Smurfs Village. Swoof Planet. Thursday, April 11, 2019
Last year, China sent a space craft to the Moon where they attempted to germinate a soy bean sprout. It died in less than a week? Is the moon known for growing plants? Would the moon be known for having arable land?
Easy Rider is 50 years old, but those old Twilight Zone black and white TV shows are almost 70 years old! At one time there were no TV shows that old. A 70 year old TV show in 1970 would've had to have been made in 1900. Was the year 1900 known for its plethora of television shows?
If I make a cartoon again I might have to do it without female inspiration as it might be awhile before I get that or I could always go to see strippers and get a $50 lap dance. That would be more or less the kind of inspiration I need. I would also not conflate two stories. I would only do the time machine story. The other story, if I did it people would think, what a freak, what a weirdo, why do a cartoon like that? And it wouldn't exactly be a priority for me to do weird cartoons of any kind. No one watches my cartoons any ways. The view count is not very much but my cartoons were always amateur hour anyways. No turning heads means amateur animation. The kind of look I always wanted to achieve has been done. Telltale Games, The Walking Dead app is the kind of animation I've been aiming for. Once that's there, what's the point of doing animation? My animation certainly wouldn't be as good as that.
The cartoon will be about the time machine. I was thinking of doing it in a minimalist style with most of the screen being white rather than a fully colored in screen. Do it or not. Who cares if I do it or not?
Recently, I watched a very spiritual movie called Click. A man gets a magic remote control that allows him to fast forward through his life. He winds up missing pretty much all of it. There is no gold at the end of the rainbow, just more of what there is now, is the moral of the story. He got sent into the future and came back today where he is now. After a space of watching Twilight Zone, I looked for movies, TV shows with the twist ending. All of M Night Shymalan's movies have a twist ending. Some are obvious like The 6th Sense. Others are subtle, like Signs. I hope to see all his movies. I didn't see the new SW trailer yet. SW is dead to me. George Lucas didn't mention anything about Finn and Rey in the 80s when he did Return of the Jedi. I'm about to watch the trailer now, as I write this. I'll tell you what I think of it. Don't hold your breath.
SW got the Sherlock Holmes treatment. Sir Arthur Conan Doyle died in 1930. But at least three Sherlock Holmes movies were made with stories not from Doyle's writings were made, Sherlock Holmes Baffled 1900, Sherlock Holmes 1922, and The Return of Sherlock Holmes 1929.
Before I watch the new sci find trailer, I wanted to talk about another movie I saw called Mandy. It is supposed to Nicholas Cage's best performance. All movies he did was his best performance. A great actor. Very spiritual. The drug that was depicted in that movie was Lsd but it looked more like PCP. "Lsd shows you the doorway. PCP takes you inside." PCP user
That movie was ghastly. Wretched. I'm surprised that Hollywood would expect the average mid brow person to see this after their after work beer at the pub. The type of criminals in this movie, I hope the Police find them and arrest them. I've seen worse movies but not many; Cannibal Holocaust comes to mind. Not even good for a once in a lifetime watch. Not recommended, in any way shape or form. Bottom of the barrel stuff, let alone third tier. How could such a movie even be legal? Except it's all ersatz, pretend.
The STAR WARS trailer was all right. Rey's gymnastics have improved. George Lucas didn't talk about Jar Jar Binks back in the 80s either. There's lots of things most people including George Lucas never mentioned in the 80s like Adderall or liquid MDMA. So what? The story changes and evolves over time as George Lucas himself has. Internet says Lucas helped write the script for episode 9. I'd give the movie a go when it's released in December. I'll be old then.
Disney made Never Cry Wolf which is one of my favourite movies of all time.
Before, when I thought of ending my life, I thought I would want to stay alive to see the next Star Wars movie. Now I'm at the point where I don't care if I die before the next star war movie is released. I just don't care anymore.
Life owes me nothing and I owe life nothing.
