Saturday, November 1, 2025
Ashwagandha starts working in one day. Feeling less anxiety although I did have a sharp anxiety attack that lasted about five seconds. The burning anxiety otherwise makes me not want to live. Existence with anxiety is no kind of existence st all. Is this all there is?
Wrong thinking - Anything that is worth doing is worth doing right.
Right thinking - Anything that is too difficult isn't worth doing at all including the living of life.
The worth of life is finite because the nature of life is finite. This is a backwater dimension with a backwater set of physics anyways. You can only expect so much and one has to make allowances for the limitations of the physics of this dimension.
There is once in a whole, a tranqued out pilled out feeling. But not often and once in awhile, the burning anxiety returns for five seconds but goes away but when it's there, is it ever there.
Yesterday at 5pm, feeling the burning anxiety yet again, I had to get ashwagandha. Anxiety saps a person of the will to live.
Reviewers have said,
"I used to be on fight or flight all the time. Now I'm calm all the time."
"I used to be like a squireel. Now I'm just cbillin'."
Ashwagandha has withanol which works on the GABA receptors in the brain. So there's that. Supposedly it helps. GABA receptors regulate the speed which the nervous system sends signals. Faster if necessary when in danger but usually optimally slowed down to take it easy.
It's quite powerful for an OTC. Yeah, well, so is Sudafed.
Tomorrow is daylight savings time. Which is terrible.
Supposedly it is based on agrarian reasons, farming.
But really, let's face it, daylight savings time is based on industrial reasons. So people can get to work, the commute.
Farmers have done well without daylight savings time for centuries.
Stanford Fleming came up with daylight savings time.
It is man's ignorance and arrogance behind the imperative that time, baroque and organic in and of itself, must confirm to the regimented Gothic will of industry rather than vice versa. With disastrous results.
Scientists say daylight savings time does a real number in the body.
That's because the objective nature of time is time travel is time experienced on an objective level with changing iterations within the province sent moment. Subjective time is linear with changing iterations bejng consistent and concurrent with a non ending series of plural moments rather than the objective single moment.
So daylight savings time, like jet lag, causing a discrepancy between the objective and subjective perception of time which the body registers with sometimes terrible results.
Whenever you think of various instances of government incompetence and mismanagement, like the airhead flippancy and ignorance of having the $35* a year Christmas bonus rate frozen since the 80s, What's up with that? I wonder what Michael Moore of Sicko would think of that if he knew about it, you have to realize that it's the same species that is so confused and caught up in its own press that it can't be ide whether to hold on to or to get rid of daylight savings time. It is the same species who can't get their ducks in a row about something as basic as the reckoning of time, horology, so much so to the point that in Canada for example, while some places have daylight savings time, other places don't. Vancouver and Victoria have daylight savings time while Dawson Creek is permanently on Pacific Standard Time and never uses daylight savings time and more ironically, Dawson Creek is the farming agrarian society which has no need for DST. What a mess. While the industrialized non-agrarian cities use daylight savings time. Ironic since DST was supposed to be for farmers.
The ideal is that daylight ssvings time is Universal. The reality is, that in all likelihood, every country in the World is a crazy, gangsta, temporal calico cat patchwork or regions that observe DST and regions which don't.
*$35. F4 movies, a free movie site doesn't seem to be working tonight. Kvetched. Of course f in f4 is the first letter of the word five. The 4 in f4 movies could represent the number 4 in the amount of $40. Since f is before and not after 4, that means subtraction, so five minus $40 is $35. The bewildering amount of $35 of a Christmas bonus which has bizarrely remained frozen since the what, the 80s. Yeesh. And you wonder why I think that this is a backwater and that I'd be better off somewhere else.
Ashwagandha is a red flag that if you have to take it, all the signs are there that you are living in the wrong town, perhaps wrong Province, perhaps wrong country. If you were in a place where you are happy, you wouldn't need to take an anti-anxiety adaptogen.
It feels so strange yet so good to be without the burning feeling of anxiety. Previously I thought I'd have to get to the afterlife to feel this free of the burning anxiety.
I feel good feelings that I haven't felt since I was a child before the evolution of the HPA axis which takes on new levels in adulthood.
Hypothalamus - corticotrophin releasing hormone
Pituitary - adrenocorticotropic hormone
Adrenal - cortisol
Ashwagandha directly addresses each of these chemicals.
