live in abject poverty if you also never ripped even one person off than to live in riches after scamming a lot of people. The story of Abraham and the rich man in the afterlife. 

The road to salvation is thin means working for the community for free. In this world saturated with panhandlers who demand money for no work, and people of similar menatlity who are not panhandlers, working and asking for no money is a small reversal in that evil tide. 

"It is the small kind acts that we do for others that keeps evil at bay." Gandalf, Fellowship of the Ring 

I can't make it without my sweetness. 

Shakespeare said it another way,  "This desert inaccessible, Under the shade of melancholy boughs" 

That young girl at Burger King yesterday was kinda cute. She looks that way as a defense but she is probably a hot young girl. 

That she'd be walking into Burger King looking for a date. If you think that you don't know young girls on the street. She has a minimum of five boyfriends, limp, Jody guard, etc. 

Meth heads are good people. They are more spiritual than I am in a lot of ways. They are like Joe the Tramp in the movie The Polar Express. 

In every age, the drugs and appearances may differ but they are the same people generation after generation be it the Hobo jungles of the 30s, the beatniks of the 50s, the hippies and the diggers of the 60s, the rubies and winos of the 70s and 80s, the junkies of the 90s and the meth heads of the 2020s, they are all salt of the Earth people who are wise and a lot have academic training or else self taught and well read. 

They're just kids who are looking for a little bit of fun. 

I have said prayers for the people of downtown Vancouver and Victoria as well although I don't always remember that I have. I thank God for continually looking after them and I hope they have the good future that they are looking for. 

I really am on a budget. I doubt that I could spare $5. I felt guilty about turning down that young girl for something to eat. Perhaps she was starving. 

But she has enough money to get meth. Besides, she knows the drill. There is a local community centre drop in centre that pretty much steadily dispenses food all day long with omakase style coffee klatches with bottomless cups of coffee. 

That place is pretty much Grand Central Station for the local meth heads. 

Tim Horton. Canadian hockey player who died in a Police chase while driving drunk. 

Friday, June 13, 2025 

The thing is to make the complex simple rather than the other way around. 

"Brevity is the soul of wit."  Shakespeare

"If you can't explain it simply, it means that you don't understand it."  Einstein

I was somewhat advised against planting hydrangea seeds as they take quite awhile to germinate. It would be best to transplant them as saplings. 

I went with Echinacea. The flowers are purple and need to be watered once every few days. 

Echinacea needs to be watered every day or every other day during the germination phase with decreased intervals of watering. When they are fully grown, they onky need to be watered once every week or every two weeks. 

This doesn't work with California yellow poppies. They can't grow in the same pot at the same time. Yellow poppies are watered only once every five days. 

Yellow poppies have a two month span. When the two months is up, I'll plant the Echinacea which is a year round plant. I'll have to remember to water it every day for the first three weeks. Then every two days. Echinacea are planted at a shallow depth. 

Wildflowers which is another choice is planted a quarter of an inch deep and similar to Echinacea, needs frequent watering in the early phases but once grown, similar to cone flowers aka Echinacea, are a drought resistant plant. Once every two weeks is sufficient. 

I looked at pictures of wildflowers and a packet of wildflower seeds seem like a real grab bag. So random. You don't know what you are going to get. So many different varieties. With some varieties wildflowers the petals are very small which seems diletantte to me. Like a foot long hot dog bun, or Tron, "That's a big door!" I prefer flowers with larger petals which make them look more portentous. 

The small petal flowers of wildflowers come in many different colors. Again, the randomness, the not knowing what the F you are going to get. I'm opting to not plant wildflowers. There is one variety of wildflower that has nice large red petals. How many ill get if any in a packet of wildflower seeds is another thing altogether. 

Some like the randomness. If I had a private garden of my own, I might plant them. I can always get a flower pot and place it near the window. But planting for others, I prefer the predictability of yellow poppies and Echinacea. 

I would need a spray bottle. Anyone who knows anything about plants knows the stem and the leaves like to be misted with a spray bottle. Don't just pour the water in the soil. 

Regarding plant food, with annuals, it needs to applied at planting and once every two weeks. With perennials, it needs to be applied at planting and once during the active cycle. It needs to be a slow release fertilizer. I'm going to ask a flower shop about this. Without plant food, the soil would lack essential nutrients. Leaves would appear yellow or plants might not grow at the expected rate. 

The small packets of plant food aren't expensive. I find them for free. I might still have one in my room. I doubt it. I think I threw it out  years ago. 

When the next meta quest VR goggles are available, would I be able to port my VR catalogue of games? It probably won't. The new VR goggles will have some cutting edge previously unknown and unseen technology that would make it what the Sony PSP was to the Nintendo GBA. Or what the Nintendo DS was to the Atari 2600. 

The glass is half full rather than half empty. 

It takes years to find out the glass half empty way doesn't work. It causes needless anxiety and stress much of it artificially psychologically self induced. 

Why take on vicarious worries overseas or bite down on every worm that dangles on a hook in front of you. 

A US politician said about the Trump Musk fight, "Its just another shiny object. Don't pay much attention to it." or words to that effect. 

Feeling good about life creates a good foundation for nostalgia. 

The world is safe and protected. If you want to believe that even intelligent alien species are protecting the Earth, you can. A lot of YouTube videos say as much. I don't know what to think of aliens. They must have been able to implement technology around the quantum superposition Einstein-Rosen bridge. So they teleport to Earth. In other words, they're slumming. And have been for hundreds of not thousands of years on Earth. 

It is a friendly Universe. 

The Police are good. The judicial branch is good. 

They can provide inspiration for living with integrity. They make life worth living. 

The best thing is to always focus on the one architectural jewel in your town at all times and never let that vision go unless you have another such vision just as good if not better. The architectural jewels in this town are Craigdarroch Castle, The Empress Hotel, The Legislative Buildings and the Royal BC Museum. 

The Civil War in England. Don't worry about it. So far away. It would be a vicarious worry anyways. And why take on vicarious worries? Reddit said that a civil war in England is unlikely. 

East Indians, Hindoos, ** Dravidians,* Chittagonian Lascars,* etc. Don't worry about them. They've lived among us for over a century at least. You didn't worry about them then. Why worry about them now? They are a decent people with integrity. They are good people. 

*George Orwell, Down and Out in Paris and London. 

**Henry David Thoreau, Walden. 

Saturday, June 14, 2025 

I'd like to move to Sidney one day. In the 50s, 60s, etc it wasn't difficult. Now it's near impossible. What was once thought of as impossible was done like sending astronauts to the moon. 

Today, I cleaned the area around a apartment building. Then I cleaned the area around a street. 

Sunday, June 15, 2025

Two Churches. I went to visit the Chinese Church. 

I'll go there again. That Church does have heavenly vibes. 

There is another place with heavenly vibes. Sidney BC, Good Fortune Chinese restaurant. I looked at the photos of food on the menu. Looking at the photographs was a heavenly experience. I'd like to move there one day. 

I donate annually to the Sidney RCMP for the Police charity. I would tell them that in a letter that I would really like to move to Sidney BC although there is lack of affordable housing like there was in the 50s. It was really easy to move there then. Some rooming houses for sure. Sidney was then still a developing town after the Second World War. 

I would have to save up to visit Quebec. It could be done with $2,000. 

3 nights, hotel, tips, service charge, just under $1,000. 

Plane ticket round trip, $350 of you can get a really good deal. Then the rest is food, shopping, and museums, movies. One would have to watch a French movie in Quebec, with English subtitles. Ave sous titres anglais. 

Move there and try to get on welfare there and stay for life. 

That has happened. Locals convinced a few people to do it. 

Quebec City seems more historical and classical. Montreal is more of a party city. 

My knowledge of the French language at this point isn't good enough to go there. 

Fortune favors the bold. 

A souvenir I would get is a tie. I'd go to a thrift store because you can get a good one at a better price. The department stores charge about $50 for one. Pricey. 

Go on amazon. Order silk ties made in Southeast Asia. Paisley originated in India which I think is a genius design. So genius that it's profound. Absolutely out of this world profound. 

The afterlife would be profound. Ties in colors never before seen in this world. If I wore one, I would be really stylish. 

No one steps up to sweep the Courthouse grounds. I'll do it. For free. 

This is the difficult life that Jesus spoke of as the best spiritual life. To be kind to the community around you even for no money and living in poverty is more successful than a rich person who got rich scamming people. 

"What a town without pity can do." Paul Anka 

This seems like a town without pity but I'm feeling really good right now. This town does have the magic of strong heavenly vibes. It's a different energy signature than Vancouver  just as the ecstasy rush is a different chemical signature than the cocaine rush. 

Imagine Sunday afternoon in a small town. Those small towns like Dawson Creek. The Sunday vibes in that town are through the roof. Intensely beautiful vibes. 

The town without pity is thinking I might be single for life. I don't care because life goes fast. A girlfriend would provide me enough inspiration that I would be doing cartoons on an involuntary level because of the inspiration. Vision, complete story, all scenes visualized down to the smallest detail would be there. 

If I don't find a girlfriend again. No cartoons. 

But then it's I do the cartoons, and it's someone else who gets rich off of them. That's the deal. This aspect of the physics of this dimension makes me wish that I was already in the afterlife. However quitting compromises ones progress. What's difficult now will one day in the afterlife be hardly remembered at all. The lesson or whatever learned will be fully understood at that time. 

I'm not perfect. Even the Christian preacher said today, more or less, "Don't worry about being perfect. We can strive. But perfection? Never!" 

I shouldn't worry about being perfect because to be perfect is to be 100% perfect and 100% sane and 100% normal. 

The normal man was the man of the 50s who had a White collar job and made money enough to support his family. He would look like a responsible ape-man wearing a suit, slacks, business shoes and a shirt and tie at all times. 

The responsible look is the look of excellence. 

The Miami Vice look. The blazer, t shirt, slacks and business shoes or else espadrille boat shoes would be the style. Boat shoes. Soles thin and lead to plantar fasciitis. Anachronistic from the 80s. Air Nike still achieves the Miami Vice look, sort of. 

I wore a very fashionable and elegant blazer from Italy, a Led Zeppelin t-shirt and jeans and Air Nike resulting in a quasi Miami Vice look. That would be a good look for Sidney BC. In the 80s on Vancouver Island, I'm sure that look was popular then. 