I think I'm doomed. My future will be just as boring as my past and present. Why would things change? Maybe I'm in the wrong town. Maybe it's me. Then like the John Cusack movie, I'm better off dead. Never die when you're healthy enough to travel. You have to save your money and go. When in a foreign country, if you want to stay, say that you have some fear of going back, even if it's fear of bad memories. A lot of countries would accept you.
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NASA took a photograph of a black hole spewing a mass of coronal mass ejections with solar prominences from the centrifugal/centripedal forces of the ever spinning black star or black hole. Black holes are probably centrifugal on the outside and centripedal on the inside. The star is first ripped apart by centrifugal forces in the accretion disc and then pulled inward by centripedal forces like breaking up food before digestion or a sink drain trash grinder grinding things up before the drain and gravity pulls it down. About a million suns worth. If a black hole swallowed many suns whole without breaking it up, the pressure would be too great and the black hole would explode. Maybe a black hole has a mind of its own. Or maybe it's like a Roomba wandering through the Universe picking up stray stars.
It looks more like an orange hole. Scientists say it's 55 light years away. How did they know that? Did they use a tape measure? Actually they used Doppler radar. It was named after Christian Doppler who observed as objects such as locomotives get louder as they get closer and softer as they get farther away. Receding stars have a red shift approaching stars have a blue shift. The Universe is mostly red shift which means that it is expanding.
An East Indian mathematician named Ramanujan figured out the algorithms of black holes. That's genius.
Disney did a movie called The Black Hole with Vincent and Maximillian the robots. I saw that in the theatre. It was 20,000 Leagues Under the Sea meets Buzz Light-year. The theme song remains a private ongoing intrusive and unwanted thought to this day. Geeky. Anyways, never stop being you.
Stephen Hawking said that if a person went through a black hole, they would look like a strand of spaghetti.
String theory. Black holes break stars into atomic nucleotides,even possibly subatomic nucleotides or strings. String theory the theory that atomic even subatomic particles have a tendency to form themselves into strings, lines. Subatomic strings can travel back and forth through time so much so that in hindsight ones life was only ever governed by what is now obvious as omens from the future.
A Black Hole is like a spinning wheel and the dying star that is being siphoned into it is like a spool of yarn. Black Holes draw Hawkingian spaghetti strings from stars into them. For nutrition.
To give you an idea how big the supermassive black hole is, if our sun was a dime next to the basketball of a giant star, a giant star is likewise a dime next to the basketball of a supermassive black hole.
Small - primordial black hole. Medium - stellar black hole. Large - supermassive black hole. The supermassive black hole at the center of our galaxy is called Sagittarius A.
More theory. Intelligence isn't dependent upon having something in ones head made of a certain spongy grey mass. Trees, planets, stars and black holes have intelligence so a black hole isn't just a Roomba that wanders aimlessly. A Black Hole plots a trajectory when it senses a certain critical mass is coming from some sector in the Galaxy. Black holes swallow suns before they reach supernova. If it weren't for Black Holes, there'd be ten thousand times as much supernovas as there are and that's be disastrous, devastating for a galaxy. A Black Hole senses a group of stars that would potentially go supernova, as one star going supernova would cause another and another to go supernova. A chain reaction. Black Holes prevent this disaster. Could the Bootes void be a black hole? No. It's many times larger than even the largest of black holes.
In cosmology, a black hole could be seen as an enemy or a friend. In Europe, the dragon is seen as an enemy. In Asia, it is seen as a friend. A Black Hole is a friend in the it prevents stars from going supernova, thus being a friend. Although it wouldn't seem so friendly if you were the one being drawn into it. The forces behind that would be so profound that one would be gone in a second with no time to perceive friendliness, unfriendliness or otherwise.
Black Holes are the interstellar policemen that send rogue miscreant stars that are about to go criminal supernova to the yard often just a few thousand years before it happens like Minority Report. A few thousand years is a blink of an eye to stars whose lifespan is measured in billions of years.
