Swoof planet with 3 pyramids representing the 3 stars in the belt of Orion. Also my favourite planets, Earth, Saturn and Uranus. I did a cartoon about Uranus once. I doubt anyone saw it. My cartoons are strictly amateur hour. A fortune cookie said, You create your own stage and your audience is waiting. I doubt it. I wrecked my life. Or else my life is a wreck. I do have a girlfriend who is very sweet. She's the only thing that makes me stay in this town. I have a strange way of showing it but I do like this town despite my complaints. Maybe to say, this town is the best place on Earth sounds smug, smarmy, unrealistic, idealistic. The reality is that all towns have their unique struggles and like Stephen King once wrote, common struggles bring a town together, unites them. Ennui is an ongoing problem in any town. It's the boredom that creates the trauma.
Smurfs Village. Airport. Sunday, April 21, 2019
I fixed my fan. It wouldn't work. I thought of throwing it away and getting a new one. $$. I fixed it using canned air from a computer shop. I took it apart and stripped it down to the motor. It blew about half a pound of dust and dust bunnies from the fan motor. After that, it worked well again.
The solenoid on y fan is gone. To start it, I set it to 1 and then spin it a few times to prime it, then contact, exactly like a world War one propellor plane.
I won't have to get a new Blu Ray player. After taking my 2 Blu Ray players and spraying them with the canned air, they seem to work fine now. All Blu Ray discs work now. As maintenance, taking apart electronics and spraying it often works.
I'm going to get the Teledyne water flosser and the Giorgio Beverly Hills cologne even though last month, I got a two pack of axe body spray cologne for the special price of $2.99 at WalMart. Not a bad price. Giorgio has that sweet smell and a mysterious rich aroma that hints of wealth even for those who don't actually have any wealth to speak of. For $50 a bottle, with Giorgio Beverly Hills cologne, you can smell like you're a rich man.
Together, they cost less combined than the Blu Ray player does.
One day, I hope to get on a platform where I get comments. This blog is dead. Maybe I disabled the comments. I heard one YouTube star say that they get told to kill themselves ten times a day. And some YouTube comments are beneath deplorable. Quantity isn't quality when it comes to comments. Google has always been fair. It's a delayed view count. In the first few weeks, months, the view count is low. One time, I saw one of my videos has tens of thousands of views. That a lot more than I ever thought it would have.
Instead of the marriage and family thing, what about I offer another vision for myself? Me in southeast Asia, and visiting whorehouses. 'Bangkok After Midnight, A Hundred Months, A Thousand Whores'. One day, YouTube will find a way to pay me for my cartoons, or someone will. Although the idea is more of an archetype, one day Hollywood will approach me for the rights to do a Tracy Thorn movie with Gina Carano as Tracy Thorn. Also, I will work for STAR WARS one day.
If a woman tells you that she's pregnant with your child, would you opt to say, A: That's great. B: oh no, that's awful. Or C: What makes you think it's mine? I would opt to go with C. Especially before the 50s when DNA was discovered. No man could be sure. Then that of course would lead to Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned. If that's the case, why don't I overdose and find out? Maybe I'd say that as bad as it is, it isn't as bad as I thought it'd be. At least I'm not back on Earth facing a woman's scorned. Here I'm alone walking through broken down sections of the city with no electricity, otherwise incinerated landscapes.
It's all a trap. A lady in a Chinese movie said, "Play it out. It's a game. Let's see if you could play it out to the point of marriage and children."
Marri-cage. Marriage is a cage.
Men are lazy. Unless women dolled themselves up, men wouldn't be as interested. For men, sex is work. Gilda Radner said on SNL that a woman could do it lying down motionless. Men have to exert the torque. Men think women are beautiful. I don't know how women could think that men are appealing. A lady on television said she loved being pregnant. I don't know how any woman could think that. I would think it'd be a hassle. Stressful. Cuts into television watching time. Painful. I could see a father saying to their son, "The words your mother said just before you were conceived was, "Hurry up and get it over with, Wheel of Fortune's on in five minutes."