Forget beer and street drugs. Psychological pharmaceuticals on the guidance of a doctor more specifically addresses the areas of the brain and brain function that directly involve anxiety, fear, etc and can bring about the science of euphoria, nostalgia,
The feel good chemicals are endorphins aka endogenic morphines, dopamine, seratonin, oxytocin etc.
Ashwagandha causes an increase in testosterone which is good for men.
Does ashwagandha cause an increase in progesterone in women because that's a major feel good chemical for them on the level of dopamine, seratonin, etc. It might be even more powerful. That's released after pregnancy to nudge a mother to care for their child. This chemical occurs in many species of female organisms.
Anyways, I am feeling better in general already. There are moments of uncertainty, and slight anxiety that goes away fast.
As Alexandra Kallos more or less said, the afterlife is like 50G to our dimension which is 5G.
A person using 50G broadband can easily play an app that only requires 5G. A person using 5G broadband can not access apps built for 50G broadband.
So for a spirit to visit us from the afterlife, to them it would be like them installing and then using a GBA emulator on an android tablet with a Snapdragon 4 speed processor.
Blue Jays lose the World Series.
"How do you f*ck that up?!" A History of Violence
Even the Dodgers having home field and the odd numbers innings advantage, Toronto had a golden window of opportunity handed to them on a silver platter with the tenth inning and they screwed that up royally.
One might say that other countries merely have to deal with American influence on a vicarious level, Canada has to physically deal with the actual United States living right next to them and it has affected Canadians sports culture. It's one sided with the odds stacked heavily on the other side. Watch the movie Moneyball with Brad Pitt. One team has a $40 million annual budget, another team has a $110 million annual budget.
What can you say? Whoop, one country has 420 million people while the other country has 42 million people. That's quite the disparity.
What a bizarre set up but not if you don't know any other.
This is the new normal going forward. The States winning all the Stanley Cups and World series, 100% of them.
If Canada had a population approximating that of the States, it'd be one thing. But the thing is, England is located on a small island which in its nature can only have a certain amount of people, and Canada is a colony of it so while England has 56 million people, Canada has 42 million people and Australia has 27 million people even though Canada and Australia are way way larger than England. We want you to be more successful but not more successful or populous than us. It's a bizarre set up that in a country as large as Canada with comparatively so few people that people are paying a lot to live in overpriced shoeboxes. It's the old British Boer War concentration camp set up.
The States doesn't suffer under such population privations that Canada and Australia does.
The States has a better population because the States has better weather. The weather in Canada is the sh*ts. It's way too cold for most of the year, anxiety attack producing hypothalamus stimulating and not in a good way cold cold weather. It's awful The ass end of North America. It would be more bizarre if in some weird parallel Universe, Canada not being a colony of England had 175 million people because of the weather, about the same population as Russia, again, because of the weather and the geopolitical land mass known as the States was a British colony with 28 million people, about the same as Australia and again, with about the same weather. But that's precisely how things would be because the British are very regimented and circumscribed.
And bizarre to because England has sh*t weather. London is at an unenviable 52 degrees North, same as Prince George BC, and Edinburgh is at an even more unenviable 55 degrees North, same as Dawson Creek BC and you know how sh*tty the weather is in those places, especially when compared to the United States.
Weird crackpot set up.
It's a rarefied island with a language that's only somewhat better than German otherwise it's Island living on an island with some kind of Napoleonic complex. Empire building, London funnel. It's some kind of weird Kafkaesque bizarre set up that's purely a product of the slow physics of this dimension and of a history of such over centuries.
England is island living. Penguin island. A small town on the mainland is a backwater. A small town on an island is a backwater on another level.
Living on the mainland is a rock show. Living on an island is in comparison, a sh*t-show.
Slim pickin's.
I'll be glad when I'm cross the finish line in the afterlife. Much of the strictures, the set ups of life are just tawdry and insufferable.
Canada is f*cked from England for the colonialism population suppression thing and Canada is f*cked from the States for losing 100% of World series and Stanley Cups to the States.
See, again, China and Russia doesn't have that problem. Countries in the West do. I feel sorry for Ukraine if it decides to side with the West rather than with Russia.
I would strongly advise any Chinese person from futuristic China to not move to backwater Canada. Don't do it. You're way better off where you are.