A Black Hole, in it's characteristically strange way, maybe it's acting on intelligence that it got, draws some stars towards it and pushes others away like how if one is doing something bad, they attract bad people and repel good people but if they are doing good, they attract good people into their life and repel bad people. A Black Hole is like that.
It's about stability. Stable stars have a strong enough core strength to hold it's own against the centrifugal outer forces of a black hole and are repelled or else sling-shotted away. This process takes a few million years. Stars that are about to go supernova have an inherent instability. Perhaps a star about to go supernova sends off signals like a wounded animal sends a certain signal to a shark. These signals of dying, compromise and instability are irresistible to any Black holes in the vicinity. Black holes feed on the ergs and joules and caloric output of stars, maybe not caloric output, but this is star energy gives black holes nutrition. But it has to be broken down first. Just as digestion breaks down food and separates the non-essentials from the energy giving vitamins and nutrients. Stars are broken down and black holes then are nutrified. What black holes are after is heat energy. Again, a theory.
A Black hole is not made of rock like a planet but has so much gravity. Einstein said the size of a planet has nothing to do with gravity but how much space time it bends around it. Pound per pound a square foot of Black Hole bends more space time than a square foot of a normal planet made of rock. A normal planet is like a basketball in the middle of a large graphed piece of cloth lying suspended horizontally. A Black hole would be a small but very heavy cannon ball in the middle of a large graphed piece of cloth suspended horizontally. Actually a planet isn't that efficient of a repository of gravity, when black holes are a lot better. Planets aren't even a good repository for a lot of water. In space there are vast oceans of water floating in space many times the size of planets. Oort cloud; space aquifer. These floating oceans form their own gravity and there may be Sea monsters living in these floating oceans. So spinning around, a Black Hole obviously has a zone of centrifugal force around it just as it has centripedal force within it.
These are just guesses. Theories. Just asking questions.
This a priority rather than a posteriori. I'll never look out of a window of a spaceship and personally see a Black Hole in operation at a safe distance, say half a light year away. A Black Hole is so big, even at that distance, you'd see something.
There is a zone, a hall around a black hole where the forces are simultaneously centrifugal and centripedal. This is the shred zone where stars are ripped apart making it easier to assimilate them into the black hole.
Event horizon is a fancy way of saying the center of a Black Hole. A large Black Hole evaporates a lot. The smaller a Black Hole, the hotter it gets. It's not evaporating so much. A large Black Hole is about 12 degrees Kelvin. A Black Hole the size of Neptune would still only be 144 Kelvin. A Black Hole at point of singularity, where it is the size of the head of a pin, ha ha, you would imagine would be pretty hot. It would have reached critical mass where it is expending more energy than it is dissipating.
Einstein rings are what galaxies tend to look like through the lens of a black hole, with the expected distortion of light that usually occurs.
Einstein-Rosen bridge is a fancy word for a bridge that forms when 2 black holes connect forming a wormhole.
Why is the Emperor laughing in episode 9? The Laughing Cow? La Vache Qui Rit? The Batman that laughs? The Laughing Emperor? He is probably not a zombie. If they could save Darth Maul after being cut in half and fallen down a well.... The Emperor was merely electrocuted and it was with his own electric charges. It would be interesting to see the Emperor return again.
STAR WARS is going on hiatus. Why not make it a permanent hiatus? I wouldn't mind. The law of diminishing returns. STAR WAR movies get worse and worse. But if they're still trawling out sequels of old hackneyed, dyed in the wool franchises like Star Trek and Wizard of Oz and Sherlock Holmes, might as well crank out more STAR WARS spin-off sprocket holes. Why not? Nothing better to do.
Just the same, if I were to die before the next stat wars movie is released, I absolutely wouldn't care at all as I don't think I'd be missing anything worth seeing.
YouTube has videos that say that the moon and Mars has pyramids, 3 of which align to form the 3 stars of Orion's belt. Orion is where zeta reticuli is, origin place of the grey aliens. Other planets other moons have names, they're the name brands where's the sun and the moon are just referred to as that, having been relegated to the generic no-name aisle.