Trivia overload. Is that a good reason to commit suicide? There is a YouTube Channel called It's OK To Be Smart. Trivia is only a set of trivia as no one can know all things. Bradley Cooper, Limitless. A person can read something quickly one day, and remember it decades later. The human species whatever race has always been very smart for a long time. In ancient times they built the pyramids. The blocks on the pyramid are one thing but the foundation stones under the pyramid are a hundred times that size! How did they move and shape single slabs of stone that size?
But what if it's trivia that doesn't get you anywhere? All that trivia and still a wino down at the bowery. From the borstal to the bowery. The arc of life.
The News said some yellow shirts in France told Police to kill themselves. Now that is awful. Anyone who tells the Police to kill themselves ought to do society a favour and do the Police department a favour and do likewise. I hope that no Police Officer does anything rash to themselves, ever. Far from it for me to say, I think the Police can request a transfer to another detachment.
Lots of stories on the News. After I heard these stories, I think I want to kill them myself. One story about a family of chained up children. I'd kill those cracker parents myself with a samurai sword. However they are in the hands of people more equipped and capable of dealing with such things. It's being handled. I think that if I or most people heard the stories of nearly all the people in supermax, I'd probably want to kill them too. Yet they're still alive. Often prisoners may do penance for what they did through taking part in experiments. Send them to other planets in the solar system as guinea pig explorers. Often, prisoners are suggested to volunteer as test subjects for new drugs and pharmaceutical medicines.
Looks like I'll have to get the new Blu Ray player after all.
On again, off again, on again. I was advised to wet the brushes on the special disc cleaner disc with isopropyl which I did. It worked. Usually a Blu Ray would freeze half way if it worked at all. Last night, it was played again and and with no freezes, no skips. I used a paper towel to wet the brushes. One could use a Q-tip or a paint brush instead. A Q-tip would've been better.
Interstellar. That disc will absolutely freeze in the middle of different scenes. That disc is weird. It does a weird extended preemptory dance. Blu Ray discs can hold 25Gb of information but most use about 12 at most. A DVD uses about 3Gb of data. Interstellar, that disc has about 22Gb of information on it including subtitles, special features, etc. That disc is iffy even on machines that will play every other disc fine.
Maybe it's the disc itself. Some weird occlusion not apparent. If I air spray cleaned the motherboard, did an update, cleaned the lens with disc cleaner with liquid, and it plays all other discs smokingly even repetitively, a few times in a row, no skips or freezes, then it must be the disc itself.
Smurfs Village. Island, not Granville. Monday, April 22. I got the karate dojo and the samurai hut for that Japanese look. The beach is heaven on Earth. Beaches in the Dreamworld is Earth in heaven.
Smurfs Village. The Grove. April 22. The teleporter teleports to the Grove, as of now, a work in progress.
Swoof planet. Earth, Venus, Saturn, Uranus with the 98 degree axis tilt.
Planet Swoof. Smurfs Village.
The mountain. Smurfs Village. So many worlds in Smurfs Village. Im waiting to get Handy's time machine which is the most mind blowing of all. It goes to the past and future.
Chessboard on planet swoof. Tuesday, April 23, 2019
There is a separate grid for the defeated pieces once again in battle formation to signify that even after death, the battle goes on but in different and expanded parameters. In this variation, all 96 squares of this board are used.
Smurfs Village. The Grove. Tuesday, April 23, 2019. This is one of the last days to get Police Smurf in the Grove. I got two.
Wednesday, April 24, 2019
A local political disclosed that he was sexually abused when he was 10 years old. He also said that the person who abused him is no longer living. Yeah, that's because he probably killed him or arranged to have him killed! Politicians can do that. It can be arranged. Politicians are known for being very Machiavellian. Despite that, he was otherwise able to go on through life presumably scoring with babes but not only that, rising through the heightened stratas of National politics. While there are other people who never got abused, but never scored with babes and not only that, is locked up in prison for some past egregious indiscretion. So it goes that having been abused is no guarantee of failure, and not having been abused is no guarantee of success in life.