Rolex watch was part of the look. But you pretty much also need to be driving a Ferrari Testarossa or a Porsche 912 Spyder for it to work. 

The best German World War One airplane was a Fokker D VII. 

Best Allied plane: Sopwith Camel. French SPAD XIII

The best airplane of World War Two:

Focke Wulf FW - 190

Submarine Spitfire 

Mitsubishi A9M Zero

P-51 Mustang

Grumman F6F Hellcat

Best bombers of World War Two

Boeing B-17 Flying Superfortress

Avro Lancaster

Junkers J-87 Stuka 

Technologically speaking, the Fokker D VII which is a push propeller bi-plane was the best performance airplane. So much so that Armisitic regulations was that specifically all Fokker D VIIs were to be surrendered to the Allies. Then why did the Red Baron use a front propeller tri-plane? 

Well, you see, back then they used things like wood and cork in the construction of airplane engines. The propeller was made of wood, that much was certain. The cork was a valve plug. The timing belt was most likely made of leather. I'm surprised they flew half as well as they did. They were obviously using different perameters to determine which was the best airplane. 

With flying a World War one airplane, the plane can fly on its side quite easily. Do that for too long and at too slow of a speed, a crash results. So in real life, flying a World War One airplane, if you don't know what you're doing can be a very gut wrenching ecperience. 

The only thing I have left is fear of the future. Fear of the future is massive. 

It makes me think that I'd be better off in the afterlife. However I'll get there when I get there. I think I'll be gone before I'm 70. Not being a doctor, I think that people usually last until around 70 but usually earlier and then kaput. 

If God would end my life. Then I will finally attain the perfection I've always wanted to achieve. In the afterlife. 

A lot of the ten commandments would be irrelevant in the afterlife. 

1. Do not kill. A ghost can't kill another ghost as ghosts live forever. 

2. Do not steal. No one owns anything but can own anything at any time. Need money? In the pocket, all of a sudden is a waller with money. Besvis and Bugrhesd. "How come you have a worm in your pocket?" "I don't know. I just do."

3. Do not lie. Everyone is telepathic in the afterlife so lies are impossible. 

4. Honor your parents. One doesn't have parents in the afterlife the way they do on Earth. 

I am glad I feel relatively happy. 

Fear and worry and overthinking. 

Worry is a way that the mind thinks it protects itself. But these patterns create a pattern of expectation that affects jot onky the past but also the future. 

To the point where happy and worry free times feel strange and unusual.

One has to stop worryig. That's all. 

Fear of the future is..... 

I wish that I could skip the future altogether. 

Monday, June 16, 2025

Jesus went through fear and anxiety. So much so that he sweat drops of blood. But that's missing the point of the story. The point is that He lived through that. Nobody else could have. That was another one of His miracles. To say that His amygdala, hypothalamus and adrenals were on fire would be the understatement of the year. Such pain and cortisol levels would be simply unimaginable. The Bible said God then sent angels to comfort Him. 

A lot of people might think, "Jesus only had to do it for 33 years."  Jesus did it carrying the weight of the world. 

Everyone one else just has to carry their own weight. Their own 5 pound weight while Jesus had to carry a million pound weight. 

The fear based doctrine of religion. Sure. Cold it be any worse than the personal fear based doctrine that we drive into our own minds? Delusions, conspiracy theories, believing each and every thing seen on the internet which is basically the National Enquirer on steroids. 

Religion isn't a fear based doctrine. It is the way to eternal hope. 

We all think we are the center of the world. Go in for a job interview and then think that the mnanger is spending all day thinking about you when in reality the manager is thinking of all the other applicants to be interviewed this week and next week too. And they are thinking of the details of their own life and then worried about what the regional supervisor thinks of them. Meanwhile the regional supervisor is thinking of all the managers in the region and then the details of their own life such as what to prepare for tonight's family dinner. 

The tendency to think that we are the center of the world is reinforced with the concept of longitudinal and latitudinal lines. The latitudinal line of the equator is supposed to be the center of the Earth. The longitudinal line of the Prime Meridian also divides the world in half so where the prime meridian and the equator meet is a center of the Earth. 

Wrong! The Earth is a sphere. Any given point on the surface of a sphere is the center. 

You are the center of your world. Others are each, respectively, centers of their world. 

Each person you know is just one out of a thousand people in your life. You are just one of a thousand people in each person around you's life. 

The nightclub crowd. They often make appointments with one another that wind up not happening. Go out for dinner together tonight. We'll meet up somewhere and then when the time comes it just doesn't happen. 

4 out of 5 times, it doesn't happen. It only happens when two women make a pinky swear. Even then, 50% of pinky swear promises wind up not happening so the dinner, the get together just winds up not happening. 

Yesterday was fathers day. I think my father probably died. I don't know what to think. He was a very stern man. 

I don't think that I'll ever be a father. That's the last thing that I think I'll ever be. That ship has sailed. Norwegian Wood, This Bird Has Flown. 

If my father died, that would be overwhelming and gut wrenching. The physics of this dimension and being wired to the R complex, the amygdala etc sure does a number on the spirit. All of life is overwhelming and gut wrenching. Any future that involves me being in the physics of this dimension is a future that is perhaps best skipped altogether. 

Tuesday, June 17, 2025 

Today I swept for three religious Churches. This one, that one, whatever. 

I don't know if I'll get a blessing or not. That's playing around with forces, in a very good way.

I was aiming for not a 100 percent clean rate, but rather a 1,000 permille clean rate. Except at one of the Churches a delinquent was sleeping on the grounds of that Church. What were the chances of that in this town in the delinquent West? Expats' hatred of the West has been elevated to an art and perfected to a science. You should hear how expats sitting at bar stools talk about the West. So I avoided the area where the delinquent was. That Church can thank the delinquent for if he wasn't there, that area would have been a lot cleaner. 

I wish I was living in China. In China, you don't see delinquency to the level that you do in a Western sh*thole. 

In Vancouver a prolific Asian B&E criminal broke in to 16 places and burgled and ransacked. The Police ostensibly don't know who he is. 

He wears a body suit and gloves so as to not leave any forensic clues like hair and fingerprints. In Chinese, he would be known as a 'sun taow', Zen thief, a god of thievery. He is a master burglar which was what Bilbo was referred to in The Hobbit. 

"Farewell, Master Burglar. Go back to your books and your armchair. Plant your trees, watch them grow. If more people valued home above gold, this world would be a merrier place." The Hobbit, Battle of the Five Armies

16, is it a bakers dozen? It would depend on which baker you are referring to. 

Languages are sometimes idiomatic. In Spain, there is a place called carrero de gordo. 

'The street that gives you gold'.  Wrong!  Translated literally, it means fat street. Gordo means fat. A Spanish lottery called El Gordo was also an idiom. Play the lottery and you will be rich which will then presumably lead to the lottery winner being fat. 

Asians can be very inventive. A man from Hong Kong wore a mask of an old man. 

I believe that I'm in the wrong town. One day I'll be in the right town. Today isn't the day. 

"Why couldn't I relive that day, over and over and over again?" Groundhog Day 

If I could write a letter to my parents, who are most likely dead, I would ask them why they didn't stay in China and why the hell did they have to bring me to the West. 

My life would have been a lot better. China is futuristic abd rock show. Mind blowing lighted caves, gigantic mindblowing multi column, multi row glass evator. Sure nothing like that in the backwater West. Whoop. 

If I had a million, I'd move there so fast. I would be with my race. I'm no saying superior race, I'm saying my race of people. I'd move to Chongqing. 

Forget England. England is an island and islands are geographically disconnected disparate backwaters. More island living. Uh, no thanks. Don't put yourself out on my account. Don't do ne any favors. 

If things don't go well for me in China, there is a lot more opiates including raw black tar opium and China White heroin in China. I would opt to use that to skip out of any contemptible insufferable duresses of life. Better a good death than a bad life. I wish I was born in 1892. At least the I could have had a chance of dying at age 24 in a WW1 airplane. The albatross C3 was a superior craft. Being finally  shot down after still being to take down three additional fighters with a lung punctured and collapsed from a hit take a few minutes earlier is a lot better than living and dying in poverty in the West. 

My moral compass tells me that I am, well within my rights to choose to skip out of a future that looks so unpromising. I would never encourage nor discourage a person from deciding to skip out of a BS life and a A future. Who am I to judge? Their life is their business. No one has the right to tell the not to. People who opted to just skip out of life altogether, to me they are at the cultural vanguard. 

Einstein said that insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results. Insanity is staying in some dinghy backwater country where you don't like the energy and you're just not feeling it year after year and expecting different results instead of moving.  Circling the drain. Small towns are traps. Small town cheap. 

The wrong woman is a nightmare. No woman is disenfranchising and makes life register as a waste of time and effort. The right woman simply doesn't exist. Especially when you are in some backwater sh*thole dimension where you are held hostage to the often grim wretched physics which are constantly weaponized against you either in Word or deed or both. Uh, no thanks. Again, don't put yourself out on my account. Don't do me any goddamned favors! 

I wish u was in the afterlife. 

In an actual abortion, the mother is seen an instant before the child dies. In a reverse abortion, the mother is seen an instant after dying. 

Doctor Sleep, Danny sees his mother just as he dies. 

I would say to my mother. "Seeing the way my life turned out or how it didnt turn out, I am right angry at you for not having aborted me and because of that, my life hasn't been the same ever since. You really ruined my existence when you decided not to abort me especially that you yourself was going out the door. You should have taken me with you. We would have been a matched set! 

Matched set. 

Matched - maat, God of the underworld

Set - Seth the destroyer, death bringer. 

If my mother had aborted me, matched set would be the right words to use.

My mother was Chinese. Abortion in that language is,  doy tor. 

Being able to know a few Asian languages is a waste of time. 

Now I just went through a reverse abortion. That's a long time to wait between abortions."  I'll actually tell her that. 

Wednesday, June 18, 2025 

Still not looking forward to the future. 

Quebec is landlocked. I'd miss the beaches.

"Some beach. Somewhere."  song

The beaches of British Columbia are to the beaches of California, Hawaii, Koh Samui what the beaches in England and Germany are to the beaches of California, etc

Just some Northerny blustery low grade beach scene that thinks that it somewhat approximates when it's nowhere even close. Only coniferous and deciduous trees, no palm trees beach?! Bullsh*t!  