My life is going nowhere. I'm in the wrong country, let alone town. When you're in the right town, right country, all things will happen for you. When you're in the wrong town, wrong country, nothing will happen for you. Why not just give up on life altogether? Another 30 years. Why not cut out the middle man and end it now? I saw a video, title: Today You Die. When I saw that, I thought, "Bring it on. My life is going nowhere anyways. It'd soon be gotten over with and I'd be in a better dimension with a better set of physics." Bafflingly, I saw that video a few days ago, yet I'm still alive today.
I would not recommend that you read the following. The blog has degenerated into a morass of negativity. Stream of thought. I give up on life. In the old days this would be written in a private journal.
Today is Sunday. I don't go to Church although when I went there, often I felt these good vibes that were intense, and stays usually til 7 pm although sometimes the feelings go on til about 1 am. The less you go, the less you got to go. The less you go, the better. It's more casual in the big cities. The big cities, you go to a Church, meet a woman, for me I prefer older women, and within a few weeks you get a chance to go to her place and get it on. In small towns you could go for years and still be in the friend zone with all of them. I'd rather be dead 💀 than to go through something like that. I'm in the wrong town again. Maybe I'll never find the right town until I'm in the afterlife. And my wretched telepathic history saturated with weird shit intrusive and unwanted thoughts. That's because I'm still grappling with the ghastly wretched physics of this dimension. "Physical conditioning is quickly shrugged off in the second state." Robert Monroe
And then imagine the indignity of a backwater cracker cult, Church what's the difference, in some cracker backwater that wants to come opt you. They sense your special energy so you become a real battery for those vampires, "Convert, convert, convert."
Church sermons is just more crackety crack crack from some crackton crackerville cracker jack.
If your on welfare, go to the welfare church, don't make the mistake of going to a middle class church. You'll score with women at a welfare church. You'll get nowhere in a middle class church. If you're middle class, don't go to an upper class church. Waste of time, non-starter. Go to a middle class Church.
In the old days, in the 50s, these things were always done according to class. La plus ca change, la plus ca meme chose. The more things change, the more they stay the same.
Small towns, every body knows every body's business, it's the shits, it's the cans, cat's ass. A Church in a big city is better. More informal, more spontaneous. However, I'm operating on a different dynamic, I'm at a point in my life where I've given up hope. I've given up on life. Life has lost all it's magic for me. What, Did I not mention it lots before, to prove how serious I am about this?
Churches are mainly crackers, while I'm a chink. Chinky Churches, well I never speak the language. From going to never hearing or speaking the language to hearing it for hours on end. No thanks. Betwixt the two extremes, never the Twain shall meet. Therefore, I'd like to get some heroin and overdose and end my life like Janis Joplin did. If you think I'm bluffing, why don't you send me 4 papers of heroin, that is diacetyl morphine, and then we'll find out together how much I'm bluffing.
And now to a decidedly less ecumenical topic, The downtown Eastside of Vancouver is like Pinocchio's wonderland; that amusement park that turns people into donkeys. In that neighbourhood, you don't look for heroin. Heroin looks for you. "Up, down, rock, powder." "Uptown? Downtown?" A neighbourhood like that would be a boon for those thinking of ending a useless life. Nothing I do works out. My cartoons, blogs. Low view count and no comments or barely any. And worse, there's no way to win. Too many comments, annoying. Good comments, bad comments, who is this person, someone from the past? What's their ulterior motive? Another jealous thief just seeing what secrets they could steal. I have to move back to Vancouver. But only for a short time. Either I will travel on to the Kingdom of Thailand or else London, United Kingdom or else I'd rather just die of a heroin overdose. My poem? Suicide baby, that's the way to do it, get some heroin and get down to it. That poem could win me the $100,000 prize for Canadian poetry. In the States or England, it'd be a million dollar prize.