The politician had to overcome personal challenges of being a member of a visible minority, wearing a turban all the time, and now erstwhile sexual abuse thrown into the mix. In baseball, that's known as a triple play. That's quite the juggling act. And he was to do it successfully. While again, there are people who are White, wear no turbans, were never abused, but now, not only are they not a politician, they're locked up in stir. Trading Places.
Now I myself was never sexually abused when I was a child. However I'm on welfare and not only am I not a politician, I don't now if I am all that successful to speak of. I guess I'm somewhat successful. In a lot of ways, I'm more successful than I ever thought I would be.
I wouldn't try to imitate the politician and wonder that had I been abused, maybe I'd be a politician today like him. But that would be a false syllogism. Besides, not many non-politicians can be like a politician. They're difficult acts to follow.
Racism is a kind of Evo trip based not so much on the notion of, "I am part of this race, therefore the race is great." as much as it is, "This race is a part of me, therefore the race is great!"
There is someone who is targetting female real estate agents. He would demand to meet them alone and get mad if they refuse. This sounds like a real creep. A lot of people think vengeance and "All You Need Is Kill" at the drop of a hat. A lot of people hearing that story on the News want to kill that guy. Someone needs to tune this guy out. Give me two samurai swords and two Glock 9mms. I'll do it! If I was the Prime Minister, I would say, "Execution!" I wonder if this is connected to Lindsey Buziak. That case was never solved or else maybe it was solved "out of court". Blade Runners. No court, no trial, no jail. I could imagine some perp chooses this as his M.O. since this offers privacy, seclusion, perfect crime of opportunity. Rape the real estate agent, kill her, take whatever's on her, money, bank cards, any cell phones, steal whatever's in the house that's hockable. What a shit. Real estate agents should be like Jehovah's Witnesses or Mormons. Always be there in twos. Never just one person. That other person should bring a gun aka The Negotiator. Any problems, talk to the Negotiator.
Sit with the gun on top of the staircase in the house that leads to the second floor, if any, or near a second Street window or even on top of a fridge. Or have a gun-man outide the house at a slight distance, lying on the ground on his stomach, aiming the gun towards the house and not away from the house. Get the drop on him!
Not so much in Canada, but in the States a lot of real estate agents are packin' heat. Especially real estate agents selling properties in drugged slum sections of town. A Black Samuel L Jackson, Shaft kind of real estate agent. Pimp, Mack daddy real estate agent.
Maybe in the past, he felt that a female real estate agent ripped him off somehow in some realestate deal and he wants revenge.
Watch the movie, The Big Short. It's called shorting the market. Housing shorts aka bespoke tranche opportunities. As real estate agents are well aware of this and play both ends against the middle, whether the house price appreciates or depreciates, either way, what do they care? They get a cut. The guy probably knows this and is paranoid the real estate agent ripped him off. Well, no more or less than they rip anyone else off which is not at all. Real estate agents have reputations to uphold. Otherwise they get listed in the better business bureau.
The Philippines said that they were going to declare war on Canada. A formal declaration of war is usually done at the United Nations. More bellicose blustering. If there is going to be a war, what form would it take? Presumably the States and Canada have a military treaty so any country that attacks Canada is also attacking the States, and England, and France. I'm sure they'd get into it! The US military is a very very very tough nut to crack. If there is going to be a war, as Canadians we should take up arms. The government should dispense emergency supplies of heroin as standard issue for the war. In case of capture, overdose on the spot to avoid torture, etc. The Philipines would probably invade via the vector of Western Canada, as logistics would prove. However, there are probably more Pinoy in Toronto alone than in the rest of Ontario and all of the Province of British Columbia put together. TO is North Americas fifth largest city.
Just because the Philippines is an archipelago of seven thousand something islands, it doesn't mean that it's OK for Canada to dump garbage there. Canada's been doing it for 40 years. That's the way the President of the Philippines talks. A few weeks ago, he characteristically declared war on the States. "Mr. Obama, you can go to hell!" I kind of knew he was riding us. He smirked slightly when he said it and even the rather large heavy set man sitting next to his right laughed a little when he said that.