I'm going to go to the Chinese Church because I need to be with people of my race. I wasn't going before. What is life about if it's not about constantly moving your goalposts? 

It's called evolving. 

"The so called dead are still very much alive and are very much around us."

I envy Heather. She graduated to the next and much better phase of life while I'm still here grappling with this dimension. 

It's like someone in tenth grade envious that a students who was in tenth grade last year got skipped two grades and is now in University. 

In school, if you are really smart, you get to advance on to the next and better school early. 

In life it doesn't work that way. Even though I came up with certain genius answers I don't get to graduate to the afterlife early. No, life is more contrived and protracted than that. In life you gotta be stupid like in Heather's case, she, smoked two cartons plus of cigarettes a week. That's what scored for her an early graduation and to be away from the bullsh*t crooked table is slanted against you set of physics must have been no small relief for her. It was a big relief! 

So likewise, I'd have to do stupid shit like start shooting up every day with fentanyl which would eventually and sooner than later accomplish for me a painless but inevitable death which means a one way ticket to the much better physics of the afterlife. 

In the afterlife, you generate a certain kind of energy and will always get at least as good energy if not better energy in return. 

In this problem dimension, in the disorderly West unlike orderly China, you generate diligence and discipline and you get delinquency and dissolution in return. Ha ha. That's why 40% of businesses downtown want to shut up shop and move elsewhere. 

Businesses like even The Hudson's Bay Company. Battered from both ends. Caught between Scylla and Charybdis. The Bay not unionized. Employees paycheques can't afford rents. They don't get tips. No one bothers applying for work. No white people. Only pakis. What were the chances of that? I might add, though that pakis are excellent people. They are people of quality. You can thank the greedy rich for that. Upper class delinquency. 

The Bay might have been unionized but unions go on strike quite often, feather bedding. Higher wages but without proportional commensurate improvement in quality of product passed on to consumers. Middle class delinquency. 

And on yet another end, increasing, increasing delinquency and dissolution. Western children aren't raised as well as Chinese children. What the hell kind of ignorant upbringing did they have? Delinquents sleeping rough outside the Bay, smoking and panhandling, weirding out any customers. Another example of rip off Western style generate a certain kind of energy and get another and worse energy in return. These merchants are trying to run a business generating diligence and they get bonkers street delinquent energy in return. I don't blame 40% of them deciding to close their shops. I only wonder how and why they stayed in business at all for as long as they did. 

Bonkers, but that's the West for ya. You can thank the poor for that. Lower class delinquency. 

Some jobs, although not unionized, are known for paying higher than average wages. Hotels are well known for that, especially a five star hotel. The work is usually gruelling. Lots of volume. Being a janitor for the government such as sweeping the grounds of a political building. Sweeping the grounds requires a skill set such as technical knowledge such as knowing on sight, which species of weeds can be hand pulled and which species needs the specialized weed removal trowel which I paid $8 for. Working on the exterior grounds of a political building requires less of a security clearance if any, than working indoors. Also being aware that one can be scrutinized at any given time. 

Being an airline pilot although intensely dangerous and just all around intense pays higher than working at a convenience store or fast food outlet. 

Nursing and health care assistant, legal stenographer, high school or University teaching assistant pays good wages. To be a teacher in Canada, you need to hold at least a Bachelor's Degree of some kind, majoring in whatever. 

In this dimension, you can't win. 

With unions eventually people can't afford locally made products resulting in an artificial scarcity. Employees laid off can't afford mortgages. Result housing crisis. 

Without unions and with all jobs outsourced. Employees paid non-union wages can't afford mortgages. Result. Housing crisis. 

The best thing is if God is merciful enough to grant me an early reprieve, me being the expat who dreams of moving to a much better country and staying there. 

"The undiscovered country from whose borne no traveler has returned." Hamlet, Shakespeare 

The grass is always greener on the other side. A person can choose to go through life with the any place but here mentality. 

"This one, have I watched for a long time. All his life, has he looked away to the stars, the future, the horizon. Never his mind on where he was! Or what he was doing. You are reckless..." Yoda, The Empire Strikes Back 

See, I grew up in a culture of superior food that involves a kind of alchemy. Congee with ginger, green onion sesame oil and soy sauce. Steamed bahk cheet gie, white chinken with ginger and green onion in oil dipping sauce. Steam fried fish with ginger, green onion, black beans and soy sauce. 

What kind of food cultural did those cracker street delinquents grow up with? Whoop. Bland prosaic cereal with milk, pb&j, saltine soup crackers, potatoes. Certainly not on the level of kung pao chicken or hunan salt pepper squid or lobster braised in gourmet white sauce with ginger garlic and green onion. 

Don't mind me. I'm just going through a train of thought. I don't really mean most of it. Brain storming. Spit balling. 

These elements of thought are what make good fiction. It is material for a character arc. 

A character goes through disillusionment of the West. What kind of disillusionment? It has to be a real good one. 

Afterwards he finds the answer that since time and space is an illusion in the simulacron aka life, anywhere and anytime you are in is the right time and place. This extends to any country. 

Every country. You are just trading oen set of advantages and disadvantages for another. 

I never claimed to be the most spiritual person. I know for a fact that a lot of so called street meth heads are more spiritual than I am. The meth took them to a level of spiritual maturity that non meth heads will never know about. 

Just like acid trips took people to psychic states that non acid heads don't know about. 

Or DMT or whatever. I never tried DMT nor would I want to. 

I read about all that mysticism and I've demyatified it for myself because I don't know exactly how many people read this blog. 

There is A, linear time. 

And then there is B, the time travel is time experienced on an objective level and this further extends to the instantaneous download. I went into all of that. 

Then there are A, the physics of this dimension and B, the physics of the other dimension. 

Carlos Castenada, Don Juan, what's the difference, took a lot of these psychoactive hallucinogenic drugs. He referred to A as the tonal and B as the naugual. 

Carl Jung referred to B as the noumenon. 

The Tao te Ching refers to A as the world that can be directly experienced and B as the Tao. 

I did my reading during my younger years! 

I just put my finger on it and came up with a different expanation. An explanation with wording that is more scientifically cogent and salient. 

But go ahead, use tonal and naugual and noumenon if you want, I don't care. 

The Pawn Stars episode re, the Jimi Hendrix guitar. Valued at $1 million. Man asking for $750 grand. Expert valued it at a million. Rick offers half, $500,000 as if it was another deal over a $500 item where he offers $250 and is otherwise perfectly happy to make $250 profit. 

What is this. A divorce? He wants to pay half? 

And make double? That feels like sleazy skid row venal loan shark usury energy, pay back double. He wouldn't pay $750 grand and make a $250 profit when he probably has people lined up ready to pay the expert appraisal price and even then the expert is always always doing a slight lowball. What a sleazy business. Avaricious greedy venal energy. 

"So. What will it be?" 

"All."

The Terminator

Satanic. The dental doctor said that all of my remaining six upper teeth are to be removed, all in one day. The doctor said that the Xray imaging was showing slight abscess pockets around most of my upper teeth which could in the long run affect the heart and immune system. Surgically devastating and then surgically desolate. 

Welcome to Satan Satan land. 

Someone walked into the Pawn Stars store and out a mastodon tooth on the counter, rewritten. 

Rick, "it looks like a mastodon tooth. It sure acts like a mastodon tooth, sitting there on the counter and not moving. Tell you what, I'll have to make a deal before you walk out with it because I've already lost enough teeth and I really can't afford to lose any more." 

Thursday, June 19, 2025 

The lunar calendar. Total screw up in the West. A year has 13 months, not 12 months. 

That obviously cuts off the connection between ten toes or ten fingers, a gestational period is about 270 days which is ten lunar cycles or ten moons, ten months. Not nine months. However, 9 is a Royal number. Queen Emma of England was Queen for 9 days. 

The Chinese with the lunar harvest moon festival. 

The Muslims with Ramadan. 

They are still very much connected with the lunar calendar. 

New Years Day should be when December 22 is because that's the first day that the days start getting longer. In two days, June 21, the year is half over, under a proper solar calendar. 

The West doesn't have a proper calendar. It has some bonkers bullsh*t calendar. 

So New Years day is stuck somewhere on some weird 22nd of around 30 days type of middle of some month like it is some kind of afterthought and then give it some token scientific fact status, "Oh, just offhand, December 22 is the day when days get longer, isn't that something?" complete airhead energy. When it is actually New Years f*ckin Day, no less. 

Oh yeah, and there's the, "Ugh, the year is half over on June 30. The second half of the year starts on July 1." Again, completely airhead f*ckin whack job energy. 

The second half of the year starts on June 22nd, do you f*ckin understand?! *

*rhetoric hyperbole statement. I don't mean you, the reader, specifically. This applies to just anyone in general, including myself. 

Ergo, in three days, the second half of the year will start. Even slight legal troubles aren't powerful enough to prevent time from going so quickly. 

Anyways, you can thank Pope Gregory for that. What a guy! The Gregorian calendar. Yay!

Whoop. 

13 moons, Moon is night. Night is dark. Night is bad. So to underscore this, 13 at dinner. 

In the old societies, 13 was a lucky number because it was associated with the moon. The mmon is a month associated with all kinds of cycles, ocean tidal cycles and other uh, cycles, female cycles, that I won't get into here. It was a harvest moon thing as well. 

Damned West turned 13 into a bad luck number. 

An online article is titled, How the Sun and Moon Shaped Our Calendar. It should have been titled, How Our Calendar Was Shaped In Spite of the Sun and Moon. 

The goat was a good luck symbol associated with benign spring time and fertility. Then it became twisted into a bad luck symbol. Again, the pernicious West. 

While the West has become hopelessly out of sync with the lunar as well as the solar cycles in their calendar, the Mayan calendar was and is intensely and profoundly in sync with all lunar and solar cycles including leap year. How did they know that? They were ancient peoples, otherwise maize farmers, a hunter gatherer society. Well, every age has their secrets. 

Sigh, the Mayans wrote their numbers in a column rather than in a row, just as in an apisode of Pawn Stars where in a notarized document the number 1592 was written in kanji in descending script. That note was written in a modern Japanese museum because the Japanese didn't recognize the actual 1592 as 1592. 

Anyways, the Mayans wrote their numbers as thus:

The Mayans had a Morse code looking numerical system. 