"Write about whatever is on your mind. Write about your feelings." Madamoiselle Paradis
Heaven and hell have the same afterlife physics. In either realm you can teleport, communicate through telepathy, don't have to sleep, don't have to eat, never die. However in heaven, one would look permanently young or perma-young. In hell, they'd look perma-old. The drugs and the music would be better in hell. In heaven you get weed. In hell, you get PCP and Molly. Music in heaven: Harmonious melodies. Music in hell: Thrash metal.
"PCP is the only drug I would never do again." Hunter S Thompson
Three blind mice. See how they run. Yesterday, I borrowed two movies from the library, All I See Is You, and Madamoiselle Paradis. Then at the pawn store I bought The Village from M Night Shyamalan. All those movies, which I didn't know before watching them, features a blind woman as the main character. Well I did know about All I See Is You. I saw the trailer, did an internet search of it. So it's one I wanted to see for awhile.
Smurfs Village. The island.
A nine year old girl committed suicide. I tried to commit suicide at that age and failed. Too bad. I had a feeling my life was going to go nowhere and I was right. She may arguably be better off dead. She probably had a sense her life was going nowhere, being in a land where she is a visible minority and not in land where she's one of the majority, her family co-opted to move to some sterilized Western shithole backwater. Her life was probably going to go nowhere like millions of other people's lives including mine has. Where would a life like that have gone? I admire her for what she did. To me, she is a hero. She "did the right thing". I'd like to "do the right thing" as well. She is probably better off where she is. I wish I ended my life when she did. Looking back, my life was useless and a complete waste of time. I'm not glad that I lived all these years to get to this age.
I would never advise anyone to commit suicide. However, I would never advise anyone against it either, including myself.
"Sometimes, dead is better." Pet Sematary
What does Islam teach about suicide? Would they say, we wouldn't blame you. If our life was as fucked up as yours we'd probably do it too? I doubt it. But what they'd say exactly, I don't know. It's known as a very spiritual tradition.
Books have advised against writing ghosts a letter but if I could write her a letter, I'd say, "You're in a different dimension now with a different set of physics such as telepathy with the way you may be hearing my thoughts to you now. You're arguably no worse off than you were in life. Your life, had you lived could have gone nowhere such as my life has. I often wish I died years ago as my life never really worked out. Forget this life and move on. A life that doesn't work out is worse than no life at all. The ideal is that your life is going to go somewhere, but the reality is statistically speaking, your life most likely would have gone nowhere like millions of other people's including mine has."
To anyone else in such a position I would write, "Although suicide is an option, I suppose you must do a thousand, a million things first before doing that. There are always other options. There is travel. You're only legally required to go to high school until you're 16. Then you can drop out. At 16, you can join the merchant Marines. Things will not get better. Things will not get worse. They will merely change. It is a long road that has no turning. Hang in there and wait for your ticket out of town, if you're feeling that bad. Me personally, I like the town I'm living in and have no thoughts of leaving now."
My friend who was into metaphysics said that money is the key to power in this dimension. I should have said, "That's only relevant as long as I'm alive. If I end my life, that'd be no longer relevant. I give up on life."
Lament for that I found two matching books, Danielle Steele's Malice. They were yellow books with a white spider web on each book. Yellow and white. Good luck colours. Angelic. But the title was Malice. I don't know if that's the worst title for a book but I also don't know if it's the best title. So I threw them away. But maybe they were good luck. Yellow and white. But the title Malice. I'm torn. Oh well, I threw the books away. Nothing to be done about it. Most people wouldn't care a pin about things like that. So why should I?
I'll try not to be so depressed in the future. I'm actually not all that depressed. Freudian death drive. I form complete sentences and I'm not doing extreme sports or doing any extreme drugs. People like that might be suicidal in deed if not in word.
Middle Earth Shadow of War on Android apps is shutting down. In app purchases are disabled and the game is not available for download on Google play starting April 16. On June 6, the game is being removed completely. No more training orders.
Actually I am in deep mourning and lament for the closing of this video game. I was going to get another 30 day gem package. This video game replaced Shadow of Mordor where the hoobbits Bilbo and Frodo were playable characters as they aren't in Shadow of War. I'm thinking one that combines hack and slash pvp with world building like Smurfs Village. There may even be farming in the new modality or iteration of it.