There's an organization called 4ocean. They clean oceans of garbage and if you get one of their bracelets, made from recycled plastic that they fished from the ocean, that will clean up one pound of garbage floating in the Pacific garbage gyre. Maybe Canada could contract them out to clean the garbage. Make a donation big enough to clean tons of garbage.
Jeopardys James Holzhauer = Charles Van Doren Quiz Show? The odds that he's cheating is directly proportional to the number of questions he gets right. Not inversely proportional. The more questions gotten right, the more the chances that the fix is in! PR stunt. Ratings grab.
I play trivia games on my app, but never have I gotten two hundred questions in a row right!
Slumdog Millionaire or general knowledge wallah?
Shaw Cable jerked me around. I paid $14 for 3 extra channels. Channel 33 CNN, 35 BBC, and 47 AMC. The lady at Shaw Cable said I'd get the channels right away. I didn't get them. Also, I used to be able to pay my bills using the computer kiosk terminal right at the cable store. Then some months ago, I was unable to use the computer. I asked someone at Shaw Cable why. Apparently, because I was an older account. That makes no sense whatsoever. That's not my problem, that's their problem. I've been there longer so to thank me for that, I can't use the computer? What did I do wrong? Did I do something wrong to not be able to use the computer? That's shoddy, defective, incompetent. Yesterday, as today is Thursday, April 25, 2019. At McDonalds, I ordered something. Then my number disappeared right off the board without my number or order being called. I asked an employee who works there why. Employee said because the coffee came up first but the food hadn't come up yet. Again, an answer that makes no sense whatsoever. What did I do wrong? I come from a big city. I have big city conditioning. So when I stay in these backwater towns and their residents with their addled jerkwater sensibilities with their equally addled answers they give to questions because theres no accountability because there's no infrastructure. No real modern amenities. Just more jerkwater bullshit. Small towns are corrupt, avaricious, venal, because they know that you know that they know that there's nothing worth seeing or doing in that town so they steal all that they can from outsiders. That's when they're not beating each other down for the biggest share of the local scrap heap. There is a cautionary movie made in Thailand called The Macabre Case of Prompiram; 2003. It's the name of an actual town and I actually passed it, looking out the window of the train to Chiang Mai, I saw the sign of the name of the town. In that movie, a girl gets lost, waylaid and unenviably, winds up in some incidental shit hole called Phrom Phi Rom. The townspeople, multiple townspeople steal her things and rape her. The senior Policeman who was dispatched from Bangkok assigned to the case said to his junior partner, "Human nature is sometimes ugly." or something or rather about human nature. In Religilous when Bill Maher said, "Two angels showed up in town. And the townspeople wanted to rape them." When I heard that, I thought, 'That sounds like Phrom Phi Rom.' No one reads this blog anyways, about the usual parsimonious substandard deleterious and incompetent treatment I and no doubt others suffer from defective small town infrastructure or else what is supposed to pass as infrastructure.
RCMP means the Royal Canadian Mounted Police.
Would The Macabre Case of Prompiram be listed on the imdb? Yes. Anyways, I'm going back to Vancouver to move there and live there. Big city. I'm sure the computer kiosk at the Shaw Cable offices in Vancouver will work for me. Better than this small town. Jerkwater, backwater, local yokels, policy wonks, the usual small town substandard bullshit.
People in small towns like to get all gangsta when things go wrong as a way of covering things up. Yeah, that's the answer! When things go wrong, pretend to be all gangsta!
A cannabis shop in Kelowna got ripped off twice in a month all caught on camera. More Phrom Phi Rom shit. Ripoff thief assholes in some weird, sleazy mindless klepto frenzy. The owner was disgusted and said he was leaving that town.
Timeframe: I've been using the Shaw Cable in this town for 8 years. Up until 3 years ago, I was able to use the computer kiosk to pay my bill. I pay my bill on time, monthly, almost religiously, and this is what I get in return. I asked them a few times about it and always got nebulous and evasive answers and this is supposedly a tach company that's all gungho about their tech even to the point of ccranking out ads about it. So since im not able to use the computer, I have to wait in a line of people who are there waiting to talk about more time consuming things like setting up and taking down their cable services. I sometimes have to wait for an hour. All I want to do is pay my bill. Why can't the computer work for me?! I'm not waiting much longer to find out. I'm thinking of moving back to Vancouver in the next few months. It's not working out here.