Dots represent a single number up to 4. 5 was written as a horizontal line. The Mayans also had a zero whereas the ancient Greeks and Romans did not. The Mayans also had base 20 rather than the base ten that we use. 

Base ten - 10 fingers. 

Base twenty - 20, fingers plus toes. 

So the number 9 would be written as four dots above a horizontal line. 

The number 27 would be written as a dot above two dots above a horizontal line. 

40 would be written as two dots above a zero. 

Thirteen would be written as three dots above two horizontal lines. 

Seventeen would be written as two dots above three horizontal lines. 

20 x 20 would be written as one dot above a zero above another zero. In base ten, 10 x 10 = 100. In base twenty, 20 x 20 = 100. 

The zeroes were written like any other Mayan codice which weren't fully translated until the 1970s. In the case of zero, it could be written as a picture of a turtle, or a ficture of a man covering a part of his face with in hand or else a full figure of a man with body who is also covering a part of his face with one hand. Their number zero was both a number and a codice just as 0 is both the number zero and the letter '0'.  The Mayan alphabet encouraged artistic flourishes and variations so that no two people had even the remotely same handwriting and often with dramatic differences. In other words, they invented shorthand. Oh heck, the English language is like that. Look at different people's different handwriting. In some cases, the variations are vast. 

The true solar lunar calendar is the calendar that ghosts and spirits in the afterlife often operate on! Look for the signs. 

So Jesus according to the actual solar calendar was born on December 25, which is three days after New Years Day which is on December 22nd. Born in the third day of the year. Then died for three days. And then came back to life, for forty days until his final Ascension. 

Elijah was driven to Heaven on an ornately and mysteriously carved white chariot. 

To underscore this, as I left Shoppers Drug Mart this morning, I saw a Police van with lights flashing. Then as I was crossing the street, I saw a burly Police motorcyclist wearing a silver uniform. 

See, the Police van with the flashing lights represent the sun. The so burly that he was almost round Police Officer wearing the silver uniform on the motorcycle represent the moon. 

I'm keeping score! 

Interesting embedded anagrams:

pAROLE = AROLE = roale = Royal

bc AduLt cOmmunitY coRrections = ALOYR = Royal

NASA should send some VR cameras to other planets, moons, comets, asteroids, etc. Perhaps the images are classified. No, they're not! But what's to be classified? The moon, Mars etc are backwaters. The lack of infrastructure. They make Sidney BC look like Shenzhen China. 

The solar calendar is simple to reckon because, December 22 is New Years Day and the year is half over on June 21 and the sdcond half of the year starts on June 22, even on leap years because what the f**k. 

The lunar calendar is impossible to mentally juxtapose and then to constantly keep track of it forever. One way to do it for sure is to get a calendar with the moons in it. New Moon, crescent Moon, half moon, three quarters and full moon. It takes 14 days to go from new Moon to full moon. And another 14 days for the full moon to go back to new Moon. A waxing moon, a waning moon. 

How can this be applied in terms of observance of tone and themes in every day life? 

Solar calendar,  

December 21, is the last day. That day should have a theme of finality alluding to the extinguishing of the past year on a linear timeline. 

December 22, New years day, the start of the light starting to win over the dark. New beginning. New year. The beckoning of the coming Spring. 

March 22, the days start getting longer than the nights, increased new energy, new visions, growth. 

July 22, the days start getting shorter but there is still more daylight hours than night time hours. Summer. The apex, the zenith of yearly existence. 

September 22, the days start getting shorter than the night. Time to slow down and reflect. A time for nostalgia. A time to think of the coming time of when the year will end. 

Lunar calendar

New Moon, day 1, a start, ascending monthly energy. Day 13, full moon, the apex. Day 14, still full moon but the start of a declination. Time to slow down and reflect and the moon starts to wane towards the thinnest crescent of reflective light until it evaporates to nothing. Day 28, the ending of another cycle. 

Years are called numbers. Non lunar designated increments of time are called months with specific names that differ across different cultures. 

Since I don't know the names of lunar months, why not call the first month OneMoonMississipi and the 13"th Moon month ThirteenMoonnMisssissipi? 

That's one idea. I have only however many yewrs of my life to study this and to find out if, for example on one year, OneMoonMississippi is on January, but about ten years later, One Moon Mississippi is in February. 

It might be. Easter. Jesus death date is obviously a sublimated lunar month reference. It's the first day of the first lunar month. Easter is on what. Friday? Every first day of a lunar month would start on the same day of the week due to a lunar month being 28 days. 7 is a factor of 28 which means they would behave the same mathematically within every week. 

Easter is the last day of the lunar year. 

Jesus came back to life. This is symbolic of not only does the sun come back to life so to speak on December 22, the moon dies so to speak on day 28 of the lunar cycle. And comes back to life on Day 1 of the following lunar cycle. 

Jesus is the story symbolic of the sun coming back to life. 

Lazarus is the story of the moon coming back to life. Why? Jesus has always represented the sun. Lazarus comes back to life only under Jesus power. The moon only comes back to life under the light of the Sun. This is the hidden meaning of the story of Lazarus. 

Christmas, New Years Day is about light overcoming the darkness in the case of the sun. 

Easter, Ramadan, Chinese Harvest Moon Festival and New Moon on whatever day is about light overcoming the darkness in the case of the moon. 

The sun dies, and comes back to life. The moon dies, and comes back to life. Ergo, all people will die and will come back to life, including you. 

Within a week, Day 1 is on Monday, the next Day 1, 7 days later is also on Monday. 

Within a month, Day 1 is Monday, the next Day 1,  28 days later, because 28 is a factored from 7, is also on Monday. 

What day of the week does the New Moon always happen on? 

Anyways, this is elementary basic to a lot of people who know the lunar calendar well. 

What if a lunar month wasn't just 28 days, but 28 and a third? Anyways a year is 365 and a quarter days which is why we have leap years. I doubt that the lunar cycle is 28 days exactly. Or is it? 

Friday, June 20, 2025 

Walkabout Mini Golf VR has a new course released next week on Thursday called Crystal Lair. It looks a lot like the Malahat Skywalk. 

This town is one of the top one hundred towns in the World if not in the top ten. There is a wonderful strong nostalgic energy that if connected with, provides a wonderful heavenly vibe. 

From now on, I am going to rewire my brain. 

It's the repetition, repetition, repetition that does it. 

No more the physics of this dimension is bonkers dogsh*t. 

The physics of this dimension troll me sometimes but mostly things are normal and really nothing is happening. Life is a blast. VR, electric skateboards. 

This town is in the top one hundred if not top ten of all towns in the World. 

Life goes fast. Someone who works at a medical clinic told me that I could easily live another 25 years. 25 years goes fast. 

I need to feel nostalgia to the max. I need to feel nostalgia that is through the roof. 

Some things can be done to facilitate this but it has to actually be done. 

It works on any day of the week but really works on Sunday. 

First google images of stained glass window reflections. The light reflecting off the wall has a really heavenly feeling that reminds me of the early 70s. And then listen to the song Love is Like A Light from Frank Stallone. 

Another method is to go on Google maps of you don't have VR. If you have VR, use Wander and visit your favorite town and use headphones to listen to a curated music playlist while doing it. 

Go to whatever town. You have your favorites, I have my favorites. My favorite town is Sidney BC 

Recommended music for Sidney BC. 

YouTube video: Steely Dan Gaucho out takes

Psychic Mirrors - Screenshots of You which must be followed with Gables By The Sea, Shock Treatment

Narmada Michael Walden: Tonight I'm All Right, and The Real Thing 

Pat Metheny Group - Better Days Ahead 

This music mixed with the vibes of Sidney BC brings about a heavenly alchemy of the mind. 

That's because I know the town somewhat well. For others, it would take another town to do it. 

Using the same music. 

Today, I found a mandarin orange in a paper bag. 

Earlier, at the Courthouse, I swept the grounds and there were a few very kind people who walked past. 

Now would be a good time to mention that I haven't stopped this activity. 

A year later, I still often if not every day say a prayer, 

"Thank you God for blessing and protecting the following

- The Royal Family

- The Police

- Paramedics and the Fire Department

- The Courts, all who work there and thank You for blessing the probation officers as well. 

- small timers. Those in for not too serious offenses. May they be free from fear and may their problems pass quickly. 

- Hospitals, doctors and nurses thank You for their expertise. 

- Patients - may they be free from fear and pain and may they know Your presence. 

- people of all professions in this town

- Priests of all religions in this town

- my friends who are alive and those who are more alive after having graduated to the next quantum field exponential phase of life. 

- me."

I would say a prayer for my friends before I say a prayer for myself. 

I haven't stopped this. It's still on. 

Does this work or make a difference? Probably. Who knows. Yes! It does make a difference. 

Glacier Falls rockslide. 

There was a rock slide near Lake Louise Alberta which killed 2 people. 

There was a Trans Canada highway rockslide in the 60s that killed quite a few people. That rock slide was more Satanic than the recent Lake Louise rockslide which was certainly Satanic enough. The Canada Highway rockslide on the Satanic index is like Krampus on bath salts and meth simultaneously. That's how wretched it was. 

The RCMP rescued quite a few people after the Lake Louise rockslide. 

I will always miss my friends who graduated to the next phase of life. 

Spirits will speak to you in a voice that sounds to you like your voice. They will give you ideas that seem to you like your ideas. 

Quick flashes of insight that seem like a sudden brainstorm. This is called a 'download'. 

They would say, 

"You know about Marshall McLuhan saying, "The media is the message."  We are still with you. You don't have to worry about how you are going to make it without us. We have merely changed the media from which we interact with you. It is like what the sound of radio plays and music from radio waves is to printed type and musical tablature. Sure, televisual images too, but that is not as good a metaphor as the sound from radio waves because you need to look in a certain direction at all times to see television images. The sound of heavenly music from the radio can be experienced in whatever direction you look. We are like that now." 

Fiction. 

I was flying in an Airco DH2 in World War 1. 

During one mission, I was flying along with a few allied bombers. They were enormous. They each had 6 engines and an additional rear machine gunner. At night the machine gunner muzzle flashes seemed to light up with an eerie yet nostalgic glow. 

I shot down a few enemy planes on that mission. 

I returned to home base. 

On the next mission, I was struck down. Most World War One pilots lasted less than three weeks. 