At the clinic, the doctor said, "That's your modality. Low sperm motility."
This is a ripple effect or cosmic response to the loss of the spire at Notre Dame Cathedral and the fire that was there in general. It shut down right on the day of the fire, April 16. Tolkien was Catholic, and a lot of French motifs were were used in The Lord of the Rings.
Swoof Planet. Saturn and Uranus. Wednesday, April 17
Notre Dame Cathedral burned, but it will be restored in a few years. That is a historic iconic building. Jungian archetypal. I never claimed to be the most spiritual or even very spiritual. It goes without saying that the Priests at the Church are more spiritual than I am. I would like to travel to Europe one day. Who knows? Life is full of surprises.
Police report: I hope the Police read this. That's the ideal anyways, whether or not that will turn out to be the reality... Twice in the last week, as I was crossing the street, I walked sidelong on the road towards the sidewalk. Twice a car pulled up behind me and honked. I was walking in a parking space they wanted to park in. Fucking crazy crackers. Where did they get their drivers license? The pedestrian has the right of way. One doesn't accelerate towards a pedestrian. Although crackers belong to the race that invented cars, very few crackers actually know a car works.
They couldn't tell the difference between a solenoid and a battery cell. That cracker couldn't wait a couple of seconds? That honking of the horn was the psychodrama of an ignorant cracker. When they did that, I turn around a did a martial arts display in front of them. If they wanted to fight me, I'd be ready. I don't know what I would do during a fight but it is times like that that medical trivia, things I learned in the Dreamworld suddenly pop up and that makes a difference in fight. I know tradecraft. So if those ignorant crackers who probably got their drivers license from some godforsaken cracker ethnic White slum from somewhere in 2nd world continental where the English language and driving cars properly isn't exactly a priority. They probably come from White ethnicity countries where the road is still shared with donkey carts. How common is road rage? The Police are welcome to question me anytime regarding this. I would only do a martial arts display and walk away. I never talked to them let alone attacked them but for those couple of minutes, I was mad.
I doubt that's the last time I would ever do that. Again, road rage.
There is more of a phonetic difference between Mandarin and Cantonese. So much so that they can't understand one another. Yet the Chinese think of these as dialects of each other. The Chinese are cohesive in that way.
There is less of a phonetic difference between German and Swiss. The Schengen group and the Latin and other groups of languages in Europe. That's because the cracker is culturally prone to adversarial anomalies, adversarial bullshit because of the staunch hubris level of individuality that's the hallmark of cracker culture. Yet Japanese is just as different phonetically to Cantonese as Mandarin is and Japanese and Cantonese are referred to as different languages. And high German is just as similar phonetically to low German as Swiss is, but high German and low German are referred to as different dialects. That Android in Alien Covenant was all about deconstructing languages.
Anyways, that's why they lash out and act out, honking the horn of their goddamned motherfucking car when they see someone walk in a space they want to park at. They simply can't wait two seconds. If, and that's if one of those crackers approach me, I have the end game of stomping their face on the ground and then walking away dispassionately. Just another fucking stupid cracker. Who cares?
Even the Brits. Thirty years ago, they were known for having the worst teeth and the worst cooking in Europe. They couldn't get Brexit right without now delaying it to what. Halloween? Is this for real? What a fucking joke. That poetically underscores the picaresque, picayune nature of that whole sordid fucking bullshit.
And you expect people like that to drive cars well? A lot of Chinese can write Chinese and English well. A lot of crackers couldn't write a letter in the one language they know without multiple spelling errors. Why would you expect someone like that to all of a sudden have profound driving skills?
It's only White people whom I don't like that I refer to as crackers. The ones I really like I would think of as angels and saints and geniuses.