To be fair, the people at Shaw are always unfailingly kind and friendly to me. They are downright sweet. This article is says more about my personality than theirs. The people who work there are exemplary. Trying to figure it out from that vector, it's probably a systemic computer glitch that happened to quite a few people, not just me. The front line employees aren't the hard core technicos so how would they know how to fix the systemic computer glitch? They were never legally required nor we're they ever morally required to provide customers with a computer kiosk which was always an extra thing to begin with. As for the 3 channels, there's probably an initialization period of up to 48 hours so the sweet lady at the Shaw Cable probably meant that it would start immediately, including the initialization period. A lot of small towns have their pet things that don't work, like the town pump in which you got to pump the handle a few extra times for it to work. That's part of the charm of a small town. The tourist guy, Rick Steeves who does those Christmases in Europe documentaries visits small towns and they can be friendly places. In my experience small towns have given me more things than they've taken from me. I got a lot of treasures when I was in Dawson Creek including finding a green Readers Digest or else Hallmark Cards Christmas book from England from the early 80s. It was like a book from heaven. It talked about early 80s bands like Naked Eyes, Promises Promises, the Eurythmics, etc. I found a glow in the dark alien which I think originally came with a plastic UFO. The thing is, I'm a complainer, a curmudgeon, my critical faculties go into overtime, and small towns and large cities alike in the past have suffered my presence. But would I be the only complainer in any town or just one of hundreds, if not thousands? Even that movie. What about all the people in that small town who had nothing to do with it or even those who stepped in to protect her? The ratio of people who did something to people who didn't is less than one in a hundred.
"It is my belief Watson, founded upon my experience that the lowest and vilest alley in London does not present a more dreadful record of sin that does the smiling and beautiful countryside." Sherlock Holmes, The Copper Beeches
If George Lucas had directed Prompiram, he might had merchandizing for that movie and one could collect action figures with likenesses of the actors and set up a diorama with the girl running away from the townspeople. Set up another diorama where the cops from Bangkok arrive on scene to investigate what happened at that village. LEGO sets?
Update: All resolved. Channel 33, 35, and 47 successfully installed on my computer. The computer thing is systemic and happened to a lot of people. It's OK. It's all good. There's a reason everything. On my way from the cablestore I dropped into WalMart. I got a kingly Director Krennic action figure. There were only 3 left. The thing is, I don't always go to the STAR WARS toy section.
STAR WARS force sensitive. That's called neuroplasticity. How one can teach themselves gymnastics, doing things they weren't doing a year ago. UBC. The geomagnetic vibes there and the memories there from decades past. Even listening to music and looking at the pictures, I can feel the vibes from a distance. So strong they are like a sweet kick to the stomach. That's a kind of force sensitive or neuroplasticity. Not everyone feels those vibes. Maybe that says something about me. Some people go to UBC and feel nothing. Maybe it's me. Everyone has within them a fountain that can emit good vibes. That fountain is sometimes blocked but with meditation, and as one gets older, the fountain gets unblocked.
I associate UBC, it's Golden era was in the early 80s. I saw Stripes at the UBC theatre so I always think of UBC and the early 80s and Stripes. Now, it's unrecognizable almost. Most of the old buildings are gone and there's a lot of new buildings there. I envision one billion years in the future when the sun is a red giant star, all the old buildings long gone. The sky is red with the red giant sun and the ground is a smouldering husk. Would the vibes still be there then? Probably, I'd say.
In the 80s, I would wear cologne in the summer, I would sweat and hours later when I got on the sky train, the cologne would have a sour smell. When I wear Axe spray cologne, hours later, the cologne smell wears down to nothing. No sour after smell. I ordered Giorgio Beverly Hills. It's coming down the pike. For me. Hopefully, like Axe, there is no sour after smell. Maybe they improved the formula since the 80s. Or Axe is a less expensive brand. Only the expensive brands have that smell.