This is the basis of my next cartoon. I have a vision for each specific scene. A visual screenplay. 

Sc 1. From the ground. Looking above, and Airco DH2 push propeller plane flies off in the distance. 

Sc 2 Then flying and looking to the side, the pilot see a few large bombers. They have a very awesome look. 

Sc 3 Then flying near alongside a bomber to get a size comparison. 

Sc 4 and 5. A military industrial area is bombed courtesy of the large bombers. 

Sc 6. Aerial dogfight. 

Sc 7 walk away from hangar at dusk after a mission. The area is nearly completely enveloped with the natural comforting blanket of the night. 

Sc 8. Flying in the Airco DH2 again. Hit an airplane in front. The broken off wing of that airplane hits the DH2 hard, knocking it out. Permanently.

Sc 9. Final scene, a smoking DH2 with the pilot on board falling to the ground reminiscent of The Flight of Icarus. 

When I'll do the cartoon, who knows? But before the end of the year. 

The cartoons I did have a better linear command than most VR animations that I have seen. I can draw celebrities etc faces rather accurately. Perhaps sometimes too accurately. 

I won't be drawing any faces in this cartoon actually. Perhaps one look at the pilots face but it will be a cartoon character face and not a serious sketch of an actual face. 

The cartoon as you can see will be narrated from the first person. 

Yeah, right, like I've ever flown a World War 1 airplane. Uh, no. 

As with boats in water, air currents does its own thing and can and will interfere with the Bernoulli thing the World War One pilot is attempting with the wings of his airplane. 

A wind shear at the wrong direction has been known to take down World War One planes quite often. Heck, even modern planes if a pilot doesn't know what he's doing. 

In VR, the planes fly quite reliably. In actual World War one, a lot of planes wings were held together with wires which too often snapped. The early planes of World War one were very unreliable. 

With the world war two planes, the speed is quite different. 

World War One plane - 185 mph

World War Two plane - 433 mph 

Wow, that's really fast! I've tried World War two airplanes in VR. It takes awhile but eventually you do get the hang of it. 

I also have modern warplanes in VR. The modern jets go at near or over 1,000 mph. 

That's absolutely insane. I'm not sure I can handle that. 

I tried flying helicopters in VR. What an absolute pain. It was the worst vehicle to drive. Too difficult and confusing. Bletz. 

Saturday, June 21, 2025 

The last day of the first half of the year according to the solar calendar. 

In the whatever calendar, it is referred to as a summer solstice as it if was an softer thought irrelevant to June 30, which is the last day of the first half of the year in the regulated calendar. 

The calendar is regulated because man's will is to be perceived as dominant over the will of nature. This advances all kinds of institutions. 

Be careful what you wish for. One day, I would like to feel nostalgia and bliss that is through the roof. And to feel such nostalgia often. 

This can be advanced through telling yourself positive things. It's no more or less BS than telling yourself negative things. It's just that you feel better telling yourself positive things. 

Dream, two days ago. Hesitate to mention it. What the heck. 

Interview with a probation officer. 

The male suspect asks the female probation officer, "Do you want to go to a dance?" 

The female probation officer answers,  "Yeah, but not with each other."

I wouldn't be me asking that to a female probation officer. No way! Probation officers are pretty much cops. The Police seem scary enough when they are neutral, just driving down the street. Angry, that's way more scary. No. No. Probation officers are part of the judicial branch. Even defense lawyers are part of the judicial branch. They seem to take great interest in their client not breaching the terms of their custodial release and reoffending. 

If a suspect reoffended, the defense lawyer would not be happy so they are kind of like cops too. A good cop rather than a bad cop. 

Today, I cleared some weeds at a temple. The people of the religion there are very spiritually powerful. I cleaned at a Jewish temple. 

The temple garden area didn't have any plants other than weeds. Lots of them. Some of them about half my height or higher. All gone. There was a pile of leaves along the garden area of the sidewalk lined with lots of leaves. That's all swept as well. 

A lamp post surrounded with weeds and a patina of sand along the bottom area of the lamp post. All cleaned. The area looks somewhat noticeably cleaner. 

There is so much about people walking down the street in marches and yelling about Israel. 

Why not do something good and clean for a Jewish temple? There isn't enough of that. 

Then I cleaned at and around the area of a Chinese Church. Across the street is a building that I really thought, imagined, was a functioning light furnishings store that sold lamps and lampshades. 

There was a row of weeds lining the wall that, no exaggeration, were my height. And other weeds too. A few rows of weeds along the sidewalk too. I removed all of them. All. 

And the area of the Chinese Church, the sidewalks, the road area near the sidewalk. Weeds all gone. 

The area looks noticeably nicer. I try to imagine the feelings of relief and delight the residents who live there and know the area well, knowing the weeds that were there even better than I do after seeing those weeds every single day, of seeing the weeds all gone. 

Today after the cleaning, the gods gifted me with a book about World War 2 airplanes called Hidden Warbirds which I found on the street. 

Life gives people chances to either tell a good story or not. Tell the good story and later on, life itself will repay you as a storyteller. 

During the cleaning, I found a round white plastic disk about half the slice of a hockey puck in circumference. It had the words Victoria Police with the Police badge. 

I thought, what an awesome souvenir. Just awesome. Rock show. So I kept it of course. 

A minute later, a lady walked past me and smiled and a minute after that, a man walked past me and smiled and said,  "Thank you for cleaning the area."  I replied that I am happy to do it. Which I am. 

They could have been undercover Police Officers observing as to whether I'd toss that plastic puck or keep it. Of course I kept it. 

I donate to the Police charity. I sweep the Courthouse grounds on a volunteer basis. I often say a prayer for the Police and the Courthouse. How would I not hold on to something like that. 

I often imagine what it was like to be on the St Roch. 

Sunday, June 22, 2025 

World War 2 Airplanes VR has the Vought F4U Corvair which is the plane flown in the television series Baa Baa Black Sheep. I saw that show when it aired in 1976. 

It is based on the real life of Greg Boyington nicknamed Pappy who flew in a Corvair squadron kind of like the Hellcats of World War 2 which was another famous squadron. They were squadron VMF- 214. 

The Mark V Spitfire is more famous. That airplane is the apex of WW2 war planes. 

I'm thinking that flying in real life isn't like VR. 

Often the rudder stick before power steering was very difficult to use and one had to have the strength of an ox. 

Stalling, flying at the wrong angle of attack, wind currents, centrifugal forces, and the sheer gut dropping feel of G-forces as the plane does a sudden dive that makes the Cyclone roller coaster look like a mere speed bump. 

Not to get too specific, 

A uh, drug user saw the trailer for the new Superman movie. The Fortress of Solitude looks imposing in its Gothic spectacularness. 

This gave the drug user the inspiration to make a large house out of uh, drugs to look like the Fortress of Solitude. 

He thought of the possible problems. 

In the movie Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, there was a palace made of chocolate in India. Which lasted until a very hot summer day when the palace melted. 

The Fortress of Drugitude would only last as long as until a torrential rainstorm happens which happens in most towns at least once a year. A real soaker. Cats and dogs. 

There would be the cost which would be prohibitive. And then the question legality and staying on the right side of the Law. 

What the heck, he decided to build it anyways. It doesn't make sense. Where would he get the money for that? It's fiction. It's not supposed to make sense. It's called a plot hole. Movies often have plot holes here and there. Then one day it rained. Junkies from all over town showed up with syringes to soak up the excess of the dissolving house made of a very water soluble drug. 

There were Police cars lined shoulder to shoulder on a crest overlooking the Fortress of Drugitude, Fortress of Me*h-hitude, lights on, sirens off. They were watching the frenzy of junkies from town and even a few from neighboring regions descending on the free for all. One of the Officers said with a smirk of judicial contempt,  "They're just like seagulls at a grunion run." 

This would be a good idea for an animated cartoon. 

Our plan. My plan. The plan. From Dune. 

My theory. The theory, of objectively, its a massive singularity of terabytes in a Planck second download and subjectively we are parsing through differing aspects of the data theory explains how it works that the future is fixed yet how things appear so random. 

This explains events that turn out to be omens in life. 

If you can wrap your mind around that. 

The model of linear time is traveling in one direction only along a tape measure. 

The model of everything is happening at the same instant is, in some kind of objective/subjective temporal type of Charles Law, Boyle's Law or Avogardos Law, I don't remember exactly, being inside a large bubble that is shrinking, inside the bubble, when it is large, a person has 85 years of life, and as the bubble gets smaller, the number of their remaining years left get smaller. However outside the bubble, it is a Planck second. See, when the bubble shrinks down to the size of one Planck second or smaller, complete synchronicity with the interior and the exterior of the bubble has been achieved. And then it's on to the next level. 

This happens all the time. In an airplane traveling East, the time on the watches on the passengers wrists is advancing forward one second at a time. The time outside of the airplane is doing a completely different thing. Since the sun rises in the East and sets in the West, a plane traveling East is going backwards in time, so to speak. 

The theory rather than my theory because you can't put the toothpaste back into the tube once it has been squeezed out. 

The tape measure theory posits a tape measure suspends in mysterious space with nothing on the top, the bottom nor on the sides. The bubble theory also does the same thing. The bubble is nowhere with nothing around it on all sides. No ceiling, no floor, no walls.   

Because of the objective future is fixed aspect of the singularity Planck second download that is the experience of existence on Earth, God has the future controlled beds use not only is he the command prompt which is the afterlife, he is the source code which is one level higher. The afterlife is also a Planck second download of some kind but with much much more data. Before the download, we'll there is no before, that's regressing back to linear time. Language is important for it can form and break delusions. One of the aspects of the Planck second download is that it contains precursor and preparatory data which is also the main data depending on which aspect you view it from. God is the basis of that preparatory foundational data, the source code. He is the Order in the Universe. 

A scientist said that quantum physics is like drinking out of a tall glass and at the bottom of that glass, you find God looking at you. 

The subjective future is not fixed aspect of the parsing through different aspects of the data makes the future appear uncertain and that brings worry. 

Matthew 6:28

Jesus said don't worry about anything. Worrying is one of the most common ailments of the mind just like pimples are one of the most common ailments on the body. Worrying isn't a sin but demonstrates a poor understanding, if not no understanding of the future is fixed aspect of the Planck second download instead choosing to fixate on the subjective parsing through the labyrinthine aspects of the data which makes the future merely appear to be so random. 