I can see White people starting up a fund and pooling up money, a few dollars here and there for The Send Dean Noble Back To Asia fund. Anyone who is that philosophically dissipated and that mentally excoriated with White culture, ought to be sent back to Asia. Even though all Asian Oriental countries is a watered down version of China. Most people couldn't tell the difference between Oriental countries anyways, just like most people couldn't tell the difference between ponzu sauce and panko breading. I would opt to go to Thailand. I never felt as loved as I did in Thailand. That is the place where I am sure that I am 100% loved.
I recently asked someone, "Are you going to kill me, because if you are, in my case, it'd be a boon. My life is going nowhere." Maybe the Whites would opt to kill me. Why didn't they do it years ago? If they're going to do it, why don't they instead send me 4 papers of heroin aka 4 flaps of down, and I'd save them the trouble. Why trade a larger window of time for a smaller window of time. Even then, clearly my life was going nowhere. My YouTube account is dead. No comments, no subscribers, no view count, or hardly any next to the super stars of YouTube. Come to think of it, no one in my town has as big a view count as one of the Los Angeles or New York, or London based YouTube accounts. If it were so easy to make money on YouTube, most people you know at any given job would've quit. Why work 8 hours a day for x amount of money when you can work for 20 minutes a day making a YouTube video and make 100x or even 1,000x the amount of money? Yeah, right! Stars have the same mysterious vectors that the rest of us don't have that they always had, even during the 50s. Tracey Morgan said in the Twilight Zone, if you want to be famous, you have to give the audience something of yourself, something you will, at that point, no longer have. A lot of YouTube stars are single and unmarried. YouTube sure changed the center of gravity of their life. If YouTube wasn't in the picture, maybe iJustine would have been married by now instead of writing cryptic sentences in her autobiography like, "People think I'm a closet lesbian." Who the hell would think that? I would never think that. She is obviously straight. That gives you an idea of how much YouTube has destabilized her. She does product endorsements, with all it's attendant evils of contracts and deadlines. Where would she find the time to get married, have children, etc.
The American YouTube uploader would have a higher average view count, subscribers, comments etc than the Canadian average YouTube uploader. YT uploaders from big cities have a higher average than YT uploaders from small towns. There is a science to it.
Me and the Asians in this town are very different. First of all I never speak the language even though I could do it quite well. I always thought that metaphysically, if you're speaking Asian in Canada, you are neither in Asian nor in Canada. Another startling difference is that a lot of them have as much as a million in the bank and are planning to and would stay here indefinitely, even decades into the future. Me? Even if I had $3,000, I would move back to Asia and never come back. Thailand. If things don't work for me in Thailand, I could always go to Chiang Rai, the Golden Triangle and score some heroin and overdose. I would give up on life then. But chances are slim that they won't work out for me in Thailand, there is a certain bureaucratic informality and cultural spontaneity there. I always thought they might think the same of Canada. The grass is always greener on the other side.
My Samsung 4K Blu Ray player is playing a Blu Ray! And one I borrowed from the Library. 12 Monkeys. A television series about time travel. What a miracle! Formerly, it would abjectly refuse to play Blu rays, only DVDs. Next week, I'm plopping down $150 for a Sony 4k upscaling Blu Ray player. A genuine 4k player costs $300 minimum, new. The Sony brand is very durable. My Sony Blu Ray player lasted 3 years before it conked out, and refused to play Blu rays, only DVDs. The Sony upscaling player will not play 4K discs, only regular Blu rays, but it will do PlayStation 2 games. I'm not into PlayStation but there is still a market for it. None of the stores that sell PlayStation and Xbox games and consoles have closed down despite the emergence of tablets. Tablets have ads and in app purchases, none of which XBox, etc has.
Brexit's latest casualty. Journalist Lyra McKee was killed in Northern Ireland in an IRA incited incident. RIP Another Veronica Guerin who was another Irish reporter reporting on crime killed by Irish drug lords in 1996. The internet said a No-Deal Brexit would certainly mean a return to hard borders in Ireland. No wonder people in Ireland are worried. Lyra McKee is the most famous journalist who was killed since Jamal Khashoggi.