Black stormtrooper helmet completely sold out online. However, I do have a white stormtrooper helmet already. I plan to get Prang brand tempera paint at $7 a bottle. Water soluble paint. Washes off with water. I want to get black and red so I can paint and repaint my stormtrooper helmet.
DC Injustice. I got it and one of the reasons was I was impressed with the Aquaman sequence. I've been playing this game for 7 months and Aquaman could not be bought for love or money. No sight or sound of Aquaman. 7 months and 1,000 battles all ground out. That's more than paying $100 for a DVD of some animation. I'm thinking of quitting it, but since I paid money, I'm into it for about 300 recharge credits which is enough for more than a thousand battles. Once that's depleted, if I don't get Aquaman, I'm quitting. I already got animated Harley Quinn, and soon I'll get Joker the killing joke. So far I got 50/60 credits needed. At this rate, two more weeks.
At any rate, all apps reach a point where the pay to play scale becomes apparent.
Life cycle of apps: install, play, pay to play, burnout, app fatigue, uninstall.
Life is like a job. Don't like it? Quit. Life is like college or University. At some point, just drop out. I've been thinking of dropping out of life. Why not? I got nothing better to do.
A hundred and fifty years ago, most people died before they were fifty.
A life that doesn't work is a life that's not worth living.
Let's talk about autism. Same prefix as in the word autocracy. Mental health is not only a National pastime, it's a National obsession. Most people aren't successful because of the weird system. It's a way of the rich blaming on the poor the problems they created. Like how after the wall street crash bank bailout of 2008, blamed on immigrants and the poor, as Michael Moore pointed out. You're not successful, that you're in the wrong country, that can't anything to do with it, you're unsuccessful because you're autistic. You're not successful, that real estate prices are going up 100x in the last thirty years while wages have risen 3x, that can't have anything to do with it, you're unsuccessful because you're autistic.
In a subtle way, it's a kind of projection. In Vancouver's case, a hockey team that never won a Stanley Cup, a wooden roller coaster from the 1920s while Toronto and Montreal have real roller coasters. Specifically, Toronto, Leviathan, Behemoth, Mighty Canadian Minebuster and Montreal, Le Monstre, Goliath, Super Manege, Cobra. Nope, nothing autistic about that.
In England's case Brexit, the penultimate example of government mismanagement. Nope, nothing autistic about that!
It's called projection. The government's autistic in many ways, their regulations create many otherwise avoidable problems for the populace, yet they make ads talking about the autism spectrum and the populace. That's projection.
Psychology Facts app: Coffee and tea have tannins. Drinking coffee or tea during a meal will half your nutritional intake while orange juice doubles it.
There isn't just one anger but levels of anger from mildly annoyed to apoplectic and livid with rage.
I think there are many levels of girlfriend, from a casual girlfriend, and a few levels above that to wife.
Herbessa was the name of my black, Abyssinian guinea pig who died in September 2000. That's 19 years ago, almost. I named her that because all Abyssinian guinea pigs have a beard, Herbessa's beard reminded me of Frank Herbert's beard. I got Herbessa in 1997 at the petstore at Kingsgate Mall on Kingsway in Vancouver. There is a company called Herbessa in Slovenia. My strange imagination made me think it was Donald Trump's wife, the First Lady's company and that they stole the name Herbessa from me, to make money. Or it was my old Chinese landlord. He knows about Herbessa. Maybe he set up a shell company, basically a front for some money laundering scam, and absconded with the name Herbessa. This is despite the fact that I've never heard him speak even one word of Slovenian. Not that I would know what that sounds like. He only ever spoke Chinese. That company also sells products called Herbesso and Herbessine.
Doing some research, it turns out that as early as 1833, John Lempriere's Classical Dictionary editor, Edmund Henry Barker, the town of Erbessa or Herbessa lay near Syracuse, one of the burroughs of Attica. As early as 1841, Charles Anthon in a dictionary of place names mentions the town of Herbessa near Syracuse, and the town of Erbessjs or Herbessa in Sicily.