Jesus said, Don't worry!  "Let me cook." in a voice that sounds almost like a child's voice. 

God's got this, as Pastor Joel Osteen said. Also, in the movie Religulous, a Catholic Priest laughs and says,  "People live and die with their crazy ideas."

Mainstream Christiainity would view this as a crazy idea. 

But there are examples of what were once crazy ideas and conspiracy theories is now taught in school curriculums. 

I decided to share this theory because contrary to the saying, " University polishes pebbles and dulls diamonds."  which is a twisted bullsh*t saying of people who either couldn't afford or else don't have what it takes to make it in Uni, the saying should be  "University completely turns pebbles into diamonds." 

My singularity in a Planck download theory needs to be refined with scientific notation aka calculus. And then it needs to be peer reviewed. This is a preliminary theory at best. The student often excels the teacher. A few University students here and there, brilliant male and female scientists at University can take this to the next level. Make it yours! 

This doesn't mean that we should dispense with the tape measure model of linear time. It's fun. It's traditional.

"And what have you got against tradition?" ad. 

The thing is to not see the tape measure that is something leading to a fearful future full of worry. The thing is to see that whether you are using the bubble model of time or the tape measure model of time, God has complete control and if you are a good person or try your very best to be, no one is perfect, we all make mistakes, that the tape measure is leading you to a future that is better than you can imagine. You have no idea of the good things that are coming down the pike for you; for each and every one of us. 

A few weeks ago, I saw some protesters in the streets yelling about genocide. It no longer called genocide. It's called trans humanism. Julian Huxley. GMO CRISPRed humans. 

Today, I went to the Chinese Church. I didn't wear the suit because of the weather. Debbie Hellion mentioned The Global Colding. In the 70s, they thought that there would be another Ice Age in the year 2000. Last time, I wore a suit to Church in this weather and I got a flu for two days. 

Today, my bank card was declined. I'm broke. It's happened lots. Now all I have to do is to hit up food lines all the time. That cuts it down to one meal a day that I'd have to pay money for, but the food at the food line is intensely repetitive. 

There are a few food lines. There's one in Esquimalt. 

I sure racked up the spending last month I guess. No more VR purchases now knowing what it can lead to. Just one more VR purchase. Walkabout Mini Golf Crystal Lair is being released and that's about $8 Canadian. 

The other day, I bought the movie 1917 at $17. Pricey or what? 

This afternoon, I cleared off I would say and not very often, what was a veritable jungle of weeds. This was a profound case. The pernicious rhubarb was the star of the show and they were in a clustered thick growth, huddled together like warriors deliberating over a hunt. They were taller than me and the stalks were at least one full inch thick. There was also a plethora of clump grass splayed all around the garden in copious not so verdant formations. Well, that temple doesn't have to worry about any of that because they are all gone. There were also about four dozen specimens of the weed with light green leaves and a red stalk and red branches too. They're all gone. Dandelions, the coin of the realm of any weed garden were also absconded from the temple garden. 

I did a good deed for the Jewish temple called a mitzpah, I mean a mitzvah. I must have been thinking of the word chutzpah and there was some of that invariably involved as well, I suppose. 

The potential is there that I will get a Jewish blessing. The Jewish spiritual tradition is one that is steeped in profound magic. I wouldn't be surprised if I get a blessing. If I don't, I still feel happy thinking of the sigh of relief of people who work there when they go next time and see the picaresque deleterious weeds that were previously there now gone. 

The thought process is,  "I don't know what to think of the future. It could be better than I think it will be. Anyways, ho hum, I have to go the temple to do my work there and those blasted unsightly weeds. Nothing ever changes. Oh! Look at that! The weeds are gone! I really want expecting that. So in that way the future turned out to be better than I expected. Who pulled the weeds? Someone from the City engineering department probably. Perhaps the temple hired a temporary groundskeeper. It couldn't be a volunteer who did it for no reason other than kindness and otherwise a strange delightful attitude of adventure towards life itself. A person who believes in God and greatly respects the Jewish spiritual tradition." 

I worked cleaning the garden of the temple of weeds and this was after I found out that my bank card got declined and that I am now officially flat broke. Yay! Even the psychological duress of the funk of that wasn't enough to stop me from doing my work of spiritual respect for the Jewish  temple. 

Uranium enrichment plants in Iran were a source of instability in the region, a Canadian Federal Minister said. 

'Operation Midnight Hammer'. 

These are high tech bunker buster bombs that actually tunnel deep into the ground like the gopher in the movie Caddyshack, burrowing 200 feet before detonating which is rather far sighted on part of the Americans. Talk about being two steps ahead. 

So Trumps missile strikes were a move designed to bring stability to the region. That sounds about right! 

Building a nuke is one thing, but does Iranian missiles have the stroke capability to reach the US without getting shot down first? I doubt it. 

But they do have missiles with the strike capability for Israel as Iran is lobbying missiles at Iz all the time. All they'd have to do is to equip the missiles with nuclear war heads.

What kind of nuke? Plutonium, uranium nuclear bomb or the more powerful deutritium aka hydrogen bomb? 

Remember the movie War Games starring Matthew Broderick? The phrase used was 'global thermo nuclear war'. Is that the road we are traveling along? 

I'd rather die of a heroin overdose than to die in a nuclear war. Will the government need to dispense emergency supplies of alpha methyl fentanyl aka China White heroin as standard issue due to the US - Iranian war? Time will tell. 

I wouldn't presume to say that the POTUS is impressionable but Trump refers to PM Benjamin Netanyahu as Bibi. Conflict of interest? Joined at the hip? But you sure couldn't say that the US Militsry is impressionable. However Trump is the Commander in Chief of the US Military and what he says goes. However the Army must have reached a final consensus among themselves that bombing Fordo, Isfahan and Satan's, I mean Natanz was the logistical thing to do. 

Trump: "If I were President, this war would not happen."

Trump to  Zelensky:  "You're playing with WW3."

Haters gonna hate. Trump is gonna be Trump. 

That's OK. Most people are always moving their goalposts anyways. A few years ago, I wanted to move to Gdansk. Now I'm thinking of moving to Guangzhou China. There's a 15% to 25% that I'll actually go there. With my mind the way it is, let's be absolutely realistic and move that down to that there is a 0% chance I'm moving to China. 

I could visit there I guess. 

That would be a show! Not really. Just a few mildly interesting conversations with locals, restaurants, museums. I'm not a nightclub kind of guy. Yeah, me and millions of others. I'm too old to go to nightclubs. Most ladies there are young enough to be my University attending daughter. College girls. 

I would think that only young women are beautiful however I have seen a few older women, silver foxes who look elegant and beautiful. 

In a region where Iran is across the water from Oman, like England is across the water from Ireland, the Middle East is a powder keg unto itself. 

That guy got shot and that was the powder keg or catalyst for World War One. 

Iran hits US air base in Qatar. 

This is the latest in a long line of such SNAFUs in the region. Syria, Aleppo, Libya, Benghazi, Lebanon Hezbollah. That's the region where a commonly used expression is,  "If its only a fist-fight, its a good day."

Really, nothing to see here. That's a region where if there weren't the occasional outbursts of sporadic internecine warfare, it would be seen as abnormal - for them! 

It's basically a never ending mutual tennis match of volley after volley and lob after lob of missile strikes. 

So visiting Bethlehem this Christmas is cancelled again for the third year in a row. 

I wonder if I'll survive til Wednesday being broke. At least I have dim sum and I also got some milk for tea and coffee. I also got a can of fish. Dace fried in black bean sauce. 

I do love this town. This town is a jewel in the World. 

When I saw the movie 1917 two years ago at the IMAX theatre, I never imagined ever that one day I'd be flying World War airplane in VR. 

Led Zeppelin two features a visceral picture of World War One pilots next to a Zeppelin.

Best song: What Is And What Will Never Be

The album cover of Led Zeppelin I has a picture of a burning zeppelin. Still World War One but not as direct and visceral as the album cover with the picture of the pilots. Or was it the band dressed in World War one pilot uniforms. 

I wouldn't mind getting one. Also a World War two pilot uniform that can be ordered online. 

Monday, June 23, 2025 

An app called Dada 360 Puzzle VR keeps reinstalling automatically even though I clicked uninstall and remove. I've seen this before. I sent a message to meta quest headquarters. This is scary. Really scary. 

I went to cleaning an area of weeds and moss and when I returned, that app reinstalled itself again. I'm thinking of writing a letter to the Police about it. 

I was thinking of writing more to the review I wrote in the Dada Zubaaan VR app reviews section. That would be too much. 

I just don't like getting apps that automatically reinstall again and again. 

However, this isn't my first rodeo when it comes to apps like this. 

Plsce these apps in the hidden apps section and out a lock on the app as well. Being bloatware, it will take up memory space. 

This is the review I left on the review page. 

This app will automatically reinstall again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again even after uninstall and remove. I sent a message to meta quest headquarters. If you value your sanity and a life free from fear, do not install this profoundly pernicious app. This app is deplorable, wretched, awful.

Defective, sleazy, lugubrious, thoughtless, delinquent energy with this app, that's fer sure.

Ha ha, rectal and Satanic.

Completely AI generated garbage. It's an abomination.

This was or might be my addition. I don't want to appear too crazy to the Police. Who does? Everyone is legally entitled to a kick at the can. 

You get one kick at the can. Make it a good one. 

However don't be too crazy. 

This was to be my addition. 

As for the wretched puerile gameplay, this is an app that is perfectly good in the 2D arena all of a sudden spuriously and needlessly shoehorned into VR levels of experience. In Freudian terms, the actual gameplay is so anal that not even the actual anus is as anal. 

Would that be too much? Or not? 

I saw a YouTube video thumbnail with the words 

You're Too Worried

I couldn't find it again. I'd like to see the video. Often though, I clicked on to videos I thought that I wanted to see and it wasn't as good as I thought it would be. 

Today in Ww1 Airplanes VR, I got the Fokker DR 1 and painted it red. 

The Red Baron! 

I flew as the Red Baron and when not flying this plane, it is an accompanying plane so to see it flying in the sky at a distance is the apex of World War 1 experiences. 

The Fokker DR 7 flies a lot better. It is the more efficient military machine. 