Am I going to 420 tomorrow? Hell no. Not in a town where I would say that if I had even $5,000, I would immediately leave and never come back. I'd move to Thailand. And it's not like I'm legally required to go there.
Would it make a difference in me finding a new girlfriend? Absolutely not. I already adjudicated that any social situations in this town are completely hopeless and useless. This town's society is not something that I believe in. Fishbowl existence. Speaking from experience, this town mainly disappoints. The ideal: I meet a lady, just like in the movies. The reality: I don't meet any ladies and leave alone, time and time again. So I've already written it off as a waste of time. Nothing really good ever happened for me at any festivals in this town. Just the usual same old tawdry turgid bullshit. In spite of that, I have a few women on the line! But it's not as cut and dried as that. Who, specifically and for what amount of time? If you choose one, you indirectly are rejecting others. I'm not sure that I want to get married and have children. I don't know if I ever did. Instead of living the next 30 years, why not I just drop dead soon, and thus cut out the middle-man. I don't want to lose, sure. But I don't want to win, either. What does that mean? Marriage? Children? Was that ever a priority for me? And through what vector? Certainly not on any financial vector that I could conjure up. I'm a spend thrift. It's better to make $10,000 a year and save 15% than to make $100,000 a year and save 0%.
Single = cool, free. Married with children = square, trap.
Even if I had the money to do it with money to spare, I still wouldn't want to be a father and raise a family with children. Too much work and too much hassle. It would be the shits. I'd sooner opt to die of a heroin overdose than to do that.
No one would care if I decide to skip 420. Heck, even if I were to drop dead, they wouldn't care. Also, I would just as soon die of a heroin overdose than to go to 420. 420 seems repellant and unsavory to me.
Any 420 this backwater town could conjure up would only wind up being a watered down version of the 420 in Vancouver, anyways. Cypress Hill is playing at Vancouver. What would this town have as an answer to that? A ghetto-blaster, some food trucks and a few porta-potties?
420 is over-rated hype. I like marijuana, but as for marijuana culture, I could take it or leave it. What passes for marijuana culture is just more weird market-driven stylized bullshit.
I'd like to go to Asia or Europe for the unfamiliarity, for the adventure. North America is an anomaly. All civilized countries have had a female President or Prime Minister or Queen, Empress who was elected and not just appointed. Russia had Catherine the Great but in the time of Canada's life so far let alone the States, most countries have had a female leader. Britain has had two Queens and two female Prime Ministers since Canada's inception. China had one. Thailand had a female Prime Minister. Canada had one appointed but not elected female PM. The States never had a female President. Imbalanced. Baffling. I would leave North America if I could. God knows that. Everybody in this town hates me anyways. Could you blame them? I couldn't. I'm not proud of this article at all. I'd be willing to just give up on life rather than to have such thoughts. I hate being in a dimension where because of limitations in it's physics that things like racism, prejudice based on bullshit imagination can happen. Racism makes anyone's imagination twisted. It's healthier to write about any strange thoughts, if people read it, their thoughts can send out a counter thought like noise cancelling headphones. I'll delete all this one of these days. Garbage! Finished! Wasted potential. Squandered imagination.
I've read too much of Carl Jung and his idea of archetypes and I've had too much scientific training to be a racist. People of different races can donate blood, organs, have viable offspring, etc. DNA. So much so a lot of people say they are comprised of quite a few races! Heinz 57s. People of different races have more in common than they have differences. Racism is also a product of the culture that springs from the non-teleportational, non-telepathic, non-holographic set of physics of this dimension.
I'm not a racist. I'm a writer who likes to use different words to describe things and to get into details.
If movies were written articles, this article would be like Cannibal Holocaust. This is the worst article I've ever written. The basest instinct is to blame others for your problems. As a species humanity has to grow up. Including me. Like I said before, if you want to kill me, send me 4 papers of heroin and I'll save you the trouble. Deliver it to Yours Truly, General Post, This town, This country. I should get it before the shelf life expires.