Herbessa was like a daughter to me. I love her more than life itself.
Burger King. "Have it your way." If I had it my way, I would have died on the same day that Herbessa died. My life never went anywhere since then. Only strange towns, and delusions in the form of dreams, even Royal dreams. Delusional. My purpose for living died the same day that Herbessa died.
"There's a destiny that shapes our ends. Rough hewn as it may be." Hamlet
I've given up completely on Smurf's Magical Meadow. I wash my hands of the whole thing. Getting anything, smurfy items, their parsimonious land expansions, red acorns is like pulling hens teeth. Excruciating. Gruellingly difficult. Anything in life that is too difficult, I would give up on including life itself. If I would extend that to life itself, how much more would I extend it to a goddamned fucking video game app. At this point, I'd sooner die of a heroin overdose than to play Smurfs Magical Meadow ever again.
My will to live is 0%. I would gladly give up my life, that is, to lean into the strike zone and take one for the team if I saw Herbessa again and could be with her in the afterlife, I'd die right this second. In this town, there's a lot of people I'd be glad to see for the last time if I died. Women don't like me, but that's irrelevant since I've given up on life altogether. Since they're talking about decriminalizing heroin, that makes thing simpler. The only important thing is Herbessa.
If I'm alive, it's for reasons that got nothing at all to do with my will to live. In my case, what will to live?
How to leave Canada. That's if you're willing to do it. Get a passport. You need a guarantor and two references. Pay $150. Then go to WalMart and get a credit card. Go to a cheap travel agent. Get a one way ticket to where ever. Max out the credit card in the first month. If it's only a couple thousand credit card, they won't bother to send agents try to find me, not for $2,000, especially if I live in the bush, amongst the opium smoking hill tribes. In my case, it'd be Thailand. I wouldn't come back. If I'm thrown into immigration prison, then I'd try to find some heroin and then overdose. Heroin is more plentiful in prison anyways. I figure if life has done me a bad turn, then I should do life a bad turn.
It's a nice fantasy, however the idea isn't to focus on the advantages there and the disadvantages here, but vice versa. Those other places, sure, you got the unfamiliarity, travel adventure thing going, but not being a citizen of a country while there indefinitely isn't the greatest thing. The weather there will take some getting used to. How to derive an income. While trying to attain citizenship. Too difficult. Why not just give up on life altogether?
The advantages of here is I have citizenship, a source of income, good weather, wireless internet, 55' 4K TV.
I uninstalled Walking Dead No Man's Land. Smurfs Magical Meadow I have on minimum maintenance. He aliens one is reaching the pay to play scale, otherwise it's progressing piecemeal. Gruelling. Obvious pay to play scale is obvious. There's an upcoming Breaking Bad app that I pre-registered for. Lord of the Rings complete and total shutdown on June 6. That's psychologically devastating! Lord of the Rings app shutdown based withdrawal symptoms, the usual separation anxieties, followed with suicide, in all likelihood when that shuts down. It was one of the few reasons I had to go on living. Not really. These PVP games, if I'm multi auto battling all the time just get points to level up, then I'm just going through the motions and it's a subconscious way of telling myself that I'm halfway to uninstalling it. That is the point that its gotten to with Lord of the Rings. Maybe the next Lord of the Rings app will include world building.
RIP Peter Mayhew. Chewbacca. "You said it, Chewie."
One man builds a submarine to go to Antarctica. Why not just use it within a ten Mile radius. Most people would be happy with that. Antarctica? Why do they want to see? The underwater alien antenna? The underwater alien pyramid? Most people would be happy to build a go kart using some wood and planks found at a scrapyard. A submarine?! While another man survives falling into what is described as one of the world's most active volcanos. What, is he Anakin Skywalker? 'The world's most active volcano. I think I'll visit that! I got nothing better to do.' Antarctica and a volcano. That reminds me of Game of Thrones, Fire and Ice.