Fun fact. The Red Baron was born in Wroclaw, Poland. 

Tuesday, June 24, 2025

I took the day off. This island has a magic. All the probl ms I ever had on this island eventually went away. Some very quickly. 

In the Warplanes WW1 VR, I got the Albatross C3. 

The Fokker Dr 7 is technically the most precision military machine, but it wasn't the one capable of reaching the hiest altitudes. From memory these are the planes of World War One which could reach the highest altitudes

- Albatross C3

- Fokker Dr 1

- Sopwith Camel 

- SPAD XIII

- Fokker Dr 7

- Junkers D2

The Albatross C3 was the first plane that the Red Baron used which he painted all red. 

When he enlisted he wrote in a letter that he didn't join the war "just to deliver cheese and eggs."  He started out going on delivery runs. 

He finally opted for the Fokker Dr 1 saying that "It climbs like a monkey and manoeuvres like the devil." 

Dr is an abbreviation for dreidecker or three decker, three wing triplanes. 

The first mono winged WW1 airplane was the eindecker. 

It was Canadian pilot Roy Brown who shot down the Red Baron in a Sopwith Camel. 

Roy Brown started with flying the Sopwith Pup eventually moving up to the Camel. 

The full story: Flying in a squadron with Roy Brown was a famous WW1 fighter named Wop May. The Red Baron sighted him and fired a couple of shots that hit but not hard enough. Against his better judgement or perhaps recovering from the previous year, The Red Baron flew low and deep into enemy territory so eager for his next kill. Canadian WW1 pilot Roy Brown saw all of this and pursued the Red Baron. Roy Brown fired a few shots but this was not what felled The Red Baron as forensic examination revealed. Australian artillery corps controlled the ground and artilleryman Cedric Popkins fired a shot that went from the right underarm to the left nipple in a surgically devastating strike. The Australian artillery corps quickly stripped the plane for souvenirs. 

I have all these planes in WW1 Warplanes VR 

- Sopwith Camel

- Fokker Dr 7

- Fokker Dr 1

- Albatross C3

- Airco DH 2  the best of the push propellers. 

In WW2  Warplanes VR, so far, I only have the standard issue Bearcat F8F. 

Bjorn is bear in Scandinavian. Bjornssen means child of a bear. Sure, son of a bear but what if the bear had a daughter? 

I am trying to get the Vought F4U Corvair, which is available. Then I'll be like Black Sheep Squadron. 

Spitfire Mark 5, P-51 Mustang and Mitsubishi A9M Zero are available. These are also planes that I'm pretty much trying to get. 

Getting the planes means successfully completing missions. It's the same 10 missions over and over and over and over again. Success means money and money is what is required to purchase planes and upgrades from the shop. Upgrades make all the difference in these Warplanes VR apps from the developer Home Net Games which should be a household name. Upgrades means the difference between machine guns that barely have any effect to machine guns that cut down with devastating ballistic lethality. 

Well, the Curtiss P-40 Warhawks are the majorly ones because they are the ones with the ominous shark's teeth. Iconic. Legendary. I would try to get this one as well through grinding. Successfully completing missions. Some people know how to hack so they start the game with a million dollars so they can get any and all planes and all completely upgraded to the maximum. 

Everything old is new again, lol

Wednesday, June 25, 2025

Last night I pulled the muscle in my lower back, only on the right hand side. The psoas muscle. It will take a couple of days to heal. I feel exhausted. I need some time off so I took the day off. 

I hope my lower back heals. 

Collective consciousness. If someone knows about my back pain, even a thought of well wishing can help. 

I was going to the model shop to see some World War one airplane models. WW2 airplane models are good as well. 

Can't wait but will have to wait until the new golf course on Walkabout Mini Golf VR is released. 

The movie The Northman is a very spectacular movie. Good scenery. It is a story of vengeance. 

I feel sick today. I don't know what it is. Exhaustion. Too much caffeine. Old age. Or what if it's something worse. I tried everything. Yoga, hot water bottle and going on a one block walk. During my walk, I wondered if I had a fever. I was sweating slightly. I felt my forehead with the back of my hand. It didnt feel feverish. 

Half an hour ago, I smoked a cigarette which made me really want to vomit. I vomited and feel better. However, I think I might be dying. 

"You're not dying, Cameron.  Cameron always thinks he's dying."  Ferris Bueller's Day Off 

I wonder if it's the really scary thing. But I do feel better now for some reason. 

I hope that Jesus will heal me. 

I wonder if I'm dying. 

Feeling bad means wearing a sweatshirt, sweatpants socks, the heater nos on and I still feel cold. That was half an hour ago. 

Now, only wearing a t shirt and shorts, I feel nice. A cool breeze. 

Rather than a panic attack inducing cool breeze. 

Not being a doctor, I do kinda somewhat know that the really scary thing typically can have other accompanying symptoms like extreme weight loss, hair loss, lots of bleeding. 

I'm not seeing anything like that. 

Being a hypochondriac, I wondered if I got second hand smoke from meth. 

It's flimsy. One of my neighbours has a girlfriend who's a meth head. She smokes or they smoke, whatever, with the door closed. I walk past their room. I don't know what meth smells like and I only smelt a strong smell of cigarette smoke. I don't feel unusual like I'm high on some hard core extreme drug. After vomiting, I felt a lot better. What a difference. Why? Why do I feel so much better now? I'm not a doctor. 

I have to stop imagining that I'm the normal city guy who often wears a shirt and tie whose life is centered around self help YouTube videos and multivitamins. I have to imagine that I'm a Jedi knight on Coruscant. 

Thank you God and to any of you who has said a prayer or even a thought of well wishing for me because it worked. I feel better now. Not only feeling better. Feeling really good and refreshed. And this is in spite of my self and my weird tendency for hypochondria. Earlier today I thought I'd never get better. I had this for hours. 

It didn't register until later. Food poisoning. I ate ground beef that had been in the fridge for four or arguably five days. I use the term fridge loosely. It's a rooming house fridge that only kind of works. No wonder I felt so awful. 

After vomiting and drinking Pepto, which kills and neutralizes any bacteria in the stomach, I felt better. A lot better. 

The fan was on and I was there all splayed out and relaxed with the cool breeze feeling pleasant and not causing a temperature related panic attack as I had earlier in the day. 

Today, Oceania was added as a DLC for Real Fishing VR. Oceania is an Orwellian 1984 word for Australia and New Zealand. One of the fishing sites is Sydney Australia! 

Which of course remnnds me of Sidney BC. 

I did ask Real Fishing VR to think of doing a Sidney BC pier as part of a Canada DLC. Well, they did get the Sidney part of it right, more or less. 

Thursday, June 26, 2025 

I cleaned a roof area at the Courthouse. 

I cleaned for a few Churches and a temple. My wish is the gift of being able to feel nostalgia and bliss that is through the roof and to be able to feel this regularly. I think the temples can arrange this somehow because they are very spiritual. 

I look forward to feeling this bliss and nostalgia soon. 

This town is intensely nostalgic and it is one of the top ten most nostalgic towns on this planet. Subjectively and objectively. So the potential is definitely there. 

The Churches and the temple has certain powers to arrange that a person has nostalgia. Prayers that lead to certain things that bring about nostalgia. Certain songs on the radio. Certain images in the News. Certain words said that are heard. They all add up. 

But don't worry, bad things add up too. In the app called Spiritual Stories on Android, this gem of a story:

A boy was watching his mother bake a cake. 

He asked about each ingredient, eggs, flour, etc saying that they are yucky. The eggs are runny, the flour is messy. 

The mother said,  "In life, you will encounter a lot of things that are yucky. But at the end of your life, these yucky things combine to make something beautiful, just like with baking a cake. God knows how to turn all things to good." 

Bliss and nostalgia that is through the roof comes from developing a foundation of good thoughts never let go of. Thoughts that are realistic. 

Don't think, "This is a backwater town and I'm better off in another town."  How does that work in terms of developing nostalgia? 

Think instead,  "This town is an opulent jewel in the Crown of World nostalgia. Every town in the world, if you get to know it has a magic that can be particularly felt on Sunday, known as Sunday vibes." 

My town, Victoria BC has Craigdarroch Castle, The Empress Hotel and the Legislative Buildings which are intensely nostalgic. 

One Church I go to has wooden slats painted white, all line up forming the walls and the ceiling. It brings me back to 1930s, 1960s, and 1970s nostalgia. After I went to that Church just focusing on the walls and the ceiling of wooden slats painted white, I went home and listened to the songs, 

April Wine - Bad Side Of The Moon

The Guess Who - Orly, Star Baby

and the nostalgia was was intense. Nearly through the roof. This works with any Church with wooden slats of any colour, it does have to be white, for walls and ceiling. 

This is my aim in life. Success means nothing without bliss and nostalgia. But one day, I would like to feel that where I would say without a doubt that it is through the roof. If that ever happens that means the temple and Church did their magic and I'll tell you about it. 

After I went to UBC in Vancouver, as I was returning to my apartment in Victoria BC, I thought of UBC and missed it already. I thought of UBC and the vibes were still with me. They were vibes of feeling that I just visited Heaven and the feeling of bliss were strong and profound. My feelings of love for the heavenly vibes of UBC in Vancouver is simply immeasurable. It is as deep as an ocean. 

The new Crystal Lair level in Walkabout Mini Golf VR is spastically spastic. Each course is saturated with these eponymous crystals that dispel an electric charge that violently repels golf balls away from them making them completely counterproductive. I get it. Obstacle course. 

It looks very very much like the Malahat Skywalk. The winding River and the mountains below really looks like the Malahat Skywalk. Really. 

Forget the night time difficult level. Just forget it. The impossible level. 

Daddy Warbucks. That's a good name for a character in a story. 

That's not too far from the truth. 

With an ever increasing reliance on EVs, the worldwide demand for light sweet crude is waning. 

To drum revenue in the region, namely the Middle East, they have resorted to war profiteering which is one of the reasons of war 

1. Artificial scarcity, price fixing

2. Extract resources - military hybrid model, partly government subsidized partly for profit corporation 

3. Install puppet government

4. Money laundering for billionaires 

5. War profiteering 

6. Population control 

Well what it really looks like is that petroleum is being commandeered for exclusive purposes such as military jets. In less than a hundred years, it could be illegal for any private citizen to own more than one jerry can of gasoline, kind of how it is illegal for any citizen to own even one pound of 24 karat gold. 