Every month, the equivalent of a population of a small town commit suicide. Every year, the population of a large city. Every ten years, the population of a large country. Every 100 years, the population of a large continent. In the afterlife, I would go to a realm of millions of people, every last one of them committed suicide. Most people would think there would be a feeling of incompleteness. But a mindseth of righteous indignation and neutralization of past actions would be elevated to an art there, if not perfected to a science,like in the novel, What Dreams May Come. "Sure, what if I completed my life? My life was going nowhere anyways and I acted on that. Good for me! The ideal was, my life was going somewhere. The reality was, it was going nowhere. The best years of my life were over and what was left was garbage. There wasn't anything worth sticking around for. Plus life had the bullshit trappings of that dimensional structure including eating, needing to shop for groceries, going to the bathroom, worries about dying. All that is gone and irrelevant in this dimension I'm in now. The people who mourned me did so out of ignorance. I came up with a lot of answers they didn't. They are ignorant of the algorithm of the physics of this dimension and other dimensions. The time algorithm, all is happening simultaneously, they never put into words like I did. They mourn me, maybe they do, maybe they don't, but they never had to live my problems so their misplaced mourning is based on sympathy rather than empathy." That's what I would say after my entry into the afterlife. Also I read disclaimers on website after website, they can distribute your work and not be entitled to pay you any compensation. Anything you send them becomes their intellectual property. What a sleazy fascist set up, what a vampiric scene. Better death than that. Something like that is enough to send anyone into a suicidal thoughts spiral. Anthropocene era problems. I would ask God himself to send me the most lethal and virulent demon death dispatcher. Send me the Angel of Death. I'd rather be dead than exploited like that. A thousand times over. I go on the internet in some misplaced misguided bid to get enough quick money so I can leave this backwater town and go to Bangkok, but instead wind up getting no money and thus exploited. I'd like to kill the guy who suggested I get on the internet. The ones who never would bother to contribute anything to the internet, internet volunteerism, are the smart ones. Internet volunteerism equals exploitation. Problem is, I've contributed years of stuff to the internet. A gold mine. But get no money back. Fuck God. Fuck life. Fuck the energies of this life! If I had a choice, I'd throw my life away because a life like that is worthless. I'm still determined to procure some heroin and give up on life. If you think I'm bluffing or you think this is psychodrama, why not connect me with some heroin and call my bluff. I'm willing to gamble on an existence in the afterlife. My life is going nowhere. All my life has ever been is one shit scene after another. There is no hope in my life. You still don't believe me about the heroin, do you? I said, send me some and we'll find out together if I end my life with an overdose. Do it!
The anthropocene age vs the age of the dinosaurs. The dinosaur era and the anthropocene era have many overlapping problems. The need to eat, genital based problems etc. Dinosaurs were aware. Humans are aware that they are aware. Some humans though, are aware that they are aware that they are aware. With this awareness comes the consciousness necessary to bring about the presence of mind that the value of life is finite, because it is finite. This type of awareness is a necessary prerequisite for suicide. Dinosaurs didn't do themselves in. They lacked the higher level of consciousness, even after 150 million years. So what? Alligators, sharks and cockroaches have been around longer than that and neither did they.
Give it the old British 'go'. Give it a go, yeah.
Over the years, a lot of restaurants opened. But how many became McDonalds or Tim Hortons or KFC? Lots of rock bands have been formed over the decades but how many became like Led Zeppelin or Fleetwood Mac? Of any business in any industry, 50% fail in the first year, 50% of that fail in the first five years and then 50% of what's left after that, fail in the first ten years. That leaves you with 12.5%. Of that, 50% are doing barely more than breaking even. Only 25% of that make the big money. That's 3%. Why shouldn't it be any different with YouTube? Only about 3% of uploaders see any real money at all. The rest get a pittance, grudgingly given. You think it's so easy to make money? If it was, no one working at any place you know now would be there. Why work 8 hours a day to make x amount of money when you could work 1 hour a day making a YouTube video and earn 100x? If everyone could do that, society would collapse, or else it'd be very different from what you know now.
YouTube and Google have a suppressive algorithm.