200 proof liquor = 100% alcohol

24 karat gold = 100% gold, 12 karat = 50% gold

The trend towards EVs is about control. Justice is about privelege not principle. EV batteries lose range over time. They pile up in landfills and won't fully biodecompose for thousands of years. Getting a new battery isn't like going to Walmart or ordering one off amazon. Not every place has charging stations. Whether it's gas powered cars or EVs, the World is going to hell in a handbasket. 

Things will work out somehow. 

Whatever happens, it's going to be OK. 

"Ca va bien aller. It's going to be OK." Vancouver City street signs 

Friday, June 27, 2025 

Today I cleaned moss off of a wall at St Anne's Academy. A segment of the wall is too tall for me to reach so forget it, going on the proviso that anything that is too difficult isn't worth doing at all. 

I hope I get a Catholic blessing in the form of a massive megadump of nostalgia and bliss that is so through the roof, that I would even say, and in spit of myself,  "This is undeniable. I never felt nostalgia and bliss to this level before in my entire life." 

That would be awesome. 

I'm not going to travel to China. For one thing, if a person is going to be in any residence for more than 48 hours, they must register their address with the Police. Hotels automatically register a guest. 

The movie Dracula is on sale on YouTube but is also available for free. I remember going to Metrotown in the Autumn of 1992 from my place downtown to see the movie. I went about three times. I wasn't scared to see the movie then but am somewhat scared now. 

The movie had a grunge vibe that was popular at the time. It made me want to grow my hair long which I did. I also got rectangular sunglasses. 

The Rock Shop in Vancouver has vintage Van Halen t shirts. The early Van Halen, Van Halen 1978 and Van Halen 1982 are great t shirts. I'll just get the cheaper one as I'm on a budget. 

Drinking herbal tea helps me with my anxiety. 

I'm going to be bold and audacious to say that a major lynchpin of nostalgia and bliss is a feeling of societal well-being that extends to a belief that the Police like you. They are your friends and they want to see you do well, not they're majorly investigating you because they want to bust you. Really? Would that apply to everyone? I doubt I'd be the most major guy in town. The Police have bigger fish to fry. 

Believe that even the Courthouse and the Police are rooting for you. They love you and want you to do well. 

This belief must be completely internalized otherwise its Paranoia City, Depression City, Anxiety City etc. 

The Police station, the Courthouse, are connected to and are thus included in this Harry Potter Christmas village, Cannery Row, small town on the hill, nostalgia town ideal of reality. 

Saturday, June 28, 2025 

I cleaned the wall at St Anne's Academy and swept an area of the Courthouse. The flowers were watered and thus tended to. Some would use a spout. I use a spray bottle to water plants. 

The movie Prisoners was meh at best. So many people said it was the best movie they had ever seen. 

This story is the two youngest children of two families gets abducted. The main final culprit is an old lady who gives them a mixture of £sd and ketamine in a Hansel & Gretel meets Ken Kelsey's Electric CooL-Aid Acid Bus kind of story. 

The Police detective claims to have solved 100% of all cases assigned to him. 

"Who are you, Sherlock f*cking Holmes?"  the other person might have asked him but didn't. 

"Did I ever tell you that I was lost at sea?" 

"Lost at sea?! Who are you, Rudyard f*cking Kipling?!"  Tusk, movie

It's a story of two families united with a common problem. 

The mother was stressed, worried, to the point of taking pills. Her mind painted a picture of the future further added to when the patents identified clothing belonging to the abducted children. Turns out the children were recovered alive. All suspects dead or else accounted for. The detective found 100% of all the people including the whistle-blower. 

No spectacular mind blowing science fiction visuals. A story but a mid level twist ending but not an over the top twist ending like Planet of the Apes. 

Imagine being the first to see that in the movie theatres in 1968. The twist ending. The audience probably walked out shaken and stunned. 

Denis Villeneuve is directing the next James Bond movie. They recycle the stories over and over so the next movie will be like like Dr No or else Casino Royale starting the set of stories over and over again. Ernst Stavro Blofeld, SPECTRE. 

With Villeneuve at the helm, the movie will be spectacular. To be released in what, three years? 

Sunday, June 29, 2025 

Holy smokes. Dawn of Jets looks as good as Sturmovich IL-2. 

Costs $24.64 with tax. Pricey but look at it. Way better graphics and realism than Warplanes VR. 

I turned down purchasing a lot of apps. So it's not like I'm always getting apps. 

The interior of the airplane in Dawn of Jets looks like Dr Strangelove. It's that good. 

I turned down getting Crashlands which looks like an Olympic festival of motion sickness. I turned down Titanic submarine which looks claustrophobic. Not some place I'd want to be. Whereas the submarine experience in Walkabout Mini Golf 20,000 Leagues Under the Sea is fantastic and mesmerizing and 19th Century steampunk opulent, Titanic looks grim and depressing and is as cheerful as visiting a mausoleum which is what it basically is. 

I turned down getting paddle pinball which annoyed me as all paddle games do. Pickleball was common and annoying. Holding the paddle at the right angle is challenging. Tennis is the only good one. Free and has a tennis ball serving machine. Hit the ball anywhere. Simple, even for me. Pickleball, you have to get the ball only in the zone diagonal in front of you, not the zone directly in front of you. Confounding. Obfuscating. Tennis is Beverly Hills. Pickleball is retirement community, low to middle middle class living in townhouses. Tennis is aristocratic. Pickleball is common, plebian, hoi polloi, lumpen proletariat. 

I turned down Shogun's Empire. Confusing from the start. 

Dawn of Jets looks smoking and mind-blowing and I could always get a refund. 

Other thoughts. I tried Warplanes VR Air Corps which features helicopters which are an absolute pain to fly. Completely different structural engineering from an airplane. 

As for the jets, I have not completed any missions. I always crashed. Always. 

Think about it. 

World War One, 200 mph. 

World War Two, 400 mph

Warplanes modern jet, 800 mph. Or more. 

Howard Hughes broke a propeller plane speed record going at 358 mph. The World War 2 airplane go at 425 miles an hour! The American military was able to design a plane that goes faster than Howard Hughes plane. Not bad. 

Should I get Dawn of Jets or not? YOLO lol

Got it at 9 pm or thereabouts. 

Wish I had gotten it sooner. 

I would rate this app at the level of A Gift From God. 

I swept and cleaned a few Churches and temple and this is my good karma. 

I woke up this morning and didn't know this app existed. 

After Church a person from the congregation named Don, one of a few because more than one person with the same name can attend a Church, saw me on the street and said hello. He is a great man like Luke said of Ben Kenobi when Han Solo said, 

"Where did you dig up that old fossil?" 

"Ben is a great man." 

Well, turns out that not only was it a omen, it was a recommendation. Get the app! 

I google searched airplanes vr to see if there were any other apps as good as the WW1 and WW2 airplane apps or anything with aerial combat. 

I saw Dawn of Jets and another one called Airplane Something Whatever VR which was awful. 1 star rating. 

Dawn of Jets left me just amazed. Sturmovich IL-2 or what? F*ck! 

I had Dr Strangelove and early 1970s vibes. 

The night time scenes in that app are visceral and profound. 

All the other airplane simulator on the meta store page were just wretched and awful. 

I got conned so to speak into getting Airplane 74 in which one has been contracted as a pilot to fly a Cessna doing coke runs for drug syndicates which is not, that is not, the kind of thing that more of us need to be doing. However, that is the story premise for that strange app. One based on larceny. The first mission and this is presumably even before the pilot sets out on any coke runs. Never completed. Tried two dozen times. 

The scenario. As you have just taken off and are in mid flight, another plane throws a smoke bomb into your plane. You have to throw it out the window through the hole in the window that it entered the plane. Just your typical every day experience in airplanes. I mean if you've flown airplanes for years and that hasn't happened to you at least once, you haven't been doing it right. Just ask any pilot at the airport. Uh, .....no. 

Then land the plane. Removing a tooth from a whale with teeth versus a baleen type of whale like a killer whale especially when it's angry like Blackfish or whatever it's name was would be an easier task than landing the airplane in the Airplane 74 app. I wasn't able to get a refund. 

The gameplay of Dawn of Jets was like spreading liquified melted butter over some bread with a butter knife. It's that smooth. 

The interior of the airplane had that Dr Strangelove look and it reminded me of the tight technical clinical military feeling I got when I looked at the dashboards of the 50s era fighter planes at aviation museum. So many instruments. 

Warplanes Air Corps VR - accelator, landing gear, rudder stick, flaps, guns, weapons

Dawn of Jets VR - accelator, landing gear, rudder stick, flaps, guns, weapons, canopy, engine start switch, etc. Looks so realistic that is beyond words. 

The forces of life were good to me today and this was in spite of years of doubts, worries, and the resultant complaints. I must have done something right. 

I have an imagination and my brain goes to strange places sometimes. I wish I had a better brain but this is the one I've got. In this way, the future is better than I thought. 

Dawn of Jets includes all cold war era jet planes including a Royal Canadian Air Force plane. It also has the shorter snub nosed fighter jets that reminds me of the F-86 jet in Sidney BC on Fourth Street near Beacon Ave. I would imagine that I am flying that jet back in the day when it was working. Awesome or what? 

Flying such an airplane in real life. VR doesn't replicate G forces, centrifugal forces, wind shear, and the liquid in the eustachian tubes of the ears sloshing around all over the place when doing rolls. I doubt that a G force haptic suit could ever be invented. So flying a real airplane and VR are quite different although I imagine VR would be a great flight simulator. 

The F-86A is available! Imagine me flying that. I feel that much more of a connection to Sidney BC. 

The F-86A costs $15,000 'dollars', in game currency. I only have $2,500 of IGC now. 

There are night flying missions that look high octane incredible and the interior plane lights can be adjusted with a dimmer switch. How rad is that? 

The modern airplanes that were on the news that dropped the bombs in Iran. That hasn't been declassified and won't be ported in VR any time soon. You need.a security clearance to see that. Although with airplanes, the more things change, the more they stay the same. You got the accelerator / decelerator throttle stick and the steering rudder. World War One planes didn't have electric raising and lowering of flaps but WWII planes did. 

Flaps increase the lift of the plane. Flaps down or in use means the plane maintains lift at lower speeds.